aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

things to hand up by this week:

product developement (market research and loads of stuff to paste)
sewing booklet ( left half a collar, one french dart, one pocket)
textile fundamentals (left 3 weave drawings)
colours and graphic (left 18 colourings to do)
pattern making (left all the dresses and collars)
illustrations (redraw 3 bridal, 4 figure, 4 sets of flat drawings and 2 paste cloth thingy and 2 water colour figure)

i can't sleep... but i can finish them all!!! with faith and deeds!!! i still wanna praise god for my stress... yeah!!!

dear sheeps, i'm very thankful for all of you for these few weeks of marathon shepherding and leaving you guys alone for a while... you guys rock =D and perdy, our time is one of the most jialat time table ever but we still manage to get by... love ya... cg time... let's do our best okie =D

thinking: don't ask me why but i suddenly want to watch beijing opera... hahaha weird...
song: susan says - david tao (actually the funny singing part is really part of a beijing opera... cool right!!!) david is a genius when comes to connecting songs together... one of them is ban choon hong (taiwan dialect mix with chinese)

michael schumacher- great thinker and big on guts. when he started out, he was placed at the 13th spot after the trial first round and so he plan and strategise and then within one commercial break, he knocked off 10 drivers to be at the 3rd place... woohoo... salute!!! though he came in 2nd to winner fernando alonso by 0.215 seconds but wow,he is excellent man and alonso is good too, succeeding in blocking schumacher through out the last few laps... alonso is quite cute too hahah nice smile =D

went to do pattern making project with cher =) and we nearly laughed out heads off when we saw a lady sitting beside us fell off her chair,we're not like laughing at her but more to how on earth can she fall off a huge well balanced chair and in such a graceful position... and then from there we went to the toilet before going home,we entered the cubicles beside each other and bwahahahaha we heard a loud fart... literally loud... and we thought it was each other hahaha there you have it, 2 girls giggling non stop and trying to stop giggling -failed attempt...

ah wang!!! wang fu cheng long aka square pegs is showing on channel 8 soon!!! i am going to watch it man!!! though i have watched it erm...twice... hahaha finished 2 sets of cantonese drama within 5 days while doing projects and thats like 15 episodes per day... heh... should fast from any tvb dram =D

you're capable of doing more. come on, with god all things are possible.

thinking: =D
song: =)

it's one of those days when you just want to lock yourself up in the house doing nothing but projects. eeewww... handing up 2 projects tmr and 1 more on monday. double eeewww...

shepherd yokes yesterday at fat mama's and we got to know each other better too yup =) talked about vision and how we can glorify god next time and what are we exactly here for? why do we go into our course and how will it benefit god's kingdom? i have no idea but i know it's the best plan ever.

i'm looking forward to ss and dmm tmr and monday. havent been fellowshipping with dians for quite some time...

due to stress, i went to this website http://www.airlinemeals.net/to have a good laugh at the comments of the different airplane food. and when im going bonkers soon, i play this sperm game http://www.deviantart.com/view/12325266/.. try it, it's really really fun =D

thinking: capable of doing more
song: nothing compares to you

i have 2 choices. get angry. or cool it. the latter is healthier. though i think the former might let me feel good for a while. the latter it is... lesson learnt about doing group project. find proper projectmates who doesnt give empty promises and not do their work. i find it very hard to talk to this person tmr if he ever turn up for lesson. why do people give empty promises just like that? i mean, don't they feel embarassed or even guilty? i don't think so...

this same classmate of mine hurt me when he told me i had the worst case of speaking english, cheena accent, bad written english, trying hard to look good, not knowing enough. tell me. anymore? i admit. eversince i've been told about my english, you don't hear my speaking english that often anymore. i stammer my way through or even pause to prevent even more stammering or best of all, cover up in chinese... argh!

sometimes i ask myself over and over again. is it ok to be angry or sad? just how much is ok and not being emotional?

i'm was so frustrated that i started to cry.

