not blogging for the time being.

have a blessed and fulfilling day ahead people. =)

thinking: how do you finish eating an elephant?
song: lullaby - my sassy girl

dear superman,

we understand your desire to keep up with the times or even come up with your own fashion statement but the answer is no, you cannot swap your red underwear as an outer piece to complement the electric blue body spandex suit, for something more disco electrifying no mater what you saw madonna wore.

yours superhumanly board of superhero conduct and ethics.

hahahahahahahahahah i got this from a local graphic magazine =p went for xmas drama, got to redraw some stuff again but less stuff to draw this time wor~ i think my sheep yokeling is evil. first, she laughs out loud when i show her my drawings of the props. then she thinks of what will happen if the props fall off and then laughs even louder in the already quite noisy s-11. yokies, you're evil.

my drafting ruler went missing today, in a very "mysterious" way. well believe it or not, God spoke to me regarding this missing ruler matter in a very obvious manner. yes God, i repent. *slaps forehead* feel stupid... and yes i deserve to fork out $12 for a new one -_-

nafa just built a new basketball court cum soccer court!!! yeah!!! i began to like the area around my school better these days! smu (great yong tau hu and mr tea!!! plus~ ahem* cute looking straight men to oogle at whahahaha), fortune centre has got great muffins \(^o^)/ rochor has got smooth melt in your mouth beancurd, claypot noodles and cafe le pastry (those moonpies!!!) and we have a korean grocery shop at paddington square just 10 mins walk down. and that huge 7-11 nearby where we buy our snacks and those hard to find meiji yogurt milk! and that newly opened kopi bean just outside kopitiam~ oh lord! thank you thank you thank you!!! well, provided i have the time to visit these places cos most of the time, we'll be eating at that tiny measly kopitiam downstairs so that we can rush back to school to complete our projects. doh.

meihwa and ace, i hope you like the muffins! cos i like them too!!!

thinking: been having thoughts of my future as a designer? housewife? church planter?
song: cao ge's superwoman

its possible to handle. its possible to overcome. it's possible to achieve. everything is possible with God right? right ^^.

was sharing with abi about feeling absolutely duh~ because of the stupid things i've said, done and acted out. i regreted so many times. every single decision we make now will make a difference in our future. whats yours? in God's eyes, not men's eyes. i certainly want to make the best decision.

went for wfl lesson. about divine authority. we learnt about how the world is held together by a thin line. authority - nature authority, social authority, religious authority etc. its a pretty chim lesson to understand but i must say this is one of the lessons that makes one think and understand God deeper.

thinking: -
song: all day

blogs are meant to edify people, not put people down. so why do some blog entries hurt? whilst some blog entries makes me laugh and some makes me frown but most of the time, i think there must be a line drawn, to respect a person's point of view. not pin point, thats when wisdom comes in, i remembered taking down a blog entry once due to the direct words/feelings i want to convey, hoping the opp party might read. but i didnt consider her feelings and by publishing it online, it doesnt help much and ultimately, i didnt respect her (our friendship was shaken due to this incident)... in the end, i talked to her 1 to 1, and apologised. and i finally learnt that sometimes, as much as we would like our readers to know about whats going on and stuff (good and bad), sometimes, if there's nothing good to blog about (but of cos, dont be fake and cover up everything or pretend everything is good), dont blog or maybe put it in your private journal. until you finally overcome the issue then you blog is also good because its a testimony after all =)

i made a call to my dear dear old friend. one whom i definitely look up to and listen. i'm never afraid of calling her even when its late at night because i know she'll be more than glad to listen no matter how tired, how late or how busy she is. through out the phone call, she just keep encouraging me. thanks listener =D

thank you for listening.
and thank you for sharing too.

our teachers finally group us for our final year project. tears from my classmates cos they didnt want to be in the group they're placed in. its easy to identify with them, when you're away form your close buddies and being placed in a new envoirnment, new people, not easy to adapt. but well, we just have to make the best out of situations like these. hey petite one, you'll be fine, no worries alrights...

when you have lemons, dont cry, make lemonade instead.

went to chinatown to get a drafting ruler. so i decided to share a bowl of A-balling with tiffany and yen... supposed to be a bowl of 6 mixed A-balling; durian, black sesame, peanut, red bean, yam and lian rong (any idea whats that in english). but there wasnt any peanut and red bean... and horrors! of all flavours i picked the durian one!!! how lucky~ >.<

thinking: we can be stronger. yes we can =)
song: -

those eyes, that set my heart racing
those eyes that stop me in my tracks
those eyes that got me all weak in the knees

mr bi hu's eyes lah!

