wee~! KTV session again... been to too many KTV sessions recently since i went into SIM and gotta know alan they all.. haha.. hmm.. and going broke pretty soon.. haha.. anyway,as it was the eve of labour day,the charges are pretty high in the afternoon and hence,we went for the Klunch which was fixed price and relatively cheaper..

anyway,before that lena asked me to OP to buy one of the skirt that she saw.. and it was only $26 like that and so we are so excited about it.. i try on a OP girl white color skirt,or rather 裤裙.. then it was white and i already got a white skirt and so i bought the other one which is brown.. and it ended up with lena not buying anything when in the first place,she was the one who wanted to buy the skirt.. but apparently the size wasnt rite.. the one that was M was too small and L was too large for her,so quite troublesome.. for me,i fit in the M size one though it was a bit loose..and so i told her that one after washing alot of time,i can let her wear le.. since it will become looser.. haha..

then went to get flowers a rose for all the female who are attending today.. hehe.. got kaijing,huixin,diana and jeslyn as well as lena and me.. hehe.. got all of them roses but lena prefered the gebera..and so we shared the costs for the flowers and rushed off to the tampines kbox coz we were late already.. haha..

reached there and started singing.. wasnt really high coz perhaps we arent too familiar with each other as yet.. haha.. somemore the room was quite spacious and somemore,we are split into 2 groups,tpjc vs tp.. haha.. then after that,we went to century square to walk walk.. and lena again went to the OP shop and we asked for the opinions of the rest of the girls.. then we walked around tm and cs shopping..

then they suggested to go to katong there to eat laksa and so we headed to parkway via bus 31 and they were talking about the height of lena.. coz she was wearing heels so she looked very tall.. haha.. then was asking how tall she was.. 165cm.. haha..

reached parkway and we went to watsons to buy drinks,while i got myself some chocolates.. please call me chocolate freak.. muahaha.. then we settled down at the seats at orange julius and ended up none of us got drinks from there..haha.. then chatted about some of the clips that they made and also some ghost stories.. then jeslyn told us a ghost story that scared the hell out of lena.. haha..

then after that,we headed to katong to have our dinner,katong laksa with homemade barley.. hehe.. then after eating we took the 喜怒哀乐.. introduced by the wow wow friends (aka horngjiunn,diana,munhong,jeslyn)

introducing the wow wow friends... (clockwise:munhong,horngjiunn,diana,jeslyn)


wow wow friends: 喜


wow wow friends: 怒


wow wow friends: 哀


wow wow friends: 乐

introducing our version... (clockwise:lena,diana,me,huixin..where's kaijing??)


our 喜


our 怒


our 哀

when it was our 乐 time.. the camera had no more battery.. and hence we had no 乐.. sad ar.. haha.. and so in place i put the wowwow friends plus special guest lena le.. coz i found this nice.. hehe..

wow wow friends with lena..


special guest: 乐

and hence we ended our day with the special guest wow wow series.. haha.. i acted as ghost to scare lena and the other one was the teletubby say byebye~ very ke ai and we had fun filming.. haha..

btw,you can find more of their production on this webbie..

headed to school to study before attending the night lesson meena's stats.. and so asked yuhan to help me to book 2 seats for me and janice since yesterday he offered to help and somemore he wanted me to help him with the econs questions that amos went through with us.. hee.. thanks to yuhan for those seats~!

coz by the time we reached school,which was around 11+ for me,the library was already fully-booked!!! haha.. then as i reached the library i couldnt find where he was sitting as he was not there and was out having lunch in the food court and so i had to trouble him to show me to the seats as i couldnt recognise his bags.. and luckily he showed me to the seats if not i might be beaten up by some other people.. haha..

after that he just bought his IBM stuff to his lessons without his bag..weird.. haha.. anyway,soon after that janice came and as she was pretty hungry,i accompanied her to eat.. i also havent had my lunch.. and so i ate tou suan while she drink the green bean soup..studied a bit of econs again.. haha..i think i am obessed with econs.. wee~!

anyway,saw a shuai ge in the library sitting near the window panel there.. both janice and i agreed that he was cute! haha.. yesh,he was pretty cute but i forgot how he look like le.. i only remember my shuai ge from the UOL pob class,but i think he is from China.. haha.. and he took 61 home.. haha.. coz once when we were going to alan's house to study,we saw him boarding the bus.. wahaha.. :X

then we went to attend the stats lessons and we sat right at the back.. although i helped shou zi and ethan to book seats for them but as they are sitting with one of their friends so they headed to sit at another place.. haha.. then i realised that actually she was also the friend of alan.. haha.. she so suay to have alan and shou zi as her friend.. haha.. by the way,i think her name is sin yi.. haha..had fun with her coz we kept suaning alan.. wahaha.. aint we evil..

after lessons, actually alan and janice wanted to go KTV.. but i cant stay up late and so i asked them to go ahead loh.. haha..but then jiawei also reluctant to go sing ktv.. then so we decided on playing pool.. haha.. hence as there was a pretty long queue for pool hence we go to mac first.. had ice-cream and ice milo.. hehe..

after that we played pool.. wasnt playing well.. haha.. coz i partnered with alan.. haha.. no la.. just couldnt get the ball to get in.. and hence i was the one who make the opponent team snook one.. haha..quite li hai also ba.. haha.. played until pretty late.. was around 12.20 when i reached bedok and the last bus number 18 left at 12.25am.. haha.. phew~

studied with xiaojia today at tampines mac instead of going out to play.. coz she was panicking already for her exams.. and somemore,she had other friends,huishan and connie who joined her in the studies.. then janice bought her flower--rose that was orange color like the color of the sunset..while i got her a card and huishan and connie got her cake from i think cafe-cartel..

didnt really study coz wasnt in the mood to study especially since it was xiaojia's birthday.. and so janice and i went shopping.. haha.. actually just walked about and bought some little little things for xiaojia.. keychains etc.. hehe..

then actually janice wanted to go home one.. but i sort of persuaded her to stay.. coz i told my mum i went to school.. haha.. call me a big fat liar.. :P otherwise i cant go home that late and she will definitely want me home for dinner.. then got her to study.. hehe.. but end up only i studying.. opps..

anyway,thanks to janice who accompanied me.. coz xiaojia left half-way to celebrate her birthday with another group of friends..and i dun think i will be comfortable with huishan and connie alone..

happy birthday to dearest xiaojia!!!

call her DA JIA from now on.. :P sorry inside joke..


You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...

You're warm, and the most approachable. You have that gentle presence about you. People can relate to you, and find you easy company. However it's likely you've been hurt in the past and it has left you scarred so things can become rather chilly with you at times. Being the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy and loyal to your friends but prone to depression and negative thinking.

Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)

?? Which Season Are You ??brought to you by Quizilla

find this quiz is the most accurate about me.. haha.. especially the part "prone to
depression and negative thinking"..

will blog for the other days after my exams.. be sure to catch them in actions.. haha.. :X

lena asked me to go out study with jac and her.. and so i agreed.. she ar,really fickle minded one leh..one moment dun wanna study outside,another moment asked me out.. hai~ then i studied econs once again.. realise that i was over concentrating too much resources on econs?? haha..

anyway,on the way to interchange,on bus 19 saw ziwei.. didnt notice him,had he not call out to me..he should be doing pretty well ba.. haha.. that day was a off day for him.. haha.. didnt ask him much questions,mainly he asked me the questions.. mainly on SIM..perhaps he wanted to come over to SIM to study ba.. haha..

then went to meet lena at KFC.. weird she messaged me to ask me to get a jacket for her.. but i received the message much later when i was with her.. my handphone that lag?? or issit the server problem?? then jac came after his lunch.. and he found that KFC was too noisy to study.. well,it doesnt really matter to me coz i am listening to music anyway.. haha..

and so we suggested somewhere else but where? where in tampines can it be quiet and we wont be chase out by the staff there?? haha.. jac's place was one of the choices.. and so we headed to his house.. haha.. at 101 market there.. quite near to the high-way towards PIE..

his house was quite big given that he was living alone.. since his parents are in JB..we studied awhile then he asked me some stats questions on chi-square.. and when and why was it being used..thank goodness,i was pretty much helpful to him,though there are somethings that wasnt in their syllabus.. and for us,it was far too simplified as compared to them.. they also studied some other weird tables etc.. which i havent seen before.. hmm.. perhaps wad we learn are just too basic..

then after that,lena and jac went to buy some drinks from the vending machines downstairs..got lemon tea for me.. thank you..=) then lena went to use the computer for one of her modules: women and globalised world.. got a quiz and that quiz was pretty tough as it made her panick about the exam..

went on to study more of my economics on the slutsky and hicksians theory before heading back home.. went to the bus stop and waited for lena to board the bus.. then jac accompanied to my bus stop after which he went to tampines mall to eat with his poly friends..

went to school for mr ting's econs lessons.. was there pretty late but luckily sinlay was there to help us book seats..a lot of familiar faces.. namely jonathan's friends.. haha..he went through all the leisure questions,so perhaps there is a high possibility that it might come out for the exams...after that,we had lunch at megabites.. then jon suggested his house and so we went to his house to study since there wasnt any seats/benches in the school..

and so we shared cabs to jon's house.. haha.. but i think we werent too sure where and the cab driver as well wasnt sure about the place as well and so we went round in circles.. even alan who meet us there via bus was faster than us!!! hmm,wonder why alan join us? i also wonder.. dunnoe why also..

went to the study room there to study.. there were children having all different kinds of tuition there and i guess we sort of disturbed them ba.. haha.. then kenneth,yusheng and meng went to swim at the swimming pool there.. i made a phone call to lena under the sun,coz i wasnt feeling very good.. dunnoe why but somehow,it made me feel better after talking to her..perhaps she could understand what i am feeling.. somehow or rather..

perhaps wad made me sad was just a inside thing.. my perception,my ideology etc..me unable to meet up with my own expectations etc..the comparing with other people and my low self-confidence.. i just made myself sad.. somehow,it was difficult to get out of this deep deep hole down dug by my brain.. it's sort of within me.. my mentality and my attitude to things.. although i knew deep inside my heart that i shouldnt be feeling this way,there are always people who are concerned about me,worried for me.. and partly it was my fault for making them feel this way.. sometimes,i felt i should just disappear from their lives and perhaps they would feel much better.. but things arent going to be the same again..rite? that was wad lena told me.. it is definitely not a good idea if i start to drift apart from them,especially since i cant bear to as well.. haha..all these things are driving me crazy..

anyway,back to what happened,i wanted to eat chocolates but i couldnt find the vending machines.. and so alan brought me to the vending machine which was in front of the squash court.. haha.. then he accidentally sprained his leg while coming down the stairs.. opps.. i guess i am the one who brought it to him ba.. haha.. since i was the one who wanted to eat chocolates and needed him to bring me to the vending machine and yet i didnt get anything i wanted because it is not the type of chocolates that i wanted.. :(

then went back to the study room to start studying my econs.. was feeling pretty weird because halfway through,janice headed to the playground to study coz she felt that the room was too enclosed for her..i dunnoe,but somehow just felt weird sitting with xiaojia and weilun on the table.. then people walked in and out..gradually people just disappeared at times..to either get something to eat or swimming or just needed a breathing space.. haha..

then alan wanted to go out and buy mac donald's..then xiaojia and weilun asked me to go with him.. haha.. weird.. haha.. how do they know it?? haha.. wasnt in the mood to study at all.. but didnt go with him as well.. haha.. wont it be weird if i go with him? haha.. that was my mentality.. though i very much wanted to.. haha.. and because of my certain thinking,i dun dare to do.. perhaps i just mind what other people are think and say... 人言可畏... haha..

then janice went to one of the pool there to take picture.. but since i was wearing jeans and my leg had an open wound on the sole,i didnt join them in the pool.. we just took pictures.. a nice environment

here are some of the pictures we took..


xiaojia and janice in the pool there..


me,alan,meng and xiaojia


this are us at jon's house..
1st row:janice,xiaojia,me
2nd row:kenneth,yu sheng,weilun
3rd row:alan,meng,jon

then after that janice had to go off for a bbQ session.. and so i accompanied her out since i wasnt in the mood to study anyway.. haha.. then i told her some of my problems and my thoughts about solving this problem.. after that i felt better as well.. like lena,she too have the amazing power to make me feel better after telling her my problems and somehow,can feel that she could relate to me.. but there are times when i felt that i would be bothering her as she herself was facing some problems as well.. relationship problems are problems that was hard to solve..

as i headed back,i studied a while then thought that it was time for me to go home as i am havin dinner at home.. felt a bit bad to leave xiaojia there alone but since she had the mood to study,i shouldnt have forced her to go home with me or wad.. and so i went off alone.. on the way home, i had this thought that they would be more relaxed if i wasnt there ba.. anyway,i wasnt close to them in the first place.. already felt weird going there..

and true enough,alan told me that they had fun after i went off.. perhaps it wasnt a bad idea that i left early.. then alan scolded me.. haha.. why do i always have such a thought? why am i so negative? he just wanted to tell me that i miss the fun.. and that it was hard to have fun if there was one person sulkin (that's me,in case you guys dunnoe) and hence in conclusion,i still believed that my early departure brings them fun and joy..

perhaps i should not be involved in the 1st place..

today i went to school again for that econs UOL lessons.. but since xiaojia told me last night that she wasnt going so i used her ic to go in.. haha.. i managed to memorise her ic number and smuggled in.. though i stumbled abit.. :X bleah.. at first jon still wanted to help me in.. haha..

for lunch,as weilun proudly suggested maggie mee.. so we went to john's house to eat.. haha.. weird rite? then as alan wanted to join us for dinner,john headed to his house there to fetch him.. haha.. then sinlay went to her grandma's house to eat and left home,coz she found the lecture boring and useless..

