it's waiyue's birthday today!!! happy birthday waiyue!!! (i mean belated coz by the time you read this entry,it would have been long past your birthday..haha...) hope you had a great day today coz i did and it wasn't even my birthday..wahaha.. not funny? ok so be it..

went to watch...




the incredibles..

with huixin and kaijing.. i was late again coz had to put money into bank.. hai~sian,everytime i gotta queue for a very long time one..sian.. hai~ anyway,i think i looked ah lian i guess.. haha.. jeans skirt,boots,somemore pink halter.. haha.. can imagine rite?i am like going to a pub..but at around 12pm?? haha.. anyway,managed to go in and watch the incredibles at CS..hmm.. nice show.. very funny.. just that i dun reallie like to watch with so many teenagers you see.. they are so very noisy..aRGh.. but luckily i see rather in front so at least not very affected by them.. wahaha.. nice show overall.. at least meet my expectation.. more like watching a cartoon rather than a movie.. but anyway,$6.50 well spent.. hehe.. yeah~~perfect show..must go watch.. it would have been much better if jack jack is more involved in the attacking of the bad guy then the show would be FANTASTIC!!! wahaha.. i love jack jack.. wahaha.. told you i've got paedophile.. :P

anyway,it is a great show that can't be missed.. full of amazement..nice great show.. that brings you joy and laughters.. =) you will become more happy after watching it.. wahaha.. like me now.. abit siao siao.. but i guess it gotta do with something else..wahaha..

then we went to join waiyue for her birthday celebration.. we are late, due to the show ending late as well as our things yet done at TM (huixin had to go and get the popular book which ended up with me still and i gotta pay my bills..) however, when we reached kembagang, the gangs didn't board the train because of one person la.. haha.. yeeling.. anyway,we finally met them at eunos.. wahaha.. and guess what? all of them were wearing BLACK.. except me and huixin who were wearing pink halter.. haha.. and i more extra even wore a white jacket ,ok so called jacket over it.. wahaha..

then we headed to KFC to eat.. coz me,diana and yeeling were pretty hungry.. ate the shaker popcorn.. haha.. very nice.. yumyum.. hehe.. then as usual,we went to gelare to eat again!!! haha.. only lena and diana bought,the rest of us sat there and do nothing.. nono, we took lots and lots of pictures.. got 15 lian pai.. haha.. anyway this is what we had at gelare that last us almost 1+ 2 hours.. hehe...


this is the picture of the ice-cream we ate at GELARE..nice?? hehe.. this is ordered by diana and lena,the nana-angels.. haha.. and me? the free-rider..wahaha.. very nice.. yumyum..
here are some of the pics we took at gelare..wahaha.. see if we are cute..wahaha..

the 3 of us who went to watch the incredibles..haha.. cute? we had ponytails.. i think it is pretty nice,dun you think so?

yeeling,diana and lena.. cute also rite??haha..
then we headed to meet maykuan who had her attachment and came down to meet us t plaza singapura..and hence we made our way to fish and co glass house..haha..


i like this one as well.. this is outside the fish and co.. nicely taken.. ps.do you notice that the 4 of us are frm tms 4/6??wahaha..
almost all of us ordered fish and chips,except diana who ordered some kind of pasta.. shared fish and chips woth lena.. on diet you see,the both of us..haha.. and here is a picture of our fish and chips..woh~~yumyum...


see,this is the poor fish that is being torn apart by....... i also dunnoe who..i think it is lena??haha..or rong?? *wonders*

waiyue,rong,maykuan (aRgh.. very long never see her already) and the nana angel (lena and diana..)

this is all of us who went to celebrate waiyue's birthday.. guirong, maykuan, yeeling, huixin, waiyue, kaijing, lena, diana, me.. did you spot 2 other people in the picture???
tada.. and that is our day out..was pretty tired by the end of it..but a great gathering after their examinations!! hehe.. enjoyable..nice.. great gatherings.. and loads of nice pictures taken.. as we are all so pretty.. wahaha..okok,a bit bhb??bleah.. :P weweeet~~haha..

been going home late for the past 2 days.. opps.. hehe.. anyway,think i pretty much enjoyed myself for the past 2 days.. although there are certain times that i will stone and start thinking about some pretty unhappy things.. hard to think of happy things when you are alone.. especially when u are alone.. i hate the loneliness kind of feeling.. wahaha.. anyway who doesn't???

anyway, went to parkway today.. together with lena,kaijing and huixin.. actually was planning to meet eileen one.. but i think she is not feeling well so couldn't make it.. so end up the few of us.. anyway,had ajinsan for lunch.. spent quite a lump-sum of money.. almost burn a huge hole in my pocket!!!! anyway,my pocket is already burnt.. wahaha..so it is like no BIG deal.. actuallie i dun think i have any.. but anyway,i guess they are interested in weeloon..hmm..perhaps some day should get him to take pic with me..wahaha.. then i show you guys.. he reallie quite shuai la..haha quite a lot i think shuai one,but xiaojia they all only find him shuai.. haha.. ok,only xiaojia.. haha.. also took quite a number of pictures.. haha

here are some...


this is me,holding the flower given by aijisan.. we asked for it by the way,or rather i asked for it... wahaha.. funny.. no,it's not supposed to be funny...


deep blue sea.. breathe in and out to breathe in the sea air.. is there such a thing??????


lena,huixin and kaijing,each holding a flower.. wahaha..nice? 3 duo hua..


this is then call yi shu zao,diana.. haha,, just kidding.. must take picture of the nature and not take pictures of building.. which is so boring.. zzZZzzZZzz


can u spot the parrot??? (eh,actually dun try to spot..coz i took a different tree.. wahaha..)


tada~ the parrot...


walking on the beach.. nice sand,nice sun.. what else can we expect?? hai~~to bad no shuai ge.. haha.. if only each of our dream guys are here.. hmm.. that will be great sia~~!!!


scary?we sat there and realised that there are cockroaches running about.. which is worse?


the nice nice dark dark mysterious fountain of wealth in east coast.. drop a coin in and santa will give u wad u want for xmas.. but beware,dun anyhow drop other things in,just in case the police catch u for littering...


doraemon~~~~ see my head is not as big as doraemon ok??so stop calling me doraemon..(this is to weitowe.. as if he does read my blog) wahaha..

haha.. can see right?we reallie bo liao.. took so many pictures.. also went to the toilet at parkway there.. and as the shops are closed already..and it is pretty late already so i think the toilets lights are off.. and we got no choice but to use the dark eerie toilet.. haha.. luckily we were pretty fast.. at least not so scared.. haha..also talked about some things which are rather confidential..and since it is confidential,i shall not say it here.. wahaha..

yup,yesterday went to basketball practice.. hmm,the president wasnt here.. and we are pretty organised anyway.. haha.. played as per normal...was pretty slack.. and played with the guys la.. as usual,i played badly.. couldnt catch some of the balls the guys threw.. hmm,quite expected la..wahaha... got hit by the ball somemore and almost twisted my leg..wahaha.. but didnt la.. hurt my little toe.. sob sob..

then went to the restaurant and had our dinner..hmm.. got a pretty cute waiter there..wahaha.. anyway,yeah,there playing jay's songs..while simin they all watching jay's concert..hai~ no money to get the tickets to watch him.. hai~~ never mind la.. save now, and perhaps watch next year ba..wahaha.. simin must wait for me woh~~!!!!! haha.. hmm,had a great dinner.. haha.. nice meal together with some of the basketball players who i seldom mixed around with,especially the guys.. so i guess,it is a good interaction among the members??haha.. yeah.. enjoyed it pretty much.. and oh yeah,i saw the guy!!the one of TV.. xing ang i think the one who hosted wo men zheng nian qing.. yeah,the 6-7 years ago show..wahaha.. i still remembered it is aired on channel 8,every sunday 10 am.. haha.. so in the end,left around 10+ and reached home around 12 midnight.. haha..

hai~~went back home late for the past 2 days..got some naggings.. but at least better than none,if none,i guess something is very wrong..haha..

got this from waiyue's blog who got it from may's blog..

2 You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you. You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know. Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere. You connect with people who are charming and charismatic.

What number are you?

i guess i reallie did lose myself yesterday.. i dunnoe how...i dunnoe why.. dun bother asking me.. i have no clues myself.. haha.. i just sort of let my emotions get the better of me..

and here is waiyue with her famous words.. wahaha..this is a chat in the MSN.. see we are so serious that nobody else dare to interrupt.. i guess my business is reallie their business.. and i know they are concerned for me.. i am touched..

