goodness gracious me... my portrait of a model using only lines and dots are nearly completed... then my friend msn me... saying... you have to add colours to it. dang! how to add colours?! all black and white le... don't care ah, tmr show teacher that at least i've done her homework lor... then from there... heh... anyways, by god's grace, one of my lecturer william, not willaim hung -.- he asked us to do a whole thick file of research then hohoho... germaine... kwek... li... xian... did not do anything!!! ah!!! dang!!! so i panicked... immediately i typed 1 page of contents, chapter 1 and chapter 2 plus introduction and reasons why i am doing this particular topic... all on one A4 piece of paper... when in fact, introduction must be done on one page, reasons on one page, contents on one page, each chapter consist of 1000 words on each individual page... heh... know what? i prayed like siao cos my teacher never fails to scold... or rather put people down like there's no tmr and he evens uses.. sh*t in class to scold lah... you know... sometimes... when he gets really worked up... the f**k too will nearly come out...pengs... and his all time avourite word which i think is SUPER RUDE is shut up... all the people before me kenna like don't know what... then i just prayed with my eyes open cos need to type mah and wait for my turn... dadah!!! my teacher said wha not bad good good good, but pls elaborate. the end. god's grace...

yesterday we have service, wha i like jasmine's teaching cos it's something that i really have to apply it man... taking breaks at the right time... in case you peeps don't know... in my sjc sch in sengkang... i'm always going to the toilet for short naps... at the highest floor there... heh in case even mice doesn't know... hahaha but the more obvious one is... of cos... on my own table lah~ oopsy... played bball again... in lavander... best ah... the sun was like sooooo HOT and donovan and i were like bbq-ing there... bo bian... some people go donate blood~ some came late but look very happy... you know? look very ya ya pa pa ya that kind? heh kidding lah~ no lah cos they all got things to do mah~ wha... got 3 blisters actually, can't really run much, and erm... heh diao~

chat with joanne on certain stuff... hahaha this time really cannot reveal but i have 3 words to sum it up. can't tell ya. hohoho

getting real lame nowadays... my friendster " about me " is so... diao... even when i read it... i feel... diao... but hey... for fun joy and laughter... why not?

heh~ saw someone with someone... orh... xp

feeling: craving for wanton
audio: xp i am cow

wha... yesterday ash and i went to evax!!! wha some people very funny le, say rushing off to school but they macham like strolling leh... never mind hee... shall do it again!!!

cg was great simply because danny, charls and cheng cheng came!!! yeah~ we played a game that erm... displayed our fresh breathe... everyone was being sprayed by each other's saliva somehow or another... especially mine... since whenever it was my turn to blow the papaer ball... HOHOHO~ i couldn't stop laughing... hahaha okok something to learn... worship must be improved... yup...

hmmm... ok lah perdy shall not blame you for the flu bug le... though inside me i know that you are somehow responsible for it... xp hahaha okok took mc today cos... yup... sick... ah!!! cannot tahan le... that thing inside my nose... is so stuck and my ears are block... my taste buds seemed to disappear, i can't smell anything... i even ate some chilli... but it taste like... nothing... surprise yeah~ i don't touch chilli even curry are a no no...

going to school later to hand up my work and collect my homework... alamak... the chix rice stall lee fan num kee closes in the afternoon then cannot help ah hia buy chix rice le...

cannot tahan le... got stomachache too... ah~ god help me take all these away from me!!!

feeling: xp
audio: oscar... come and shower now... my maid is calling for oscar... calling once... twice... sold... -.-

oh man~ things didn't go as smoothly as expected... ok nvrm~ watched a show today, John Q... great show... it's not a christian based movie but well... in another way, it kinda tested people's faith and people's patience for god's answers...

john q's son got a weak heart, got into hospital, hospital didn't really want to save his life because the money wasn't enough to pay off the op so the father got desperate and kidnapped the doc... in the end, the father sacrificed his own life to save his son, only to find that the bullet inside the gun was not loaded oh well, god didn't want him to die because god sent a doner who happened to die, to donate her heart to the son... patience... can wait or not... apply to my life... do i really trust god about my blurred future? yes i should and i must.

saw a preview of this movie previewing tmr... girl with a pearl earring... must watch... no... i think i rather read the book... but hee i love reading and i haven't been to the movie theatre for a long time... so yeah, both lah

perdy is sick again... danny too... me too... whats happening ah the flu bug or rather germs ( yes? ) has been gogin around yeah? haiz... drink more water lor...

