yeah! wishing that saturdays never end... haha~ bought ice cream with the girls~ mmm~

shelby: hazelnut and strawberry cattage
jane: hazelnut and rock melon
jaime: hazelnut
me: mint and chocolate

woohoo~ next week another round lor~ but shall always stick to mint haha peppermint is the bext kinda ice cream~ yeah~

out of abundance the heart speaks. i read a blog and i just cringed. i asked myself, what is lust.

it is an intense or unrestrained sexual craving.

it scares me about what people are thinking when they are talking to you. when i see some people that i know. i couldn't comprehand what's going on actually until i stumbled upon what's actually going on. it's scary and it's not healthy. can you resist temptation? can you resist that person asking you out for dinner when you jolly well know whats going on next when the movie is over? one thing leads to another. now maybe a movie is pretty comfy for both of you to watch. next, going out together is also okie... then next and so on. i'm not saying that being attach is a bad thing or we should remain as nuns or monks for god. but it's the purpose of being single, to enjoy being single, is good, because god always has the best plans for us. do you actually understand that or you just wanna forget about it and get on with your own things and then when your fingers are burnt, don't come crying, saying why didn't you tell me that it will hurt when we break up?

Sex is a wonderful blessing given to us by the Lord that serves to express intimacy to another. This means that the marriage bed must not violate the commandments of God in deed or thought. no adultery. no incest. no voyeurism. the sexual union can bring glory to God as it is experienced in fulfillment of God's design and purpose to provide pleasure, companionship, intimacy, and a means of fulfilling the command of God to fill the earth.

there you have it. enjoy singlehood.

it's not easy. it's very hard. it's difficult. but in all, just don't entertain such thoughts. in case you can't resist mr SA tan, flee from him instead that pisai nicumpoot head.

oh by the way. if you can't even handle your own life and your own things well, don't destroy other's life okie... let god take control instead. you'll be a much happier person.

thinking: either i'm a poster girl for the mosquitoes or i'm simply too sweet for them to resist. itchy ah!
song: better than life

yeah. i've conquered...
the comm skills
the marketing
the pattern making
the printing
the photoshop

soon to be conquered.
knitting
sewing
fashion business
and 123

all these can be done.

all by god. because... WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE YEAH!!!

tonight i'm meeting my boyfriend for supper. my boyfriend is very smart. he can do big sums without using the paper and pen. he can make me smile with his right answers. sometimes when i feel argh. i tend to press or even smack him on the face really hard. sometimes i feel like throwing him away into the bin. but he's just too important to me.

he is my calculator -.-

this one lagi better.

conversation between timothy from di and me

ah kwek says:
projects
ah kwek says:
still a lot
ah kwek says:
8 modules u think leh
Always stick to God wherever u go says:
of coz
Always stick to God wherever u go says:
wow
Always stick to God wherever u go says:
u still got on air con one or not
ah kwek. says:
huh?
ah kwek. says:
what kinda question is that?

haha am i supposed to laugh or feel diao. neither.

i.felt.that.i.could.associate.with.his.question.just.like.how.i.asked.jaime.did.you.chant?

thinking: tmr's church day! yeah! yeah! yeah!
song: fever - peggy lee

came home after a night of slogging over the laptop, homework, reviews and knitting. dang it's making me go gaga over every little things now. i can't see properly and my head's spinning. hopefully nothing of that sort will happen again. realise something. i like my stuff/project done in a messy, colourful and kindergarten way. haha teacher told me about my colour board project. wha~ i like your colours but u've done them up it in a kindergarten way. and what's with that spidernman pic!!! germaine kwek!!! tsk tsk tsk... you spoilt the whole thing with that spiderman... ah~ kaboom... there and then i laugh and tilt my head and... then... the suaning conts...

mice's hammie passed away. i asked a stupid question that i felt even more stupid myself.

g: where did you dumped it to?
j: threw it away lah
g: did u chant?

duh... why such a stupid question??? i must be crazy to ask such a dumb question. but oh wells, excuses are to be heard here. i didn't get my extra dosage of oxygen within me... ah thats why... *smack head*

it's time for miss kwek to chiong. chiong. chiong. chiong. chiong. chiong. chiong. chiong. chiong.