*W a I y U e: u shd reali have confidence in urself - tt makes u really attractive u noe?
*W a I y U e: think abt wad u're good at
Jocelin: wats there to be confident of?
Jocelin: and wad am i good at?
*W a I y U e: u're smart
Jocelin: smarT?
Jocelin: oh pls
Jocelin: there are many so many out there smarter than me dunnoe by how many zillion times
*W a I y U e: u're kind n carin n u see da wonderful things in all of us
u're real - u're hu u are
*W a I y U e: not a hypocrite
Jocelin: i am fake
Jocelin: i wish i ma
*W a I y U e: dun piss me off ok?
Jocelin: yeah
Jocelin: tt's perhaps 1 good thing u said abt me
Jocelin: haah
Jocelin: piss u off
Jocelin: haha
*W a I y U e: haha
*W a I y U e: do u noe how hard it is to be lame?
*W a I y U e: it means u're pretty smart to crap such jokes
Jocelin: yeah
*W a I y U e: n really entertaining
Jocelin: tt's why i nvr suceed to be a lame joker
*W a I y U e: u already did

i cried at this point.. i dunnoe why.. i just broke down when i read what she said..i guess it is probably because i think she reallie means it.. at least that is what i guess..

waiyue: wad's da pt in comparing urself to other pple? we are all different.. ur weakness may be their strength.. but you have have stuff that they dont possess, for all you noe, they may be jealous of you.
waiyue: we only see the glam and happy side of others but choose to ignore that it takes them lotsa effort before we can see their 30 seconds of glory.. do they not feel inferior when they meet obstacles? the difference btw them and us is that they acknowledge it
waiyue: conquer their weaknesses and believe in themselves. what makes you think you cant do tt?
waiyue: haha.. now my turn to flood ur chatterbox.. better shuttup

this is what dearest waiyue left in my chatterbox..hmm,she makes sense.. but the thing is that we are always comparing and are compared to other people aren't we? the expectation is there.. i am sure when i became your friend,you certainly have a certain expectation of me? and perhaps in some way,i didn't meet your criteria.. perhaps i am not as good as you guys said me to be..

eiLeeN: joce...everyone has their own flaws. so shd work & develop on your gd traits more ya? ppl say u guai guai at least better than ppl say i look like ah lian ritez? hur hur...thou i'm not! haha...

eileen,anyone who said that you are ah lian is an insult to you.. and even if you are one,you are the prettiest ah lian in the world.. wahaha..

Jocelin: huh?nth la.. haha..
pl--jocelin: good. laugh is gd for ur health
Jocelin: huh?laugh good for health??@.@
pl--jocelin: coz i think u hav been thinking and going ard in circles too much liao. time to slow down look at other things, pal.

this is taken from spl's blog.. i dunnoe if he does often reads my blog.. but the way he replied it seems he did,though he didnt bother to say anything in my chatterbox.. perhaps he is right, i should slow down and enjoy the slow pace of life and not rush into everything.. i need to fan xing fan xing..

lena: hey wy, well said!!! i actuallie don't understand y joc has low self-esteem... everyone has his or her own weakness.. so y let ta weakness cover all ta strength tt u haf?
lena: n don't sae tt u haf no strength n only weaknesses in urself, joc... seems like u r psychoing urself tt u haf no good pts...
lena: u only live once u noe, so tink positively, wake up every morning n tink of all ur strength...
diana: precisely.. joc.. wad makes u tink we can be frens wif ya after so many yrs n stuff? wad makes u tink i wanna be frens wif u after all the conflicts we used to have?
diana: it's bcos of the strength in u... so stop lookin down on urself.. of cos all of us r not perfect.. i'm not perfect either.. no one's perfect in this world but tt doesnt mean u r a loser or wad.. [did i say that i was a loser?perhaps i did meant it..]
rong: think about this quote Jocelin..:"We ask ourselves ' who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous'. Actually, who are you NOT to be?"
waiyue: *clap clap* first time see lena write in such profound and inspiring terms.. joce.. see wad you can do to her?! haha..
diana: haha.. c joc.. u can bring out the deepest potential of lena.. someone who's beyond hope... opps! mwahaha :p

muahaha.. didn't know i can cause lena to write such inspiring things..this is from waiyue's chatterbox by the way.. woh~ i guess i had done a great job there huh? funny lena didnt leave anything in my blog.. haha.. anyway, i guess all were rite? but as i had said before,what do people look for? weaknesses.. and i have loads of it.. haha.. and there are some serious psychological problems within me that i can't handle.. as to the question why i have low self-esteem,erm,you dun ask me.. i have no idea.. perhaps i have faced something that change me.. my confidence level and my self-esteem level.. perhaps if you guys face it,the results will be the same.. i dunnoe.. haha.. anyway,perhaps the first step i can start with will be wad diana said "stop looking down on yourself" perhaps i can do just that..

hmm..think i will do that..

this is from waiyue's blog..

jocelin seems to be pretty depressed.. or at least i think so..
funny why she feels inferior. [why not???]
i mean, i've always looked up to her in many aspects..
i remember the first time i met her.. haha.. she flashed her pearly whites.. and her cheeks were rosy red.. so sweet looking.. well, she still is sweet looking.. dont you think so?
she taught me a lot of stuff.. i suppose over the years i've learnt to be a little braver.. i mean. i'm really grateful that she's here for me all these years.. despite what others think of me. i think that's why we all love her.. she's really patient, and really listens to us.. and somehow, everything seems a lot easier when she's around..
funny how she never sees these in herself.
there's no point in us telling you how wonderful you are. it's for you to find out.
because we do, and you will believe in you.

lena: hey joc, u sld reallie stop saying tt u haf low self-esteem, coz u r actuallie psychoing urself... so stop tinkin tt u r unwanted or wad... i'm oso unattached... so wad?? sometimes it's better to b single too... am i rite?

lena,think you are deceiving yourself too right??haha.. bei wo chai chuan le ba? anyway,i dun think i am psychoing myself la.. studies have proven that i actually have a lower self-esteem compared to normal people.. perhaps there is no cure for this.. hmmm...

and erm, i think i was in the same mood when i was alone in the LT for stats.. guess something paranoid gets into my mind.. he didnt mean it i guess.. and perhaps i was stressed leading life with 2 beauty queens in my clique.. janice and xiaojia.. haha.. he went to xiaojia class to study stats and happily chatting with her.. hai~~ xiaojia pretty mah.. haha.. and when he knew that he was in my stats class,he was like so erm,unhappy(? or did i think too much??)

got a message from janice.. then i started my paranoid thinking again.. she didnt mean it.. actually i knew it.. but just cant help being paranoid back to her.. told her how i reallie feel and blabber all my thoughts and feelings to her.. guess she must have shown xiaojia as well as xiaojia also messaged me.. some quotes from them.. not word for word,coz i kay kiang go and delete the msg le.. wahaha..

xiaojia:ger,i told you before that i also undergo wad you feel rite?we will sure help you out one..

xiaojia:everyone has gone into the deep pit before,it is just that the timing is different..

xiaojia:if you feel like crying,then cry.. you will feel better after crying out... i will lend you my shoulders after school,broad enough but mayb not tall enough..

xiaojia:janice says she keeps a diary of all her past events,i wanna let you noe that you are not the only one facing this problem..

janice:i used to feel so lousy about myself that i deceived myself that everyone other than me is lousy..haha..

i am touched man.. thank you,janice and xiaojia.. especially janice,she reallie tried to cheer me up.. and she even tried to create some lame lame jokes to make me laugh.. but anyway,she is always lame.. haha..

haha.. meet something interesting.. while waiting for xiaojia they all,weiloon came to talk to me.. ask me why i act ji mo? (hmm,ji mo can act one meh? i tot i was acting you yu.. haha..) didnt know ji mo can be acted one.. haha.. then he asked me dun be sad la.. at least i have good close friends in SIM and he although has a lot of friends,but dun have any close friends.. even worse,more ji mo.. haha.. funny guy loh.. haha...then got to know another guy who is in my IR class.. davien i think..haha..

was feeling much better now.. at least i guess i must be fortunate enough to know that there are lots and lots of friends out there who are concerned about me.. and yesh,yeeling,though you dun read my blog,i am shocked you are able to sense that i am not reallie ok on MSN... pei fu pei fu.. haha.. and yeah,lots of thank to all who had helped me in one way or another..

i am not over the crisis yet.. but will try to pull myself out of the dark hole which i got myself sucked into.. believe me,i will try to get over it soon.. with the help of you guys.. =)

here i am again.. yeah.. i am slacking away when there is a test tml.. cool huh? wahaha.. that's me.. do i look like i am a hardworking girl who will spend all her time studying,mugging,studying mugging like mad? you want me to be like that?? dream on.. wahaha..

