goodness me man, praise the lord, i can go for my matthew's event tmr wor~ yey!!! heh heh...yups, feeling kinda lazy now though yups, maybe later will play isketch again yups... anyway, i found a website that i absolutely DISAGREE with. its an official anti-mayonnaise website!!! can you believe it? there's even an official club called - THE WORLDWIDE I HATE MAYONNAISE - that stretches from japan to south africa and london to australia... there's even a bumper sticker, a certificate ( goodness me ) and those sticker that has a red line across the word mayo... and this is their erm... whatever you call it...

"Mayonnaise, like hollandaise, was invented by the French to cover up the flavor of spoiled flesh, stale vegetables, rotten fish. Beware the sauce! Where food comes beslobbered with an elegant slime you may well suspect the integrity of the basic ingredients."

-- Ed Abbey, "The Fool's Progress"
pp. 142-143.

oh boy, they just made an enemy out of me...

feeling: happy
audio: november rain - guns and roses

hi people, its wed, and i'm not going for my cross elective because my uncle just passed away... yups... not very close to him though but anyways, my friends came over for a sewing session and yups, nothing much happened today just that last night we played isketch again yups... heh heh and tmr we're having a matthew's event at mechmaster the one below our church but the thing is i cannot make it cos i have to attend the funeral tmr. yups. haix... wanted so badly to play pool though... yups... hmmm... i think sometimes i'm quite naggy leh, like ah por heh heh... hmmm... okz people, short blog today, shall leave here and do my homework liao. yups. byeee.

feeling: hungry
audio: my maid's cooking

hi people, i forgotten to blog last night because i was too engrossed playing isketch. yup... heh got a lot of things to share so yup, read on. this blog will be a blog of testimonies today. praise god.

first testimony: yesterday at my dad's stall, around 930am, one stall of fish wasn't sold out yet ( because my dad has got 2 stalls and usually by 930 one stall will be sold out and the other stall will left about 3/4 of fishes ) then it's like i didn't see any regulars then it's like going to be 10am liao and i was like," oh no, dad's gonna lose some money today and let the fish go to waste." then i just turned my head and said a silent and short prayer," god, i pray that someone will buy a lot of fish. amen." then within seconds, a phone call came, my dad said," got, got fish...okok bye." then he just took the some of the huge red plastic bags and start to stuff almost the whole one stall of fish and also some of the fish from the second stall into the bags. then i'm like?!!! so fast??!!! god really answered my prayer so fast man... was kinda shocked, even my sister came to me and said," the amount of people eating fish is sometimes very scary one..." yups, i agree but ultimately, i thank god for that amen!

second testimony: a girl wanted to commit suicide, she didn't want to go to church for one week, the next week she went, she was late for 1/2 hr and the moment she was getting herself settled down, the pastor said," there's someone who didn't turn up for service and was late today and you wanted to commit suicide. god wants me to tell you that he loves you... etc... ( i forgotten ) wow, when i heard it i was like saying to this girl, " you see you see~ this time you better take it man, he spoke to you straight in the face." yups, and i was smiling at the girl cos i was so happy that she finally understood that no matter what, god will not leave her in lurch.

third testimony: ok people, i think as you read my blog you'll see that i don't really mention my mum right? yup, it's because she passed away on feb 4 2003. remember the quiz i took recently? i said," once was all i need to realise how important she was." yup, all the time the shes i mention is actually my mum. and yes, i'm fine :) , i was sad yes, but in the other way i was rejoicing ( pls read on ), cos she died of cancer which was slowly destroying her for the past few months from july 2002 until her death which was like half a year of battling. ok lets start: she suffered from uterus cancer from june 2001. she went for an op, went for different kinds of treatments. then she was ok. then she had a relapse during 2002 july. the cancer had spread from her uterus - stomach - back - lungs - bone - brain. its just went on and on. because i accepted christ on 2002 jan. i was very hopeful that no matter what she'll be healed. but dec, her health was deterioting. she couldn't walk much because of her back was aching very badly, she couldn't stand straight. then because my bro in law decided to wed my sister in jan, because we all knew that my mum's time was getting nearer and his mum was also suffering from cancer so as to let them attend the wedding yup... then just immmediately after my sister's wedding on jan 20, she kinda went into a different situation. she couldn't recognise us, i was so heartbroken because she was like the superwoman, always driving me here and there, buying groceries, cooking, shopping, everything she's always in change, at the same time, my dad was really heartbroken too, his wife of 28 yrs, just kinda slowly fade before him bit by bit... we hired a private nurse because we really didn't know what to do, she was constantly in and out of the hospital and during this time, i kept going to my old church only to pray, i didn't really have faith in god saying she'll be heal no matter what, simply because i couldn't see god's plan in a bigger picture way. i was initially angry with god, why me, how come now. how come she must suffer like that. then i realise he made such things happened like this for his reasons. and if we understand what he 's thinking then he wouldn't be god right? yups, then as chinese new year was drawing nearer, my mum kinda remembered that new year was approaching and she wanted very badly to go to chinatown to buy the new year stuff... like what she'll ususally do. then its like during the two weeks before her death it was so intense, we all lost weight, didn't sleep much, my dad was the one i was worried about too and it's like i seek comfort in god. i began to see his point. i prayed that no matter what he'll let her live pass her birthday which falls on feb 2. which she did amen! she somehow will ans our questions with her eyes, winking or frowning if she didn't like it. through this, my sisters and i kinda co-operate as in became stronger. i was amazed at myself for being the strongest - i'm not trying to sound proud or anything - just that i became a comforter which i thought i couldn't be because i was always a hum bao, constantly needing people to console me. because she was contantly in and out of the hospital, the doctor said to us, why not you all just bring her home, not point staying in the hospital and paying the fees ( he meant well ) so we brought her back, my second sister ( fiona ) broke down, she was struggling and yvonne ( 1st sister ) was in the ambulance with my mum and she talked to her, saying ," do you know that you have cancer? ( because all the while we all didn't want her to know and she was like winking and she accepted the fact ) then because it was during chinese new year's you know the day where they have the reunion dinner my relatives all came and helped us. thank god for them too. my cousin and his gf, uncle albert and his friends came to pray for her, because i had some catholic and pagan relatives they were like what the...? and we just continued praying, she accepted christ!!! amen!!! then it's like the next day ( the 4 days in feb seemed so long ) she passed away but before she left she said," ye su ( jesus ) ni hao and she said qi dao ( pray ) and my dad said to her because she was like going off liao but still hanging on there - get what i'm trying to say? my dad said," just go, i will take care of our three daughters and i love you always ( wo hui yong yuan ai ni de )," she teared but her eyes was already closed liao. in the morning, she went off around 10 in the morning. because of her death i rejoice. not in a mean way but yes she accepted christ and she was saved.

people out there reading my blog i'm not very clear with my details but feel free to ask me. i'll be more than glad to ans them. and i just wanna say, treat your parents well. they meant well for you. pls no matter what don't argue with them instead pray for them. and always find time for them too. with all the children all grown up sometimes they seek our attention too. and to people out there being discourage about your parents not accepting christ, fret not, god has his ways and timing.

