lol.
28 September 2011
ah yeah
lol.
21 September 2011
one day
a beat up blue convertible
with red leather seats
we'll head out far away
and break down somewhere
but it won't matter
cause it'll be us waitin on the sunset
PS click on pic for bigger
19 September 2011
best year ever
this year i realised some people i used to consider as 'close friends' - and i did try to be there (when i could. but there's only so much i could do) for em if they're down, layan-ing when they're bored, try to be on the same wavelengths, always including em in any plans/keeping em and myself uptodate - were probably never friends with me anyways. like yesterday's paper i'm no longer of use and should just be chucked out. i know i shouldn't mind and i should just move on, but seriously?
while i spent countless hours listening to you as you poured your heart out when you were at a low and digging my brain thinking of advices to give, holding my patience and suppressing my frustration at how easily you brushed them all off, convincing myself you're just in a bad mood and don't actually mean it when you kept accusing me of mocking you; i think i need to stop ignoring the fact that your picture of me is just that - useless. since now you have the bestest friends you could ever ask for, thanks for forgetting me.
and you. as we acted as if nothing happened and continued on where we left off (when it was all fine and dandy), you just have to ask if everything's alright. after you crushed my confidence and pushed me away 10thousand times, really? thanks for showing me what the best and worst feel like.
while i spent countless hours listening to you as you poured your heart out when you were at a low and digging my brain thinking of advices to give, holding my patience and suppressing my frustration at how easily you brushed them all off, convincing myself you're just in a bad mood and don't actually mean it when you kept accusing me of mocking you; i think i need to stop ignoring the fact that your picture of me is just that - useless. since now you have the bestest friends you could ever ask for, thanks for forgetting me.
and you. as we acted as if nothing happened and continued on where we left off (when it was all fine and dandy), you just have to ask if everything's alright. after you crushed my confidence and pushed me away 10thousand times, really? thanks for showing me what the best and worst feel like.
18 September 2011
of half fulls and half emptys
Dear Optimist, Pessimist, and Realist. While you guys were arguing about the cup of water. I drank it.
The Opportunist
Yep
I'm the bad guy. again.
You laid yourself bare and we shared
Holding on to every little thing I said
You worked your way through my world
Creeping up my conscience and seeing me right through
With those kind words and a gentle voice
You started pulling me into that lonely world of yours
And I got so scared
I may have done you wrong but
You will never know you drove me to the brink of insanity
You laid yourself bare and we shared
Holding on to every little thing I said
You worked your way through my world
Creeping up my conscience and seeing me right through
With those kind words and a gentle voice
You started pulling me into that lonely world of yours
And I got so scared
I may have done you wrong but
You will never know you drove me to the brink of insanity
15 September 2011
ssss
Saxophones sound so sexy.
and the semiconscious lead singing and groovin mm
Loving the double sax on the Hamish&Andy show. Double saxiness.
13 September 2011
Porque doktorr
Recently, much has been mentioned about the number of med graduates being produced and released back at 'ze motherland', subsequently affecting the quality of the compulsory housemanship training these fresh meat undergo before becoming a full-fledged medical officer (the actual competent and self-able doctor). Which isn't really a surprise judging by the sheer number of medical schools back home (today itself a new medical school has officially opened its doors to its first batch of med students. There are at least 2 more that have been confirmed to be on their way - and will be opening soon enough).
New private colleges/universities offering medical degrees, other privates creating their own medical courses, and batch sizes that seem to be growing each year are collectively a testament to how this once prestigious (not meaning to sound pompous but there *is* a reason why many parents have actively encouraged/pushed/forced their kids into the medical field) course has now been reduced to a mere cash cow. Dissecting further, one would discover how exorbitant the fees could be in a private medical school just to have the students learn most things on their own (which is generally the direction most modern schools are leaning towards these days) and show up to school only to be tested/questioned. You could probably argue that traditionally, medical schools have always been expensive. However, back then there were lectures whole day everyday, fresh cadavers for students to explore etc. So where do all the money paid today actually go to? This most likely end up as insurance fees (just in case a patient sues - more on this next time) but this would only be logical if the student is in his/her clinical phase. If a student is only cooped up at home with their books, attending uni for a few hours a day, with zilch interaction with real patients, what actually happens to all these money? Sure, there is the occasional library update and renovations for a more comfortable (both physically and to the eyes) space, but there is only so much that can be bought. Would it really be a surprise for a sizeable amount of money to end up in someone's pocket?
