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haha.. it's been erm,quite some time since i last blogged.. but i do wanna blog coz i dun wanna forget some of the things that happened in my life.. my blog is like a pensieve but it is a private pensieve where everyone can read.. haha.. sad to say.. perhaps i need another outlet for some private stuff.. perhaps,it is high time i learn how to control my tempers.. i have been badly abusing my black face recently.. and was easily irritated.. just come over to me suddenly.. this is bad.. going to worse.. hai wat the hell is wrong with me?perhaps i should start learning to control..

ok,i am a selfish brat.. someone told me.. my mood affects my friends.. i know that of course i do.. but somehow i just feel that i cant control it.. i am losing control of myself once again.. yesh,once again.. i had said before that i was stressed when i was with xiaojia and janice.. why? all the time i could feel eyes of the guys on them like molesting them from top to bottom.. and what can i do? nothing.. nothing at all.. and perhaps sometimes,they themselves might not have seen it then.. or maybe they ignored it.. me,what about me? as a friend i couldnt do anything.. nothing at all,what kind of friend am i??? instead,i felt worst and what did i do?i became moody.. i was moody coz i am actually not a good friend.. and i just made myself worst when i was moody as i made my friends moody as well and hence a worst friend.. perhaps,i am not worth the friends around me.. perhaps i should just be a loner... perhaps.. that will probably make life better for my friends..

my perception of myself wasnt good.. i never thought i was pretty or in any way comparable to anyone.. yeah,perhaps i shouldnt compare.. but after hearing what people said,you tend to compare wont you? since young,i have been living in a comparative environment.. compare grades,compare heights,and perhaps even compare how spicy food you can eat.. that was in primary school.. haha.. comparing gradually becomes part and parcel of my life..my mum once told me this when i complained that i have no boyfriend.. haha.. "say you pretty,you are not.. say you are smart, there are other smarter than you.. ask you do something,you everything also dunnoe how to do.. where got guys will like?" haha.. how true..

i never had a good view of things anyway.. when something happened i will start to think of all the negatives and pessimistic view of the situation.. and sometimes, even though the situation is not as bad as what i had thought it to be,i will still presume it will be that bad.. i wear a black hat according to guirong.. one who will see all the dark side of things.. and sometimes,i will start to wonder every motives behind the actions of a person.. why is he so nice to me? did he want something from me? and gradually,my xin ji became more zhong.. i am more cautious.. and starts to react strongly against the person once i think he is not a safe person... perhaps.. this is good.. i have always been a sha da jie.. until perhaps janice entered my life.. haha.. that means i had matured? or i just had a stronger opponent in being 13 dian.. haha.. opps,i forgot lena was the ultimate.. haha.. :P

i would have lead a happier life if i could just fang de kai and not think.. it is the problem of me thinking too much that causes so much misery in me.. perhaps for once,i shouldnt think.. enjoy the company of my friends.. think i should do that.. for myself.. for my friends.. for ... him(?) haha.. nah,wont be for him.. haha

anyway,here's a recap on what i did for the whole week..

sunday.
KTV today!!!! at tampines pavillion there.. kaijing finally joined us!!! yeah.. could have got yeeling and huixin.. but both of them had something on!! we sang that "wo ai ni" by SHE for guess how many times?? 4 times!!! haha.. then funny leh.. no one send us off.. but then when the person bring in the peanuts and stuff.. saying that what thought we might like to extend, we quickly run away.. wahaha.. coz in the afternoon,sure very ex one.. somemore sunday afternoon.. haha.. and hence.. we are off to shopping.. at tampines mall..

met xiaojia at fox.. she was buying some red long sleeve shirt.. quite cheap..think fox having offer there.. haha.. but i didnt like lomg sleeves.. hehe.. i just glanced around.. then kena scolded by them saying when i just glanced then never really see.. like that how to buy?? coz i didnt enter the shop then said i didnt wanna see when i was the one who wanted to shop.. but end up more like i accompanied them to shop.. haha.. anyway,i did looked around and saw a shirt i pretty much like coz of the design.. tried it.. not so bad.. but to me the price was like pretty steep and hence didnt get it..

then went to this fashion.. saw a pretty nice skirt there.. and i tried it.. quite nice.. haha... ownself say ownself nice one... hehe.. but kaijing and lena agreed too.. =) quite like it.. and the price was pretty affordable and hence we bought it..haha..somemore kaijing got the discount card.. haha.. and so i bought it.. but erm,just realised that it might be too thin.. haha.. need to wear something inside.. haha.. XD

monday and tuesday are boring... just went tuition.. didnt do much either.. hehe..

26/1
jan and i went to school to study.. but ended up becoming a second hand smoker.. a group of girls sat just there and continued smoking non stop..just like a race where they pass the baton of smoking..when one finished smoking,the other start.. sianz.. then never mind.. when they left,we tot there will be fresh air once again.. but.... another group came to smoke again.. and i wondered,isnt this a smoke free place??? no smoking is actually allowed there.. hai~ just our luck.. become rather erm,uncomfortable breathing in all those smoke..

then around 4+,we went to somewhere near clementi there--the sports complex there to watch the competition.. nice.. haha.. quite ji lie.. and erm,it been some time since i last went to watch a basketball tournament.. since perhaps sec 3? i almost forgot how it is like.. until i saw it once again in the court.. nice.. had always enjoyed watching people playing tournament.. haha.. even though i didnt know who to support.. coz not my school anyway.. hehe.. but just liked it.. =D

then after the tournament,we went to orchard to shop with weilun (who asked us to go watch the basketball match) and john.. hehe.. john drove there.. haha.. and i was like kidding,"hey uncle to orchard.. thank you!!" haha.. opps.. then we asked if we are supposed to bring our bags down.. haha.. then he said "jan you can.. then point at me,you cannot.. must bring everything down the taxi one.." haha.. but anyway,i only brought my handphone and wallet down.. haha.. dun care what the uncle said.. :X

went to alot of shops and walk.. haha.. eventually found something i liked.. but erm,was like too small.. haha.. cant help it.. i too big size le.. hai~! anyway,didnt buy that eventually.. haha.. went to other shops.. and i am those kind who will go into the shop when i see something that attracts me.. if not,i will not enter the shop.. haha.. so kena scolded by them.."like that how you see clothes one? haha.. no wonder cant get a thing.." haha.. opps.. :X [*note:this is also wad lena and kaijing said me on sunday!!]

then we went to taka there to eat before continuing to shop.. ate the minced meat noodles.. eee.. super not nice one.. hai~ why i always get to buy food that dun taste good?? haha.. first te prawn mee then this mee.. damn,shall not eat mee again when i am outside.. haha.. should eat rice.. keke.. then after that we continued on our journey to shop.. haha.. then while jan bought her ice cream i go and get a drink for myself.. haha.. then she shared with me a bit.. quite nice.. haha.. strawberry haagen daz ice-cream.. yumyum.. but very ex.. haha.. one cone cost around $4-$6 plus.. depending on how many scopes.. haha..

