auld lang syne

2006, a year of wonderful memories, good and bad. precious yet painful. rekindled friendships, created new bonds and cried buckets along the way. but the best thing, was the prodigal daughter's journey back home. im looking forward to 2007 =)

to all,

happy new year!

love
g

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i was nearly in shock and speechless when i received my gift during my family xmas gift exchange dinner. ns's raymond and jason (siblings) plus my siblings cannot stop laughing when i ripped open my gift. let me decribe it to you. it's heavy, looks really expensive on the outer layer and with a huge glittery snowflake as a decoration, "this for sure is hou liao" i thought. YA MAN. hou liao it is. its a......... A PACKET OF BISCUIT. *flips* hahaha even my dad was super amused with my PACKET OF BISCUIT. nvrm, its the THOUGHT that counts hahaha. my dad received the gift of the year. a super slick samsung handphone. wha... his face very hao lian lor, he was beaming away la, and when i showed him my BISCUIT, he let out a snigger and then cont to admire his phone. thanks dad. and to my dearest sisters, thank you for the gifts, the wonderful dinner and everything else =D

east's cg at our new convert jessa's house last night. super fun i tell you. the praise and worship was excellent and it's good to be back and mingle around with the techno kid, the panting deer and everyone else =D took 88 home with abigail, had a nice talk while browsing her camera's photos (it stores a whole entire year of church and di events photographs). hey abi, 2 more months and it'll be your one year old birthday as a believer and a hope member ^_^ cont to grow well, maximise your life to the fullest alright?

during di's christmas's countdown, a clip was shown. the faces that we all love and cherished. i really hope to serve with u all again, hand in hand...

dear friend,

yeah you, the one who's always secretly reading my blog entries. the one with DA sexy lips xD, the one who cried with di3 when we had broke fast illegally with muffins. you're being missed deeply by all of us. sms me when your read this ok =) dont break my heart, i'm always waiting for your replies =)

btw, the BISCUIT taste nothing like how it looked. one bite and our faces were screwed. thank you ah sister. hahahah~

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不知道是良心发现还是过意不去. 但我想我也开始慢慢懂了什么是爱, 接受和容忍. 所以, 忍一时, 风平浪静, 退一步, 海阔天空.

买了手提灯和一件蓝色的t-shirt给我老爸. 也吃了我最爱的花生酱waffle. 心情还满开心的.

:: 因为有祢, 我的人生才变得美丽的 ::

JOYEUX NOEL!

they're home ^^

the joy of seeing people walking to the front stage after altar call is indecribable. amidst all the late nights, the lack of sleep and the waiting time, it is still worth it. i really dont know how to explain, either resting behind the stage or sitting at the balcony of kallang theatre, seeing people walking down or towards the stage, the feeling inside is rather ticklish yet excited =D you can sense it in your bones. you can feel the joyness in the air. xmas, season of giving and loving =D

this drama has allow me to know more people and experience more about how drama should be run. the preparation, the timeline, the communication skills within. im heart drama. kiasu but i've already ask kin wee whether i can help out again for next year xD

ever since livi has moved out of the holland v central hq, i havent been spending time with dewen and junyao. morever now being in different services, its even harder to catch up. so through this production, it was like back to 4 years ago, lotsa of crapping around and making fun of each other. i really wanna affirm these 2 brothers (even though junyao is not around and im taking a risk because affirming will make his already big head swell even more HAHAHA~) for being such a joy in my life. oh by the way, dewen has already confirm to be my wedding entertainer on my wedding day. everybody's gonna have a ball~

he said we looked like we're offerings something to the gods, but we lack of joss sticks and some chicken...

we're seriously trying to *gek* the look super happy expression for our photographer JoN =)

drama pics coming up soon. once i rec the photos from the *serpent and the *lion

holidays start lo~supposed to celebrate xmas's coutndown. but boo something cropped up. i overslept. im so sorry... next wek's new year countdown okay? tmr's my xmas breakfast with daddy! xmas potluck dinner at night. tues night post xmas ss celebration! wed's salvation army for proj sourcing and dewen's bday celebration (he win la! 3 days and 3 nights of bday celebration). thurs: proj and fri: proj. -_-'

i received some gifts, from livi, meihwa and jaime. =D thank you so much!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

:: L-O-V-E by nat king cole ::

im excited xD

:: i'll be home for christmas - aimee ::

good morning!

prayer meet's lesson on monday nights says, (reword) "control your emotions, dont allow the dont feel like to take over you" alrights, i finished cutting my stinking calico last night even though i dont feel like it. i finished drafting even though i dont feel like it. i didnt want to switch off the tv even though i dont feel like it. i didnt want to wake up even though yes... i dont feel like it. no wonder im such a procrastinator at times. a change would do me good. indeed.

i left 1 1/2 hours to power shop after school and before i meet joanne for rehearsal. i shall wear my wonder woman tee! no time right? wonder woman to the rescue~

i realised that i really do stick to my ultimatums after all, im impressed that i can actually stick to what im persistant and whatever im focusing on. alrights here's one more. no im not gonna elaborate.

as much as i dont feel like it, seriously speaking. i must stop. so... hao ba... byebye...

:: santa baby - eartha kitt (repeat mode ha!) ::

i couldnt resist blogging this down ^^

g's list

i've just drawn out a list of names and categorised them under family, church and friends. every year there are definitely people whom i will always write cards to. esp people like dewen because he's a christmas baby so no matter what, i just cannot siam la. and when dewen receives a card, you must give one to junyao too because he'll make noise and say why you give dewen and not me? we come in a pair you know!!! im kidding junyao. you will def receive one from me. just like every year. sooo... where's mine?! hahaha anyways, back to my list. i've decided to be more personal this time round than like previous years where i just rush through all the cards. i've scale down the number to a small 35. hahaha i can foresee that g's arms will ache... see lah last minute work... but excited still!!!

yvonne help bought some baking chocolate for xmas gifts. it started from last year when my cg decided to give out cute nicely wrapped chocolate cupcakes to our visitors. this time, i shall make it more personal. so whomever receive a nicely wrapped chocolate, it means that you're very dear to me wor! and those who dont? it means i've run out of chocolate and moolah lah... hee~

oh in case you're wondering what i want for christmas, here's my huge list (seen through highlighting) hahaha!!! pls dont get me picture frames, soft toys, smelly soap bars and purpose driven life book (i've received 3 last year! xD) real tiffany and co, blumarine and chanel items are graciously welcome though... HAHAHA~

hugs and kisses!!!

the list is life. that was the movie schindler's list main tagline, whoever is on the list, gets a chance to live. same, we all have a list. a list of people's names we want to bring to cross the line. who's on your list? this christmas, bring someone to know Jesus ^^

:: santa baby - eartha kitt ::

roar?

:: rudolph the red nose reindeer - ella fitzgerald ::

yeah pops going to church tonight!!!

some random thoughts...

present : P and 3D

future: old people ministry and muffin shop

whats yours?

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kopi is a die die then drink last resort as a perk me up injection for projects deadline. but apparently in the end i'll drink plain water instead as i know caffeine usually gives me heart palpitations and fainting spells and usually the headache will flow over to the next day and at the same time i'll feel nauseous as well. but nooo, i chose to drink kopi last night with loads of milo powder thinking that i can neutralise the caffeine effect. instead, almost immediately i fell asleep with a headache. and now, 24 hours has passed and i still cant sleep. neither can i start my work. i feel high. and i feel terrible too. head's heavy, and my heart cant stop beating fast lah.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

boo... dinner with joN has been postponed again and again. next weeeeek must must must!!!

ok. enough of crap. im going back to work.

:: feeling christmassy already =D ::

QB? nooo YP better.
yen @ werk

happy birthday kevin!!!
g and dingyue xD

g and andy!

those are my ex classmates from nafa. dingyue is still in nafa while both kevin and andy just POP. super happy, enjoying their leave right now *shiok* good to see them again =)

2 more weeks before 4 weeks of holidays (last day of school = 22 dec -.-' anyways we're going back to school so... not much diff >.<... projects deadline; this week and next >.<... graduating soon, really looking forward to a week long worth of sleep or perhaps a trip to taipei too? but no moolah no taipei. boo... my teacher encouraged me to take up the degree course for next year, chop chop study for a year then straight to work. thinking through... i think i'll work for 2 years first so that i can pay the fees myself. decisions...

saw a shooting star on monday night. it was almost surreal. never seen one before and was quite shocked to see one. it's bright, white in colour and there's a greenish hue trailing behind. very pretty and cool lah~

my eldest sis came up to me and said. wanna hear a joke? *grins*

g: alright
sis: what did sashimi A told sashimi B?
g: we're dead.
sis: no, its wasabi~ (whats up bay *babe* - pun intended)
g: brrr.... (very bad pun. waaay baaad)

invite people for xmas okie! invite!!!

