last night's rehearsal was a blast. they blew me away. hard work+ talent+god's work=success... wha~ my fav part of everything? the drums part. it's so cool =D

was talking to justin when i bumped into him at isle's cafe. told him about my school library and so on and oh yeah~ a $80.60 fine for a book reported lost which ive never seen let alone borrow. we talked about the butterfly joke and the pull his leg joke *guffaws... saw baowei and compared pox marks, saw livi and the butterfly joke came again =D then it was time to go to nexus. reached there and then soon after, started out with deco then stayed late for image. wha~ ending everything by going home with nellaby~

this will be a day - for 1st and 2nd service to overflow and new bs to join us =D

saw beyond's last 6 concert in hongkong from 27 jan - 2 feb article. why are the last 6 concerts in hongkong??? come to singapore please... if all fails, then i shall wait for the original band queen to come here for their asia tour. singapore is small but don't ignore it. =)

thinking: isle's cafe milopeng and suidan
song: that fantastic keyboard tune by val ron and yaoguo... is *v*

kulabashante... hopefully my phone can be found soon... it's funny how the phone can be there one minute and next, it's gone. something is wrong but i can't seem to figure out anything... image for this week a bit headache sia but nevertheless, everything will be alright!!! i know that it'll make the music team super happy if everything is just plain stark black but hohos~ it's time for a change... suddenly, the creative juices in nel's and my brain start to erupt vigourously, we wanted eye liner on the girls ( i think shuping will be quite happy with that ) and yes, the guys also... but nah, that idea was axed, but soon, another one came out, suave and sexy~ latino man~ but then again, i think we're both disappointed somehow -.-' so, heh thinking again and hopefully this time, it'll be a blast~ blowing the hair off the visitors with the music esp!!!

class was alright, got to know some new people and the world is so small... one of them knows nyp's yoke mun and huifang and another is olivine's classmate of 5 years, i still miss my old classmates esp jinx, dingz, kevin etc... but it's okie =D

chants: handphone handphone handphone handphone... where are you!!!!!

thinking: beancurd on hotplate...
song: palladium - whoa...................................................... if only if only... =D

went to nexus last week!!! woohoo!!! like baowei's blog, i really miss a lot of things, even the polluted air outside =D ess was good! overflowed... wha... third service soon!!! praise surprisingly was titled with every(s) yeah!!! song presentations were thumbs up and i had my first foodcourt dinner since 3 weeks of confinement. yummy... had a good chat with sheepie and she finally told me what happened, wha~ sigh of relieve =)

the past months nov-jan wasn't exactly the months i looked forward to. with the constant heavy mind thinking of repeating the school term, the family problems, sheeps problems, financially burdened, health, pastorial, ministry wise, i wanted to give up everything.

then i got the news that i've got to repeat my term. tsunami came and the fish stall was badly affected, sister suddenly moved back from her house due to an unfaithful fiance, couldn't identify with sheeps' same problem in fact don't even know what to do except using own pea brain to counsel, financially badly hit, read somewhere about an olympic athlete who died from complications of epilepsy which scared the legs off me, not even a single contact came and got so tired of doing image cos there's too little help. after xmas, caught fever and then pox, a sabbtical month old break came in just handy. thought a lot about why such things happen and how come and why me. break through came when i saw how my born again sister overcame her obstacles in life. though coming from different churches with diff values and diff teachings and even diff understandings, she showed me how a christian should live - a joyful life and constantly checking whether is she in line with god. so i check myself. why did i have that horrible thought of leaving him? am i tired of doing things, am i trying to carry everything with my own scrawny self or did i stop loving god.

i checked myself again. do i think that i'm wonder woman or some tough cookie. i'm just a small pea sized brain human and one with no strength to boot. how can i handle such stuff? the reason behind all these of not being able to cope under pressure is simple. i didn't let go of the things i was holding onto. i should have given it to god. the moment i surrender to god all my burdens, i felt so light. and god is good. things went back into place one after another. the term has just started and even though i felt so miserable ( because of school and the people there) i wanted to brawl (literally -_-) my eyes out during rtm last night but i felt calm enough not to be silly because god is in control afterall not them who controls my situation. the fish stall is doing better though business is slowly picking up, sister's prob is still one headache but i know god has better plans and perhaps a better husband for her since she got out of the place, slowly identifying with sheeps problems after reading up on christ lit on how to handle problems (ahem that also means reading more helps), financial - i can't see $$ but since now i don't have it most probably i don't need it, epilepsy used to scare me a lot cos if i suddenly faint in nexus like i did the last time, what will happen - and will i meet god earlier to play checkers with him? well i guess he doesn't need a player yet and i'm still needed here on earth =p, no contact came? but eric came - an unknown person who popped out of nowhere and wants to convert - say wha! and lastly, god blessed me with 4 more people joining image - say woohoo!