thinking: chiong homework.
song: tv commercial.

ah~ what a day... prayers work and god doesn't stop working and oh yes, he works on time. he make sure the sun rises on time so we will wake up on time, he make sure the sun sets too so we can have our good night sleep. ah~ little things in life that god made for us - contents in our life make up our whole life story, but in the end, many's contents are worth nothing, all empty words and all full of bitterness, pride, anger or even lies.

what lies beneath? beneath a mask, a smile, an expression or even a conversation?

sis was driving me home from school and she was playing her church sermon tape and many things hit me. about how my life has been revolving around projects and my classmates. and how far i was from god recently. until to a point, i screamed at my shepherd. nope i'm not ashamed to blog about this but only hope that readers out there will see this entry from another angle and maybe learn something from it. out of abundance the heart speaks. in your anger do not sin. all which i failed to do. i got so caught up with my class politics until to a point i got so sick of it. the mouth... how i wish i could snip it off but no, wisdom and encouragement shall come out of it instead. not putting people down. my class. sometimes i wish i will go back to my old self where i will just smile and ignore whatever new gossip they're spreading around instead of wanting to know more. and also, the fact that sometimes, when thigns go wrong as they sometimes will, take the crap with a step of faith and face it. don't turn away from it. i turned away from god and so many other stuff that i chose to ignore it and in the end i isolate myself. feeling so empty. because i didn't put god first or rather, running away from god. in the end. i chose him over everything because deep inside me i knew that without him i can't do anything, without him i couldn't survive.

without Him, i am nothing.

and then god spoke. about hiding his word deep inside our heart. not letting it slip away. memorise his words so that it can be inside us, stay with us, becoming part of us.

so what am i gonna do next now that i refreshed myself?

go figure... :)

homework will not cease, neither will problems. but faith will do exactly the opposite. but remember... faith without works is dead. don't say but not do okie... this implies to all peeps. and me. :)

was chatting with bon today and she told me something about evangelising everywhere you go. she helped an old lady bring her heavy sardine cans to her house. old grandmama doesnt dare to take the lift so they climbed the stairs together. then sis asked her in teochew

sis: do you know jesus?
grandmama: yes, he's a good man~
sis: yup, but do u wanan accept him into your life?
gmm: can meh? i so old liao, can change ah?
sis: of cos!
gmm: but who will pray for me when i die?
sis: no one will becos they will lead their own lives by then.
gmm: is it?
sis: yes. would you like to go to heaven?
gmm: smiles
sis: you can you know by accepting him into your life.
gmm: grins
sis: can i pray for you?
gmm: okie!
sis: ***
gmm: grins thank you!
sis: how old are you?
gmm: you guess.
sis: 8++?
gmm: haha so young meh no lah guess again.
sis: 9++?
gmm: nope im more than a decade old... grinz~

in case being more than decade old means nothing to you, what about this, walking to her flat more than 10 blocks away from tiong bahru plaza without taking the lift. man this gmm is one women of steel sia...

next thing i've heard from wynnii the penguin...

wyn saw an old man in the mrt, anytime the mrt jerks, the old man will fly anytime too ( becos he's standing mah and very fragile liao ) wyn looked around and saw a couple sitting down together...

wyn: excuse me, can you please give up your seat to this old pek here?
couple: NO.
wyn: ...speechless.
mrt audience: diao couple...

it dawned upon me that, the couple ah... tsk... and also the audience ah... don't diao... but give up one of your seat too mah...

do you give up you seat to that old uncle, pregnant lady, auntie carrying lotsa things etc over there? time to give it up okie...

thinking: one day in the house of god is, better than a thousand days in the world~
song: nameless tune

". whoa man... http://www.fanzhiwei.com/down.html take a look at the commercial from mcdonald's... the one with the 1.66m... ah totally melts man... i'm not talking about the curry rice here... it's wing fan i'm talking about...~ woohoo~ http://www.fanzhiwei.com/ that's his website... bah! what does he see in wang xin yi? that singer... grrrr... i see green... gags~

happened to stumble upon his website and hahaha~ i will not fight with meimei over keanu reeves * passe * and orlando bloom * he's taken by kate * wing fan here i come!!!

