yes!!! i finally remembered!!! its about my blog the portfolios and stuff those are not mine... i forgotten that they were there... don't know how to delete them too... thankx veron for telling me!!! yup...yup thats all

feeling: nuah
audio: vincent - don mclean

tmr starting school wor!!! got a vision and that is di will become a sub dis~~~ woohoo~~~ need god's strength to help me man~ sure will be taxing one but...but... (phil 4:13) i can do things through christ who strengthens me~ hmm... later must dong nao jing about what to wear tmr...must stand out then the people will get to notice me... not for the wrong reason lah!hmm... must pray about tmr man... today was a day of ZZZZzzzz cos after selling fish... so tired... slept from 230pm - 8pm... chatting to a couple of people online now... enjoyed it man... make me busy for a while... tmr is dpm!!! at nexus!!! finally no one will faint!!! this time will have 2 guitarists!!! power!!! wha!!! now quite excited for tmr though i kept saying i'm not excited...but yes i am...secretly inside... hehhehheh...actually i can't sleep now... hahahah keep smiling to myself... yes people yesterday i was too seh to type... i've a break through!!!great!!! its actually... me smiling... cos i'm always bao qing tian then livi was telling me that even ethan whose always looking so serious starts to wear white and smile liao... then i'm like the ultimate one... she was saying how come from mon to fri she sees me i'm like so happy then on sat, service... i look as if the church owes me money...oopsy...hmm... have to go for audition for joining drama... don't know how i'll make it... like a bit hard leh... can act in front of my group but... hmm...yup yup...watched amelie again!!! kinda want to learn how to make tiramisu serious... but no dough so cannot buy the ingredients...hmmm got something that i wanted to type...but cannot recall leh...oh yes!!! tmr's dpm pastor jeff will be joining us!!!eh... besides that still have something to type...nevermind lah when i remember i'll just add it in... ok people... last word, treasure the people around you esp your parents. they work very hard for our sake and they want the best for us. don't hurt them with words or actions. really. treasure them.

feeling: afraid and scared
audio: god of all creation - hillsong

excellant prayer meeting and service man! and the cg404 meeting too! god spoke to me about certain stuff... short blog this time... haiz... thank god mice came today... did some judging of the youth dna t shirt... also don't know which one to choose...sick now... flu and headache...nights...

feeling: sick
audio: faith - darlene zschech

oopsy... very important this one... a great thanks to livi for helping me with my archives and tag board! your reward would be an egg agar agar~~~ lalalalalalalalalalalala...must smile later... -_-'

feeling: smiley
audio: oscar's bark

headache... those very suan and like as if there's a drill going through your head that kind... hmm... better update my blog now, later need to go for BS then by the time i come back and do my stuff... no time liao... WOOHOO!!! its saturday soon!!! and the whole day is reserved for service!!! good good good... went to sengkang today... saw shiying after cg and today too... she's working in inouvi cosmetics and she gave me this free facial and nasal steamer... hmmm yup yup... and today i didn't go for the tape listening cos i was meeting huiying... hmmm... told her that i wanna start a care group in nafa. she said some stuff that kinda deflated me... but never mind, god is great and thou shall not be beaten by just a mere few words yup... heh today i bought another sweater... this time even cheaper wor~ $13 nia!!! from mango somemore... hahaha hmmm really into sweaters now... somemore au is coming back... heh shall ask au to help me get some from there... really craving reese chocolates... really want to find them badly... seems like cold storage doesn't stock them anymore (sorry veron) maybe i should try carrefour or tanglin marketplace (sure have) but so far... haiz the price to pay... just remember something, the other day at cg, half way through worship, a lot of those insects that come when its going to rain that kind started to fly into the room, actually all of us were singing, didn't really bother about the them except for john, then after that it reminds me of the time when we had district prayer meeting at sp ministry house when someone literally fainted...THUMP. its like u can either be distracted by the surroundings around you or u can concentrate when such things happened and gets really obvious...get what i mean? yup still on those insects... when i got home, tp was also raining... i found one huge one on my bed, chewed up. courtesy of oscar. ewwwwwww... seems like i'm starving him that he resort to such 'food' huh... later will be having 2 hrs of BS... better concentrate and dwell in god's words and learn! yup yup...

