Test-i-c-u-lar

on the same train of thought of not forgetting anything at this moment i am:

at Berjaya Times Square, other wise known as home.

on a 13' MacBook.

using uMobile that costs RM68 per month but can actually receive a signal from this height.

am thinking when to call my property manager this week.

am considering other reasonable places to stay.

looking for a contractor to upkeep my apartment.

grateful that i had RM3/kg laundry for 4 months but it's over now. maybe RM5 or RM7.

followed by the thought that UniLodge was cheaper.

wishing i had a car, point A point B nothing fancy.

more phones had xenon flash.

am grateful for good colleagues, friends and especially Love.

wishing i was with said Love.

looking for a good duffel/sling bag.

looking to purchase toe socks.

planning to see a dentist for the first time in 1.5 years.

thinking that that's pretty bad.

probably going to get myself a flu vaccination soon.

having no clue to who's going to win this year's World Cup.

thinking thats a sentiment shared by almost everybody.

not sure where this post is actually going.

hoping that everything i wrote is actually grammatically correct because i'm lazy to check.

currently an idealistic young man who someday wants a family and be the man that they need him to be.

really hoping for a stay-at-home job with a few meetings at the office once in a while.

praying to be a good husband, father, friend.

not sure if thats what i want on my tombstone although i'll be dead by then so i probably won't care, and even if i did, what could i do about it?

funny.

or not funny.

amusing myself by typing randomly.

boring you now.

going to stop.

Thought no 1988

i realize that if you don't write things down you'll probably have a tendency to forget them later.

like so many mid-life crisis' all it takes is you lifting up a coffee mug to your lips one day and realizing there are so many things in life you haven't done yet.

so what we should be doing is having a mid-life crisis once a week to avoid a mid-life crisis. make a list of the things you've always wanted to do...and do them. every little random thing or thought or card or words that you've always wanted to have.

life is a temporary state whereas death is permanent. enjoy the time you have, do as much as you can, repeat other people's words although they are cliches if you find them to be true.

i thought of this as i stood in front of an elevator waiting and watching for the double doors to open and not knowing whats behind them. it could be anyone, anything.

life isn't short. its temporary. like a holiday. if you go on a vacation, you're not going to be doing the same stuff you'd be doing back home would you? (maybe some of you would but in that case you are wrong to do so because you might as well have stayed at home but if its what you're already doing then good for you because you enjoy/have to do so. remember, vacations aren't always about leaving the house, we can arguably basically take a vacation whenever we log into facebook. you don't have facebook? discussion for another time)

also, even television (all hail and praise the entertainment invention preceding the internet) albeit a bit paradoxically has placed a showing of "Live" on some of its sports shows. How positive!

Thought no. yxrt

I've heard of this phenomena called "Tough Love".

Its where you're intentionally mean to the people you love to

(i)toughen them up or

(ii)to make them angry at you

so that

(a)they strive to better themselves

(b)pull themselves out of the funk that they are currently in.

But as with all things, this is a heavily laden double edged sword.

The person you practice tough love on should never know that you love them and are doing this for their good until someone else points it out to them.

You have to be able to tolerate this person hating you so that they become stronger.

You sacrifice their love in order for them to gain strength.

Is this logical?

Does it make sense?

Has it worked in your life?

How many people have you been angry at that were actually doing what they did out of love?

Anger in one's heart does help one move past grief as the 5 stages are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.

Anger helps one steel ones heart from more pain and pushes people to strive harder to prove someone else's statement wrong.

Anger for too long can lead to suffering and grief later as well as end up pushing people away.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is take some time out of your life.

Reflect on how you've been treated by others. Think about what they did.

How it made you feel.

Then think about how it made them feel. Think about their motives.

Did it help you in the long run? Was it just a small incident? Did it change your life forever?

Is there a lesson in there that you learnt from?

I mean, just take some time out to think. You may be surprised.

Thought no. What?

ahoy there dear readers? are you ready!
... i was thinking

about how ive' only been working in actuality for a week and, yet i feel as if i could get used to this
. i mean not to say but you know,.,.,.

jobs are like relationships they require effort time and nurturing if they are to love you back i mean take for example a parent who does the utmost that they can for their children would expect the child to love them in return or to at least understand the effort theyve put in but unfortunately
this isnt always the way it turns out similarly in our jobs we can do our damnest throw and pour our heart and souls into it and yet still not get an emotional reward out of it but honestly how many of us are doing our job for the money and would rather get paid for just bumming and lazing around at home

lets look at a phrase that has been used often through time .,,...()''- i want to love my job
want defines something that isnt necessary for survival but more towards the lines of if its convenient and doesnt require much effort and its for my own passion and enjoyment
love is an emotion and even if you were never in any meaningful relationships it requires effort as mentioned above understanding from both parties and a lot of hard work although i know this is just a substitute word for effort but hey it promotes emphasis because more people understand the word hard work than they do effort and its something you hear often so you know it must be true
my job refers to an employment of some kind where you perform and carry out certain tasks mental or manual or sometimes a combination of both in return for renumeration omg fancy word for earnings wages salary pay pocket money pittance etc
for some people their job is a large part of their lives and for some not so much but in any case if you have a job its a part of your life ...........()(),,,,,,,,''' youre receiving financial compensation for it and now you want emotional compensation as well
what other form of compensations do you require in this world i am not fully aware but im sure that unless your job is your life it shouldnt be your one stop shop for all your needs and frankly when you say something like want it indicates to me that your needs are already being met elsewhere
and for those of you whom your job is your life and that you are so emotionally attached to it and youre still unhappy with it well its time you rethink your relationship and see if that relationship is still giving you what you want or if its time for you to move on i mean 43% of marriages end up in divorce most of the time from a lack of communication or effort so think carefully before you do it im not advocating .....,,,()'' quitting im advocating thinking.

what the hell am i talking about i dont know and for those of you who have been paying attention just think about it and see if you can make any sense of it it sounds a lot more organized in my head....()''!?

