happy birthday to wenning.. hope you had enjoyed your birthday and kambatte in your studies..:)

basketball session.
expected la,only 8 girls turned up for the basketball session yesterday.. quite expected.. but i think most of us had performed rather well as compared to last week.. perhaps last week we were stressed by the SRJC basketball team.. hai~ anyway, the 2 of them had decided to quit (i guess) and hai~ what can we do? only 8 people not even enough to form a team.. actually can la.. 5 main players 3 reserves.. haha.. but hai~~ dunnoe if there is going to be a coach anyway.. and if there is a coach, we are going to pay for the coach... damn,and i wonder how much it costs for 1 coach.. and i guess priority will be given to the guys.. aRgh.. i want a basketball jersey.. haha.. that is like so cool.. but anyway, i am out of the topic.. so erm,yah, hope that next week we at least maintain the same number of people around..haha.. if not better.. perhaps we should start recruiting female basketballers again...wahaha..

no more tuition.
like xiaojia, my tuition end this week coz they started exams le.. yipee.. will start again in december?? and my last math lesson is also today.. woohoo~~hence no more,yesh, no more saturday classes unless i decided to clash janice their econs class, which i think i would very likely go and clash.. to get a better understanding of the econs.. cant afford to fail in the final year.. aiming to get a first class (which is 70 and above) for maths and stats.. kambatte ne.. haha.. then for IR just hope to get at least a 50% pass.. haha.. i must admit that i am not very good at it.. for econs and POB (principles of banking), i hope to get at least a 2nd class honours.. hehe.. which is around 60 and above.. wahaha.. think i will be dreaming on if i dun buck up.. hehe.. better go do some work after this.. hehe

Novels.
"Be Published
Graham has got some great tips, tricks, and template hacks for Blogging Your Novel in the second part of our novel-writing challenge. NaNoWriMo participant or not—they're good stuff. – Biz [10/26/2004 01:16:12 PM]"

saw this on the frontpage of the blogger main page..pretty interesting.. you guys wanna novel? then perhaps we can all access to it and help to create story with each other us writing an episode and i am sure with our different thinking, we will surprise our readers.. wahaha..

Online comics.
i wonder how they do the online comics.. i especially like the drawing of the slackers.. hehe and the guy like very shuai..wahaha.. and also exploitation.. a bit sensored.. but.. haha.. it is quite funny.. humorous.. better than my cold humor.. (perhaps jay should write something about cold humor for me..wahaha..okok,there it goes again..bleah..=P ) then i also became quite keened in doing comics.. did a few on my maths lecture (realised that i only did it on my maths lecture notes??haha.. the teacher was far too boring.. and i think i am also getting abit too complacent for maths.. better go do some past year exams papers..hehe..) but... it is not as nice.. hai~ i think i dun have the tian fen to do comics.. but guess i am fortunate enough to read them and at least appreciate them.. wahaha... oh yah,i had them linked already to my webbie.. but i think the new adventures of bobbin is down.. :(

Low self confidence.
haha.. when you see this title, i am sure you guys are going to say that walau jocelin, you nothing wrong wad, got some (*note: only some..) good points and not very ugly mah (*note again: not very ugly==>quite ugly haha..) why dun have confidence in yourself?? haha.. hmm,i think i am very paranoid.. haha.. perhaps you all dun see it (coz i didnt say) or you all know it but didnt think that way.. haha.. xiaojia once told me that she also had very low confidence at one time.. haha.. didnt reallie believe her.. then she said that it is US who thinks that she is pretty.. but she doesnt feel the same.. so she is not confident of herself.. haha.. perhaps..i guess there are many times when we are not even sure of ourselves that made us lose our confidence..

woman in love are the prettiest.
first,in case you are wondering.. haha.. i am not NOT in love yet okok?? must clarify.. coz people see this title will think wah~how come that jocelin ar,attached already never tell us??zhong se qing you..haha.. anyway,woman in love are the prettiest..why is it so?i guess it had something to do with confidence.. they have the assurance of the other half.. and hence more confident.. and thus prettier.. i must learn to be confident to be pretty.. i am pretty!!! (ok,i am deceiving myself.. yeah~~!but i think i succeeded..being paranoid again.. wahaha) must psycho me ok??i am pretty.. even if you disagree.. :P bleah..

ps.i did something to my blog..is it better now?haha..spot the difference..:P

many are quiting the basketball club and this is only the 2nd session (i won't say training as we dun even have a coach..) sian.. now i wonder if the club is too disorganised? perhaps.. but the thing is that we don't even know each other.. it is only via SMS and perhaps some phone calls.. hai~~ left dunnoe how many now.. wonder how many will turn up today.. hai~~

got this from diana's website.. quite true at some parts, quite fake at some parts.. wahaha.. erm, i think the only true part is that i have imaginary friends.. cool huh? i guess i dun reallie have a great childhood.. but nothing that bad either.. neither here or there.. have the stuck in between that kind of feeling.. no good friends, nor best friends.. just a mixture of friends.. the person whom i treated as my best friend didn't actually treated me the same.. and that left me a scar.. i will never forget the times she betrayed me.. ok,not really betray la.. but just the sabo part.. *shivers* since then, i hate being saboed.. i mean it is ok to be sabo for like fun, but letting me carrying the black pot (erm,translate to chinese.. ) i hate it.. and it is not only once.. it is more than once.. ok, i had enough.. hai~ the past.. i guess everyone had a past.. but i noe that mine is not a reallie good one for me to think back of.. especially in my primary school days.. almost horrendous.. lots of competitions and stuff.. *stressed*

anyway,this is my result...


Quiet Girl

What kind of little girl were YOU?

meeting.
went to aljunied yesterday to meet janice to go to orchard to have our basketball meeting.. wahaha.. hehe.. what a place to have meeting huh? :P anyway,yeah, meet them there around 1.15pm and we went to have our lunch there.. mainly talked about the balls we are going to get and stuff.. where to get pointer balls?? or what other basketballs you guys recommend?? we also discussed about the type of balls we wanted, the amount we are going to collect per month which is $5 per month for the booking of the court, whether we wanted a coach or not,etc.. haha.. can't expect me to write all the things here right? anyway, our training will be on friday at the old NIE sports hall there, somewhere near SMU, but dun have to go so in to the school there.. haha.. and probably i will be missing my 9 oclock show, the Champion again this week, if i don't leave before 7.45pm.. hai~ but no choice committee members can't leave so early... :( haha

shopping.
went to takashimaya at kinokuniya.. aka yoshinoya (kailin's joke) ok, anyway for those of you who dun understand, it is just an inside joke whereby my dear friend kailin mixed up the two names.. hehe.. so we are going to yoshinoya to see books and kinokuniya to eat.. okok,anyway, the bookshop was so big that i almost lost my way with janice.. and we also explored those liquid clay shop.. very nice.. haha.. learnt quite a lot of things there.. and janice was reallie into these sorts of things la.. i am more into the glass one.. yeah,because of the social worker thingy that make me into this sort of things.. haha... and i wanna get fabric paint.. if you guys have any and are not going to use it, please donate to me?? haha.. i am broke.. :( haha.. are you guys surprised that i am actually into this sort of things.. so ger ger.. so unlike me.. yeah, and we went to see clothes and shoes.. not exactly my forte.. there is a new shop at takashimaya.. now,i wanna go shopping all of a sudden but sad to say, no money.. and i guess this year and perhaps for next year new year, i aint gotta get many clothes..