:: mighty to save. indeed ::

Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV)

The LORD your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with his love, He will rejoice over you with singing.

You're the wind beneath my wings. my Friend, my Confidant, my God.

Without You im nothing.

deliver me.

my ultimatum: i wont breathe a word anymore. i wont =(

:: ::

my loves

miniature schnauzer + chihuahua parents = oscar the tyrant

i first received this as a gift when i was in sec 2. lost it on the train a couple of months later (damn sad lah)... 6 years later, i saw this online and kexin's roomate helped me get it. price increased by ten bucks. EXcluding his air ticket to singapore, total = $35. but its worth it. 6 years of waiting for this fella and always keeping a look out online is not easy but hard work pays off.

ever since sanrio stop producing keroppi in 1991, i got slightly depressed... so i started to vent my bitterness against his mouthless friend hello kitty. everywhere and everytime i see a shop selling that horrible breeding kitty, i would secretly wish that they will not make any sales and if possible, write a letter or something to pester sanrio to resurrect froggie again. but noooooo, kitty got bigger~ even her pet aka charmy kitty (what kinda name is charmy?!) have her own line of products. crap. hahaha cant find keroppi nowadays except for pasar malam fakes. really very fake. haiyo... i even keep my keroppi chopsticks and stickers from primary school days... such sentimental heartfelt feelings...

watched eternal sunshine of a spotless mind some time ago. quite impressed with jim carrey's acting. memories are to be kept and cherished. why delete it?

=)

:: paul baloche - greater song ::

HAPPY!!!

who killed santa 2 is uber fun man! despite eeky insect bites, siam-ing of toads, the aching of the legs after running, sticky clothes on your skin and air conditioned room stinking to the high heavens... it's a blast lah!!! enjoyed every single moment of it =D after that, we all went for prata!

we won "who killed santa 2" and my visitor yong kwang, has crossed the line of faith today!!!

allow me to introduce yong kwang. knew him since he was 10 in tuition class. those time when we (my classmates and i) would disturb him, share sweets with him, gave him a nickname which i still call him by... time flies and now he's taller than me... i've always wanted a younger brother which who will carry my heavy bag, run errands and do dirty jobs for me *im kidding la* but anyways, yeah!!!



NANDE??!!! very applicable to today's sermon point.

there's a stirring in my heart with what i saw on friday night. my heart skipped. im excited. D³.

dinner with J aka joN on friday!!! and image for next week!!! =DDDDDDDDDD

:: He is mighty to save ::

okay.

more projects. more money spent -_-"

computer dying soon. meaning, camping in school is inevitable wwwwwhhhhhaaaaa~~~~~ =(

drama rehearsal is fun. people are hardworking, funny yet serious about their roles =)

one confirmation for who killed santa 2 =D

:: tupac - changes ::

tommy emmanuel's angelina is amazingly beautiful.



for a song title angelina sounds very sweet lah... imagine a song titled germaine. a bit lao tu... anyways i loved the way he plays the guitar, the passion and the way he's enjoying himself thoroughly...

it's pretty intimidating to walk into high end boutiques, let alone ask for enquiries. our project: go to an A list boutique, touch, wear and take a picture of the selected item (if possible) and write a report about it. we went into the shops at Forum. Blackjack, Max Mara, Emporio Armani, D&G and Colette ( the last 2 has got very polite staff), but still, scary la... i dont even dare to touch any stuff there in case i dirtied it and have to pay an ungodly four figure sum for that furry pair of gloves... but then again, i dont mind paying an ungodly four figure sum for a pair of manolo blahniks heh...

gotta come up with a list of names for xmas cards and gifts! now na has moved out, bon suggested that on christmas night, we'll all celebrate together. the fun part, its a potluck xmas celebration!!! =D

every morning, i'll read the life section of the straits time first before proceeding on to the rest. it was the same today. bad news on the doorstep... can i g, do something about it? my teacher said something today which stirred my heart. she said (reword)," i love to teach. and if i could impact at least one person in my lifetime, i'll die happy."

g: i want and can impact the world too.

God, teach me how and guide me along. certain things i need to change and improve, certain issues i need to resolve. and to love consistantly.

:: i've got 2 confirmation for xmas!!! ::

as you can see FMM 6B1 snack a lot during pattern making class and since we're too lazy to lift the lid so we *1 sai* with all our might... ha!

the "mollyqueens" on wheels
and cindy, my tiniest friend, on heels... =P

kexin and germaine

went for auntie vivian's birthday with kexin at golden mile's steamboat (one of my fav place for steamboat) on thurs. known kexin for like more than a decade ever since primary school. cant help but keep laughing when we saw each other. great food and great company =)

talked to J till my ears ache. hahaha but i believed that it was a good talk. lotsa of sharing and laughing. hey J, your vision has opened my eyes that there are more than what i see. i understand now that there's more than what i want to do. its what i need to do =D had silk screen printing class on friday. interesting but fun. drafting on sat morning. then off to bugis for men's wear research. went for ss (you guys did great for pnw) and then head off to home

i went to my fav spot in the house. talked to God for a while. He assured me and told me that He's always there. Holy Spirit prompt me on the way im reacting towards a particular person... but i'm glad i've obeyed Him.

going to na's house later on!!! pics galore! but now its projects galore...

:: God, my 3D and people ::

i miss lucy every single day.

and i will miss na too.

jingmin bought a box of mint chocolate sticks for me *thank you* and while i heart mint, oscar heart everything.

i wanna get that set of books from kino. $125. daylight robbery. heck, im gonna save up and buy it.

:: sigh ::

finally on sale. bought this with a huge smile on my face. saw the book, shall buy it soon =)

early xmas gift from g to g. ha!

for $1.50, this low fat milk doesnt even taste thin... superb.
you wont want to try the kopi flavour. trust me on this.

diet plans. what's that?

i decided to treat myself better these few weeks with makan sessions, before i succumb to digestive biscuits and starve myself in school rushing those drafts and sew smelly mock ups. red star's dim sum, bakerzinn's desserts, miss clarity cafe's western food and home cooked prawn party was good. all these feasting shall end next week. till then...

LET ME EAT FIRST BEFORE I GO SIAO CAN???!!!!
who cares about losing weight anyways... pfft...
dang... i still do lah >.<

:: HAHAHA so much for perserverance ::

amazing grace

amazing grace, how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch like me
i once was lost, but now am found
was blind, but now i see

twas grace that taught my heart to fear
and grace my fears relieved
how precious did that grace appear
the hour i first believed

through many dangers, toils and snares
we have already come
tis grace has brought me safe thus far
and grace will lead me home

the Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
as long as life endures

yes, when this flesh and heart shall fail
and mortal life shall cease
i shall possess, within the veil
a life of joy and peace

the earth shall soon dissolve like snow
the sun forbear to shine
but God, who call'd me here below
will be forever mine

i thought i was meticulous enough to think of a plan that will ensure success and to achieve what i want with my carefully planned scripted rehearsed questions and answers. i am so wrong. God's plan will never change =) im really awed by His grace. really. a lot of things happened in the past week. friendships tested, trust brokened and tears flowed. and because confrontation is something i'm always avoiding, i had to face them twice within a week. directly face to face. buddy said, you have to learn. so learn from these confrontations. aye aye captain =) and this song, amazing grace reminds me once again that His grace had already led me home...

:: zzz ::

ahhh quit editing my picture!!!
CHARGE! LEBENSRAUM!
gimme that belt or i'll rip your spandex undies off!
WATCH Fahrenheit 9/11½! And quit moorewatching will ya?!

$)#*@&!(%^!!!

I AM THE REAL GENE SIMMONS!