feeling: sore throat... blech
audio: so good to me - hillsongs

xi jian shao nian... west road teenager? you know that show lah... that 5566 thingy? yeah... i went to school today, too lazy to tie my hair cos i can't find my comb so i let it down... my classmates... eh xi jian shao nian!!! germaine don't pretend lah... you're the 5566 fan lah... your hair... and your mobile no also have 5566 in it... whey pls leh... is that sun kong guy that look like me ok... not the other way round lor... anyways if you haven't notice, i'm the better looking one xp and yeah... my no has 5566 in them cos it's a 5566 promotion mah... my sister... best... ask me eh girl what no you want? i said i want the one with 5001 not 5566 she said okok... then when she got home... eh girl, 5566 easier to remember... fine... thank you bery much eh~ then better still... got peeps sms me... eh you fan of 5566 ah... how come i can't tell... wha liew... pls leh... i am no fan of 5566 neither do i boycott them just don't say i am one of the fans k... even if 5566 try to look like me... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

feeling sick... got a pretty dry cough now... perdy... you spread to me ah... been drinking lots of water but... hmm... still don't feel good... never mind shall pray~ oh~ kulabashan~

i better be off to liang court tmr... in case that very *nice* and literally dark and VOCAL brother who always bug me ask me for chocolate... hee... tmr going evax le!!!

plans for tmr...

evax at selegie in the morning
go to liang court in the early afternoon while waiting for ash to come back
late afternoon go to either thames or informatics to evax
cg at night
go home do homework!!!

was a bit put off today... my friend owes me money $109 for 1 month already but she kept telling me all kinds of excuses but whenever i see her, she's always having the new bag lah, going clubbing lah, go those indochine or chinablack lah... blah blah blah... then one day she turned up in school with a new handphone... wha pengs... i asked her very nicely... girl when you returning me money... i really need it cos i in turn don't have money le and i've been borrowing money waiting for you to return me the dough... best she told me some stuff that was really crappy but well... kan zhai peng you de fen shang i just kept quiet... then she said i will tmr... but tmr never comes... then today she said the money with her friend... long story... i got a bit pissed off i told her, girl i'm not angry but dun keep telling me excuses when in fact you're spending money like water... she kept quiet... oh wells... she said she would return me the money on thurs... i shall wait...

last night after qt, i turn to the verse... fruit of the spirit... been thinking about this... i really need to be more loving towards people around me... and gentleness too... i've been pushy towards my group memebers and also... been fierce... too fierce in fact... my peeps know i don't take crap unless it's for fun sake but there's a limit man... ok repent... be nice.

feeling: hungry!!! ps... one brother said to me... as i offered him my salted mustard ham and onion flavoured pistachios... he said... whenever you see germaine she's always eating that's why she's getting fatter now as you can see form her face... as he was saying this... he was outlining my face like a circle with his index finger... what the...
audio: forever - hillsong

my goodness... my sister's hairstylist told her, eh tell germaine to come down i give her student rate... and i wanna give her an afro hairstyle...??? eh my hair... precious hair... xo...

my sister was supposed to help me buy royce chocolate - mild cacao... then she said... i buy you godiva instead... im like? eh godiva very ex leh then she said the more you should appreciate mah~ but... hee... i just can't stop eating it whatever kind it is...

I am cow hear me moo
I weigh twice as much as you
And I look good on the barbecue
Yogurt, curd, cream cheese, and butter's
made from liquid from my udders
I am cow, I am cow, hear me moo!

I am cow, eating grass
methane gas comes out my ass
and out my muzzle when I belch
o the ozone layer is thinner
from the outcome of my dinner
I am cow, I am cow, I've got gas

I am cow, here I stand
far and wide upon this land
and I am living everywhere
from B.C. to Newfoundland
You can squeeze my teats by hand
I am cow, I am cow, I am cow
I am cow, I am cow, I am cow!

feeling: heh painful cos got blisters...
audio: i am cow - arrogant worms

alrights gotta make this short.

