29 November 2005

di 1 has 10 visitors!!! hooray!!! di 2 has 3 and more coming to confirm!!! no way am i going to give up. we must we must we must have more people!!! come on di 2!!! i don't want to reach my goal, i want to break my goal! no! OUR GOAL!!! your efforts will not be in waste. come on!!!

last saturday night, james and i were sharing to kelvin, a visitor. talked for like 3 hours so that he can understand why Jesus is the only way. he seems convinced and i'm sure good news is on the way ha!

my first time directing later on!!! actually because david is acting, experience in lightings etc, so i don't think i need to lift a finger hahaha i think i will be there just to laugh my head off only heh~

grins* christmas is coming!!! and i'm kinda rusty with image... but still, hahahah joanne and i had a few laughs over what the singers have to wear... heh heh heh

meeting ah qi at s11 later, im thinking of yam paste... *salivates*

thinking: i want more!
song: some spanish song... no idea what title is it...

25 November 2005

just received a msg on msn. initially it was rather rude. and the person apparently doesn't get the hint that chatting in such a manner is actually not very nice and neither is it funny. as for me, i'm not pleased either. i really as in REALLY want to reply back in an unkindly manner. tit for tat you know... *takes in a deep breathe*... jesus also received rudeness what. he got spit in the face. sometimes i question myself on what is anger. how do i express anger the right godly way? twice on thursday i blew my top. one before cg and one after... with my sibling and i feel angry with myself later on because it's simply not right. alrights. shall stop here.

see you guys all tmr for service =)

thinking: dramarama
song: cool - gwen stefani

24 November 2005

breathe.....

this whole week is crazy... the di cls had quite some stuff to do and we're all preparing for the sow lesson which was held yesterday and it's scary lah. never taught so many people. can see all the cls started to act a lil bit crazy just before the prayer meet. jey was singing and erm... going berserk and well ah miao... started to speak really fast like....tongues... ha!

oh first 4 days of the week is packed like sardines. holidays seemed more busy than usual but itsh ok heh~ i enjoy my holidays more this way. went for drama meet on tuesday, saw my ex teacher standing outside og, selling some stuff... missed him though, he taught me knitting and he's really fast, he taught us to knit without looking whiule watching tv at the same time. ji li hai yi sia~ anyways, back to drama. the drama is hilarious. written by david chan/chen and he's like all grins and laughter through out the meet. "slaps forehead" apparently he said that the uni group will know who wrote the script the moment they watch it. i cant wait.

jason bought a puppy and apparently the pup fell ill and he was hospitalised for about 1 week and he brought it over to my house since kena is around to take care of it. it's quite sad to see 2 20 cent sized holes on a arm's long pup. hmmm thought about animal cruelty which rides high on my hate list. was talking to meihwa on tuesday over a bowl of beef noodles (like what she said, $1 quantity for $4. all bean spouts.) anyways, on channel 10 on scv which is animal planet i think there's this programme about animal abuse in LA and they have a specialised police force who goes around looking for abusers. prob singapore should have a special unit force too.

hmmm attachment on dec seems really bleak. all clashes with ministry. i'm stuck. and tmr i'm going to east coast to have a primary school gathering!!! i cant' wait to see my classmates whom i've not seen for the past 9 years. my gosh. time flies and we're all 21. changing digits eh. i cant't wait!


thinking: i'm super excited for drama.
song: ~

18 November 2005

was wondering where will i be or what will i be doing after i graduate. will i cont studying or will i start work? it's really hard when we have to think about where we head or what we will be doing... but we know that no matter what and no matter where we go, it's written in god's plan... though i really want to go overseas to study and work and see more of the world... and in ministry, i want to try on different roles and try out different things etc... perhaps of certain restrictions like finance proves to be a big barrier though... oh wells, nothing much ... just thinking...

just fixed a movie outing with my sister in dec, it's like because of my time limitations and other commitments, we watch movies together once a year and it's usually in dec ha~ it's weird but funny lah...

one of my buddy is coming back from aussie, and we usually chat a lot on msn but because of certain issues that made us argue that results in a cold war between us... until now it's kinda -_- ... so yup... it's really like pride issue lor, to start the conversation first... *perspires*

yokes came to my house for shehperding and i cooked!!! yes you didnt hear wrongly, germaine personally cooked. ha! cooked pilaf rice hahahahaha but it's like erm... the rice became too soggy lah, like semi rice and porriage texture heh~ and we called our contacts and they're mostly high!!! high!!! high!!! now bridge over to S... =D

went for the WCG and it's great... i saw god's healing and i know that di 2's faith level is going higher and higher =) but let's do something about it instead of receiving ok ^^ we certainly can do it!!! breakthrough!!!

difficulty of resisting temptation

No man knows how bad he is till he has tried very hard to be good. A silly idea is current that good people do not know what temptation means.This is an obvious lie. Only those who try to resist temptation know how strong it is. After all, you find out the strength of the German army by fighting it, not by giving in. A man who gives in to temptation after five minutes simply does not know what it would have been like an hour later.

