happie birthday to sieW hUi (17th August) hope all your wishes come true..
meet diana they all at around 4.45 pm at bugis coz they wanna take neoprint..haha..so met them at pretty in tokyo,the neoprint shop..haha..yeah..and saw them there..all wearing white..except for one extra..haha..opps..haha..yeah he was wearing white on the inside..he's wearing 2 shirts la..haha..anyway,luckily diana told me to wear white..if not reallie extra sia..haha..anyway,when i was reachin the shop,felt a bit paiseh..haha..such a big group then feel so weird..but gradually ok le..haha..most of the people i noe anyway..haha..except candy ba..haha..the rest all i noe one..hehe..but hmm..7 people..3 lightbulbs,2 couples..haha..a bit weird..haha..

anyway,we took neoprints la..haha..abit hard to do the formation..haha..i dunnoe la..but anyway,we managed to set up the formation 4-2-1 with the 2 couples behind..haha..yeah..then i think it is quite nicely taken loh..so big space..but my legs a bit sore after half stand half sit..haha..hehe...anyway,i think the end result is quite nice..after all the decoration by diana and birthday ger,siew hui..haha..

meanwhile as they are playing the games and cutting the neoprints and stuff,i went around to look for something for siewhui..her birthday mah..haha..dunnoe wad to get for her..felix suggested the cushion thingy..the beanie..but i thought it would be better for a guy(aka zy) to get her that instead of me..so i got her something more practical..for her to jot down stuff..haha..abit too practical..but hope she likes it lah..its the thoughts that count ba..then..haha diana jealous le wor..haha..coz i m not that gd to her when it was her birthday...opps..diana..very sorry lah..but i think it's rather paiseh to join u guys and not get anything for her leh..haha..

then went to the esplanade after that..actually can reallie walk there one loh..coz the other time,lena,kaijing huixin and me did walk all the way from bugis to suntec..haha..but dunno la..anyway,we got some drinks and stuff and headed to the esplanade..yeah~~to watch fireworks..woohoo~~i am reallie looking forward to this part..yeah~~!

wondering where we should go and view the fireworks..was thinking of sitting at the railway there..near the highway there but then hor,the police dun allow..then we(excludin hj & diana--they remained on the bridge) went to the place underneath the bridge there..as ziyang managed to climb up..we all have this stupid idea to all climb up and have a good view of the fireworks..woohoo~~ziyang and felix helped the girls up..haha..just when all of us managed to climb up and settle ourselves comfortably..the security guard came and wanted us down..so we had to get down..imagine it is 2.5m tall loh..jumpin down from there..haha..landed quite badly..:( but anyway,i dun think i twisted my leg or anything lo..haha..hui,thanks for ur concern..i am reallie ok..:) haha..yeah..and also the guys..haha..so concerned..so sweet of u people..haha..the most annoying part is that after we came down,there are so many people goin up and sit there loh..sian..and they are not being chased down by the security..was reallie hoping to go and find the stupid security and chase them down sia..sian..so we had to just view it like dat loh..:( stupid security..

anyway,the fireworks was great..much better view than it was last week..perhaps because i wasn't shooting (as in taking pictures of) the fireworks and i had a much clearer view..though there are some short one that we can't see..coz alot of head blockin my view..haha..and the guys in front are funny..haha..and crappy..the view was amazing loh..nice sia..it would be so great if i am accompanied by that special someone..haha..haven't found yet..hehe..anyway,it would be cool real cool to watch the fireworks together with someone u like..so sweet...:) then after the fireworks,we talked and sang for a while..love diana's voice sia..power..can sing those very high and fir style kind of song..power..love her voice sia..haha...then went home after that..hehe..home sweet home..

click me to see the neoprints taken..thanks to hj who scan the pics into the comp..haha..

hApPy bIrThdAy tO RoNg RoNG..aka gUiRoNg..hOpE aLL YoUr WiSHeS cOme TrUe wOR...
school on a saturday is boring..especially when the teacher is real DAMN boring..farhan had duty today and so he was not here..but anyway,if i had a boyfriend,haha..IF,i will definitely drag him with me to attend that boring lecture..hehe..