feeling: great and joyful
audio: shout to the north - delirious

yups, sold fish in the morning, was pretty tired cos on saturday night i didn't sleep till around 345am then woke up ard 830 and slept last night ard 1230...wha soo tired and today woke up around 530... wha...super tired and somemore got rounders...quite fun, i would say, must ask the hog people to organise one too, make it a huge matthew event... yups, both genders also can play one... then the surprising thing is that i saw someone who was a carbon copy of dewen sitting opposite me and i was like waving and waving until i notice something... have i made a mistake or what? then i realise yup, i did make a mistake... i tell you, he's like the same height, same hairstyle, same kinda dressing as in same coloured clothes as on sat ministry fair, and if i didn't see wrongly, erm... a wee bit buck teeth too... then i'm like? wha such a coincidence... yups, this coming hope live, aka will be coming, and hopefully ric and joey and yes you babeee mart too and yup, perhaps, ding, charmaine, vivien, ginelis and the drummer girl yups...heh heh anyways, i'm very tired and my body is aching and yups, still have assignments havent finish yet so yups people, shall go off now... byeeee...

feeling: the muscle aching
audio: the pasar malam's malay stall's malay songs...

great day man!!! we had apologectis and it was fun but quite rush though cos the first few groups kinda like forgotten the time given and i think i spoke too fast that even i don't understand what i was talking about - 5 mins for everything leh... yups... great day man, firstly, jaime decided to join our church and serve our church ministry!!! yey i was so happy that i couldn't sleep last night, at last, my prayers are answered... hahaha oopsy, no faith in Him heh heh... yups... went to nexus to prepare for the apologectics then ronsy passed me the waffles thingy wha... so nice of her... thanks a lot girl heh heh then a surprise came shortly after... livi... she dyed her hair, plucked her brows... wha start to hiao liao ah hahahahaha i couldn't stop laughing man... it's good to see her being groomed neatly if not she kinda look messy... heh are you reading this??? yups... was explaining to joshua of nyp about the history of fashion... i think i kinda got carried away heh heh... sermon was great leh! spoke to me about certain stuff... yups...ooohhh and divine exchange wor... and there was the ministry fair!!! yey!!! i've decided to join drama!!! and then for the second choice i didn't really know what to put so i just wrote my choices as info counter and deco... and i'm still in image and cos one of the tp girls went to nel and told her that i'm super free even though i'm in image and yup... guess i'll be busy again but i like it man... keep myself busy and help serve the people yups...yups... whatever it is, as long as we serve god in any ways, its a great privilege man!!!then as i went home with charls... she said something to me that really stumbles me as in diao...saying...

charls: hey germs... erm... you know something?
germs: what?
charls: you look different today...
germs: how different?
charls: you've changed liao germs... you became...
germs: what thing?
charls: you became more and more nerdy... somemore with your buck teeth, haversack and your specs...
germs: what are you trying to say...
charls: iyah hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
germ: -_-'

then charls told me that how last time we kinda like die die also must look cool and have a couldn't be bothered look and now i'm like skipping... and she was like... hello germs... what happened... hahaha never in my life did anyone told me that i look nerdy hahaha i was laughing so hard all the way to the mrt station...yups... received a letter from this precious girl of mine... ok girl, good to hear that even if the whole world has given up on you, you're still holding on to god and really, even the best gold goes through the hottest fire babeee... don't give up yourself... we are all being molded by Him every single day through every single little thing that is happening in our life... praise god for a wonderful church with such a wonderful vision. yes, CG404 is our goal amen!!! 150 by end july!!! and yes, must go collect sheeps liao... baaa baaa baaa

feeling: body aching and really super happy about everything
audio: i will never be the same again - hillsongs

it was such a great and simple teaching man... im talking about the bs that i went to just now... wow...obey his word... yups... great man hahaha well, you know something that i really dislike? i agree this with shirls about those ah pek coming up so close to you saying...xiao jie... goodness me man... shall not elaborate... anyways, yup... good news woohoo~ i won't be having comm skills on sat liao... that means... i can serve the image ministry!!! yups... heh heh but there's a price to pay... comm skills will be pushed to friday, 730-930... that means friday lessons will be held from 1230-930... wha..xiong man... yups... hahaha it was a pretty normal day today though... charmaine went to thailand and she'll only be back this monday and both our nick is charmany and germany... how lame ( we're walking what ) and corny ( wait corn hasn't got any knees ) or maizey ( vivien and ding you reading this??? )... -_-' i think i sense a crow flying over... ah ah ah... bwhahahahahah yups... ok a quiz i've taken from ronsy hahaha read on...

feeling: on top of the world
audio: king of majesty - hillsongs

name :: germaine
piercings :: a pair and... ooohhh recently a tiny shrimp pierced my finger... does that count?
tattoos :: nope
height :: 167 - sigh - i prefer to be a shorter 160 would be good... yups...
shoe size :: 5 or 6 depends
hair color :: bottle dyed brown
length :: cropped mop
siblings :: sisters - bong and na

LAST...
song you listened to :: a place to call home
cd you bought :: queen live magic
person you've called :: uncle albert
person that's called you :: uncle albert - missed call
tv show you've watched :: holland village
person you were thinking of :: she

DO...
you have a bf or gf :: nope
you have a crush on someone :: uh uh
you wish you could live somewhere else :: well... anywhere as long as there's a strawberry farm nearby
you think about suicide :: nope
others find you attractive :: hmmm... shall not stumble anyone bwhahahahahah -_-'
you want more piercings :: nope, not at all... the pain is enough
you drink :: duh... my saliva maybe~
you do drugs :: is this a trick question? of cos not. duh.
you smoke :: uh uh i want my lungs pink not black
you like cleaning :: sometimes but not the toilet
you like roller coasters :: alrights

FAVORITE...
food :: wha... check it out in my icq... maybe i tell you what i don't eat; chilli, sotong, durian, offals and century egg but i love pig's blood -last time can eat that for every meal along with yong tao fu
thing to do :: hmmm a lot loh... playing barking with oscar...laughing hahaha and yes, sleeping...period.
thing to talk about :: everything, lame and corny jokes would be a bonus
sports :: well... basically basketball, volleyball, netball, pool and billard and yes, tennis but no soccer for me though, can't seem to find any strength in my legs
drinks :: plain water is essential for me yups
clothes :: have a thing for bias cut and flare skirts and tank tops... and comfortable is the key word
movies :: ohhh forrest gump!!! those featuring mental patients or those people with a problem ones... like awakening, one flew over the cuckoo's nest, rain man, the green mile, speed, romy and michelle's high school's reunion - hahaha bimbotic show and yes, there's something about mary - hilarious man and oooohhh, grumpy old men - loves walter matthau~ he has such a jiao jiao face with a huge nose whoa~
band/singer :: queen, beyond / rod stewart - woo~ husky voice
holiday :: the one 4 years ago at britain and edinburgh ( scottland )... wow... strawberry farm and the weather... but the chinese food there... :P

HAVE YOU...
ever lied to someone :: yes
ever been in a fist fight :: yes
ever been arrested :: nope but does being caught by the discipline mistress count? heh heh heh

NUMBER...
of times I have been in love? :: hmmm... god - always, people - always: my family and my friends yup
of times I have had my heart broken? :: once. all it takes to make me realise how important that person is...
of hearts I have broken? :: shall not stumble anyone again bwhahahahaha
of girls I have kissed? :: 5 - my ma and my sisters and ohh... the other 2 is... oopsy...
of boys I have kissed? :: besides my dad but nope. saving it.
of drugs taken illegally? :: do i have to repeat? is this another trick question
of people I would classify as true, could trust, with my life type friends? god, family and my church people
of people I consider my enemies? :: mei you
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? :: hahaha as saint germaine - yes, germaine greer - yes and germs... well it is often found on posters on the toilet walls...
of scars on my body? :: my right brow and some others - still counting
of things in my past that I regret? :: lots and lots and lots yup...

