저한테 상상도 못해던일

어제 기사 보고 진짜 깜짝놀라던일 있어습니다.

사람 과 사람 의 사이 이렇게 빨리 변해줄수있었어, 전혀 몰라겠습니다.
시간도 너무 안맞는 상황였는데...
얼만나 속상했어?
아... 이젠 진짜 깜짝놀란 그말 밖에 안 나와...

더이상 할말이 없으니까, 앞으로 그냥 게속 끊은없이 응원할게요.

I feel a little part of me changing

First ever leisure write for the new year - 2012 has finally arrived.
Whether the world gets swallowed whole, or my brains get ripped apart, I'm bent on making this year a more fulfilled one.

"The older we get, the less risks we take"

Before the label "student" gets stripped away from my designation, I want to try something I've never done before. I want to go on more solo trips, I want to learn the workings of the world, I want to see many new places, not go shopping on travels. I want to be armed with a trusty camera, a local map, a note book and pen, loose cash and be roaming down the beautiful streets of a new country. I want to see and experience a completely new lifestyle.

That was largely the driving force for my.... application to Seoul National University as a summer programme student. If the deal falls through and my application gets welcomed by both Universities, I can call myself an "exchange student from Singapore" when I get to Seoul in June. For a whopping 6 weeks. 6 weeks doesn't seem as long as 6 months, but I take what i can get.

Fingers crossed, toes curled.

Sacrifice all my sleep tonight or wake up early to finish this paper?
I still need to gather my energy for the 2 other papers to squeeze out.....
Analysis papers... Pleaaase dont be so painful to write.

Once again, the dark exam period looms.
Brain power, coffee breaks, crumpled paper, strewn pens... It comes to be so familiar to any student.
This year end, it brings along a certain feeling of greater freedom once the exam period tides over.

Let's do this :)
& Do this perfectly.

I know where my heart is

When would this be as clear as crystal for me too? Things currently seem like a bar-top blur.

Passion builds the world for the youth. It makes all things alive and significant - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Old Old friends

Over the last weekend, something really meaningful and heartwarming happened.

My old old friend from Hongkong flew to Singapore with his mum. We last met when my friend was 4 years old and me 7.

13 years ago, we held hands, probably running and squealing through the Singapore Zoo, Night Safari - the works.

13 years later, we (first) met, albeit awkwardly saying our hellos, then fell into continuous happy banter for the next 4 days to come. We talked, enjoyed the company, & we played like before. I was ever so reluctant for them to return to Hk, wishing they could just permanently stay in Singapore. As I watched them finish up their coffees, and walk to the departure hall, I never felt as lonely. Fearing I might just bawl, they smiled as they waved to leave. At that very moment, my friend pinched my cheek and gave me a huge smile & I felt like I was being the kid here. I could still whatsapp, facebook and skype them and I could still see their faces. We wouldn't have to talk every single day but we could make an effort to strike a conversation whenever we can.

Never felt this blessed and happy, & understood how friendships should be cherished.

Made promises to visit them in Hongkong end of the year (We never seem to make true promises to visit Hk for th past few years, feeling ultimately apologetic for it) & I hope that I could make this become reality no matter what.

I love you guys, from the bottom of my heart.

For letting me understand that the world's not just about worries and pressure, but also about the friendships we've forged and the people we care so much about.

Dates on a calendar

Dates are just numbers. Some numbers are more significant than others.

Tomorrow's another date, but it is significant in its own way.

So was today, so is a day in December, so is next year.

If each day is so significant, I need to remember them all.

Do i want to?