a pretty boring day today, went to sch jus fer a lect & waited abt 30mins to get our notes printed, luckily missed jus 2 pages from de notes.. erh, supposed to go RITS & eat, but all of dem refused bcos its de china ppl serving today.. so mean right! i dun mind lah but cant expect me to fine-dine myself rite?! erh but still, we went Petit! de cafe, jus 4 or 5 crews!! no wonder both lecturers are helping to clear and serve.. dey're ver nice ppl!! OH! did i mentioned tt mr.neo asked me yday why didnt i join SA (Service Ambassador).. haha! er so i told him why then he's lk "oH! so u're shawn's VP!!"... *cough* ahrmm.. yes.. oh!! & smart Mr.president did sth smart agaiN!! there're mis-com fer de giving out of shirt & he happily went to send out a mail telling EVERYONE, including de lecturers, abt de miscom.. seriously, sumtimes we dun have to put out ur dirty linen & tell every1.. but *sigh* he's "smart" lah!!

wanted very much to tell him abt his frien, but no chance.. seriously, we dun tok lk how we're in de past.. miss de days! was deleting de mails he sent.. cant help it but.. yah, trying hard to get over him, but dis kinda thing is hard.. not as though dis is de first time rite? & sumtimes, jus cant help but worried abt him.. its not tt i didnt wanna 4get abt him, jus tt 我不习惯..

Another Monday, Service day..
i've been a RITS Steward & Petite's order taker.. so today i thot if dey're to ask fer volunteers, i dun mind being de captain =) BUT!! i've gotten de Hostress!! haah! easy job! jus nida open door, greet them, take reservation & bring guests to their table! but! de challanging part is.. service frm 1130 till 1400, u'll nida smile all de way even when there're no guests & nida stand upright (cos i hunch alittle!) now! im having backache & legs too!! argh~

chosen our Project's role also, supposedly to be Petite's order taker again BUT changed wit some & gotten RITS waitress, with MZ! muahah~ seriously, we click! =P

oh! &.. i didnt tok to him anythg till when de weird jap guy came into de restaurant.. lemme see, there're about 40words being exchanged today? hmm.. an improvement huh!

yday was PACE agm.. er as usual, saikang squad are afterall saikang squad.. poh & i were packin de leftover food & clearing de table after de agm, erh okay! we're in recep but sum guy happily went off... okay! i admit he's got de hight & all tt most girls will be attracted to.. but... tts.. grrr~ okay, quite obvious he's quite well-liked in pace, together wit some1.. & in pace, if u receive duties, it means sth good for u lah.. &... aiyah! better not tok abt it, jus sadden me.. was tokin to ortega abt it last nite.. she's sayin mayb im not those dey're lookin for.. then i ask myself, why did i join pace?! CRAP!!! & also.. concluded tt i cant please adults, esp those aunties & uncles.. haha! i dun hav de looks & those tao3 ren2 xi3 huan1 character... u noe, those ppl when dey see uncles/aunties, dey will like dem immediately.. to a certain extend, its jus in them lah!! & cfm i dun hav tt =( sickening!!! AH!!


seriously, regarding the previous events btwn tt guy who "scolded" me bcos i's helping him. i told shawn abt it, & hope *crossing fingers* tt he REALLY understand wad i meant when i told him those stuffs... ya~ & okay! i always tell myself not to be so "out-spoken"& "enthu" over certain stuffs.. but i cant help it, its jus in me.. is jus lk, i cant help but clearing mess for ppl & helping some1 when he/she is in a mess... buay tahan lah! sumtimes.. NO! most of de times, i tell myself

"jiamin! durin de next meetin, can u keep ur mouth SHUT!! for goodness!! keep to urself!! be laid back!! -slap- HEAR ME!!!"

but.. i cant!! seriously, there'r pros & cons to this kinda situation.. either ppl hate me to de extreme or tinks tt im good! agree?! [yes! -nod-] so..