went to celebrate guirong's birthday..at cityhall..was really early while waiting for waiyue..perhaps,i should have go and get the cake instead..then i dun have to wait so long..but the prob is:i dunnoe wat cake to get and wat size of the cake to get..haha..so waiyue gotta get it loh..haha..:P yeah..

then went going round and round the clementi area..abit sian...haha..meet winnie and peisi who are both in NUS..haha..so qiao..was waiting with xiaojia for winnie who are goin to town mah..taking bus number 106..then there is this auntie who came and ask us to buy a pen..but she gave the i am so poor thing,can buy just a pen for me??that kind of look..and was rather persuasive..so we both bought one from her..damn..then we realised that she is actually a fraud when she was like asking us again and said that oh yah,we already buy le..damn her sia..cheaters..sian..luckily when winnie is here,we told her not to buy..if not wah..one pen 50 cents leh..ex sia..was walking to the interchange there then met peisi..didn't talk much coz she was with her friend then it was like not very nice la..haha

finally,we met guirong at the control station..was really famishing by then..haha..but luckily,i got myself a waffle before meeting waiyue..if not i will be dying of starvation..haha..went to cafe cartel at the raffles place there..my first time there..haha..then we ate the 5 person share of something..not sure coz it's ordered by lena..haha..then we went to the esplanade there to eat cake...yesh eat again...on the way,we went to the singtel customer service and finally got my gprs activated..woohoo~~hehe..yeah..so cooL..i can go and dl ringtones le..haha..all my friends warning me not to get over-excited..hmm..i hope so too..i wanna dl mahjong leh..maybe next mth ba..this mth sure cost a lot one..coz just activated then the person like access a lot liao..so whatever la..next month..yeah..next month..woohoo~~yeah..was goin to the esplanade there to cut the cake..great idea by lena..hmm..luckily the weather wasn't really that hot..haha..yeah..and as usual play the zhon ji mi ma..expected la..what else can be out from lena??haha..just kidding..yeah~~and i am the lucky one who didn't guess the number correctly..ultimate winner..hahahahaha*evil laughter*

eh,then after eating..we went to marche..haha..and yesh..to eat AGAIN..been eating the whole day..woo...haha..yeah..met maykuan..personally,not reallie pleased to meet her la..according to waiyue,we booked her for like 2 weeks ago..and yet she had to rush to meet someone else..like heng bu guo peng you loh..somemore the rest of our birthdays,she didn't even bother to turn up..whateva la..sian..dun bother le..haha..busy woman..dunnoe what is up with her also la..then ordered something to eat..the fish and wedges..quite nice..not bad..

then after eating,we went to buy some wine..hehe..i am goin broke le..sian..no $$$ le..save me..help me..aRgh...anyway, i think we quite crazy..haha..as in we bought the wine,proudly suggested by waiyue i guess..haha..and took like 16 photo shots with 6 person..haha..and somemore lena and waiyue also took 16 shots together..madness sia..haha..then i think my face damn red coz i drank a bit too much..haha..luckily,my mum is asleep already and by the time i reached home,the redness is not as obvious..hehe...and now i am startin to collect bottles..wine bottles..as much as possible..haha..:) sort of like a collection..always been fascinated by those bottles..each have different story behind it..just like everyday of our life,there is a different story behind it..different causes,different endings..happiness are meant to be shared and sadness..to be buried..haha...

click waiyue's album and lena's album to see the pictures we had taken for guirong's birthday..but you gotta be a imagestation member which if free of charge la..but a bit lame i think..haha..

yeah~~this is my 100th entry on this blog..guess i am pretty consistent huh??haha..but on friday the 13th..a bit errie huh??keke

just realised that janice was in the same lecture as me yesterday,introduction to banking..actuallie,i knew it during the break time lah..but i already made some new friends and somemore her place there like no seat so i didn't go and talk to her or what lah..haha..yeah..2 friends in fact..both of them from the diploma of econs one..so it is their second year in SIM..perhaps when i get to know them more the next time could get some notes and stuff from them..especially econs and maths 1..haha..and stats 1..hehe..