hmm.. i am bored.. that's why i am blogging.. i hate to mug.. it makes me wanna fall asleep.. haha..but i am supposed to study.. hai~~ why can't i dun have those superb memory where i can just remember everything i have seen???? hmm, that will be great sia.. the BEST!!! haha...wonder if there is such a person in the world.. *starts wondering*

was almost late for IR if sharon had not send me to school... thanks sharon!!! had a pretty good time in the International Relations class... yeah,started crapping with the two guys who sat in front of us.. ethan and shu zhi (sorri i forgot his name.. opps.. haha..) crapped that their girlfriends are the xiao zhang (principal) and xiao gong (cleaner) when sharon mentioned that ben's girlfriend is a teacher.. haha.. so crappy sia.. shu zhi even asked us to go check the NYGH website to look for his girlfriend who according to him is supposed to be a 29 year-old lady whose name is tan something something.. i forgot.. wahaha... anyway,quite obvious is fake one loh.. haha.. perhaps we will have free lunch.. coz we said that if fake,then he has to pay for our lunch.. wahaha.. free lunch.. hmm,not bad.. haha.. but i think sure dun have one la.. haha.. where got so good?? perhaps he will say we naive,even go and check.. haha.. the truth is,i did go and check.. wahaha.. reallie stupid right?but i dun care.. bleah.. :P

haha.. was talking to diana they all on msn.. chatting about my character.. hmm,i always know that i have a bad temper and stuff.. haha.. low self-esteem,no confidence.. hyper sensitive and super mood swings.. hai~~ i am reallie that bad huh? eh,anything else you wanna add on?? haha.. just comment at the chatterbox la.. i think i will be able to take it,so just say loh.. yeah,i might cry for a few days and my eyes go swollen.. but if you sincerely want to help me,just do it!!(sounds familiar ar? think it is the slogan for NIKE shoes.. wahaha..) yeah,for my sake do it.. haha.. i wanna improve myself..

self-esteem.self-confidence.
anyone know how to improve on that? haha.. tend to look down on myself.. weird huh? and i am not confident in myself,be it looks or body language and stuff.. i guess i am that weird.. for people who dunnoe me or see me at first,they will think that i am a jovious confident girl,always with a big wide smile.. no no,you are all wrong!!! i am not like that.. at least now i am not.. i am a weirdo.. i have all kinds of weird thinkings in my mind.. and don't you dare doubt me.. haha.. kinda pervertic rite? i mean i am not wad i seem to be..and people always think i am the guai guai ger who always listen to mummy.. yeah,i am but i can be rebellious too.. hai~ just can't stand the guai guai image.. i dunnoe what i wanna be.. i am LOST!! i am not who i want to be.. there are times when i dun want such a thing to happen and yet,i go do it.. what the hell is wrong with me? my emotions are getting control of me... aint i suppose to be sensible?? why should i doubt the words of my friends when i know they are just kidding and dun mean it? how can i make fun of people at times and not let people make fun of me? bad huh?i think i am bad..

a change is wad i need..

change me..

yes,change me....

i reallie need it..

perhaps i need a psychiatrist more..

and the irony is that i once hope to be one..

and now,i need it...

i need a change..

ps. dun tell me that i am good in certain things coz i dun think i will believe.. furthermore there are sure many people out there that are much much better than me..

pps. dun lie to me.. i have low self-confidence and you might make it worse..

ppps.bear me the sweet talks coz i cant take it..

pppps.perhaps you should let me zi sheng zi mie ba..wo wu yao ke jiu le.. spare yourself the agony of getting pissed off by me....it's not worth it..

swimming.
yeah,finally went swimming today.. wahaha.. what a beautiful day!! hehe.. was late for almost an hour.. woh~this is the first time i am late for so long.. *guilty* anyway,actually this is not the first time i overslept.. haha.. the other time i remembered was when there is this chinese new year rehearsal and i overslept.. didnt go in the end, coz mr oh said that the hall was under renovation and we couldn't use the stage anyway... so i didnt turn up in the end.. today was late mainly because of the lack of sleep.. wahaha.. watched zhou ri 8 dian dang yesterday... wahaha.. anyway,lena didn't reallie blamed me.. and that was so nice of her.. she was soaked in the water for like 1 hour before i appeared.. haha.. and so qiao.. meet her at the toilet.. haha.. anyway,changed already then we got into the pool.. spent more time chatting rather than swimming.. but i like it that way...

Parkway KTV.
then we have the sudden urge to go sing KTV.. wahaha.. coz lena kept singing the kit chan song "ni ku".. wahaha.. then we reallie did went to the parkway KTV.. haha.. a last minute decision.. hmm.. i think the service had improved since i last went there,though the mike doesn't reallie like lena... hmm..dunno why also.. haha.. took some pictures though.. as usual.. haha.. sang quite a number of songs non stop.. and now i owe lena 10 bucks.. better remember to return her on waiyue's birthday.. wahaha.. sad right?i no money one.. wahaha.. anyway, yeah,it is only like 6 bucks and we had a great time.. so i guess it is worth the money.. wahaha.. yeah.. although lena think that the micrphone sux.. and the system not as good.. hmm, but nevertheless we had fun...

and we had a secret special guest who kept coming to "disturb" us..

and the special guest is...



tada~~ this boy passed by our room and was rather cute.. so we took a pic of him.. and i must say that he is super on to let a stranger (yes,that's us) to take his picture.. haha.. beautiful smile he has there.. hope we didnt give him any nightmare.. anyway,that's out of point.. haha.. but the sad thing was that we didnt even noe his name.. hai~~!!

then we headed to the mac at parkway there to study.. yeah,only me study.. wasn't reallie in the mood to.. so sian.. haha.. ended up reading abit of POB and some magazines and went to photocopy the International Relations notes done by sharon.. thanks sharon!! haha..yup yup and this are my favourite pictures we have taken today..


this is us at the macdonalds.. so bright so cheerful.. very nice right? haha..


this is the first picture we took.. my second favourite picture.. taken on bus number 31.. no more free shuttlebus to parkway parade on weekdays already.. =(

and my masterpiece...


this is the new mac.. at parkway.. pretty cool.. got the let people happy that kind of feeling.. i am loving it!!!!!

oh yah, forgot to say, went to cut hair yesterday with waiyue and lena... hmm.. noone can reallie see the difference in my haircut,not even my family.. haha...hmm,is that a good thing? i wonder.. hmm.. haha.. anyway,i think my hair is now lighter now,help to reduce weight.. and neater?? haha.. and i finally have some fringe.. and i guess i look ok ba.. haha.. just that my pimples are popping out.. hmm,think it is not enough water and sleep.. think waiyue had a much betetr new look.. haha.. though look like china doll.. :X opps.. haha.. but still very fresh look.. better than mine.. which is an old look.. stale already.. haha.. aiyah,dun think too much,better go sleep soon... dun want any more pimples to come out.. nonono...

save me!!!!

hai~ wanted to play basketball yesterday and yet it rained.. wanted to go swimming today and yet it rained.. what the heck man? why is it that the rain hates me so much and don't want me to exercise? or is it being good to me as in it doesnt want me to be too tired after exercising too much.. wahaha...

basketball.
anyway, did ended up playing basketball.. yeah, but xiaojia and sinlay insisted to go home after it rained heavily.. we went to the creative ware house fair, where sinlay got herself the new ZEN and i got a new optical mouse which caused me 15 bucks.. haha... as it had rained very heavily,they argued that even if the rain had stopped, floor is still wet.. hard to play.. hai~! then we ended up on train.. then was already on the way home liao.. but.. janice (with lionel,they went to watch movie--shutters) messaged me about emily is going,the rest reached already and she wants to go.. so i joined them loh.. dropped at cityhall to wait for janice who is shopping at there with lionel after the movie.. haha.. waited quite long la.. wahaha.. but i dun mind.. the thought of playing basketball makes me excited.. though the rain did dampened my mood.. and in turn affect the others, though i tried hard not to show it.. hehe.. anyway, still got to play mah.. and janice was also in a jovious mood.. so the both of us were there.. hehe.. with some other girls, actually 5 more girls.. 3 of which i know one, the other 2 i not so sure of their name... anyway,i think they are not my cliques ba.. haha.. not reallie friendly.. i think i am also not very friendly to them.. :P haha..

wasn't in the mood to play.. haha.. wanted to talk more than play.. more of socialising than playing.. but anyway,chatted about the movie janice watched.. shutters.. quite scary as it may sound.. some part could be guessed though.. wahaha.. then after that we played abit of basketball full court with the guys.. and we (me and janice) ended up standing in the middle.. haha.. we are not running.. coz we know that if we run, we sure lose one mah.. haha.. and no point also.. too many people already...

i like sylvester but i support taufik.
haha.. so ended up sitting down and talk to emily.. hehe.. then at 8.30pm, we listened to the results of the singapore idol.. wahaha.. sylvester got in man.. can believe it.. was quite sad when i heard olinda sang her last song.. though i am not watching.. coz listening to fm 89.3, TV mobile, can feel that she is actually very brave and continue to sing as usual and not show her dismay and sadness.. wahaha.. good attitude man.. way to go.. hai~i am sure now alot of people are feeling strongly against sylvester coz his performances reallie sux on thursday and yet he got in when everyone else thought he would be out.. hai~ i rather him out leh.. dunnoe what to say sia.. i like him.. but.. i support taufik.. i love his singing.. so nice..

so i guess if i have to make a choice if i were to vote..

it would be.....