okie... taking some break now... am going nuts soon over projects projects and more projects... ah~ going to plan for image soon also, buy blusher and foundation and comb and pins... seems like things always got misplace no matter how nicely we packed them... probably forgotten to return when borrowed...hmmm? where are thou?

hmmm... image is a ministry... a seasonal one too but one important fact about image is that we learn the art of waiting * up to 2 hours sometimes :* and yup, train patience and brain to work fast to find clothes straight away and be humble cos we work behind the scenes * ps it's never bling bling nor is it glamourous * and oh yes... we all work for god and this ministry is also for him. it's never about us making people look good SO we feel good but it's actually we making people look good so that visitors will be impressed by the clothes that go along with the flow of the theme. therefore... image must buck up and start to learn more stuff and do more and sacrific more... remember, it's NEVER about us but it's for His kingdom!!!

okok~ back to homework again~ zai jian le da jia...

thinking: I WANT TO PLAY BASKETBALL!!! JOANNE! PEARLS! GERALD! DONOVAN! KEHAN! livi and mice can pick up balls though... oops...
song: ". melts...

just came back watching story of a weeping camel~ ah my kinda show... a documentary in fact~ bored the tears out of na but only me and bon were like... oh so cute so sad... tear a bit here and there lah~ my next few movies to watch... vainty fair, wimbledon, one flew over the cuckoo's nest and hitler... miss those shows... anyways, good day today and yup some stuff cleared and by the way... it's good to cry out once a while. whether you're a guy or not.

determined to learn guitar... even if jon lee insist that i'm musically handicapped ( can't sing cant play ) one day revenge shall be done...

christmas dramas is coming up lor!!! shall i go for audition? but im in drama liao... but then again... i don't want the audience to die laughing... ho, im being very considerate here okie my dears~ though i wanan try dancing... hahaha pls don't puke mice.

ah~ plans set for this end of the year... whats yours?

thinking: what kinda things will prevent you from finishing the race? take a stockcheck maybe... pride, results, family, studies, money, relationships, status... but in the end i think it all boils down to pride. oh wells, thats my thinking~
song: shout your fame through all the earth~ i will praise you~

kevin: AH MUiiii why are u still single ?? is it because of your new YONG TAU FOO HAIRSTYLE ahyooo must grow it long long so can attract more guys anyway i heard that you're good in ORAL so i must really see how fabulous are u ( guys out there test her out..) hahaa

jinqi: i am a little pea living in my boyfriend's armpit hair. i can't breathe. help me...ohhh germaine help ME!!! i am paranoid..=0

those above was being typed by my dear ah hia... he hasn't taken any pills yet. please pardon him... and he meant oral by oral reading. pls. do not think too much. and guys mean genectic term.

pea meaning dirt. and yes jinqi did typed that. if she ever tage me saying i did not do that. please do not believe her.

germ: im going nuts with such classmates... tsk... they paid me a bowl of shark's fin soup so that i could let them blog on my blog... by the way, those are fake shark's fin... courtesy and cooked by jinqi... ( fern si and corn starch and... more corn starch... )

what a day. abercrombie and fitch!!!

saturday night is movie night!!! woohoo!!!

thinking: i need my flu medicine...
song: no doubt ( coming out of kevin's pc... )

relax, god's in charge... perd sent me a love sms today~ wha~ melted in the middle of my tedious knitting...

feel like vomitting... the food that i've been eating and accumulating inside my tummy is making me feel eeewww... can't poop. can't burp. can't swallow saliva... eeww eeww eeww...

knitting was great cos... i knitted 3 inch within 2 hours... say wha okie~

couldn't do survey with perd and sheep today cos had to go for lessons... next time is my time...

i'm just letting go of some steam here. so crap ba germs.

in case of insanity that might occur in germ's brain, i might do the following...