retrenched.
i think my dad might get retrenched as his partners are not willing to work anymore and i guess they had already made plans for themselves.. hai~if that is so, i gotta work harder and might even start working then..no choice.. need the money.. if not my fees how?? my exams fees how?? better buck up and stop slacking.. :P if not i will be wasting all the xue han $$$ (hard-earned money).. maybe i should go work part-time, maybe i should go and teach more tuition.. afterall, i am teaching one now.. and so far,so good...yeah,maybe i should do that.. teach more tuition.. any lobang??

fridays.
plans for my fridays...lessons til 12.. then go and study a bit first, together with janice and sinlay.. sometimes, if xiaojia dun have tuition,she will join us.. and then at around 1+ go to canteen to eat,after eating, back to studying.. should be leaving school around 4.30pm to go and play basketball at the basketball court we booked, near SMU there.. hehe.. go early better.. haha.. yesh man.. we will be super hardworking..woohoo~~ *note: plans are made to make me feel better by the way.. will try to go ahead with it.. but no promises..haha

email.
i am supposed to email the people who signed up for basketball of this friday training, anyway, our training will be just every friday... actually we wanted two days per week training.. but if we do that, we would have to book additional court, and somemore many people cannot make it on another day and thus they will have to pay for it.. and i guess most of them are pretty unwilling to pay for the facility which they do not make use right?? so back to only friday training.. anyway,the club is only given $400 which includes the purchase of basketball.. around $100 for 3 converse ball plus a bag.. but we don't want converse ball as it tears very easily and is unusable in one year time.. haha.. so not very worth it leh.. haha..

replies.
eh, i am so happy, there is almost immediate replies to my email..but i realised that most of the people who replied to my email are from the DE class, of which valentino is supposed to ask.. hehe.. he is the president by the way.. haha.. diao right? hai~ i think people who are from the DE class are real nice people.. most of them are foreigners though.. haha.. yeah,got to noe more people through this CCA so fun.. perhaps should join more CCA.. wahaha... thinking once again, isn't it great to be in a CCA you enjoy and yet get to know more friends?? i think it is cool.. though i am super slack, as usual, even in training.. wahaha.. i am sure no one is surprised.. :P

rainy season.
it had been raining a lot recently, guess it is the season.. so nice to just lie on bed and think.. cool right? let all your imagination run wild and then fall asleep.. in this cosy bed of mine.. nice.. haha.. i think all who are studying for their exams are especially tempted to fall trap into bed and just doze off.. to all my friends conquering the exams (haha.. this sounds like a Quest, oh yesh i am now addicted to playing runescape which is a role playing game.. those interested please visit their website, kambatte ne and be careful, dun fall into traps of slacking.. jia you and all the best!!!:)

ps.i think my color combination clash again..wahaha...

hai~ went to school today.. surprised? me too, cant believe that i actually went to school for a stupid maths integration lesson.. of course, although i did not regret going.. as i am pretty lousy in integration.. so i guess i just gotta practise more and stop slacking.. stop coming online so very often everyday.. oh man, i just cant stop it.. somebody stop me....(sounds familiar??yeah,watching the mask now..wahaha)

anyway super many surprises today wor.. 1st,my dad actually sent me to school.. and guess what we saw when we were there,almost reaching SIM there? i think there was this marathon/challenge..and there are so many cyclists.. so cool and i think they are doubles as in the 2 person must cycle together at the same speed.. haha.. cool rite? i like the being dependent on each other that kind of feeling.. nice.. super sweet..

2nd, the guy i mentioned yesterday was in the class and he chatted with me.. wahaha.. ok,must clarify something.. we only find him shuai but i think his attitude sux to the core.. haha.. anyway, i got a feeling he is going to quit the basketball club soon.. haha.. complained to his friends that all those in the club are foreigners.. from indonesia, malaysia la,taiwan la,etc.. haha.. then i was like diao~ because of foreigners you dun wanna join the team?? wth?? and they were super duper noisy in class loh, my friend also find them super noisy.. not only me.. :P and they also quite rude when the teacher explained why she couldn't have the lesson as usual and the reason she had to cancelled the class -- her mother pass away in india..

3rd, there are a lot of things i can chat about with my friend,elizabeth.. cool rite?? mainly about JC life la.. haha.. luckily i quite enthu in JC then at least got something to chat about.. wahaha.. yeah, and also talked about the marathon we saw.. she was so excited about it.. and she is even interested in joining the dragonboat team.. quite ambitious huh?? haha.. but i guess her attitude was good.. coz we only live once and we should give everything a try, shouldn't we??hehe.. but i dun think i have that courage loh.. i am glad that i was involved in the sea carnival.. glad that at least i had an experience, at least i noe what it is like.. :)

4th,winnie taught me how to use the hello thingy to post pictures.. hehe.. all the while i have been using photobucket.. so let me try it now.. tada~~


huixin and me.. nice watch,huixin.. aRGh..my eyes are so small..haha

wahaha..this is fun..i think there is going to be more pictures coming out..woohoo~~hehe...

hey peeps,wanted to update yesterday but by the time i reached home,it was already 10.30pm.. can you believe it? i actually missed my toro in the Champion???? aRgh.. haha, nvm, i am watching my (ok,not my) shuai ge playing basketball..wahaha.. even xiaojia agreed that he is shuai... haha... yeah~~ didn't noe SIM got shuai ge wor~! but he wear until super slack.. haha.. he is in my econs class,he always wear a t-shirt and the basketball kind of short (??) yup, the jersey kind.. so can see that he is in basketball one loh.. player for some community centre if i am not wrong.. hehe.. and i sat beside him before.. wahaha... *excited* shan't say his name here.. :P wahaha.. hai~~ i still miss my toro... and no toro today..(saturday mah) oh man... sad...