then headed to G2000 where john found the shirt he wanted to buy to please his mum.. weird.. haha.. but anyway,he looked different in those kind of long sleeve shirt.. hard to see if it is nice on him as he is wearing erm,basketball shorts.. haha.. should have asked him to go get a pants to match and see if it is nicer.. haha.. i think i gave him the weird look.. coz he asked why your face like that.. haha.. quite nice la.. though the combination erm,abit weird.. haha.. anyway,all of us gave a thumb-up.. and hence he bought the shirt.. then they started pressurising me.. coz the main aim was me buying my new year clothes.. and somemore soon,all the shops will be closed.. around 8+ liao.. haha..

then went to try denim skirts.. wah.. very short leh.. haha.. then janice very funny,kept saying,"wah your leg very fair.." haha.. never go tan of course white la.. haha.. but the response was ok.. but john added something,"if you are like xiaojia and janice that kind of pattern then you better dun buy.." haha.. so.. in the end,i thought that the skirt was too short.. and i was rather erm,chu lu(rough).. haha.. and hence.. i didnt buy... even though i quite like the skirt.. haha.. perhaps will go to other shops to see loh.. hehe.. but my legs aint nice.. alot of scars.. so maybe should avoid wearing mini-skirts ba..haha.. then went to one of the shop at far east and got a huge purple shirt.. haha.. those weird weird my type kind of clothes.. haha.. i am sure you guys know wad i mean.. heehee.. those butterfly sleeves kind.. hehe..

then headed home after one whole day of shopping.. as we saw some erm prostitutes,according to john.. haha.. then they started teasing jan saying what she cost only 80 bucks per nite.. then i was like thinking.. if it was me,perhaps i had to pay the guy 80 bucks,and even the hotel rental fees etc.. haha.. okok,i am only kiddin.. not serious.. but just suddenly have this sudden thought.. haha.. like i said i am always negative.. haha..anyway,that marks the end of the day already.. haha..

27/1
a long day.. had our last POB lectures.. hehe.. was pretty happy about the grades i had got for some of the tests we just got back.. heh heh.. though not very high marks.. but still got a sense of satisfaction.. =D erm,though i asked jan wad's a commercial bank.. haha.. which means a wholesale bank.. hehe.. then went to jan's class to put bag.. i think next time i won't put my bag in her class le.. haha.. i would put in my class... anyway,next week will be my last lesson.. last stats lessons le.. haha..

had erm,wanton noodles.. haha.. not very nice.. but still edible.. haha.. jan was very nice.. she helped me to buy coz she know that i was super tired.. then she tried to call my handphone.. haha.. and guess what? she called my home number.. and when she hear my mom's voice,she forgot who she had called.. haha.. super comical.. haha.. why do i have such a friend?? haha.. kidding.. :P hehe.. then anyway,was erm,pretty stony.. haha.. was late for stats.. luckily beth helped me to book seats.. haha.. hai~ then somemore got to struggle my baag out of the AF class.. super paiseh.. but luckily the lecturer was not watching.. hehe..

played basketball.. scraped my knees.. ouch!! haha.. but no big deal la.. not the first time i fell down anyway.. haha.. then also knocked the basketball pole with my knuckles.. haha.. now blue-black already.. heh heh.. i am forever injured.. and perhaps in a way i like inflicting injuries on myself.. haha.. i am a sadist!!!!! haha.. then just played abit of basketball then kena injured le.. :( haha.. janice,i didnt blame you.. so dun put the blame on yourself ok? haha.. but i also know you won't you arent me.. haha.. :X just kidding.. dun blame yourself for wad happen ok? haha.. oh yah,saw wong lilin and her child.. haha.. as well as alan wu.. hehe... very muscular.. haha.. then after that i bought my stuff to go and bathe.. erm,was actually quite disappointed that janice didnt accompany me to bathe.. but come to think about it now,she will be bored to death if she did since she is not bathing.. she will be sitting out there alone..so perhaps i shouldnt have this selfish thought.. haha..

after that went to adams road to eat.. erm.. haha.. saw vincent ng!! actually jan they all saw him first.. haha.. i was pretty stone.. once again.. coz at night le mah.. haha.. got satays... yumyum.. then also eat ice qing teng... nice.. hehe.. then headed home.. jan wanted to take taxi home.. and so i ton pang until i reached the siemens there to switch to bus number 8.. actually saw a 154 coming.. before the bus 8.. haha.. but then erm,i dun think it will be convenient for janice ba.. perhaps she got to walk a distance and hence taking taxi will be safer for her i guess.. haha...

reached home.. was super duper tired.. but.. jan wanted to do the eRevision thingy.. haha.. and so we did.. i am so dead sia.. got 3 lectures on the same day from day to night.. haha.. think i am gonna skip the night class.. haha.. :X i am so naughty.. hehe.. and the erevision thing is very tedious.. once pressed wrong once,must restart again.. hai~ then somemore,all the good seatings are already chosen by other people liao loh.. sianz.. all i had left was the sucky choices.. hai~!

then finally we settled everything.. all thanks to alan who helped janice and xiaojia to do.. as for me,i cant ask him to do coz there are some that wont be similiar to janice and xiaojia coz different lecturer and also i had ir,which they didnt take.. hehe.. haiz.. slept around 2+ like that.. haha..

28/1
i was a total zombie.. but not as bad as the other time on the friday 2 weeks before,when the guy on the train looked at me smiling.. then i smiled back to him.. but a weird smile coz i was erm,not prepared to.. might have been an ugly smile.. haha.. rather erm,weird.. then later,he smiled again.. haha.. waiyue said i should have removed my earphone.. haha.. what did he want anyway? haha.. i dunnoe.. cant be interested in me rite? when i am pulling such a long face.. haha.. was stoning most of the time..

was late for econs yesh,once again.. haha.. as usual.. then erm, sat alone.. then during break joined chernyee they all as they kept a seat for me.. so sweet of them!!! =D then during break,went to find xiaojia they all as usual.. haha.. accompanied xiaojia to buy milk at the canteen.. hehe.. she took taxi to school today.. rich ger.. haha.. i would rather be late if i were her.. haha.. =P

then went to eat lunch in megabites again.. erm,i was pretty moody.. haha.. then john asked xiaojia to go for some bbq.. then i asked why john never ask us along? haha.. so it was actually a gang meeting whereby each guy will bring only one girl (which is xiaojia) then it is like maybe something like show-off kind of thing ba? haha.. at least to me.. i get it la.. but then when xiaojia knew that,she dun wanna go already.. then she asked me to go.. huh? what's the point? john asked her lei.. not me lei.. then it is like something you dun wan then u push to me? wth? perhaps i was too sensitive or wad.. but in my point of view,it is as if she wanna dump something she doesnt want to me.. ok,i think i am being a little too sensitive or perhaps protective of myself.. maybe she didnt mean that.. but i got that kind of feeling.. and i dont like it..

then went to erm,student lounge to study.. with alan,xiaojia and janice.. didnt reallie study much.. was looking at alan's photos.. haha.. his sec sch pic very cute and shuai.. haha... opps.. :X haha.. then we did something pretty bad.. haha.. we invaded his privacy by playing with his laptop when he was playing pool.. we went to change his msn nick to something like i am scandalised.. haha.. then we even changed his wallpaper and msn display pic.. opps.. arent we bad.. think he quite angry,even want us to make a public apology.. sianz.. haha.. since previous year,when i was the host for the chinese new year programme,i have never been on stage again.. haha.. now public apology? hai~! well done.. [my old slang is back!!!] hehe..