sold fish in the morning, then rush down to sunday second service to find that emma is not coming... ok might as well finish the part 3 lesson... rush down to play bball... jonaphine was there hee~ took a train with her before and she used to be from anderson!!! and she knew my seniors!!! ah!!! we played in the north zone before!!!... played with the ywam peeps... sometimes when i see the ywam on stage i will think wha so serious one the face... then today... dang~ one bunch of lame people... oops... tired... the sun... melts... sssss... went for meeting halfway through and learn stuff that i knew but must put it to actions yeah~ hee~ perd was pretty sick~ prayed for her really wants her to get well soon... rest well yeah perdy? after that rush home and now i am here... hee very hungry... later burning midnight oil to finish homework... hee~ yeah!!! informatics has a convert!!! woohoo!!! lets do our best for the 2 danws?yeah?

well something that i learnt... through someone's else's erm... mistake/wrong doings?

i am kinda apalled by what has happened and what erm... actions it represents... in all i would say... a promise to god is sealed. don't break it and find excuses to cover it up. god sees everything even your heart's motives. kinda disappointed but oh wells... even if someone above you doesn't know... god knows... so does that prick your conscience? maybe the following sentence might be mean... but well... i guess you didn't have any conscience as you weren't exactly knowing what you were doing... am i right? i'll pray for you as a friend... but in all... it all boils down to you. yourself. and most ultimately... god.

what i learnt: never do things without knowing and thinking and then apologise later... in everything that you do... put god first...

hee we had a lesson on personalities... DISC... shall elaborate more in my next blog... posting the 3 lessons on married life and singlehood... good for people out there who like to rush into relationships... god is on control!!!

feeling: super hungry... and hee a bit put off...
audio: oscar the fat dog with his bulging tummy and wriggly tail and erm... yeah oscar lah

hehs~ from the person who gave me the nickname pokk pokk...

If you....
->were a fingernail polish color, which would it be?:
::french manicure... nude and white
->had to be a football or baseball for one day, which would it be?:
::football as in american football or soccer? i think football cos more people chase... xp hahahaha
->were stuck on a tropical island what 8 things would you take?:
::wooden planks, floats, small but everything also have toolbox, waterproof sail, food * including water *, compass and gun * to kill any suspicious looking sea creature and of cos... wilson the vollyball
->were a food which wud it be?:
::chicken cos can lay eggs
->were a jolly rancher?:
::first i don't own or manage a ranch and well... if i do... erm... ok lor~ then?
->could switch places with anyone:
::nah~ am happy where i am though i don't mind a beach slacker...
->could star in any movie, which would it be?:
::there's something about mary... being mary lah of cos... comedies would be good to starred in... hehs
->When I say ____ what is the first thing on your mind??
:: ___
->Nail:
:: nail and hammer
->Fluff:
:: wabbit
->Base:
::baseball
->Glue:
:: sticky
->Taco:
::mexican food
->Orlando:
::orlando bloom!!! yummy!
->gizzard:
::chix stomach lor
->flipper:
::dolphin
->Brazil:
::the song titled * the girl from ipanema *

Random
->If you could live anywhere, where would it be?:
::saint germaine street
->What goes in first... Chocolate or Milk?:
::chocolate milk
->What would you change your name to if you could?:
::queen germaine hehs~
->What celebrity do you realllllly wanna meet?:
::jack nicolson yeah~ i really want to wipe that grin off his face
->Wintergreen or Spearment?:
::wintergreen though i'm not a plant but i don't mind being a berry... strawberry, blueberry, raspberry
->Would you eat pink snow?:
::if i'm digging through the snow with my bare hands and it's bleeding and it stains the snow and...erm... next question please...
->Whats your favorite body part?:
:: my... flexible fingers which i can balance a 50 cent coin on it... hee
->How many words do you think you say on an average day?:
::eh i don't count as i speak
->Goofy or Pluto?:
::kerokeroppi rulez!

feeling: headache...
audio: freshmen - the verve * ps this is also perd's fav song!!! *

hmmm was rather mean last night. maybe the switch to have self control wasn't turn on yet... kup somebody's phone... boos... what am i talking about??? next friday is the big day... god will make a way even if there's no other way... argh!!! everythings alright...

what am i supposed to do today? chatting with someone online and am trying to invite her back to the service... but looks like when a person's mind is made up... no use le...