1) eat chili
2) sing in public
3) dance in public
4) wear a thick make up aka zhao wei in shalin soccer
5) wear bright pink top with lime green pants on saturday
6) force the musicians accompany me and make sure they wear pink too

in case of sanity that will most probably remain in germ's brain, i will do the following

1) eat chili but must add ketchap inside
2) sing in public in a choir
3) dance in public at national stadium during national day
4) insist that i'm wearing make up for a broadway play
5) for drama
6) sorry but this might come true one day. lets experiment. it's good to have a change once in a while *snigger* this comes from an idea that was long implanted in scallop's forever wanna sarbo people brain... go find scallop and bake him ba~ oops...i just betrayed scallop...

okie... i'm laming here... really... am getting so crazy that sometimes i stare into space and i start to act like ah hiu ( open mouth wide wide and star into space eye not flickering aka sotong) only to realise that i still have to snap back to the singapore reality. projects and homework and more of them.

thinking: maybe i'm better off as a sotong in the deep blue sea...
song: this is a song lalalala elmo song~ ( this song is my best friend's fav song but it makes me scream help!!! karma huh~ hahaha )

interesting day, homework was usual, like what ding said, snowballing yeah~ sewing scares me especially -.- in class, politics are getting a wee out of hand, hopefully nothing will be blown to scale. went for chekup yesterday and yeah, nothing happened lor~ just have to take more medicine and flu medicine~ hahaha finally flu free days!!! after that na bought me to tanglin after that 3 1/2 hours of waiting at the hospic till 7pm we turned up at tanglin mall~ favourite hangout place haha~ then waited for ah leh then from there we dabao then proceed to smu to makan cos it's quiet~ reached home late... did my knitting and then plop... snore...

babee i... wanna eat omelette mushroom with cheese
perd u helped me loads :)
sheep u BERRY funny hor * touch nose bridge *
meimei i miss our 2 hour conversations but haha ish okie!!! i shall find nemo and slaughter him instead...
ashley miss our lame lame laughters and slacking on livi's bed
livi... i saw rum and raisins last night but... haha no cash can't buy thats why i said when we're heaven's citizens... ah~
mar... meet up one day and eat sausage and mee soto and mayo meal okie...
xin come back quick lar! i wanna eat jap food. your treat!
mart... hahahaha one of my best bud babeee who hated to be called babee... insist that he doesnt read this but have my url instead... u liar... be a good sound team for church okie! work hard for your studies!
ding iyoh i see you almost everyday leh... i want my keroppi(s)!!!
jinx ah great friend... this thurs cont our beautiful day okie! and come early to school!!!

who have i left out? you...

thinking: of mee soto and jap mayo...
song: tie a yellow ribbon on the old oak tree, if you still want me, if you still love me ( support the ex inmates okie cos they've turn over a new leaf )

saturday and sunday:
church and then to na's house to knit and knit our kinship too and also watched those darn tvbs series non stop while scolding the lead actor every 20 minutes( si bian tai ) from 1130 -4am in the morn and then woke up 3 hrs later to sell big eyes slimy body species till 1130pm and the shopped for groceries till 1230 while planning for later's family dinner with the coming week's newly wed couple popping by to arrange some help for their wedding next week ( i wun be in service. please don't miss the beautiful one )... oh did i mention i had to stand inside the video shop with our stinking air fresh boots with my blur sister who just couldnt decide which tvb series she wanna watch? ( reasons: i don't like ouyangzhenwha, i don't like lin feng, i don't like period shows and i don't like this actress and other teeny pooper upcoming rising starlets ) tell me, spending about 1 hour inside the shop trying to introduce her different kinds of series ( which i enjoyed most of which is period ) she just doesn't want any of it and yet refused to leave the shop. how the auntie can stand the stench in the airconditioned shop i couldn't comprehand... and then now i'm here, typing and feeling sleepy and yet i know i can't sleep cos i have tons of homework to do and i have set my goal for my subjects...

glorify god. be a salt and light. i can do all things through christ who strengthens me.

ah! homework siao ah!!!