secret note.
leading a pretty sad life in sim.. who will notice me when i am with xiaojia and janice? the two beauties who attracted secret notes and get people to ask them for their phone numbers.. haha.. i will never get that in my life.. wahaha okok,let me tell you what happened...(wahaha.. i noe you guys very interested to noe already..) we went to the canteen to have our lunch and we left our stuff there after studying for quite a while at the student lounge.. haha.. and xiaojia got a note (it was on her notes) from someone (we still dunnoe who) haha and we were like jokingly said that hey,what's that? then i said aiyah,qing shu la.. and guess what?? yeah,it is a note saying: hey i think you are pretty. *with a smiley face* wahaha.. all of us start laughing including xiaojia.. haha.. so comical

test flunk.
anyway,xiaojia went for her talk on university study skill..(can imagine xiaojia signing up for that? wahaha) while i study for my maths test (nah, only studied half way and i went to take the test), actually i wasn't in the mood to go take test la..(xiaojia,janice and sinlay kept forcing me to go..:( ) but anyway,i went to take the test and confirm flunk it..only noe how to do question for 11 marks.. which i dun think it half the marks of the paper.. hehe.. but at least now i knew where i am not sure of and i can start working on it already and if i got any problems, i can go find xiaojia..wahaha.. so i am more confident in my next test??haha.. no la,dun think got another test.. i think the next one will be the prelims for my maths.. which is like erm,4 months later.. and i think by that time i gotta start revision for maths all over again.. coz form november onwards i will be studying statistics and no more maths..so wahaha.. i already tried to get hold of the past year exams paper already..heh heh.. kiasu ba.. no la,she gave one.. but anyway,mine is so super duper messy so i got someone to help me photocopy hers which is neater and had no working on it.. so i can test myself in january/february in preparation for my exams.. :)

basketball.
then basketball, wahaha.. had fun playing la.. but now muscles starting to ache le..wahaha.. funny loh.. tried to run one round with stella..thanks stella for accompanying me to run..(though you wont be reading this..:P ) and i think there is a foreigners' school holding their sports day there..so got a lot of young gers and boys playing there.. (i think primary school level) super cute.. haha.. yeah.. quite fun.. btw, we had our training at the SMU there the basketball court.. hey, huixin you free can come and find me.. haha.. see shuai ge.. :P haha.. eh, then i gotta take attendance and stuff loh.. hai~~ i was called super slack by someone [the shuai ge leh..(ok,i noe he is not mine.. let me control my hormones.. :P )] damn.. i super slack,fine, you haven't seen the slacker side of me.. anyway i take it that he is joking.. wahaha.. and janice also helped me to take the attendance (she assistant mah) hehe.. and guess what?? someone asked where she stayed etc leh.. haha.. and i think they even wanted to follow us, but we very late then go off so haha.. i dun think they wait.. they asked me but i didn't say.. hehe.. see i so good, never chu mai(betray) friends.. wahaha.. opps, i conveniently forgot to say that she is already taken.. :P haha..

meeting on monday at orchard.. wahaha.. on basketball stuff.. i think we will end up crapping instead of discussing about the basketball thing.. perhaps talking about what movie we wanna watch and stuff like that.. haha... so sorry waiyue, doubt i can meet you le.. paiseh.. study ar... and dun be so slack.. wahaha.. good luck for all your exams.. hai~~more tests coming up for me.. reallie sian...

ps. i realised i am getting lamer.. can you guys helped me?? wahaha.. this is an emergency...:P

wanted to write something.. but i dunnoe what to write.. *yeah sure, dunno how to write but will still end up writing a lot one..so please be prepared* pretty excited about the bball training tml and yet worried for my test before the training.. mixed feeling and now that i am in the committee with janice;it is not going to be easy to quit basketball as and when you like.. wahaha.. sian.. anyway,i hope i will enjoy it..(i mean the training..anyway also no coach..haha..can be super slack..;P) but hai~ training sure very tough one and because of this training,i miss a fish and co dinner... *luckily not treat* aRGh... i wanna go fish and co.. though i am pretty broke.. hmm,i think there is bound to be another fish and co meal soon.. wahaha..

you'll never get what you want in life.
overheard this in a conversation of two sec sch girls.. haha..i am evasdropping.. how true is it? very true i supposed.. life is never smooth-sailing (if not it will be very boring wor) and many things that we want in life are sometimes inachievable.. (or issit unachievable?) you may very much want that someone to be with you but very often, it is either the person isnt willing to be with you,or fate made it that he was already with someone else.. (for your information,i am talking from experience..wahaha) and some other fundamental things, eg. results.. we wanted to get triple A (ok,that is too ambitous) and in the end, we got something worse.. and perhaps what we aim to be is usually different from what our future would be.. true? very true.. (again speaking from experience.. wahaha..)

i wonder.
hai~ isn't life always the same? ever wondered if things are predestined? or we can change fate? if so, how do we change our fate? are the choices we had in life opportunities for us to make use of or tests to grill us? does curiosity reallie kill the cat? how? i thought curiosity only kill our brain cells? and when we meet each other is it predestined? or is it just coincidence that you pass by my life? planned? or not planned? my life now? is it alreay planned zillions of years ago? or every step i made now is a small step to my tomorrow? (meaning i mould my future) so many questions so little answers... lost...

do you realise that very often, you tend to think more when you are alone? eg.in the toilet bathing? eg. on the bus alone? eg. in front of the monitor typing your blog?? i do.. and i wonder why? haha.. how come that when i am in the toilet i can think but once i am out of it,i forgot what i had just thought of.. short term memory like dory huh? haha.. hai~~

timetable.
printing out my time table now..sian no holidays...aRGh..haha.. oh printed crooke.. sian.. haha.. nvm la..it is only a timetable..*comforting myself* and guess what? lucky me had lessons on sunday..wonder if the school is open.. 9-12.. hai~ gotta wake up damn early.. wonder if my dad can send me to school or not leh.. can then good.. no need to wake up that early.. hehe.. but surely my dad wont be that nice one la.. expected..

yeah so happy.. later at 9, ren wo ao you (channel 8) got toro.. wahaha.. i am so in love,so in love with you..woohoo~~ toro very shuai~~and so are yan qing shu and that qi yu wu.. oh man,i am falling deep deep into the river of love.. save me... okok, dun fool around le.. i am now saved by maths lecture notes *oh man can you believe it?* and off to study maths.. wish me luck.. tata~~

ps.i noe the color combi clash..do bear with it k?haha..i am color combi blind.. :P

reformat comp.
suddenly felt like blogging.. yesh,i am doin this while i am typing my essay in off-balance sheet banking.. not surprised?yeah,me too.. i have always been slacking.. hehe..and i think there is something wrong with my microsoft word.. just now when i tried to open my nationalism essay which i had saved, it just can't open up.. and it made me real panicky.. yesterday even worse, they changed what i typed to some arabic symbols..and i had to retype everything again.. poor me.. and today again, i thought all that i had typed yesterday were gone... gone with the wind.. and recently i am thinking of reformatting my computer.. hmm, better store all my pictures online soon.. and start saving all the important stuff in my disc as back-up.. but the problem, big problem is that i dunnoe how to reformat.. haha..do i need the windows XP disc?? or wad?? there is always a blue screen appearing saying that there is something not er, fixed properly.. oh man,what should i do??

developing pics.
just realised that i haven't reallie go and develop the pictures i wanted to develop and the pictures wai yue wanted to develop...:P hey how about lena and huixin?? do you guys wanna develop any pictures?? opps.. it's been like almost 3 months le and i havent go sort out and develop the pics.. and i haven't return waiyue money for the photos she developed for me.. scary huh? suddenly thought of all these?? haha.. coz of a stupid nightmare.. i shall not reveal it as it is private and confidential.. it just made me thought of these.. and dun ask me why..

i have no idea.

funny.
do my msn nick sometimes create a wrong impression of me having stead? haha.. nah,i dun.. and yeah, deb,i am sure you are not reading my blog.. haha.. this is why i said so..was having a msn chat with joanna and she said this.. btw,it is not word for word la.. but the meaning is around there..