although on the car, janice and i said we were to cook as well as wash the plates.. but it ended up with alan cooking and the rest of us played dai dee.. haha.. erm,he mixed all the different kind of noodles and cooked it together to save time.. haha..was very full after eating.. somemore i still had a packet of milo to be drink.. haha.. then after eating,i help janice to wash the plates.. i guess my 手脚 must be quite slow.. coz janice keep saying,"aiyah,我洗,我洗.."haha..then jon said that janice was 2nd-class maid coz she dunnoe how to cook that instant mee.. haha.. i 连 2nd class 都不如.. haha.. well,i am not maid wad.. haha.. :X

then we went back to school.. via jon's car (duh?) then they played the techno songs and the speed that jon was driving was super duper fast.. somemore i was drinking milo on the car.. hence got a bit of car-sick.. haha..:X

got the notes from the person in charge.. haha... we very joker,even asked alan to help us get a set of notes.. haha.. though he didnt take econs at all.. i was surprised that the person in charge gave him the notes.. perhaps she was suspicious but she didnt do anything about it.. and perhaps she can't..then we headed back to the lecture and was mighty uncomfortable.. maybe because i was very full and was sitting down.. maybe because it was the after-effects of the speeding car and the techno music..

after lecture as we were pretty tired,so we decided to go alan's house to save the trouble of looking all over the school for empty benches.. went to the busstop and saw the shuai ge,more of 斯文型 one.. haha.. then we went to alan's house there to eat.. then was planning to study at his house.. had ice jelly while janice ordered the green bean soup which was totally not nice.. then alan had his dinner,the both of us were still full from that maggie mee.. haha..

went to his house but ended up watching 2 movies-- 新警察故事 and 千機變 II.. yupz.. 2 very nice stories.. haha.. especially the 新警察故事.. though very sad..so many people die.. and 谢霆锋 was very cute and shuai~~!!*drool* haha.. janice prefered 吴彦祖.. haha.. then 千機變 II got edison,陈冠希.. shuai ge~~ but he only appeared very little.. haha..

then as it was cosy on the bed,the three of us shared the bed..haha.. and so qiao,i wanted to go out and throw rubbish,then his mum was outside and she saw janice and alan on the bed!!!somemore,we switched off the lights.. opps.. then i think his mother called him to warn him or something like that.. then he was like super moody and didnt talk much.. somemore it was late already after we watched the 2 movies and so we took the cab home..

was pretty ex coz they started the midnight charge at 11.30..
for citycab:
From 11.30pm to 11.44pm 10% on top of meter fare
From 11.45pm to 11.59pm 20% on top of meter fare
From 12 midnight to 12.59am 35% on top of meter fare
From 1.00am to 6.00am 50% on top of meter fare

for comfort and TIBs and yellow top:
12 midnight to 6.00am (additional 50% on top of metered fare)

wahaha.. i go and searched the web.. so if midnight,go and flag the citycab one.. cheaper,if before 12,dun flag the citycab!! haha..but as times go by,they will charge a higher rate,ie,after 12 comfort will start charging 50% more although u board the taxi at perhaps 11.35pm..

hope this informations will prove useful to you guys..=)

hmm.. anyway,had to smuggle myself into school today..coz i dun belong to that class.. haha.. and hence i had to smuggle myself in,with the help of jingyoong who passed me the sticker.. and i put my bag in john's car.. haha.. wow~ thanks a lot,john and jingyoong!!

the lecturer wasnt as fierce as i thought he would be.. but mainly the lecture was boring.. not very useful to us as he was just talking about the elements of economics and stuff like that.. anyway,he helped by going through the questions with us.. and it doesnt really help much.. but had to really pay attention to what he say in case he start questioning us..

then during break at lunchtime,we went to queensway there to eat--guo tie and shui jiao..proudly suggested by sijia and her fren.. and we took sijia's car--7 seater there..john and weilun also went there.. yumyum.. after that we went back to school for the boring lesson again.. and we got back our econs test papers for the mock exams..did pretty ok.. coz of that one long question that i know how to do.. after a break in between the lecture,janice and xiaojia felt that the lecture wasnt at all effective for them as they couldnt understand and hence they left the room and went to one of the classroom to do self-study..

after lesson i went to the room to find them.. then alan was there with janice they all.. but since he was sitting alone,i joined him loh.. and we stayed in school with john's friends, yusheng, kenneth, meng and weilun they all to study..

however as it is the weekend,the school closed early and by 6 pm, we were chased out of the school and had to go to other places to study.. ended up at the mac at king albert's park.. perhaps due to the moving around and waking up pretty early in the morning,i was tired and couldnt reallie concentrate at mac there.. ended up not studying at all.. and got a filet burger home.. haha.. so ended up just eating fries for dinner..

then went home with xiaojia.. felt pretty bad coz i think she was just about to have the mood to study.. but king albert's park was so far away from tampines.. and somemore i got curfews.. so a bit ma fan.. hai~ hoping that my curfew would end soon!!!hehe

these are the answers..

-鲜奶:有暗恋的人,但不能在一起
-乌龙茶:纠缠在多角恋爱中
-咖啡:和爱人感情稳定
-珍珠奶茶:和爱人有困难要克服
-清水:要求很高,至今还没有另一伴

true?? haha..

went to school for stats lessons by mrs meena.. haha.. had to wait like an idiot for janice and alan to come coz i was wearing the super a-a pokka dots blouse which belonged to my mum.. haha.. :X luckily shou zi came and joined me,so at least i wont feel that paiseh..

then when janice came,our combination was super weird coz i forgot jan told me the day before that she was wearing super slack.. and mine was pretty formal as compared to hers.. haha.. and i guess we looked comical standing together..haha..

anyway,half way the lecture, janice was frustrated with her stats as she wasnt able to solve it ba.. so she headed out and i thought she was pissed at me for pissin her.. haha.. and i myself getting pissed as well.. coz i guessed she didnt practise enough to know how to do that particular question.. hmm,i knew of that question mainly because i had did that kind of question before and hence i know how to handle it..

anyway,i also went out of the class to look for her.. she was in th library,wanting to find books to help her solve her problems.. hmm,and after talking much to her,we managed to settle some of her problems which she had.. and managed to talk her back to the class.. and by then it was already break time..

after lessons,we went to the library to borrow the book janice wanted to borrow.. and then we headed to alan tam's house again.. haha.. this time round,to study first then watch tv.. haha.. studied a bit of stats there while watching the army show.. dunnoe what show.. but it is from SCV one..then waited for my 黑夜彩虹 to air.. then watch 海豚湾恋人... then went on to watch 镜中人..haha..

as we had no more money to take cab home like yesterday,we rushed home at around 10+ to take bus.. and we missed the bus as i couldn't run in my heels,told you yesterday already wad,i only got 2 pairs of shoes and one spoilt le.. then was abit unhappy and abit angry with myself coz i was the one who made the entire group to wait..and somemore alan ran to stopped the bus.. argh.. but nobody wear heels to run one la..even if i can,i am sure my heels will end up rotten..

so waited for the other bus to come.. and so qiao his mum got down from that bus and questioned alan about us.. haha.. then his mum was shocked that we actually go to his house when we stayed so far awaya.. haha.. if stay near,wont have to rush to his house to watch tv le mah.. wahaha.. and his mum even ask him see if we are interested to rent one of his room.. haha..

anyway,kaijing send me this sms.. go ahead and try it..