yeah..at first thought of janice to be those rather cool and got nothing much to say that kind of friend..but actually she isn't reallie that cool..at least after knowing her,you won't think that she is actuallie the cold and unfriendly kind..perhaps when she is alone or what she may seems as very cold and hard to approach kind of person..but today after our study group together in the benches,i realised she is not what i thought her to be la..in fact she is much better at least to me lah..haha..i dunnoe..perhaps people do change..i am not sure about the rest of you la..but this is my feeling about her..

yeah,got some confusion over some banking stuff..abit the luan..but i also dun understand anyway..so what the hell..haha..was doin ok in economics i suppose..it is more of mathematical,instead of just language..but language must also be good in order to understand the question..more of analysis rather than the theories..more of testing of concepts rather than the dead questions..i think i might do badly then..i am always bad in concept..luckily this teacher seems as helpful and as funny as ivan sum..i should be able to struggle through..somemore i had some economics background..should not be a BIG problem ba..hehe...

oh ya..met shinleei on the way home..i almost couldn't recognise her..haha..her hair was so cool..haha..make me wanna go and dye and highlight my hair also..but hai~~my hair not very strong leh..dunnoe can withstand the torture of dyeing,highlighting and treatment and stuff or not..haha..furthermore..traditional parents..hard sia..

yahoo~~lookin forward to tomorrow's celebration of guirong's birthday..yeah~~goin to the esplanade..i suppose..and yeah~~on sunday probably goin to watch fireworks woh~~cool..and the celebration of siew hui's birthday..still thinking if i should go..should i?should i not??

still feeling pretty bad about him and her..i am still upset though she told me a million times it is not my fault and it would happened even without me..just feel uncomfortable..couldn't reallie slept well last nite..guess i cried myself to sleep..i knew how much she likes him..how much she wants to treasure him and yet i almost ruined the whole thing for her..my very good friend..ain't i a bitch??sian...

how evil am i????



i guess i am evil..haha..even the quiz said so..by the way got it from may's webbie..hehe..she always have this sort of quizzes and stuff to do..and i enjoyed doin it also..haha..getting to noe about more of our true self..and also about things we never would knew..

then i was fooled...what the hell??i was so sad and miserable over them and yet,she fool me..well done..now better dun trust anyone le.."i was just trying to scare you just now"==>she doesn't noe how much it hurts me sia..haha..wasted my tears on them sia..and then somemore i dry eyes one loh..still cry sure cannot wear contacts lenses le lah..:( so it's none of my business now..haha..not my fault..no more guilt..should be able to sleep in peace tonight...:)

yeah~~had a much better time in SIM..today i had a friend whom i meet just last week..and i am sitting beside her..her name is sharon..haha..anyway,she is a grad in temasek poly in biz IT..diana,she is your senior woh..haha..and then i think we quite clique ba..studying in school tml at the library woh..you see,i so hardworking..haha..

anyway,i am looking forward to tomorrow..yeah~~we are buying the IR book..no choice gotta buy..if not reallie dunnoe what the heck the lecturer was talking and somemore he likes to jump here jump there..sometimes jump until i very blur..haha..but can go and ask one la..coz it is a rather small class..hehe..especially since i have already had a rather good friend...sharon..class seems so much more fun when u have a friend with u..haha..made a new friend--benedict goh..haha..he is from NYJC..haha..tot he is from poly..he got the poly face..haha..hehe..i got the JC face..haha..yeah~~must make more friends tomorrow..no matter what..must be more friendly..yeah..make more friends..yup yup..woohoo~~haha..must be more cheerful..

now my feelin is terrible..i feel that i always make things worse for him and her..esp on MSN..me and my big mouth..damn it..i dunnoe la..but they are facin quite a lot of problems and i always seemed to be the cause of it..maybe i shouldn't b online..perhaps..they are often quarrelling over friends..1st sh and zy,on msn me..coz of sth he said..i would have feel guilty if they just break up like this..i mean damn,it's my fault...sian..now i dunnoe what to do..both leave me in msn...speechless...more or less i knew what is happening..but i only realised it after they left..me and my big mouth..i should just shut up..damn me...such a bitch...bitchy me...

haha..funny,i was tellin you guys about the pageant msg rite??haha..and it was by someone who i noe..hehe..funny loh..kaijing and huixin should also noe him ba..haha..funny sia..anyway,here's the msg..