Joanna: oh btw, deb asked if u're attached...hahaha
Jocelin:no,why leh?
Joanna: she said coz of ur msn nick
Jocelin: oh
Joanna: i told her...not attached but maybe soon...hahahaaa
Jocelin: .......
Joanna: not meh?
Jocelin: nope
Joanna: got so many khakis pulling u tog with a guy

*talk about other things for a while then...*

Joanna: so how? how's felix like?
Jocelin: -.- (erm,how do you want me to react then??)

erm, haha.. i dunnoe what to sae also, i think next time i better make sure my nick is not that kind of weird weird one.. wahaha i think deborah saw one is this: 明明很爱你 明明想靠近 (if u guys wanna see it, pls encode to Unicode-UTF8) haha.. but this is lyrics from a song 明明很爱你 by fish liang jing ru and victor huang pin guan..nice song..and i love the MTV..very ke ai..haha.. so erm..i will be more careful in the future ok?? hehe.. and i think if i ever do have something sweet happened to the bitter me, i should be writing on my blog la.. if not very xing xu, sure all my friends will come and bug me one.. wahaha.. :P wah, suddenly felt like a celebrity.. *hammer on the head* think too much le..hai~

and ps. to eileen, thanks for ur concern and sms.. hehe.. yep,it's been long since we last chat hope you are doing well and let's meet up soon~~!! (most prob after your exams ba..)

to all my friends having exams.. good luck in your exams and all the best~~!! :) and let's have a class outing soon~~!!!!!!! wahaha...

got this from xiaxue's blog..nice..go try it..is mine pretty?look like me??haha..



click on me to try create a cartoon for yourself..:)

move house.
tok to diana on msn.. she is goin to buy furniture for her new home... envious.. and er ge had also moved house.. to where huh? i also dunnoe.. *eyes turn green with envy* i have never moved before and i have been as old as my house is if not younger or probably slightly older.. (oh man.. i felt so so so OLD... nvm,i got lena.. haha.. ;P) the only time i knew i moved was from my grandparents' house to my house now.. is it considered? nah.. i dun think so.. i guess we just stayed there for a while as my mum is trying to erm, what's that word? er, recuperate?? haha.. yeah, i injured her too much when i came out from her womb and now she is thin and all her fats had came to me.... me... no wonder i am so chubby since young.. haha.. wonder if that is a good thing???

doraemon.
thinking further, is chubby a good thing?? nope,i am pretty sure it is not a good thing.. look like doraemon so you think good thing? hai~~ that's what weitowe said when he saw my primary school pictures.. diao rite?? hai~~ anyway,i am doraemon so what? it is cute ok? and can perform a lot of magic.. and yesh,for your information jacky wu is my dad.. haha... i follow the surname of my mum.. nah,i am just crapping.. :P haha... why jacky wu u might wonder.. btw,jacky wu is wu zhong xian, the host for wo chai wo chai wo chai chai chai as well as shi zi ru kou and also the tian cai go go go.. why him? haha.. coz he has a BIG head (wahaha)and is often compared to doraemon.. haha.. not my fault.. not i say one..=X

Complain.
i had something to complain and yesh, waiyue,this is my blog and i can complain as much as i want.. poor blog.. but isn't a blog meant for us to vent our anger on (*warning*:this ger is violent..) and convey our messages to people around us? and also to tell and keep a record of our lives.. anyway,i wanted to complain... yesh...i am the complain queen *crowned myself as complain queen* hmm,what's there to be proud of to be the complain queen??? anyway, waiyue,i am sorrie you can't stop me from complaining.. :P

who? who do i want to complain?? me, yesh me... i wanna complain about myself.. i am a sucky friend.. and reallie one that sucks to the core.. my friends are in trouble and all i could do is to let them sink sink sink deeper into their troubles.. and i felt so useless.. (ok, i noe i am,dun have to rub it in rite?) some i dun even noe they are facing problems... some, i dun even dare to pull them out of their troubles.. coz i dunnoe how to... remember i cant swim?? and yeah,i cant cycle too.. (how to catch up with my friends??) *a bish* everthing also dunnoe.. what great friend i have been.. (mind you,it is in a sarcastic tone) i am deteriorating.. i am no longer a good friend who is forever so kind and helpful (was i ever??i supposed..) i am no longer me.. i am losing myself and soon, one day, you will see a walking corpse named Jocelin walking around.. a Jocelin who eats, sleep and study (nah,i dun even study..i slack) for no reason.. no aims.. no future...

naive thoughts.
used to think about having friends in life is the best thing i had in life.. my main aims of life is to have good friends and being able to bless them or what...but i am no longer who i am and people like me are greedy... i wanted more than just friends.. i wanted something more unique.. something that is just between the two of us.. something that is private.. i knew i would never get it.. you would never give me that fantasy.. i am greedy, i knew it and i could have lead a pretty good life in SIM.. so why the hell am i making myself so miserable over this?? competitive?? i guess so.. had this stupid mentality of competing and comparing over this sort of thing.. stupid me.. ain't i competitive? nah,i am never competitive... i am just jealous of what others have and what i dun.. i am a girl and it is normal for girls to get jealous?? i dunnoe but i am pretty sure a guy won't like a girl who is always jealous.. i dunnoe how jealous i could get..