A few years back, there was already an awareness about the exponentially increasing number of medical trainees. A famous (or infamous) politician who was a medical doctor himself once put it this way, 'if you throw a rock out a window, you would not hit a doctor but five' (well, something along that line). Generally, developing (and even developed) countries have always had a shortage of medical professionals. Doctor:patient ratios in town areas usually are comparable to what WHO deem as ideal whereas the situation is not that optimistic rural-ly (note that we are using ratios instead of actual numbers - there would be more doctors in urban areas as the number of patient intake is much higher). Logically speaking, who would want to venture out into uncertainty; where help would be harder to access should he/she encounter difficulty, fewer colleague support to fall back on, and technology enough to just survive. Not forgetting, these doctors are more likely than not, pure urban, having been raised in the luxury of hygiene and comfort. It was probably the honest intention of wanting to improve the ratios in rural areas that have lead to the encouragement/approval by the government/medical council in any steps that would lead to more medically trained students, especially considering the brain drain problem that has been plaguing the country. But really, who would blame the soundminded people who have tasted (ie in Western countries) the sweetness of real democracy (at least relatively to back home), the culture of celebrating and sharing knowledge, the more humane working conditions; and all these on top of the better remuneration. Flooding the market with doctors in such a short period of time with hopes of keeping up with the rate of this drainage may soon backfire. We are currently just starting to feel the burden of congesting the wards with students and junior doctors.
Junior doctors/housemen/interns are on paper, doctors, but not quite there yet. With the year of housemanship (proposals/decisions to increase this to 2 since it was deemed 1 year was not enough - and this goes back to the main point of this post), these juniors are further trained; with them adjusting to their new-found responsibility, easing up to their capabilities, as well as identifying and fixing their own weaknesses. Each junior would be assigned to look after a ward, thus optimizing the variability of disorders/illnesses they encounter and teach em skills eg time management, patient/procedure-prioritising (perhaps the phrase 'working better under pressure' is appropriate here). That was how the system worked, or at least how I've always thought it was. Imagine the horror having a senior doctor expressing his concern regarding the crowding in the wards by junior doctors, how each junior is allocated to just 4(seriously?) patients each and there aren't enough senior doctors/consultants to conduct teaching thus compromising their learning. In the blog by this particular doc, terms such as 'pasar malam' were used and it just seems all too worrying. Of course, the fact that the hospital this doctor is working in is one of the main teaching hospitals is a justifiable reason, but with over 30 medical schools in the country churning out junior doctors by the factoryload and the homecoming docs (from the world over), where do these freshfaces go for training? We can't just dump them at a small hospital with no senior docs to guide them - where's the training?.
Having said all that tho, one good thing about having many doctors is the shifting system could then be tuned as such that work would now be less taxing on doctors and thus a possible reduction in complications associated with having overworked docs. And we could always roster out the junior docs who have finished their training (or towards the end) at a teaching/bigger hospital to the rural areas, and therefore (hopefully), achieving the dream to have a better doc:patient ratio.
Personally, I would agree with any arrangement that enables me to learn and get the valuable (and much needed) exposure before I put my license to kill to use. Crossing fingers that things would get sorted out and there would be an efficient organization by the time I enter the system (I won't even enter a sarcastic comment to avoid jinxing it).
(Here I did not mention: prospects of having more doctors going into specializations and meeting the high demands in the country, liability and the culture of suing, med jobs or lack thereof in other countries)
New private colleges/universities offering medical degrees, other privates creating their own medical courses, and batch sizes that seem to be growing each year are collectively a testament to how this once prestigious (not meaning to sound pompous but there *is* a reason why many parents have actively encouraged/pushed/forced their kids into the medical field) course has now been reduced to a mere cash cow. Dissecting further, one would discover how exorbitant the fees could be in a private medical school just to have the students learn most things on their own (which is generally the direction most modern schools are leaning towards these days) and show up to school only to be tested/questioned. You could probably argue that traditionally, medical schools have always been expensive. However, back then there were lectures whole day everyday, fresh cadavers for students to explore etc. So where do all the money paid today actually go to? This most likely end up as insurance fees (just in case a patient sues - more on this next time) but this would only be logical if the student is in his/her clinical phase. If a student is only cooped up at home with their books, attending uni for a few hours a day, with zilch interaction with real patients, what actually happens to all these money? Sure, there is the occasional library update and renovations for a more comfortable (both physically and to the eyes) space, but there is only so much that can be bought. Would it really be a surprise for a sizeable amount of money to end up in someone's pocket?
