went to junwei's house today but ended up in school.. hahaz.. went back to TPJC.. yesh,again.. coz junwei's mum find it inconvenient.. abit guilty.. coz every time we go over,it is sort of like a last minute decision and somemore we didnt reallie settle down to practise with him.. so he like got not much of a improvement.. but he is reallie clever.. and he understood what we said.. haha.. then may 19th we got to attend another course to help him further in his communication.. hope it will be beneficial to him.. hahaz..

anyway,we went back to find ms yan, mr ivan sum and mr chow.. hahaz.. yeah~ finally got to find them.. hahaz.. but think joanna feel a bit awkward ba.. haha.. coz i am closer to these teachers as compared to her.. hahaz... she only close to mr oh and mrs wendy goh.. meet mrs wendy goh too.. hahaz.. said we are very free ar.. hahaz.. then talk crap with ms yan and mr ivan sum.. haha.. but that's what we often do mah.. keke..

then msg alvin lo coz mr sum wants to ask about his results as he will be checking his papers.. but he havent check yet and so we crap again loh.. haha.. he's going to NUS for the interview and he say it is more like a chat..informal kind of interview talking about ambition,family and stuff loh... hahaz.. sounds so casual hor?? haha.. then we meet up so i could pass him his disc.. he even wants to treat me supper.. siao ar.. but in the end didnt la.. coz mum dun allow me to go out so late.. hai~ miss a chance.. haha..

yeah~~!went to meet cyndi today...

yipee..hehez..but i went alone..hahaz..kaijing couldn't make it in the last minute and so i gotta go alone..coz my other friends couldn't make it..so never mind i decide to go alone...also a test to see if i can reallie survive anything,like shopping or whatsoever alone..

and the answer:i realise i couldn't stand being alone..hehe..i even made friends just by asking if the queue starts here..li hai ba?!hahaz..can't believe it?!i can't too..hahaz..then made a few more friends just by some anonymous people cutting queues..haiz..just let them be loh,hope they won't repeat this cutting queue act lo..we queued for around 2 hours le..then they just cut in..not fair right?

haiz..anyway,got some guy to help me get the autograph..coz 1 person can only have 1 signed,i suppose..hahaz..and that guy is a friend of the person queuing in front of us..hahaz..he also wanna see cyndi but never get her disc lohz..so hahaz..i helped him in the same way he had helped me ba..haha...no disc also,wanna steal for wad??!!haha..

oh yah,she very pretty..reallie...but i think she look a bit too thin...hahaz..wonder if she is that thin from start??!!i suppose ba..hahaz..just said hi and never get to shake her hand..wasn't allowed..

the dj was toshi from ufm100.3..quite shuai la..but not reallie my type..hahaz..erm,what my type??hahaz...i also dunnoe..haven't reallie figure out..have you guys figure out??

marry a rich man,the movie is very cooL..haha..very cute and sweet at some parts..hahaz...do i want a rich man?or do i want love?will i be full without bread but with love?or would i rather have bread and not love??
i dunnoe how about you?

tired..

i am reallie very tired nowadays..very easily get tired..am i getting older?or am i just bored with the life i am leading now??haiz..just had lunch with waiyue lena and guirong..haha..haiz..been spending a lot lately,more than what i have earned..hahaz...wanna save to buy a flip-open camera with camera and maybe a discman..hahaz..

tml audition for the stardust..dunnoe if i should join or not..haha..seems like there's gonna be very tough competition...

been having some sort of problems lately,with myself..and my job..seems like i have not reallie use my authority right on the children..they are not scared of me..maybe because i was just like their sister and in a sense not like their parents that age..maybe that's why..and i think i also treat them like my bros and sis..perhaps that's why..i am more of a friend to them than a teacher (programme officer,as they call it at the centre)

talked to the supervisor..she was wondering what i lacked that the children are not afraid of me..hahaz..i think the age factor affects a lot ba..and maybe also my inability in handling the children..i am not fierce enough..what else?and i cliqued more with them??!!hahaz..they will tell me their secrets,etc..hehe..who they admire etc..hehe..and also they complain to me about some of the stuff they dun like..i just listen lo..can't expect me to make any comments right?

haiz..maybe i should keep a distance from them le ba..haiz..tough decision...

class gathering today..expected around maybe 14 people,but turned up only 10 ba.. namely joanna,deborah,simin,winnie,kailian,peisi eileen,ziwei and me..weitowe and weiyong joined us slightly later..then meet jacqueline who was working when we are waiting for others to arrive..she was doin some survey on the trust.sg..i think i see tha logo on the sunday times,in the comic section before leh..hahaz..

the response..haiz..i am utterly disappointed..very disappointing indeed..haiz..next time,i won't be organising already..even though simin said she expected it,but i still very much take it to heart..well,i think that's me lo..