i'm doing fine. no worries.

thinking: homework is still on but i won't succumb to anything nor anyone's standard of me.
song: phantom of the opera...

i repent. about certain stuff. stuff that you will cringe. stuff that might make you want to hit me on my back. stuff that you will definitely look at me from a different angle. stuff that...

i had a wonderful dinner with pearls, livi and eilton. we ate chicken rice (eat your heart out jon lee fang wei!!!) the chicken is good but the skin is even better...hmm hmm... anyways we laughed so loudly at the kopitiamthat the uncles drinking their tiger wereeyeing at us suspiciously...heh we're all joyful people amen?!

it's homework time later on... zzz...

ps: i repent...on killing ants by burning them and ... you don't want to know what else i did man...fellow ant burner eilton ho...we really must repent...

the nod on whether to open a casino will be decided tmr. actually it really doesnt matter what us citizens think. the govt already said that this casino thingy is actually about the country. and once the govt decide on something, hmmm where is our views being taken to? so i don't really see the big hoohaa conversations before that. thinking back. once the casino opens, one thing that might be or probably be affected are the families who have people addicted to gambling and banks (legal loan sharks) and loan sharks will have a fine day collecting money with interest... sometimes i can't help but think that there will be one more thing to add on to their addiction of 4d and toto...

thinking: homework...i can't wait for holidays...
song: ...

been missing school - argh. virul infection again. my breathe stink to the core man, even oscar (my dog) literally ran away from me when i muttered a hi... ooohhh homework is finally done but there's somemore coming up and... and... i just wanna go scream my lungs out and have a good meal at whampoa's bao ya mei hokkian noodles...

my classmate cindy is very funny eh hur hur hur... i'm not dating anyone esp john, he's my classmate and he stays near me and obviously we take the same bus to school and walk together and that raises eyebrows in class about me and him dating... what? no way man... spare me from harm lord hahaha anyways, because i'm on MC (see that cindy hahaha) get to stay at home and nua and rest my body, was watching oprah's show special, the most romantic man in america and all 3 nominated men has a common point. they write cards regulary to their wives (eg, thank you for clearing the house today, i really appreciate it etc, ahem, learn to do that singaporean men- appreciate your wives) but contestant no 2 is the one that makes my eyes water... he shave his head so that his cancer fiancee doesn't feel that bad being bald... he help her with injections, goes to her chemotherapy and radiotherapy sessions and he cried openly when he felt really down... men who cry, who says they're soft?

hope's birthday will be a smashin time yeah? looking forward to it =D

thinking: more homework
song: =)

i want my hands to break off so i won't have to draw my illustrations at all.
i want my hair to drop off so i won't have to bother with washing it or tying it.
i want my garlic shaped nose to disappear so i won't have flu again.
i want my leg hair and armpit folicle to die once and for all to prevent shaving ever.
i want my nails to stop growing at a certain length because cutting nails is simply wasting time.
i want my stomach to be pitless so that i can eat all i want.
i just want to sleep.

hahaha i'm totally bonkers with my homework now, i need to do something different for a while...

i'm excited about my date with my dates this sunday evening... i have hairy leg man, i have chicken man, i have pirate queen, i have... how do i describe pearls... and still pending are my lab mice and my sunrays...

thinking: no macromedia freehand... tmr die at bian rong's hands...
song: some sappy song on 94.6fm

water babies!!! we have a total of 129 h2o bap babies!!! we have quite a no of people in di going for h2o bap and pecks!!! you're one of them!!! loveyaloveyaloveyaloveyaloveya!!!! saw pamela who used to be in di and now in adults and she's also going in the water!!! remembered how difficult it was to tell her about why and what we do and yeah!!! yokes!!! it'll be your turn next time okay!!! 10 april, the first time i see so many people from diff groups going as on full force down ecp. it's a bit scary actually, hahaha but hey, it's a day worthy to be remembered!!! 129~ *go by 4d for this wed 1297* hahaha

played with a 2 month old baby named emily, pretty little softie as in literally she's soft as in limbs and all, i was so scared i might break her when i tried turning her around for wendy to carry... and she didn't refuse me when i wanted to carry her again!!! because apparently the 1st thing babies see me, they'll cry... i wonder why.... hmmm -_- anyways, dear nengs - i sat on the same row as kopi's brother and i asked him to help me call wendy and then he smiled at me... nengs... are you jealous?