later must finish william's homework that is to find 15 web sites that have the latest fashion trends and try to predict the upcoming 10 trends... well i only know for sure that colours are definitely coming back... dresses are coming back... pumps... lace... blah blah blah... and then for earl's homework... er earl er earl... have to draw like... my goodness... more than... 50 pairs of hands... body... legs... darn! mine looks like aliens man... big head no eyes... skinny legs and hands that look like sticks... ah~ gotta to do sewing too... gotta make skirts for 3 peeps out there... one for perd, one for mice... and one for small girl... gotta make small girl the pinkiest and the most floral one... hohoho in case you're thinking who is small girl... hee just try to recall who's the new dainty looking girl who wore a head scarf to service last week... hee

there's open house for nafa on march 12... friday and saturday... class reps have to help out... im chosen... gotta miss service... the whole entire day... she meh dong xi lai de... nicumpo... hee... can evax in the whole school man!!! we'll be visiting the new school on monday or... erm... i forgotten when...

anyways... those projects pilling up are making me crazy... guess i understand how she felt last night... when i'm busy and she happened to call? yeah i kinda sound busy too... hee

feeling: liang court come to mama so i wun have to go all the way there... hee
audio: you chose me - unknown

what a LOMANTIC DINNER FOR 2 AT THE... ritz... yeah right... more likely to be magic wok!!! heh heh both perd and i ate so full till... hee... *burp* perd ate tom yam and pineapple rice whilst i ate hot plate beancurd with plain rice... man~ so full~ hahahahahahahahahahaha can't believe it man... i accounted something to her and then she laugh at me... i was trying to be serious by accounting to her... but she only gave me those... um qior... haix... what to do? my perd is on cloud 9 cos she leaving us for the family group le... hohoho seems to me... or rather... she told me that... she's being match made with someone le!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ dang! im dead!!!

anyways... i really have to thank god for her cos... she's not always like a leader to me but more like a friend... a real close friend... hee...yeah~ we both bought shoes! rather for her would be slippers and me would be shoes!!! yeah!!! hahahahaha really happy man!!! we talked about needs and wants... hahahahahahahahaha... shoes... come to mama... flatties man...

tuition cancelled tmr... so tmr must go liang court and buy chocolate le!!! someone's birthday wor... and for certain peeps out there... hee won't miss out on ya... and to that special someone who really deserves something after complaining for a long time that nobody gives her* anything... hahahahaha it shall be done!!!

ps... if you have called me and heard my ringing tune... i guess you would want da wo... hahahaha very qian da one...

feeling: happy!!!
audio: yeah!!!

hmmm... been at some blogs which i think reading it makes me feel depress... nah these blogs are being stumbled upon on and i see these people in school which they look really happening ( lotsa friends blah blah blah ) but inside them... hmmm... nicumpo...

just went to friendster to look for my old sjcians... wha some of them look so different!!! there was this prefect whom the teacher placed beside me so that i will stop snacking/sleeping in class and thus start to do my homework... hahaha now if i see her... man the memories flows back man... i still remember mice... thats jaime from nyp group that she sat behind me and i absolutely detest her!!! you know why?! go see her msn pic with her in that green pjs... very qian da one... i will kick her chair lah make fun of her drinking green tea lah... suan her like she's translucent and until she dissolves into the ground lah... then... time flies... and now we're serving hand in hand together and we're best buds too... ho... what a nightmare... AHAHAHA... dang... my head's gonna roll soon...

hee last night cg was so... i would say in simple language... the dirty word... nice. hee

di peeps... we may be small but our spirit remains strong... for people may fail us but god will never fail us... yeah~ cg404... we left like 2 digit days nia!!! gotta run... with fire...

internal jokes with ash... hee... back on that topic... perd says her marriage-able age is 24... that leaves her... about 2 years... faster grow the group man... then she'll be... poof! die lah i'm getting worse and worse... lame to the core sia... this time my head will be rolling twice leh

a true testimonial that perd shared with us which was shared to her by our mr very handsome np sam gan... -_-' here goes...

a brother from either vietnam/phillipines wasn't very connected and his follow uppers told him to pray to god to see whether god is real or not... so he did... he prayed for the simple basic needs... FOOD and MONEY... so one day... while he was slacking at home...
first... a cat... yes a cat... with a fish in his mouth walked right into his house and place the fish on the floor... and then walked away... dang~
second... while he was slacking... i forgotten the second one...
third... while he was slacking... a drunk man sway his way to the brother house and said... this is yours... and then he threw this smelly bag on the floor... the brother proceed to throw away the bag but he opened it and found money inside!!! and he was so convicted, he's now serving as a leader!!! amen!!!

my first question: the care people planned the things one is it?
second: how to make the cat carry the fish and drop it?