before long,it was already 4 and we got to go for POB consultation.. haha.. was late and hence had to sit right in the front.. which is good.. so we dun have to see what she write until very xin ku.. hehe.. so a good choice we have made then!! hehe.. dun have the notes she printed.. =( but i went to borrow from shou zi.. then he said i can take it as he got additional set.. so nice of him.. haha.. then actually wanted to go and photocopy one.. but jan was in a hurry to go to a concert.. and hence we left the school after xiaojia ate her bun and chee cheong fan.. she was hungry..

then we took bus home.. on the way didnt tallk much.. didnt know what to say.. so listened to my mp3.. alighted at block 201 there.. she wanted to get hor fan [i told you she was addicted to hor fan] for her brother and herself.. haha.. then i recommended her the kuay chay,then she dun wan say what she only want hor fan hor fan and only yu pian hor fan.. haha.. joker ar her.. going to the ultimate soon.. haha.. then we walked home talked about lots of stuff.. mainly she tells me.. haha.. although i also got said something la.. haha.. but mainly on the shopping trip with john and weilun they all.. haha.. more hyper after getting off the bus.. but didnt talk much also.. coz finally reached my house le.. haha... and we had to walk different ways..

was home msning.. dunnoe why.. i was pretty high.. even said love ya loads to a guy who i wasnt erm very shou with.. haha.. there was something i wished to clarify with him.. but.. havent got the courage to.. perhaps when i know it,i will regret.. or probably be disappointed.. so should i erm ask? or remain in the unclarified state? now in a confused state.. *-* i see stars.. haha..

i also did another stupid thing.. haha.. i told a guy that i wanna woo him.. am i kiddin? haha.. later i scare him off again.. haha.. shall not elaborate too much.. but lena asked me this question when i told her about it.. haha.. "are you serious? i think he think you are serious leh" haha.. i have no idea.. at first i thought i will be just kidding,but then apparently,i became more erm,real.. haha.. dun ask me wat's my feeling for him.. confused state.. haha.. dun ask who either.. haha.. it's 天知地知我知你不知 [pls encode to unicode UTF-8] haha.. i was erm,pretty high then.. coz i think i drank a little alcohol.. haha..XD

29/1
went to study at around 4+ with guirong and lena at hans..[yup,there is a new branch at tampines mall le!!!!] they discussin about computer java stuff ba.. haha.. then i did my econs.. yeah~~ i finally know how to solve it.. yeah~~ haha.. so happy.. ate a chocolate cake.. sponge cake.. not reallie nice but it is cheap!! only one bucks!!! haha.. anyway,we then had the set dinner.. guirong ate chicken chop with black peppered sauce,lena ate pork chop and i also ate chicken chop but with mushroom gravy.. hehe.. cheap le.. $8.50 got soup (prawn soup),bread with butter, the main dish,a drink (ice lemon tea) and fruits (honey dew).. nice!!! haha.. affordable.. and somehow worth the price.. at least that's what i think.. heh heh..

then after that we went to shop again.. but apparently TM was a bore to us.. almost all the place we have been to at least one.. then intially wanted to go to esplanade.. but then both guirong and i had to rush home.. and hence we decided against going there.. no point also.. hehe.. went to the open air there to chat... while waiting for zhijia to come and get the book from lena.. haha.. nicky and her are just so sweet.. haha.. so nice.. haha..

then in the end,we ended up in our favourite hot spot,cafe cartel!! saw ms rajah,ms ho,mr jared oh and mr mark chan there.. haha.. having dinner i supposed.. then erm,joscelin,working there also said hi to me quite a surprise.. haha.. we went there to have cheesecake.. yummy!!! hehe.. i am addicted to eating cake recently.. hehe.. that explains the size of me.. wahaha.. XD then we chatted about quite a lot of stuff.. haha.. until almost 11.. haha... then we rushed home.. ZzZzZzZz

this is the color of the walls in my room now!!! nice?? hehe.. so happy.. painted today.. hehe.. lavender.. nice sweet color.. just loved it.. it is the color i chose that's why i am so happy.. made myself useful for the day as i painted the room!! mainly done by my dad of course.. he is stronger and can paint a wider area.. hehe.. but i did helped by painting the edge of which the big brush cant reach.. and thus had to climb up and down.. coz we also painted the ceiling.. nice.. like going to a new home.. that kind of feeling..

sense of satisfaction.. =D

but now was super tired.. haha.. and lots of blue blacks..keke.. i was clumsy.. bang here and there until like dunnoe wad.. now my two legs and hands are filled with bruises.. haha... but it is not the first time i was that clumsy.. i have always been clumsy..=P

well,went to sch yesterday.. waited for xiaojia for quite a while at the MRT.. but she is improving.. not so late le.. this is good!! was pretty stony on the way.. what was i doing? i have absolutely no idea.. perhaps not enough sleep.. woke up around 4 in the morning when i slept pretty late on wednesday,around 12+? what was i doin? playing games i guess.. haha.. pretty addicted to solitaire showdown via msn and roseonline.. hehe..

anyway,yupz so was pretty erm,stony.. haha. different people will have different interpretations for me being stony.. some will think that i am stony.. some will think that i am thinking about something.. some like weilun will assume that my da yi ma come and visit me.. haha.. in another word pms.. haha.. some will assumes that i am moody..yes,the mood swing kind of moody,not the harry potter's defence of art teacher that auror.. haha.. ok,not funny? dun laugh.. it wasnt meant to be a joke anyway,just that erm,i am a harry potter fan.. haha.. then since xiaojia looked so enthu and like wanted to talk,so i just mentioned basketball..

me: yeah, jin tian ke yi wan dao chi chi,ming tian holidays!! [today can play until very late because no school tomorrow due to holidays..]
xiaojia: eh,u talk like weilun.. haha.. he also say that..
me: huh? yeah,da wan qiu hou,ke yi yi qi qu chi! ni you qu dui mah? [huh?orh,then we can go dinner after basketball,u going?]
xiaojia: eh,ni jiang zhe xie hua geng weilun yi yang leh! [what you say is the same as weilun leh!]
me: huh? orh.. zhen de ar? na mei qiao [such a coincidence]

haha.. reallie think it is that qiao.. haha.. anyway,reached dover.. then xiaojia managed to squeeze up the 74 bus single deck.. but i was too fat... i couldnt get up the bus.. haha.. so had to wait for another bus.. think one of the ngee ann student saw then was like laughing at us.. haha.. was pretty dramatic i guess to the viewers.. haha.. as in those watching us.. haha.. perhaps.. i dun care.. haha.. then waited for the next bus loh.. haha..while waiting got xiaojia's message.. asking me if i am troubled.. hmm,do i reallie look troubled? am i? i have no idea.. what am i thinking then? i have also no idea.. just knew that i am sad.. depression.. but the reason? i have no idea.. was surprised that i actually lost sleep yesterday.. woke up around 4+ and started stoning until perhaps 5+ then i fall asleep again.. but soon,my dad they all wake up and started their morning "dins" i was erm,disturbed and cant reallie sleep anyway.. so was pretty erm,stony.. whatever you guys want to interpret it as.. haha..

