6 months to go.
Technically less than that.
Everything else is changing around me but my mind is still stationary. Not a good spot to be in when the raging waters of life are coming to sweep you off into uncharted waters.
It used to be the world was so sure.
Get out of high school, score whatever in SPM as long as you don't fail Malay.
Go to college, learn your foundation, get out of college with entry scores good enough for a range of Universities (from top to bottom, whichever offered the course you were looking for).
Go to Uni, get your degree, while you're there hopefully a job offer before you graduate.
Graduate, get a job, earn some money, save, propose, marriage, children, promotion, money, extra curricular activities, stability.
Then came the financial crisis, that led to the economic crisis that MAY be the reason why the job market is slow.
But even without it, I'm stuck in the middle, not good enough to be the top few candidates, not bad enough to consider dropping out and opening up a noodle stall back home.
I suppose its just a convenient excuse for the predicament I now find myself in. No job offer, low prospects, and a lack of need for the specialty I decided to choose as a degree.
Perhaps its also a lack of interpersonal skills or an un-valiant effort in promoting myself to the working class of HR departments across the globe.
And the fact that my peers are experiencing setbacks that may prevent them from graduating that the stress and importance of studies is increased tenfold.
Whichever way you look at it, the last sentence in my grand plan for life has just been hit with a wrench and now the gears are jammed and its up to some last minute improvisation of plans.
Masters or Honours will delay the inevitable for a year. Maybe enough time for things to start looking up. I will be losing 1 year of job experience that may be even more valuable than the Part 2 of my Actuarial Thingy.
There are just too many paths, none more likely than the other so the probabilities are all about equal and therefore there is nothing that I can count on and therefore plans now have to be fluid and decisions made in real time with no solid footing.
Its pretty much the equivalent of attempting to jump from a falling rock platform onto another and seeing how long you can last before either the rocks run out or you do.
Everything comes to an end, I just didn't plan for it to be this early.