JiaMin!!! try to control urself!! [but hey! i always tok when needed & when things are wrong wad?!] CRAP!!! ahhhhh!!!! dilemia!!!! -sigh-

very very extremely totally definitely confused!!! crap!!!
& im alittle lazy to edit my ssm posters but.. nida show every1 on Monday!! argh! oh! & i better get my people-network thingg good!!

"Jiamin!! jiaYou!!! buck up!!"

hey, suddenly feel like toking to u.. noe u'r having camp.. but again, even if u dun, i wont hav de guts to tok to u abt tis kinda thing.. really really feel lk tokin to u now..

hmm.. ur frien jus dun get wad im sayin.. i wasnt havin any intention to start an arguement, jus wanting to tell him sth did happen & shld solve it if he wans de committee to remain as it is.. but he actually called me "Ms know-it-all-vice-president"!!.. it takes two hands to clap. whenever things happen, it mus be everyone's fault. er.. not everyone, lk.. ppl who are involved.. but he keeps insisting tt i's jus pushing the blame to him.. i noe she's at fault too! & now, im trying to neutralise everything!! guess i did the wrong thing.. so im now de "Ms know-it-all-vice-president" to him.. He even said i dislike Mr.president.. i nida clarify this, i didnt say i dislike Mr.president.. he's really a very nice guy, jus no leadership but with great PR-skills.. He's also a nice guy, jus weird working style which apparently everyone is supposed to accomodate to him.. i still rem what happened fer MUTS, u wasnt there, ur frien was de one who spoke up fer us..

*sigh* hey, i really really nida tok to u! i dun understand ur frien!!! & he dun understand what im saying.. & surprisingly, im not angry at all.. jus.. jus feeling disappointed tt ppl tinks tt de saikang u're doing fer dem is useless & irritatin, when u're actually doing it fer dem..

& ortega was defining "PAIN" jus now.. whats pain, Pain is a way when your body starts to tell you to stop doing what you're doing.. im feeling pain when i tink of u, feeling the pain now.. & do u noe whenever i listen to songs, i'll tink of u, esp when im alone..

"我从未拥有过你一整夜他却有你手绘的体贴" - 南拳妈妈

& current favourite song "开场白"by 蔡依林
its abt how a girl 4get abt de guy & tellin him tt she's living well w/o him.. i hope i can do de same.. but, i need to tok to you now.. its jus when u're feelin depressed, u nid sum1 to be there to understand, listen & jus care abt you..

一起宵夜哄我睡着, 累了有你的肩膀靠, 再苦的日子你陪我熬.
就算你一天天变老, 请记着我会给你靠.. 深烙的爱是幸福之钥.. - 南拳妈妈

crap! lunch time hour now, but jus dun feel lk lunchin wit those "adults".. pressure!! mayb bcos i dun find a nid to pei yang gan qing wit dem.. kinda realised tt i really dun lk dis kinda office job, 9-5 thingg.. i mean im not kinda lk an observer, observing de way dey work.. veh obvious, u noe who are those hypocrites, bitches & all! haha! ppl who are nice are also obvious, nasty ppl, DUH! use my fingernails oso can sense tt dey bu shi hao ren! serious! dun 4get, im good at observing ppl.. haha! meetin ortega fer Marche ltr! whoow~ been wantin to eat my rosti fer de longest time..

seriously.. waiting fer de time to pass... *yawn*

today is a cloudy day!
supposed to go to the island wit de girls, but!! it's cancelled bcos my sis called me & ask me go for a 3day temp job, an events thingg.. sth similar to my job scope in IPAC previously.. i's hesitatin in de first place, lazy to work! but thinkin abt de money.. i agreed!