有一日你行入一间考古店 (dun ask me what is it.. i have no idea..) 老板很古怪,他拿了些饮料出来, 你认为哪一杯有毒?
-鲜奶?
-乌龙茶?
-咖啡?
-珍珠奶茶?
-清水?

the test was pretty accurate one wor.. haha.. watch out for the ans soon~! [ans will be given later]

went to school to study today..

went to xiaojia's house first to dhl (nope,i anti-dhl,should be to jumbo) alvin's present to her.. haha.. my service was damn good sia.. haha..even better than the DHL,who only do stunts and not personalised visit.. hehe.. hmm who call me to go and take the present from alvin and promise to help him to pass the present to xiaojia? who ask me to be a nice person?? haha.. anyway, other than passing her alvin's present, i also passed her my sets of stats notes which she needed..

then after that went to take bus 28.. woo.. was damn tired.. i guess coz of the heat of the sun ba that i get a bit of giddy spin.. walked to tampines mall watsons to get something for janice.. haha.. and i couldn't find it.. so i asked her which brand was it.. hehe.. then finally found it..

missed the stupid train and had to wait for a LONG 7 minutes.. hai~ very sian..then when i reached school,i almost fell down the stairs.. coz i was wearing heels and i am not very used to it.. and why am i wearing heels? coz my the other shoes spoilt le.. so bo bian.. no other shoes to wear.. hai~ lousy rite? i ger leh.. only left 2 pair of shoes that can meet people one.. and now 1 spoil le.. haha.. i also have a pair of sandals and a pair of lousy open-mouth sports shoes.. muahaha..so now 1 spoil le.. i bo bian must wear the other.. :(

asked janice to accompany me to the canteen to get a drink..i was pretty dehydrated.. and needed some drinks to quench my thrist and hence we went to the canteen to get some blackcurrant drink and saw alan and his friends,jingyoong and jiawei..

studied at the benches outside LT3.10.. was copying janice's stats notes those theory questions.. then around 6+,eve and linda went for the econs lecture,i was supposed to go as well,but i think i am clashing his lessons on weekend one.. then weilun went home at around 7+ 8 to eat his dinner.. and by then, we already lost interest in studying and i wanted to catch the 9 o'clock show jing zhong ren and hence we headed to alan's house.. haha..everytime we wanted to watch tv,we would go his house.. haha..

managed to catch 镜中人.. and wee~ had fun watching and while waiting we also scanned around his SCV.. wahaha.. and was hungry coz i didnt had my dinner.. and so he cooked maggie mee for me as he is the host.. hehe.. then somemore ask me if he is the 1st guy to cook for me.. well, other than my brother and father,he is ba.. haha.. anyway,he also cooked for jan..

then we watched some of the other shows and realised that the NKF repeat telecast was today!!! luckily we went to scan the TV.. haha.. anyway,it was late and we had to take cab home.. as usual.. and the cab charges midnight charges after midnight coz it is comfort i think.. the other dun charge midnight charges as long as you take it before midnight.. i am not very sure.. hai~! must get kaijing to clarify.. haha.. :X

anyway,waited for the NKF show to air.. as i missed half of it the other time i went to lena's house to study and meeting alvin to get xiaojia's present..and i wanted to watch energy dance.. was pretty disappointed when i watched it.. they are not singing live at all!!! and it is so obvious.. argh.. but i still liked their dance.. not so crazy over them now..

guess i am over the catching idol phase ba.. haha..

i have matured?!

ps. pretend that you didnt see me,if you see me the next time waiting for an autogaph of an idol,kk?? haha..

i used to have this childhood dream.. well,i am sure when we were young,we are bound to have childhood dreams like becoming a teacher, becoming an air-stewardess, becoming a lawyer, becoming a doctor etc..

for me, i thought i would like to be a dj yes,those hosts on the radio.. i had always thought that it would be nice to interact with the listeners and play music they wanted to listen to.. and reading out all those sweet sweet songs dedication.. and somemore i wont have to face anyone.. it will curbed my stage-fright and if i am very ugly,i dun have to worry about the listeners being turned off by my looks.. isnt it a fulfilling job which satisfy all my requirements??

*note:those are my childhood thinking.. okie,probably except the being ugly part

then as i grew older,i forgot all about my childhood ambition..

until a few weeks ago,when there was this air-stewardess recruitment schedule.. janice and lena was enthusiasically discussing and telling me about their childhood ambition of becoming an air-stewardess.. and reading julia's blog about her search for air-stewardess jobs etc.. [i assume she also had this childhood ambition of wanting to be an air-stewardess] and siowboon's tag at lena's blog that she was going to look for air-stewardess jobs once she graduated from SMU..

how about me?

am i going to achieve my childhood dream?

but the thing now is will i? am i able to? determined to?

to become a DJ,i would at least need a diploma in mass communication if i am not wrong.. and i was in JC.. other than that there are all those competitions whereby they look for voices to be the next DJ,will i be able to? am i able to curb my stage-fright and speak in front of so many people alone? is my voice unique enough? how about my power of language? is it strong enough? am i good at talking in the first place? am i able to relate to them?

how can i be a DJ when i have none of the above mentioned?

i lost my childhood dreams.. and perhaps it is time for me to wake up from my dreams..

to all who are able to achieve and reach for your goals,please jia you!! i will be happy for you when you reached it.. and do remember to share the joy with me when you reach your goals,be it childhood goals or aims you had made for yourself recently..

and for now,a positive me had found a new goal-- to graduate in SIM at the end of the 3 years with at least a second class honours ba.. haha.. [what a joke!!] i shall now go and drown myself in the sea of books.. till then,take care~

went to lena's house to study.. as my eyes were glued to this screen when i was at home.. then studied at her house was good.. i was able to concentrate at least for one whole stats paper.. and hopefully she was also able to concentrate ba.. haha.. :P

then we cooked mee sua for dinner.. quite nice.. yumyum.. though a bit tasteless in the beginning.. haha.. i added more sauce to it and taste much better.. hehe.. and it was proudly cooked by lena... i dunnoe how to cook.. i fear the fire.. and splattering of oil.. haha.. and also i fear that the entire house will be burnt down by me.. bleah..:P

and we watched the charity show.. hmm,nothing much to comment on that..wasnt really concentrating on the show.. was waiting for energy to appear b4 i go home.. but... missed it as they appeared pretty late!! darn!! never mind,i shall watch the repeat telecast.. dun care even though i had a morning class the next day.. :P

went to school for stats UOL lesson.. was a bit sey as i slept late yesterday and had to wake up so early today again!!! yesh,yesterday also wake up early..ZZZ..