DONT FORCE ME! IM HOLDING BACK THE GAS!

cool... perhaps next post shall be xiao pang's edited pictures.

physically tired... body's aching. i wanna go for massage soon...

na is moving out soon... to east coast, hmm gonna miss her for a while before getting used to having one room to myself again...

:: projects ::

dear God,

i'm awed. by You.

yours
g

:: ::

YEAHOO!!! EXAMS OVER!!! but projects still on... pfft...

i just made dinner plans with ah mu, j, vivi and auntie fong hahahahahahahahahah i'm super pleased la. plus both pearline and my bestie are coming back from aussie... im super excited. my mouth cant stop curling =D

took a ride in the underground tunnel to bugis for dinner. thought about what i've observe during basketball today. we always want to be in the winning team. any idea why? i know, nobody wants to lose. but even being in the winning team but not participating much, its like rubbing the shoulders of the champions and not do anything... a bit no accomplishment... the feeling is different too... why huh? anyways i scored a lot of goals today. despite being called auntie, i dont give a hoot man! this auntie can sure score goals loh!!! 厉害吧!!!老娘的功夫是一流的!!!

okay, i shall reveal what i'm acting as for xmas drama... hahahahahaha *roar*

my dear sister invited me for xmas lunch buffet at shangri - la. whahahahaha i cant believe it. this kind of offer, must say yes no matter what. i have another pending buffet on the way, pete's place ^^ and perhaps, if it's possible, graze or villa bali at rochester park with my project mates very soon =) oh yes, my treat of Royal Copenhagen Tea Lounge's cheesecake soon...

took the DISC test during my work interview. results: D is pratically O. I is not any different. only S and C are consistant. the interviewer told me;

• you tend to overpromise
• finds it hard to reject people
• rather avoid confrontation at all cost
• likes your stuff to be done in a sui sui manner
• can be a bit hard headed at times when you're convicted of a certain thing
• gets excited when people are around but when alone, you would choose to play down the enthusiatic personality
• straight forward, thinks that beating about the bush is a waste of time
• rather be funny at all times. *got meh...*

janet jackson's got til its gone is a more groovy hip hop version of big yellow taxi (original sang by joni mitchell) resung by counting crows and the carlton lady. but janet's version still rules. and crash test dummie's lead singer brad roberts has got a very deep throaty voice. i like.

:: crash test dummies - mmm mmm mmm mmm ::

james 1:22-24 (the message)

don't fool yourself into thinking that you are a listener when you are anything but, letting the Word go in one ear and out the other. act on what you hear! those who hear and don't act are like those who glance in the mirror, walk away, and two minutes later have no idea who they are, what they look like.

how true...

basketball tmr!!! YEAH!!!

:: jack johnson - banana pancakes ::

taking a break from studying *phew*

went for a part time job interview to be student facilitator =D got the job lo!!! good timing and good pay. praise God! =) and here's 50 QnA i got from giselle's blog.

1.How old do you wish you were?
14

2. Where were you when 9.11 happened?
watching CNN

3. What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
press all buttons immediately

4. Do you count yourself kind?
quite

5. If you had to get a tattoo,where would it be?
eyebrows hahahahaha

6. If you could be fluent in any other languages,what would it be?
cantonese

7. Do you know your neighbours?
yep

8. What do you consider a vacation?
nice place, weather, people and food. Oh toilets too.

9. Do you follow your horoscope?
nope

10. Are you touchy feely?
not really

11. Do you believe opposites attract?
hmmm i guess

12. Dream job?
baker

13. Favourite channels?
cable - channel 55 channel 22

14. Favourite place to go on weekends?
sat: nexus
sun: home

15. Showers or baths?
showers

16. Do you paint your nails?
yes

17. Do you trust people easily?
yes

18. What are you afraid of?
lizards and lions

19. Do you want kids?
no

20. Do you keep a handwritten journal?
no

21. Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
pearline cos she gives the best bear hugs \^o^/

22. Heavy or light sleeper?
heavy

23. Are you paranoid?
depends

24. Are you impatient?
quite

25. Who can you relate to?
my kakis

26. How do you feel about inter-racial couples?
cool

27. Have you been burned by love?
no

29. Whats your favourite pick-up line?
hi

30. Whats your main ring tone of your mobile?
U2’s I still haven’t found what im looking for

31. What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping

32. What did the last text of your cellphone say?
ok

33. Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
my own

34. What color shirt are you wearing?
white

35. Most recent movie you watched?
joyeux noel

36. Name 3 things you have on you all the time.
cellphone, water bottle, hairband

37. What colour are your best sheets?
red and white

38. How much cash do you have on your own now?
20+

39. What is your favourite part of the chicken?
thigh and wing

40. Whats your favourite town/city?
new york

41.What did you have for dinner last night?
teochew dishes

42. Do you own A GUN?
YA. PLASTIC WATER GUN

43. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
somewhere on earth

44. Last thing you ate?
vanilla ice cream with milo powder

46. Last thing that made you laugh?
some tv programme called motormouth

47. Worse injury you ever have?
toe nail falling off. Due to sam’s powerful kick during soccer

48. Whats your favourite candy?
gummy bears

49. What song do want to be played at your funeral?
queen's another bites the dust. kidding! monthy python's always look on the bright side of life. hahahahaha

50. Five random people to do this?
simi qns eh…

dug out some old albums to rip songs. absolutely delighted. i found catatonia, space, garbage, suede, texas and...janet jackson's velvet rope which was given to me by my sister eons ago. i personally feel that velvet rope is her best creative and personified work ever produced. pity for her latter albums... anyways, my friend got into the superstar singing competition!!! magdalene yeong, known her for 15 years, since primary 1 =) you go girl and sing your best!!!

:: space - the ballad of tom jones ::

joyeux noel is unexpectedly moving...

:: oh rejoice ::

john 8:32

then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.

the first step is always the hardest. coming back from a dry season that lasted ever since june wasnt exactly the best memory lane i want to remember. but i finally did it. i always asked God to take all that's holding me down when actually thats the very thing that i've been holding on and refusing to let go of; past memories, past hurts and bitterness. after months of condemning myself and blaming people around me, making up all sorts of excuses and only listening to things that i want to hear, it all became clear that i was trying all ways to avoid the simple truth. which ironically, the truth is the only thing that set me free in the end.

romans 8:1-4

therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death. for what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering. and so he condemned sin in sinful man in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit.

those months of wandering in the desert, living behind a facade and running away from a set of biblical rules to follow, i forced and made myself numb to everything, became spiritually degenerated and followed a set of rules which i set up for myself which i think it's rationally or consciously right when in fact it's an avoidence/refusal to what the holy spirit tells me to do. i do not want to enter into that very phase of life that is living without God again.

to the very person i've been thinking of the whole week (you know who you are), what's said has been said and what's done has been done. i'm sorry; for hurting and pushing all the blame to you. but i want to thank you because you're the one who has been helping me the most. i can't promise you anything but i will try my best to walk closer to God everyday.

that very guise has finally broken down. and i've finally found what i've been looking for. its my journey back to the Father.

:: Dad, i'm coming home ::

If we could read the secret history of our enemies,
we should find in each man's life sorrow and suffering,
enough to disarm all hostility.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow (1807-1882)

the spirit of christmas unites people, from every continent and every race, regardless of who you are and what had happened... along with the joy of sharing your love and His love =)

HMV's having xmas sale and with the limited moolah i have, i finally bought Joyeux Noël (Merry Christmas) =D aiming next for Sleepers and Philadelphia. they didnt sell both Queen and Casiopea's concert dvd so... time to go home... orchard road was already dressed in glittery gold lightings and decorations, very beautiful indeed. upper deck seats is the best for xmas lighting views! ah christmas~!!!