feeling: brave
audio: the heart of worship - delirious

('-' )( '-')(._. )( ._.) where are you~

feeling: missing a piece of something in my life
audio: ears block how to hear anything clearly

your grace still amazes me - philips, craig and dean

My faithful Father, enduring Friend
Your tender mercy's like a river with no end
It overwhelms me, covers my sin
Each time I come into Your presence
I stand in wonder once again

CHORUS:
Your grace still amazes me
Your love is still a mystery
Each day I fall on my knees
Your grace still amazes me
Cause your grace still amazes me

Oh, patient Saviour, You make me whole
You are the Author and the Healer of my soul
What can I give You, Lord, what can I say
I know there's no way to repay You
Only to offer You my praise

It's deeper, it's wider
It's stronger, it's higher
It's deeper it's wider
It's stronger, it's higher than anything my eyes can see

mushroom soup is good with garlic bread ~~~

**ziggystar** better use the free time i have now to blog... once sch starts.... -_-'

hmm... tiramisu also means pick me up! so pick em' up bros and sistas~

hi people~ wha must start my blog with yesterday's stuff... great day man~ went to suntec bookfair to look for dennis and mice but ended up helping them to pump the ballons~ my arms so suan~had cg and it was FANTASTIC~ cos we like so long never had cg so kinda miss though~ mice came! amen! then we talked, cooked unagi~ yumyum~ and we shared some stuff and we talked about my old church's spiritual clinic (manifestation) yup... and we all prayed together~ really needed that and ultimately i'm still very happy that mice came...yup... THEN, because mice was washing the plate with livi, we (chengcheng,ashley,charls and me) sneaked down and took mice's shoes along with us, then we like spent the next half an hour trying to strategise how to scare mice... then in the end... while we were still in our hiding place... yanyan saw us and wonder how come we like thieves, sneaking around...she went back, TOLD livi and mice, how come we all downstairs like so sneaky like that... piangs... best ah yanyan... yup... the plan to sarbo mice...fell through... but it was fun man~ then the topic of the day was andrea de cruz's case and the EXTREMELY MEASLY $1 compensation to the church for the widening of the road case... yup... went home after that and found that i deleted my archives... then my first blog... was gone~~ wha~~ then tonight waiting for livi to help me make lor... then today yes... good day man, was supposed to meet yings but i overslept then met up with livi,ash and jasmine to evax at thames... wow, we got a very enthusiastic indonesia girl~ shirlyn~amen! she might be coming for next wed's east coast outing! yey man! but... i have sch... sch's starting on monday... then pray and hopefully on wed i only have classes till 12pm MAX. wha... very happy today... went with jasmine to shop for a while and she bought a neat jacket man~ so nice! and she helped me to pay for my two sweaters (cos i didn't bring enough dough)~ and she told me to try pink one for once... and when i wore the pink one... she said i look rosey... hmmm... do i always look so UNrosey? then she chose one blue one which i rather like it too, very london type... aiyah... you get what i mean~ very happy with the 2 tops... maybe before service i might pop over and get some more~ yup... sch starting soon~ i wanna pray for more faith and courage man, that i will deny myself and SMILE and make get as MANY contacts as possible (everything is possible with god amen!) !!! hahaha thinking about what to wear for first day of sch... should i wear something quite slack one so i stand out as in like bo chap... or should i wear something like woohoo~ but after that got district prayer meeting leh... so yup... cannot... hmm... god is indeed great... heh heh heh heh bwhahahahahahahah... -_-'

feeling: whoa thats amazing whats coming out of my mouth
audio: trading my sorrow - delirious

LOVE HIM. WORSHIP HIM. SERVE HIM. OBEY HIM. FEAR HIM.