ps: when i stepped into my sister's house, max which weighs about 30 ++ kg now and wang wang 15++ kg now starts to pounce on me... i have no choice and no where to go but to stay there on the floor letting them licking me on the face. saliva attack!!! even oscar doesnt does that cos, he's too small, he can't hold a candle to me... but max... i'm a puny bean pole compared to his... wolf size... siao liao... his saliva puddle can make me slip so how big do you think he is?

a thought to ponder on: love your neighbour as yourself... ah~ i really find this super hard... i tried to speak to you nicely but i'm sure you can tell that i rather eat grass instead. oh repent germs. don't let the person put you down. for you know no matter what it is, you still have god. ps to you, by the way you're telling me about how my hair looks i don't care, making a joke out of it, i don't even give a hoot about it ( in case you don't know much about me. i like dark cynical humour and i dont mind being the butt of jokes and my hair used to be shorter than some guys out there with fringes ) but if you keep on harping it and laughing when u see me and grinning whatsoever. i've learnt something from you. and that is to not act like you when i see a haircut i don't really like on someone else's head. ah go ponder young lass. we're all living in a well, we both aint see nothing yet alrights? lets learn.

thinking: 123, pattern making, knitting ( which i undo it like ever 1/2 hr while watching the series... ) and... to pound chili garlic shallots and hey bi later on... wha~ ncie dinner coming up!
song: brain dead...

yadayadayada... am so sleepy now... but because we had a night dip at phoebe's house... wha~ the swimming pools ah~ woohoo~ great cg!!! *mind is blank... tired out by projects and running around singapore*

tp - bencoolen - bb - tp again... headache ah~ not to mention that ah beng sitting beside me for the next 20 mins ride to tp smell like he just bathe in colonge... not those nice one but those super power kind *nong*... now my nose is stuck... argh!!!

very happy today because i did my pattern making pieces even though it's only 1/2 done but im still glad cos... it took me 4 hours just to wait for my dear mr vernon and while waiting i did my knitting and i redo it about... 6 times? go figure.

i read an article about this lady going suntanning while she was young and when she got old, she regretted about what she did in her haydays... cos it causes SKIN CANCER, dark patches of skin and also... more wrinkles then often... ah~ don't say i didnt warn you when i said you look like your bag colour aka dark dirty brown and no point applying sunblock and such... it just doesnt work. staying out of the sun works. get it?

ah~ applys to long term life without reading the bible... crave spiritual milk darlings... the word is there for you. so read it. not chuck it. don't come running after god when things don't work.
he becomes clearer and more real when things HAPPEN.

ah~ realised that the ego of a man is as big as they blow it. i was in the train when i overheard this guy saying to another... lemme tell ya~ i've seen the worst okie! i saw this man punching the other when the latter said, come punch me then! wha~ then he kenna punched! wha seh! hello... he asked for it so he shall received it. whats there to be wha seh about? i understand that maybe you wanna be there when you see the *most* happening things around and so on but erm... on a scale of wha seh-ness... hmmm... ya lor whats there to be wha seh... unless you tell me you've seen the cow jump over the moon... wha~ wha seh man...

thinking: homework and people and words shall break my heart and physically but god heals everything!!!
song: no song tonight but i got tune in my head... it sings... bah bah black sheep * must be hallucinating *

i look like a mushroom now... james my hairdresser... hahaha actually i do like this hairstyle ho~my classmates... they gave me all kinds of suggestions to cut my hair further... alyssa milano's fringe... wha~ advantureous sia... so now... final product: mushroom head. i could have dyed it red with black spots then maybe i might resemble a ladybird instead...

knitting kills brain cells slowly but it's good for testing patience lah~ hohoho... apparently class today was... dead as usual... let buck up 3B1!!! lets chiong for our...

1 ) fall winter 2004 fashion reviews!
2 ) one knitted tank top!
3 ) 8 kimage illustrations!
4 ) colour board including theme and colours and cover page!
5 ) potato print design on a fashion hand made item!
6 ) sew 2 pants ( one mock and one real ) and 1 vest ( either mock or real )
7 ) 3g phone project!

wha all by end of this month... and my 123 also!!! whahahaha!!! wo yao feng leh!!!

god is great! he heals the brokenhearted! he bring smiles to the sad and he is the ultimate one in our life!!!