:: incremental growth ::

DA MAN!

spotted pomfret

R.I.P

school started. timetable, not too bad. tuesday off =) project layout + datelines are out, while end march marks the end of my nafa life. *sniff* time flies...

take all of me - hillsong

You broke the night like the sun
and healed my heart with Your great love
any trouble couldn't bear
You lifted me upon Your sholders

Love that's stronger
Love that covers sin
and takes the weight of the world

i love You
all of my hope is in You
Jesus Christ take my life
take all of me

You stand upon mountain tops with me
with You i walk through the valleys
Your grace is all i rely on

i love You so, and i give up my heart to say
i need You so, my everything

:: take it all. i can't handle it alone anymore ::

love is the greatest emotion that moved mankind. it was the building force behind the Taj Mahal, it coloured the ink of Shakespear's greatest works and for love, the church was created. from love and for love, everything is possible because God is love.

how far will i actually go for my loved ones? i really start to ponder upon this qns quite often recently. can i give up some precious private time to listen to other's woes? can i give up my hard earned seat for someone my age looking tired? will i be willing to eat a smaller portion and leave the meatier part for others? just because they're not initiative doesnt mean i cant take the first step. im such a selfish and prideful fella. i really feel ashamed after evaluating myself. what am i chasing after actually? my own rights is it?

there are tons of stuff i said and done that i rather forget but it pops by once a while and i get so upset over it. if i could turn back time i would take back everything. and im still cant get over what i've said to my mum.

i know there's a hidden part of me that hasnt forgiven someone fully yet. i tried but it's so hard to completely forgive. and forget. apparently this has become a stopper in my life that prevents me from being completely joyful. can i still take that act of love, faith and courage and confess to the person? again?

loving Him
loving others
loving yourself

i john 4:18
there is no fear in love. but perfect love drives out fear...

to cherish,

jwest stands for... jurong west hahaha

because the owner behind the label used to live in jurong west. it's true~ no kidding.

:: take all of me - hillsongs ::

i am happy =) because...

• my exams are ending in 2 weeks time!
• i will be free to meet my chums for dinner!
• xmas!
• i will be starting my excercise regime~
• internship ends tomorrow!
• school starts on monday (i lied. im not very happy about this actually)

anyways, i can't wait to meet up with you, you and you!!! my old friend of 15 years got into that superstar competition! =) jiayou wor~ xmas is coming soon and i called kin wee regarding some help for drama and he told me a secret instead... shhh... to be revealed soon... *hahahahaha* livi came over and we promised to have another slumber party when pearls come back. this time, g will cook, livi will be in charge of cleaning heh...

a qns for you all...

what does jwest (shoe boutique) stands for?

those who know the answer... shhh...

:: chasing You ::

this is for the one and only very special and unique pearline kong =)

生日快乐!!! i wish you lots of love and joy in your life. you have brought laughter and happiness to the people around you and you try your best not to turn anyone's request down. remember the first time we walked along the streets of dohby gaut? our slumber party (where livi drooled =p), the lord of the rings marathon at tp? those days of lagsane and fried fish with mayo will always remain. even though now you're in aussie, you will never allow distance to distance friendship. i cant wait to see you on dec! till then pearls, it'll be another slumber party with lagsane, fried fish with mayo and perhaps lots of garlic too =) once again, Happy Birthday!!!

:: taking baby steps ::

haze no more!

jack and germ

i insisted on finding a dark place to talk. and yes we found a place just behind the wall. though it was just a 60 mins long talk but thanks again for those cakes and that gentle simple reminder again. the journey back home is never too long =)

i wonder, instead of the typical informative commercials we have on local tv why can't they show something more funny instead? anyway, the last one got me laughing off my chair. enjoy!

:: greater of You and lesser of me ::

the fashion show was disappointing la... all 150 visitors packed tight together like sardines in a even tinier boutique. best bit, most of the visitors are expats so heightwise, tiny people lugi u see... and if i wasnt wearing my melissa heels today, i will probably see lotsa backs and shoulders and not to mention, bobbing heads of models parading by... but all is forgiven because the goodie bag makes yao gui people like me and yen super happy la. hahaha a complimentary spa pedicure/manicure voucher and a big bottle of... sparkling juice. told you we're yao gui.

To Do List right after my exams

sleep
blade
run
bake

:: tired ::

my fav slang: "can~" & "la!"

is yours the same too?

:: love's divine ::

as pennisula plaza is super near, yen and i decided to pop by Fresh for milo. ah~ finally, we found a place where they sell reasonably cheap priced milo. 1 more week left till internship ends! yeah! class gathering at yatie's house tmr for hari raya celebration =)

just found out that both my cousins are getting married next year (jan and may)!!! kim's wedding will be my first Hope wedding, quite excited about it actually heh =) ps, when will it be your turn?

yen is very proud of her jack joke.

qns: what kind of fruit does jack eats?
ans: jackfruit.

*brrr*

while my friend was talking about her mum, i kinda miss my mum too. its a pity cos i cannot recall much of my mum and i dont know whether is it due to epi but sigh... i really do miss her a lot.

:: quando quando quando ::

our sewing room (thats yen and tiff)

mai hum? lala lar... (river valley's)

new york new york with mice

heh heh heh... i'm gonna eat your oyster~

dinner at dan ryan's after church anniversary

a lot more pics to post. be patient and wait...

again, advices given are not taken seriously. but self control steps in and everything screech to a halt. done. full stop. finito. the end. thanks perdy =) i hereby declare that im scared stiff of muffins. had too much these few weeks ever since assessment month. chicken rice kinda puts me off too. so does milo peng. the only thing that i crave now is a bowl of teochew porridge. it's time for the simple life. no fuss, no nothing. in fact, plain water does taste sweeter than any syrup at the end of the day.

whenever i see clarence's msn nick "God Loves You" i always think, how true, how simple, how real.

:: vivi's words ring clear and loud still. i really need a breakthrough ::

this beautiful lady is my老二. allow me to introduce her to you. and no, thats not her baby =p

her name is fiona, nicknamed ah na. she's X years old and multi bilingual, speaking teochew, hokkien, cantonese, english and chinese. she puts fernando alonso to shame with her scary driving skills esp when it comes to appointments. her incredible stamina when doing muay thai is unbelievable and when it comes to volleyball, all hail her as queen of spike. she wins hands down when it comes to cooking maggie mee and yes, she makes a really mean cup of milok peng. lastly, her jokes are totally out of this world. *brrr*

to my二姐...

over the years, growing up under the same roof, wearing hand me downs from老大, argueing who's milok peng is tastier and of cos... fighting over oscar almost every single night, im glad to have such a fun and caring sister like you. whenever i had to stay back in school for projects, you'll always try to drive me home even when you're not in the vicinity. you never fail to call back to ask whether i want supper or even a cup of teh tarik/mango pomelo. i remembered fondly that you tabao back half of your cream sauce pasta for me knowing how much i love it, that lovely treat at Baker's Inn when i ended my assessment and those times when you gave me money when i'm broke are all very much appreciated. i'll always remember the time when you calm me down when i was angry, cheer me up when i was down, chided me when im wrong and that one and only time we hugged when mummy went off =) as we're both typical chinese, saying mushy words makes us cringe though our hearts are melting like butter, i still wanna say this to you... i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you and i will always love you. ps, stop taking delight by nudgeing me on msn or else i'll place cockroaches in your underwear =p

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

:: $100 for this entry. tank kew ::

Your Dominant Intelligence is Spatial Intelligence

You've got a good sense of space and how the world around you looks. You can close your eyes and "see" images. You have innate artistic talent. An eye for color and shapes, you're also a natural designer. Since you think in pictures, visual aids and demonstartions help you learn best. You would make a good navigator, sculptor, visual artist, inventor, architect, interior designer, or engineer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

You Are Very Honest

You tell it like it is, no matter what. Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out. And while some may get hurt by your honesty... At least everyone knows where you stand!

How Honest Are You?

Your Taste in Music:

80's Alternative: Medium Influence 80's Rock: Low Influence 90's Alternative: Low Influence 90's Pop: Low Influence 90's R&B: Low Influence

How's" Your Taste in Music?

:: a few ikan bilis short of a nasi lemak ::

the haze has been rather bad around my area. since i stay at the 25th floor, it's worse... flu and break outs are quite common and my sister's got a sexy voice. sometimes i feel like i live in genting minus the cold weather for the past weeks. i hope it rains soon.

whenever johnny starts to chop the fishes, my mind will start to wander and then think about how the fish will taste like, today's the same. when he proceed to slice a belt fish (looks like flotsem and jetsem from my little mermaid, just as ugly but thinner) i started to think about it being fried crisp. then the red snapper came, the soft flesh when being steamed teochew style... wha... mo dak teng. then when he took the godpapa out, the threadfin, we all kowtow hahaha the price is sky high la like $40 per kg... anyways till now i cant stop thinking about assam fish head...

i feel like a tam jiak gui sometimes...

just measured my bmi. from 18.4 to 17.1 hmmm...