could actually see that we are not reallie enjoying ourselves very much..some actually didn't want to eat marche but we couldn't reallie come to a decision so still marche in the end..wasn't in a great mood,that's all i can say..coz i just couldn't believe that out of 14 guys i have asked,only 3 turned up and i think ziwei reallie feels out-of-place when both weiyong and weitowe were not around..anyway,i also feel slightly awkward..dunnoe why..and a bit paiseh..told the others around 14-16 will turn up but in the end..such poor response..all last minute say couldn't turn up..expected la..but i just couldn't reallie the fact that i am such poor organiser then..
reallie feel like crying at one point of time..but managed not to..tried very hard to enjoy myself but couldn't help being sad..until maybe i finally got to give up on organising..and get to xiang tong(think over?) le..hai~

after joanna and deb went home,perhaps due to the boring activities or just purely curfews,i dunnoe..we decided to go to a shop selling coffee to chat..just purely chat..meet weitowe who was coming to join us,or rather just meet us for a short and a reallie short while..hahaz...then he left for clubbing le lor..when weiyong came to find us to accompany him go home..haha..but we(aka me and eileen) weren't quite prepared to go home so early,haha..we both had iced coffee..the cheapest and i supposed the most unnice..it's awfully bitter..reminds me cyndi's song..haha..on my way..hai~ doubt i can sleep well tonight...

didn't reallie talk much,even to joanna..sorrie ger..i was not in the mood to talk much..hehe..and like got nothing much to say..haha..we meet too often le..hehe..

hopefully,everyone enjoyed themselves lah..haha..coz i didn't reallie enjoyed much..too disappointed to even enjoy..haha

thanks for everyone's concern...my leg is better soon..keke..the skin had dried up and i could start work..hehe...my day back to work..haha..so touched that the kids said that they miss me..hehe...so sweet of them rite?but actually only one of them(his name is stein) said that he reallie miss me,hahaz,coz i always walk home with him,the rest just asked me why i never come..haha..hehe..i am so touched anyway..hehe..

then they started asking about my leg..actuallie i also dunnoe how to explain to them what happened to my leg..coz i also not very sure about the details..hehe..that's me always so blur..hehe...yeah~~i am the blur queen..=P

oh yah,almost forget to mention that me and joanna went back to our college...and we found mr kwek..surprise?he hasn't left the college and he's teaching year 2 now,think yuming in his class ba..if i am not wrong(but i blur like sotong so mayb not hehe) then also found mr oh..asked mr kwek to help us call him..hehe..then he quite surprised to see us..even offered us sweets(just like before)..hehe..talked about NKF and our lives etc..also talked about the course we intending to go to this coming july/august,asked me and joanna to talk up chinese..hahaz..try la,kkiez??tried to find mr sum and mr chow but couldn't find them..mr sum in meeting..still can msg replie me somemore..haha..then also meet mrs wendy goh..but she dunnoe me so didn't reallie talk much to her la..haha...

after meeting all the teachers,we went to find yuming..hehe...he looked more cheerful than before..hehe..and i managed to scare him and a friend of mine..hehe..talked to yuming,then realised that alvin they all didn't managed to see him perform when they visited his church..funny sia..haha..they were standing outside the gate...-.-"' hahaz...then also meet davy and weitowe..haha..so re nao..that weitowe aR..got bball competition,then he was perspiring like dunnoe wad..hahaz..

anyway,think we will be having the class outing this saturday..looking forward to it lehz..hahaz..but like quite a few ppl can't make it..haiz..too bad lo..next time organise hope more ppl can go..haha..mayb only organise the girl one or wad..hehe..bbQ??or ktv??hehe..some very bad lehz...didn't replie me..haiz~~high bills this mth again!!hehe..better stop crappin..my bills...

today i am on MC again,this time for 2 days..sianz..haiz...been not workin for long lately..just had fever...now my legs sore and i can't walk..poor thing rite??think it kena some viruses,according to the doctor..and now it is red and swollen and bloody..hope you guys have digested your food when you are reading this part..coz it is really disgusting and imagine,i gotta live with it...

haiz...now no nice show..and showbiz doesn't air in the morning le..was thinking of goin back to tpjc on wednesday morning with joanna..but guess,i can't walk much..it's reallie painful..it was worse on sunday..hehe..maybe saturdy walked too much..haiz..

okok,let's talk about something more cheerful..about the NKF show,did you guys donated?if not please call the donation hotlines...hehe..i remembered when we helped out last year as our class CIP project..and it was fun!! this year got ENERGY lehz..hahaz..so cool...hehe..i am crazy over them,kk??hehe..and also got mayday..but i quite disappointed they never sing the song i like--er wo zhi dao..but nvm the other 2 songs they sang also very nice..hehe..also got the teochew show..hehe..very nice,although i only understand what they singing via the subtitles..hehe..and also the dong fang bu bai..haha..other than that,also got sun's performance which i think it is rather brave of her to not to let out any sound even though it is painful..(can see from her expression) then sharon au and jack neo also very brave..especially sharon as the blade could just cut her skin without any mercy..haiz..this sound sad too...haiz...guess if i said more,you guys will be more sad..haha..kk,tata..