i am sick.
hearing people talking about their bf (diana,i am NOT talking about u..i dun mind you chattering about hj coz i noe him) make me sick.. the worst thing is that i dun even noe if they are speaking the truth or not.. never even seen their bf pic before.. haha.. and do they ever think of my feelings? do they even care at all?? how sad i am without a person of my life and yet kept rubbing in how sweet this guy did to her, how bad this guy is to her friend? and the most irritating thing was that they kept asking me why i dun have a bf?? and excuse me, how the hell do i noe? you think i god ar?? i am damn so bloody f*cked up and turned off by what they said.. bloody hell (sorry waiyue i am stealing your lines again.. :P ) i dun mind you guys telling me how sweet you two are together, but do you mind not rubbing in the fact that i am single?? (yesh,it is a fact but please stop rubbing salt into my wound! )

to diana dearest.
i am sorry about what i had said to you online msn just now in the afternoon..i am just angry with someone (in fact i am not reallie close to her) who msn me to talk about her bf.. i mean wtf, u noe i am doing essay and yet u still pester me with the msn chat?? and about ur dear bf?? wth man.. go get a life, ok i noe, i dun have one.. so stop bugging me and go enjoy your life with ur dear bf... get out of my life... wahaha.. i am evil.. i am going to block her and dun let her see me online.. hehe.. how evil can a woman get?? :P oh yah,back to diana..diana my dearest diana (oh man,this is getting disgusting... but anyway..) you can still pester me..haha..about him and your problems.. i mean it is better to have a listening ear than a computer rite?? you might think more negatively (like what i have done now) when u write.. haha.. so do call me if you need someone to be there for you.. you noe the hotline.. and to all my friends.. u can also call the hotline la.. haha.. more than welcome to call me... :) haha... just pray hard that i am not moody...no la,i wont be.. how dare i be moody when you guys call???

so diana, when i face problem with my future bf, (if i do have a bf in the future), i for sure will bug you one.. haha,so come bug me now.. :P

pimples.
argh,dunnoe which stupid person go and say i so good no pimples one..and now all my pimples popping up..so pain..sian.. hai~anyway,it's my fault also la..indulging in chocolate ice cream and fried food(cartel) ..and not drinking enough water..(only 3 cups of tea,yesh in a day) argh and the facial wash i am using now like pretty useless...sian

crash course.
xiaojia and janice their econs very empty one leh..not like mine yesterday like all of a sudden so many people..yup,i went to attend the same lecture today again coz i have no maths lecture as the lecturer had a "crisis" (i so boh liao go back to sch rite??) but anyway,that lecture was pretty important and i am just glad i went to make myself have a better understanding of it

realised that i haven't been touching IR for long..and it is my weakest subject..die..and the essay was incomplete..so wad the hell am i doing online??sian better complete it by tomorrow if not latest tuesday..hehe..i am giving myself so much allowance..so nice to myself..which i shouldn't have..=X haha..

better go sleep now..heard that not enough sleep will also cause pimples..:P

btw,some of the tests results from Joanna's bloggie..hehe..

Ingredients:
5 parts mercy
3 parts silliness
1 part

How to make a Jocelin

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of fitness and a pinch of salt. Yum!

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Personality cocktail
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How to make a madwinter

Ingredients: 1 part jealousy 5 parts brilliance 3 parts instinct

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little sadness if desired!

meet new friends.
was in econs lecture today but alone...couldnt find elizabeth.but anyway,i was sitting beside chernyee who is from S12..hehe..got to know her through ying xuan and somehow,we meet in school before (of course just next class only mah) and also got to know dawn (hmm,not very sure what class she was from leh) then from them i got to noe elsa and Karin(frm TMS one..but i think it is not her real name,the one frm 4/4 look like tsui sian one..) yup,so it is an enjoyable time in econs..nice time spent..:)

study.
had chao siew rice for lunch..nice..haha..and as usual,i ate the fastest..yup,i am a fast eater for rice...chicken rice and stuff especially..wahaha..yeah~~anyway,went to the student lounge(4th floor) to study,but ended up playing pool..haha..$1 each game..and we spent like around 30 min before finishing the game..haha..time well-spent huh?wahaha..anyway,yeah,study a bit of banking then..but we gossiped more than we studied..and soon,time's out..5 pm le..haha...gotta go to bball meeting which is at LT1.05

bball meeting.
got to LT1.05 and saw a notice.."Please head to LT 5.27" well done,we just climb down the stairs to the 1st floor..hmm,nvm..we then took the lift to 5th floor..hmm,never been there before..but nothing much to explore..what's there to explore except computer labs??!!anyway,we headed to LT 5.27 and found noone there and hence we went to the toilet..we were pretty urgent..wahaha..then i messaged the person who messaged us about the meeting...and the venue is actually LT5.26..and we got ourselves in the room surrounded by foreigners...most of them were foreigners..haha..except probably me and janice..(at least for the girls) and we were asked to be the secretary and assistant secretary..hmm,well done..haha..what a post..hai~but anyway,yah,honoured..and really got to noe a lot of people..the people especially the group of guys are very funny..haha..and i like one of the guy's slang..so ke ai..haha..

but bball training...hai~~gotta be tough..i am goin to be so dead, man...

what have i landed myself into????

hai.
yeah,i need to do a more detailed plan for his birthday and excuse me,who am i to him??haha..just someone i just recently got to noe a tiny weeny bit better and diana,he is your 3 yr buddy,your guai bao bei and u ask me to plan his birthday??issit a bit erm,diao?????haha..okok,as your friend,yesh,ur good friend,i can help you with it and wah..u still want a detailed proposal...hao,ni hao...*pointing forefinger at diana* got bf,then good la..haha..hao~~*continues to point finger at diana with one hand on hip* (oh man.,i look so silly..okok,not funny i noe)

better not la..later tomorrow my house on fire aR..you all should noe why..wahaha..for those who dunno,diana's bf stays just next block to mine..just like jason ler staying next block to mine also..hai~~so suay..opps...=X anyway,ya,later he come my house put fire how??haha...

i am getting more crappy..i am reallie sorry about that..but that is me..i found the real me..the underlying me..the hidden and uncovered me..the crappy and humorous (do you call that humorous??) me..wahaha...yeah i guess the BEST to describe me is CRAPPY..wahaha..yeah~~i am the crappy queen *crowned myself*

hmm,a more detailed plan..go to zoo??haha..i think it should be fun..hehe..anyway,i am sure alot of us very long never go zoo le..or just go and eat????wahaha...in the zoo??hmm,share bananas with monkeys and chimpanzees..not a bad idea..wahaha...ok..i am being lame again..fine,not funny??dun read..;P hai~~go zoo is nice,but the weather..hai~~hard to predict and somemore,sunday sure a lot of people one...and money is another main factor..hmm,so after saying so much,zoo out??haha..ask diana ba..;p

going to cartel again..to meet waiyue and rong they all for dinner..yeah...:)

birthday.
haha..anyway,yeah,was helping siewhui and diana to plan a birthday celebration for felix la..they just pulled me down the water with them..sian...

i am drowning i can't swim...help me..

ok,i am being a bit lame and crappy here...diana said i was hyper..haha..but anyway,yeah..some of the plans are here..mainly for diana and siewhui to accept my proposal..since i am online so early,might as well do it..all thanks to lena

proposal number...
1.go sentosa.(wahaha..i noe this is out,but if he enjoys it why nt?)
2.go zoo.(lena suggest one)
3.go esplanade.
4.go airport (proudly suggested by waiyue)
5.go ktv.(wahaha)
6.stay home(ok,i noe this is a lan proposal but it is my proposal for myself on that day..wahaha)

guess that's all..i think i better go..i am late...meeting joanna to go junwei's house..then meeting sharon to go school..and meet xiaojia and janice to stay in school for econs consultation..what a long day..haha...and that lena...aRGh..haha..nvm la...i better sleep early today..so perhaps,you guys wont see me online le..perhaps at 9??wahaha..

i am addicted...