him:hey did u go 4 the pageant thingy on sat?
me:who are u??
him:mingjie
me:mingjie?i think u msg the wrong person ba..who u trying to msg?
him:opps.who r u ah?
me:u wanna msg who?
him:huh?u?
him:aren't u soo chin?(huixin is it shu jun??)
me:no..i am jocelin
him:which one?
me:huh?how i tell u?u v. funny leh..i also not sure if i noe u..
him:if u dunnoe me,how come i got your no?
me:how i noe how u got my number?haha..u frm wad sch?
him:i nw in ns ley,previously in tpjc
me:oh,tpjc?haha..then sec school is haising catholic?
him:eh how come nw u know me but i still dun know u
me:haha..i also dunnoe how to say hu i m lei..eh,u noe yue ze rite?i'm his 1st 3 mths classmate..
him:r u the odac one?
me:nope,that's joscelin loo,dat u shd noe mah..tot u also odac..
him:huh?then u which one?which class ah?frm tpjc one ah?
me:haha..i frm 02S13..yesh,tpjc 1..
him:aiyah i still dunno u la.
me:haha..nvm la..v. funny leh..btw,did u got the no of the person you reallie wanna contact?
him:nope but i found a person who knows me but i dun
me:haha..isn't dat gd?make new friend leh..hmm,if i sat i' frm tms u think u noe who?
him:erm,no..u got friendster?
me:haha..ya..
him:then u can save the description part
me:oh ok..
him:wat's ur email?i add u
me:madwinter85@hotmail.com
him:ok..

haha...funny leh..i mean i noe who he is loh..and he came to msg me,without knowing that i am actually not the person he is looking for..my hp number..so similiar to hers meh???haha..so qiao..funny the way fate make fun of people..haha..

hApPiE nAtIoNaL dAY..hApPy 39tH bIrThdAy tO sIngApOrE..woohoo~~mAy yOu cOntInuE tO prOspEr..yeah~~

haha..today is Singapore 39th birthday..hmm,watched cyndi's making of her 2nd album and jolin's sort of concert for the lastest album (hai dao that album) i think her lastest 2 albums are the best..haha..perhaps it is because got the new element which is rather hot in the recent years..i dunnoe..but just like it..like jay's music also..although must admit la..sometimes dunnoe what he is singing,but just find it soothing and also appealing to my ears and so rather enjoyed it la..haha..anyway,yah..also spent some of my time chatting with waiyue..and arguing about women's independence of which she wrote on her bloggie..haha...u think women is considered independent now??i still have the stupid mentality that no matter what happened,women and men are interconnected..some way or another..haha..stupid rite?whatever la..this is my blog i said what i wanted to say..haha..:P

went to watch fireworks yesterday at marina there,somewhere near esplanade..haha..cool..nice...i wanted to watch again...perhaps next sunday...the last one..so far,only like me,yeeling,kaijing(?),kailin,lena(?) and joseph interested..haha..diana?huixin?guirong??interested??15th august???anyone interested???msg me..haha..hehe...well,i was meddling with lena's new bought camera while the fireworks started..haha..dunnoe la..but we 3 are like dian deng pao among them(diana and hj,siew hui and ziyang..) and there's this weird feeling according to lena,not very sure about huixin though..i dun care and i think i dun bother to care..i think i have changed alot..to more heck-care..i dunnoe why the change but i am no longer as concerned about the feelings about my friends and stuff..more insensitive to that,but more sensitive to my own feelings..and i reallie reallie dun wanna be the way i am now..i hate it..it sux..wadeva..i gotta change..but how??????let nature takes its own course ba..

life isn't fair..from the day we are born,nothing is fair..we can't choose our family background,our race,our sex,our features (it is interconnected with the genes of our parents)...after that in life,some are more pretty,some arent as pretty,some are slim,some are more chubby,some are smart,others are just average..i mean we dun get to choose rite??fair??life fair meh??some people attracts more attention than others,some are more favoured by bosses and teachers..some are more fortunate (like me) and yet dun appreciate,others are less fortunate..what is fairness??what is just??how do judges know whether it is fair to sentence one to death or canning or jail??what is fairness??what is justice???who can judge?and why is the person allowed to judge often a male????fair??speaking of fairness...the law made it to male being more vulnerable to being sentenced..coz of the protection of women..fair??to them??i dunnoe la..haha..nuthing is fair in this world..at least in my viewpoint..

