ecp was exceptionally quiet in the morning, with the morning sun and breeze minus the crowd, wha... i kept on humming the song, my creator king...

thats mingyi, yen, maureen and me =)



*ahem* trying to pose funny but ended up looking... oh wells, that's mingyi, my class rep and personal baker =D she bakes some mean brownies and bread! didnt take any pictures with yen and maureen though... yen is one funny person, infectious laughter and one of the prettiest thing ive ever seen =D and maureen, the kind, caring and generous friend and... she certainly doesnt look like she's over 25!

came back from the xmas drama briefing, it's really really cool. laughters and the thought of making the drama a fantastic one is what our common goal is...

when one wants to do something for the kingdom, usually we're met with obstacles almost immeditely. but its ok. im standing firm, rooted to the ground. though sometimes im kinda tired by certain issues which never seem to dissolve but it's ok. again i say this. i refuse to give up.

pop was funny on sunday. he suddenly called out," ORH KI! ler ai buay simi her (hey MOLEly! what kinda fish do you want to buy?" afterwhich fiona and i kept looking around to see which customer was that... yes we saw the mole... but hello papa. no need to call out orh ki right? my dad smugly replied... why not? ive been calling her that for the past 30 over years... now that gives me a really good idea what to call one of the drama character...

thinking: prayer walk tmr!
song: my creator king~

i always thought i have self control over certain things. until i saw the ugly part of me surface during bball. i pointed at someone at the face (i really dislike rudeness and i deeply emphasis on politeness and what is this?) and i kinda lost control because the people were late and... i got so ashamed of myself that i couldnt cont playing after a while. i told God, "i'm sorry."

im not exactly the best in bball though i've always been thick skinned enough to reveal my glorious past (ahem, we made it into the top 8 in Singapore okay... way back in 1999 lah hahahah) but my actions always fail me in the end, resulting in miah saying: germaine hen lan de. -_-' and job saying: right and you're the bench warmer lor~ well... hahahahah im lan but im no bench warmer okie! anyways, next week! bball!!! im glad to see my sheep playing, even jane wanted to jog but... she wore slippers... xueqi playing badminton and went jogging with me and then for yokes... she sat there, absorb some sun and burning some fats i assume... oh wells, richard is the my... my kinda player =D plays very well and... laughing all the way, making the whole game really fun and light hearted =)


watched 8 femme last night, woo lala with catherine deneuve, emmanuelle beart, fanny ardent and virginie leyoden in it, its even better. good plot and the polydi camp drama was inspired by 8 femme actually... gotta change some of the drama plot.

set a time slot to start jogging tmr morning. i need to shed those kilos seriously. im excited. for di2. even the smallest mustard seed can grow to be the biggest tree. so can we =D jiayou!!!

thinking: 7 days left for hols!
song: pink martinque

"men without vision will perish"

whats your vision?

can you persevere it through?

will you enjoy tough times and appreciate good times?

will you still keep your promise of taking care of each other no matter what?

i hope to see the rest of you when i turn 60, wrinkly and toothless. friends are for life. no matter where you go, no matter how far, no matter what...

thinking: di2. will trive on no matter what.
song: ...

my classmate told me that i dont have to rush or struggle for my projects, because usually i will just *birth* out some designs and it'll be selected no matter what. last minute work? no problem. i can handle it. another classmate asked me whether i've done my project = 4 illustrations for the turf club contest. nope, not yet, only 4 designs what~ i replied. but behind the nope and the only, was a conceited and arrogant thought. because of past designs which got into certain contest or got selected. humility fell. i'm ashamed to say that though i kept on saying it's God who gave me the creative juices, i've forgotten to give thanks to Him.

jeremiah 17:9-10
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? I the LORD search the heart and examine the mind, to reward a man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve.

many times i curse in my heart, getting angry over the tiniest stuff such as, being impatient when someone is speaking too slowly, when the person is not faithful, when the person doesnt reply sms on time... when the person when the person... but have i really understand where the person is coming from? prob the person had something important to do first, prob the person really forgotten or perhaps, the person, well i dont know, but i do know something, how come i've never think that i might be the one who is not faithful, not doing things on time, not being patient enough and instead i kept on pushing the blame to others?

someone very important to me reprimanded me about forgeting to copy down certain stuff and then saying this, you're not a responsible person. you will never learn to be one. it hurts.

i was asked to do something for the upcoming polydi camp. was busy enough with my projects deadlines and then ok, i'll still do it. but when the instructions came in, interpretations and very different explainations from different people didnt help much. it made me nearly want to vomit blood on the train and seriously scream at the people. went home and opened my email and read a message about being faithful (pls dont take this personally =) ) immediately, i stormed out of my room, tired, body aching from bending over the table for the past day, no dinner, feeling sorry about myself and then started to get angry and pissed off for not being able to fulfill everything im being asked to do. you know, im really affected by the message. but can i see where the person is coming from? and does the person know where im coming from? immediately i smsed the person and asked not to reply back.

i refuse to give in and give up. should sometime something happened that might stir up my not very gentle spirit, the first thing i look for or do, is to walk away and urgh about it. this time, after the walk away and urgh about it. i'll add in the action part. repent.

i'm still a bit unhappy but i know i still have to keep breathing and on keep exchanging a lot of unhappiness with God. i dont want any bitterness to start because it will eventually kill a person.

thinking: caregroup memories... bring along your kleenex this friday...
song: this is your song... not mine...

