You killed what was left of the good in me. I'm tired so let me be broken. Look down at the mess that's in front of me. No other words needs to be spoken.

如果有一天我不再主動找你 不是因爲你不重要了 而是我不知道我還重不重要...

幸福無法比較，也不該拿來比較 猶記得考上研究所那天，喜孜孜地上網與人分享喜悅，霍然瞟見一位暱稱「幸福人」的，不知怎麼回事，我的好勝心及優越感油然而生，竟產生了和她一較長短的念頭。 我大言不慚地表示：「我剛考上國立研究所，有個疼我的男朋友和經濟寬裕的父母，妳有比我更幸福嗎」？ 我思忖著，徜若她要比我更幸福，除非她的學歷比我高，家世比我好。 過了良久，她終於從電腦的另一端回了話，她說：「我出了車禍，斷了右腿，但很幸運我還有左腿，也因為出車禍，我失去了男友，這才發現世界上還有父母深愛著我，這就是我的幸福。 也許我的幸福在你的眼中顯得微不足道，但我真的感覺到很幸福」。 她的話令我頓時感到無地自容，在這充滿競爭、嗜血的社會中，居然幼稚到連「幸福」都要拿來比？ 我向她道歉，並且和她聊了一會兒。 至今快一年了，我還記得她對我說的話：「幸福是無法比較的，妳有妳的幸福，我有我的，我們的幸福互不牴觸」。 是的，幸福無法比較，也不該拿來比較。願每個人都能了解個中道理，尋找或創作出屬於自己獨一無二的幸福。 其實幸福就在我們的身邊，我們本身就是幸福的化身，或許只是我們沒有好好的靜下心去體會，其實，在這個世上，我們已經擁有太多人窮盡一生都難以實現的幸福了。 我沒去過尼泊爾，也沒有去過衣索匹亞，但從朋友的闡述中，眼眶濕了。 這不只是同情，而是懊悔自己的不知足。若他們心中有一個天堂，或許這個天堂就是我們目前所身處的地方

我還不夠好 抱歉 我不否認 時間一晃動 記憶就模糊了 我們的愛沒有防手震 我很努力想著你 卻都失真 倒退的逆時針 慌亂陪襯 全世界靜止了 我也真的失去你了 怎麼不心疼 怎麼會發生 我們兩個人 快變成陌生人 失戀誰不悶 都不要再問 又醒著到清晨 愛情裡 太多轉折 我自己 找平衡 總之 離開了 祝福了 時間會治療我嗎

One does not simply put blames on other when you do not know anything. There was once people sacrifice so much and did so much as well and it doesn't been appreciated. The outcomes is only hurts and lies. It's very ironic to see when people start to complain due to their own guiltiness. They put the blame on the others so that they can make themselves feel better and make themselves clear and clean. You can have your little dirty secrets which slowly floating out of the water. You always thought people don't know. You always treat people as idiot. You though you are smart. Your thoughts are wrong. You can control everything and makes everything seems smooth and correct. You can push all the fingers on other and make you safe. You can do whatever you want because it's your life. As long as nothing to do with me, I just can't be bother so much anymore.

Too much

Too much of lies, too much of hides. Im on my limit now. Once more and goodbye.

What if you were meant to be alone forever?..

Everyone is equal. How you treat the person, and you get that in return. Don't expect to be priority when you don't put me as one. Don't expect I care you when you don't give a damn. Don't expect to know my thing when you keep hiding. Don't be surprise if you see i leave, because things accumulated. It don't happen as one.

First week of work. Overall it wasn't that bad as i thought, yet not so fun as i expected. The people there i would say is just average who doesn't really looks friendly at all. 3 days of working life, i dare to say that i did not learn any shit yet except for the basic procedures. Other than teach me, they keep asking me to think how to improve AR efficiency and seriously i did not know what i can learn. its more like expecting i help to improve them, not they teach me anything. not to mention those volunteer tasks which i dont really feel wanna do. sigh, working life really isn't that fun as i thought =/

Anyway, at least i've made my very first step rather than keep thinking and wondering what my future would be. Life is still long way to go and i believe there are still plenty of time for me to make mistakes and do correction. Any things happened for a reason regardless good or bad, its all experience which other could never steal from you. That's the reason why life is always fun. Smile :)

然後連話都不說 繼續沉默 連朋友都沒的作 為了什麼 然後跟別人說你其實還是愛我 就算了吧 壞人我來作 如果說你要走 我不會留 我不去管以後 然後我們說清楚 一句話就夠 如果說你要走 我不會留 我不去管以後 多麼的痛 多麼的難過 別越愛越難過

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Been a long time since i ever really wanted to make a post here. It's end of July. Half of the year has past and not deniable there are a lot of things happened in this short six months. I would say my life is always full with excitement and surprise, regardless it's good or bad. Thanks god my life isn't that boring, and thanks for giving me experience and grow me up as well. Meeting new people, new faces isn't so bad after all. You manage to see what's real what's fake. It's always your choice whether you wanted to trust the fellow or not, whether you choose to act stupid or show all up. That's life aint it? It a life that you couldn't bother anything anymore but only to care and concern yourself only. People is selfish and cruel. And yet i am glad that i have the peoples who love and care me. You guys know who you are. That is enough to encourage me for my future. Work gonna starts soon so wish me luck! Toodles!

爱情其实是一种习惯，你习惯生活中有他，他习惯生活中有你。拥有的时候不觉得什么，一旦失去，却仿佛失去了所有