Progress software at Gateway building.. near SJ HQ! called the prospects & clients.. did some cutting of nametags & all.. tmr nida reach by 9am! crap! i nid 1 1/2 hr to reach.. meaning i nida wake up early! double crap! which also means, im gg to miss sjc sj meetin tmr morning! sigh! nvm, shall see how..


oh! & ortega lost! she went to her house!! i noe how she feel but toking more to the person means that u'r adding water into the boat urself! i noe one cant resist de temptation to tok to him/her, but jus nida control.. its like, at times, i'll also be worried abt him.. cos now is de soccer period.. is he betting too much on the matches? he looks tired, is he okay? & all.. but seriously, jus nida control oneself.. was on the bus jus now, listening to 年少's 还是在意.. thot of him..


"我还是在意，还是在意你，在意你的每一个表情和回应。 虽然我们不能再一起，我还是放你在心里"


was thinking abt de last time when i bochap u -reciprocal-.. felt really bad! still rem tt face u gave.. oh! & i still rem tt time when i's so pissed till i didnt noe wad to say, jus felt sth gushin out of the heart!! when i heard u commentin on sloggie "i tink she's sick!".. if she's sick, go take care of her then!!! crap! fine! i admit i's jealous, but its jus normal reaction isnt it?! hmm..


tmr still nida work!! 645am! super crap!! oh! & did i mentioned tt i dreamt of him twice last week!? =)

so proud of myself!! hahha
did my service proj designs.. usually, i'll jus tell ortega all my ideas & she'll do it out.. but since its service & she's not involved, not veh nice la.. so my beloved-&-ever-great sister was telling me to use Powerpoint to do it.. muahah! i did fer PACE previously, but save everythg as .ppt.. but dis time round, mauahh! i figured & save under jpeg!!! im so proud of myself!!
8posters & 2 brochures
-yaya-
shall show u one which everyone like..

Nice?!!? found dis picture, i noe its copyright, but.. im not selling it right! hahaha
okay, & no idea why.. cant seems to upload my fav here.. haha! oko..
& now i noe how ortega feel when she's doin those posters.. damn pekchek, de colors, fonts & all!! oh! & some of my ideas, i didnt manage to do out.. too chim! haha!

gg bed soon, tmr gg to de island! but then again, im veh proud of myself today~!! -pat myself-

haah! went to run today!! its been a long time since i last exercises.. hmm.. tts a few months back for WILL@TP . hahah! covered ALMOST de whole sengkang with my sis, wooh~ & now... im havin shoulder aches =( okay! Loser okay! but tts de natural reaction if de last time u exercised was lk centuries ago isnt it?! hrmm..


thou shall continue to TRY to exercise to shed off my "good friens" even though i'll love to have dem for life... (looking VERY sincere!) hahah!! tata! shall do my service marketing stuffs, cos its not jus a 6ppl thing, its a 20crews project, dun play play!!!

oh!! thou shall use my blog as a source of Publicity too! =p

saw dis guy on taiwan tv prog b4.. but bcos there isnt any WQYL now, kinda lost track wit de newbies over there nw.. & yday went Ktv wit xuan rite, hahah!! found out his name, 陳奕!! muaha! a very pretty boy indeed, jus lk renfu.. he's got alittle j-pop kinda image.. like his lips, though some ppl might tink he's alil gayish.. lol but still cute!

陈奕 - 等待



陈奕 - 暗戀我 during 完全娛樂(13/05/06)
one stone kill three bird! haha! in dis video, u get to see chen yi, mengzhe & JR! muaha


陳奕 - 自戀狂


found his website.. but cant save de picture!!!! =(

Poh sent me tis website, u noe those tickle-quiz.. haha! here u go..