Sian.
was super duper sian when doin the nationalism essay,so came online to blog..was thinking of blogging but had been doing nothing lately..perhaps slacking??yupyup,must be..and all my friends around me are busy studying for their exams and stuff...poor thing..and even though my mouth kept saying that i gotta do this and gotta do that,i never did..so bad..but to console myself,at least i did part of the essay already..but i am stuck..gotta go find more books to do research..hai~~

Miss school.
can u believe it??i actually wished that i was in school everyday siah..i am like so super duper slack...and hai~~!!guess i should go and find more tuition jobs to help support my family as well as myself..i think my dad is losing his job..perhaps i shouls spend less also..hai~~no more cartel and those expensive restaurants and perhaps,ktv sessions..no need to waste money then...more tuition lobangs,please come..though i noe it is not easy teaching a skill or a subject..wadeva..i felt like a cheater..hehe..but anyway,u pay peanuts,u get peanuts..if they dun prefer experienced and expensive tutors..oh well..anyway,i am glad that they even employed me as a tutor..

Work.
i need to work..i wanna work and get exposed to the polluted air outside..i wanna get dirty..i am mad i guess..perhaps by working in the outside world i will learn...learn how to backstab,how to be a hypocrite..and mayb learn how to be a real true bitch..perhaps by then,i will be able to attract some attention....

oh man,i am such an attention seeker....perhaps that's the reason i blog..;p

Late again.
aRGh...i have been late for the past few events..tuition,school(almost) and even meeting friends,hai~~i also late..all because of the stupid ez-link card that i left it on my table...damn me and my itchy hand to remove the ez-link card from my wallet..haha..so bo liao rite??aRGh...anyway,i met jason at the busstop there..hmm,dunnoe why we like very awkward..nothing much to say..and tell you all something,he is like avoiding us leh..so bad rite??hai~~perhaps shouldn't have go and call him..when on the train,as kaijing and lena(1st to reach..surprisingly...all of us are late but i am the latest among the late and she is the earliest among the late..but...her house so near...not fair...haha..) board the train(i told you i was late mah),he just left the seat..haha..so diao..and didn't even say hi to kaijing or what leh..i guess he got mood swing..haha...

KTV Session.
woh man,it's been great to have a KTV session today,so so so MUCH better than the previous time we went to the cineleisure one...yeah~~got a lot of new songs..haha..got the FIR new song,wo yao fei leh..and also wilber's wu ha,as well as qi li xiang..and jie kou(one of my favourite song) but too bad dun have ge qian(hmm,anyway,i also not sure how to sing that song la..haha..;p),plus stella's xi ban ya kuang xiang qu and wen yu.. yeah~~was super duper high..duo tiao duo tiao duo tiao duo tiao~~haha..

i was so high that i even sing along and shake my head when kaijing they all singing the jolin's song (i think ai qing 36 ji) haha...and i was eating fried rice loh..then the Kbox people(yesh,unfortunately a guy..) came in....and lena was like shouting,"Jocelin..."(she shouldn't have shouted,the KBox guy now noe i am Jocelin hai~~) then i realised what stupid thing i had done..haha...i wasn't aware that the guy is coming in coz i was back-facing the door..and there i was shaking along with the music like i am high on drugs..haha...and he came in..haha...after that didn't see him le..haha..he also dun dare to come in i guess..wahaha..what a clown i have been...

MOS Burger.
i had been in a rather crappy mood since yesterday night..yesh,diana,you noe what i meant...i was in a real crappy mood..so eh,pardon me for whatever crap i had said last night,please forget it...haha..i was only crapping..and i am also not very sure of what i had said..not sure what is my feeling..so haha..better not plan anything for me..haha...hmm,as friends maybe..but definitely not that brg thing..haha..one jimmy enough le..wahaha..eh,yah,that is what i wanna say...

hmm,at mos burger,we crapped about a lot of things..dunnoe why i seems to be able to crap about a lot of things to lena..hmm,maybe we had almost the same frequency ba..CRAPPY...haha...hmm,spent almost 2 hours at mos burger sitting down and chatting about life,boy interested in kj and lena's small small crush..haha..and also our holiday plans...

here they are:(mainly huixin one..haha..)
1.sleep over at someone house. (chalet too expensive le)
2.go sentosa beach and take lots of pictures and spend the day on a beach.(then i need to borrow the beach ball le..who got??)
3.play escape and the wet wet wild.(this i might not go,count me out)
4.go east coast cycling( learning for me and huixin) and probably kayaking.
5.shopping for new year clothes.
6.class gatherings.

hmm,these are our plans so far..might add on to it..after their exams which end in november..and from now until november,i might not meet them..so sad..haha..so boring now..but anyway,i should also start my revision le..haha...my essays and tutorials are still left undone..hai~~and also save $$$ hai~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HORNG JIUNN...=)

maths lessons.
i was very early for school today..very early,in fact super duper early..haha..reached around 8.45 pm...compared to the previous few days..wahaha..hmm,sijia sat with me today..and yesh,benedict also coz his friends didn't turn up and somemore he came late and i was sittin right at the back..haha..so quite conveniently sat with me..haha..get to noe a few more malay girls but..haha..dunnoe their names...;p they were frm TPJC..haha..and if i am not wrong one of them is waiyue's classmate,the one with a twin sis..haha..eh, then hor,and get a bit of tips on putting on the make-up,sijia taught me one..haha..hehheh..but i noe abit only lah..haha..but still have not enough skill to put on my face...hehe

wrong decision.
haha....again another wrong choice made by us..tried to take bus number 61 again and guess what??1 hour later we are at chinatown..that's when i decided to get down the bus and took train as i am late,damn lah..luckily i informed the kid i will be late on the bus and true enough,i just reached the tuition kid's house at 2.40..well done rite?luckily the mother understands that i had lessons and hence time is delayed..haha...aiyah,although on the bus can see a lot of different place and sort of get myself fascinated and stuff..but....i am in a hurry to go tuition..no more bus for me on saturday le..wahaha..

tuition.
had trouble explaining time to him..i dun think he quite understand and furthermore,he dislikes the topic..sian..how to teach?i use the drawing method as well as the time-line method as shown on the book but then there is a problem which he often do many careless mistakes and hence...hai~~i had a method which is forever useful but the teacher didn't teach in that way and he seems unwilling to learn it that way..and i had problem teaching him the 24 hour clock method as he doesn't know how to read the time..

yeah got the commision fees le..haha..40 bucks..wonder if i can keep it for my own??*bearing evil thoughts* wahaha..anyway,i not so bad la..i would repay that tuition guy for helping me so much to "promote" me to this child to teach tuition..haha...hehe...and somemore he taught me how to do the bank transfer leh..haha..okok,i think i am an idiot coz it is a simple task to do...

step number..
1.go to any ATM machine.
2.put in your ATM card.
3.enter your pin.
4.press on the one with bank account transfer.
5.enter the bank account number of the account you want to transfer to ie.his account.
6.enter the amount to be send.($40)
7.get receipt and it's done.

haha..sounds easy?but i think i might panicked sia..it is a small amount la,but what if something goes wrong??haha..i mean what if the machine eats my card?what if i transfer to the wrong account?what if i transfer the wrong amount?what if???haha...think too much le..haha...