hi people...went to NP ministry for tape listening... note down a couple of points and will apply it to my life too...hmm my contact just sms me saying," i enjoyed the singaporean idol but i don't wanna be a christian... hmmm, had a talk with mice just now, good talk, got to catch up with her, heard that she kinda backslide... must pray for her. ying called me and said how come i like a bit the religious and why not don't go for some of the church activities? hmm... must pray too~how come some people ( in general ) know the word of god yet choose to turn away from it leh? frankly speaking, i backslided before last year when i was still attending my old church. not so committed to church, always 'diao a lang dang', then around jan 2003, i turned to god, couldn't cope with such a huge burden, i desperately needed god to give me strength. he did. after 4th feb, i realise i wasn't such a 'hum bao' and weakling after all. charls knows best, whenever i have a problem, i try not to cry as i will be deemed as a weakling, until she kept telling me thats its OK to let it out. haiz. i really need god to help me overcome some stuff. my friend called me last week and asked me a few questions, i said," god will help me." immediately my friend laughed. saying that that's the funniest thing she ever heard. and she asked me to repeat myself. ashamed of what i said, i said nothing, nothing... and yes, after that i WAS ashamed. how come i didn't stand up for god? you know ah people, some of you who are non-christians reading today's blog of mine might think," aiyah, please lah. i tell you people, when you KNOW and understand the word, nothing will make you turn away from it. i really hope to see non christians, my family and friends come to know god. serious. even my mum who used to be an anti christian even accepted christ. to the christians- people who laugh and persecute you, forgive them for they don't know what they are doing and saying. instead pray for god to soften their hearts. must focus on god rather then focus on the problems.and here's something for people in general to think about. what is your real motive. ( this applys to all... and me~ )

feeling: don't understand a lot of stuff
audio: emmanual - hillsong

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hahaha this is gonna be long man... yesterday, i was in my sister's room having praise and worship and because my sister's door is faulty, there's always a spare key attached outside in case the door slam shut. yup so during PnW i took out the key cos i don't want anyone to disturb me and threw it on the bed. after PnW i took a shower. as i left the air-con on, i closed the door... yup, the door was locked form the outside hahaha i started to panic cos i left the air con on and what will my dad say??!!! so between 11-1145pm i was searching the whole house for keys... as my mum used to keep all kinds of spare keys in a pouch, i thought that i was going to be saved... guess what... the door key that i threw inside was the only pair around... never mind~ i was thinking of calling a 24hrs locksmith to help me... but at this time ( 12am ) siao ah... so i called fiona for help... she told me to wait until tmr and be prepared to kena from pa... so i went to sleep and i was woken up by my dad around 520am exactly. he bellowed... WHAT HAPPENED? HOW COME? WHAT YOU DO? wha i was so groggy and in the morning, getting a scolding is nothing fantastic to be happy about~ so i told him what happened... he was like looking for keys too... in the end he was like so angry and pek chek with me... i...i just went back to sleep... then around 9+ i woke up and found out that my dad got a locksmith to open up the door... wha... i felt soo happy~ then i went back to sleep... because i was supposed to go for DMM and membership class today, i didn't go cos my pa was still angry with me and secondly, my sister was coming back from her trip then the whole family was supposed to pick her up... yup... then today is the wimbledon heats... hewitt ( last year's champ ) is out. first game leh. the the Thai guy Paradorn Srichaphan's game was suspended due to the opponent's injury ( exciting match man )... yup, going back to PnW, it was great man, felt so good to be in god's presence~ woohoo and double woohoo~~~ must do that again man~ tmr going for tape listening at NP ministry house and after that having shepherding... hmmm... some things are better left unsaid... and must pray too for a certain person too. cos this person is having some major problems. pray that god will speak to this person and hopefully this person continues to stay with us~

feeling: saved by the locksmith
audio: saving grace - hillsong

i will offer up my life - delirious

I will offer up my life in spirit and truth
Pouring out the oil of love as my worship to You
In surrender I must give my every part
Lord receive the sacrifice of a broken heart

Chorus:
Jesus, what can I give
What can I bring
To so faithful a friend
To so loving a king
Savior, what can be said
What can be sung
As a praise of Your name
For the things You have done
Oh my words could not tell
Not even in part
Of the debt of love that is owed
By this thankful heart

You deserve my every breath for You've paid the great cost
Giving up Your life to death, even death on a cross
You took all my shame away, there defeated my sin
Opened up the gates of Heaven, and have beckoned me in

Jesus, what can I give
What can I bring
To so faithful a friend
To so loving a king
Savior, what can be said
What can be sung
As a praise of Your name
For the things You have done

Jesus, what can I give
What can I bring
To so faithful a friend
To so loving a king
Savior, what can be said
What can be sung
As a praise of Your name
For the things You have done
Oh my words could not tell
Not even in part
Of the debt of love that is owed
Of the debt of love that is owed
Of the debt of love that is owed
By this thankful heart

(this thankful heart)
(this thankful heart)

What can I give
What can I bring
What can I sing as an offering, Lord
(What can I give
What can I give to You, to You)

