went to watch ghost-rider.

114 mins.

the effects was nice.

the people were funny at times.

but it could have been better. if not for the too-much romance. =)

dead beat.

just reached home from work.

didnt know working full shift at taka square could be so tiring.

perhaps partly due to not sleeping well last nite as well ba.

but today was pretty ok, other than being tired. got to know wenhao (19 from luggage) meow (21 from luggage as well though i didnt talk to him at all.) and zilong (17 from passporte). :( all younger than me!!! also met with some old colleagues, wendy, saui mooi, zijian and uncle lim. =)

sales wasnt as good as expected. but at least better than nothing. :)

p/s: my colleague, liying said i have dark circles. :( i better do something about it soon. otherwise will be worst in time to come.

met eugene and dominic to buy stuff for the steamboat tonight.got lots of food. actually not a lot. spent about $60 for about 6-7 people's share. got lots of fishballs,meatballs and mushroom balls, all the balls. we also got a fair share of pork as well as chicken fillet. and mr lee specially pick prawns for the rest who ate prawns. freshly picked wor. lolz. also got some otahs as well as yu sheng.

was there early and so we watched the show babel.

Short Synopsis: Armed with a Winchester rifle, two Morrocan boys set out to look after their family’s herd of goats. In the silent echoes of the desert, they decide to test the rifle… but the bullet goes farther than they thought it would.

In an instant, the lives of four separate groups of strangers on three different continents collide. Caught up in the rising tide of an accident that escalates beyond anyone’s control are a vacationing American couple (Brad Pitt, Cate Blanchett), a rebellious deaf Japanese teenager and her father, and a Mexican nanny who, without permission, takes two American children across the border. None of these strangers will ever meet; in spite of the sudden, unlikely connection between them, they will all remain isolated due to their own inability to communicate meaningfully with anyone around them.

gotten this from this website.

it was quite a nice show but it is definitely not the kind that i will go to watch in the movie. can't appreciate. haha.

after that,xiaojia came over from her godma's place. she was pretty early. late considering the fact that she initially wanted to help us to buy food as well. huilin and cliff came and we started playing mahjong. then sharon came and we played for quite some time before we started feasting.

then xiaojia dominic and cliff helped to set up the steamboat. eugene,lousy host la. haha. ask guest to set up. coz he busy winning mahjong. winning my money. :( lolz. then after we set up everything, most of us were hungry and so we decided to abandon our tiles and start eating. haha. yumyum. the food was great. and the company was cool. very seldom do we have such a huge gathering. we had the steamboat which also comprise of those hotplate (bbQ kind) as well, so it was pretty fun trying to cook. it was like goin back to seoul garden. =) been ages since i last went there. we took quite a lot of pictures and ate quite a lot. so much that all of us were pretty full after being served by sharon and huilin (da jie leh, she served me wor). so nice of them. haha.

but xiaojia left shortly after as it was her dad's birthday. and emily and zichao (superman) came pretty late, around 9. we tried to finish our mahjong game and i didn't even had the chance to game once. :( such "good" luck. lolz. then we played blackjack (eugene was the banker and hence darrell and sean's girlfriend joined in the fun). huilin left around 11 as her boyfriend was waiting for her downstairs. then the rest of us continued playing in-between. lost quite a lot. wasnt in the best of luck. :( haha. but we all had fun. :) which is more important.

after that, we "lao" the yu sheng and wish for examinations luck as well as fortune luck. haha. it was fun. and we took a couple of pictures as well. :)

hope there is more of such gathering to come. =) perhaps after the mock, before we had our final revision and staying out/up for our final examinations.

*shall upload the pictures when i received from dominic*

went to sonia's place for visiting.

it was my first time going to her place. her place was huge, like eugene's. executive i guess. mine was only a small three room flat. =( her mum doesnt look like a chinese. though she is one - a half peranakan, like eugene. and we had qing teng at her place. it was quite tasty though not sweet to sonia. but i like it. then sharon and her boyfriend,gary came to join us as well. then chatted quite a lot. mainly about studies. coz her mum is a teacher. hehe.

then headed to t-mart mac to study. was a bit awkward as i was wearing a long skirt. which was stupid of me. haha. since when am i smart? managed to do a bit of MM. but i had really no mood to study at all. was in the festive seasons mood.

and we watch a DVD at gene's place (i forgot the show title). the show was rather dry. not exciting at all. i dont appreciate this kind of award-winning show. but i must admit i do learn a lot of political stuff which suaku me wasnt aware of. all thanks to eugene. =) i learn something new everyday~

first day of new year.

went visiting.