That is why bad people, in one sense, know very little about badness. They have lived a sheltered life by always giving in. We never find out the strength of the evil impulse inside us until we try to fight it.

Citation: C. S. Lewis, Mere Christianity, book 3, chapter 11

But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. [Romans 5:20b-21]

taken from shirl's blog.

thinking: it's true how tough fasting can be. but as long as we don't give in. we will succeed.
song: who am i

16 November 2005

bored. and boliao.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. germs
2. ah kwek
3. when-you-un germs / kwek, depending on how my chinese name is mangled.

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE
1. maine
2. kwek peck kuat (a nick given to me by my malay buddy - no idea what it means either)
3. germs

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. chinese
2. teochew
3. singaporean

FIVE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. being away from my family
2. not being able to see
3. lizard... fat translucent... shudders
4. frog
5. lion. serious. don't laugh...

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. a hot shower
2. water bottle
3. house keys

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. glasses
2. slippers
3. clothes lah

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. my sense of humour, and how i can laugh at myself
2. and how i'm superbly wonderfully beautiful while being adorable and cute at the same time.
3. and being sincerely modest about it too~

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS
1. beyond
2. antonio carlos jobim
3. queen

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS
1. take all of me - hillsong
2. fightman - casiopea
3. the girl from ipanema - stan getz and astrud gilberto

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. love
2. humour
3. respect

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. i am beautiful
2. i can sing very well
3. i look aloof all the time

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. nice smile
2. hairy legs cos hairless white calves look like white wash walls to me whahahahahahahaha
3. taller than me

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES
1. reading sci-fi/fantasy novels/comics
2. playing ball games
3. knitting

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. finish this thingy asap
2. switch off the comp
3. and sleep

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/ HAVE CONSIDERED
1. when i was a kid - a transformer robot / power ranger / carebear
2. zoo keeper
3. tai tai whahahahahaha

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. mauritius
2. maldives
3. japan

FOUR KIDS NAMES YOU LIKE -
1. jude
2. kate
3. jean
4. josephine

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. plant churches =D
2. open a cafe
3. adopt many many dogs and cats

THREE WAYS THAT IF YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. i give out methane gas
2. burp smelly burps
3. and scratch my butt

THREE WAYS THAT IF YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. i cry
2. im vain
3. i get picked up (do not have any regret in your life time by not asking for my no whahahaha)

FIVE FAVOURITE MOVIES
1. life is beautiful
2. c'est la vie mon cherie
3. speed
4. raise the red lantern
5. jerry mcguire

THREE FEMALE CELEB CRUSHES - i like their acting but not having crushes on them
1. maggie cheung
2. cate blachett
3. gong li

THREE MALE CELEB CRUSHES
1. lau ching wan (hei ma wang zhi)
2. anthony wong
3. keanu reeves (his looks not acting skills)

thinking: tmr's another battle!!!
song: sympathique - pink martini

13 November 2005

the spiritual atmosphere when the technical fault happened was simply wonderful. just you and me. i really thought that it was part of the program until i opened my eyes to see whats going on. i see people praying ernestly, people raising their hands, eyes closed and hands clasped tightly together... thats the best bit. i went down to pray for healing about my dad and myself... tears dropped but i really don't really care what others think about me anymore... been battling this issue for a long time... felt so much better after surrendering to god... the issue of insecurity.

im always so conscious about what people think or say if they see me doing this or that etc until to a point i get so tired of doing so. ever since several people told me i look fierce or bao ching tian (by livi thanks ah)... serious, this dao/fierce thingy has been mentioned many times on my blog before - irritating one leh... i tried to smile i tried to laugh but it's not within the heart... until i told god. im sick of this and why must if conform to what other people prefers me to look like? until i got a taste of it myself. now i know...

i used to get so conscious about my blog entry too because my classmates do read them and if im too christiany in my entries then a bit funny lah but hey, 2 tim 1:8 says do not be ashamed to testify about our lord. yup =D

alrights, next week is fully packed... and i'm looking forward to it. especially, mon,tues and wed

btw, my english sucks. i type directly chinese translated english... eeeee yer.

thinking: my fingers are itching for bball...
song: god he reigns

11 November 2005

the chronicles of narnia is nice =)

alrights, i rested enough. time to work.

see you guys all at touch comm later on, i cant wait ha!

thinking: left 3 more of the chronicles
song: your love is beautiful

9 November 2005

assessment is O-V-E-R!!! again god showed me his grace and his miracles... *wha~*

whahahahahahahaha looking forward to 2 months of holiday yupyup but will be having attachment in dec >.< hopefully christmas will not be affected... i am so going to make full use of my holidays to do many things!!! friday is a big day for di2 =D ready for battle? lets kill all goliaths shall we?