What can I give
What can I bring
What can I sing as an offering, Lord

What can I give
What can I bring
What can I sing as an offering, Lord

what a tiring day... slept around 230am then waking up around 6am to help my pa sell fish... then as i walked pass my room, livi was sleeping, the position she was sleeping wha~ and oscar was sleeping beside her all the time hmm... man... well... yup service was great man!!! prayer meeting was real cool!!! but i didn't get to attend because i was at the africa room helping shirls with her hair... well in the end i did attend the prayer meet... for the last 2 mins... hmm... didn't attend WFL because my friend came along to attend the first service BUT he left barely half an hour later... but most of the half hour he was peering into the soundbox ( you know which one i'm talking about lah` ) and sam goh was like...? who is this person? how come he kept looking at me and the sound team??? but oh well, hopefully he'll attend next week... saw one of our contact, tanya at the market today... well, shirls won the first service and daniel won the second one...wha then for the last song, my redeemer lives, woohoo, the drums part is my fav man~ hmmm had a heart to heart talk with one of my group people. not so good... must pray. period. let god speak to the people involve and focus on god more than other things.

feeling: hmmmified
audio: an jing - jay zhou

hmmm a rather fruitful shopping trip today~ we went heeren, taka and wisma... couldn't find anything for ash though, we went to perlini silver hoping to find a pendant that's nice... but they all turned out to be rather _____ yup... but i bought 2 tops though... should be saving money rather than spending... school is starting on 30th june... so soon... yup people my shepherd says that a hairclip is meant for making one's hair nice looking and not to clip it up... cos she was like letting some fringe down yet she wants to clip it up... me and ash don't quite see the point leh... iyah livi... u ai mei admit lah~ no need to go in circles lah~ hahahah... today taka got this down under ( aussie ) food fare... wha~ the pie so nice~ i bought 2 home, steak and mushroom, chicken and veggies. hmmm... then i was aiming the tiramisu though~ seemed like my blogs are filled with foodstuff huh~ anyway, was watching tennis with my dad just now~ whoa... my current favourite player is justine henin hardenne from belgium... wha her backhand~ woohoo~ one hand nia~ power man~ anyways... i saw an old friend of mine in taka just now... she's one of those very rich girls...yup... was envying ( yup wrong spirit - fruit of envy ) her about the things she can buy without batting an eyelid until this struck me... 1 Timothy 6:8-10 ( but if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. people who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction. for the love of money is a root of all evil. ) ohhh... people in case i forgotten... oscar was chewing something that he picked up from the ground... guess what fell out when i forced opened his mouth? a spider... hahahaha i think thats mild liao since i caught him with a cockroach nymph before... hey... my house is CLEAN ok~

feeling: envious?
audio: through it all - hillsong

morning people... feeling better now... didn't go for cg last night, told my cl that i can't go because i was down with a slight fever and flu and a really bad headache...haiz... then after dinner i watched holland v with my family then later add some stuff in my blogger then KO liao... today will be a fruitful day man! going shopping with livi, charls and maybe the guys to buy ash a gift or two cos we didn't get her anything for her birthday mah... so must make it up to her lor~ had a very short qt last night... sometimes i wanna ask god so many questions but well, god will only give 3 ans. yes, no and wait. so sometimes i waited and waited and waited... don't think i'll get some ans so soon. thinking of god's grace that he's given to me and that special someone

feeling: overwhelmed
audio: overwhelmed - darlene zschech

stressed spelled backwards is desserts... so yup eat more chocolate when you're feeling stress...

which shampoo does the catholics use? head and shoulders.
which shampoo does the christians use? rejoice.
which shampoo does jesus christ use? follow me.

going for cg in chinatown later, might wanna drop by yue hwa though... jaslin ask me to make tiramisu for her... thinking about the money of buying the ingredients... don't know where to get the money from though... the mascarpone cheese alone cost $11++... very sian one leh... my sister fiona just came back from bintan, then now my other sister yvonne going to koh samui... then i alone in singapore... sian... don't know whether livi will be staying at my house this sat or not... cos central hq got meeting or something like that then sunday i have to wake up early to help my pa sell fish ( hey people come buy fish from me ok )... ninny one leh, my good friend called me from overseas last night... i thought that she'll be back in singapore this month... then she told me that she will be back this dec... best... been wanting to see her badly, good to hear from her though. goodness, my sinus is back liao... thats bad then now got headache... this friday got guitar lesson but i don't think i can make it... going out with my auntie... wanna catch up some stuff with her.. was watching cnn then they say beckham going to real madrid... this time real madrid really all star man~~ woohoo~~~ go real madrid... well... for man u... erm.... yup... sorry but i ain't a man u fan~ but if next year real madrid don't win the champion league ah... then i want to faint liao... so pai seh one... tsk really got headache now... then oscar like barking at no one at the door...