anyway,back to watching of the fireworks..nice..very nice..love it...haha..yeah~~goin to watch it again this comin sunday..yeah~~looking forward to it sia..haha...hmm,then it was great la..it would have been better if we are allowed to go into the concert area to watch 5566,r&b,toro,yan xing shu and cyndi..that will be the best sia..but things are always not as we have wanted it to be and so..we are not allowed to go in and watch..hence we go and buy some snowy ice,it is rather popular in taiwan..very soft ice-cream with different favour..and my favourite is snowywhite with chocolate..haha..i LOVE CHOCOLATE..haha..and all my pimples coming out because it was too heaty le..and i got LOADS of CHOCOLATES at home..haha..then we went to sit down and chat la..can see the different grp of people..very obvious..but anyway,they left early for fear that there is no bus for their bf who are sending them home..haha..and we continue to sit lo..haha..and listen to the songs toro sang and cyndi sang..very loud..haha..we then went home la..haha..

yeah~~national day..haha..went to weiqin's house..hehe..no kids..i was cheated..he was not at home until around 6+..when the national day parade is about to start..haha..and so we watched lo..i guess we have different interest in watchin stuff..haha..i wanted to watch the performance and they wanted to watch the marching which i found it so boring...haha...anyway,after the national day concert,we went to the room and chatted..about his school ngee ann poly and stuff la..haha..and also thought me how to play pool..i sux at it sia..haha..hmm,learn quite a great deal on physics..collisions and placing and stuff la..but still i only get a bit of wad he said..haha..anyway,i think this sort of thing gotta train one ba..haha..

yeah..and that marks the end of my national day..haha...anyway,it is kinda boring at first but chatting with weiqin was great..he is only 1 year younger than me and yet he know so much more than me..i was naive i guess..not reallie exposed to things as yet..was much too sheltered and i hope to remain the same..anyway,i hate changes and yet in life,changes are inevitable..hence we gotta make adaption to it..

tired...wanna sleep..got this message from an unknown..haha.."hey did u go to the pageant thing on sat?" guess who is it from???haha...i dunnoe the person also...:P gonna find out soon...tml..

happy birthday to Pohliang..(7th August) and Shinleei(8th August)!!hope you all enjoyed yourself...=)
didn't went to school with xiaojia today and yesterday as she was late..somehow or rather..i am getting used to goin without her..haha...luckily i got my mp 3 to accompany me..which is why i won't be that bored or sian when taking the MRT..but it is damn ex taking MRT and bus loh..hai~~but to go to school everyday..no choice la..i no car mah..so gotta go by train no choice..if can,i will tong pang my classmates car and er ge's car..haha...hehe..save $$ mah..haha..

hai~anyway,i think next wed,i'll have to go alone..so boring..but it is always like this mah..hai~~but lucky me should have someone to send me home..haha..math was boring...why can't she be as funny or as enthusiastic as mr chow??why??hai~~boring..makes me wanna fall asleep..haha..oh yah,then met my primary school pal..haha..farhan suhada..with his girlfriend la..so sweet rite??he accompanied her through out the lecture..keke..and they are sitting in front of me loh..haha..so qiao..keke...

i think econs is better...i've got a feeling that i am not going to do well in maths this time round coz i dun reallie like the lecturer..so no choice i gotta buck up and ask xiaojia any questions i dunnoe le..haha..anyway,she is also taking the maths 1..though she got a different lecturer..which is more fortunate than me..i feel so unfortunate..she got janice to accompany her leh..haha..but never mind la..i am not that close to janice anyway.. :P never mind..as my friends told me,things will get better...hope so...