unlike past years, we went to our paternal grandmother's place at ang mo kio before heading over to my maternal grandparents side. and we didnt go over to our grandaunt's (grandfather's sister-in-law) place as well since my paternal grandfather just passed away in september, not nice to go over there. i also not sure why. and then, after that we headed over to my granduncle's (grandmother's brother) place where there is a "huge" group of relatives.

not sure why but most of us dont seem to have the chinese new year mood this year. perhaps coz there are no gamblings at the granduncle's place. wonder why. but anyway,even if there is a gambling session,i also wont be playing. :P i know my luck for chinese new year gambling had always been bad. or maybe the exams are coming soon. even my brother is also having his exam next week. what weird timings for these stupid exams. idiots sia. haha. or perhaps we are all older now. the mood ceases. and times when i really enjoyed myself are the times when i was with my friends. or maybe i am more friend-orientated. :P

i remembered my mum saying me anti-social since i didnt approach any of my relatives (cousins and grandrelatives) and talk to them. well,they didnt approach me as well. everytime they will ask the same old things if i have a boyfriend, why didnt bring him along, and even worst ask me when i am getting married. -.-||| ok, that's not the worst, and the worse is yet to come,one of my cousin even asked me to give birth to a child so he could play with it. ?! wth. anyway, i am the 慢热 kind. or rather i start to open myself up at a later period. in another word,i am slow. shy. whatever you guys call it. it is only at times when they are about to leave the place that i had more to talk to them about. haha. i am such a weirdo. :P

had steamboat as usual. had much more food this year compared to last year. or perhaps i ate more. :X means i am havin a larger appetite. means i am fatter. one of my grandaunt said i am fatter. :( i should go on diet soon. ;p

p/s: chenghe asked me to go KTV. but i got sorethroat. if not i would have went sia.

很快地，又是新的一年了。

是时候告别狗大哥，欢迎猪大哥。

*这似乎是数年前在某台上讲的台词。。　哈哈*
　
在此，猪大家新年快乐，万事如意。希望大家在这普天同庆的节日里渡过难忘的几天。

只不过，在这新年过后，那些烦人的考试就即将来临。

真的是伤脑筋啊！！！

烦啊！！！

very often, we forgot to show appreciation to the people around us. be it just a simple thanks (maybe we mumbled it but they didnt hear it.) or a smile.

perhaps we remember we were supposed to say thanks, but we didn't.

we just took them for granted. which is common in today's society. i suppose many people felt the same way. when was the last time a person said thanks when you held on to the lift, waiting for them? when was the last time you felt appreciated? quite some time ago?

think of it another way round, when was the last time you said thanks to another person? is it very long ago? if it is,i guess it is time you start repenting.

it is only when they (the help) are gone, we realise their importance. *we always do that. realise the important of something only when it is gone. i wonder why.*

or even worse,they had to remind us.

i read this entry. which was the main reason why i wrote this entry.

we did something wrong. dead wrong. though i wasn't involved in the situation since i went to gene's house to watch the final battle of thailand and singapore. i forgot if i said thanks to waiyue for offering. what we did is wrong, in my perception. not only were we not appreciative, we caused quite a lot of problems within the authority due to the empty seats. and a simple thank you could have meant so much. but we didn't show it. perhaps we didn't benefit it and so we thought we didn't have to thank anyone. and could simply ignore all the problems they came across and face. and people had to go through the shit for us.

so why back up when you have already given your promise? *i am not blaming anyone. the event had already passed anyway. it is just something i wanted to blog about. bleah* no idea. people always do funny things. not that i am not human, or at least i try not to do funny thing. though i do make a fool out of myself most of the time. but i do have my own priorities and principles and i try to follow them. perhaps everyone has different priorities as well as principles. hence the differences we have.

we always use money to measure how important certain thing is worth. but if money is used to measure everything, how much are you worth?

appreciation is often measured in such a way that we all forgot that the simplest form of appreciation is actually a simple thank you. not cash. not treat-giving. nor gift-showering. just a simple thank you from mouth can actually melt your heart and make you feel that all those effort are worthwhile, of course there must be some sincerity in the tone the words are said. perhaps i am being a bit too unrealistic. i dunno. any other methods of appreciation are, of course, welcomed. but, how much you are appreciated may not necessarily be measured in monetary terms.

imagine, someone showed you a grumpy face and pass you a gift as a token of appreciation for your help. will you feel appreciated when you see that grumpy face? to me, it would have felt that i threatened that person to buy me a gift for the help i provided. how appreciated will you feel?

hereby, i thank you for reading this entry. thank you for the effort and your time. *with sincerity of course, otherwise i wouldn't have even bothered to edit this entry time and time again*

p/s: if this entry offends any one of you, i am utterly sorry. i just wanted to say what i felt. and for any misunderstandings caused between us time and time again in the past, i am very sorry. for any unappreciation felt over the past few years i had been alive, i am sorry and i thank you for your help. i didn't mean to not show any appreciation. but i may have forgotten to show it. and there are also times i guess i do take things for granted as well. sorry about that. taking people for granted seems to be a shortcoming everyone can't get rid of.