TAUFIK..

bleah lena,though i know you dun like him and think that his actions are sissy.. i support him anyway and i think he sings much better than olinda in my point of view.. so he rulez... yeah.. anyway, erm,i do hope he emerges as the winner.. hmm.. possible? nah, hard to say.. you see,i thought sylvester will be out but.. he got in and even kicked olinda out.. ouch.. yeah, so his fan club base is pretty HUGE.. haha.. didnt know that there is that many ah-lians and ah-bengs voting for him.. haha.. ok,i am not saying all who vote for him are ah-lians and ah-bengs.. it is just a quote from what ken said..(either ken or florence,i forgot) and i think it is quite sad la.. coz he is like selling his smile rather than his voice, in singapore idol which is a so-called singing competition.. hai~~

enough about singapore idol.. we will know the results on the 1st of december(??) sorrie i am not very sure about that.. bleah..

anyway, me and janice was pretty gao xiao coz we are like listening to the FM radio via her handphone and then playing basketball,trying to shoot, chase after the ball etc.. wahaha.. so funny loh.. haha.. walk together like joined babies... haha.. didn't regret turning back and going to the court to play basketball though i am like half-way home already.. haha.. then we started to play with the guys half-court, with a smaller group.. and it is more fun.. haha.. and there are rules for the guys where by they are not allowed to shoot close to the net.. so fun.. and i guess it is one of the fun times i ever had..

but got some 遗憾..(regrets) haha.. shan't say what it is.. wahaha... let u all guess.. :P

hmm,then today didnt go swimming.. instead went to the creative warehouse sale with lena again.. wahaha.. she got herself a Muvo Micro and got her brother the Muvo TX.. haha..hers cost 209 coz it is 218 MB and her bro's one cost 109 coz it is 256MB without radio.. haha.. met waiyue at suntec to go eat marche.. haha.. i broke le.. sobsob.. anyway,had fish and chip (oh man, i ate too much sour cream..think all the fats coming back to me.. :'( ) and 3 cakes,2 chocolates (we are chocolate freak..wahaha..) and a strawberry cheese cake.. hehe.. i think i gained 2kg le..ok,i exaggerated.. wahaha..anyway, went to her house after we left suntec..took bus 14.. haha.. was like 2 mad person on the bus.. and what do girls do?? gossip la.. wahaha.. girls mah.. hehe.. all conversation are to be kept secret.. so can't say much here.. just that we have plans on both monday and tuesday already.. wahaha.. going swimming on tuesday.. pray hard it wont rain in the morning.. pray hard.. then on monday, i think i am going to get a new hairstyle.. wahaha.. looking forward to it.. i very long never cut hair le.. haha... hmm,what hairstyle should i get?? haha.. i think i will just cut a little bit fringe and perhaps trim a bit.. wahaha.. played with lena's computer.. chatted with yeeling with the webcam.. haha.. helped her solve her blog pictures problem.. hmm,weird i dunnoe why she got errors when assessing to hello.. weird..help her with her new MP3 and also got some songs from her.. wahaha..then headed back as it was pretty late alr.. wahaha.. watched the kong fu zu qiu.. (kong fu soccer) haha.. very nice..

hai~saturday very sian.. sunday also.. i rather be out everyday.. but bus fares are killing me.. burning a BIG hole in my pocket.. save me.. i am dying to get out of here!!!

was super crazy about the song mo li hua.. eespecially like this part.. perhaps it brought me some unhappy memories.. perhaps.. it is touching.. go listen ok? it is by fish leong..

你说我真好 比谁都好 有适合的人要帮我介绍
如果我真的那么好 你为什么不要 为什么不要?

ps. i change my blogskin.. nice nice? waiyue,you can change the size of your fonts one by clicking on view then click on text size change it to large...sure very clear and big one..wahaha.. any comments??haha.. do leave a note woh..:)

caught in between.
alot of time when i am caught in between, especially between two different groups of friends.. with different things they are doing and different opinions and stuff.. then like yesterday, i am so stuck between janice and sharon... janice came early to school to study for her econs test, i also got la.. but anyway,it is during break time and i am supposed to go find janice.. but sharon wanted me to accompany her.. then when i sort of left her alone when janice came and look for me.. then i wanted to like accmpany janice.. but i think sharon also wanted me to be with her.. hmm, the feeling of eing stuck between 2 friends ain't easy.. the feeling is like either slicing the front or the back of your palm (translated from the chinese idoim 手心是肉，手背也是肉) hai~~

then today i am stuck in between again.. xiaojia, sinlay and me boarded bus number 8 and xiaojia and sinlay are heading 2 different ways which both can be linked to the way i am going.. who should i go with them? who should i accompany then? perhaps this might sound foolish to be thinking of all these things.. but sometimes, i just can't help feeling 委屈being stuck in this kind of situation.. :'

and sometimes it is like someone else already asked me out, then later on, another person ask me out again on the same day.. it is like oh man, what to do? i wanna be out with both but sometimes it seems so impossible.. i can't 分身.. sometimes i just wish i could.. so i can enjoy myself with both of my friends.. hehe.. greedy huh? that's me.. then gotta make tough decision and reject one of the friends.. like so bad..hai~~

singapore idol.
i love taufik's singing man.. make me feel so hard for him.. when he sings those happy songs,i felt happy and jovious.. when he sing the sad song.. i felt like crying.. oh man.. i am so touched.. wahaha... see his song can create a huge movement in my mood.. haha.. but i also like sylvester.. but i think phantom of the opera should be the end of his career in singapore idol.. dun think he can continue staying in.. if he did, i guess there is a miracle.. perhaps, all the ah bengs and ah lians supports him.. haha.. heard that he has a huge group of die-hard fans.. wahaha.. i like him too.. he got the attitude.. yoz.. yeah man.. wahaha.. cool sia.. dun reallie like olinda coz of her attitude.. wahaha.. but her voice powerful.. like ella one.. probably even better than ella.. wahaha.. okok,i kidding.. ella best ok?? haha.. is it possible that none of them get kick out?? hai~~ seems like mission impossible.. hai~~ byebye sylvester.. i will miss you.. byebye~~! i love ur an jing.. though i prefer jay's version.. hehe... take care and all the best to your future.. byebye~~

got this from diana's blog who got it from may's blog who perhaps got it from someone else... hehe..

You're the party animal!!
You push
through school for one reason only.. The party
at the end of the week!! Well, at least you
still study, but when the weekened comes, you
push aside those books, whip out your (fake) ID
and party the night away. You party animal,
grrowl!!
Which Stereotypical Singaporean Student Are You?brought to you by Quizilla

hmm, quite true i guess.. i get through school for the enjoyment of the after-school events.. wahaha.. in fact,i think i go to school to make friends.. haha.. but SIM,nah, can't make friends anymore.. wahaha.. coz no tutorial,hence no interaction.. somemore no need to do projects also.. at least the projects doesn't count into examination.. wahaha..

went to the airport today to study again.. wah,the airport like super packed loh.. we actually went to the canteen to study one (wah.. the canteen hor,very ulu leh.. coz i dunnoe why mah.. haha.. ) then the canteen was rather humid, so we headed to the poyeye to study... the mash potato very nice.. hehe.. and still got poyeye the cartoon airing.. hehe.. so ke ai.. anyway,guess who i went with? the DMN club.. haha.. no lah, only got winnie and xiaojia and xiaojia's friend huishan, xiaojia asked me to go one,coz she wants to aske me some econs questions.. haha.. anyway, it is better for me to go out and study mah.. coz at home, got 3 BIG distraction..