my ans... 1 kings 17:1-6 ( proving that god works in all kinds of ways even if you find it hard to believe )

DISCIPLINED PEOPLE CAN DO THE RIGHT THING AT THE RIGHT TIME IN THE RIGHT WAY FOR THE RIGHT REASON

later in school gotta do this make over for wynnii as a vamp hohoho this is fun... then after that... hahaha going to makan this yew chi... oily chicken... andy intro one...better be good ah... then after that... hahaha going to have that LOMANTIC DINNER FOR 2 AT THE RITZ... yeah... bluff one lah... haix... when man... perd will u be married at the ritz then i can go there and eat... hohoho my head will be sliced... i can feel it

feeling: nua but hungry but eager to go school... im lying hee
audio: my sister's crap about her trip to the clinic and there was this nurse who farted loudly... blah blah blah...

wow... im really glad man... a lot of things has happened and boy am i glad to remain in god's love... chat with someone online and i told her my experience... boy am i glad... god... you're so good to me... and of cos... people who don't know god are missing on the best things in life man...

well... some things has been happening and im gonna account to perd over a romantic dinner for two at the ritz carlton on thursday~ hahaha romantic wor perd... wear nicer ya... wear skirt ya... i intro my male cousin to you...MUAHAHAHAHAHA si eh lame leh... whats wrong with me ah...

been listening to the song my immortal... quite nice leh the tune but the lyrics very depressing... luckily my msn keep beeping then i cannot hear the lyrics scully i kenna sucked into those depressing mood then worse right hohoho

class was fun but... got some misunderstandings with andy... my sheep... why god... ahhh~ hee testings builds perserverence hee...

a song for you all... sing to the tune of... as we walk to the left as we walk to the right...

i'm a chi
i'm a ken
i'm a tua chicken ( means big chicken )
and i live in the kampong where the kuay neng are ( kuay neng means chicken eggs )
wu dua eh ( got big ones )
wu suay eh ( got small ones )
long zhong ar si wa eh... ( all also my one )

lame sia... hee got last 2 sentence but a bit RA... hee

feeling: hungry
audio: i'm a chi~

happy valentines day people!!! happy birthday to you perd!!!

my god is my st valentine... feel so love. no need roses or chocolate... just plain grace and mercy and love. ahh~

celebrated perd's birthday with tiramisu!!! yummy!!! she rec lotsa presents... expecially that big blue hippo called benny or ben if im not wrong...

lot's of things hit me during sermon and during worship and during pm... man... that same scene keeps coming back to me... ok yes god. im getting my butt off the comfort zone le...

realise that i have to learn to be more loving cos... i realise that im kinda fierce... esp to the brothers in my group... repent... hee...

tmr going for sunday service to meet emma than after that rush for tuition then rush down to perd there either shepherding or play bball... hee

feeling: steady pom pipi
audio: oh oh~

class cancelled... wha liew... class always cancelled one... oh wells... got more time to do my homework anyways... my sister bought me a mobile phone... the 3100... ok lah... wanted something more flashy... hee... can take pictures that kind but nevermind lor... hee better than nothing... but darn it man... she told me if i have more money then i can choose any phone i want... but have to pay lah... since this itme she's paying for me... hee... ok lor...

hee been approving testimonials from people... not a lot but one that cracks me up was written by kevin * my ah hia cum classmate * super corny sia... something to do with SIA girl hahaha funny man...

yup... that prob that has been bothering me... is kinda... not over yet... time will tell... but i think i'm handling it better now... \(*v*)/ cheers!

click this! sense game


hohoho this is given to me by mei hwa... dang! i scored 7/20... hahaha have fun playing ya?!

in case you all didn't know... i took m/c for tuesday... shucks man... my diahorrea was so bad until to a point the moment i stepped out of the toilet... i nearly fell... got such wobbly legs nevermind... as i walk to the sofa... i nearly fell asleep str8 away... hee... but still have to drag myslef to shower mah...

also... my sister is so lame... cos we've been trying to find out what country code 621 is from... so i found that the closest i can get to is 62 which is indonesia... then the other one is... antarctic... so she was telling me... hahaha is it the eskimos? or the eskiminas? hahaha... she laughed to herself... what the...