FAVORITE...
disney movie :: the little mermaid
scent :: baby's smell - there's something nice smelling about them, anyone who just came out of the shower smelling whoa~ indescribable, freshly baked cookies or bread and yes, oscar after he has a shower... green apple smell
word :: yups, woohoo
nickname :: germs
guy name :: jude woohoo~ love this name
eye color :: dark brown
flower :: sunflower, baby's breathe, white lilies and roses
actor :: robert de niro, al pacino, jack nicholson, keanu reeeves - in speed, the late walter matthau
actress :: hmmm... jodie foster in silence of the lambs and taxi

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
pretty :: nope. period.
funny :: depends. more to corny and lame
hot :: hot tempered you mean?
friendly :: if i want to
amusing :: at times
ugly :: yes the temper part
loveable :: hahaha yes so very
caring :: well... hmmm to a certain extent and to certain people yups...
sweet :: uh uh no...
dorky :: perhaps last time yups

Spell your first name back wards :: _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
Are you straight? DEFINITELY
Where do you live? somewhere in the universe there's this planet called earth
4 words that sum you up :: four words ain't enough

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) -
In my mouth :: the usual parts that a mouth will have lah
In my head :: same as above accept for the mouth it's head~
Wishing :: wishing was? wishing is? wishing are? rephrase...next~
After this :: wait for livi's icq msg
Talking to :: livi and oscar
Eating :: air
Fetishes x: BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA livi are you reading this??? actually... its...hair... situated at...there lor... you know you know - without it, pls don't come and talk to me. i'll get so turn off.
If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who or what reason would that be? :: not murder lah but maybe get my hands on those hup sup di gor
Person you wish you could see right now :: god and she
Is next to you :: who - god, what - lots... plus the night view of singapore
Something you're looking forward to in this up coming month :: new retained converts and nafa revival and heh heh maybe a new puppy too but no luo han ok...enough of those empty air filled head fishes
Something that you are deathly afraid of? lizards... try scaring me with one and my face turns white and my heart goes THUMPING so hard i find it hard to breathe. serious. don't even think about it.
Do you like candles :: alrights
Do you like hot wax :: ouch
Do you like incense :: nice light smelling ones... don't wanna stuff my nose
Do you like the taste of blood :: well, pig's blood one of them hahaha not anymore though
Do you believe in love :: yup - god's love
Do you believe in soul mates :: hmm... maybe
Do you believe in love at first sight :: NO
Do you believe in forgiveness :: definitely
Do you believe in God :: YES!
What do you want done with your body when you die: as long as it's clean and it doesn't dirty anything or what i'm fine with it
If you could have any animal for a pet: horse or cat
What is the latest you've ever stayed up :: i tried not sleeping...
Ever been to Belgium? uh uh but i've touched it... belgium chocolates counted not? from belgium what...
Can you eat with chopsticks :: yes
What's your favorite coin? don't really take notice of them though
What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to? france, maldives, madrid, london and japan - for the food
Whats something that you wish people would understand? god loves them and i'm not bao ching tian nor am i unhappy. really...
What's something you wish you could understand better? god's grace - serious and people's thinking.
Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time? she.
Something you want to make happen for tomorrow? play pool tmr...shucks been waiting for a long time for it... and converts yup...

yups... thats all... very free ah me hence the long quiz... hahaha ok people... byeee see ya all tmr~~~

great day... got a one or two hiccups but those were some lessons to be learnt man... hahaha one of it is to teach me never be forgetful because it can make a huge difference - sorry to ashley and chengcheng~ hahaha anyways, school was normal, learnt about louis xvi and his wife marie antoniette about how she was so exaggerated in her clothes and how blur louis xvi was because the day he was arrested, he actually wrote in his diary - nothing happened. goodness... what was he thinking man... and this famous quote from marie - let them eat cake~ those who read about her will understand this quote about how tactless she was... yup... everything is great, going to do homework later and qt and tmr i'll be going for bs. and i think my sister is going to phuket tmr... and yups... how come i'm not inform about it leh? hmm okx... bye people~

feeling: tired but happy
audio: oscar's pitter patter

daria- disaffected, brainy and distant, you don't
let on that you really do care- sort of.


Which Daria Character are You? (updated)
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hahaha that is SOOOOO true

hihihi!!! yups... rejoice in the lord ALWAYS... yups... my friends are having fun in zouk now but saturday is more fun amen?! heh heh heh today in jewellery class we just kinda did some sawing of copper yup... heh heh soon it'll be silver we're touching soon then gold...but must buy ourselves lah... chey... yups... just watched daria, hilarious...hahaha... heh heh heh ate 2 bowls of tao huay again yey!!! so hou jia... wonder the geylang's one better or the rochor one? but it seems like all my friends agree that the geylang is better... tmr we're having matthew's event!!! tmr during history of fashion class we'll be learning about the baroque period again... actually it's very interesting, depends on how you see it... yups... watched the mvp's leading girl's mtv - journey... wha... melted man... yups... was about to get myself involve in some stuff that weren't very encouraging then i think in some ways, it turned out in a good way, praise god for that heh heh heh i think once my hair is long i wanna shape it into a bob lah... if not ah... cannot make it... hahaha i think i resembles a coconut husk... and where are my future sheeps? ('-' )( '-')(._. )( ._.)

feeling: pretty filled with soy bean and grace woohoo~
audio: you - jaci valesquez

yups... going for class later... anyways... tmr is our matthew event and hopefully my classmates will come but pray that they won't be physically tired cos they sure will be boogey-ing away the night before... yups... just re-read my gary larson's the far side collection's "last chapter and worse"... he's a great cartoonist man... his comics are sooo how should i put it... erm... go buy his book and find out for yourself... hahaha whenever i read his comics it'll brighten up my day man heh heh heh... he's kinda like the male version of mtv's daria excpet he's more crappy and corny - oopsy, corn has got no knees... lame~ yup... shall save money and buy more gary larson's comics... maybe one of these days when i learn how to post pictures on my blog then you'll see why i love gary larson hahaha yups... glad that i found a song that i've been looking for ages - jami smith's lord reign in me... didn't really like other versions though yup... everyday is a great day man... rejoice in the lord amen!

feeling: quite corny today
audio: my special angel - ger

heh heh... had an informal shepherding today... it was ...how should i put it... good cos it's something that a lot of people told me before yet i still close one eye about it... bad cos... heh basically i felt bad lah... hahaha yup perd... must see the world in pink wor... anyways, must pray about that particular thingy about...yup... anyways... nothing much happened today except shirls taught me a game which was kinda confusing in the first place hahaha perd was stumped about it and yup... someone from central had a surprised birthday celebration today... yup~ although i don't know who was it but anyways, happy birthday bro~ yup... went to a pasar malam today... saw the ramly burger... but like not very clean leh... so i skipped the thought of buying one... yups... ok people, we are having a matthew event this thurs held at Istana park... hahaha star search... shall invite as many friends as possible... tmr i'll be having cross elective and after that all my classmates are going to zouk... yup... but i'm not going... heh heh this sunday having touch rugby at farrer park with my old church people... i think i'll be physically tired one cos b4 that need to sell fish but yup, looking forward to that man... can meet up with some of them ('-*) mmm... thinking back on the shepherding today, the graph thingy... yups... shall keep it high up and even higher amen!!! the shepherding today is really applicable to everyday life man... yups... yups... shall be off to do homework and QT later...