eeeee!!!!! i saw a fat mature lizard resting on the top of the food cover lah! !(@*#&$^%. those who has been to my house will know that the kitchen table is situated directly outside the toilet. so i paused for a while, uncertain of my next step. should i just dash into the toilet or just wait for the lizard to move away. well seriously speaking, my first thought was, if i stepped into the toilet, will the lizard somehow "fly" in and stick itself on my head?! i know its ridiculous lah but still... -_-; anyways i chose the former. gross.

there's this man, man of God as everybody agrees, was hammering a nail into the wall. he noticed a little boy observing him for a long time. the man thought to himself,"that kid must be thinking, how serious i look, how careful i am, how diligent i am to do such a trivial job myself. ha~" the man turned around and asked the boy, "hey kiddo, you've been standing here for a long time observing me, so, whats in your mind?"

the boy replied,"i want to hear what you'll say when u hammer your fingers"

sometimes, it just take an accident to reveal the real inner self in us. are we conscious enough or do we just keep this self righteous mask on?

thinking: i was born to love you.
song: voice of hope

i wonder how would it be like if i could balance myself on one...


been taking pictures of clouds. they remind me of how beautiful God's creation is. something i've never appreaciate except for the shade they provide once a while. and so, with their different forms and different shades of grey-white, its amazing how these fluffy cotton candy looking forms can still mesmerise me.

a week has passed, and i slowly learn about security... secured in God, secured in His word and secured in His love... the song everyday "it's You i live for" made me stare at the screen for a while, it's You. not others. im reminded once again =)

my dad bought me a packet of chix rice for lunch today, and the first thing he said when he came inside the house was,"eh girl, quick eat your rice." before he put down his stuff and even take off his boots. the chix rice was expectionally fragrant and delicious, not because it's cheap or because i was very hungry but because he bought it for me. asian culture where hugs are rare but such tiny acts of love made me understand about how he show his love. i definitely treasure our relationship a lot these days, esp spending more time with him in the weekdays when we have breakfast together and then he driving me to school. watching tennis with him is a joy because we will cheer and groan when our favourite player is losing plus he teaches me how to count the scores and explain those tactics. and then when we watch those travel documentaries, he will point out to me and say, one day we will go there together... =)

to my dear friend... the who loves purple =D
always remember, God is with you at all times. you're never forsaken.

thinking: -
song: -

as good as it gets. God's love is incredible, powerful and unconditional. recently i heard a testimonial about how this person has overcame science, and through faith, she managed to beat all odds. all because of Christ. very inspiring.

for what? i held on tightly to a lot of things. when God told me to let go, i couldnt, so i kept on battling God. until i finally surrender. He wants me to let go so He can bless me with more... i just read meihwa's blog. i remember those times when we had our RISK 4010, becoming a unit, celebrating with hit biscuits and regionalization. those times when we have celebrations/tears/disappointments, we've managed to overcome everything. when God delivers, He delivers the best. i believe another wave of revival is coming, more people coming to know God, more cls rising, more problems and a more mature attitude when handling problems =) a DI service soon.

For This Cause

Hope has found its home within me
Now that I've been found in You
Let all that I am be all You want me to be'
Cause all I want is more of You

Let Your presence fall upon us
I want to see You face to face
Let me live forever lost in Your love'
Cause all I want is more of You
All I want is more of You

I'm living for this cause
I lay down my life
Into Your hands
I'm living for the truth
The hope of the world
In You I'll stand'
Cause all I want is You
All I want is
All I want is You
Jesus

im laying my life in your hands now. i feel lighter and closer. i want more.

thinking: =)
song: =)

been reading elizabeth george's loving God with all your mind for the past week. a healthy thought life comes out of a close relationship with God. and once we determine on what is truth and fact, we then can function according to these facts rather than feelings or fantasies. same as, trying hard to function while having a cold or fever is useless cos we all know how limited we can be when we're not healthy. same thing happens in the spiritual realm. like a virus, our thoughts have the ability to drain our energy and disable our thoughts.

i fight battles everyday, waking up from the comfortable bed, to refraining from watching my late night tennis matches to stop snacking to logging off from the msn to reading His word. but one that can really cripple me actually comes from the mind. pessimistic or negative. i believe that the one from below input many thoughts. subtle ones to strong hints, but both just as false as that fella himself.