easter is coming!!! yeah!!! really looking forward to it man... muahahahahaha secrets that i can't keep... cannot leak out the things esp that clip... hahahahaha... eh? funny de... just remembered that im follow upping on 2 person and so called having 1 sheep... hee perd just reminded me... yeah~ in the midst of all the tons of homework and mission impossible deadlines... i cannot neglect my people!!!

feeling: craving for fresh full cream magnolia milk
audio: imagine - john lennon

had class gathering last night... really had fun man... some of us like mardhia, kexin, brena, charls, angelica, alicia, christine, wenshi, huiying and qiu jun... last time back in school... some of us were like so buay gum with each other and now.. when we met up... we were like hugs! hee... so unlike me to hug one... ok anyways... we went to marche to makan rosti and snail sausage and tiramisu... hee... mine fav man... after that we went to suntec to eat free gelato!!! sponsored by charl's colleage... hee free mah...

woke up being sick. hasn't been sleeping well for the past week... trying to hit the sack early but some how... don't know leh... cannot sleep lor... eyes swollen... later must see doc le... cleaning my room later... gotta get some stuff out... planning some stuff tmr... getting my butt off the comfy seats and going to evax tmr... hee

finding it harder to forgive certain people esp people whom i closer to... some friends fail me... but whenever i think about god being there always... ahh~ at least i have my church buddies to lean on to... better take control of my emotions... don't let it take over me... one of the new church buddies i just got to know is mei hwa... she's been a great listener... great advisor... someone i look up to cos about how she came and so called survive on the journey and the way she help me is subtle yet it means a lot... sunday after bball... i really didn't want to go... so she cooked up a excuse saying eh~ lets go kopitiam and drink first le~ accompany germs first... then she whispered something to me... god loves you...

feeling: grateful
audio: a kind of magic - queen

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

feeling: tummyache
audio: dance with my father - luther vandross

hee~ back~ my blogs are not very happening eh? sort out the issues but there's still that main prob there... slowly... when the time is ripe... i will know more... hee

went out with kexin and gillian on friday ~ yeah~ we had fun man~ talked to each other about our old times in school even though now the both of them are leading pretty different lives, but still they manage to remain in contact with each other... this tells me that time planning is important and not neglect your buddies... hee

stomp was great man! really amazed with our poly brothers... didn't know they can break quite well~ wha~ and the stomp~ man... they pratice real hard man... like what perd said... sweat and blood... real blood... hendra got hit and thats why you can see that black thingy on the side of his head... wha... got to know julie from lasalle and jennifer from holland who is clarence's friends... wha...so funny both of them...

went for sunday service and got to know emma better... she's taller than me... more outspoken... wha i just kept quiet there tryin to make some lame jokes but cannot hear that type... her height alone wha... hee not very tall lah... just 170m only... and she loves boots so... yup... that'll make her... 175m? or even taller... hee... sheep... sheep chop... with gravy and... potatos... yummy...

went for dmm - livi is so funny... we smuggled ice milo from isle cafe to the eatery downstairs hee every few moments we would sip a bit of the milo then faster hide it... corny sia... later ash and i were di-siaoing perd about whom we can match maker her with... HAHAHAHAHA hilarious man... the answers that came out were... drumrolls... cannot tell... later will have extra shepherding lesson... cos the sunday sermon was about A MATCH MADE IN PARADISE... real good man... made me think about who my life partner would be... HAHAHAHAH okok kidding... the 3 omponents of a happy based on god marriage has 3Cs but couldn't remember leh... only remember the 3 Ms... make - ministry - mate... so people if there is anyone that you might have a liking now... don't rush into it ok... god has already prepare a person just for you... so be good and wait...

basketball was well... tiring... the gals we played against with are * thumbs up * they can match the guys man... they are like so fast... wizzing past amelia and me... man or is it we havent been practising for a long time le... hee... ok next week i think no bball cos got meeting hee... another time lor... better plan better this time and make the meeting time earlier... hohoho lennon from sp challenge me to twist his finger... heh... i took his finger tried to twist it... using my whole hand vs his index finger... i nearly lost... but... hee... i play cheat... i turn his finger ard... ahahahah i won... lame sia... like that also fun de... going to library to borrow books le... tmr have drama meeting at ps... woohoo~ easter drama leh...

feeling: hungry
audio: lean on me - club nouveau

another thing happened today. shall not elaborate but im surprised i didn't kinda fume at least... just simplified... my maid threw away my since primary school till now magazine tear outs... yesterday was a long and horrible day... really thank god for ashley and perd... cg was being delayed for close to an hour because of me... very sorry about that~ after that... had a talk with livi and we came up with some changes...