feeling: great!
audio: my sis's rattling off on the phone

have this thingy - blog title... hmmm okz...anyways, school was great today, there's an upcoming fashion show coming up in august held in raffles place... must go there and take a look... anyways, l'oreal wants us to do some designing for them for some new launching of some new products.... hmmm... anyways, might be going down to quite a few places tmr... livi's house to pass her some stuff, J8 to buy some stuff and toa payoh to buy some other stuff...... my friend is going to thailand soon... the taming of the tongue... was thinking about this when i was talking to some of my friends today... gossiping... or just passing judgements? want to do some things for Him... need god to draw me close to him... so afraid to be led away by some stuff... thinking about some stuff that i cannot put down and let it be... instead i'm kinda nursing the pain over and over again... i think some of you are still nursing the pain that it was inflicted on you... why not let's do this... let's forgive and forget maybe not really forget but hey some of you there until now still die die also don't wanna admit to forgiving the other person even it's been such a LLLLLOOOOONNNNNGGGGG time hello people...lets get over it. period.

feeling: hmmmified
audio: i will offer up my life - delirious

matthew 5: 43 - 46 love your neighbour as well as your enemies... well... saturday's sermon is coming back to me again~

feeling: quite unrest but shall let it be... does it make sense?
audio: the bubbling sound in the fish tank

didn't go to the market today, have a ton of assignments to finish... my friday steamboat dinner just came out :P... hmmm okies. nothing much liao later doing homework and going for dinner maybe at loklok or maybe the same old stall at ang mo kio... okies...

you - jaci valesquez

Who makes
The sun light up my shadows
When the darkness tries to follow me
Who makes
The air that brings me life
So I can breathe the love that's given to me

CHORUS:
You make everything good
Everything wonderful
You grace my days
And heaven fills my view
Let's forever sing
You make everything pure
Everything beautiful
You make me see the only thing that's true
It's you

Who makes
The waters of my sorrow part
And leads the gladness into my heart
Who makes
The rivers run that wash away
And clean my soul to make a new start

CHORUS

You hung the moon
You placed the stars that shine your love for me
I hope all that I do
Will show reflections of you.

CHORUS

well people, service was great!!! we've got one convert!!! shirlyn!!! yey!!! well... shall work harder for nafa... yup...yup... and my songs came out wor~ 1) you laid aside your majesty 2) you 3) this is how we overcome!!! i like today's film and sermon especially. the short film was talking about the mask we all wear... i realise i am always wearing a mask no matter what... whether in school or in church... school would be something like to conceal some stuff that i don't want people to know about me even once they start probing, i'll just pretend and smile and say that everything is fine-but i'm so not... church would be... a black face... it's a mask to make me look as if i don't care about anything in the world even if the sky drops, cool about every single thing and it's somehow something to conceal the fact that i'm afraid of certain issues that i would rather avoid, not face them and to make me look fierce and tough...is that the 2 words to describe? well...you know what i mean lah... because of some issues that happened when i was attending my old church... well secondly, if you see me not smiling... tell me to SMILE and SHOW MY TEETH :D !!!have certain issues in my life that i want to change... pride is the ultimate one... speech and thinking... we all sinned every single day, every hour, every minute and every second... we are all more accountable for the things we do as a christian... sometimes i really want to just quit and just leave all the things for others to pick up... but i realise i can't, god's grace really amazes me... so many things too... god is so real and all omnipotent, omnipresent and omniscient... yup... sermon... so many people that i don't wanna meet... would rather 'siam' them or just pretend that i don't know them... i think today's sermon is really power man... really spoke to a lot of people... i'm quite guilty of the stuff that pastor jeff said... quite a few surprises today, first, i found out that my class has got a couple of christians and one of them is a drummer for her band! power sia! another one was bumping into dewen at the mrt station who's also rushing to get to prayer meet... another one was receiving this photo and a small note written by sean and sybelle (my baby god-siblings)!!! and another one which made my eyes nearly drop out - aroon actually remember to write to me!!! was very happy that he wrote, though his english was quite hard to understand (he's from thai) and he's still calling me zhang lang (cockroach)... -_-' because i told him that oscar ate a cockroach thus the name...lastly, ying called me... she's was crying i think... haiz... hopefully the thing that i wanted to happened did not really happened... well i'm not contradicting myself i think but somehow... well...there's a season for everything...maybe she might be staying over at my house tonight... shall have a heart to heart talk... i heard from perd that some of the groups are fasting from icq? i think i shall do that too... really got a lot of assignments to do... realise some stuff that reminded me of the few weeks before 4th feb... that someone can really become dependent on the other person when that someone becomes physically or mentally unstable... mentally not as in crazy or what but maybe got some illness or what... how some people can be superman or superwomen but later sitting on a wheelchair or bed ridden the next... why am i talking about this??? must appreciate all the things around me... pasotr jeff came up to me and hint to me that he likes to eat ravioli... heh heh heh hinting huh... bought reese chocolates today... great, shared about half with ron... i remembered...hrr hrr gonna spoil you soon huh... heh heh... a lot of things of my mind now that's kinda weighing me down... doubts about some stuff... not enough understanding... goodness... hopefully that issue will not start again... if not i'm a goner this time... _ _ _ i miss ya so much you know... where are you now? how come and why this... god why... sometimes i really don't understand and i just get so frustrated on why this must happened to me... a pure heart for god... a repentant one too... one who will not be ashamed to stand up for god...

feeling: numb
audio: heart of worship - hillsong

good day man... fast and break fast by enjoying steamboat at marina south!!! hahaha just came back from there wha... so bloated... wha... was sick the entire day, flu... AGAIN along with slight headache... hahaha i think someone jinxed me by saying that my face seems to be spotless... until the very next day... spots starts to appear- that was a long time ago... anyways, school was great today, learnt some stuff but the first lesson was spent outside the class talking to ding... hmm... not bad... kinda talk about certain stuff... yup... somehow the week passes very quickly... and it's sat in less than an hour's time!!! yey!!!man, the whole of today was spent crying... of laughter hahaha couldn't stop and it worsen once we were eating at MS... pris... you're so funny man... couldn't stop man... hmm... tomorrow, not even one of my friend is coming for the special service... told ding about being afraid of rejection... and all my friends are like going clubbing, working and going out with boyfriends... ok... well as i look back, i was so into clubbing and some stuff that weren't right but now it's like no man... no more of those....i'm cleared away from those liao... shall work even harder... wha... really looking forward to the time management lesson... yup... shall sleep early early tonight... tomorrow is a great day and we all shall do our best for god amen!

feeling: puzzled
audio: there is none like you - hillsong - indeed there is none like you.

yup...my blog's colour changed... wonder what colour will it be this time...yup school was great for yesterday, learnt a lot of stuff that it's so applicable... yup... had a long talk with jeslin last night...good good... my uncle called this morning and told me about committment to... yup...from next week onwards shall attend every single one...cannot slack liao... yup yup veron, shall pass you reese chocolates every sat ok heh... yup heh suppose to be getting ready for school but ... heh... nothing much, just that i think there are a lot of things that i have to repent about, was kinda deflated in school yesterday, not kinda, its quite... some comments going on... i think i'm that kind who is very chong dong one... won't think twice about doing some stuff then later regret... was so afraid about getting suck back into the darkness... really, one wrong step, thump, i'm a goner... repentence is good but make sure we musn't repeat the wrong doings... really... so many different kinds of distractions and things going on around that makes you wanna join in the 'fun'... quite a few times i stopped and think hard and realise what's happening and what's wrong with this action etc... then it's like there are a lot of road blocks in our lives...are we just to give up? road blocks: family persecution, faith, bgr, temptations, worldly desires etc...are we just to give up once we're stopped by one road block? we should all look towards the goal in our life - Him... i just read someone's blog and the person kinda turn to god only when there's a hiccup... we all tend to be like that sometimes or maybe at times or perhaps, all the time... self centred....