Stress.
hai~~thought can slack this week but apparently not..hmm,meeting waiyue next friday..gotta start mugging..like cannot reallie catch up le..and also a lot of assignments to be done...sian..3 essays...question on sovereignty and nationalism...this is on IR...then also got POB essay..then i got maths test..and also econs test on the market structure..and also....aRGh...i am going mad soon....

ps. just now asked the tuition agency asking about lena's problems with the tuition kid..wahaha..it was because the kid kept postponing the tuition lesson and hence delaying the payment for the tuition..would the tuition agency help?as in go and get the payment from the parents?or perhaps ask the parents for payment??haha..and his answer is: yes,he will try to ask and survey the parents...but...no guarantee that the parent will pay...to lena,he said that it is a very slim chance loh..haha..dun teach le lar,go get other lobang..haha..as in tuition lobang la..haha..eh,and i wish all tutors to get their pay asap,coz i am getting mine next week..woohoo~~so looking forward to it..and branson,nice chatting with u..haha..we can reallie crap alot..wahaha...

to all my friends pls visit this site..it's cool...;)
http://www.sta.nus.edu.sg/~zhangjt/life/lovegame.html

To the world you may be one person, but to one
person you may be the
world...................................................you
love-sick puppy! you're so in love that it's
written all over your face. your friends know
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hmm,reallie??i am such a love-sick??who am i to love anyway??bleah..;p who am i in love with??infatuation??haha...maybe they'll love you back???maybe??oh man...maybe...sad sia..

okok...back to today,did a rather foolish thing..haha..we took 61 home,thinking that it is heading towards eunos..on the way we sae bukit timah..and we thought it is quite common,coz our school is there mah..then maybe they will go by the expressway or wad loh..haha..and....

we ended up in bukit batok mrt station..

haha..what a joke..we almost laughed our way through the journey (on bus 61) thinking that we are heading towards eunos..and how are we to know that we are actually heading to the wrong direction..reallie super duper gao xiao loh..haha..even went to westmall for a little shopping...and we were very tired when we were on the train..damn tired...never felt this tired..haha..influenced by janice and xj la..haha..

now so sian..hmm,everyone was busy..i guess i am too..and aRgh...tuition tml....sian.....haha...starting to understand how lena feel..this is only my 2nd time leh..and only 3 wks later,can i get my payment..and if she stop half-way (coz end of exams le),i can prepare to die sia..haha..waste my 3 lessons with him...diao..oh yah,plus the one extra lesson for test..4 lessons...one month salary gone....and the comission... aRGh... whatever... trying hard not to think....

wanna go sleep le..very tired...

yup,it's been quite some time since i last blogged..hmm,although i have been like online everyday..haha..and what am i doin online when i was supposed to be studying for my POB test...hmm,haha..i was addicted to internet i guess..was curious about what happened in shuhui's life,so went to read her blog was looking for someone to chat with so went to msn..was bored of studying..so went to play gunbound..haha...life is that interesting huh??hehe..but anyway,i didn't stay online for long each time..i think me goin online had become a habit,an addiction...hm..sounds pretty bad huh??haha..yah,quite bad..giving excuses for not studying,when all the people around me are goin to have their exams and tests and stuff..wahaha..i am slacking..;p

boyfriend.
wonder when i will find the special one..haha..hmm,yesterday tok to one of my friend,Benedict in IR..haha..he got girlfriend le wor..from NIE,yesh shuhui,i think she is your senior but she takes home economics in TP..eh,anyway,he asked me and sharon if we had any boyfriends that kind of thing la..haha..wad can i say??just shut up and listen to them loh..haha..and sharon is going to register in the ROM next year,she is just one year older than me and she is getting married...oh my god..and i haven't even found one yet..

sometimes i wonder if there were anything wrong with me?? why can't i just attract the right guys??haha..okok..this is getting a bit out of hand..hmm,oh yah,when i was online,farhan also asked me if i had a boyfriend..i was like no,is there a problem???haha..yeah,sometimes i do think that i have a problem..haha..but can't help it right?i mean what can u do?no choice loh,just gotta listen to your friends tok abt their bf/gf..i mean what can you do rite??go out to a guy and say hey i wanna be your gf??siao..haha

sharon and diana had told me that perhaps my fate with him had not come..hmm,when will it come??when i am 50??haha..then i will be an old virgin(go translate to chinese) haha..then sharon told me that this sort of thing comes at the most unexpected time..quite true i guess,at least to all my friends who had bf..i think it is true..hmm,i believe them..and i can only just hope for the best and try hard not to think about it ba..haha...wad else can i do??haha..i am sure many of my friends also feeling the same as me now..no choice..at least i think you guys are great,just as GREAT and perhaps even better..haha..no distress,no worries about wat to get for monthiversary etc..haha..so envious and yet so relieved at the same time..mixed feeling..haha,perhaps now i am wishing for it..and when it come,i might not at all be so happy about it..haha

hmm,perhaps i am having a rather naive view of being together with a boyfriend..i have the perception of a happily ever after kind of story..haha..naive??yeah,i suppose i am..but well,that was before i knew the terrors of being with a boyfriend...after hearing complains and greivances from my friends with boyfriends,i realised fortunate i was as well as how unfortunate i was..haha..ironic??yeah,the fortunate part was that i dun have to worry about another person's feeling,actions and speech etc..since i am such a sensitive person,at least i won't get hurt so easily.. unfortunate coz i had noone who care for me..haha..no la..erm...coz dun have those super duper sweet moves and times..haha..i mean it is different when a couple goes out rite??compared to mayb a couple of girls??haha..yah,the romanticness etc...hai~~!

mixed feelings...weird feelings..