went to ljs today..haha...yummy..the last time i went there was like with diana and her friends..plus a bit of matchmaking and friend making session..well that time was like er..more of suaning hj(??) haha..but i find it quite fun la..can blend with them...more like my friends instead of just friends of friend..haha..we clique well huh??so fast...especially with siew hui..after some MSN chat we like friends already..haha..wonder will i find that kind of friends in the uni..sometimes i wonder if i will do better in a poly..perhaps..perhaps not..then i think if i am not in JC,i most prob won't be starting this bloggie thingy and neither will my friends ba..haha...eh,then hor i won't noe winnie xiaojia wenning and kailian..joanna deborah and simin...alvin,weiyong,jianyang,weitowe...S13..mr chow,mr oh,mr sum...dawn and see yim at FSC... and perhaps a lot of people who are in my way in life..i dunnoe...perhaps my life would have been so different now...i dunnoe..and i am not sure if i will be happy if that reallie happens..dun dare to think...dun wish to think also...

then xiaojia went to NTUC to buy fruits..haha...funny rite??like aunty..i call her xiaojia aunty..haha...then we walked home(to save some money-->taking bus is reallie expensive...) pass by alvin's house and so,xiaojia called him..but he is not at home...he is at beach road getting his NS stuff..haha...so qiao..eh..then headed home loh..haha..no choice right??keke...

was online by the time i reached home...Msn hj and diana they all at the office..haha...busy sia...typin and playing..quite fun..just that i dunnoe who is talkin wad..haha..yeah...i was a bit disturbed just now...by something some guy said..sad sia..haha..but anyway,i think i will get over it by tomorrow...yeah~~goin to watch fireworks tml...so exciting...

very tired...go and slp le..zzzzzzzzz

first day of school...was nervous yet excited...was browsing for familiar faces..saw a few S14 girls..haha..but dunnoe their names la...hmm..got one even talked to me but i forgot her name..opps..haha..but i recognised her la..haha..met xiaojia for lunch..had chicken rice...hmm..not bad..but i am quite sure we will soon get tired of the food there...mayb can smuggle ourselves to ngee ann to spy on shuai ge..keke and to eat...hai~~if next to my school is SP,it will be so gd..can go find siuling and er ge..and shinleei..haha...so fun rite??but it is not SP next to SIM..it is ngee ann poly..:(

anyway,the lessons was rather boring..and we wasted like 45 minutes watching the video on the middle east conflict show..sian..i almost fell asleep..haha...but i thnk it should leave at least an impact in our mind la..since we watched the video...it will remain in our mind for a longer time rather than listening to him talk la..rite??haha..when he talked,i promised myself to go and read up on all the past GP notes..on wars...the main theme of international relations is about wars,conflicts,peace and cooperation..so i guess i would need a history text from a history student....or perhaps just waiyue is more than enough..keke...better go surf the net for more details...

my last day of work..haha...it was chaotic i would said...my class went mad..haha..anyway,yah,i dun give a damn la...i dun care le..they enjoy as much as i do,i hope..and i reallie hope that they completed their work...i was back to my normal for yesterday..without much shouting and yelling..without any naggings..haha..yeah~~i am back to me..and not ms joceline(they spelled my name wrongly on my pass and so that became my name..) yeah~~i am back to jocelin...haha..i am so happy~~woohoo~~

back to studying from tomorrow onwards..guess i won't be online that often then..hmm..i gotta go school alone..and back alone too...:( sian..but i will be meeting xiaojia for lunch..hurray...it's been a long time since i last met her..anyway,i heard that the canteen food was good..haha..and i was sort of looking forward to it..but not the making friends part..i have always been rather passive..unless that person is a friend of my friend..haha..

joseph offered to send me to school coz he often drove past ngee ann there which is near my school loh..haha...but i think all our time table doesn't fit..hmm...never mind la,er ge..haha...i very much looking forward to goin to zpop...woohoo~~haha...yeah~~got energy,fir,nan quan ma ma,angela,yi da,stell,ah bao and brandy,zhang zhi cheng,victor cheng(kelly's brother) da di,linda,pu shu and sun ho(dun like her but nvm) woh~~haha...reallie goin to be high there sia..but scare cannot see...not very tall you see..haha..

hmm,anyway,tomorrow school reopen le..won't be coming online that often..unless it is school work...but i think i would rather do offline ba..haha..alot of distractions online,u see..chatting...msn,icq,and blogger..hehe..i am addicted to it..and i have been changing the skin for my friends...(tms friends) and i am proud of my masterpiece though there are some of which i would like to put up on my blog..but nvm..keke..oh yah saying this i got to thank hj..haha..he helped me to solve some of the error problem...but hai~~there is more prob to solve..i dunnoe why..haha..and diana's blog also seems to have the error sign..wonder why...anyway,it should be functioning quite ok ba,diana??hehe..u gotta use notepad to type instead of microsoft word le wor..if not all the open close inverted commas and astrprohe will come out weird weird...