feeling: ashamed
audio: pour my love on you - philips, craig and dean

Your first name of Germaine has given you a very friendly, likeable nature, and you could excel in artistic, dramatic, and musical expression. With this name, you desire the finer things in life, but you do not always have the resolve and vitality to put forth the effort necessary to fulfil your desires. Your emotional feelings are easily aroused and you will always be involved in other people's problems as a result of your overly sympathetic nature. You have many disappointments as a result of extending a helping hand to others in need, and then not receiving any acknowledgement or reciprocation for your generosity. After each experience, you have to guard against feelings of despondency and self-pity. You have lofty goals and high ideals, but must incorporate more practicality, system, and concentration in order to materialize them. In health, this name affects the nervous system and also the fluid functions, giving rise to kidney or bladder weaknesses. hmmm bladder weakness... -_-'

hmm..now updating my blog..wonder what colour will it be... anyways, just came back from school... hmm.. great... learnt how to make rings... hahaha one silver ring cost only $1.80-$2.00... goodness, perlini cost around $20++ and it's mostly for the designer's fees... hmm... ate rochor's soya beancurd today... quite full... anyways, ding not coming for this week's service...haiz... never mind shall work on others... yup... nothing much... heard from livi that the central, north and east people fasting from icq... hmm... maybe poly and di should also... yup... anyways...the poly and di group having district outing now...shi zhi lu kou... sure very fun one...haix...couldn't make it because of school... never mind... some stuff on my mind now about last night...what happened... some things that my sis said... and what i said to her... quite bad actually... should reflect...both parties... hmm... must pray... this kinda thing without god's help, nothing can be done man... well livi sorry about last night was half asleep when you called... already finished my homework and was already going to KO when you called... hahaha i think i was already sleeping while you were talking... oopsy... heh...ok people... gotta go...shall smile more... i don't want to be always known as 1. bao qing tian 2. zhong kui 3. orh bin hmm...

feeling: haix
audio: a place to call home - greg ferguson

hahaha today's cg was great man... i slammed cc with a pillow-felt good when i did that hahaha... anyways, we had a good meal and mice came!!! yup we talked about what are the top 3 things that will lure us away from god... hmmm mine was... persecution, lazyness (discipline) and money... some of them wrote bgr... hmmm... think that one stands 4th on my list... yup another one would be the worldy desires... family persecution? nah... still am having that but heck lah then they kinda like losen the string on me liao... yup... bought breadtalk's nann with tomato and mushroom... hmmm... not bad but a bit the chewy since i waited a bit the long then i ate it... hahaha havent do homework yet...later burning midnight oil again...60 sketches this time...seems like its getting more and more... anyways... bought thickened cream today...so i can cook carbonara with it!!! and the japanese mayo!!! woohoo~~~ yup...girl if you're reading this... @@ something about stumbling the... BWHAHAHAHAHAHAH you think too much lah MUHAHAHAHAH hey veron~ the reese chos are nice right! heh heh bought them from cold storage but only some cold storage sell them don't know why also... craving for the japanese hairy peas... hmmm... food blog tonight huh... hmm had shepherding hahaha talked about some stuff that can really diao... hmmm... anyways lets pray that di will have more retain converts amen! heh heh thou shall not give up on nafa no matter what... ooohhhh~~~

feeling: bowled over by what livi said
audio: shout to the north - delirious

ripped this from veron's blog...heh heh heh


"Fmaj7" get down with your funky self,
hey at least you're happy...


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whoa... today's a real busy and hectic day man...school started by 9 but was late for 5 mins because i had to finish my prata then i took a cab there... hmm... must start to save money liao... started school by making fun of ding hahaha couldn't stop laughing whenever i saw the way she looked so lost cos she just couldn't understand what we were laughing at her about...its about her _ _ _ _ heh heh heh... anyways, went for professional ethics...hahaha learnt about the way we talked and its found out that the percentage of girls who wore dresses to job interviews tend to get the job better then those who wear suits...hmm... alrights... went for the pattern lessons... HAD to wear blue today and the teacher HAD to ask us to use the charcoal to draw again... ahahaha made fun of ding again cos she's kinda always bio-ing this eurasian drummer in the music course... hahahah her face turned so red man... yup... then after that some of us went to art friends... wha... i bought this huge A2 file those black one... wha... the weight of it itself its already heavy liao... somemore with the layout pad... can break my arm man... hmmm yup... spent $50++ on art stuff... art friend really is a friend indeed huh... so expensive somemore... yup... on the way home there was a slight hiccup... girl...if you're reading this... don't despair... God didn't give up on you and He never will. its really because of sinners that He came to die for us. don't keep thinking that god will give up on you. don't even think about that word. nono man... you're a lovely girl and i can see that you're doing your very best for Him. don't give up. perseverence thats the word. hmmm i wanna see ya smile on wed wor~ hmmm... now my turn... perseverence... nono germs cannot give up on nafa... there will definitely be a revival in nafa... yup..shall leave all thses things to god to handle and i'll do my part too... shall go off liao to pack my room and do homework...very sleepy...slept ard 345am last night and woke up by 715am today... hmmm...

feeling: super tired
audio: lord i give you my heart - darlene zschech

hmm... the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak... i didn't turn up for the matthew event today because at the market i started getting flu and then i started having headaches then from there...wha..cannot take it...went home early today... sms livi about not turning up and some stuff that its... hmmm... feeling hmmmified... then i slept leaning my whole body weight on my arm... arm aching now...later i'll be doing my charcoal drawing... dots and lines... like i said yesterday god spoke to me thru the word... wha... so accurate... something that has been bothering me and i've been questioning it since some donkey times ago... have to focus on certain stuff and also my attitude... last night really cannot take it... so many things to think about... perd...im amazed at how you can take my crap sometimes... that's something i have to learn from you and also your positive outlook of things no matter how they turned out and also not be influenced by the surroundings... man... self righteous... no good... must change and pride too... sometimes i felt that god's grace really amazes me in such a way that i find it hard to believe... your grace still amazes me...

feeling: tired
audio: my sister's snores... oopsy

hmm... the mind of germs is blank. just did a short reading of the word. god spoke to me smack right in the face... only ding came for service but she wasnt really willing... we had to somehow drag her in... yey one good news. one convert for di. happy that our group is growing...but i'm not really happy with myself n nafa... k yup... really truely looking forward to time management. now my mind is not in a blank. there's a whirlwind inside....................

feeling: blown away by thoughts
audio: the cars below zooming pass my house

yey!!! it's saturday!!! and there's special service wor!!! hahaha must pray for retained converts man~ yup... sch was great and i'm a happy bunny today!!! don't know how come...seems like everything that i do today, i'm super happy about even though my heavy bag was killing me... hahahaha sent livi a song that ROCKS and i'm surprised that shirls will like the song too hahahah ok people...thats all for today... see ya all later~

feeling: looking forward to service wor
audio: oscar

hahaha started my day with a 30 mins laugh hahaha was looking at ding's drawing then realise that her model's features got either super dark eye liner or eye bags and some look like the simpsons and there's one that look like old master p...hahaha then when she saw mine... hahahah worse wor... hmm... 30 sketches with 30 including figures with hands by 1st august... somemore by next next week need to hand up the charcoal thingy... and tmr still got this $10,000 thingy...today's history of fashion was great man! learnt a lot of things wor... like the current cargo 3/4 with garners or ribbons or buttons by the side were inspired by the 17th century men's wear - breeches hmm... pity the ladies though...they have to wear corsets and during that time, the waistline must be 12 inches.... can die ah... hahahaha really happy today, bought a muji pencil case and a blue (m)phosis top-man i can't live without (m)phosis... must buy some more stuff... one big bag, one back pack, sketch book, A3 size, stationery... some personal stuff too... mice are you looking forward to sat? heh buying that certain something for you tmr... livi and ashley too... hahahaha...veron too... hmm... able to bless people this time... yup... sat's service is only 2 days away. yup...hopefully besides charmaine hopefully alvin, ding, jo and somemore...heh heh oh yes! vivi you too ok...girl hmm... didn't talk much to you today... hmm... okok people, lets pray for sat's service ok that the people will get to know Him! amen!!! wha a revival in y-hope amen! and lets see that the whole auditorium be filled up all the way ok!!!