and attending the UOL lecture,they had to check our student id or identification.. but i didnt bring my ic and student card as i left it at home!! hai~ and the person like dun believe me like that.. and so i had to tell him my ic number.. hmph.. whatever.. dun care,made my way in.. hehe..

the lecturer was boring--she was mono-tone according to janice.. we had to pay careful attention to her,if not we wont know what she is saying.. and she is speaking a bit too fast for me to catch at times and so it was concluded that the lecture was boring.. but at least she had proven useful to some of my doubts.. though there are still some doubts with the marking scheme which i wasnt really clear about.. sometimes it is like,my working are all correct but somehow i just have a few marks missing..and i dunnoe what i am missin!!!

anyway,i got my papers back from xiaojia.. hehe.. i pass the 2 papers--stats and pob,though my pob i just nice pass only.. haha.. but given that i had not study very hard for it,i am surprised by the grades i got..still havent got my maths paper yet.. will be taking it soon ba.. and also the econs paper.. which took a long time to be marked.. hai~

hmm,on the way home,i realised that i didnt take my stats file and i forgot if i had passed it to xiaojia already or did i left it in school.. then i messaged xiaojia and she replied "dun have arh" die.. means i must have left it in school.. was thinking of rushing home then ask my dad to send me to school to find.. hopefully,it will still be there,or at least someone keep it or wad..

when i reached home,i called xiaojia to double confirm that my notes arent with her,then she told me that she playing prank on me!! -_-''' haha.. make me so kan cheong.. hmph.. but good la,at least my notes are with her means that my notes are in good hand.. so no worries that i wont get them back..

phew~

went to school for ir lessons today.. met sharon and shou zi on the platform at dover,we took the same train!! and hence we took the bus to school together..

lessons was okie.. i was pretty bored.. and was in a stoning mood.. the lecturer,mr teo was very good,he helped us prepare a set of notes for out mock exam papers which was something he dun have to do at all.. and he also helped us to get a set of the model answers of the questions that we had attempted previously.. he is such a good and nice teacher.. though the way he teach is erm,a bit boring and out of point when we asked him questions relating to the ir current affairs..

then headed to the library to study alone coz janice havent reached yet [she was still at home when i called her] and alan was still sleeping when i called him..[sorry to disturb your sleep] haha..

anyway,studied for about 1 hour like that loh.. haha.. then asked weilun some questions and hence he called back to ask me wad i asking.. haha.. was asking him about the paradox of thrift under the open economy with fixed exchange rate and perfect capital flow and under the open economy with flexible exchange rate and no capital flow..

haha.. he called me and we ended up chatting about wad we said last night coz xiaojia and i were talking about him when he wasnt around.. saying he quite shuai etc.. then he dun believe me when i said i think he shuai.. he thought i was bluffing him when i said he was shuai.. :( and even said that i this kind of person wont think he shuai or like him one la.. then i was like -.-''' haha..waste my money talking to him then he dun believe me..[i no free incoming]

super bu shuang..

so i told him i hated him since the day i meet him.. haha.. then he said his tai chi: 朋友就做到今天为止.. haha.. contradictin guy.. told him the truth he dun believe.. tell him a lie,he said i hiong him.. hai~

anyway,alan came while i was chatting with weilun and so we waited for janice to come before we go and have our lunch at the foodcourt..

saw the graduates in their graduate suits and lots of people,even the males have flowers and loads of people with cameras in their hand and taking pictures from whichever place they could land themselves on..

hmmm.. wonder what it will be like when we graduate.. will i be smiling widely like them? will i get any flowers? or a bear? the sim bear? i wonder how they get it.. haha.. i think the sim bear is cute.. but for my graduation,the flowers will be just sweet enough.. and quoting lena,"which woman doesnt like flowers?" probably except those who are allergied to the pollen of the flowers and those very practical type who think that flowers doesnt last.. haha..

janice and i were discussing what type of flowers we like the best when we are looking at the graduates with different flowers.. i have no idea.. what i will like.. as long as it is flowers,i think i will be very happy.. haha.. but used to like sunflower and recently saw this mini-sunflowers,which are so cute!!! and lilies are nice too..

so what kind of flowers you all like?

then we went to study until around 5.45pm in the library and janice had her af class..where she was alone.. xiaojia and sinlay didn't want to attend.. and i didnt take af.. and so i didnt go in with her..quite bad hor me? :( studied outside her class with alan.. was doing stats paper..but ended up playing with his phone.. haha..

for our late dinner,we headed to holland village to one of the restaurant selling hongkong delicacies and i ate the cheesy pork chop rice,janice ate some kind of marcorni.. it was pretty expensive to me but worth the money.. just find it a bit too salty,probably because i didnt eat the meat together with the rice ba..i mean i eat all the rice then eat the meat..i am a weirdo rite?? haha..

janice wasn't in a good mood.. coz lionel had wanted to surprise her at clementi there already.. but we are already on our way to holland village and he blamed her for not calling him once the lesson ended.. and so he hung up on her.. she was pissed with him hangin up on her.. i mean even if you are angry or wad,you should have listened to her reasons,or if you think you are going to be pissed and needed some time to cool down,at least try to say hallo,and say that i am angry now,we talk again when we cool down.. wont this be better?

but of course,when i am saying this,i wasnt in their situation,and i might have acted the same way as they had,if i were them.. and so i wont blame either of them from being angry but as long as they are able to clear things when they are not so angry and get to a compromise,then things will be better,much much better ba..:)

today was a super unproductive day..:( end up sleeping more than studying..and end up playing on the computer more than ever..

had been going to school to study for the last 2 days..and being home late.. so dun dare to go out today..hehe..even though xiaojia asked me to go to the airport and janice asked me to go to school to study as she wanted to accompany her sister to go ngee ann poly for some registration stuff..

ps.note that i had changed my blog.. hehe..was a bit sick of the previous one..so changed back to this.. hehe.. plain and simple,and made to become complicated once again by me.. :P

again went to school today.. but meet sinlay they all at the mac at king albert's park there.. went there to eat mac,coz sinlay wanted to eat mac.. then reached there around 1.. and i was very "lucky".. the strap of my shoes broke off!!!! and i cant walked properly.. so i ended up walking bare-footed to the bus-stop and getting up the bus while holding on to my shoes.. haha.. i must have looked like a mad woman walking with one side wearing shoes and the other side bare-footed.. haha..

reached school.. had to struggled to school.. luckily i was wearing jeans and could cover my bare foot.. haha.. then we used stapler to secure it.. and i managed to get over the day with it.. haha.. then studied macroeconomics as mr ting is going to go through it.. but didnt managed to finish what i wanted to study.. sad..wasted too much time stoning already.. :(

had lessons.. quite boring coz he is going through things we already knew and we started writing something funny.. haha.. janice wrote this 我生活在一个美丽的骗局.. and i add on this.. 那我宁愿永远都不要知道骗局的真相.. and we continued.. haha.. i forgot the rest already.. haha.. then after lessons weilun,weilun's friend,eve, xiaojia and i went to clementi market to eat.. while janice went home.. coz she was too tired.. i had fried kuay teow.. been long since i last ate it.. and once again,the strap dropped off again when i was walking to the MRT..very sian.. hai~

so walked home bare-footed.. hehe.. cooling~

ever wonder what is the one grave mistake that the angel had committed?