1. Computer.
2. Television programmes.
3. Bed.

these three are the MAIN distractions that kept me away from mugging.. haha.. so go out study is good and when you dunnoe something can ask around.. hehe.. but going out to study also very ma fan.. in case you never bring certain things, you are so dead.. and there are not many places where you can study in peace.. even the library doesn't allow us to study there anymore, hence i still think TPJC library is the BEST!! condusive environment to study.. just that i am not a TPJCian anymore.. sad.. :(

yeah~~going to study again tomorrow.. at the airport..woohoo~~ study study mug mug..

boohoo~~ren wo ao you ending soon.. no more 9 o'clock show le.. :(

what exactly is inner beauty?
the thing about inner beauty is not visible (hence inner) and it is not easily discovered.. haha.. so how to judge a person by inner beauty? how you know if that person has inner beauty when you dun even noe him or her? furthermore, what is the definition of inner beauty? character? being strong? confidence? kindness? courage? caringness? charity? helpfulness? persistence? what exactly is it? all of the above? or none of the above? i am confused by the term inner beauty.. how to judge? perhaps when you are being persistent, people may find you stubborn.. when you are kind and helpful to someone, others may find you kay-po (busybody) etc.. or worst still,they think that you are more a burdence than help... so what exactly is inner beauty? and who says inner beauty doesn't change? when you meet something that totally change your perception, your inner beauty change.. for example, when you faced something that totally destroyed your life, then you find that life is no longer as meaningful anymore, no point having those inner beauty.. haha.. my perception,i maybe wrong.. haha... so do forgive me if i have the wrong perception of inner beauty.. i need someone to enlighten me...

lena.
had a telephone chat last night with lena.. was shocked when i got her message about going out together.. hmm, why am i surprised?? i guess it gotta do with our common trend of going out in a big group, the taR-Los and not just ask me alone ba.. i thought she had some problems in school or exams or what.. was pretty worried about her, then call her home she was not at home.. didn't call her hp coz i think she didn't have any free incoming.. haha.. so messaged her.. then she was talking to diana.. a bit weird hor?? haha.. anyway, she called me at around 12 midnight.. haha.. nothing was wrong la.. just that she miss me too much.. haha.. no la,she just wanted to chat and we made a date on saturday to go out and study.. haha.. i bo pian, all my tests coming soon le.. so we go airport,kk?? hehe.. then we go there study.. can go to the popeye there to eat, seems like the food there pretty nice.. but quite ex as well around 6 bucks, so lena,on aR? you read your magazines, i study my POB.. haha.. see i so hardworking.. wahaha..

anyway, this girl ar, aiyoh, so sensitive one.. haha.. in my last entry,i mentioned about going to the airport to study.. but i didn't mention about her joining us in sakae sushi after her exams.. then she became so paranoid (this is so similiar to me..haha..) and asked me if i hated her.. haha.. of course not la.. then she mentioned about my previous entry on the 26th oct about the childhood one.. she asked me i dun have good friends meh?then what is she to me.. haha...

got this from diana's website.. quite true at some parts, quite fake at some parts.. wahaha.. erm, i think the only true part is that i have imaginary friends.. cool huh? i guess i dun reallie have a great childhood.. but nothing that bad either.. neither here or there.. have the stuck in between that kind of feeling.. no good friends, nor best friends.. just a mixture of friends.. the person whom i treated as my best friend didn't actually treated me the same.. and that left me a scar.. i will never forget the times she betrayed me.. ok,not really betray la.. but just the sabo part.. *shivers* since then, i hate being saboed.. i mean it is ok to be sabo for like fun, but letting me carrying the black pot (erm,translate to chinese.. ) i hate it.. and it is not only once.. it is more than once.. ok, i had enough.. hai~ the past.. i guess everyone had a past.. but i noe that mine is not a reallie good one for me to think back of.. especially in my primary school days.. almost horrendous.. lots of competitions and stuff.. *stressed

friends.
i guess after reading this entry, alot of people asked me, you dun have good friends meh? then lena,waiyue,guirong,diana they all are what? huixin and kaijing leh? how about eileen,joanna,simin they all leh?then still got xiaojia and janice leh? actually i also long forgot the meaning of close friends, good friends and best friends.. what is the difference? is close friends one who is always close to your heart? one who can keep secret for you no matter what? how about best friends? are they able to read minds and understand what you are thinking?

hmm, i believed that at different stage we will meet different kind of friends.. this kind of thing is hard to say.. sometimes, there are some people, i dun tell them my feelings about guys one... some i can share a great deal about what kind of guys i like.. some i can chat like siao.. haha.. non-stop one.. for more than an hour or so.. some i can only talk to them online, mainly because we seldom hang out.. there are some even weird one only on msn we can chat like siao, when we meet each others, we are speechless.. weird huh? then there are some online we dun chat, we chat like mad when we see each other.. some even weirder, only chat on sms.. haha.. weird huh? weird.. and there are some worst one.. dun keep in contact at all.. but when meet each other, can talk as if we meet each other everyday.. haha.. funny loh.. hmm, still got some even more funny,just know only then we like become super shou.. haha..

i guess sometimes time is not the measurement of friendship.. right? it got something to do with the feelings and perhaps the kind of encounters you guys meet together.. that will create a common topic to chat about.. and perhaps.. that will lead us to become closer friends.. sometimes after a quarrel or disagreement, we are able to cherish each other better.. perhaps.. guess it got to do with some fate huh? without fate we might just pass by each others like many other strangers and not know each other.. i believe in fate.. i believe in miracle (though i have never seen it happened right in front of me..

Basketball.
aiyah, next week onwards, basketball will be training already,perhaps guided by our president,valentino.. we are going to compete i guess.. haha.. i am not sure about the details yet.. but it is going to be a 5 vs 5 kind of thing.. no replacement,nothing.. haha.. and i cant even get in a free throw.. :( no strength to get in.. see how lousy i am.. haha.. at least i have the interest.. :P hehe.. anyway, i had the interest because of someone, that is true.. but gradually i realised that i actually like it more after reading slamdunk... i even influenced my brother also get addicted to playing basketball.. hehe.. and he is even a better player than me.. expected la.. guys mah.. if they are reallie keen on certain things, they will most certainly do well for it.. wonder why..perhaps when they are reallie keen they put their heart into it..

Online Games.
been addicted to too many online games lately.. starting to behave more like a guy rather than a girl.. i am more interested in games and more games rather than those girl girl things like knitting? eh, then i think i also more tomboyish since young.. haha.. i dun like hop-scotch,neither do i like zero point.. preferred one-leg.. and catchin.. haha.. weird huh? hmm, so now let me intro you guys so fun games.. haha.. :P online one,some might required so downloads.. click the links to go see see and play.. hehe..

runescape :an online role playing game quite fun.. no need to download much things.. hehe.. in fact no need to download anything.. gotta do quests and stuff..fighting etc.. quite fun on the whole.. also learn different skills such as mining and cooking.. cool rite?

maplestory :another online role playing game.. if you like mario, then you will like this graphics and game.. hehe.. but i dun quite like it.. but anyway,it is very ke ai.. cute ne.. kawaii.. need to download the program..

kalonline:this is the game i am very addicted to now.. it is some sort similiar to diablo, whereby you choose to be either a knight, magician or shooter to play the game.. then you can fight to earn things to sell and complete quests..

raycrash :this game is the game that made my brother pretty addicted during his exams period.. haha.. this is about you controlling a machine to fight.. pretty meaningless to me.. coz i am a slow coach and hence often lost.. no quest,nothing.. just the fun and thrill of getting hit and hitting others..

gunbound :this is one of the game that i know many people are playing.. at least those i know.. haha.. and also one of the game many wondered what is so fun about it.. i guess the thrill is when you hit another person using some sort of stunts and stupid ways.. hehe.. i guess that's the thrill of gunbound.. haha.. seldom play anymore.. wahaha..

tada~these are some of the games that i found interesting.. go try them and get addicted!! :P hehe... better do it after your exams..hehe

at airport.
yesterday we went to the airport to study.. actually was supposed to meet waiyue they all at tanah merah middle platform (yeah, go ahead think of us banging into walls.. at the 9 and 3 quarter platform.. haha.. a harry potter joke, dun laugh if it is not funny..) at 8 am... guess what?????i woke up at 8.15 when waiyue called me at my home.. and i didnt pick up the phone, and she called my hp again.. and i answered and told them not to wait for me.. wahaha... this is the first time, i needed some morning call while all time, i am the one giving xiaojia morning call.. haha.. imagine how tired i had been on sunday.. wahaha..

anyway, i managed to reach there at around 9.30am.. amazing huh? and jac was there.. together with waiyue and guirong.. a bit awkward at first.. haha.. coz i didn't know jac then.. haha.. only when lunch time then crap quite a lot.. haha.. he is actually a funny person.. then lena joined us for lunch.. haha.. he always made fun of her.. haha.. wonder why.. hmm... when asked him his details,he everything also ask me to guess.. like a ger... wahaha.. just kidding.. hehe.. and then somemore,i super deaf one.. whatever he said i can't reallie get it.. got some super lame cum cold joke.. haha.. that makes me diao dunnoe how many times.. wahaha.. anyway, he was the one who said that i have the potential to be a lame joker.. well done.. haha.. all thanks to chinteck and S13.. keke..

econs.
managed to study some of my econs.. yeah~~ i know the trick le.. think everyone also know.. wahaha.. but scared later i dun understand the questions then cannot do.. then i can go jump down the building le.. hai~~ who ask me to have such a lousy english power??!! haha.. those that only got a B- for an essay.. how bad can my english be??haha.. actually quite a number of us got that grade, i am indirectly shooting them.. wahaha.. coz we all never reallie go and do project one so the results.. expected la.. never fail good enough le.. wahaha..(*note: people with low expectation is like this one.. dun expect too much from them..)

haha.. then xiaojia came after her econs lesson to ask me some questions about econs.. hmm, luckily i was able to help her.. but not jac and waiyue.. haha.. they too pro le.. like living in another world.. study with them quite ok,but when they start to ask me questions.. i began to feel super stressed.. and some of these things should be something that i am supposed to know.. and yet like very embarassing to ask what it actually means.. wahaha..