i have 2 very precious buddies. jaime and pearline. for wanting to help me plan for my da shou... i'm such a bad planner (sure fail as wedding planner or whatever planner) thats why god placed 2 wonderful women in my life, to lift me up with their consistant smiles and crazy ideas and of cos, their simple love for me...

i was at starhub last night and i rec a piece of news, i got startled then i got happy and then i went home to think about it and then i got kinda -_- but then i got excited again!!! praise god for that piece of news!!! because... he has the best plan for me!!! and he reveal it to me last night!!! i always wanted things and plans my way and though last time it didn't turn out right and yet this plan is came out suddenly... and it's the best...

thinking: desserts!!! im stressed... bring on the tomatos and tiramisu
songs: god will make a way (sister is constantly singing this song e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y haha)

my best friend asked me where do people go after they die and will she be in the same place after she die? but halfway through, the conversation fell through but i know deep down, she knows the answer.

deep down. i know the answer too. and i know why and for what reason.

but why is it that sometimes it's so hard to love certain people amongst us? i know certain people find me unloveable too... wha... =( but anyways, i overcame certain isues in my life... shall not openly publicise here but hee, between god and me =)

went for cloth scouting today at arab street... it was tiring and humid, i can understand our brothers in army and how they felt like when doing route march (reuben in ecp heh heh) and spent fifty bucks on art materials alone... i'm dead broke... anyone willing to sponsor germs?

was late for ss, and hee... nearly snoozed off suring sermon... went for dinner and meimei treat me hazelnut/mint/donatella ice cream!!! celebrated jing min's birthday and heh, really love to play with this girl... our fights and biting of each other heh

tmr pecks is going to obey god and going for h2o bap!!! woohoo!!! love ya cupcake!!!

thinking: sleep
songs: =)

i've got my phone!!! and my line!!!

*do the hustle, shakes butt and waves flabby arms in the air*

haiz... lord, what did i do to deserve such a perverted sheep!!! *ahem you know who you are right...* you play online anime games and act as a contraceptive pill fending off sperms... and your 72... and your orange julius joke...(don't think i don't know!!!)* gag!!! i must fast and pray...

justin is teaching in nafa!!! muahahahaha teaching for a few weeks, must bring you around for wanton lunch at sunshine plaza lor... and he described my school lifts resembling like asylum padded walls cum lifts... heh...

i can't for ss tmr... to see my people and to listen...

thinking: peanuts is passe. pass me the tomato anytime
song: =)

went to work at pearl energy... 12 bucks an hour for 5 hours, pretty fun actually, our job is just refilling red wine, white wine and beer to the expats there... gosh, there were so many expats in one single room and all in different accents and from different countries, pretty fun actually... zhenyan and jaron were being teased by me all night long... yan zhi and the over weight alan shearer lookalike huh... anyways, i realised something, speaking with them, it makes me want to improve my english and in my articulation yup. no more singlish english. but with a few sia and wha lau eh ( one english man said it when he couldnt pull out the cork ) i think it adds more flavour to our engerleesh. ai mai anyone?

zhenyan got a bit woozy afer drinking the red wine on an empty stomach and jaron? he's all smiley and smiley and smiley... jaron and i were pouring the alcohol and we happened to overhear this expat telling asking another chinese lady to introduce him some ladies, especially those who are understanding -_-; i got so sick of smelling tiger beer that i nearly wanted to puke...