falling in love with someone who she was not supposed to fall for..

angel with broken wings rejected from both heaven and hell.

there is really an angel who is rejected from both heaven and hell..she is also called the fallen angel.. she was rejected from heaven coz of some mistakes she made,she was rejected from hell coz she wasnt evil enough..

she was stuck in between.. worst off,when people saw her,they have no idea if she was a devil or an angel..a devil with wings?or an angel without any halo..plus she had hurt her wings when she fell down from heaven

the angel is really hurt,physically as well as emotionally.. she was stuck in between,having difficulties getting out of the troubles she had landed herself with..and a major crisis for her..she longed to go back to heaven,the paradise she had always been.. but they rejected her and will no longer accept her..

hell will not accept her as she had always been a kind-hearted soul who will not dare to even kill an ant.. and the only way she can get accepted into hell is to kill people which she would never ever do..

she had to survive in the mortal world.. starting all over again.. it was a tedious process for her.. she had lost something she used to have and she was rejected by both heaven and hell.. and the people in the mortal world treated her as monster..

she learnt how not to have hope as hope often brings her expectation.. and commonly people cant meet to her expectations.. she became paranoid and negative to protect her self-interests..at least she wont be so hurt when somethings did not meet with her expectations and she would have been able to accept that thing easily..

and if one day,there was something good happening to her as in meets up with her expectations, she will appreciate and treasure it and not lose it again..

no idea who the fallen angel is.. perhaps it could be you or me..

went to school.. studied a while with alan and his group of friends,jingyoong and jerlene..then met sinlay for her lunch break.. she had a long day 9-5 for soci class and she was alone..:( hai~ and the only thing we could do was to accompany her for lunch breaks.. went to mega bites to eat.. but i had a heavy breakfast--roti pratas.. hehe..

then sinlay and janice ate the western food and i coped a bit frm them.. haha.. and pizza.. yumyum.. hehe.. but we couldnt finish the pizza.. had a tough time eating as they sprinkled those spicy chilli sauce..yucks.. haha.. and jan and i dun take hot spicy stuff.. and so we have to scrap away the chilli parts.. and when i finally scrap off all the chilli parts,that stupid jingyoong [:P] go and snatch the non-chilli part and eat it!!! hmph..in the end didnt i didnt eat le.. lazy to scrap again..

after that went to the library to study.. a pretty condusive environment.. but dun reallie like the idea that we are stranded in the box to do our work.. and the library is far too quiet.. like dropping something will become a major noise pollution in the library.. and me,being clumsy will always drop something and that is soooooo embarassing.. haha.. :X

studied till 8.45pm,when the library was about to close.. then we headed to KFC at clementi there to eat.. janice had a sudden craving for KFC chicken which is finger-licking good.. haha.. was a bit sey by then.. stoning mood.. nothing much to say anyway,so listened to janice telling her childhood stories.. it seems like she had a fun childhood..

headed to the playground wanting to play.. but ended up sian sian there.. while jan was enthusically playing.. and she kept asking us to join her.. dunnoe why also.. i was excited when i saw the playground but when i reached it.. i lost all interest in it..

is it something like grass on the other side is always greener? but when i reached the other side,i just lost interest in the grass,now i wanted to eat something else.. [fyi:i dun eat grass.. it is just an idoim??] anyway,i just lost interest in something i got/achieved even though it was through hardship that i gained it,i just dun appreciate it.. which i dun think it is good rite?

yesh,it is not good.. i shall learn to change the habit..

Apple iPod Mini
What's up, cutie pie? Somehow you just always seem to find a way to turn that frown upside down with your sugary presence. Your upbeat attitude and friendly demeanor brighten up any room.

Like your Apple iPod Mini counterpart, you're a staple on anyone's list. Boring days and sleepless nights are far more bearable when you're around. Whether you're shooting the breeze, catching up, or giving out advice, you can cheer up anyone on the other side of the conversation. So keep lightening the mood,making new friends, and bringing smiles to other folks' faces. After all, it's just so natural for you!

Which Apple iPod are you?
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was bored so did this.. hehe.. quite proud to know that i can actually brighten people's day up when i was the one with tornado mood.. and bleak future.. haha..

went to study after my last tuition with the tuition kid.. wee~~ didnt go through with him any math questions.. think i had concentrated too much on his maths previously.. and he pleaded me not to go thorugh maths.. haha.. but no choice he was weak in it.. and is still weak in it.. anyway,hope that his next tutor can help him alot ba.. since she/he is going to be a full-time tutor should be more capable than i am ba.. hereby wishing him all the best!!! =)

then it is off to the airport to eat!! study with lena,waiyue and jac..haha.. then revised economics the 1st 2 chapter of macroeconomics then it is off to eat again!! went to sakae sushi as jac was hungry.. haha.. dunnoe why was in one of my very few quiet mood.. haha.. but i ordered quite a lot of dishes!! haha.. opps..:X dunnoe why also.. dun ask me!!!!!!

headed off takin bus 53.. realised that my mind was in a blank when i walked home myself.. or should i say the moment i was on the bus,my mind was a blank.. i dun even know how i reached home??!!

and i realised that i had been in my more quiet mood recently more than often.. sometimes i wanted to talk alot.. but i cant find the person to speak to.. and when it is time to talk like during breaks and lunchtime or whatever,i dun feel like talking.. weird person and that's me??

i am beginning not to understand myself..i seems to have lost control of myself..

wondering what is happening to me?

can anyone tell me???

我失业了。

who can be so happy when they lose their job?

me!!!!

no joy can explain my happiness.. hehe.. anyway,tomorrow will be my last lesson with him.. and no more tuition.. until perhaps after my exams ba.. haha..anyway,we decided to stop mainly because of the stupid timetable which was so messy and he cant accomodate to it.. i cant accomodate to his as well.. hai~ so too bad loh.. will be on the hunt for jobs soon.. wee~ so excited.. hehe..