like our relationship with God, our ownselves, and with others, all needed to be guided by phil 4:8 (kjv) whatsoever things are true... think on these things women (who tends to be more sensitive) who thinks on what is real, do not spend time analysing or guessing what others are thinking or saying or showing. such thoughts do extreme damages that we may even not notice. by guessing often involves interpreting and this often leads to distorting words and actions of others. and while trying to read into other's words/actions rather than accepting what they do at face value, we're indirectly thinking that the person is a liar. as long as the thought is unhealthy aka negative. quit it immediately. but ask yourself. what is true?

so how do we love God with our mind? choosing to trust what the bible reveals about God and asking Him to replace any fears, doubt, anxiety with the truth from the WOG. the bible teaches about His love, wisdom,patience, forgiveness, redemption and ultimate victory - speaks directly to our concern about the past, present and future because of God's constant and unconditional love for us.

alrights, this book is really good and im only into the first 1/4 of the book =) been reading matthew again. the parable of the sower... the heart condition matters a lot.

dang!)@(#*$&%^!!! gonna miss the ultimate tough match between the 2 belgiums justine henin hardenne and kim clijsters later on!!! zzz...

btw, i met a bubby gal in pink on wed night =D ah~ lovely lovely gal.

alrights, going off for cg later on... games at rooftop carpark. how cool is that?!

thinking: mac milkshake gave me the runs. but i still crave for it. heh.
song: -

hey, to the one who called last night. thank you. =)

and to the one who smsed me in the morning, while still running a fever. =D

john 15: 4

thinking: listening.
song: -

another bites the dust~ love clay court matches, with the players are sliding across the sand, biting the dust of their compeitors or rather, the court is red, my favourite colour. ahem... dewen might throw me stones for this but... sharapova is out!!! ok anyways. henin-hardenne is in!!! was watching second seed nadal's match against mathieu last night till i dozed off... during the third set, their points were 3-3 and they were just stuck there cos both side keep getting deuce... anyways nadal won after a tough match (mathieu's just as good) =) and there was this new chinese female player jie zhang who tends to shout "AH HEY". it's pretty hilarious if you imagine putting both zhang and sharapova who's one of the loudest hailers together in a match. sure very noisy one. heh.

alrights, more matches coming up. finale 10/11 june. must watch!!! $1.9 million for each winner. this is the 1st year where they give the same amount of prize to the winners. previous years, men receive more than women. what!!! we female rock can!!! men, learn from this... In 1973 Billie Jean King beat Bobby Riggs in three straight sets after he challenged her to a match where he boasted of his superior male attributes. 3 STRAIGHT sets. muahahahaha

talked to candy about movies. old movies, ah~ one flew over the cuckoo's nest... candy, i pray that you will be able to get life is beautiful okie! so that i can borrow it from you hahahah

alrights, school term is starting soon. hooray i can see my school mates again!!!

success is determine by how high you bounce when you fall

thinking: i cant wait to see who will enter the final of french open.
song: mighty river - the katinas

forgive me if i sound harsh.

i know people do read blog entries but do make sure, after reading, keep your mind clear and quit gossiping about whether the person is doing well or not. (it seems to me these funny people somehow take delight in whether the person left church or not) in fact, dont even think negative about the person, we should pray for them instead. i can close one eye about what i've heard but i pray that one day you will realise how much hurt you had lavish on others by spreading "bbc/cnn" news. so put yourself in other's shoes and go to their level of pain and try to understand sometimes... certainly not dig for more news for your own ears...

someone asked me before, whether i was bitter with God. so when struggles came along, do i get agitated with everything/everyone or simply surpress my anger with God? its surprising that this holiday is filled with events that i've never expected. or rather, never know that i might encounter them myself... it's rather funny that just when i thought everything is fine and proceeding, gosh, i should have smack myself in the head. precisely when everything's fine, something's is brewing behind.

i had a talk with my sister this morning, something to apply... to say no. saying no is better than saying yes and in the end cant deliver anything. just like that, people choose to give up whilst some people continue on. everyone wants to be part of God's plan but how many actually stayed on? actually the recent happenings did stumble me and for once i didnt know what how to react... again, last night i just didnt know what to pray or talk to God about. it's not even a cross junction, its... i dont know...

btw, dont anyhow interpret what i blog about, thats precisely what the 1st paragraph is for. same goes to God's plan, if you're not walking closely to God, chances are, what you're interepting as God's vision/plan is your own rational thoughts.

1 corinthians 9:26-27 (therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. no, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize)

we age physically so must our maturity level must increase too.

i know i have to keep on fighting. and not beating the air.

so, fight on germs. spread your bacteria around.

thinking: better late than never

song: my romance - CFNI