Jiamin, in your Cinderella story, you'd get to Topple Your Evil Stepsisters
Whether you're battling evil stepsisters, arguing against an unfair grade, or trying to put a bully in their place, one thing's for sure — you fight for the underdog. Let's face it: The world's not always fair. But you, more than others, know you can help make a difference.So whether you're leading a rally cry, starting a new club, or just welcoming the new girl in school before the mean kids get a chance, you've got a strong sense of what's right and wrong and are armed with the smarts to fight for justice. So roll up your sleeves, Cinderella. You might not always feel like people notice your efforts, but deep down everyone knows you're the real belle of the ball.

pretty interesting huh?! hmmm.. no wonder i belong to de sai kang squad! lala! oh!! i went kster today!! woowh~ feelin satisfied now -ver wide smile-


hmm.. haven finish my clubspa research! damn! but i did 2 parts alrdy.. haa! i did till 3am dis morning leh.. so hardworkg rite? -ya rite!- oh!! Service SWOT & marketing plans.. oh no!! okok.. byebye!!! oh!


& lu guang seng ling is gettin veh exciting, Owen cried today! & i concluded tt guys who cried at times are actually quite attractive.. cos its when dey're.. er.. haha! no idea how to explain =)

found dis video online.. er.. lyrics.... veh meaningful~

Finally get to speak to my aunt since she left for NYC. De previous occasion of conversation CAN KILL!! Talk to them will hay-gu aka asthma! Hrmm.. for the past few weeks, my mom, another auntie & I have been going over to help her pack her house, clear up & all. I repeat, MY MOM, another aunt & ME!! Have been packing ah!!

But apparently, my uncle’s sis said tt SHE went over to clean de house. (FCUK YOU!!!) buay ta han that family loh!! Hypocrites to the MAX!!!!! that family (comprises of my uncle’s mom and her elder sis) always like to tok cock! Serious, I really mean tok cock!! They are those SUPER gian perng & when things happen will, “neh! Didn’t I tell you it’ll happen?” wa lao! Been decades already okay! That day when my aunt & family left, they didn’t even take the initiative to go over to help them pack. Like “HELLO!! Do you need me to say some IDIOT-PROOF things for you to understand?!?” is like, wtf! I hate people to ma3 hou4 pao4.. grr~

Seriously, isn’t God amazing? To create all these WEIRD & IRRITIATING people to spice up everyone’s life?!?!?

another boring Sunday! so started to browse arnd websites. was watchin videos of Milubing & other superbands. They are good! hahah!

旧地 - J3 [No moving images!]


Ding Jian Gao Shou (K one) - Lucify [De Lead singer really did improved!]



& thanks to Ck, hah! he actually managed to change J3 "video" to mp3.. muahah!!!

Leo
When you plant a tree, it takes several years before it begins to bear fruit. Harvest season after harvest season passes with no sign of apples. If you've been waiting year after year for the kind of romantic connection you only read about in books, your patience is about to pay off. In other words, when apples finally appear on those boughs, there will be enough for pie -- and applesauce too.

When it comes to romantic partners, you've had plenty of time to figure out what you want. In 2006, your ability to discriminate between a bad apple and a good one -- and to tell a delicious varietal from the mealy types you grew up with -- will be especially keen. If you've already settled on someone you'd like to stay with for a long time, this will be the year you explore the permanent motivations and lasting basis for your passion. Parallels between you and your partner will be thrown into sharp relief, and the complementary differences between you two will become visible as well. You might think that finding the rational basis for a mystical connection will kill the romance, but in fact, the opposite will be true. Your emotional connection will deepen as the intellectual and instinctual aspects of your relationship begin to work in tandem.

It's also possible that someone you've been involved with in the past may ask to rekindle a connection that had fizzled out. Give it a try -- with your practically supernatural discernment, you'll be able to tell quickly whether the person deserves another chance. Once you find someone special, you'll be thrilled to find out that they felt the same visceral connection you did in the first moments of your meeting.