then anyway,managed to take the next bus without having to squeeze like sardine.. hehe.. but was erm,slightly late for lessons.. hehe.. but the lecturer had not reallie started so i guess i didnt miss much also.. =X hehe.. finally managed to complete chapter 7.. next week last lesson gotta complete chapter 10 and that will be the end of POB.. and that marks the start of our mock exams in february.. and guess what i havent started revising yet.. at the end of each night,i realised that i had actually erm,waste a day away.. started to regret.. but gradually when i erm,took out my notes,i start falling asleep again.. sianz.. hai~ must start my studying.. and stop being a slacker who plays roseonline everyday!!!!

hehe.. went to eat..shared hor fan with janice and xiaojia.. quite nice.. yummy.. haha.. yeah,dunnoe why.. wasnt in the mood to eat.. wonder why.. anyway,weilun came to find us also.. although he is not eating.. hmm.. he feel like vomiting.. haha.. he is pregnant!!!! hehe.. wonder who the erm,mother is? or issit who the father is? haha.. then headed back to boring maths class.. intially wanted to sit with weilun but.. there's someone sitting with him le.. haha.. so i made fun of him saying he so popular,so many people want to sit with him.. haha.. aiyoh,then i sat in front.. he kept apologising.. haha.. i dun blame him la.. haha..

anyway after break,two person sitting beside me left and so weilun shifted down to accompany me.. haha.. he so good huh? haha.. then was super lame.. he kept complaining about the two girls in front.. haha.. say she act sey.. haha.. coz she kept combing her hair to the back.. haha..i shall not comment.. but i do that at times too.. :X haha.. he said it turn him off.. especially since she not pretty.. haha..hai~ not pretty not a sin rite? haha.. he mentioned something like you not pretty,never mind,you not pretty still act as if you pretty,then it is a turn-off for him.. haha.. hai~ guys.. hard to please.. haha.. :X then he started to ask me how to write my name.. he didnt know my surname after janice told him?? hai~ never mind.. haha.. the he asked me how to write my ying.. haha.. he wrote many different types of ying.. first he wrote this 盈 which is very common.. i used to write my name this way too.. haha.. then when i said no.. he wrote all these影,迎,螢,瑩, even resort to writing this 贏.. well done.. so i said never mind.. and you know wad? he heard as yi ge mai-- 一個賣.. diao.. haha.. i said never mind!!!!!! haha.. so funny.. then i showed him which ying is mine.. haha.. hehe..

after lessons we went to basketball but weilun is hungry so we went to the canteen to eat.. haha.. then anyway,xiaojia also needed to get milk to drink.. haha.. and i wanted to get chocolates.. hehe.. i suppose that explains the size of me now.. :X haha.. then anyway,just settled down while vivi who joined us and weilun ate the ban mian and he mixed the egg yolk with the soup.. eeeeee.. like my brother.. haha.. act my brother.. haha.. anyway,saw hady coming our way into the canteen so we called him.. haha.. weilun called him hardy boy.. diaoz.. coz hady pronounced as ha- dy.. then he even made fun of his name,called him nancy.. haha.. coz hardy boys and nancy drew used to be a pair in our primary school days.. does it remind you of any fond memories??haha..i remembered i used to go to the library to borrow huge stacks of nancy drew as well as hardy boys home to read.. haha.. other than that there is also the babysitters club.. hehe.. anyway,hady didnt get it i think.. he looked a bit confused..he joined us then sat there and stone.. haha.. like what i did in the morning.. hehe..

after that all of us headed to the bus stop as weilun and janice went to the toilet.. then we assumed that they will take quite some time and so we waited for quite a while while hady chatted with his friends.. hehe.. then we were wondering why weilun and janice were not around yet.. and so we just stoned there.. haha.. but the actual fact is that they are already waiting at the bus stop liao.. haha.. then we gradually realised that they might be at the busstop le.. and so we headed there.. just in time to take 151 to SMU there to play basketball.. haha..

reached there played basketball.. then went to run.. yeah!! i managed to run 4 rounds without stopping.. i am so happy.. and mind you it is lane 8.. haha.. prefered to run lane 8.. haha.. then went to play again loh.. haha..

had fun playing then went to eat at erm,the adams road there to eat.. got vivi,lika,xiaojia,janice and me,together with alan and weilun.. tried the hokkien prawn mee.. super dry and sucky.. haha.. and all thanks to xiaojia who offered me her hor fan.. thanks you, xiaojia!!!! haha.. and if you noticed something, xiaojia is addicted to hor fan like smokers addicted to cigarettes.. haha.. :X then shared coconut with janice.. quite nice.. however since we already played until very late,we realised that there's no bus at that time le.. haha.. and hence janice,xiaojia and me took 154,one of the last bus.. then jan walked home while xiaojia and i took taxi home... haha.. coz no bus.. also no choice.. haha.. reached home around 12+ ba.. time to go sleep.. zZzZzZz

*note: notice that xiaojia's name was BOLD and in RED? haha.. coz she complained that i wrote weilun's and janice's name more often than i wrote her name.. so i want to let her noe that actually her name also appeared quite a number of time.. haha.. :X

i started writing on the 24th august 2002 in the open diary.. then changed to blog on the 29th march 2003..

what did i realise?

great changes?

i wont say that.. i guess little changes,except perhaps that the way i wrote is different.. though i still take great notice of what happened instead of my feelings.. haha.. as usual.. i am a describing person as in i said the event more of a reporter.. rather than erm, scriptwriter.. haha... perhaps someday i should start writing a script of my life.. hehe..

but for now.. gotta go study.. study study study.. all that i have in my life.. studies...

weiyang's wedding today..

clashes with simin's party.. had no choice gotta go this as it was more of once in a lifetime kinda thing..i mean marriage there wont be a second time rite? but birthday there will always be a next time.. this is wad my mum said.. she always has lots of philosophies.. bo bian,i gotta listen to her.. =(

headed to mong hing teo chew restaurant there to eat.. was wearing lena's prom dress.. haha.. and putting on make up.. i think i looked different.. perhaps i looked horrible.. coz night time put make up must put more extreme.. haha.. and hence i think i looked erm,extreme? haha.. the rest of my cousins all never put leh.. :X and somemore i wear long prom dress loh.. haha.. reallie extra.. but dun care.. :P

anyway,the centre of attraction wasnt the bride and the groom,but the groom's dad as he was sitting on the wheelchair.. he recently injured himself.. not very serious but rather serious.. he had to use the wheelchair,so is it considered serious? he fell down himself.. as a vehicle came close to him,i supposed.. so the vehicle didnt bang into him.. i guess he was rather lucky.. anyway,the bride was from thailand.. haha.. so eh,wasnt fluent in chinese.. hai~ and i think she was pregnant already.. :X but they had planned this wedding for quite some time i supposed.. haha..

anyway,chatted with zhiloon,one of my uncle.. haha.. hehe,just coming out of NS only.. then talked a while loh.. hey girls,my uncle will be ur junior in NTU wor.. haha.. computer engineering.. if i am not wrong.. haha.. hehe.. guirong your junior,my senior.. haha.. opps.. hehe.. then talk about some of the stories they heard in NS etc.. haha.. some are quite eerie.. haha.. then the feast started and hence since we are sitting at different table,we ended our conversation.. hehe..