today, i believed i've slimed down... after walking to and fro from big splash ha! good time for excercising =) today di2 have 2 h20 babies!!! we have... *drum roll* vicki aka xueqi and abigail aka abigail!!! pweet~ so glad today... spend quality time with jane and yokies too and of cos, the water babies and the rest of the group. though during dinner after service, we will usually eat together but during h20 baptism its a different thing, somehow people will become closer, run amok together, carry bags for one another, gosh... i began to love this group even more =) after everything, we were so exhausted, especially after singing *we love you~ deep down in our hearts* for like... more than 10 x? every single one of the baptizee deserve the song personally ya =D hahaha while the rest of di went home or for pnw prac, jane and i decided to play soccer but when we went there, we decided to forfeit it. so in the end jane went to bb and i to tiong bahru, the rest of the di went to... pizza hut!!! grrr...

went for dinner and we had beancurd~ ooohhh love beancurd and after eating, we sat down to chat and laugh about certain funny incidents that happened recently... because my sister is not attached yet so you know lah, at the fish stall, those aunties and ah por sure kaypoh a bit and try to matchmake for my sister and so, the aunties will lias with my pop... especially when those aunties are so persistant like as if they are selling their son as if he's a piece of hot cake (i meant in a funny way not sacarsm ) and my pop will usually say ok because it's just not nice to say no because it's rude and it's not as if your son is not good enough for my daughter etc...

so in the end this auntie came and asked my dad about my sister and she brought a photo along... and the best part is this... read this aloud in hokkien/teochew... and i think this is super funny lah.

auntie: johnny ah (my pops's english name. very cool can~ ) wa gia photo lai liao.
pop: oh ok. eh sai, wa gia tung lai kor yi toui.
auntie: btw, yi gai mia ghior si mi? yi sior simi?
pop: yi gai mia si yvonne, sior tou.
aunite: oh labbit!!! wa su gak labbit!!!

the table shook... the kweks laughed...

thinking: projects... must finish asap!!!
song: song for whoever - beautiful south

an overwhelming feeling came all over me. i can't describe it. i know it's love. unconditional love.

valentine's day. i'm really happy to spend it with my family and mr j.c.

have a wonderful valentine's day people =)

thinking: out of abundence the heart speaks. what's hanging on your lips my friend?
song: love song for a saviour

finally, a breather on sat morning, sabbath day for me =)

watched i not stupid 2 with the dians last night. overall, the first sentence that appeared on the screen was," when was the last time you've praised someone" spoke to me a lot. i realised, because in church we're always encouraging one another, somehow, we feel closer to our church family than to our own family... it's easier to share those deep deep secrets with our shepherd rather than our own family members... then how come we feel distance from our own family?

my family is considered a close knitted one. despite the age gap, generation difference, i think we all do try our very best to communicate with one another. though arguements and cold wars do come round once a while but it usually dissolves as long we put our pride down.

finally, the new di restructure is out. it's cool =D di will grow better and bigger in a more efficient way too. new challenges, new struggles and new people. no matter where you serve, you're serving God not men. and as long as you keep to the fundamental way of being a christian = walking closely to God, you'll enjoy every single bit of your life.

it took me 3 years to realise the ground where im working at is actually the best for me. the grass on the other side is definitely not greener and neither is my own thoughts doing me any good because somehow i keep on computering my own thoughts to think that the other side is the best side. you know, the moment you decided to really let go and you really do let go. you tend to stand up better, breathe better, think better and live better.

karen told me this... i cant help but laugh loudly. join me yeah.
karen bought clairol herbal essence shampoo, the fruity flavoured kind. after using it, fruit flies started to swarm towards her... hahaha oops...

the link for the tshirt design http://slmoh.multiply.com/ my design is the 5th one. the girl wearing a jacket with a hood.

btw, i shamelessly asked my dad for a gift on my birthday... after i told him... he gave me a dirty look before saying yes... whahahahaha and when i told the di2 and the cls... they too gave me a dirty look and laughed... erm... i asked for... a home baked kueh lapis. nothing wrong what...

thinking: lo hei and steamboat at my house later!!!
song: celine dion's where does my heart beats now... sheesh this song been stuck in my head since saturday morning...

alrights!!! my first posting of pictures =)

this is my pop!!! the honour of being the first person to be featured on my blog is bestowed on him =D he's 56 this year, doesnt look like it right? i really do love him a lot =) oh btw, i got my huge nose and those lips from him hahaha, the kwek family special features... church mates can take a look at wee kim, my cousin in adult service who stand as a perfect example of how a kwek member look like =)

and this is jack! wee kim's nephew and my cousin!!! he just smile and smile and smile all day long~ ji adorable yi xia wor~

ah~ going for sec school gathering later on =D i cant wait to see mar and the rest!

my pop was watching lord of the rings, the return of the king - the part when sam helped froddo all the way up the mountain. it makes me remember this...

you're never too heavy for me to carry and you'll never be left behind...

how many times do we put someone down just because that person did something wrong or just because the person and us cannot communicate or so called age gap, language barrier, not the same level etc?

i definitely need to learn...

no thinking and no song... it's good to take a rest from thinking too much redundant stuff and taking a break from everything instead =)

my body is aching like... -.-

but im super happy inside out. because...

(1) di2 have a convert!!! abigail is her name. and she's going to nafa!!!
(2) my t shirt design for germany for fifa 2006 was chosen as the top 20!!!
(3) had a great overnight with livi and pearls!!!
(4) my dad and my sis is coming home tonight!!! (well actually i'm not really that excited about them coming home hahaha more likely towards the goodies im getting from them whahahaha)

zzz... very tired... ciaos people...zzz

thinking: i want my tcc's salmon linguine... kkkrrr
song: love song for a saviour - i want to fall in love with you...