p/p/s: speaking of shortcomings,it is these weaknesses of others that make us aware of how imperfect the world is actually is. but what we can do is to accomodate to these shortcomings. perhaps not take them very much to heart. since there is no way can we change them unless they wanted to be changed. just accept them as they are. isn't that what love/friendship is all about in the first place?

p/p/p/s: please help mr alan tam to do this survey. your help is very much appreciated. thanks. =)

p/p/p/p/s: it is tough to be sitting on the fence at times with two sides pulling you down.

p/p/p/p/p/s: i wonder if i make the right decision writing this entry. but anyway,since what's done cannot be undone,let's just let bygones be bygones.

happy valentines' day!!! aka friendship day!!!

here are some Valentine Quotes by Famous Persons

Love built on beauty, soon as beauty, dies.
~ John Donne ~

He that falls in love with himself will have no rivals.
~ Benjamin Franklin ~

Romantic love is an illusion. Most of us discover this truth at the end of a love affair or else when the sweet emotions of love lead us into marriage and then turn down their flames.
~ Thomas Moore ~

Love is not love that alters when it alteration finds.
~ William Shakespeare ~

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
~ G. K. Chesterton ~

If you would be loved, love and be lovable.
~ Benjamin Franklin ~

Love, free as air at sight of human ties, Spreads his light wings, and in a moment flies.
~ Alexander Pope ~

Love is a spirit of all compact of fire.
~ William Shakespeare ~

I have great hopes that we shall love each other all our lives as much as if we had never married at all.
~ Lord Byron ~

Love seeketh not itself to please, nor for itself hath any care, but for another gives its ease, and builds a Heaven in Hell's despair.
~ William Blake ~

The course of true love never did run smooth.
~ William Shakespeare ~

If music be the food of love, play on.
~ Shakespeare ~

Love is the enchanted dawn of every heart.
~ Lamartine ~

Charm is a way of getting the answer yes without having asked any clear question.
~ Albert Camus (1913-1960) ~

It's not the men in my life that count -- it's the life in my men.
~ Mae West (1892-1980) ~

One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory.
~ Rita Mae Brown ~

Love is much nicer to be in than an automobile accident, a tight girdle, a higher tax bracket, or a holding pattern over Philadelphia.
~ Judith Viorst ~

At the touch of Love every one becomes a poet.
~ Plato ~

Love doesn't grow on trees like apples in Eden - it's something you have to make. And you must use your imagination too.
~ Joyce Cary ~

Love may not make the world go round, but I must admit that it makes the ride worthwhile.
~ Sean Connery ~

Love is like the measles; we all have to go through it.
~ Jerome K. Jerome ~

One advantage of marriage, it seems to me, is that when you fall out of love with him, or he falls out of love with you, it keeps you together until maybe you fall in again.
~ Judith Viorst ~

p/s: what is your definition of love?

a single line could mean a lot to me.

i am sick. :(

sorethroat, fever, cough and a bit of a headache.

doctor said i was too stressed. hence irregular periods. bleah. i am stress? haha.

anyway,hope to get well soon. =)

p/s: sometimes i wonder if i really think too much. i hope i really am thinking too much. it seems that there are some people may not be who we see or perceive them to be. 最具有杀伤力的人，其实就是那些看起来非常无辜，又令人同情的人，但他可能在不知不觉中与你作对。there may be this likelihood that people who are nice to you may not be as good as you thought.　or perhaps they wanted something out of you. there is a motive. a reason behind his every action.

p/p/s: dont ask me why i suddenly said this. it is just a thought. perhaps i think too much. perhaps i am too bored so i 胡思乱想. ;P

happy birthday to sweet darling lena.. ;)

p/s: celebrated her birthday with most of the tak-lors yesterday at ichiban restaurant. the food there was much better than sakae sushi. and i had quite a lot of food. hehe. i was hungry by the time i reached there. was supposed to go watch luo zhixiang but in the end coz i am not feeling too good so didnt go in the end. quite a pity. but there is always another time. :P anyway,it will be funny if a 21 years old girl act like some teenagers just to go after their idols right? haha. got her a waterbottle and the rest of us gave her cash. had a surprise for her when the waitress carried the breadtalk tiramisu cake out for her and we sang the birthday song aloud for her. i suppose she was quite surprised by that, i suppose. anyway,i do hope she did enjoyed herself yesterday.