feeling: laughing
audio: saving grace - hillsong

yey! went for jewellery design lesson today wow! learn some stuff that will apply to a lot of girls out there... the cost price of a diamond is actually very little... example our teacher showed us 2 packet of diamonds - real ones! that cost only a mere... $5 per diamond... very cheap right??!! to think how much people have been forking out for those stones... hmm... will learn how to make rings, necklaces, pendants, earrings and bracelets...wow~ heh heh... anyways yup... bought crystal balls - those edible kinds lah (zui jia bao) for my dad and bought him the dao huay too... yup... and tmr's dennis's birthday... after school most prob will be going to celebrate with the discovery people and heppy too... wonder where will it be... hmm... tmr i'm having history of fashion again!!! yupz! it'll be wonderful man... always love history no matter which kind... quite a fruitful day today, yup... later gonna burn midnight oil again... to finish up the rest of my sketches... hmm... passed my friends the film festival postcard thingy... some of them were like whats this? then i'm like orh its a film festival from my church lor... but 2 classmates returned to me cos they'll be working on sat... never mind, shall work on the rest... you know people last time i laughed at livi for waiting for the red light to turn green for 5 mins when there'e no car and you can choose to cross... then after that i learn to obey...then today, i waited for the light too, my friends were like laughing... but hey, its safer this way too... one of them said, so when you cross the zebra crossing, you lift your hands lah?! then i'm like yes... hey, i rather be safe then sorry... i don't wanna end up as a strawberry pancake man... just watched ally mcbeal... hahaha really love that show man... hmmm this part about john cage suddenly in love with ally just because she said she loves him (as a friend) boy... john was so happy about this thing without knowing about the -as a friend- until ally said yes i love you and boy do we have a platonic friendship and a really close like siblings one too~ john just 'diao' and his nose starts to whistle (those who watch ally mcbeal will understand whenever he's not himself, his nose will make noises one) yup... was thinking about this sat's service... wondering about something that i told livi about the dancing one... hmm... yes people, at LEAST 1 retain convert amen! yey! cheryl coming back today...must call auntie lulu and ask her out...maybe bring her to service too... wonder how she looks like now... maybe still bald... cause she shaved mah

feeling: laughing
audio: shout to the lord - darlene zschech

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Which Sesame Street Muppet Are You?

i took the quiz twice to see whether i'm lying or not... guess not...found out something about me that i didn't even know i have... was expecting to see oscar or bert... those very negative one...

What Drink Are You?

hmm cin chow huh... never like grass jelly though~

hmm.. anger management... anyways... felt guilty about some stuff... had cg today and yups, it was quite funny cos when we were having worship that time, all of us just try to make some sound to go with the song, cheng uses the plastic, ashley snapped her fingers and knock on the floor, livi tap the guitar while i used my water bottle... yup it was great and simple too...anyways... had a talk with livi just now, had to change about some stuff... hmmm tmr going for cross elective lesson at selegie... hmmm... on sat's service, charmaine will be coming, hopefully some more people will be coming down too amen! hmm...wondering how's viv now, how did it all went? yup, after this, gonna icq some people and then start my drawings liao... kaox just now i was standing by the stove then this lizard came out of no where, got stuck on my t-shirt and i was flinging it off with the soup ladle and like jumping lor... hates lizards... eeewww but not as bad as mice cos she stepped on one before...eeewww and double eeewww... best... seconds after i stepped into my house, oscar peed on my feet... showers of blessings huh...yup... god is awesome man... seeking god's heart... psalms 119:93 - i will never forget your precepts, for by them you have renewed my life.

feeling: yucks
audio: my deep nasal breathing and my heart thumping really hard

tiring day. went for lessons, went to chinatown and bought some sewing stuff, a couple of hiccups along the way. need god's wisdom to think, do and say certain things. so many distractions and temptations. one wrong step and 'pop' i'm sucked into the dark hole. talked to vivi last night till 3am. vivi if you're reading this, i really want you to have hope and most importantly, faith in god. trust in him with all your heart and lean not on your own understandings. i wanna challenge you. to stand up for god. really. and girl, sometimes coincidences can really be coincidences and when god's soft prompting is the one, you will know it no matter what. don't put them together and start to assume. god wants the best for you and in his timing. not ours. we have no right to assume and no, he will not tempt us with such things. get what i mean girl? i really hope that you'll accept my challenge and deny yourself. stand up for god and spread the word to the lost. we wouldn't wanna see one less soul in heaven because of laziness? pai sehness? what else? oversleeping, not discipline enough... hmm.. this applies to all...this is on my mind now. sometimes we say things but we never take action. saying is one thing, doing is another. had a sudden outburst of anger just now. was quite angry with my sister cos she played with oscar and twirl him around till he vomitted his dinner. back to the conversation with vivi. told her about me sia-ing and no its not right. and i hate it too. hate it when i sinned even when i know its wrong. couldn't help it or just brushing it off? god is really wonderful. he is so creative, so full of grace and mercy and he forgives us no matter how bad we are... that makes me feel even more guilty......

feeling: guilty
audio: when god ran - philips, craig and dean

wha... was online super early today and i saw livi too... eeewww never shower... livi ah... anyways, today's business was really good man... when i reached the market by 7am, the stall was packed with all kinds of fish and i was wondering to myself... so much fish today, by the time it finishes don't know what time liao... the pigs will fly liao... guess what? by 11am, it was sold out...man! business was really good man!!! hmm... couldn't understand some aunties...they like to poke their long varnished finger nails onto the fish to test the flesh whether it's hard or soft... but most of the time they end up piercing through the fish... then i'm like??!! but they buy the fish lah... my pa will complain one... then they all like so sheepish -_-' hahaha hmm... something prompt me today, i saw these 2 tiny prawns or rather shrimps then i'm like since they are like less than the size of 5 cents, iyah crush them lah... but behind my head was... germaine, don't do it, you'll regret it. yup, soon enough, the feelers pierced into my finger...yup...i AM regreting now... having a hard time trying to get the thingy out... hmm... today's my pa's birthday, might be going to east coast to celebrate~ supposed to go na's house to swim but cannot lah sure no strength to swim one in the end will just sink down and down and down... yes livi, i agree with you that charls made a right choice! its good that she understands! hmm... tuesday got no class but going to so many places to buy art stuff then after that going for cg. hmm... great~ thinking about the lost sheeps in nafa now... heh heh heh... i can see a revival there man

feeling: hungry
audio: a place to call home - greg ferguson

grow old with you - adam sandler

Billy Idol speaking:
Good afternoon everyone.
We're flying at 26,000 feet, moving
up to thirty thousand feet, and then we've got clear skies
all the way to Las Vegas, and right now we're bringin you some in-flight
entertainment. One of our first-class passengers has written a song
inspired by one of our coach passenger, and since we let our first-class
passengers do pretty much whatever they want, here he is.