TPJC.
today also went to study.. guess where we go to?? yeah,we headed back to TPJC to study woh.. quite bo liao hor? but we did.. wahaha.. miss the school too much le.. then saw mr chow.. haha.. didn't dare to talk to him.. coz we were wearing PE attire cum sch skirt.. yeah,i go and wear the green color PE attire.. then as usual kena suan by someone.. haha.. shall not mention the name.. :P but he should noe who he is.. opps.. have i let the cat out of the bag?wahaha.. ok la, anyway, i didn't scold him loh.. :P yeah, lame again..no wonder i have the potential to be a lame joker.. wahaha.. saw weitowe (they had maths paper today) then called him, but he didnt hear.. so i messaged him good luck and he replied.. haha.. hope to see him soon in class gathering.. yeah~~i wanna go class gathering.. so looking forward to it.. anyway, we (me and waiyue) met jac for lunch at mos burger.. hmm,quite some time never eat mos burger le.. keke.. and i ate my usual way.. wahaha..[u wanna noe what it is? treat me to mos burger and you will know.. :P haha..] then we headed back to school to study.. super out of place coz most of them were wearing full school uniform.. hmm,miss the school so much.. went to one of the classroom to study.. B204,if i am not wrong,it used to be one of our physics class.. in J1.. haha.. then can imagine all our seating arrangement.. haha.. so gao xiao.. hehe.. bring back some memories.. haha..

dont know what to write already.. my chatterbox super li hai now.. a forum to dicuss about love.. hmm, can't said much.. not qualified to say anything either... haha.. wait till i experience all the sweet,sour,bitter and spiciness of love then i tell you guys.. wahaha,you all gotta wait pretty long wor~~!!

*before you read this entry, please right click and go to encoding.. change it to encoding unicode. thank you for your cooperation.. and i am very sorry if you are not chinese-educated.. anyway, it is only a minor part of this entry so heh.. haha.. read on!!=) *

woh.. i am shocked.. it is just a few days offline, aka not going online, there is a WW3 in my bloggie.. haha.. i welcomed it.. as long as i am not reallie involved..hmm, how does mr urghh!! find my blog from?? that's amazing.. haha.. the use of search engine.. powerful.. li hai li hai... and somemore i find him very gao xiao and erm,thanks for your advice.. haha.. seems like he is someone i know.. hmm....*starts to wonder*

凡到過 必留下痕迹

i think i like use the wrong word already.. but anyway, who cares??just felt so "pro" having chinese words in my blog.. haha.. it is not easy job ok? i need to get help from people one leh.. coz i dun have the 漢神 program in my comp.. and hence i gotta seek help from a 高人 who introduced me to this online chinese dictionary.. and the 高人 is..... *drumroll please* Horng Jiunn!!! hee.. thanks Horng Jiunn~!!! but dun think he will be reading this anyway..so it doesn't matter does it? but anyway, just wanna show my appreciation la.. to prove that i am not the 忘恩负义 kind of person..(*note:the last statement is the main point.. haha.. kidding la,wanna thank hj again..)

education level matters?
would u all really mind the education level of ur significant other??

first i would like to define what is the meaning of significant other..is it just boyfriend/girlfriend?? or is it husband and wife? it does reallie make a difference i guess.. haha.. i mean for husband and life,you gotta make ends meet.. and of course with that, the both of you gotta have the same frequency.. at least be able to accomodate to (qian jiu) one another.. and that is going to last you for the second half of your life.. so would you mind then?? haha..

yesh i would.. (realistic point of view)
why? coz without high education level, only then can he get good jobs, leading to good salary.. haha.. i am such a money face.. and i think when the education level is different, there might have miscommunication between us..imagine a person who have a primary school cert and you a uni cert, of course the kind of life you all lead will be totally different and it will be tough for them to accomodate to each other.. furthermore there is a likelihood that we will be holding jobs, won't it be embarassing for him if he got a job which has a salary lower than mine? there is sure bound to be rumours and stuff one rite? (applicable to girls..)

no i won't.. (unrealistic and dreamy point of view)
as long as i am with the guy/ger i like, nothing is a problem to me as long as we are truly in love with each other.. haha.. [this is a bit unrealistic coz i believe that love does one day fade off.. sad huh? by then being together will only become something like a habit.. "i am too used to have you around and you feel the same way too so why not just continue and remain as we are now?" it became a habit, so addicted that we can't live without each other yesh, literally can't.. anyway, i am out of point le..] i also guess that as long as the guy is motivated enough to work and not slack around as if he is some son of a billionaire, i guess it is ok.. he don't need to have all the Cs--- credit cards(NTUC card can liao..haha..), condominium (but must at least got HDB flat to stay in mah, can't expect us to live in the streets right?), car (nah,EZ link card is enough already), cash (this is pretty important though.. but just require cash for us to pass our day is enough,no need to buy whatever things..haha..) and career (no need to be a BIG boss or wad la.. haha.. as long as he earns an income, it is fine..haha..) eh, that is provided that the guy is someone who likes me alot and i like him alot.. otherwise,i guess it is not very possible la.. haha.. oh man, i think i am going to create another world war.. wahaha.. (*note:if you dun understand my humor,you are forgiven)

*important note:this is not all my perception ok? it is just the view of the majority.. which i assume you all will have these thoughts.. oh man, i like writng a draft for GP essay.. wahaha.. and i guess this is a lousy draft so to all taking GP paper, this is a bad example of an essay outline without good
conclusion..please donot follow.. haha

what should the 5 Cs guys should have??
care?concern?confidence?charm?charisma?character?eh..erm,just tell me la, on my chatterbox, what you all think are the 5 Cs guys should have.. wahaha.. and perhaps you all can come out with your own.. wahaha..so fun..

enough about all these sickening stuff.. let's talk about....

my life... (if you find my life boring,it's time you change page..haha..)

this is my blog so i write what i wanna write..

and this reminds me of guirong's question: aren't you alll afraid that if there are times when you are furious with that someone (esp. if that person is erm, ur boss, teacher, principal or something..high above you) and you used your blog to scold him/her.. and kena found out by him/her.. (*starts to wonder how does he/she find out about my blog??????) what would you do.. haha.. to prevent this kind of incident,i guess it is better never to write the name of the person you are scolding, never specify the person whom you are scolding and perhaps the reason should not be exposed too.. and that includes no shortform--best to use just pronouns..haha.. in this case, it is harder for the person to sue you.. wahaha.. and if he reallie does mistreat you, it is likely that the someone is paranoid,like me..wahaha.. coz there is no evidence that we are talking about him/her..wahaha..

eh, i digressed again..oh man.. anyway, yesterday was a slack day for me...stayed at home the whole day watched tv, then went to my grandma's house... been quite some time since i last went there... think the last time i went there was like during erm one month ago?? haha.. and thinking back when i was young in my kindergarten years, i was always there.. and very seldom at home.. if you wanna find me you gotta go to my grandma's house.. but that is the past la.. sad hor??? also chatted on msn until almost 凌晨3點鐘 (張智成 sing one..very nice..haha..) eh, and i also dunno do wad la.. just chatted till so late.. wahaha..

then today,celebrated felix's birthday.. spent quite a lump-sum of money.. er,but i think i also enjoyed myself..:) saw elson and maureen together.. hmm.. haha.. shall not make any comments here,in case kena sued.. wahaha.. went to kbox.. we went to the 8th floor Kbox at the cineleisure..then when we got the bill then we realised that it was the executive.. -.-''' so we ended up paying quite a lump-sum.. haha.. lump-sum coz it is a fixed cost..not a variable cost.. i think i studied econs until i abit siao siao le... haha... we sang for almost 7 hours.. actually, slightly less than that la.. but anyway, the point is we broke our previous record!!! haha.. erm,yeah~~! haha.. so happy... eh,ok la..wahaha...then went to cartel to eat dinner and saw aeron there!!! so qiao.. haha... very long never see him already.. haha.. should be doing fine in NS ba.. wahaha.. reached home around 11+ and as usual kena scolded coz went out for quite some time already.. they are worried for me, despite calling me around 2-3 times at night (last time was worst.. so bad that i wished that there is no such thing as handphone in the world..ok,i am bad.. :P ) hai~~ i should actually appreciate it la.. at least they didn't shout or what.. just worried..thanks for worrying!! (wahaha..ain't i evil??)

tired already... better go and slp liao...haha..zZZzZZ

pictures for today please click me!!!