"hey! how are you today? havent gotten a chance to really tok to you recently,

missing you real badly..isit really true that there isnt any chances between us anymore? sorry for being too sturborn.."Minn

http://horoscopes.astrology.com

haha! im veh proud of myself!! finally!! my blog has a new home!! tada!! very yaya now.. haha! lalala -jumpin arnd- rarely i so smart on computer leh, but i managed to make de video smaller, yan & ortega taught me de html coding fer de music.. *ahrmm* [pls bare wit de current music alittle, i'll TRY harder to source fer better ones.. ya?] lala!! -still very yaya-


went to sch AGAIN!! like, its break week, but im gg back like almost everyday.. finally recruited our subcom! phew~ 11 of dem! *crossing our fingers* hope tt dey'll maintain de same frequency as us =) went to play squash wit ortega aft tt, but it seems lk we tok more than we exercise, i barely pespire!! [ver dissappointed wit myself!! tsktsk!!] NVM!! thou shall try harder de next time i go ya!! haha!


er.. okay! but first, i'ld wanna apologize to You!! sorry fer throwin my tantrum at you.. i cant help it but it jus comes naturally.. no idea why!! i always regret aft givin u those kinda expression/attitude.. but i still care abt you! [mayb sometimes, a girl just hope de guy will initiate first?!] mayb im showin u attitude bcos i care? [crap!]


so isit possible to turn back de time?
anw, im still feelin YaYa now.. haha!!

..... Still can’t figure out how to edit my html code to change de sidebar back to its original SIDE!! grr.. -Shrugs- but I did managed to change my skin 3 times!! haha! But was rejected/scolded by my self-appointed therapist! So got to change back.. If not, tmr when I meet her, I’ll be in living hell!!


went to de library to look up books for my proj.. Amazingly, i found a really good advertising book.. [so proud of myself!] i rarely visit de library to borrow books okay, usually jus use de net & That’s it! lala! gg back to TP's library since SK's library can do so much.. Currently, im very energetic to do my proj, so unlike me!! Usually, I’ll either sit there & laze arnd, not do till de last moment.. Then rush like mad.. lala!!


Watched 禄光森林 jus now.. Watched a few episodes in Taiwan the last time, de usual idol drama.. Pretty amazed how those producers come up with all these story lines.. Those are all too fairytale! Like Mvp valentine & wang zi bian qing wa.. There can’t be such lovely love stories happening in the real world, IMPOSSIBLE!!! In禄光森林, they mentioned that “Symphony of Love” will keep playing, unless he’s not the Right one.. So is “he” the one for me? He makes me feel different, so is this our “Symphony of Love”? Hah! Sound so cheesy!! Oh well!


[Ortega asked me a question just now.. “Ever wished that I’ve never met him before?”… what do you think?]

oh!! & i've found Superband MiLuBing's performance video.. Noticed dem during de first round, they're good!! hahah!! 无印良品 - 身边

went to celebrate ortega's belated bday today.. went settlers then chompchomp, supposed to go eat chilli crab lo.. so sad!! but enjoyed settlers! haha! its fun.. $6 for students 2-6.. like kbox.. haha!! orh... i need to go kbox..! suffering from withdrawal symdroms alrdy lO!! haiye!!


hrmm & i noe i told myself thousand, million, ZILLION of times not to tink of him, but dis kinda things jus come naturally!!! cant help it.. see'in him everyday is alrdy a habit to me!! i shld change de habit... i noe i shld.. tinkin of de first time i admitted tt i like him, there're smiles on my face... but now... no expression.. sumtimes when sth occured arnd u which makes u tink of him, i cant say out.. if i really were to do so, poh dey all will say me... wo xiao bu chu lai.. hen nan gou.. if one day im given de change to possess a supernatural power, i'll wanna read people's mind.. tts a power i wanna hav a long time ago.. hah!


being a lesbian, will it be better?! afterall, girls understand girls more than guys do.. guys are weird.. really weird... i wish i's a guy, i'll definitely not treat a girl like how u'r treatin me now.. but guess wad, im afraid tt all these avoiding is bcos, u noe i like u & u'r trying to avoid me.. hen nan gou, zhen de hen nan gou....