then janice called.. haha.. guess what? she called to tell me that they saw weilun.. diaoz~! haha.. then they also met hady.. haha.. then i told her i at wedding dinner.. she dun believe me.. haha.. then i even tell her that i wearing lena's prom dress.. haha..then she thought my wedding.. super diaoz~! haha.. even asked me why didnt invite her.. so i pei he her.. i said coz this one only invite relatives,next time then treat her.. haha.. super lame sia.. and while i was chatting on the phone, they go yum seng.... haha.. i missed that.. opps.. hehe.. nvm la..

overall the wedding doesnt seems grand at all.. and this is not wad i going to have if i do get married,yes,a BIG I-F there.. haha.. cant imagine also.. i guess there are alot of things i cant imagine as well,rite lena? think you also feel the same.. haha.. this is reallie very unlike the rest of the wedding dinner i went to.. perhaps it is because the bride's family wasnt in spore and so there seems to be fewer tables around.. a bit of chaotic as the people just sat the place they wanted to sit.. and there wasn't order at all.. quite messy.. but gradually as things settle down by themselves, everything go on smoothly.. =) which is good.. haha..

yeah..very tired now.. zZzZz still had to remove make-up.. hai~ hope simin had a great time at her party.. was such a pity i cant join her,though i had promised her that i will be going.. hai~ so sorry.. :/

realised that the way i wrote my blog was very kiddish also.. haha.. so lena,you are not alone..anyway,yeah,i guess that's our style..just dun reallie noe how to express myself in the right way.. hai~ sad..

went to school today.. was erm,not reallie early for econs and so had to sit alone.. not enough seats to sit with chernyee and dawn they all..then somemore weilun's friends all came in the morning.. haha.. so sit alone loh.. anyway,janice,not your fault,okiez?[if you are reading] haha... anyway,i also wanted to run yesterday.. hehe.. yeah.. then during break,janice and xiaojia as usual will go all the way to my class to accompany me for the break.. they are forever so sweet and hence,we had fun chatting as usual.. haha.. accompanied them up to their class [halfway] coz my class going in already.. haha.. then continued to have lecture..

saw julia and zeda after lecture.. very qiao.. they had came to accompany tongda.. hehe.. anyway,julia was still waiting for her A level results.. not sure about zeda.. didnt reallie talk to him.. haha.. actually other than saying "hi",i didnt even look at him.. :X haha.. then janice they all came out as well as weilun they all like all waiting for me.. so also didnt talk much.. :X haha.. but glad to meet julia.. eh,quite surprising.. haha..

after lecture,had a meeting with the basketball committee.. but valentino wasnt around.. weird.. anyway,more or less settled the stuff.. we will be meeting alex on wednesday to settle the treasury stuff.. and all the accounts stuff.. aka all the admins stuff.. then janice and sinlay went off to the relc to make payment for sinlay's examination fees.. leaving me,xiaojia and weilun to eat.. ate vegetable rice.. then went to the student lodge to study.. but there super cold so headed to weilun's favourite place to study.. haha.. but it was too windy there... a nice place to chat but not a good place to study as papers will be flying about.. haha.. then meet weilun and we went to an aircon place to study,so that the wind will not blow away our papers and we will have peace studying.. managed to do some of the econs questions..

was late meeting waiyue,lena and guirong.. haha.. then weilun and xiaojia very funny leh..at least that's what i think.. we went on the mrt there then i went ahead into the train.. then weilun and xiaojia was still bickering as weilun said that xiaojia cannt feel the sensor.. haha.. then the both of them didnt get in the train.. super joker sia.. then hor,we planned to meet at dover,so i assume that i got on the train at dover.. but.... xiaojia and weilun got down the train.. and hence.. i gotta got down at the next stop which is buona vista to wait for them.. super duper comical.. finally we managed to meet at buona vista.. haha..then at red hill,weilun had to got off the train and went back to erm,buona vista.. haha.. coz he meeting his friends there.. haha.. so nice of him to accompany xiaojia and me..haha.. actually he should be accompanied by xiaojia to bukit gombak one loh.. haha.. but in the end,they all ended up accompanying me.. and he said he had no idea what he is doing.. when at school there he could have taken a bus there.. haha.. and not ended up taking bus to mrt then transfer to mrt.. haha.. then xiaojia and weilun kept making each other.. touching each other's chins.. hai~ cant stand it sia.. haha.. i like 3rd party once again.. *note: i used the word once again.. haha.. :X [underlying meaning.. dun understand never mind..:P]

met waiyue,lena and guirong at the pizza place at raffles place basement.. haha..had pasta and not pizza,see the irony?? haha.. then we go pastamania eat pizza.. haha.. go pizza hut eat baked rice.. haha... how ironic.. anyway,the pasta was nice.. love cheese sia... yumyum.. especially melted cheese.. so cheesy... haha..then headed to our favourite place-- the esplanade.. hehe.. lena's favourite place.. had some girls talk.. luckily no interrogation for me.. mainly attention was on lena.. haha..

then headed home at around 10.. hai~ then phone calls came in.. sian.. reallie dun like the feeling of being questioned where are you? who are you with? i am almost 20 (though i self-declared 18 every year.. haha..) this year,ok,i dun behave like one.. fine.. just like erm,irritated? whatever la.. i understand that they are concerned about me.. but only 10 and you start calling? isn't it abit erm extreme?

yesterday was tiring.. haha.. a very very long day.. with 2 toturing lectures namely POB and stats 1.. very xiong.. then during break at stats lessons, we accompanied weilun to have his lunch.. haha.. he ate the chicken chop i guess at megabites.. after lesson,i went to find weilun coz janice they all had consultation.. wanted to study.. but ended up chatting.. haha.. then janice called my handphone and weilun answered the phone.. haha.. he made those funny female sounds.. haha.. joker sia.. sinlay joined me as she didnt attend consultation one.. haha.. then waited for john to join us.. haha.. actually is wait for john to send weilun home coz he stayed near weilun.. in another flat i suppose.. haha...

but in the end,when john came.. we crapped again.. and they didnt immediately left.. haha.. we talked about songs etc.. haha.. and also about jan and xiaojia.. hehe.. then lame abit.. then realised how sensitive john is to age.. wahaha.. :X but can understand.. i would have felt the same if i were him.. hehe..

then headed to basketball after janice and xiaojia's consultation.. haha.. yeah.. went to walk with xiaojia since there was no courts being booked.. just chatted along the way loh.. then after that she decided to run and so i go and played basketball.. haha.. :P after a while,we are stopped by the next team (hockey team) as the time we booked ended.. haha.. so we went to run again!! hehe.. run the 8th lane.. quite nice.. not stressed.. nice to run.. prefer lane 8 to lane 1.. hehe.. at least noone fight with you or is behind chasing you,asking you to hurry that kind of feelings.. so i like.. :) yeah..very shuang.. esp in the evening.. nice.. with the wind blowing on your face.. like that kind of feeling.. very nice.. cooling..

then we(hady,alan,xiaojia,janice and me) went to eat at the restaurant near evans lodge there to eat.. ate the pork meat rice.. haha.. listened to the nice music in the restaurant got jay's songs,she songs.. then i heard zhou chuan xiong's song,huang yun,i felt sick.. reminded of the sad stuff.. sian.. hai~ called lena then wanted to talk to her about some things that affected me.. guess it is good that we talked it out.. at least we know what each other is thinking.. feel better after chatting with her for a short while.. yupz,and that starts to cheer me up.. wasnt reallie affected even though i reached home rather late.. and parents started nagging that i had been late for the past 2 days... they became even more agitated when i told them i will be out with lena they all for dinner.. hai~ used to it le.. in their eyes i will always be a child.. i understand.. perhaps in the future i will be behaving this way too.. who knows?