went to school to have a mini presentation thingy... not bad... i've got dove shampoo and conditioner... but eek, quite funny cos i kept saying it will make your skin fair and smooth...??? shampoo leh girl... not shower gel... hee

last night my student molika sms me about her composition... but when i was teaching her i was thinking... she should know god... really get to know him... she's from bedok secondary and sec 5 this year, cambodian... anyone in east studying in bedok sec?

was online late last night... told perd some stuff... not very good... was quite... then conclusion... hmmified...

been thinking about snipping my hair off. cutting them short to my early hope days again. having long hair quite troubleome... maybe because as some of my buds know... whenever i face something real big... i cut my hair... but because now i have god with me... such thoughts shouldn't even exist...

feeling: hmmmified
audio: the gentlemen who fell - milla jovovich * yup that fifth element orange hair save the world girl cum l'oreal model *

saw that rebel in me
making me do some things and saying some stuff really
really scary. that's what I see
a long journey ahead in front of me
giving up are one of the thousand thoughts
seeking Him is the only way out
counting on oneself is self destruction
to obey His word are thoughts and actions

typing a poem I think... or maybe something that I just wanted to pen down... a time of testing and a time of stretching is here and it's only feb... how's that for a belated chinese new year surprise or should I say... a future present for the coming Christmas? it's been a long time ever since I've type a blog that doesn't look or sound the right way... had enough of being a * miss look very happy but trying to cover up everything by typing happier stuff * enough is enough... either I can take it or not... that stupid devil is putting some stupid thoughts in my mind... uh uh... aint gonna allow that... for now... I still can take the sh*t... but once it's being blown into bigger scale... oh wells... congratulations man... called perd... told her... advises came in but it's too early to actually find out what's happening

an sms sent to me saying

the problem will seem bigger if you focus hard on it. it's draining your trust and patience, BUT, it's really how you're gonna approach it... you're not the only one in this alone, yr sister too and I'm here!!! It's a matter of decision of ______ and yourself. ______ has gone through a lot with and without ______. be strong girl!!!

Thanks a lot jaime. That really made me felt better.

school's cancelled tomorrow... really want a time out... had a talk with mei hwa last night and we both talked about how bad we used to be... gossiping was our favourite hobby and many others... no wonder I can sniff her out... taught tuition for the first time today... taught an o level student - English and she's so amazed how come my imagination is so wild? well... I love reading... any kind of books, magazines, newspapers, articles... anything... in the world of composition... anything is possible... I can have wings and I could fly even... can I fly away from everything? how I wish I could...

really need to go to somewhere to seek solace somewhere really quiet... so that noone can find me for tmr... ok... plans... tmr morning will be going to... to read his word... evening will be spent... night time will be spent... real late nights would be spent...

where will I be tmr? wind blowing through my hair... water through my hands... sand through my feet... eyes closed... mouth open wide... drooling...

feeling: hmmmified
audio: sister counseling to her buddy... ah~ if only~

hoa... havent been updating since... tues... hee... okok... something happened on wed... hahaha i spilled curry flavoured instant noodles in the school lift on everyone in the lift ( charmaine kena the skirt, jolene kena her shoes and feet and wynnii kena her skirt... ) all except me... hee~ so paiseh... i swore off curry flavoured noodles anyways... xp

wed and thurs and fri... nothing much... school as usual... but yesterday i was really happy cos i got to know a contact from... drumrolls... nafa!!! hohoho!!! from school of visual arts!!! yeah!!! hit it off with her pretty well... * hungrily... eyeing her... sheep... delicious... lamp chop.. !!! * what am i thinking???

hee gotta think happy cos i saw an sms... didn't look too well... really... god is testing me... how i react to such things... last thing on my mind that such things will happen and... gosh... lots of thoughts in my mind... who? when? how? why? as i type this down... thinking... what went wrong? don't know leh... calling perd now...

ooohhh... really... tearing my hair out... last night match man u vs sot... wha pengs... wes brown ah... sure kena screwed by sir alex one... he like... so... erm... useless... and that ginger hair boy paul... pengs... keh kiang one... he like... no sense of direction leh...

gosh... thoughts are running through me mind again... hope this thing will be over soon... real SOON.

feeling: hmmified
audio: x