Robbie Hart singing:
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

-yeah right-

people pls help me think of an answer to this question that my teacher posted for us...

what is the SINGLE FASHION ITEM you would buy with $10,000??? why???

pls tag me and tell me all your ans..whether you're a gal or guy... thank you...

really wish that everyday is saturday man... service was great! i think the sermon spoke to cleo... by the way people, cleo is one our our new sisters!!! she's actually charlene's younger sister and she's in st nics sec 2, i was praying so hard for her during service man... yey! god answered my prayer!!!wha when she first came she was quite angry with us that we kinda lured her to nexus without telling her what was happening in the first place... yup veron, thanks to you too, you're a great help too! oopsy, no chocolates for you though i finished them liao... k lah must keep to my promise... will pass them to you next week... by the way, i'm not a white chocolate fan but that chocolate that you gave to me... wha...really 'hou jiat' man thank god my sister came and drove me home today... if not...i sure faint one... got a huge pimple on my forehead... look like a bindi though...LOOK LIKE... hmm... i think i have to change my attitude and also attitude towards certain people. like this bro, whenever i talk to him, i like so serious cos he look so serious so much so that i dislike talking to him. until he smiled while talking to me just now. then i'm like... phew finally ah... then at starhub i talked to him... he looked so serious again. i also did the same to him...see lah it all goes back liao... (-_-) hmm... my attitude is really bad big time. don't know how come today my face so black and i was like so angry after prayer meet... then during cg404 meeting, i was reflecting on whats going on, how come i'm like still so... bu hao... haiz... really need to seek Him. the word = food for the soul. susi came to me and told me that the audition for drama is coming this july... then i just pass livi my time table, i have lessons on sat morning till 1130am... how to have ministry... going for time management class... really looking forward to that man... i need to discipline myself... the 2 subs, my end of year projects and church... god i need strength... wisdom to speak to my nafa friends, courage to stand up for you and to resist all temptations too...

feeling: hmmmified and reflecting on some stuff
audio: your unfailing love - hillsong

hmm... great day today, had a good talk with vivien, she went back to god after so much had happened... god is always there for us no matter what, he's always waiting for us, waiting for us to turn back to him. school was great today, learnt about stiching, have to hand up about 40 pieces of calico hand stich by end of the term... hope my teacher can actually see that we're not ants and we definitely cannot hear him at all (we're standing less than 50cm yes, CM away from him)well... nobody says that being a fashion merchandiser is a glamourous job... thomas wee (one of my teachers) explain to us briefly that being in a fashion business, its a sh*tty world. its only glamourous if you're some socialite - paris hilton or some A class celebrity as in like nicole kidman and not some B or C class stars like days of our lives people or if you're like some harper's bazzar or vogue's fashion chief editor- anne wintour, you've truely made it up THERE... anyways, he said money is the most important in the fashion industry... hate to agree but thats the fact... haiz... i really need god's wisdom... so many things that are so distracting... very happy that jo and ding enjoyed our family connection even jiayi asked about it and asked whether we will have anymore of such activities again... vivien asked me wanna go on mission trips? i said yes. planning to go full time after my studies... then make clothes for them wha~ but who knows right... made a new friend today, liqin, she's one of those who like cannot live without make up and has hair down till the waist there~ wha~ then i thought she very dao one but she turned out to be those very siao kind... hmmm so many different kinds... yup... can start to see some cliques in our class liao... there's this girl whom we give a name, christian dior, cos she's like a walking branded shop... her organiser chirstian dior, her handphone pouch fendi, her pen tiffany n co, her bag gucci... hmmm i used to think branded means good...but now i look at her, i think it's vulgar. i don't mean to judge but, too much of something is bad. its like having all sorts of logos stapled all over your body. yup, we have a butch in class, kinda cute as in adorable, we call her blondie, her hair is those huge blonde mohawk but hey, its really cool man, with her sides shaved...hmmm... can see that in the future i'll be super busy with projects but i'll make time for Him no matter what. He's still my FIRST priority. oopsy, i just told veron that i'll give her my REESE chocolates...but i just finished them... well...shall get them again... even vivien is hooked on them man... tmr giving shirls too... linking veron and shirls to my blog... going for the time management class, gotta discipline myself liao, sure a lot of things one. realise that i like to blog super long, but i think its ok, don't understand how come people blog so short one. for what... monday going to china town to buy sewing thingy and going to buy all the art materials... dennis said that being a merchandiser, the future's a bit dark... hmm... -hang hang chu zhuang yuen-have a thinking question for u all, post by my teacher to us: what is the 1 fashion item you would buy with $10000? help me think ok and tag me...

feeling: puzzled about the $10,000 price tag
audio: everyday - hillsong

Pink:
You see the world in bright pink. The world is a
happy, happy place! You love all people and
things!! Life is great! You're just like a
happy child. Spread the cheer.

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hmm...but pink is not me leh... red is~~~

i think i have some more things to say. had a sudden outburst at my dad and bong just now. felt so ashamed after that. really don't know what happened. bong somehow muted the tv and now... its all silence... and henin lost to s.williams. shucks. really shucks. cannot like that liao. must buck up. looking at the brighter side, a care group must be set up in nafa. i need His strength. little things already make me so worked up. how can i face bigger things then?

feeling: stunned
audio: one desire - hillsong

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quotes doesn't necessarily have to come from famous authors.

different churches/denominations personalities and that's alright.. it caters to the different personalities of people and it celebrates the fact that God is creative and not boring when He created different types of people... just that sometimes, it's we Man that create division in the differences/'personality' of the churches instead of celebrating it..

so, enjoy your youth, the vitality and strength.. but of course not in ungodly activities, i think it's really great that the youth in your church channel their youthful energy in winning people for Christ..way to go..

from pauline.

people to thank:

pastor mic and pauline: we might not see each other or talk much as last time, but the thought that both you are always there for me, is all i need.

ying: best friend i ever had.

mice: babee, we went through thick and thin together throught the few years, we cultivate our relationship in such a way that its unique and really hard to maintain but we still make it through. you're really thoughtful that you were willing to spend a night over with me (feb 5). only you will do that. i will never forget that night.

xin: distance doesn't matter btw friendships. the heart is. just a call from you usually brightens up my day, don't be disheartened over those problems. pray. i used to look up to you as someone who looks on the bright side of life. but looking on the bright side of life without Him is useless. really xin, pray.

charls: we too went through thick and thin. we even do some unbelievable things together, but you still believe in me no matter what.

eak: you take my crap and i take yours. fair mah~

jaslin: a shepherd who listens with her heart. one who is not what she seems. one who really challenges you.

fi: a shepherd who forgives me time and again and takes my rubbish. and shares with me her secrets...

bro cheng: god made me learnt what is patience through you.

sis ash: you teach me what is self denial and not be ashamed of it.

to j.k.k.p: love you always. pray for you too. soften your heart too ok...

to my sister bong: if you're reading this, thank god for you. hate to admit this but yes i do love you...

to sister na: even if you hate to read this i will still pray for you no matter what and thanks for not telling pa on my supposed baptism...

to dennis: thanks for buying some stuff to buy me over~ :P heh but seriously, turn back to Him and -He will make your paths straight-

thank god: for every single thing, event and person in my life. basically. everything and EVERYthing.