Thought no.899

I was just having this morbid thought about my death. Again.

If you are the type that doesn't like thinking about these things, leave now. No one's forcing you to be here and if there is I find that a very interesting and intriguing situation and I do hope you survive it.

But anyway folks, what we're really here for is to talk about the Great Beyond, The Greener Grass, The Wild Blue Yonder, The Other Side, Kicking the Bucket, Pwnage, Etc. (actually Etc. isn't used to describe death, its just a term to indicate "and other examples. See you learn something new every day.)

Friends are a large part of life. Let's not deny that "No Man is an Island". Unless you have discovered an island with the name of "No Man".

Without friends or people you share your life with, you are alone. OMG Lyon stating the obvious.

Being alone, is lonely. (Refer to above).

You have no one to share your laughter with, no one to sing along with you, hold you when you are sad or to talk to when you get depressing thoughts. It really sucks.

Sure, there are times when you just want to be left alone, but that feeling doesn't really last for very long. We're social creatures from birth, sucking titties and looking for attention. Don't deny it.

Back on topic, I was thinking that if you were a good friend, you would have your friends interests at heart. You'd care for them when they were down, offer them advice that wouldn't ruin their lives and not mess with their wallets without their permission.

Also you wouldn't log in to their private lives and question them about it later <-that means you mum.

So if friends are important to you and you have their best interests at heart, wouldn't you plan for your death?

Once you're gone who are they going to talk to, to laugh with, to share?

Would it be better to just be a marginal part of someone's life so that in the event that you die (regardless we all will someday, along with pay taxes) they won't miss you too much?

As a friend, is it wrong for us to not allow ourselves to get close to people so that we won't hurt them in the future?

Either by leaving them via death or by just growing apart (which is a sort of death).

I don't know why am I sharing this part of my personal life here on my blog instead of on facebook. It seems like a much better medium to garner attention and commentary on this issue.

But then again, I guess I do want to restrict commentary to people who actually know and read this piece of writing me.

So anyway, your thoughts are appreciated and welcome, if you have any to share. Peace out!

Sarawakian

Sarawakians are like the African-American community of America.

We are a strong voter base, it'll be a miracle if one of us ever made it into the top post of the country and we (or at least, I) have pride at being part of this state.

Be you FooChow, Lumbawang, Bidayuh, Cina, Apek, Lau Bu, Lau Pan Niang, etc. it's a great people oriented community.

Like the Ozzies and Kiwis, I somehow feel as if people from different parts of the state have friendly competition between each other but if you mess with one of us, you will mess with all of us.

Recently we were featured in the Star, in fact we just got the Star in an East Sarawak edition. We have nature parks, beaches, culture, a jazz fest (which I have yet to attend) and most of our guys make good boyfriends.

I don't know how many Sarawakians you know, but the ones I do are good, honest and down-to-earth people. We can drink and laugh loudly, secrets and dramas are few and far between.

I'm proud to be Sarawakian. Disagree with me, tell me that your state has those things as well and that you know Sarawakians who aren't worthy of praise, well thats your experience and I respect that.

But you ain't going to change my mind!

wait

let me reconsider moving this blog.

i'll just update both and see which one i actually like.

the theme here still suits what i wanna do with a blog and until that theme moves over to tumblr i'm still here.

cos its cool and mysterious thats why. take that sucka!

anyway, interview tips:

1. when they ask you where you see yourself in 5 years, the correct answer is "somewhere in your firm, perhaps if i am as competent as i think i am a senior executive" or etc...

do not say "australia", "america", another rival company", "in your mama's pants" etc.

2. when they ask if you know what you're getting yourself into, if you're only half sure, say "No, I only have a rough idea. I think I would have a better idea if you explained it a bit more to me as a firsthand account of it will probably make more sense than reading a lot of irrelevant information online".

3. take your time with the case studies. make no assumptions.

DO NOT act smart and jump to conclusions.

4. Know the name of the godamn CEO. apparently it will impress them more than your actual CV.

5. know how to reason away your critiques. eg.

interviewer: you didn't ask for all the information

you: oh my god i'm so sorry. ahuh, ahuh.

what you should have done:

you: i believe that there will be times in the real working world where i may not have all the information and will still need to make a decision. i believe that having a team to question my decisions will help to ensure that i make the right decision, just as you have done.

6. be yourself. if you are creative, be creative. if you are honest, be honest. if you are normally funny, be funny. if you are reserved, be reserved. don't try to be someone you are not as interviewers can sense your discomfort and take that into account.

and if you're not what they're looking for, its probably cos they felt as if when they hired you you would be uncomfortable there and be unable to perform to the best of your abilities.

7. never give wishy-washy and half hearted answers. full answers = points

half answers = no points

no answer with honesty and a why = some points. eg. i'm not really sure from looking at your website. I was hoping to obtain a clearer picture while working here or from you.

8. prepare!!!

9. follow these rules.

10. there is no spoon.

11. look out here comes a flying monkey!!

Moved

like omg man i'm like so totally following a trend where people like totally switch their blogs to like completely different addresses. like omg!

in any case, the new blog is http://lyonscheus.tumblr.com

i know right i am like so totally creative and shit.