ADORE JESUS

HE ROCKS.

if you really do adore him... you know what to do... read his word and apply it. not say say only and then let words fly away...

told ding this which i think after i woke up from my mini nap during james' colour forecast lecture then i thought of it... ah~ macham like einstein... any idea why purple is considered an international gay colour? because, blue represents the masculine colour and red represents a feminine colour... so in the end when they couldn't get a homosexual colour, they mix the 2 together, voila= purple... make any sense or not? i think it does leh... maybe i shall make the standard of the background of the stage in nexus higher ( aka... wear funny colours ) ah~ cool sia... maybe singers have to wear checks soon or even poms poms on their head... but then again, for the benefit of my spiritual family and the status of my image team... i don't want my siblings to die from laughing so... shall keep to sombre black...

thinking: i must do well!!! ah!!! trumpets please~ and some drums too~ pipipapipu!!!

song: blank. only the word homework circulate in my head and cant play music will get distracted one...

living up to the standards of god. not men.

ah homework is piling. but i still can breathe... those pattern making and sewing especially and that report to write... ah~ knitting too... ah~ save me lord... from eye bags...

i can do all things through christ who strengthen me~ woohoo!!!

thinking: knitting yarn cost me $8.9 x 8...
song: voice of hope~ melts man....

snowflakes

snowflakes abundant in the moon lit night sky

caressing my face as it falls tenderly

as individual as one's kiss

as everlasting as one's love

reminiscing about one's beloved

of how it used to be

now it's gone, to the arms of the Father

whose love is everlasting

to you my beautiful one

you will never be forgotten

ah photoshop is killing me softly... i'm fading away~ help me... i'm drowning... under that pile of homework and... stress and... unconditional love... heck what am i talking about?

2 thessalonians 6 speaks a lot. am i watching too much of channel 55 and discovery? got to get my butt off the couch and start to run like mad on the threadmill... it's now or never~ sings elvis... the king of panda eyes...

thinking: 53-50 this month! 15 chapters by this month!!!it shall be done!!!

song: tom's diner tune in my head... can't get you out of my head~

cg on fri was a real funny one... chuckles* haha, shelby and the gang belted out songs from jay chou, she, one mistaken wubai snake... and many others. ohhh clementi k box branch's service not so nice one... kept opening the door and when we screamed ( shelby in particular ) no privacy ah!!! he opened the door and ask huh what privacy... and he kept walking pass our room, taking really those sneaky peeks in to the room which peeps like jane would suddenly screamed... ah!!! you see!!! got people outside ah!!! sang some old old songs... zhui ai ni de ren sho wo... eternal flame ( i missed this part by jane ) and been looking for this real rock my kbox room song... wu yuan de jie ju... ah~ wo yuan de jie ju~ sax behind... by the way... beyond rocks too. he fun nei and yi xiang qing yuan~ wha~ yes!!! we must sing cando lo's zhou de bi ni zhao!!! and to think i never thought i will belt out cheena songs in my life... smug smile... muahahaha

sat- shepherding... wha~ shallnotrevealwhatwetalked but mainly about school and how life has been pretty interesting for me esp some classmates colouring my world a shade of black a couple of times in fact... woohoo, meeting was great cos we evaulate some stuff and then we apply to our life for the next week or so last quarter to come... yeah~

evaluate your life constantly okie peeps... motives thoughts actions speech all comes from mind... the key to unlock god's heart is obedience... babeee... you taken the step to be obedient and god will not cease to bless you too... ah~ what a wonderful world...

went to ps tp look for babee but she's off to the land of pratas which that shop did caused ding to have food poisoning... but oh wells, i'm not there!!! hmpf!!! but i did ate my fair share of prata this morning... with milosaur... wha very sweet ah~

ps... leafy livi vivi jiwei... i get your hint i get your hint... rums and raisins right... but first where's mine... bleah~

thought: homework time!!! yeah~
song: beyond's qing ren