anyway, i went to xiaojia's house to study,coz i cant study at home and she had to stayed home to dry the clothes..haha.. at first we planned to come my house one.. but last minute all of us went to xiaojia's house.. haha.. and i brought 2 apples over.. haha.. i thought her house won't have apples.. well,i was wrong.. haha.. :X anyway,i finished my 2 apples.. i had a healthy day.. eat 3 apples a day..can keep the doctor,the dentist and the nurse away.. haha.. lame..:X

then was pretty guilty that i had to rush home to eat when her mother had cooked my serving as well for dinner.. but think they should be able to finish the food ba.. haha.. coz my mum got dishes back to me from my grandma's house.. and my grandma will sure give me giant servings and hence i cant eat at xiaojia's house,if not cannt finish the food.. then mum will force me to finish up and i will be sure to end up like pig one.. haha..:X

went to ktv with janice.. was pretty high though there were only the two of us.. coz alan xian qi wo men.. haha..i also dunnoe how we can managed to be so high..no idea.. dun ask me why..haha.. and janice was so totally enthu about going to the ktv.. haha.. somemore she also went to ktv the day before!!! think she got addicted to ktv le.. haha.. we sing the one night in beijing until very high.. but the person very spoiler.. came in and spoil the song.. :( haha..that was perhaps our highest moment.. haha.. :X

now we should try to get ourselves addicted to studies!! quite tough but still do-able i guess.. haha.. must psycho ourselves to love studies!! what a weird thing to do..

then we headed to school to study abit of stats before attending bernard ong's lecture.. haha.. he was quite lame and this time round we sat quite behind and so i wasnt paying very much attention to him.. haha.. furthermore,janice was in a very ktv mood.. singing shou fang kai.. haha.. and so we were sitting there trying to write lyrics as well as singing songs.. haha.. was pretty high in the class also.. haha..

anyway,after class,we managed to persuade john to bring us to geylang to eat.. haha..since he was driving.. haha.. and weilun tried to drive john's car and went a few rounds in the carpark.. haha.. then he accidentally bumped into the hump when gettin out of the carpark,think coz behind quite heavy that's why ba.. :( my fault..must be i too heavy le..haha..dunnoe also..luckily not very serious..

we went to the you tiao da wang there [yes,lena that time after zpop we went to that place there] to eat.. and saw xiao yi ming!! haha.. the food was ok la..though weilun dun find it nice..hmm,personally i find it quite ok ba..perhaps i am not fussy about food.. haha.. so i didnt find it very nice neither did i find it very not nice.. haha.. just that the you tiao very oily..haha..

then after eating we went to "explore" the place and saw alot of females waiting outside hotel 81.. hmm,i guessed it is part of their job scope ba.. haha..then we saw this lady with her breast push up to the top.. then reallie become very big.. haha.. would very much wanting to head down the street to explore more.. but john feared that something will happen and so we did not head further in to explore.. haha..

then there was also this very chio looking lady.. haha..long gold dyed hair with very good figure..[weilun also find her chio.. too bad alan not there.. haha.. :X ] i think she just came out of the hotel a while only then got people ask her go up again.. haha..

then john went on to tell us about this white nurse lady who sort of "teased" him while she was eating ice-cream.. haha..so funny.. according to john,she was like liang ximei like that,everyday wear the same clothes one.. haha..nurse like-pure and white.. some guys may like.. haha.. especially those who have the lian fu zheng.. haha..

after that we went for car-wash.. haha.. had to wait pretty long,coz it is manual car wash.. so that it wont scratch away the painting of the car.. haha.. anyway,that person scared me when he opened the door to open the door to clean the window inside.. but funny,they didnt clean the windows on the other side.. hmm.. perhaps coz i am sitting at the driver's side ba.. dunnoe also..

then we went back to the red-light district again.. but this time round,we are disappointed.. no more females on the street.. think the police just combed the place.. and perhaps some of them are being caught.. according to john.. then those in the hotel must be pretty lucky loh..haha..

was pretty late already and so we send janice home first since she stayed the nearest and she gotta rush home if not she will be locked out.. haha.. then next it was my turn.. coz cant reallie stay out for too long one..:( then weilun send me to my house.. then dunnoe why he kept laughing when he saw my door..well,the color of the door is purple.. what's wrong with purple??

anyway,talked to alan coz he wasnt in a good mood that day.. think he too frustrated that he cant get anything into his mind ba.. not too sure also.. haha..but think he should be feeling better by now ba.. haha..if not i wasted 2 hours talking to him leh.. haha.. must cheer up k? :P

by the way,he told me purple symbolises high sex drive.. true?? haha..then my whole family high sex drive aR??

weird.. why are there people who wanna pretend to be another person on another person's blog to sort of insult the person?

confusing?well,let's just name the person who pretend to be another person the faker,the person who is being impersonated the innocent and the person who write the blog the blogger..

less confusing? ok,then i shall go on with my crap.. :P

why are there such a person in this world?

nevermind about those who kept themselves anonymous.. but to the extent of impersonating another person!!!!!!!! what the hell?

this faker had not only made the blogger felt bad,this faker had also made the innocent feel very wronged and would probably even tarnish the reputation of the innocent.. and might even ruined the relationship between the blogger and the innocent.. who the hell is so evil to do such a thing?

or did the blogger offended the faker? if so why impersonate the innocent? and if the innocent offend the faker,why leave bad message at the blogger's blog? cant be that the blogger and the innocent offended the faker at the same time ba??? haha.. isn't that too much of a coincidence???

hmm.. better stop blogging.. got people say i stupid already,coz he tot that writing blog is stupid.. according to him,noone will write their diary for people to read one la.. well,quite true to certain extent,but there are certain things that can be meant to share,i will record it here..=P

felt much better this morning!!

talk with weilun janice xiaojia and alan last night.. a conference chat.. felt so much better after the xin jie is being opened.. what i had worried is for nothing.. but too bad cant talk for long.. and kena scolded this morning.. coz chattin on phone till quite late... haha..

wee~ it's a beautiful day~!

ps.thanks to all my friends who are so concerned about me.. thanks.. i am reallie ok now.. =) reallie..

happy birthday to may may!! hope she is happy with her life right now.. been long since we last met or even chat.. we didnt even msn each other when we are online.. feeling pretty guilty about it..

anyway,got this quiz from her blog ..


Your element is Rain: Sad, lonely, distant and unique. You are quite distant from emotion and people, but you have been made this way by one thing or another. You are truly unique yet fail to see it, and are quite creative be it in art, music, writing, ect.. You used to let people in now you don't even bother to try having been hurt so many times in the past. Your attitude is that you don't need anyone but yourself, people are just trouble waiting to happen. But you really do want to trust someone no matter if you see it or not, deep down your waiting for someone to come and set you free. This kind of depression can turn dangerous, don't let them get to you. Not everyone in the world will hurt you, humans are humans and are not perfect. So most likely sooner or later you'll meet someone who feels like you do and perhaps your shell will eventually disappear.

.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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i reallie have changed.. in the past my quiz results will not show that i am depressed or wad.. why? coz i was seldom depressed..it will always be the cheerful me.. and now.. it is either stress or more stress.. i am seldom very happy anymore.. and things changes,so have i.. i hate changes and yet i change.. such irony..

things seems to be getting out of control.. i am losing myself.. and if i continue at this rate,i am going to go bonkers..sooner or later..