:: dinner with j ::

四个月就这样过了。 我还满怀念那些日子，有阿珍阿玉和阿琪 。虽然那时候所发生的事件我也不记得很清楚，但唯一让我不能忘掉的是那时候的感想和低落的情绪起落。眼睛红了， 眉头也邹了。那时候，我一 直认为我所作所为是对得起所周围的人。可是事实上，我是为了我自己，真的好自私。回想起来，如果我那时候的决定是不一样的，现在会是怎样呢？说实话，我重来没有后悔我所做的决定。但在这四个月以来， 我真的发现了许多我从来不会潦倒和发觉的事。其中，我依赖性和情绪化的性格也变了，仿佛变得独立自主，也开始慢慢知道我真真要的东西和所想走的方向。回头看，我生命里的起起落落，喜怒哀乐，有时候还真的满好笑的。有时候是那种， "天啊! 为什么是这样!" 或 "g, 你自找的啦"。哈哈哈哈哈! 偶尔笑笑自己，也不错啊 =)

这两个星期我还满忙得 。明天有两个约会，而下个星期二是我非常期待的烛光晚餐，星期二的J默默是谁呢?

:: 我的人生应为有祢，是美丽 ::

before ending the phone call, i was already laughing my head off. ridiculously funny and stupid conversation one can have when you simply place 2 equally ignorant and brainless hippos on the phone. one tried to be analytical while the other doesnt think before jumping into the water. how smart.

apparently i just discovered some truths which makes me really want to laugh lo... no wonder those funny looks

what a day, what a night.

:: shun fu market's muffins and cheesecakes are yummy! ::

my cousin came back from amsterdam so we had a family potluck gathering. the kwek family is going nuts over red wine. so when the bottle of wine appears, glasses appear out of nowhere and the noise level ups too hahahah. and i saw jack! he's one year plus now, getting heavier and best bit, he doesnt cry when a total stranger carries him and thats what amazes me the most. and i looove him to bits la! when i carry him, he hugs me like a koala bear, well thats what everyone calls him... sooo cute can!!! i'll wait till my coussie send me the pics then i'll post it. my gosh, i cannot stop gushing about him!!!

i just opened the door for my dad and i was a bit stunned to see him with a backpack and quiksilver trucker's cap. im more used to his yellow phua chu kang boots and brylcreem slicked hair. pop, you very shuai can!

dear j,

it was like verbal vomit when we started to get really open about our feelings. im glad, we opened up, talked about deeper issues and =) remember our date next tuesday okie?

friendship are one of the most beautiful things on earth. treasure it, cherish it, protect it, love the ups and downs of it.

:: love's beautiful ::

i miss lucy

:: ::

y and g laughed a lot today. g's belly ached. y's mouth remain stretched wide. over 2 small cups of ben and jerry's (chunky monkey i think) and ice cream swiss rolls. such a pleasant surprise, totally wonderful welcome treats, from opp's vintage boutique boss. after that while listening to boss's cd, we tried to get jiggy along the big band inspired song while sitting on the chair. how hilarious, and every sentence there's a bamboo word in it. repeat after me ok, say BAAM-BOOO. right.

work is great =) quite relaxing, lots of calling and lots of funny incidents in the colonial style building. really love the interior of the building, beautiful, well kept and most importantly, clean toilets. oh, models from the modeling agency nearby provides the hourly eye candy whenever they walk pass the boutique =D another pleasant surprise, another classmate of mine, g works downstairs!!! funny quacker and yeah, small world! a few weeks ago, i joined a shoe competition and tmr's the dateline. best bit. i haven even started designing. top prize - $2,000. tonight die die also must churn out something out of nothing.

watched the departed last night. superb. lots of swearing though but anyways, through out the whole entire 152 mins of the movie, i realised that the lady beside me must be the scriptwriter for the departed and infernal affairs lah. she just narrates the whole entire storyline to her equally ignorant friend.

eg, when leo or matt appears, she will say, neh~, he's the tony leung, the undercover cop. nor~ he's the andy lau, the undercover baddie lor. what!!!!!

my gosh. halfway through the movie i muttered "keep quiet" under my breathe, hoping that she will be able to hear me. but ok apparently i was too quiet so she didnt get my message. mind you, even when the credits started to scroll up, she continued to talk about the whole storyline, actors, scene etc. i could have smoudered her with my shawl if i'm wasn't practising self control. but okay i admit, self control sometimes get the better of me. i tapped her shoulder and told her after the movie, "knowing the story is good but there isnt any need to tell everyone about it. plus it's super irritating." she replied with, "hahahaha im sorry hahahahha," with cheery smiles and all... *kowtows*

btw, after reading blogs, i realise something about myself, i try too hard to prove my points, my powderful engrish and the stuff i know. sometimes adding in something "deep" like some historical events, some chim words, or perhaps some arty farty movies. hmmm, i wonder who am i blogging for at the end of the day. such stupidity and insecurities. g, wake up.

now it's friday the 13. its a memorable date for me. because i fixed a date with someone very special. mr jc. ciao

:: God is indeed good. He is ::

thurs: assessment OVER LO!!!

fri: went for interview and then went to cartier's exhibition. those baubbles are like super duper big can~ the size of an apricot and a necklace that bears a striking resemblence to a snake. really, looks like one, except that its encrusted with diamonds. wha pengs... kowtows~

sat: left ss early to pak tor. hahahahahahahah, for family dinner la at paramount hotel. sedap! esp that mince pigeon soup in bamboo. proceed to singapore swimming club to chill. oktober fest was on, german band playing and free flow of beer.

sun: sold fish and slept the whole day.

mon: rec a phone call, got the job!!! slept the whole day again. (sept month - average sleeping hours = less than 4 everyday of cos must sleep lah.) dad didnt go fishing due to the haze, blading plans forfeited.

tues: started work. first day, first assignment - market research. sent to shopping malls to shop!!! how cool can that be? paid to shop can~

if you wanna drop by at my work place to buy me drinks (hint hint* smu's mr tea's milo dino) or shop for nice clothes, msn me okie =) but if you ask i expect you to turn up ah~ kekeke

gotta rush for report le.

:: lord whats in store for me? ::

AAAAAaaaaahhhhhHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

>>> kopi gao gao <<<

a lil' madness + some caffeine = an overbearing bait breathe...

the commercial featuring maria sharapova winning US open 2006 turns me off la. im a sore loser so what. pffffft.

eeeyer... boo you dreamoweaver and flashie...

:: claypot noodle tmr! hooray! ::

Psalm 116:12-13 (The Message)

what can i give back to God
for the blessings He's poured out on me?
i'll lift high the cup of salvation—a toast to God!

indeed. i cannot give back to Him what He has given to me. my life, my everything. every little thing matters. i was afraid. but You brought me to your knees once again and say "everything will be alright. another huge step, with even greater faith, trust Me because I'm carrying you".

d-day on thursday. my dean describe it as,"be afraid, be very afraid". with that sentence, he squint his eyes a little and give a cold stare, before breaking into a smile. a spine chilling smile. to tell you the truth, i secretly laughed in my heart. no no not laughing at him but the thought of how our panal of judges and those from project runway and america next top model speak are almost too similar... almost like simon of american idol, scary... but just take their harsh words with a pinch of salt, life is better that way.

:: where the streets have no name ::

g has 2 pairs of bedroom slippers; keroppi and eeyore.
she couldnt find her usual keroppi
so she wore the eeyore instead.
she took it off after a while
to see what was inside the slippers.
was it a bundle of string
or a piece of chipped dog bone?

>>> it was a black, dried flatten baby lizard.

anyways, someone very dear asked me out but got turned down instead whahahahah and also the very same person said to me prior to my previous post (reword): let go and let God. note taken =)

i've been craving for fried chicken since thurs night (esp those ke ai ji from those kopitiam kind) and i dont mean the kfc kind. but oh wells when you have lemons, make lemonade right? where on earth can i find those chix in the middle of the night. friday morning, after class, i went to kfc immediately and heh... had kfc for breakfast. ah craving pangs settled. then i met up with my seamstress for my project. she's joshua's mother (previously from polydi nyp). wha!!! i wanna look and be like her when im her age =D smsed josh a msg that makes me laugh out loud on the bus. went back to school and cont with the drafts.

met up with my best friend for dinner at spageddies. my best friend of 9 years. wha almost a decade le. miss those days at SJC (st joseph's convent) especially at the old building at hillside... gosh i really do miss those fun times when we try to climb into the classroom (wanna siam the prefects from taking our names down) or hiding our pagers (eh that time having a pager esp those transparent ice blue motorola ones consider vey hip okay~ remember -51213143344 whahahahaha) or reaching sch by 6am just to train for bball. time passes really quickly, but we're still like some giggly high school girls when we talked about the past. sweet memories.

enjoy!