went to esplanade to celebrate pearl's belated birthday =) we planned to go to the makan sutra food centre and then to max brenner's chocolate bar... an incident happened... pearls, livi and i were walking towards esplanade and then down the escalator, cut the story short, a man came caught up behind us, and then saying this, i do not want to live with any regret in my life... can i know her *pointing to me... whahahahahaha the scenario was very funny *diao big time* but anyways im really flattered *flicks hair* but ultimately i really admire his courage. really... don't say this kinda approach towards the opp sex but what about having his spirit towards nonbs? he's brave. really brave... imagine his feeling after being rejected... whahahahah and oh livi came up with 2 reasons why he did this... 1: he's really sincere 2: it's a forfeit hahahahah =p and what about regrets in life? when we're old will we look back on our lives thinking about the things that we didnt do or achieve? will we regret for not doing better?

tom's a busy day and pecks is coming back to prayer meet and service!!! woohoo!!! *pweet*!!!

thinking: sleeping soon
song: quando³

3 November 2005

now project runway is showing on channel 5, im glad that viewers will get to know more about how their clothes came about... creativity and individual aesthetic of fashion may differ from your peers but creativity is never right or wrong... what u think may look good may not look good to others... nevertheless, project runway is really interesting~ have a look on how an everyday veggie can turn out to be if it's a piece of garment...

i read this on tues about how this lady was talking about how her sons are being taught in school about, this is the *correct* colour, this is the *correct* way to solve... how come we're being taught this way? somehow we're like some programmed breathing robots that limits our creativity juices to flow... was drawing some logos with yokes just now after the concert and i realise how limited our sense of creativity is, we copy other logos or try to implement other logo's signature parts into our logo... and in the end, it looks like some other logo... bleah.

but one thing, remember who's our creator? who in the world can create such precise veins and structure us to have a zillion facial expressions as and when we want?

my creator king

wasnt feeling the best of moods after the concert, no converts, lives not growing, stagnant or rather like dead, thinking of goals but no contacts to start with... what the... got home for dinner, still feeling darn down, even when i saw my favourite dish, still no smiles... but i prayed. i believe. that god is on my side no matter what... dua pui goliaths or evil mr sa tan's doings, conquer it and overcome it. easier said than done but i know i can. because i have god.

really, until you see god's miracles you won't believe how real god is. i've receieved a call from jane telling me about how she has seen and hear personally about how god is working in her life during those horrible 3 weeks when her granny was in hospital, i am still amazed... and i can taste tangibly how god works in weak circumstances. never give up, hang on and wait for wonderous results.

btw, when pastor paul from paradise comm church talks about how he fainted and wets himself (this is normal because when one faints, all contractions within the body will cease and lose control of every and anything within you)... i could totally identify with him... and i want to share this with you guys =) nothing embarressing, just a lil shocking... ha!

last easter eve, while i was in nexus having rehearsals for the production, i got so stressed and nervous, i suddenly had fits. i fainted for 15 mins (won pastor paul by 10 mins! >.<) and woke up all groggy and then my sister came and picked me... i was wondering how come i was wet ( mind you i couldn't possibly drool like nonstop and all the way to my jeans nor was i drinking coke or anything)... then i realised that i wet myself (in another word, peed) i asked susi, sheerly and justin... they said discreetly, you peed. still groggy in the head, i didnt think i realise what i just did to the clean nexus carpet. ha! thank god it didnt stink... i drank loads of water ok whahahahaha~ so erm... ya... i'm on the honour board of being the first pre adult to pee on nexus floor without being scolded... erm... where exactly did i leave my glorious markings? the main area where everyone goes down to jump... whahahaha i take this kinda lightly but dont be mean and call me names ya... just to let you peeps know that it's normal!!!

thinking: more caffeine...
song: free - hillsong

2 November 2005

when david saw goliath...

he didnt say, whoa so big, sure lose one.
he didnt say, how can this tiny stone and this miserble sling strike him down?
he didnt say, i'm scared...

instead this was on his mind...

he's so big, i can't possibly miss him

we have many goliaths popping up in our lives daily, mini me goliath or super unbelieveably tua pui goliath... but what kind of strike (think of those shaolin crane kick or tiger fist) you're going to give out depends on the kind of attitude you have... fear or victorious? you choose =)

im smiling while typing this out because i can't believe how stupid/insensitive i was last night after receiving a call from my sheep. baaa~

after focusing my projects on god and not for the sake of people's critics and remarks, really, things became much easier... really =) my research methodology teacher told me i did well for my project!!! whahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha *flicks hair*

beside rochor beancurd at rochor road, there's a kopitiam selling really good yummy food like claypot noodles, san lao, yu tou meefen, horfun !!! and a lot more... bagus!!! later i must go down for claypot noodles =D and beside the kopitiam they have a pastry bakery shop that sells excellent pastries, pineapple tarts (those that looks like pingpong balls) and they have this seasonal moon pie!!! buy the savoury one because thats the one that really melts and crumble into pieces in your mouth... and lastly... they have those old school rum balls!!! ahem* if you're going down, pls give me a call ya?

thinking: claypot noodles...
song: don't stop me now - queen