being a ger.
diana asked us on her blog about being a ger..how to be a ger??hmm,do i behave like a ger should??nah,i dun think so la..i dun like pink for one,i like blue in fact which is considered to be a boy color(such sterotype) and i definitely dun enjoy wearing a dress..yesh,i only wore a few times..perhaps when i am young and vain...haha...but now i like demin skirt..hehe..erm...wad else about being a ger??hmm,patience is definitely what a ger should have more than a guy..haha..and sad to say i dun have it..i am rather impatient as seen above..haha..i am impatient to wait for the guy to appear..or rather,i have decided not to wait..if i can survive alone,with friends and family for the past few years,why can't i continue the way i am??(easy to say,hard to do..hai~!) anyway,yah,so erm,am i consider a ger??just because of what i look and what my body is like???!!!haha...you are kiddin me rite??but sad to say,it's the truth we are gers coz we are not boys...coz we don't have some of the things they have..and we have some of the things they dun...so...haha...even if i dun behave like a ger sometimes,i am still a ger..haha..coz i am a ger...haha...no choice..

so,diana have i answered your question??u are a ger no matter what..you are a ger...yesh,trying to hypnotise you...wahaha...yesh,you are born a ger no matter what character you have,how you behave etc...and by the way,there are times when you are more of a ger than me..you noe what i mean..haha..my aunt haven't been visitin me for long..perhaps i have not been a ger,a good ger afterall..haha

xiaxue.blogspot.com
dunnoe why again i bounce upon this site..well i have been to this blog before,due to the publication on the straits times..

FAME and notoriety. Wendy Cheng - whose weblog http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/ was voted the Best Asian Weblog by a Hong Kong website last year - has both. Attracting 2,000 readers daily, the 20-year-old project coordinator is famous for her kooky confession and observations about life.

i was curious so i went to the webbie..and i thought it was actually nothing much..coz the page was with a ger (pretty with make-up) and very pinkish..yesh,very ger ger like blog..haha...hmm,but all these are deceiving..her words are sarcastic and cynical..her blog is meant for her to vent her frustrations and comments of the outside world..for me,it is a different thing..it is about my daily events and stuff..so if she thought that my blog is boring..she can just go back to her blog and enjoyed her "masterpieces"..(i am beginning to sound like her..:P) but i gotta admit it,some of her entries are pretty interesting and i am amazed by her make-up and photoshop power..haha..perhaps she should try to be a make-up artist..haha..then make those "ugly" people disappear with her "power"..nah,i dun think she will do that..she might find them too ugly to even put on make-up for them..and furthermore she is a law student...how can we waste her intelligence??

okok,i am definitely not a anti-xiaxue fan..but i do read her entries,not to criticise her..just find her entries interesting..and yes,i gotta admit that never will i be able to write like her..haha..and i think i am just happy with the way i am writing...and if i am not wrong,ms xiaxue had just insulted me about having more than 7 lines in a paragraph...bleah..this is my way of writing...no way am i going to change..it is my style..and if you are not happy about it,u can just get out of this webbie..and i dun think i will ever post my pictures as if i am the queen of the world..haha..not that i am ugly (go ahead puke if u think i am ugly) but i dun think there is a need to let everyone see my face..wahaha...unless necessary..but anyway..wth??

no offense to all xia-xue fans...haha...(i think i am also becomin a fan of hers..wahaha)

addicted.
trying to blog now..haven't reallie got the mood to blog even though i am online..once again i am addicted to playing games..and this time round msn games,especially hexic..haha..reallie cool and fun game..can be real addictive..and a good way of relieving stress (for me) though i dun have much stress..haha..funny rite?my brother ask me "jie,how cum you go uni dun have homework one ar??" haha..somemore i everytime like very slack..haha...then it seems to me that a lot of people are very stressed with their studies and stuff..but not me..haha..i dunno why..perhaps it's not time for me to worry yet as my exams are still quite far away..and so far,i am able to catch up with the lectures and stuff..plus,i have helpful lecturers who will help us solve problems and doubts we have..haha..so lucky me i guess...:)

tuition guy.
hmm...yah,he messaged me again..haha..the tuition guy..told me that he had got the terms and comditions letter..haha..yup,and then he asked me if i could help him to transfer the money (the 50% commission) into some account..haha..i dunno how to do leh...haha..coz i scare later go to the wrong account then i die le..wahaha..he said i innocent...diao loh..i think it is more of naive plus stupid ba..haha..well,that's me..can't help it..anyway,no tuition today..so how to collect the fees???haha

NTU.Nanyang Tecnological University.
hmm,headed to NTU after my lessons..haha..waited for quite long for bus 154 to go to boonlay and then also waited quite a while for 199...heading to the canteen A of the school...had japanese food..reached there around 2..haha..by that time eileen had already finished her food and headed to the benches to study already wor..haha..so couldn't find her...anyway,had to make kaijing and guirong to wait so long for me to have their lunch..so paiseh..hmm,then we also went to waiyue and lena's hostel..haha..quite cramp and a bit small..not as i have expected...and it is very far away from most of the school building..and the school is so HUGE..okok,to me it's huge..haha..as compared to my school...haha...anyway,went to the library...it is damn huge loh,dunnoe how many storeys somemore....so many books..haha..my school library is only providing us with guidebooks as well as the textbooks..but the good thing is that there are alot of the same books so we dun have to snatch..so it's great..woohoo~~hehe..

new look.
lena did something to her hair..i wont said wad..coz i think she want to be mysterious..haha..i also wanna go and do sth to my hair...perm??haha..highlight??color??rebond???hai~~i no $$$ leh..dunnoe if my parents allow..and even if they dun..i quite wanna do sth to the hair,other than cut....and i think my hair need treatment le..look so sucky..aRGh..what shd i do???shd i?shd i not??but i very much wanna highlight and color..by doin so,i will be defiant to my parents..hai~~shang nao jin aR..

new friend.
yep..meet a new frien (Elizabeth) who takes the same maths and econs classes as me..woohoo~~haha..yep,finally found someone..yep and i wanted to find more people..yesh,like janice said,it would be better for us to join a CCA and then we would get to noe more pple..woohoo~~since sports CCA require team work and stuff...looking forward to meeting new friends and their friends..anyway,i am definitely looking forward to joining CCA..hope to join more also leh..but scare clash..but i also quite lazy to travel all the way from tampines to clementi to just play bball ba..haha..quite lame also..perhaps..will go library study 1st..perhaps..haha...as if i would..

stressed.
oh man,i am going to have a lot of tests coming up..principles of banking--test next thursday and have econs assignments to hand up..and somemore i dun think i am catching up with econs anymore...and i had just asked a whole lot questions with the banking lecturer..just to clarify some doubts..in her email,she sound angry..perhaps i think too much,reallie too much..so much that i am becoming very very very paranoid and pessimistic..in a way,affecting my friends..they are no longer happy together with me..where is the bubbly jocelin?i have no idea..dun ask me why..i think i lost it along the way..hopefully i can find it back..hopefully i would..yesh,i would.. :) must have confidence in me.. :)