A few years back, there was already an awareness about the exponentially increasing number of medical trainees. A famous (or infamous) politician who was a medical doctor himself once put it this way, 'if you throw a rock out a window, you would not hit a doctor but five' (well, something along that line). Generally, developing (and even developed) countries have always had a shortage of medical professionals. Doctor:patient ratios in town areas usually are comparable to what WHO deem as ideal whereas the situation is not that optimistic rural-ly (note that we are using ratios instead of actual numbers - there would be more doctors in urban areas as the number of patient intake is much higher). Logically speaking, who would want to venture out into uncertainty; where help would be harder to access should he/she encounter difficulty, fewer colleague support to fall back on, and technology enough to just survive. Not forgetting, these doctors are more likely than not, pure urban, having been raised in the luxury of hygiene and comfort. It was probably the honest intention of wanting to improve the ratios in rural areas that have lead to the encouragement/approval by the government/medical council in any steps that would lead to more medically trained students, especially considering the brain drain problem that has been plaguing the country. But really, who would blame the soundminded people who have tasted (ie in Western countries) the sweetness of real democracy (at least relatively to back home), the culture of celebrating and sharing knowledge, the more humane working conditions; and all these on top of the better remuneration. Flooding the market with doctors in such a short period of time with hopes of keeping up with the rate of this drainage may soon backfire. We are currently just starting to feel the burden of congesting the wards with students and junior doctors.
Junior doctors/housemen/interns are on paper, doctors, but not quite there yet. With the year of housemanship (proposals/decisions to increase this to 2 since it was deemed 1 year was not enough - and this goes back to the main point of this post), these juniors are further trained; with them adjusting to their new-found responsibility, easing up to their capabilities, as well as identifying and fixing their own weaknesses. Each junior would be assigned to look after a ward, thus optimizing the variability of disorders/illnesses they encounter and teach em skills eg time management, patient/procedure-prioritising (perhaps the phrase 'working better under pressure' is appropriate here). That was how the system worked, or at least how I've always thought it was. Imagine the horror having a senior doctor expressing his concern regarding the crowding in the wards by junior doctors, how each junior is allocated to just 4(seriously?) patients each and there aren't enough senior doctors/consultants to conduct teaching thus compromising their learning. In the blog by this particular doc, terms such as 'pasar malam' were used and it just seems all too worrying. Of course, the fact that the hospital this doctor is working in is one of the main teaching hospitals is a justifiable reason, but with over 30 medical schools in the country churning out junior doctors by the factoryload and the homecoming docs (from the world over), where do these freshfaces go for training? We can't just dump them at a small hospital with no senior docs to guide them - where's the training?.
Having said all that tho, one good thing about having many doctors is the shifting system could then be tuned as such that work would now be less taxing on doctors and thus a possible reduction in complications associated with having overworked docs. And we could always roster out the junior docs who have finished their training (or towards the end) at a teaching/bigger hospital to the rural areas, and therefore (hopefully), achieving the dream to have a better doc:patient ratio.
Personally, I would agree with any arrangement that enables me to learn and get the valuable (and much needed) exposure before I put my license to kill to use. Crossing fingers that things would get sorted out and there would be an efficient organization by the time I enter the system (I won't even enter a sarcastic comment to avoid jinxing it).
(Here I did not mention: prospects of having more doctors going into specializations and meeting the high demands in the country, liability and the culture of suing, med jobs or lack thereof in other countries)
11 September 2011
Lucky
I would've mentioned towards the end of last week as being crappy and that most things just seemed to be going against me. I know I shouldn't whine because compared to a lot of people, I probably am considered to have everything. Normally when things don't go right (I don't think there's much that can go wrong - I'd like to believe I lead a very simple life. And life isn't perfect, but with a roof over my head and not having to go to bed hungry, it's pretty damn good), I'd brush em off and convince myself that
1)they happen for a reason
2)they are fated to happen to avoid things even worse
3)minor hiccups do happen in life every once in a while
4)there are lessons to be learnt for future reference and
5)it won't be long before life is good/awesome again.
It was probably things happening one after another that finally made me crack (well that and pms). I lost a lot monetarily, wasted a lot of time, went on an emotional rollercoaster, and even lost some self-esteem. The gloomy/rainy weather certainly didn't help. So I decided to cocoon myself in the room the past few days. Now after 4 or 5 movies, all the macro and microsleeps, and food, things have been starting to look up, especially considering all the other little things (sometimes being grateful helps :p).
-Managed to use the washing machine without much competition from the other residents
-Back to sunny (tho still windy) weather
-My attempts to book flights to and fro home have gone through (thus no longer being nagged by mum)
-Car works in progress (will still need to get the opinion of my garageguy to help decide on something)
-Requested a movie to be downloaded by one of the hostel residents (and he/she is downloading now. actually could've sat in the wards while it was looped continuously for a few days while I was doing paediatrics at another hospital)
-Went for job training (which actually is pretty light but the pay does not start/rise for a bit of time. a bit of regret having bought tickets back home but meh)
-I think I can still survive this month but mum said to use credit card for stuff
-Going caving soon (have booked the 'tour'/acco etc)
-Someone made a song for me
So yep. Life's good again (albeit gonna be busier) :D
Here is a catchy song I've been replaying
1)they happen for a reason
2)they are fated to happen to avoid things even worse
3)minor hiccups do happen in life every once in a while
4)there are lessons to be learnt for future reference and
5)it won't be long before life is good/awesome again.