*Important note: this is another long entry..hehe..read at your own pace..hehe..*

basketball.
yeah more people are joining us.. yippee and soon we will have more girls to join us.. woohoo~~now 13 girls in all, what an unlucky number.. but anyway, had fun today.. we had the mixed team and the guys arent supposed to shoot within the red box.. haha.. very tiring but very fun.. hehe.. perhaps next week we should go there earlier.. :D but then quite a few casualties in the game..guess we all are too violent.. haha..

i am feeling what my face tells you.
yeah.. dunno why, i wanted to be enthu and yet i can't... was back to my moody mood again on my bus journey to the basketball court.. apparently, the expression on my face and my silence told them (janice and xiaojia) i am troubled by something.. and indeed, i guess i was.. i didn't know what i saw affected me that much.. haha.. and also what i heard affected me that much.. but anyway, dun care la.. i should be concentrating on my studies now, and not think of those foolish things...

aRGh.
missed ren wo ao you again,too engrossed in the game already... very sad.. luckily, i managed to watch the last 10-15 mins of the show.. :( then the coach (yan xing shu) was injured.. aRgh... so sad.. wonder if the coach will do that to all his students? or is he going to do that for jing wen only? coz i think he also likes jing wen..haha.. so issit done as a friend??or as someone he likes?

haha.. nice question?

i guess many times, we would wonder and would want to ask, especially girls, ask their boyfriends if this happens to me, would you blah blah blah?? or would you blah blah blah?? and i guess some guys feared their girlfriends to ask them these questions..haha..

1. who will you save if your mum and i fell into the river? [this is super lao tao 1..haha..]

2. who is more prettier? me or your ex?? if no ex,then point at a girl and ask..[normally she thinks that the girl is prettier than she is..haha..]

3. why you like me? [this is not a trick question,just be honest la..haha..]

sorry, mind is in a mess now.. cant reallie think properly.. anyway, these are not the questions i have ever asked anyone.. haha.. it is from the tv series..opps, i think too much again.. :P aiyah, just be honest la.. even though some may hurt the feelings of the girls.. haha.. then dun say la.. wahaha.. hehe..

Commercial.
eh, i like the hair pantene commercial.. the one when the girl freaked out when she saw hair on the car of her boyfriend.. haha.. and then, the boyfriend didn't say anything but just show her her hand which she just combed her hair.. haha.. and the girl smiled to herself.. haha.. so sweet loh.. i mean sometimes there are some guys who would rebutt back.. and lead to a fierce quarrels.. haha.. then the second time, she asked whose hairpin issit? haha.. then the guy pull down her pin from her hair.. haha.. i think that is also very sweet.. this means that he is actually aware of what she is wearing, even the slightest thing such as the pin.. so xi xin.. haha..

is there any more singapore guys who is as great as the guy in the commercial? so xi xin? so calm when answering her questions?? so sweet... *staring into empty air dreamingly*

*snapped* *wake up from dreams* hai~~back to reality..about life..

Life.
if you guys have realised,i no longer talk much about my life about school nowadays.. perhaps there are still some descriptions but not as much,not as detailed.. haha.. i have changed!!! but i am not sure if it is a good thing.. used to be able to write a whole lot of things that happened to me in the past.. but now... i doubt so.. studying in uni is that no life??!! i am surprised.. since young, our aims are to be able to go to the uni.. ok, not since young, perhaps since the day i stepped into tampines jc.. then wad happened?

i couldn't get into NTU, NUS and SMU.. i can't study in a uni...

then guess what?????

SIM.
i ended up in SIM...guess it right?? part of me is sad.. coz most of my friends are in NTU and thus leaving me alone in SIM,only to be with a small group of friends,janice and xiaojia, who have become my khakis in SIM.. haha.. we are always forever together..if you saw janice, you will find xiaojia and of which you will find me.. haha.. but together with them also quite stressed.. haha.. got a lot of guys looking at them.. haha.. then they dun realise one leh.. only i realise.. sian.. haha.. i too sensitive le.. then can see them looking over like what lo.. some even stared... -_-''' haha.. she pretty also no need to stare one right?? haha.. anyway,was getting used to that, even though i am pretty envious.. haha.. perhaps i should start being unlazy and start applying make-up and stuff to make myself mei mei.. haha.. this is an advice from someone.. but the prob is,i dun think i look any different in make-up or no make-up.. wahaha.. i am just as ugly.. bleah..

was pretty relieved that i was in SIM also because that my workload isn't as heavy as those studying in NTU, just the mention of the subject and stuff,they made me feel like studying in a local uni is HELL.. haha.. anyway, i also got to know more friends in SIM,via lectures as well as basketball.. hehe.. but the only sad thing is that i dun have a specific class and hence more difficult to know more people.. no tutorial.. very hard to get to know another person better.. haha.. hai~!

who say it is easy to find a boyfriend in uni?
haha.. i noe some of you wanna bash me up le..haha.. did you go uni to study or to look for future husbands?? haha.. anyway, most of the guys are already attached.. haha.. so who say can find one?? haha.. you all are liars.. haha.. just let me vent my anger.. keke.. and i will be fine ok?? hehe..

perhaps some day i will be able to find.....

the dear him who is waiting for me...

perhaps....

since when am i so optimistic?? haha..

i dunnoe..

but i believe... don't you???

ps.*note the change in mood..haha..coz written on diff days..hehe.. but nothing good happened la..haha..

my earphone spoilt le.. apparently, i was too violent to make it spoil.. sob sob.. but still can listen la.. just one side (the left side) no sound.. wahaha.. can imagine how bad it is.. it is less than a year old leh.. and now i am seeking for new earphone.. any to intro?? haha.. if got just leave a msg in my chatterbox or sms me.. wahaha.. i need it.. a lot.. help me... wahaha

lame again.
had been super duper lame today.. guess what we did.. haha.. cant imagine rite? i smsed almost throughout my statistics class (oh man, it is so different from the statistics we learnt in JC..though there are bits and pieces here and there)to talk to janice and xiaojia (who are in the boring accounting and finance class,almost dozing off to sleep.. wonder how i survive when i am in that class alone next year??) about a guy.. haha.. funny hor? he actually came to my class one.. i think he had the same stats class as me, but my class full le.. so he left (think he wanted to crash my class..haha..) then xiaojia invented tales saying that he went to crash her class and was sitting beside her and even self-intro himself to her.. wahaha.. then she said that my reaction not big,not fun to tease one.. haha... then during break i said to her wah, xiaojia,when you tell me you sit with him, i dun wanna reply you one leh..(coz angry mah.. she sit beside him leh..) haha.. then like very bad if dun replie so i replie her sms loh,but all replies are very short.. coz i jealous.. wahaha.. then xiaojia said i am like the yiling in ren wo ao you.. haha.. perhaps due to some common characteristics, that i tried to defend her in my previous entry.. (apparently,i failed badly in defending her and myself...wahaha.. )and all of us had a great laugh about it.. haha.. suddenly spotted so many shuai ge in SIM.. haha.. just cant help staring at them more.. wahaha.. i think i sound like a female color wolf.. haha.. guys, beware.. hehe..

ren wo ao you part II.
haha.. ok,got some people rebutted me about that yiling's incident,about how vicious she was, and i pushed all the blame to the guys.. haha.. actually, this is only an example.. relax guys.. haha.. it is my point of view on tuesday.. (that day,jiajun is still wishy-washy about his feelings to her..) now she is too bad already, i am not going to help her anymore,aint gonna defend her coz she is not me now..wahaha.. she is too OVER already,unlike me.. even made use of jiajun's mum to get things to her advantage.. anyway, what i said on tuesday is supposed to serve as a warning that people are very capable of misunderstanding and most importantly, they wanted to believe in what they want to believe in and not the truth that is just right in front of them.. i dunnoe why,but i am sure alot of people at times will be in a state whereby they refused to believe that the fact is right in front of you and would continue to live in denial right?? ok,at least i had experienced that before.. it is hell i tell you.. best to avoid it coz when you wake up from your nightmare,there are tonnes to handle.. so... better try to accept the fact and just let time heals all wounds..but i have no guarantee that time will heal it all... there may be a scar.. but it serves as a reminder that you had accepted the fact and are brave to face it.. again this is my point of view.. argue with me if you disagreed or what loh.. haha.. leave note in my chatterbox.. :P

most guys are only attracted to pretty girls..
this is my nick on msn..that caused a lot of my male friends to argue with me.. haha i think i am right ok?? most of the guys are.. admit it, guys.. bleah.. haha.. would you rather choose xu chun mei or fiona xie?? assumption: given the condition that they both had the same height,weight,figure,characteristics and voice etc.. haha.. only the looks on the face different.. who would you prefer??the one with exaggerating make-up and yet doen't look pretty at all?? (oh no,i am like talking about myself...sobsob...) or pretty girl fiona xie who looks great in make-up/no make-up?? of course most will choose the latter.. no.. i am sure almost all will choose the latter.. and that is given the assumption that they are the same throughout.. this is a test,a hypothesis.. (*note: sorrie i am in a economics-cum-banking-cum-statistics mode hence all the assumptions and test..) wahaha.. too much studies lead to the crazy me now.. haha.. anyway, back to the topic.. i am not trying to say that i know guys very well.. but there is a reason for what i said right?? haha..