:: you bore the cross and broke the chains ::

she said:

love yourself more.

i havent been to the beach for a long time, alone. i guess i really do need to spend some time by myself. reflecting on my thoughts, speech, actions and my life especially. life is too short to fight for and fuss over the mundane things in life. therefore we must live life to the fullest =)

jame 4:14 Nothing but a Wisp of Fog (the message version)

And now I have a word for you who brashly announce, "Today—at the latest, tomorrow—we're off to such and such a city for the year. We're going to start a business and make a lot of money." You don't know the first thing about tomorrow. You're nothing but a wisp of fog, catching a brief bit of sun before disappearing. Instead, make it a habit to say, "If the Master wills it and we're still alive, we'll do this or that."

after having a cuppa with D, i realise how much i've been trying to guard/defend my privacy fierecly. i dont have to tell anyone what im doing, where im going and whom im going out with. but its very disappointing to realise that people ask qns out of their own concern rather than being concern. as much as i dont give a hoot about what others do, why bother with mine? the line between being concern and kpoh is so thin. in the end, i rather not explain anything at all - it doesnt make any difference anyway. recently, deeper hidden issues that i've been trying to shadow or hide are starting to surface. not to haunt me but to help me learn that life is not as bad as i thought but rather, going through certain hardships is necessary which ive been avoiding for the longest time or... not willing to admit to it.

i wanna scream out loud.

walk barefooted on the beach.

read a book and lim milo peng gao.

and, i wanna ask God a few funny qns too.

:: i still haven't found what i'm looking for - U2 ::

im bushed.

it seems like i havent touch my bed for a week... most of the nights i see oscar sleeping on my pillow while i lie on my table -_-

tata, see you guys tmr in service =)

:: happy shiney people ::

such talents. such professional choreography. thank god for youtube. i've picked out my favs for you guys. it does help to release stress! enjoy and do have a HAHAHArty laugh, =D









and these are my many fav mtvs. air's how does it make you feel, bjork's hunter and massive attack's teardrop. impressive effects. very very kewl.







bought a packet of plain mnms. separated the blue and green ones from the rest. aint no fan of blue and green mnms. anyways, i was talking to mice about the probability of bumping into someone. however you might either try your very best to "bump" into someone, you never seem to see the person, or you try to siam the person as much as possible, more likely, the person will appear in front of you when you (1) least expect it (2) happen to be in a situation where you dread to see the person most. i told the person who's in (2). suay.

back to projs.

:: love's beautiful ::

i last saw him in 2002.

having dinner with mice at new york new york. i saw him. i called his name. wrong name somemore... no wonder he didnt turn back (she corrected me). 5 mins passed... i saw him! again i called him. wrong name AGAIN! (how dumb can i get? @*#&$^%) thus he didnt turn back. dinner's over. jaime and i proceed to the counter for some DIY cotton candy. i looked up, and i saw him again! so i called him! WRONG NAME AGAIN!!! ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this time mice helped me. with the right name. dang. i was so nervous. for once, i kept quiet beside mice and just smile... (my heart was beating really hard) they chat while i just continue smiling... my limbs got all stiff and i suspect that his friend caught me stealing sneak peeks at him. he then asked me a qns. what are you doing now? (referring to school/work etc) i replied with a "eating" hand gesture". he smiled. she replied, Nursing. thats when i realise, i should have kill myself on the spot immediately. i replied with a stiff smile, Nafa. he smiled. i looked at his eyes and said. NAFA. you know nafa? he replied, of cos i know la. nafanafanafa germaine!!! what are you thinking??? you eat grass grow up one is it?!

anyways, after he left, mice and i went to raffles place. and then to the mrt. my heart was beating furiously through out... i even smile all the way to tp interchange... whahahahaha

that man i saw was my first ever crush ^^ 4 years ago. when i saw his grin i just go *thump* on the floor... no lah, but awww... sweet first crush. his real name is jinsheng. and i kept calling him jiasheng. no wonder babyee kept asking me. who did u see? jiasheng? who's that? anyways he's gotten pretty prosperous but aw man, i still find him cute... that's some sweet memories to last me for the night. i think i will sleep grinning.

ps heikia. dont you dare laugh.

such coincidence. jinsheng is called david. jiasheng's name is also david.

new york new york was good (penne mushroom alfredo with fried fish though the fish was a bit nasty) but still, any dinner with mice babyee is always great. im looking forward to the next one.

pics will be uploaded soon. of mei, mice, me and food =D

:: very heh-ppy wor ::

dinner at dan ryan's last night. food was great. we ordered lagsane, sauted mushrooms, cesear's salad with big croutons and 4 oyster shooters in tobasco sauce *gag*. and that free basket of bread/muffin/cake with a cup of butter is the best la! we shared a lot. and im glad to have you a perd/friend/sister/confidante. you're lovely too ^^ and yes, go out beyond the 4 walls of church and impact the world.

sold fish today. an old lady took some squid and place it in her basket. but the squid ink was flowing out so she dunk the squid into the container for washing fingers. dip and dip and dip... >.< g: ah mm ah, ler buay sai eng jik gai zui suay sotong, yi gai si suay chew gai. (old lady, you cant wash your sotong in that container, thats for washing hands)... best bit, the old lady said nothing, smile and chuckled at me... and then wash her own hands inside..........

ripped from chris again... =D

What Is The Real Problem?

The English Version

Said Also Don't Listen
Listen Also Don't Understand
Dont Understand Also Don't Ask
Ask Also Don't Do
Do Also Do Wrong
Wrong Also Don't Admit
Admit Also Don't Correct
Correct Also Not Happy
Not Happy Also Don't Say

The Chinese Version

说了又不听
听了又不懂
不懂又不问
问了又不做
做了又做错
错了又不认
认了又不改
改了又不服
不服又不说

isnt this familiar?

:: my lovely samsoon ::

my eyes are getting a little older. my hands are clenched too.










what does real friends stand for?

livi:

a real friend is someone that i know is there.. not presence, but heart. someone who i can talk about anything, without any reserves cos i know this real friend wont think bad of me. someone who can make me feel happy and yet hurt the most as well.. real friends is about deep sharing.

my heart has that tinge of heaviness as the day draws nearer. see you soon.

:: freedom ::

maybe i should change my identity and name to... lets see, Bonnie Ardenpixie Mollysue. who drives a cream coloured 1960's cadillac with red cushion seats. blasting my guilty pleasure, Queen's i want to break free. while eating 2 carl's junior six dollar burgers and mos burger's fries with a huge tumbler filled with milo dinosaur along the highways of... tuas? nono cannot make it. somewhere la as long as it's not singapore. ok i cant continue the make believe story. maybe just turn back to singapore then slowly drive back to toa payoh with my einstein inspired blown out of proportion hair.

ok. thats rather cool can. a ride not to be forgotten.

im off for a battle against the dark lord of projs. an ultimatum i must declare... only one will stand. thats me =D

:: prayer works ::

yeahoo blogger is back in english! its been a chinese characterised blogger for about 2 months... anyways just reformate my comp. thanks gerald!!! you're the man to look for when it comes to fixing the comp =D

im happy happy happy. gotta challenge my pathethic ram by doing those dreaweaver websites.

and my cousin just gave birth to a baby boy! visiting them tmr!

on the other side... justine henin hardenne lost to maria sharapova. nuff said.

:: we need to talk over makan soon ::

dedicated to dawn.