It was probably things happening one after another that finally made me crack (well that and pms). I lost a lot monetarily, wasted a lot of time, went on an emotional rollercoaster, and even lost some self-esteem. The gloomy/rainy weather certainly didn't help. So I decided to cocoon myself in the room the past few days. Now after 4 or 5 movies, all the macro and microsleeps, and food, things have been starting to look up, especially considering all the other little things (sometimes being grateful helps :p).
-Managed to use the washing machine without much competition from the other residents
-Back to sunny (tho still windy) weather
-My attempts to book flights to and fro home have gone through (thus no longer being nagged by mum)
-Car works in progress (will still need to get the opinion of my garageguy to help decide on something)
-Requested a movie to be downloaded by one of the hostel residents (and he/she is downloading now. actually could've sat in the wards while it was looped continuously for a few days while I was doing paediatrics at another hospital)
-Went for job training (which actually is pretty light but the pay does not start/rise for a bit of time. a bit of regret having bought tickets back home but meh)
-I think I can still survive this month but mum said to use credit card for stuff
-Going caving soon (have booked the 'tour'/acco etc)
-Someone made a song for me
So yep. Life's good again (albeit gonna be busier) :D
Here is a catchy song I've been replaying
7 September 2011
culture
I've always thought the world could do without all the segregation based on culture, race, and religion. If Mother Nature had her way, everyone would be made up of a little bit of most things, with above average/unique looks and genetic disorders usually running in families kept to a minimum. There would be no countries, and nothing to kill or die for.. (cue Lennon's Imagine)
Having said that tho, the Maoris are actually pretty darn cool (refer to vid)
Having said that tho, the Maoris are actually pretty darn cool (refer to vid)
6 September 2011
5 September 2011
4 September 2011
We're on this rollercoaster ride
Here are the other 90s (+ possible outliers) that I didn't wanna add to the previous one
Link!
Link!
Awesome 90s
Finally after months, and having stumbled upon a list of 90s fav by a youtube user, I've decided to compile some nonoverlyloveydovey stuff from the 90s (but there are various outliers in too heh) with the help of friends last night. Didn't add all the MLTR, Spice Girls, Blink182 etc as I feel like they're still kinda fresh in the head (yah this list is biased but it's my list so it's ok. i've replayed some of the ones here to death over the last year or so but i can't bring myself not to add em in). A lot of these are more upbeat, have catchy choruses, and colourful/lolworthy vids. Also unintelligible rapping/reading/saying and prolly references to drugs/sex. But it's ok cause I was/we were young and blissfully ignorant back in the day :)
1.Semisonic - Closing Time
2.EMF - Unbelievable
3.Tal Bachman - She's So High
4.New Radicals - You Get What You Give
5.Blur - Song 2
6.The Wallflowers - One Headlight
7.Weezer - I Want You To
8.Scissor Sisters - Laura
9.The Cure - Friday I'm In Love (totally not 90s but meh)
10.Blur - Girls and Boys
11.Supergrass - Alright
12.The Androids - Do It With Madonna
13.No Mercy - Where Do You Go
14.Third Eye Blind - Jumper
15.Cornershop - Brimful of Asha
16.OMC - How Bizarre
17.Third Eye Blind - Semi Charmed Life
18.Fastball - The Way
19.Lit - My Own Worst Enemy
20.Barenaked Ladies - Pinch Me
21.Bloodhound Gang - The Bad Touch
22.Matchbox Twenty - Mad Season
23.Matchbox Twenty - Push (might as well)
24.The Cardigans - Lovefool
25.No Doubt - Sunday Morning
26.Real McCoy - Another Night
27.Lit - Looks Like They Were Right (i like the changing clothes part)
28.Smashmouth - Why Can't We Be Friends
29.Chumbawamba - Tubthumping
30.Spin Doctors - Two Princes
31.Madison Avenue - Don't Call Me Baby
32.Jennifer Paige - Crush
33.Jimmy Eat World - The Middle
34.Sixpence None The Richer - There She Goes
35.Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me (how can i not add this)
36.The Cardigans - My Favourite Game (this + Aerosmith's Crazy vid are some of my all-time fav)
37.The Cardigans - Erase and Rewind
38.Eiffel - Blue
39.
So so what happened to all of the other stuff eg how can I not add No Doubt's other stuff, this other band and that other band? And might as well add in more of the non90s stuff since I've got quite a few up there.. Well actually I don't really know which is when baha! (read: too lazy to lookup) But the list is still under construction/renovation so ;) (well actually it depends on my laziness level)
1 September 2011
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