Happy birthday, Joanna!!!!!!!Hope you had enjoyed a great birthday this year!!!

today wasn't a great day for me.. partly because of what happened to me yesterday.. my mood was like a fluctuation in the shares market today.. ups and downs and ups and downs again and again repeatedly.. hai~ anyway,what happened me that caused me so much misery? haha.. this is wad i wrote about yesterday while waiting for janice at aljunied today..

"i made him angry..my day was good.. i went back to the student care centre after my tuition and the kids missed me.. i miss them too.. all of them were like smiling to me,saying welcome back.. a sense of return.. a sense of belonging.. but i know i wont return back to the centre.. used to have some misunderstandings before.. so anyway,i wont be back loh.. yeah.. so just visit them... i am happy enough.. =D but i got his sms.. he made me feel so guilty so worried and i totally have no idea that my little action could case such a big harm to him.. [anyway,dun bother knowing who he is.. you noe,then erm,dun say la... u dunnoe,nvm..] people said i was worried coz i like him? do i? did i? having mixed feelings.. very confused.. but 1 thing i was almost absolutely confirmed was that i didnt like him from the start,but do treat him as a nice friend.. haha.. it's so irritating.. and it is bothering so much i cant concentrate.. every little things start to irritate me.. aRgh..

saw him and his family at ljs.. another him.. lena was excited.. i wasnt.. was pretty vexed by the previous event.. haha.. and i was surprised that there was no little butterflies in my stomach.. or wad.. mixed feelings again.. but this time round i cant understand it... do i still like him? i have totally no idea.. lena still does,i supposed.. i have totally no idea how to react when she time and time tells me that she likes him,and was so excited to see him.. frankly speaking,i was not comfortable with the fact that the both of us likes the same person.. and yet,she likes to tell me that.. she wasnt bothered by it.. and since she wasnt,i thought i would have been the same.. but sad to say,i was totally not ok about it.. just broke down on the train.. was crying without any noise.. i was alone.. tears just fell like that.. mind went blamk.. so many emotions at one point of time.. i just cant take it anymore..

i was different the last time i saw him at tm.. weird.. and that time both of us are also together there,being pretty excited.. haha.. and after that lena also met him a few more times.. i was envious.. but i didnt show.. i was thinking.. even if i do meet him,i wont go and say a "hi" to him.. not after what had happened ages ago..a nightmare.. he ignored me and i avoided him for almost 4+ years liao loh..

i just realised something.. it's been a long time since i last seen him smile..since perhaps sec 2? i miss his laughter and smile..

i miss him..

i do..."

that was my gan xiang when waiting for janice.. waited almost an hour.. until i cannt take it then i go toilet.. haha.. why mrt no toilet one? must leave the platform then got toilet.. hai~ waste my money.. sianz.. anyway,wasnt in a very pleased mood.. who would after waitin for like 1 hour for a person alone?? ok,i know there are worse cases.. i was just pretty worried that there is a long queue when we go RELC at orchard there to make payment for our examination fees, coz after paying my fees i had to rush to school.. but luckily there wasnt a long queue.. dunnoe if i was kan cheong or vexed or what.. i kept filling in the wrong thing.. super sianz.. anyway,headed to school after filling up the forms..

ate sandwiches.. went to find weilun as he was taking janice's disc of which we had bothered him to take from sinlay who had went home after her lessons.. haha.. then went to class.. thought sharon was not coming as she was seldom very late.. went through environmental global stuff.. which was very geography.. haha.. but i like.. haha.. at least better than the rest of the subjects.. hehe..

then after lessons, we headed to john's house to study.. intially wanted to study in school.. but john suggested his house so we went there loh.. think he super rich loh.. got BMW and stay in condominium which is only one of his house.. he got another house i supposed.. haha.. not so shou with him.. haha.. xiaojia more shou with him,coz she called him lao tou zi (which means husband).. haha.. anyway,xiaojia just wanted to mean that he is old.. wahaha.. and i think he is.. as he is pretty sensitive about age stuff.. he is 4 years older than me lei.. haha.. :X haha.. his house really very big.. bigger than my house x 2.. haha.. and it was big and scary.. if no car,then very hard to get in.. haha.. as well as hard to get out..

when studying was super quiet.. very scary at times.. so i listened to my mp3.. haha.. fear of disturbing the others who wanted to concentrate.. haha.. then john asked us to help ourselves.. and weilun just treated it as if it was his house.. guess he had been there a few times i supposed.. haha.. took potato chips.. then never offer us.. so mei you feng du.. haha.. and even self service take drinks.. haha.. i quite paiseh coz i dunnoe him that well loh.. just drink plain water.. haha.. then keep running to the toilet coz i quite hungry.. but shy to say.. haha.. so drink quite a lot of water..hehe..

then at around 7+ 8,we watched jie da huan xi.. haha.. and guess what? i bumped my head on to the wall while laughing.. then i said something stupid.. i said,"how cum your house wall so hard one? (in chinese)" lame? yeah.. i thought so too after i said that.. haha.. anyway,john was laughin until he cried and the excuse he gave for crying was that he was too tired and we made him laugh so hard that his tears dropped.. haha.. opps.. my fault.. :X

then was pretty worried coz i was at the west side and i lived in the east.. and it is not very possible that i studied in school all the way till 8+ havent reached home mah.. where got study so long one? anyway,wanted to take taxi home.. but no cash..then was asking if taxi driver accept nets..haha.. and so in the end,john drove us out and they all sent me home first as i was rushing to get home..then very nice leh,even send me up (1st time got people send me up..normally only until lift there..) haha.. a bit paiseh.. and they ate pratas at block 201 there.. so at least dun feel so bad.. hehe.. hai~ can't join them.. if not should be quite fun.. hehe.. anyway,mum didnt scold..was pretty surprised.. thought she will scold me like dunnoe wad..=X

went to school yesterday..actual fact is to study.. but ended up not studying.. as usual..was pretty late.. planned to reach school at 9 but ended up staying at aljunied to wait for janice til 9... well,i was ok with waiting.. almost used it liao.. haha.. i didnt meant anything... haha.. =X

went to the library and we printed POB notes for chapter 6 as we realised that we missed that out.. so we printed.. and we are thinking if we should print the mishkins and eakins notes but was against that idea.. coz we had LOADS and LOADS of notes to be read.. still in the vending mode.. haha.. opps.. i am such a slacker.. then we went to the study bench to study abit of the notes we printed.. was super lethargic and sian after printing the notes.. haha... dunnoe why also.. then janice messaged alan and he asked us to go to his class.. dunnoe for wad reason.. and we did went there..we quite bo liao hoR??haha..