was reading hj's bloggie..haha..finally forced him to give me...haha...hmm...his blog makes me think alot..more about people..what he said was true in some sense...people aren't what they said to be..i admit..i do that at times..haha..a liar..and that's me..keke..i am born to lie..:P but or rather there are times when we deceived ourselves to be the way we wanna be and hence told what people what we reallie wanna be instead of our own true self..and there are also times when we are lost and have no idea who we totally are,what we said is our unconfirmed answer of what we are and who we are hence we tend to said out what is untrue of us...alot of reasons why..perhaps they are just excuses...but i think it is within every one of us...we are bound to be lost at times and it is only a matter of time that we finally found ourselves..and be the real us..haha..that is my feeling after reading your 1st entry la,hj..not sure if you agree..but anyway that is just my viewpoint..a bit contradicting..but that is it..haha

hmm..i think he has a meaninful bloggie..furthermore he do his own outlook leh..cool..haha..but incomplete..anyway,it is still cool la..good job,hj..haha..

haha...was super high when i reached home yesterday..funny rite?i wasn't that high in kbox...it was fun la..but not very high..even though we sang high high high,bad boy,mei fei se wu..etc..but we sang long enough...6 hours...cool huh?and we paid less than $10 each leh...cool sia...haha...keke..yeah...super high....yipee...and we finally confirm that we want to go z pop...yeah~~so happie...my mum actually allows me to go...woohoo~~~

yeah~~got a new handphone today given to me by my uncle..hehe..6100(same as lena one...) anyway, i finally got a color screen phone...it's free of charge woh~~yipee..i am so happy and disppointed that it is not a flip phone but nevertheless i am satisfied with it..hehe...and he messaged me also..keke..yeah..and tomorrow is my last day to work..and joseph got the tix..we are goin to z pop...i am so excited..who is goin??diana,her cousin,yeeling and her friend,lena,joseph and his friend and me...oh i am so super duper high now..can't sleep..yipee...haha...

stein said he got something for me..wonder what it is..was trying my best to spend as much time as i could with him..haha..i will be leaving soon and he sounds so sad..and that's what make me touched..haha..oh yah..he amazed me sia..he could recognise all the car type with just a look at the car shape leh...cool sia..haha..was testing him as we walked home...amazing...cool...haha...

even one of the staff asked me not to go study and should continue working there..haha...ask me to stay..i am so touched by their action though it may seems a small matter..haha..i think i am starting to think like winky in harry potter and the goblet of fire(book 4).."what will my master do without me??" keke..who is goin to fetch the children?who is goin to send vina and lishan to tuition?who is goin to take over classroom 2??haha..without me,everything mite not be the same..hehe...am i that important?i guess i am..haha..in some sense...but i dun think i will be staying because they can't do without me..and ms olivia is asking the head (ms gina) whether i could take up j0bs on just monday and tuesday..of which ms olivia could then rest or perhaps do her admin stuff in the office...

hmm...i think i should work la,it shouldn't affect my studies much right?? hmm,my fees are rising..and i might be paying more and more,around 10k per year...including exam fees and stuff...almost double what ntu/nus people are paying..no choice i am studying in a private uni...should be able to cope with my studies ba..at least i hope so..except perhaps international relations..i think i sux at it..and i gotta take it..sian...xiaojia dun have to take that leh..why so unfair??haha...nvm la...take it as a challenge..since the day i choose sim,everything is goin to be a challenge to me i think..haha...and hai~~gotta meet new people..haha..sian...i am terrible in making friends...i hope i will do well and not pissed anyone off..haha..dunnoe...feeling excited and yet nervous about first day of school,which is like 36 hours later??haha...startin with international relations...my most unreadable topic..(i went through the guide book not having a single clue of what it is about...) well,let's hope everything goes well and the tutor dun turn me off..haha...

wanna highlight my hair...but dad dun allow...should i go anyway??i dunnoe haha...how???