Qns: why would any guy wants to be friend with janice and not me and not sinlay when we are together with her?? and even wanted to get her handphone number?? (*important note: dun let lionel find out...)
Ans: she is pretty.. isn't that obvious??

haha.. see guys are interested only in pretty girls.. eh, so do girls la.. we only look at cute guys.. hehe.. but that doesnt mean we are only interested in them.. but looks does matter la.. of course, with the looks then people will start to take notice and then tried to find out more about the girls' characters, that's why they said characters matter too.. ok, i am not getting my point here.. the point is, first impression is very important.. if you are pretty, good for you,you have an advantage.. if you are not pretty, have more confidence in yourself.. but if you are not pretty and have no confidence in yourself just like me,haha.. i have nothing to say, coz i also dunnoe the way to curb it.. wait till i find a way to solve the problem then i tell you guys ok?? wahaha.. think you all gotta wait pretty long.. haha.. but i think only i have that problem,so who the heck am i talking to??

my negative thoughts are taking over me.. and soon i will be so paranoid that every guy who likes me have an ulterior motive.. haha.. hope that day doesn't come.. wahaha... if not.. haha, i think i will go bonkers.. wahaha... but as if any guys will be interested in the plain old me.. wahaha..

got this from waiyue's bloggie who got this from may's bloggie who got it from....haha...ok,i am being lame here.. :P haha... very sian now.. nothing to do.. no, should be got something to do, but refuse to do.. ok,let me complete this quiz then i go and do my work,okok??hehe

Your score is 28/50 what does that mean?

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

What is yours?
quiz by midgetfarm.com

About your score...
The closer to fifty that the number is, the stronger your personality is.
The closer to zero that the number is, the weaker your personality.
The best scores to have are between 25 and 40.

*warning: this is a super long entry. read at your own risk*

the more you want something,the harder you get it.
this is from shu hui's nick.. haha.. scared it is copy-righted.. so must mention her name.. haha.. what is it that she couldn't get that makes her had her nick as that?? well her studies.. i am sure many times,this thought will appear in our mind.. why is it that i achieved/studied so much for it and yet i didn't get the returns/results to be what i expected??? is it true that the higher the risks/payment you put, the higher the returns??? are our returns always worth the effort we put in??? actually, sad to say, no.. very sian rite? then why the hell are we working so hard?? for the fulfillment? nah.. i doubt anyone can learn to enjoy studying.. that is only when there is no exams that we would enjoyed.. it is the thrist for knowledge that then we would have enjoyed.. ok,i dun even noe what i am saying now.. just that the more you want it, the further it will get away from you.. hai~~ whateva.. i dun bother to go and argue anymore,coz i am sure no matter what i said there is bound to be some one who disagree with me.. bleah.. but that is a good thing.. it actually means that there are people reading my blog.. wahaha.. i will never get what i wanted and all i got is something that i dun wan.. sad life..

ren wo ao you.
i am pretty sure many who are watching this show will say that yi ling (xiao qiao) is very jian to snatch jiajun (toro) from kai xin (fiona).. and did so many vicious things to kaixin (haha..she is a combi of kaijing and huixin..wahaha..) she didn't meant to.. she just wanted to get things that she wants.. but yet the harder she tries, the harder she gets to her aim.. i have a few questions to ask you guys.. perhaps you may disagree.. (but i am trying to defend her.. haha.. as well as myself.. wahaha)

qns: who is the one that caused her to act this way?
ans: jiajun. coz she is too in love with him le.. ok,wrong.. she fell too hard for him already..

qns: why is she acting this way?
ans: jiajun. she wants jiajun to be with him.. *put yourself into her shoes before cursing her* (*note: i might react the same way if i were in her shoes..wahaha..i am giving you guys a warning first )

qns: for whom is she behaving in this manner?
ans: jiajun. yeah and she wanted him too badly that caused her to do all these things to her best friend.. (*note: come to think of it, i might not do these to my best friends.. haha.. but perhaps to those who are not my best friends who snatch the one i like, beware..*evil laugh* anyway,i doubt i even have the courage to do what she did...wahaha...)

so you all can get the hint?

it is all you guys fault..jiajun never told her that he didnt like her in the first place.. and furthermore,he gives her the wrong impression by kissing her on the cheek on her birthday (though he is being saboed) and being so extra concerned when she is sick..(the massage thing) the point is: if you dun like a girl, dun be too super duper nice to her..she might misunderstand..explain it to her.. she will sure understand one.. haha.. but that is only applicable before she falls deep for you..

another thing..she is too popular (i wonder if she did it all for herself one..haha.. oh man i am so bad..) and so she thinks that all guys like her.. furthermore,she gets jealous easily even though jiajun doesnt belong to her,but she had this mentality that they are for each other because of the actions jiajun did.. and i supposed that is the weak point of many people,yesh and guys, that includes you too.. bleah.. argue with me if u disagree.. =P and that caused her to did all the stupid acts that she thought would make jiajun dislike kaixin but she never did thought of the serious consequences.. she thought that by doing so, she will have the chance to be closer to jiajun.. it is her thoughts and emotions that is conquering her.. furthermore, she had the mentality that love is more important and will go all the way to get it.. (*note: i also have such mentality..but no worries,i am not that over...wahaha.. and i doubt i even have the mei li (charm) to get it..*sad* at least i am not as pretty/popular as she is...)

lame.
haha..i am getting lamer by the day.. hehe.. bo pian.. with janice and xiaojia, sure become lame one.. haha.. i think i am in fact the joker of the three of us.. haha.. anyway, yah,we all agreed that there was this shuai ge... haha.. i think all of you cant stand me le rite?? everyday must talk about him and yet not disclose his name.. haha.. okok, i shall tell you his name, coz i doubt he would ever read this.. hehe..

so......

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his name is........

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haha... i am trying to lengthen my stuff...mai guan zi...(*note:i think i am also being a bit (ok, alot) lame here...bleah..)

weeloon..

yeah,finally,haha.. so yesterday as we went to crash econs class as we are very very very confused about the previous lesson.. [*note: i had it on friday.. ok,i am confused not because the lecturer was no good.. but because i am in the same class as him.. hahaha.. so was pretty much distracted and was also busy sms-ing xiaojia who happily sat in the train to jurong east when she was already late for class... anyway, hers doesn't matter coz it is maths.. and i think she couldnt care less also.. bleah.. we are so bad to our maths teachers.. hai~~ anyway, he wasnt sitting beside me but near me, couldnt imagine what will happen if he is sitting beside me, i would have been busy looking at him instead of listening to class.. wahaha.. that's what janice said.. bleah.. :P i wont la.. class more important... yeah,if i still cant catch up in class, i can go crash the saturday class alr..but it would be a waste of $$$---coz of transport fees..] ok,back to yesterday... he also crashed the econs lessons with us.. argh~~and he talked to me.. wahaha..

ok, so here is a brief idea what happened that he talked to me.. one of his friends smsed me to get janice's number, so i didnt give him la and didnt even reply him coz deleted his number alr.. anyway,janice attached le.. you guys, better dun tell lionel.. he will be damn jealous sia.. anyway, yah, so he asked me why i so dao never replied him (his friend)? haha.. why would i bother to reply someone who i dun even noe how he look like... and one more thing, he also never reply me when i asked him to,right?? haha.. so i am doing the same thing to his friend.. wahaha.. dun wanna waste my sms also... hehe.. haha.. so happy we actually talked.. was grinning all the way i guess (ok,i am exaggerating) but at least for the second time i went to the lecture,i finally got what i didnt understand.. yeah~~ goodie... hehe i sound like a kid.. bleah..

my expression tells my feelings.
good? or not good? some said it is good.. coz they will know what i feel, which is not very true.. haha.. but at least they know when i am angry or not very happy.. haha.. not good, coz i showed everything i felt.. which means that i am actually throwing a temper according to them.. so i gotta control, be happy so that i smile and keep all the sadness,anger, jealousy and pain within myself.. just keep it to myself and not show it to anyone else... some even feared me for what i felt.. i must have looked very horrible when i was angry or sad.. haha.. er ge once said that i wasn't cheerful enough.. haha... that's why i didn't attract any guys..haha..

perhaps.......

perhaps...

perhaps

but how to be cheerful when there are no cheerful things around me happening?? the huang na's death in singapore.. the terrorist attack all over the world.. the taiwan issue.. etc.. hai~~ and all the good things arent happening around me.. i am sad.. so what is the point of keeping a cheerful smile plastered on my face?? for what purposes??? no point, no point... hai~~ i think i wont attract any guys.. so i think i am going to be a lao chu nu (old virgin) all my life.. sianz.. haha.. all alone in this big big world of love..