You Are Pretty Logical

(You got 63% of the questions right) You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good Keep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area

How Logical Are You

yeah!!!i am logical!!!haha.. and i always thought that i use more of my emotions than my logic to solve problems.. this quiz prove me wrong.. but it is not accurate either.. :/

Rainbow of Icons by FreezingInTheSno
Name
Favorite Color
Birthday
Your Pink Icon
Your Blue Icon
Your Yellow Icon
Your Green Icon
Your Red Icon
Your Purple Icon
Your Orange Icon
Quiz created with MemeGen!

this quiz very nice!! i love barbie!! wahaha.. :X

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	mysterious
Your hugs are...	gentle
Your eyes...	sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...	awakening my heart
Your smell is...	refreshing
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	everlasting
Quiz created with MemeGen!

i am so attractive? why am i single still?? sobsob.. cheater quiz..:(

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	nine
your best quality is	you're a sweetheart
your worst quality is	nothing! lucky you ;)
this is because	you were always this way
Quiz created with MemeGen!

wah i got such good personality meh?? how can? i thought would be 0.. haha...

Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
Gender?	FemaleMaleUndecidedBoth
How will you commit suicide?	You will slit your wrists
How many tries will it take?	65
When will you commit suicide?	December 5, 2018
What will your suicide note say?	"this is to dying in another's arms and why i had to try it.."
Quiz created with MemeGen !

haha...so in future if i do commit suicide,be sure to look around for funny suicide notes.. perhaps you will realise how lame i have been to even commit suicide.. even the suicide letter is lame.. hahaha...

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username
The quality that most appeals to you:	Loyalty
In a survival situation, you:	Freak out
Your hidden talent is:	Resourcefulness
Your gift is:	Athletic ability
In groups, you:	Play an organisational role
Your best quality is:	Your insightfulness
Your weakness is:	Your antisocial nature
Quiz created with MemeGen!

me? antisocial?? haha.. am i??

Your Love Situation by Amberishjewel
Username?
Your Love Is...	Seductive
During Lovemaking You Act...	Like a vampire, very seductive
Your Partner Is...	Your soulmate
Your Partner Has Said That You...	Are extrodinary
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote.	"I love your lips"
Quiz created with MemeGen!

haha.. beware i bite!! haha..

hmm,used to believe in soulmate..but now.. not reallie.. it takes time to understand each other.. and not just know each other just like that and will know the oher character.. no more soulmate principle.. and even if there was,not everyone could find them..so i wont be the lucky one to ba..

What do people really think about you? by Raven319
Name
Age
favorite song
Parents think	You're an angel
Strangers think	You have bigger boobs than Pam
Friends think	You're wonderful
Quiz created with MemeGen

i got big boobs????haha.. and who is that pam? why must compare with her? or issit a him??

did loads of quizes from may's blog to try to reduce stress.. it is helping and i am gettin addicted to it.. haha..

ps. i did something to the htmls that makes the links dun work.. so please click me to get access to these quizes.. hehe..:) have fun doing them!!=)

my relative all said i had changed.. yesh,i did.. i was quieter.. much more.. and more than ever.. as if i cant speak anymore.. and if noone notice me,i would just be the one sitting at one corner lost..

what the hell had happened to me???

no idea.

and stop asking me.

sometimes i wish that i know what is bothering me and that i could just tell somebody.. but i realised that once i know what is bothering me,i dun feel like telling anybody about my problem.. coz my problem are my perceptions.. my sensitivity.. my paranoia..

and no one can ever help me to get out of it.. perhap i need a psychiatrist which is ironic.. coz all the while i have been interested in this subject.. and would like to be a psychologist.. and yet,i end up needing people's help..

i am suffering from personality disorder..

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	High
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	High
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
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well,i dunnoe how true the results are.. and i think it is hard to retake it anyway.. i guess i am sick in some ways ba.. preceptions wise.. concepts wise,i am wrong..

i am too negative and i think too much.. and thinking too much to the negative side.. perhaps that's why my life is made so miserable..

anyway,here's a riddle to cheer u up..

riddle of the day:全世界的猪都死了,猜五个字。[please encode to unicode-UTF8]
































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Ans : 直少还有你。
[haha.. a post april's fool joke??]

ps.this joke is from janice.. :P

went to study at bedok.. together with janice,xiaojia,alan [he came all the way from bukit batok..surprise??] and also lena and jac.. hmm,wonder why jac ask lena to study? i dunnoe.. you go and ask him la!! haha.. weird thing is that he never ask waiyue.. why??!! haha.. =X

anyway,nothing much to say also.. wasnt in my best of mood.. but since when was i in my best of mood recently? hai~ just super affected by the tuition kid.. just wished that the mum had not ask me to teach him so many of the other subjects as well.. i just wanna concentrate on maths,his weakest subject.. he now does not have the motivation to learn something that is difficult--part whole model in maths..

i saw myself in him.. i refuse to motivate myself to achieve something which i can do better in... i am stubborn.. he is as well.. and it makes me frustrated easily when he didnt pay attention.. plus he is stubborn.. that is what makes me angry.. plus i wasnt in my good mood recently i am starting to find teaching a chore plus all the counting down to exams and all the friendship stuff bothering me [well,i guess i self-created these problems..]

i am tired..

just wanna die if i can,peacefully..

sometimes i wanted to find someone to talk to.. but all seems so busy at this moment of time..coz due to the exams period.. and when there is someone there for me to pour out all my troubles which i mainly self-created for myself [i probably deserve it anyway for creating problems to myself],i dun feel like talking about it.. i am a weird person aint i?

sat with lena they all at burger king.. jan they all sat another table while i sat with lena and jac.. abit weird.. jan they all are talking and writing something.. well,they dun let me know.. so i guess it wasnt meant for me to see.. and that makes me sad.. how can they hide things from me? i felt outcasted.. and i dun like it.. but since they dun wanna tell me,there is nothing i can do also.. if they wanna tell me,jan will call me to say one..or maybe coz i concentratin in listenin to the songs that was playing in my mp3..or perhaps i just dun look too happy when they bother me.. i dunnoe..

they said i act weird today.. i guess so in some ways.. my behaviour changes quite a lot.. due to different thinkin at different timings.. due to different happenings around me ba..i dunnoe..i just felt weird.. like i am going through some puberty or what.. and i dun like it..

changes are things i hate.. and yet changes is the only thing that never change..

i dun like it..

i dun..

anyway,studying wasnt fun.. since when is studying fun? but at least i managed to complete my chapter 9 for POB.. bank regulation.. hmm,so not so bad ba.. at least managed to get something into my mind.. thanks to the motivation of playing pool after studying.. hehe.. proudly suggested by jac..

then went to play pool.. pretty ex.. haha.. but never mind.. i enjoyed it anyway.. then also went to eat dinner.. hmm.. ate fish beehoon.. not very nice.. no milk i guess... that's why.. and also shared the yam paste with lena.. super not nice!!!! sux.. and it is so expensive due to the bai guo.. which i didnt eat.. luckily lena eat.. haha..

took 28 home.. haha.. disturbed jac on the way.. :P hehe.. then xiaojia asked me a weird qns.. what question? nah,not going to tell u since it is a weird question.. and what is my answer to her question? well,i guess it is for me to know and for you to find out ba.. haha..=P