there you go, my testimony on how i give everything to god instead of keeping to myself. but i know that in the future i will have more problems and i will be emotional about it but this time round, i know that my emotions will be controlled by the holy spirit and not myself anymore. there's a step and there's a time for everything. everything is being planned out by god who carefully sculpt us and mould us.

isaiah 55:8-9
For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD .
As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

thinking: carrefour sells really cheap delicious thick layered chocolate melts in your mouth soft biscuits for 12 pieces $2.50 . cheap eh?!!!
song: lets the heavens rejoice~

muahahaha =D got another 5 days mc... but then again, gotta miss a lot of things haiz... went to school to see whether the teachers allow me to go for classes, all of them shooed me home. went to the doc again, she said wha~ very serious. how come ah? blech... my sis caught the pox too... i'm going to miss ss again. somemore ess... i miss u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thinking: food food food. anything but nuah stuff...
song: dancing in the moonlight =D

hello mama! boy am i so bored. kinda funny that at this time usually, i'll be at nexus helping out or meeting my peeps. but now i'm here at home watching wonder woman. eeks. i wanna recover and go back to the outside world!!! actually, i'm getting better thankyouverymuchie=D my cg came to my house and they bought me tiramisu!!! eat eat eat... chew chew chew... softie eh? scabs are falling off~ but most are being picked by my itchy fingers~ i bet in a couple of weeks later i'll cry at the holes i created myself. can't help lah, being bored, you just have to entertain yourself somehow or another. been reading up on christian lit, re-read the far side, done qt(s), newspapers are being read over and over again... internet? can't use comp cos sisters are scared of being pox by a poxed user until i'm better so yup, better now hohoho! going to school next week, oh yeah~ A LOT to catch up on and meet new peeps. yeahyeahyeah~ oh. bad news. mobile phone is missing in the house. off it. can't find it. zzz...

watched iuyasha the movie 2 and still am waiting for the dvds... leafy... when is the day that i can rec the inu dvds... i am bored to tears!!! waiting for arnott's biscuits from pearls... =) ack~ thank god that no virus has spread to any family members. yet. crucial timing feb is chinese new year~ loads of selling of fish... but haiz... human touch on nature. eating fish is perfectly fine. no fish's belly has any corpse finger or anything... so don't spread the news. rumour mongers... peeps in penang are being fined if caught spreading unnecessary rumours. go buy more fish and eat more okie~ it's perfectly safe. safe safe safe.

was talking to a friend and it seems like plotting it's way through a life plan might be twart by very last minute changes, human touch changes. is it god or is it human factor? ponder and let me know ya? even though it's god but can human factor be responsible sometimes? but behind human is god. so... erm... case rest.

thinking: magic wok's beancurd on hotplate...
song: wonder woman... eeks.

the family problem is not solved yet. not even a wee bit. don't even know where to help. pop is still waiting, bon is waiting. i'm waiting for my pox to spread to *ahem* enuff to confine for 2 weeks.

mice was really nice, first visitor of the week, came with presents and fruits and vitagen =) night came and my dear auntie pop over and she was a blast with her hubby, a guppie club member... 18 tanks including one huge tank inside the toilet -_-...

one more week to go!!!

thinking: inuyasha dvds...
song: the girl from ipanema

scabs on my head are driving me nuts. my aunt says that they will stop popping after they arrive at their final destination - the feet. i've got a long long way to go man... quaker bites and strawberries seem to be calling out to me from the fridge and i really want to eat them... but lazy lah... chew chew chew... even the mouth has got a few foreign occupants - 7 in fact. can't sleep. can't eat and yet i'm craving for bengawan's choc gateau and peanut waffles and oh yeah, nasi lemak... but i can't have them!!! babee said no seafood ( my dad sells seafood ), wynnii dear says no dark soya sauce ( i crave for them on my chix rice ) and what else is there? old wive's tales or precautions to guard against? this is the 5th day and many of them are still popping... argh~ pls pop more and leave me alone... darn itchy and i even have one on my lip. looks like a sore though...

read not even a hint and every women's battle. great books, teachable stuff and applicable stuff too. when god choose the right partner for you. he's right. don't go around looking for subs, it'll never work out.

thinking: i really want to peel off those scabs
song: =)

a new year
lies open before us
in spite of our resolutions
regardless of our plans
we do not know where
the road will take us
no matter what
god is with us

psalm142:3
when my spirit grows faint within me
it is you who know my way

school started today and i'm already on a 2 weeks mc. cos of... chix pox!!! hahaha first time having them and now it's kinda a torture for my family cos everyone is avoiding me... oh wells, if i could ask livi to lend me the inu dvds... =p...

went to the stranger's classroom today, felt kinda sad that i won't be joining my usual clique of peeps and instead, joining a group of strangers until i graduate... but you know what? god put me here for a purpose. and i believe in him. that in all things are under his control. got real scared when i meet new peeps, you know, the usual stuff, but hey, i have god.

2 Timothy 1:7 (New International Version)

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self discipline.

thinking: itchy...
song: i walk by faith