LOVE the pumpkin seed muffin you bought SPECIALLY for me!!! and its the second muffin you bought for me too =D muffin muffin muffin muffin muffin. thank you *hugs* and that muffin really brightened up my day =)

today's sermon point out a few pointers - go out beyond the 4 walls of church and impact the people. i strongly believe in that. its an awakening moment when it finally dawned upon me that i can't always hid behind the four walls of church. be in the world, not of the world. i really do understand that now. while having dinner at starhub, i saw jeremiah laughing *loudly* heh. im glad to see the ns guys enjoying themselves within a group which they can gel and relate to each other well. kudos to you army brothers! serve the nation well =)

was reading from joanne's blog about her definition of romance. so sweet =)

here's mine. doing life together basically. serving God together, going to the supermarket to buy groceries, playing sports, he helping with the yarn balls while i knit... i too will try and sit with him through those soccer matches in the wee hours... and cheer him up maybe act stupid if i must if he have a bad day at work... and ohhh he must help get rid of the lizard even he's scared to death himself ^^ seeing my close friends in a relationship, i too yearn for one (i hope noone is stumbled whahaha) but nah, im not ready =) but i know that i have one specially reserved for me by God. one friend roughly analysed the kind of man i should be looking for whom i totally agreed with! (1) committed to God and our relationship (2) able to give me a sense of security (3) able to lead. bonus points, possessing a good share of wit/humour and... having hair down there (dont anyhow think ah) whahahaha. oops.

grow old with you - adam sandler

i wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
carry you around when your arthritis is bad
all I wanna do is grow old with you
i'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
build you a fire if the furnace breaks
oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

i'll miss you, i'll kiss you
give you my coat when you are cold
i'll need you, i'll feed you
even let ya hold the remote control
so let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
i could be the man who grows old with you
i wanna grow old with you

:: marry me? ::

"Dance like no one's watching.
Sing like no one's listening.
Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt before.
Live like there's no tomorrow."

the devil wears prada. and i wear... anyways, i haven't watch the movie yet but as a fashion student (puff chest) i have/want to watch it. eew the computer studies proj is driving me nuts la. i dont even know where to start from. and i still have that t-shirt draft i have yet to start too!!! si liao. more reports and... i need to look for internship soon... *bangs wall*

okie, as much as im facing the battle of bulge, i cant help but think of cheezels so very often. this is bad. really bad. andre leon talley (editor at large of us vogue) recently lost 44 pounds. he doesnt use to count calories, but after going for a diet boot camp, he now knows that 1 oreo cookie with the cream is a 100 calories, so a strip of oreos is 1200 calories!!! ah!!! i dont give a hoot about calories but erm... i do eat like a strips of oreos at one go AS A SNACK!!! maybe i should be worried. and no!!! i do not want to resemble sam soon (turning old, gaining weight and no luck in love)!!! *bangs wall again*

knowing too much proves to be less than satisfactory after a while. but this will be the last actual entry i shall make with you in mind after those thinly veiled entries. finito. the apathy of most human beings by having a capacity of taking things for granted is undeniable. but i hope that you my friend will learn your lesson in the future well. and do not take people for granted, especially those who love you.

:: God, whats in store for me? ::

Bridge Over Trouble Water

when you’re weary, feeling small,
when tears are in your eyes,
i will dry them all i’m on your side.
when times get rough and friends just can’t be found

like a bridge over troubled water i will lay me down.
like a bridge over troubled water i will lay me down.

when you’re down and out
when you’re on the street,
when evening falls so hard
i will comfort you.
i’ll take your part.
when darkness comes
and pain is all around

like a bridge over troubled water i will lay me down
like a bridge over troubled water i will lay me down.

sail on silvergirl, sail on by.
your time has come to shine.
all your dreams are on their way.
see how they shine
if you need a friend
i’m sailing right behind.

like a bridge over troubled water i will ease your mind.
like a bridge over troubled water i will ease your mind.

though their singing give me the goosebumps at times but simon and garfunkel, still remain as one of my favourite folk bands around.

last night i met up with a friend whom i know for about 3 years. but during the 3 years, i think we both spoke less than 10 sentences to each other. and im not counting the hi byes. another friend whom i know for 4 years, ha funny. we dont meet up at all let alone speak. yes im talking about you *heikia*. so 3 of us (no they're from different cliques) asked the same qns. how come the sudden meet up and the sudden sharing of our lives to one another? and the replies given by each of us is relatively the same =)

last night conversation made me realise one thing. ignorance is a bliss. and friend, i will support you morally and then cheer and clap for you quietly when that come to a pass (a friend indeed). hahahaha~ way to go!

my dad asked me what i want for breakfast, i thought muffins from shun fu would be nice since he'll be at macritchie. well, shun fu muffins or not, he did bought muffins for me. nice!!! cheese muffins with chunky cheese oozing out. wha~ i thought i did step into heaven for awhile. heh.

:: pray about it okay =) ::

hail the great Os!!!

part 2: fly!!!

part 3: run!!!

One American airline company was very impressed with the SIA air-stewardesses and wanted to find out how SIA selected their Singapore Girls. So one fine day, they sent one of their management guy to attend a SIA interview session. The secret of SIA success finally transpired during the interview....

Interviewer: What were you doing before applying for this sacred job?

Interviewee: Study lor....

When the person came out from the interview room he was so impressed for he had never expected that all SIA girls had actually studied law before becoming an air-stewardess.

:: lovely day ::

i experienced a VERY EMBARASSING moment at carl's junior. the bemused smiles from the 2 very sweet ladies made me feel slightly better but eeewww... germaine. you're dumb.

i was reading an article about the advertisements shown on local screens. usually they're informative commercials which i personally think its quite boring. where's those witty and mind boggling ones? some commercials simply baffles me and make me cringe... while some deserve to have their story board burn to ashes and never to be mention about it ever again. that particular brand of of drink with a dancing cow with a fruit hat is... -.-;

whilst that adorable baby in the mac ad is =D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mwvmebPOOBU

taken from singapore elle 2004 (reword)

males: if you're uncomfortable with this paragraph, please do not read it. but if you think you're brave enough to face it, then... you're da man dude!

the sorry state of sanitary napkins commericals:

local pad ads are so bad they're like memorable cheesy slapstick movies. yes, the intentions behind the ad are trying to show the merits of sanitary pads and at the same time, save the embarrassment from both genders but isnt it time to move on from the same old contrived 80's formula?

myths perpetuated by bad pad ads.

1) white bottoms are the preferred wardrobe option for menstruating women.
- what?! menstuating women avoid white bottoms at all cost. nobody wants to look like they sat on red paint.

2) cycling is good excercise during your period.
- with cramps that make wisdom tooth extraction seem like a walk in the park, chances are, we're likely to be in bed groaning and wishing we're born a man instead. let alone cycle...

3) the arrival of your period creates the urge to prance around mindlessly.
- jumping around or esp doing ballet inspired movements are is definitely a no no. we even try not to sneeze.

4) women expels blue liquid.
- need i say more?

its time we take a que from oversea's pad ads. in a mexican commercial, a woman kills her lover in a film noir style and then cleaning the mess effectively with her maxi pad. thank goodness there isnt any bicycle/prancing/blue liquid in sight. smart commercial.

here's the link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMH2xwLSKaE

see ya all later in ss!!!

:: coconut husk ::

someone told me...

girls are irritating. throw stones at them.

what!!! i say~

boys are mean. stick our feet out and trip them.

anyways God made us uniquely beautiful and wonderful as well. i really wondered why God place different kind of people in my life. i have funny witty people. i have people i really loathe. and i have people that i find so dear, i'll protect them like precious babies and oh yes i have people that just pass me by or rather, i passed them by... but no matter what, i wont fast forward my life just because of certain problems or unpleasant people... cos i believe, we grow and learn from unpleasant stuff better than nice ones.

looking back at some unpleasant events and people, i start to laugh at how i used to talk to them, how i view certain matters and how i recipocrate. rojak feelings like happy, enthusiatic, overwhelmed, paiseh (esp those, why did you do that in the first place you kuku germaine kwek!!!) and even shy... why... its funny when situation change, views of certain matters and people changed too... we judge too quicky dont we? esp since the first judgement is always negative.

the reason why anne frank's journal was both emotional and overwhelming to us adults, its because she was simply viewing the war from a innocent child's point of view. i wonder if i could go back to that stage when i see/view like a child. we grow up too fast too... often taking things/people for granted, our families, our home, even the 3 meals that our family provides...

i held my pop's arm the other day. i dont know why i did that but im not a touch person but i just did it... we kept silent. until a few days later he told me i made his day. if a smile can brighten up someone's day, a pat on the back, a hug, a note to say thank you for listening/sharing or to encourage, i really wonder... what can be harder than that?

at such an ungodly hour, blogging is quite relaxing actually... esp after some reports are done and worship songs are playing softly in the background...