p/p/s: went to KTV today with lena and her friend (:X i forgot his name.. is it liyong?) had fun. sang quite a lot of songs but soon was chased out by the waitress there. :( headed to orchard and walked about centrepoint. seems to me that i had never really explored that place. after that went to billy bombers for desert. but there was no cake available. and we went specially for their brownie. :( had nachos and cheese fries in the end. so cheesy. :P then on the way back to my grandma's place, i realised i am going to fall sick soon. felt super duper tired. maybe lena is a curse to all her good friends. lolz. friends always fall sick on her birthday. lolz. remember waiyue always fall sick on her birthday before her 21st birthday? lolz

had a full day lecture on interviewing skills today.

boy,was i lucky to be given the chance to be observing people being interviewed and got myself interviewed as well. luckily i was quite prepared for the question,all thanks to sharon with whom we discussed a bit about it during the break.

question: "what are your strengths and weaknesses?"

guess what?

now that you mentioned it, i forgot what i said when i was at the interview!!! lolz.

*took me quite a while to remember what i had said*

i suppose i mentioned something about being a treasurer in the basketball team, about being able to manage the stress of collecting money from so many people (added in by the lecturer) and paying the coaches fees as well as booking of the courts. and my weakness is self blaming at times when things dont go my way. haha. then i try to resolve by talking about me handling with a difficult customer (which is like no link) and learnt to take things lightly, after being consoled by my supervisor. but i guess i didnt explain this part well enough and so i confused my observer into thinking that my weakness was about not able to handle stress. haha.

but anyway, i felt that i didnt talk good about the weakness. perhaps that is my weakness. :p i intended to say that my weakness is not a good speaker at first lo then later on decided not to. lolz.

not bad. though i was nervous,the others said i did pretty ok. which was surprising coz i expected it to be bad since i couldnt even remember what i had said and the funny thing was what came out from my mouth wasnt from my mind. :X perhaps like i mentioned in my previous entry,things are not always as bad as we thought it to be. it is just our brains which cause us to be negative about the situation at times.

glad i had the opportunity to speak up in class. at least i gotta learn and i suppose we all benefited from the workshop.

=)

p/s: went for the IM lecture in the evening. and guess what? we did the test again!!! haha. did the chapter on Glosten-Milgrom question. and we can solve it. =) was not as difficult as we thought. but realised ms koh is much kinder to the PT students. maybe because they had a hard day at work. or perhaps like what sharon said,she expect more of us since we are professional. professional students.

有些时候，我们或许都想得太多，才会使到自己变得更加不开心，不快乐。。 可能事情并没有我们想象的那么差。。只是没有想象中理想罢了。。

那我们又何苦浪费时间烦一些不能解决的事情呢？

我觉得长大了，烦恼也接着增加了，似乎以前不会烦恼的事情也渐渐浮现了。。如果一切能简单明了，那应该有多好。。人长大后，有了男朋友，或许就会间接地把身旁一些仍然需要他们关怀的好朋友给遗忘了。。可能这就是所谓的现实的残酷吧！

现实确实是残酷的，这个道理我想大家都非常明白。。也可能是因为大家都明白，事情才会演变成今天的这种局面。。大家都开始为自己着想，把自己摆在第一，而不是把朋友或家人放在第一。。凡是都要把自己的利益摆在眼前，也变得比以前更加自私了。。就自有这样做才能保护自己，不让任何人伤害自己。。

可能这就是成长的过程。。

如果真是如此，我呢，宁愿就不要长大。。

人在江湖, 身不由己.

或许在有些时候 对于有些事情 与其靠别人 不如靠自己.

p/s: learn this at the career management yesterday: noone plans to fail.but if you fail to plan,you are preparing to fail.so start planning now!!! that's how he encourage us to start planning for our career. how encouraging. but at least it is better than having no clue in the first place. =) i suppose i do found some idea of what to venture into in the future.

p/p/s: if you have no clue where you are going,how could you ever reach your destination? so decide where you wanna head to and work towards it. what's most important in life is not the destination (since in life the only destination all of us can reach is death) but the journey, however if you do not have a destination/aim,when is your journey going to start? it is the destination that determines your journey.so start planning now!

p/p/p/s: now i sound like the lecturer.

sometimes i am not as perfect as you thought i am.

i have my flaws too.

my 500th entry!!!

yea!!! singapore won the Asean Football Championship!!! =)

p/s: happy belated birthday to dad (2nd feb) and da jie (3rd feb)!!!

as exams draw nearer, stress level increase, tolerance level decrease, mood swings increase,happiness decrease,conflicts increase.

so i do apologise if i cause any unhappiness between friends,especially those who had to tolerate with my mood swings and bad temper cum attitude problem.

sorry.

as exams drawing nearer, patience become lesser, tension become higher,my mood will become worse.

so i do apologise if i offend anyone of you in this crucial period.

i will try my best to prevent any further unhappiness from happening.

sorry.