haiz..today after work,meet joanna,martin and ellen at tampines interchange eat kfc,then watch the passion of chirst at ellen's house...but i am not reallie close to her but nevertheless,glad that she had asked joanna to invite me and allowed me to go to her house...her house very BIG lehz...hahaz...3 storeys high..considered to be a terrence?or what??keke..i also dunnoe..she also got a pet..look like hamster..but it seems big..hahaz..everything in her house all very BIG..hahaz..

anyway,the show was confusing to me...alvin agreed too that it is confusing..hahaz...think it is mayb because we are non-christians maybe that's y ba...hehez...talkin about alvin,he aR..almost forget his buddy birthday lehz...so bad one..but guys are like this rite??hehe..so poor teck,got no birthday wishes from the guys(he say 1)but anyway,heard that they are going to yuming's church to see him performing..i guess,yuming is back to yuming le ba..as in his secondary school days..hahaz..

by the way,i wanna go and watch cyndi wang xin ling...who's interested in accompanying me there??hehez...i am crazy i think...over a girl...hahaz..but i think she's very sweet looking..a bit like xiao jia...hahaz...heck-care me..i am mad..

i have high fever,38.6..hahaz..and i am still working...but until 5pm...no choice,not enough helpers there as one of the stuff had a long term MC due to her leg injuries...erm,anyway,i think i sick better lehz...at least the children seems to be more obedient..hahaz...maybe i think i am too sick to feel that they are noisy le ba..hehe..right now rested enough le...temp dropped to 37.6 liao...hehe...good rite?

by the way,one of the ex-student care student msged me via sms saying haloz as she saw me walking towards th bus-stop on my way home at around 5+..strange rite?i mean when i met her in sch,she doesn't say hi or wad..didn't even smile..then suddenly msg..haiz...weird kids nowadays..hai~~dunnoe wad to say to her also..since i am not very close to her or what...didn't even talk to her before face to face..hahaz...can see the power of hp affecting the life of the younger generation...how much it is affecting their life..becoming one of the source of communication...haiz...

remember in the past,we have to use phone,letter,or even worse can only communicate in the sch..and yet now...hp is becoming more and more widely used...in every 4 person in singapore,i guess at least 3 have handphones...haiz...handphones--friends or foes??

here are some of the pics we took with rong's digicam...just wanna share with you guys...btw,it's my first time uploadin pics...keke...


this is yeeling and me,with my pasta at BREEKS(tampines mall basement...) she just cut her hair..hehe...


this is one of my favourite picture...nice right?heez...think it is quite sweet hahaz...=P


this is also another of my favourite picture,when i am lying down on kailin's lap..keke...

ps.more pics at this webbie..but you must be a member of imagestation..but it's FOC...so hope you guys can go and see..=)
http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=4287245683

haiz... today still must work.. but luckily this coming friday is a PUBLIC holidays.. haiz..most of my friends are becomin slackers now..hahaz...coz their job ended in march...i mean the contract and stuff..heez...i am applying for smu now...a bit late hor?hehe...but just decided to try out lohz...if can't get in only a waste of $15 mahz...kekez...but at least can buy a hope ba..=) dunnoe lehz...i feel that the greater the hope the greater the disappointment also...haiz...would you rather have hope or live in despair,for fear of disappointment with hope??i choose the latter though..hahaz...no disappointment..i have been disappointed for LOADS and TONS of times..i already lose hope in everything i do,even when i like someone...haiz...when is my prince charming goin to appeaR???when??where??

shower me with love...i need it...reallie...

today is maymay's birthday..it's been a LONG LONG time since i last met her..wonder how she is doing now..haiz...although i have messaged her a birthday message,i am still worried that we would soon lost touch and i will just lose a fren...sad hor??coz sometimes,i feel that i have nuthin to sae to her about..she is in poly and i am in jc..i dunno how she had passed her life for the past 2 years..and i doubt she noe much about mine either..we have different views in lives...will one day happened as such that we meet each other on the streets,and we treat each other like strangers??hai~~that will be sad rite??

so you guys(and gers)out there,do stay in close contact and let our friendship remains~!kkiez??promisE??

hi,i am back again... it's seems like yesterday when joanna told me online that leslie cheung had passed away... time reallie flies.. one year have passed.. all the A-level, prom, dragonboating, netball/badminton tournament etc etc seems it just happened yesterday when i read my old entries from my open diary.. the memories are still fresh in my mind(this is rare as i have a rather poor memory..keke)

time flies sia... haiz... i reallie miss school in JC.. and i regretted not treasuring as much as i should have.. haiz.. reallie...

i could have........

i could have..............

too late.. all is too late now... time will never go back again.. haiz... in life,we have loads of regrets... no matter what we do.. even if we have done well,we will still regret in another way.. as we do sacrifice in order to achieve something else.. hence we regret when things come to this "mess".. we can't get what we want everytime...

that's life..

haiz...

it sux right??

02S13,i miss you guys LOADS!!! reallie... hope we can go out together some time as a class???!!! guess i gotta go offline now,reallie spent a lot on this internet surfing lately... hahaz... till then tata and let's keep in close contact,kkiez???

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