:: God... i yearn ::

i got this from chris's blog. and well... ok chris, im still not paiseh of stealing your pics (tie tou gong and ouyang feng) and now stealing your blog entry. but heck, they make me laugh a lot la and joy must be shared mah...

Been talking to a lot of people and hearing some interesting observations. Wonder if this is like a "natural" reaction:

1) Giving the "TSK" but NEVER receiving

You are shopping or walking and somehow someone blocks you. Then you go "TSK" so loud purposely for the person to hear. Then you stare until the person fades into thin air. But if you are being "TSK" at by other people, you become fed up for being "TSK" at.
Note: "TSK" is a sound produced by clenching teeth, blocking the remaining outlet between the teeth with your tongue, and then forcing out a short burst of air.

2) Damn Obvious Unpreventable Question

You see a friend at the cinema queuing at the Box Office or waiting to enter the cinema. You ask, "Watch movie ah?" (Wonder what the heck you expect the answer to be.) Connel once suggested "No, I came here hoping to meet you by chance. How about you?"

i onced asked an au natural reaction qns too... i saw my friend at the school library

g: hey~ looking for books ah?
k l: ya lo~

(i wondered... either he's too polite to say then?! or its one of those you know, ke qi replies...) oh wells... laugh with me can~

i shall learn from dawn. drink kopi gao gao. because tonight's the night...

:: o rejoice from hillsong's xmas album is =) ::

before i start...

thank you everyone who helped me with the survey forms. you're all very much appreciated!!!

its been such a long time ever since i blogged. and i dont even know where to start. alrights, lets catagorised them.

school

mad rush. i learnt something through all the heavy workload of snowballing projects - compromise. because we're in a group of 4, so definitely 4 very unique people put together with 4 very different individual styles, to put up a collection with different design interpretations is not exactly easy. neither was it a chore. i find it fulfilling, though toes are not yet stepped, but somehow you can tell that everyone is trying to compromise. i remembered praying for the best group that God will place me in, so that my talents are maximised and that He will be glorified ultimately. He kept His promise. my groupmates are tiffany (mashmellow), yen (ba kut teh), cindy (egg) and me (peanut). those are our nicknames. either we resembles them or it's our fav snack. and no, cindy is not round and neither am i a hard nut to crack =p

church

i just changed my cg to DI eastA. they're like a bag of pistachios. fun loving people =D i still miss being in the drama ministry, hopefully i can help out again after my workload is over >.< and yup, thats about it. and im meeting meimei tmr wor~!!!

family

hmmm... praise God man! my sisters found their dream jobs after quitting the insurance company~ a norm 9-5 job. at least my dad is very pleased to see them at home at normal hours. and yes waiting is never easy but patience pays off well. im glad to see my sister's beaming faces xD

thats about it. my mind is still stuffed with homework/projects and esp, people i miss... anyways, someone very dear wrote this encouragement card to me a couple of weeks ago. on the card cover it wrote;

the difference

i got up early one morning
and rushed right into the day;
i had so much to accomplish
that i didnt have time to pray.
problems just tumbled about me,
and heavier came each task,
"why doesnt God help me?"
i wondered,
He answered, "you didnt ask".

i wanted to see joy and beauty,
but the day toiled on grey and bleak
i wondered why God didnt show me,
He answered, "You didnt seek."
i tried to come into God's presence;
i used all my keys at the lock,
God gently and lovingly chided,
"my child, you didnt knock".

i woke up early this morning,
and paused before entering the day;
i had so much to accomplish
that i had to take time to pray.

im found guilty of this, so frequently that im ashame to mention. something i struggle so hard with. no wonder i had to forced myself to do qt in the morning. if not, i wonder how long can i still carry on?

i will try to update my blog and yep, add in a tag board, but yeah, im a well known IT idiot so... anyone willing to help me?

as some of you know, im a war movie buff. so with schindler's list covered in dust, i decided to start reading it. bought the vcd and... watched it. excellent movie... my next movie, "joyeux noel". war + friendship =)

:: and we just dont realise how much He loves us ::

this will be my last long blog entry before i take a hiatus from blogging. but if you're really so curious. ask me personally.

"how do you finish eating an elephant" simply means, when we do something, it's good that we spread ourselves thin, and do our stuff on a daily basis (eating it slowly) - whereas on the other hand, trying to finish everything at the very last min will result in negative results too... timing clash and irritable moods - hence trying to eat the whole elephant at one go will never work...

the 1st and 2nd quater of 2006 was a series of high and lows. unexpected events and security issues that i find it so hard to deal with. but its over. i believe its time to reel in the hurt and exchange it for joy and goodness. God is good all the time =D

school's has been the same, though i admit, certain issues thats been going on for the past month made me think about friendships and being selfish sometimes. or do i dare say its wisdom? through out the finishing months in school shows clearly, who are the real friends and who arent. thus im very grateful and thankful for my church friends, those whom i know i can count on no matter what and no matter the distance. jaime, ray, livi, pearline, jane, yokies, meihwa and the zlship/clship and more, you all do make a difference in my life =)

was asking God, what's going on lately, how come the events that followed so quickly? too sudden and too shocked for the moment to react. time and results will show whats going on, but we are getting stronger everyday and braver in everyway. and thats the truth. we are. you you you and you.

attended a funeral recently, and its quite sad to know how the person died. then, i went to the hospital to visit this friend of mine. thank god, my friend is doing fine. life is so precious and fragile. read in the papers yesterday that this man got a headache and died soon after, just like that. does that make you think about why sharing His love is so important?

the cl retreat last night was a close knitted one, managed to mingle with other unit cls and we went to chinatown for porridge (dawn and i ordered 2 plates of raw fish yums!) then for dessert (i had peanut paste!) and then to liang court mac for soccer. but i went home instead, cos i have to sell fish the next morning. but anyways, portugal won!!! and im happy =D so sam gan how does it feel to have your 2 teams out for 2 consecutive nights?

i had a short meeting with my dear perd. i really appreciate that short meet up though i have to wait for 45 mins!!! shortest shepherding i ever had but who cares right =D

talked to the zls and cls during the walk back home, haven been catching up with them for quite a while, and i think it was very funny to actually know who's crush is who. esp when i told miah that i knew who his was. his small eyes went bigger (though not very big) hahahaha and he looks as though he's about to break out in cold sweat~ hahahaha and jey... same reaction lah, always in denial. and got to know orh ni's (this dear sister, got to know her better these few months) and until now... jingming's is still not disclosed yet... but we already have a name... and she's doesnt deny so oh wells, lets assume ba~ hahahaha =p

wimbledon is back. i think only dewen and me will react passionately towards that yellow ball game. haiz, agassi is out. trashed. by nadal... oh wells, there's one more grand slam to claim - US open. i hope agassi can get in this time. and win his last grand slam before he retires and play with steffi graf... well, once a champion, always a champion. jiayou!!! and we have our first ever chinese player to reach the 3rd round of the wimbledon!!! bringing honour to the chinese!!!

oh before i forgot, had dinner with livi and through the conversation, i think we're both silly and erm yes... stupid too. its not a matter that will be esily forgotten but realising how stupid we are, i think we should learn from it. but it doesnt seem so~ hahahahaha so oh wells, while i shall ask for permission to get hairy legs while u remain erm... silly okie.

im having dinner with mice soon. cant wait!!! chomp our way through... and my dad's bday is coming soon~ and oh. and that macro report dateline by wed... *faints*

my new merchandising teacher is such a funny guy lah. the whole class cant help but burst out laughing yet paying attention in his class at the same time. li hai wor~ his illustrations (drawing and explaining) goes hand in hand and he comes up with all those chinese proverbs while teaching... because of aesthethic, he came up with "i nike. you bata?" and for marketing, he came up with "the bread cannot talk but people will talk about the bread" justifying the success of bread talk. funny guy, but equally witty too.

and i received a belated birthday gift last night. all the way from down under. from pearls!!! a pair of flip flops, to be hung not worn. thanks pearls!!!

alrights, that should be all... see ya!

thinking: you and me
song: running - cfni