darn tired now and projects are piling up. =D but i like the feeling of being pressurised... and i got a piece of news late last night, got really happy cos my friend wanted to get me a ticket to down under but then again, ministry will be affected... timing... hahaha... tmr is cg day!!! yeah it'll be shi min's 1st cg and yoke's first leading of games hee... lets have slam each other on the grounf game shall we?

thinking: sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep
song: some hongkie drama theme song

i just came back from a date... and my date is... pearls... we dined ( bengawan solo, egg mayo sandwich, tiramisu ice cream ) and wined ( milo and teh si kar something and plain water ) and we talked our hearts out... i was amused with pearls and her exciting fare of life story and she had her shock about my numerous secret admirers... ( did i stumble anyone? ) i'm kidding!!! and oh yeah... i told pearls, i'm anticipating my next target to fall for my charms... muahahahaha -_- lame sia... cos when you put 2 loving and funny person together ( probably sanguines and melecholics ) you get 3 hours of non stop chatting and very animated actions... we can take part in the far side series if there's one... hahaha gary larson here i come =p

was supposed to visit pearls after my school but ended up talking from ps to marina bay station to toa payoh =D really, i really treasure this friendship we have together =)

i noticed something about my pop. he's getting older... and he's this strong pole holding the family together... sometimes, old people do funny things to attract our attention ( my friend's pop hit them on their head while they sleep ) whilst mine, he listens to me with his tired eyes, scarred arms and tired physical body... and yet sometimes i don't appreciate what he's doing...

thinking: family bond?
song: that cindy wang song... it's stuck in my head... urgh

magnificent

who compares to you
who set the stars in their place
you who calmed the ranging seas
that came crashing over me

who compares to you
you who bring the morning light
the hope of all the earth
is rest assured in your great love

you are magnificent
eternally, wonderful, glorious
jesus, no one ever will compare

to you jesus

where the eveing fades
you call forth songs of joy
as the morning wakes

we your children give you praise

you are magnificent

eternally, wonderful, glorious

jesus, no one ever will compare

to you jesus

be honest... i think this is tidal tsunami 100 on the richter scale wave i have now... knowing in head won't make much difference until it's a printed on my heart... i'm blessed to have this problem =)

someone asked me last night, if i don't return to church will you still be my friend. of cos i will. if friendships is being based just on whether you backslide or whether you're still in church physically or whatsoever. i think that will be a friendship that i considered shallow. of cos, when someone left church, we will most prob see them less often but that doesnt make us inch them out of our lives right? it's sad when one left church and somehow most of the time, the people they're used to be very closed to suddenly drop them like hot potatos or doesn't talk to them anymore...

thinking: raining and pouring
song: magnificent

found a great shepherding place in ang mo kio... great atmosphere, cheap food (chix chop with rice and fries, ice lemon tea, cream of chix) all for $5.80... anyways, great time shepherding too... received and gave. didn't start the day off well especially... anyways, saw edwin working at life shop and saw eilton and david too... went to toa payoh central (the area before the library) to eat my fav waffle. sat down and thought over a few stuff... time seem to pass super slow but yet hmmm...

god's plan is still the best. have faith.

this is a true story...

2 middle aged women went to collect their yong toufu ingredients and sauces at a factory. after they left, nancy (driver) went to drive the car over. maria (passenger) waited. soon they were on their way to their stall. half way through the journey, they saw a truck coming straight towards them at a junction, unable to brake in time, nancy could only try to turn the car to the other direction, it was too late, maria screamed and then the car overturned... soon after, nancy noticed that she had some bruises, turning to maria whose eyes were closed, she fear for the worst...

nancy: maria! wake up! are you ok? wake up!!!

thank god, maria didn't pass out, so she slowly turned to nancy's side, only to reveal her left side of her head.

nancy: oh my gosh maria!!! you're bleeding!!!

maria: no i'm not, it's the yong tauhu sauce.

hahahahahahahahahah true story, courtesy from my sister's church friends... they escaped unharm, only with some bruises... hahahaha

thinking: when it's the darkest, the light shines the brightest
song: my heart your home