wha...today at school learnt how to draw figures and homework was... 50 sketches of figurines!!! goodness... learnt about the history of fashion... yup yup yup great man... the egyptians were really fast forward in fashion using drapping techniques wha~ then the greeks and romans then the 15th elizabethan the details and their decorative and enormous jewelleries, then next lesson we are going to learn about the way why women and men dress in such a way hahaha men from the 16th century wore those bloomers (those in convent schools will know what i'm talking about- macham like lanterns) with white stockings and erm codpiece... hahaha...OOPS... the other lesson, product and development was about how advertisments are important, as in direct ads (placing ads in magazines) indirect ads (editorial reports) hmmm... my teacher then said this. sex sells. hmm... don't know what to say about that though... anyways thank god... i found another christian sister vivian... shall bring her to our arts service... but really prayerful about another 4 lost sheep sisters jiayi, jolene, ding yue and priscilla though... yup, was sick the whole day... once the weather changed, i started getting headaches and then my sinus starts liao... hmmm... my time table didn't changed though still have one lesson from 930am-1130am on sats...hmmm... but i have tues and weds off but i have this cross elective lesson on wed night at the selegie campus from 530pm-830pm, its jewellery making... interesting...yup people...gotta spent some time planning my time and set aside some time for my other 2 subjects...must be discipline liao and also for Him. thats the most important one. no matter how busy i am, QT is very important. hmm... still wondering about how to change my 'port folio' details on my blog... this sun is my pa's birthday and dennis's is 4 days later from pa's... wonder what to get for him... for dennis... just get him some stupid man u thingy (i ain't a man u fan) but then again what for spend my money on man u? hmph. maybe i get him a cap... see how much dough is left... next week have to go to art friend and get some stuff... this will burn one huge hole in my pocket man... have to get a huge bag for my layout pad...hmm maybe drop by techman too and get some stuff... heh...wha my face very itchy and pain because sunburnt lah... yey!!! found reese chocolates liao!!! wha i bought one packet today, cost me $4.49...but it was worth it, boy i am willing to give an arm or leg just to get my hands on them man! wha... the wait of tasting them since 3 weeks ago... wha...the wait was worth it man... shall get them on fri and pass to veron!!! cheers! today is the wimbledon semi's ladies singles!!! another thing to cheer about, my sister went to hope's PnW last night for adult service!!! yey!!! heard from her that it's great!!! of cos lah!do i hear an amen???!!! heh heh heh god is indeed great amen! hmmm... really have to depend on Him for the things coming on my way... i don't want to only look for Him only when i'm having troubles, i want to share every single thing with Him in my life, whether good or bad. really thankful that mice brought me to church and get to know Him. although it was a really rocky start that made me so turn off, i'm glad for pastor mic and pauline and most of all, mice babee... and another cotlite, babee eak... who really open my eyes... about some stuff and that i can count on them when things are really upside down...

feeling: excited about those 50 reed thin sketches of models?
audio: saving grace - hillsong

great day man!!! first must thank god that my nafa friends came today...heh heh wha...they went kayaking whilst livi just kinda pretended to be the mermaid waiting there... heh whilst i went off to cycle for a while, volleyball and play tai di with some of the guys... fun wor~~~ my face and nose a bit red like got put some blusher... heh tmr can save on blusher liao~hmm... was really happy that ding and jo can mke it today~woohoohoo~~ hahaha so many funny incidents today... starting with chengcheng...was really thankful that he gave me a ride back...hahaha i cycle livi back too then this song was in my head...(tian mi mi) bwahahahah~hahaha had a great time playing captain's ball and monkey ahahahah was monkey sooo many times and jasmine too... ahahaha play until she blur, kept passing the ball to the person next to her and back to chengcheng wha because of him i had to hide in the toilet for a while in case he splash water at me cos i used the water gun at him...hahaha then after that we went off to play pool...best part man...kehan laughed at the way i stand while playing pool...then the very next minute he missed the step and fell hahahahaha the way he fell...hmmm...BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA had a great time playing pool with pearline too... somehow the solid orange ball didn't really like her until to a point she like so desperate to use her hands instead...hahahahahahahahahahahahaha hmmm... took a lot of garlic today thanks to deborah from tp, the lor mee not nice one... the noodles like a bit the hard one...not al dente ok... yup... tried bowling once thanks to sherry but in the end it went to the longgao...yup... guess bowling is not for me wor~ yey people!!! tennis!!! j.henin.hardenne is in the semi finals with clijsters!!! the belgium ladies rules man...hopefully this time the williams will be out in the semis cos they both entered the semis too... tough match...hopfully it might turned out like the french open...where the belgium ladies singles were j.henin hardenne and clijsters with the williams eating their dust wor~hmmm tmr school very xiong... classes from 1230pm-630pm all the way... i sure nuah there one... anyways... had a really good time with chengcheng today, talk to him about certain stuff... good fellowship... hmm...good... yup, really pray that my time table will be changed to no lessons on tues, wed and sat!!! and di will have 5 retain converts by end july!!!

feeling: tired but super happy
audio: king of majesty - hillsong

You are Romans.


Which book of the Bible are you?
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feeling: hmmmified
audio: one desire - hillsong

hmm...didn't turn up for dmm today at livi's house...overslept...as usual... need to plan my time properly liao. tmr is a great day man!!! going for the poly and di family connection and 2 of my new friends are turning up!!! well... praise god man... anyways, i'm still cleaning my room, so yup... nothing much happened today... yup... just pray that my new time table i won't be having lessons on saturday and on wed and all lessons will end latest 630pm...heh...

feeling: super nuah
audio: everyday - hillsong

GERMAINE f French
French feminine form of GERMAN. Saint Germaine was a 16th-century peasant girl from France.

GERMAN m
From the Roman cognomen Germanus which meant "brother" from Latin germanus. This name may also be given in reference to the European country.

hmmm... saint germaine huh...

journey - corrinne may

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to You

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know You'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to You

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will You break down these walls and pull me through?

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to You, to You

its a WWOONNDDEERRFFUULLDDAAYY day amen! first day of school... by god's grace, i won't be having classes on tues and wed... and wed is the east coast outing with the whole poly group!!!but they will be changing the time table anyways and i'll be having classes on sat...this time really have to pray that for the new time table i won't be having classes on sat... anyways... today my course right, they need to find 2 class rep and i was like praying so hard that i'll be selected so that i can get all the fashion merchandising people's nos and that way its easier to evax... then they chose this girl name charmaine then i'm like...ok one less, then they pick another girl then she pretended that she wasn't there then they chose another girl but she refused...then i'm like huh... the probability of me becoming a class rep is very low... then suddenly the teacher said, we need to go off soon, so hurry up and pick the first name on the list...germaine kwek!!! VOILA!!! WOOHOOHOO!!! amen!!! heh now can get all their numbers liao...hahaha i can see a lot of lost sheeps waiting to be found~ today there's dpm~ was late (erm...overslept) though but after that we had this QnA session with pastor jeff... i asked him one question hmm... saw two major stars within 2 days of each other. sat, i saw sandy lam and her child, today i saw carol from oh carol... i told my sister she said that i'm bluffing~ anyways...i bought some stuff from art friend...wha so ex! hmm... hmmm people, should i bless the poly people and make pasta for them? but no dough...how to ah? hmmm was sharing christ over the email with one of my babeesss (people who i'm close with and i consider them babees including you MARTIN EAK~) hopfully she'll turn to Him. send out a couple of emails to pastor michael,pauline,aroon and babeee xin... hmmm... maybe i should add some suff about myself in my blog too... ok... yup...byeee

feeling: thankful esp to Him
audio: my heart your home - hillsong