as my mum called to remind me that i had to leave early for tuition.. i totally forgot that i had tuition!!! haha.. i was damn forgetful.. the last time i forgot that chinese new year rehearsal.. haha.. and pang sey mr oh and ziqiang... opps... so we decided to go for the last half of the morning lesson and second half of the afternoon lesson.. haha.. later on,we went to our econs class and we listened to the lecture..

went for lunch.. ate the same thing again.. haha.. we always eat the same thing.. we ate the same thing everytime we went to the canteen,janice drank the soup while i ate the yu pian mee fen.. haha.. reminds me of a lame joke,why is yu jiao hua? haha.. coz yu pian [cheated] mee fen.. was lame rite? ;P

anyway,headed back to the class for our lessons.. and we started to discuss the work.. with weilun.. haha.. ended up more like quarrelling then listening to lecture.. guess there wont be a next time so peace to the class!!! haha.. oh yah!!! weilun wore t-shirt and jeans!!! my first time seeing him wear that!!! haha..and he looked erm,pretty unproportional in that jeans.. maybe not used to it la.. just like his hair.. then he use his kou tou chan again "you bing ar?[jokingly] wo zuo shen mo ni duo jue de hao xiao.. wo jian tou fa ni ye xiao,wo chuan jeans ni ye xiao.. zhen de shi you bing.." janice agreed with what i said..haha.. haha.. always see him in basketball pants and t-shirt.. janice even said before the way he wear to school was like the way he wear for basketball training.. haha.. then he very aggitated coz what he wear to school was much more expensive than what he wore to trainings,especially the shirts.. so there is a BIG difference to him.. haha...

then i was bored.. so i wrote his name.. wang weilun ming yan.. ni men you bing ye.. haha.. then he was shocked.. eh,how you know how to write my name? haha.. sian.. he more forgetful than me.. he told me before loh.. haha.. then i said,i am very sure you dunnoe how to write mine.. and indeed.. he didnt.. hai~ he spelt my name as jocelyn.. common la.. so anyway,i dun care him le.. haha.. gotta rush for tuition.. hehe..

then he asked us if we made the payments for the examination fees.. haha.. his friend sending him tomorrow and so he wanted to ask us along.. but... i cant coz i wasnt going to school anyway[he asked to meet at clementi] and i had tuition at 3.30pm.. haha.. and i had planned to meet lena.. to buy shoes for the wedding dinner this saturday!!! hehe... so excited.. not to go to the wedding dinner but to get the shoes.. it will also be a new year shoes ba... wahaha.. and was super guilty that i promised simin at kailian's party that i would go for her 21st birthday party.. but ended up i got this wedding dinner with the distant relative.. wasn't at all pleased by it.. why clash? i wanna go simin's party!!!! but bo bian.. i have no choice.. my mum wont let me go for simin's party one loh.. since to her,birthday is every year but wedding is once in a lifetime.. though there are people with loads.. :X

hai~ so that ended my day.. was tired.. but luckily could sleep in tomorrow.. nitez!~

happy birthday to simin in advance!!!!! (on the 9th January)

went to study today at airport with lena,guirong and waiyue.. haha... managed to study some of POB.. with my MP3 stucked into my ears.. was trying very hard to concentrate.. but apparently graduately lose the momentum and was slacking.. was supposed to finish the 3 chapters on POB namely chapter 5,6 and 8.. but i skipped chapter 6 coz i dun have the notes.. haha.. guess what? i even super kiasu.. go and bring econs.. but didnt touch it at all.. then realised that what i tried to do yesterday was very weird.. thus, i give up.. shall not try anything funny.. haha.. then i realised that my econs i forgot all liao.. especially the one on excess demand and excess supply alr.. i am so dead.. in 2 months time i will be having my mock exams.. nervous.. hai~

ok,enough about studying.. haha.. anyway,yeah.. about yesterday.. haha..had lessons before the test.. was pretty erm, econs test rite? was able to do it la.. just that weilun saw my scripts then tried correcting me.. haha.. but lazy to change.. hehe.. was rather confused by the way the question was phrased.. "is the loan multiplier nothing but the inverse of the reserve ratio?" well,the loan multiplier is 1/reserve ratio - 1.. so issit nothing but the inverse of reserve ratio when there is the minus one there?or the -1 doesnt have the effect on the loan multiplier?

according to me..it is false as i think the - 1 have effect to the loan multplier and so in is not nothing but the inverse of the reserve ratio.. but according to weilun, the qns is asking about the relationship.. so it is true.. so in the end.. i think he is rite.. haha.. i am wrong.. =( coz chernyee also supported his view.. sad.. haha.. but i think the lecturer got say before.. so i am wrong.. hai~!!

waited for basketball time..studied outside weilun's stats 2 class.. haha.. managed to try to do the econs questions.. but in the end cant get it coz i made careless mistakes..haha... so i gave up coz i was unable to know which part i did wrongly.. then tried to read the POB notes.. yeah!!! managed to get something in.. though not much.. and got to revised a tiny weeny bit of econs..then xiaojia did something pretty bad to alan.. haha.. we always bully him liao.. opps.. haha.. anyway,he asked xiaojia to help him to refill water.. and guess what xiaojia did?

she went to add coffee and tea with milk together... we had this free flow [so called free flow] drinks during our breaks.. inclusive in our fees i guess.. haha.. then alan wasnt angry loh.. haha.. i guess, if it were me or jan i dunnoe what his reaction will be sia.. perhaps should try some days.. haha.. =X then somemore his bottle is those metal kind.. so imagine hot coffee and tea.. haha.. then he said la,his bottle he never add any thing else other than plain water.. so you think la,if you were in his shoes,will you be angry? but he not angry with xiaojia loh.. which i think it is quite good la.. if he angry sure very awkward one loh.. haha.. anyway,he not angry.. so good.. haha..

played bridge anyway.. haha.. and i did something stupid... i put the truimph card although my partner had put the truimph card and i knew she is my partner and dead.. i could have put other cards.. but that didn't cross my mind.. haha.. stupid me.. hai~

then went to basketball..hai~ i am a failure sia.. haha.. fell down like nobody's business.. haha.. 2X!!!!!! haha.. 1st time,i kay kiang go backwards.. then fell.. coz my shoes very slippery.. haha.. then the 2nd time,i tripped on janice.. haha.. then i fell to my left.. i think my left now all blue black le.. haha.. clumsy me.. haha..

anyway,we [hady,weilun janice and me] went to the bukit timah food centre to eat.. then hady's mee,minced meat noodles came first.. so he waited for us.. until like half an hour later.. think his mee become soggy already.. the rest of us ate the carrot cake there.. not bad.. quite nice.. only weilun dun find it nice.. haha.. i find it ok.. super comical leh.. the carrot cake only cost us like $1 each.. then he was like huh? coz he tot it costs $2.. then he said how cum $1 only.. i was like.. erm,$1 u also complain ar?? haha... joker sia..

then janice showed them the wedding photo she took for her company and said that she is married.. haha.. then weilun saw it said that it is not her bf loh.. then we started to create story.. saying that jan with that guy but that guy is homosexual.. haha.. so the guy leave her.. and hence she is now with lionel.. haha...

