First time in the past 5 yrs

I was cleaning up my gmail's email and came across my long lost blog. I decided to leave a msg and update from my current life. After having Tiffany, the things I have done:

1. Went to US for 8 weeks. I was working with Sandisk and they sent me to US for training.
2. Gave birth to twin boys Austin and Ashton.
3. Currently not working and looking for a job.

Not really in a mood to blog but just hopefully can create some memories of what is happening now so that i can read back in future - just like what happened today when I re-stumble on my old blog. 

She will be named Tiffany!!

I couldn't recall when I stumbled upon this name and decided to name my sweet pea Tiffany. I recall going through hundreds and thousands of names to choose the one that has beautiful meaning for my beautiful girl. I talk to hubby and he agreed. So we decided to name her that and has been calling her with the name for weeks. Today, she is full term. We are very happy an is anticipating for her to come out. Due to some complications, my gynae and also some friends from he nursing industry advise to go for c-sect instead of natural birth so that we won't distress our little Tiffany further during birth. So Dr Choong has advise that we should get her out on week 37, 23rd May 2012, which is also her operation day. Initially my MIL, wanted to look for dates. But before she goes to engage a medium, hubby look up calendar and found out that 23rd May happens to be a good date. So we decided to go ahead with the day. It's only 3 days away and we are really happy,excited and anticipating for the delivery of our first offspring of our L.O.V.E!! Tiffany, mummy & daddy can't wait to bring you into this world and also can't wait to hold you in our arms. We hope that u will stay and grow up healthily. Mummy and Daddy loves you very much!!

I just can't wait for the day to get back!

Since I know that she will also go for long leaves last week. I jz can't wait to come up with evil plans to get back to both of them. I jz can't wait, can't wait n can't wait!! Jz thinking of it alr makes me brimming with wide smile from my left to my right ear. Muahahaha
**evil** **evil**

Sweet pea kicking non stop in the morning

Not sure whether my sweet pea is growing bigger now. This morning I feel my sweet pea kicking me non stop in the morning when I'm still on my bed. This morning was raining heavily and I was a lil bit reluctant to get up from bed. The next thing I realized she was kicking me non stop.. As if act like a alarm clock for me!
Sweet pea is 26 weeks old this week. I can't wait to hold her in my arms.

I guess I'm quite ready for labour. They other day I was dreaming that I was in the labour room going to deliver and I also saw the baby's head coming out. Everything seems so real until I woke and realized that with a big bump in front, how can I possiblely see my bb's head coming out from my vaginal.. Lolxx
So it's true preggies have wild and vivid dreams!!

First time feeling her kick me from outside!!

I guess she is really growing now in my tummy. I woke up at 2:30am for toilet break and can't go back to sleep until now. It's 4:13am. I feel her kicking from inside and decided to place my hand on my tummy and yes, I feel her for the first time outside of my tummy. Although this is not the first time I experience this but I can never be amused like a first timer to feel my lil one trying to communicate with me.. It's not about vigorous kicking from within like you seeing a drum beating. It's just tiny small waves that I feel from within.. How shd I put this?? Hhmm.. Ok imagine you are experiencing minor tsunami.. Feeling the wave from below the sea.. Of course this one is very very mini tsunami going on in my stomach.. Lolxx I hope I explain it right.. :)
Now I can't wait to spend the weekend with daddy so that he can also feel his lil one movement.

I really can't wait to see her.. My lil sweet pea.

I'm jz so plain stupid to believe that friendship still exist!!

The battle that I've been fighting for the last few months. I hv told myself to let go. But I can't. The more I see her I felt the faker she has become. I doesn't know if I can continue longer in this position, until the day I get to leave. I can't take it anymore becoz i really run out of patience. Today's horrorscope, was so right. They say that I'll have mi or disturbance and that I might need to takes some time off to relax. I jz hope that I can just let go... She is no longer worth all the cell that I have killed the whole morning!!!

You told me once, but I think you forget...

You told me once that she is trying to come between us. You told me that we should be truthful to each other and always stand together. But today, you showed me that you decided to shy away and building up the wall in between us. I have feelings and I can feel it. Maybe you have other reason, but I can see that she succeeded just like the way you told me she would do unto us.
Sometimes I really don't know how to face you anymore, but I'll still try to just be myself...