feeling: all star madrid~
audio: this is how we overcome - hillsong

gotta cook now. can't wait to read the bible later... gotta spend some time with him...

hmmm... its my first blog lah so thats why within one day i try to fill in as many things as possible...heh heh....hey people u all should try reese chocolate... wha peanut butter with chocolate coating... yup was supposed to give some to veron then cold storage sold out... yup so i shall try this week...yup im a chocoholic man... the last time i got sick of chocolate was when i went to max brenner chocolate bar at the esplanade... it was awesome man~~~wha... jaime and i wanted to puke and i stayed off chocolate for about 2 weeks straight man... really too much for us liao... should try a drink there called The Suckao. its a special cup with a metal straw cum spoon at the end and a small candle underneath that's designed for preparing and drinking thick hot and creamy chocolate. it comes with a tiny jug of milk and some chocolate buttons for you to stir in. and if you're into fondue... like me... heh heh... then the Berry Indulgement is for u man~ a pot of melted chocolate with strawberries.... yum.... enuff said... their giant truffle, brownie and chocolate cheesecake is whoa~ woohoo man~~heh heh can't wait to go there again...

feeling: chocolate anyone?
audio: the girl from ipanema - stan getz

fav song... excellant...

the girl from ipanema - stan getz

Olha que coisa mais linda,
mais cheia de graça
É ela menina
que vem que passa
Num doce balanço
caminho do mar

Moça do corpo dourado
do sol de Ipanema
O seu balançado
é mais que um poema
É a coisa mais linda
que eu já vi passar

Ah, porque estou tão sozinho
Ah, porque tudo e tão triste
Ah, a beleza que existe
A beleza que não é só minha
que também passa sozinha

Ah, se ela soubesse
que quando ela passa
O mundo sorrindo
se enche de graça
E fica mais lindo
por causa do amor


Tall and tan
and young and lovely
the girl from Ipanema
goes walking
and when she passes
each one she passes
goes ahhh

When she walks
she's like a samba
that swings so cool
and sways so gently
that when she passes
each one she passes
goes ahhh

Oh, but he watches so sadly
How can he tell her he loves her
Yes, he would give his heart gladly
but each day when she walks to the sea
she looks straight ahead not at he

Tall and tan
and young and lovely
the girl from Ipanema
goes walking
and when she passes
he smiles but she doesn't see
she just doesn't see

first thing first: i want to bring ying to know christ. that's my aim once i start school. i want her to know god and have a personal relationship with him. i wonder what ma is doing now. hmm... i guess she knows the bible more than me now hahaha... just happened to read my icq details that i entered last time... so corny lor... wait... corn has got no knee... hahaha lame sia... that's anointing from my shepherd man... oopsy are you reading this? o_O haix... feel like eating fries with vanilla ice cream now... and hot plate beancurd and a slice of tiramisu... no wonder i gained 4kg... another aim of mine... grow my hair... never seen my hair over my shoulders for the past 5 yrs liao... thats long... been sporting short hair... cannot tahan the phase when your hair doesn't seem to grow at all and just stay put at that certain length...

feeling: yeah right. even that remote control?
audio: grow old with you - adam sandler

muhahaha i told my shepherd that i won't ever make a blogger and now... this... heh heh heh
okok lets start... this week has been a pretty good week, starting off with prayer meeting at the sp ministry house on monday! yey! this time nobody fainted though... yup yup unlike the previous prayer meeting...everyone was like praying...then suddenly....THUMP... then we realise someone did fainted due to the lack of air heh... hmmm everything has been pretty good... but although my pa didn't allow me to baptise...well its ok i'll go for the next one then... i can see from his point of view since so much had happened ever since feb 4th. man that is the day i will never forget for the rest of my life. but its a good thing ( those who knows will understand what i'm talking about ) because of god's grace... amen... hmmm looking forward to this coming week's singaporean idol... should i bring sybelle? in case she fall asleep? due to her short attention span? hmmm maybe i'll bring sean and jordan... yup god is great... just happened to think about how bad tempered i was...

feeling: ashamed. period.
audio: more of you lord - hillsongs