we almost succeeded in cheatin him...

but...

he asked.. how did you know him? via colleague's friend..

where did you work? in the wedding company..

she let the secret out of the bag liao.. haha.. bo bian.. let him know liao loh.. haha..

anyway,we waited for him to get on the bus... he could have accompanied us to our busstop loh.. but instead we waited for him to board the bus.. haha.. scare he kena raped.. haha.. =X anyway,we are pretty lame.. as usual.. teased him together with xiaojia.. haha.. then he super protective of himself.. haha.. he immediately defended himself.. haha.. which is not what alan will do.. haha.. anyway,in some way he quite similiar to me.. haha.. this sort of cases,i will also defend myself.. haha.. self-centered.. :X then also talked about some other super funny things.. dunnoe why we talked about xin lian xin.. then he mentioned about chen yi yun.. evelyn tan.. then we tot he said cheng yu.. haha.. then we even suaned him said wad cheng yu is 4 lettered one loh.. and guess wad? his pronounciation so bu zhun.. haha.. opps...

then while waiting for the bus, he asked us to guess the bus he taking.. erm.. 174!!! haha.. you guys can go stalked him liao.. haha... opps.. then i got it right.. but janice still guessing.. so i asked her to continue guessing loh.. i mean she is still thinking so might as well let her try to get it rite.. haha.. then he said i very er xin.. -.-''' anyway,probably i am.. haha.. but she managed to guess it as well!!! hehe.. where got er xin loh? let her guess wont die mah.. haha... not as if guess rite got prize to take.. or i am giving her hope or wad.. hai~ say i you bing,nvm,say i er xin? damn him.. haha.. :X

was pretty stony on the way back..body started to ache le.. feel so old.. hai~

probably a new year represent an older age.. meaning i am older.. hai~

Happy 21st birthday kailian!!!!(5th January) Hope you had enjoyed yourself!!!!!=)

a new blog for a new beginning..

love this blogskin.. hope you all also like.. the style is abit like lena's one.. haha..

but anyway,mine is nicer loh.. :P haha..

went to kailian's 21st birthday dinner at sengkang there.. i had fun there.. meet simin and got her a necklace.. quite nice.. i like.. haha.. then we reached there pretty early but apparently no one else had reached and so we went to a corridor there to sit and chat.. hehe.. mainly about life,school and moods.. haha.. i am the kind that show everything on my face and well, she doesn't.. she said we are born with it.. people are different anyway.. erm.. perhaps.. i have no idea.. but is it true that i can't change it then? i have no idea.. dun ask me..and well, since i know it is nothing good.. should i change then? perhaps.. will try this year.. at least minimise it.. lesser mood swings.. okok?? hehe

met up with the DMNs and huishan and connie.. so they formed the DMN +2.. haha.. anyway,had a fun time meeting them.. all had changed in one way or another.. seems like i am the one staying put.. haha.. as in thinking.. no maturity at all.. perhaps i do change but i am not reallie aware of it.. perhaps.. anyway,had fun there and they reallie surprised kailian with one of the board they made.. very nice.. very sweet of them.. and they even got her flower.. haha.. something that she wanted i guess.. haha.. nice.. happy celebration.. even went to ktv after that... but i can't.. curfews.. and will be pretty weird that i join in ba.. haha.. a pure DMN gathering.. haha.. hope kailian enjoyed herself.. that's the most important.. yeah.. happy 21st,kailian!!!!! =)

went to ktv today.. my first time going in year 2005 and perhaps no more until the end of my exams which are coming real soon.. getting real stressed up and pretty frustrated.. kena nagged by mum to study.. but just cant help it having the holiday mood.. anyway,will and must start studying tomorrow.. no matter what.. :P

ktv was not reallie high at all coz only got me and lena.. and we didnt sing tuo diao.. haha.. but the room was big.. very big.. like executive that type.. but no spot light.. and only 2 microphones.. too bad executive closed shop le.. if not we should be going there.. anyway, tampines kbox the service not reallie good.. but better than parkway one ba.. haha.. at least the microphone are working almost all the time.. keke..

lots of new songs.. like SHE tong kuai, hou niao and wo ai ni (lena and my favourite!!!) .. jolin's zhao pai dong zuo and liang jing ru's jie shou, mo li hua (my favourite), chun zhen and bie ren de tian chang di jiu.. also got ou de yang's songs as well as stefanie's songs-- ben,wo de ai and wo ye heng xiang ta (another of my favourite!!!).. quite alot of new songs.. like luo zhi xiang's lian ai da ren,xiao chou yu etc.. great and nice!!! haha... sang those SHE songs like 3-4 times!!! haha.. abit exaggerating ba.. haha.. :P

anyway,had a great time singing with lena.. but think she had a bad time listening to my singing.. haha.. too bad kaijing and the rest didn't join us.. then we paid around 8+ for the food and drink and singing!! pretty worth it ba.. but the sad thing was that it served curry chicken rice.. and that hurts my throat.. haha.. think i got flu and sorethroat together now.. oh man,i'm sick..=( sian...

perhaps this should be the last time i go to ktv before my examinations end in may.. which is like so far away.. but... there's a mock exams coming up.. won't be updating so often.. must go study le.. quite lagging behind, especially for POB.. hai~ study study study.. must psycho myself to study.. you guys too.. study hard.. =) that's our mission.. haha.. kk,time to go sleep.. for a fresher me tomorrow to study.. kambatte ne!!!!!!!!

happy new year to all!!!!!!!!! hope this year will be a fruitful year for all.. a new beginning and a new hope for all.. forget all the unhappy stuff in 2004 and cherish all that we can in 2005!!!!!!!!! haha..

recap of 2004:
-working at student care centre metta.. had a great time.. but there are downs as well especially with shaun who obviously doesnt treat me like a POs (programme officers,in case you are wondering..) there.. of course,i do get to keep in touch with some of the students there.. mainly the older one.. especially those with handphones.. however there are a few of which we already long lost contacts.. but never mind la.. they will always be part of my memory..

-meet diana's poly friends as well as her boyfriend.. managed to maintain a pretty good friendship with them.. which i was pretty surprised.. had fun with them without reallie feeling out of place at least for most of the time.. haha.. anyway,they are having their end of year BIG project.. this year.. and they will graduate.. and either join in the university course or starts to work and the guys will have to go NS.. hereby,i wish them here all the best in their projects as well as the future they are heading to!!!!

-disappointed that i didnt get accepted into a local uni.. sad loh.. who won't be sad.. i was disappointed.. but anyway,i guessed it is fate ba.. perhaps i would did much worse in the local uni and perhap achieve in other areas? who knows..

and that brings me to...

-SIM.. yeah.. met quite a number of friends there... people like sharon, janice and got to know xiaojia better.. as well as benedict, ethan, shou zi and beth.. got to know them as times flies.. joined basketball and got to make lots of friends.. emily, leny, alan, weilun, valentino (the president), alex,stella, lika, vivi,etc etc.. had a fun time playing basketball together...

perhaps all this are already planned for me.. my ups and downs breifly written here.. for details,read archives la.. haha.. but as if anyone will bother go read it.. haha..

to all, happy new year!!!!!!