I Am Lynn Chong

it warms my heart... my 1/6 of the world says this and it really warms my heart...i want to record it here so i can look back....:) i like to be where weijian bully me,.. james n bp gay wif me.. jack&henry lame wif me.... n my shepherd pampering me.. ... ( edited) .......:)

shattered dreams... maybe..maybe God never wants me to go sep...probably i juz didn't work hard enough juz one module cost me so much.. i never come across anyone who did as badly as me... i'm not pitying myself neither am i living in regret since i made the mistake, i'll live with it. i juz hate having to join in the race again in 2 weeks times, and i gotta run even faster and harder.. tat is what i hate..

November... november is a time of struggling of emotions and thoughts... but Thank God 3 papers are down... some done quite mediocre but dun think i screw up any yet.. though the killer is on monday...if i screw up, there will goes my sep.. i feel bad for kate...she screw up a 25 marks question.. she tot " media from asian perspective" is by Kunczik but the one by kunczik is media from an European perspective, the asian perspective is the one by Mahbubani.. i was the one who make her realise the mistake.. i wonder if i shouldn't then she dun have to feel so bad:( PSLE results was out today... though if one has never tasted failure, one will never know what is means to work hard... though the system is still cruel to the little hearts... it's not the end... hope the liitle gal will pick herself up... i pray for a new beginning for the little one... yeah, it's round the corner..no my Saviour was not born on this day, still i love everything bout this season...:)

Big Fat Lesson... well, i've learnt. for my insensitivity,carelessness and probably a lack of love. it happens all the times i guess, if it wasn't for the Holy Spirit... the pastor could say they never did anything for me either the pastoral leaders could say why wif all the workload there's no appreciation the intern could say my shepherd only ask me to do work the shepherd could say why didn't anyone turn up at the hospital but God is saying to lyn, this is not the time to drown in your own self pity. you make a mistake,learn! do unto others what you would have others do to you...

His Grace Will Be Enough.... he kept telling us that he can be discharge tomorrow. however the staff said not until he's done with the operation on the 14th. it breaks your heart... i want to be at the hospital everyday,it's so lonely dere, i wanna be involve wif all the misison trip preparation yet i want to do well this sem...12 more days,5papers... God.....:(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST VIN!! not that i forgot but juz din get to blog! hope you enjoyed yourself!3cakes or 4?,3dinners and all the pressies! God is already in the future, He shall lead you! luv ya:)

at nearly one in the morning someone kept callin me... i heard it but i juz couldn't bring myself to stretch over and pick it up... apparently A called and tat's becoz B called A at night and A parents is scolding A. A called me in the morning juz to ask me to ask B to not call her.. for goodness sake,now who's disturbing who. what has it gotta do wif me? finally A sorted things out wif B but nevertheless A ask me to respect A decision over some issues. so i see,i have gain myself the reputation of agressive,unresonable and someone who doesn't respect ppl's decision... watever the case,i hate being disturb. has handphone made my life more convenient? nowadays i hate being able to be contacted all the times.. ppl called when i'm in lectures,in tutorials,in the morning,late at night... when they can't get me,they call my house,call ppl close to me..and most of the times they juz demand something out from me w/o feeling bad at at all that they all causng me inc...

hurt people hurts people...

The More I Know... i'm suppose to do literature reviews during my this 2 hours break...but one hour is taken up as daryl, me n siew may trying hard to think of a thesis statement..but we failed to... 1hour is too short for lit review so i reckon i blog.. nowadays you have to be careful what you blog,i dun wanna be retain w/o trial... the more i know the more bothered am i... my dreams are shattered after 20 years of living in the my eutopia island ...i would never dream about arms and land mines and propaganda and corruption and sexism...never...the truth hurts.. yet what can i do,little me with so many apathetic loved ones... sometimes i feel i am even drawn too deep into the system, i won't have the courage to break free from it.... wealthy and prosperous yet not envied...the rich little poor gal...

Jehovah Jireh...mY Provider....:) before this,me and meizai never learn the benefits of delay gratification.all her money were spent on clothes and me-food. when it came for the time to pay up for mission trip,we suddenly woke up! we started on our extreme saved up programme! we two were at real miserable state...and i mean real miserable...i've never been in such a pathetic state before...you get the idea? so for weeks,we live terribly miserable lifestyle... tat is becoz we realise our mistakes and really wanna do all we can to come out wif the money. But God is faithful,He provided us wif the money in all sorts of way.the money came..He multiply our efforts! and juz last week,someone actually wanted to gif us 1000bucks for the trip!ya,1000bucks! but noe wat,we dun need the money cause we already had enuf:) God is really our provider! and for last few weeks,3 of the ppl closest to me offered help too:) i am really really grateful!God provided not only the money,but the love from s...

henry and dorc!! i love you guys!haha! i kept my promise too:) it's oct,time flies and ya no more children day. but it's ok!i'm gonna coaxed mummy to buy me something! henry,i wish tis year pass soon so tat we can go k box!! dun care!u muz go with me after e trip! for now...i've got a greater cause to fret:)

heyx all! i've been missing coz i've been trying to be a good student!haha!juz believe it! mid term break is over faster than you think like always. it has been spent going to cityhall doing projects and it ended with bein thrown into the pool at fervour bbq! it's ok coz they save me e embarrassment of having to swim in swimsuit,so i get to waddle for a while in tee shirt. one thing though..no matter how prepared, you will never be fast enuf to hold your breathe! tis week w/o 20 i cans,my mind is filled with gender stereotypes,sexist and women. and also media particularly megazines,advertisement and e papers:) i have lots to say but my mind is faster than my typing skill.. so far for now...running late for class! come back on 1st oct....i know sept is ending...:(

THIS GOES OUT TO KENNI-the world's best disciple:) anliang, juz wanna say a big thank you for always being there for me and believe in the things that i do. thanks for being concern about all the things about me.. thanks for all the genuine love and appreciation and respect that you have always shown towards me.. it felt so much better after chatting with you because you can understand things from my point of view. i am so sorry i always seems to be so busy..yet you never fail to hold on to our friendship... you have bless me in more ways than you can imagine...it's true:) anliang,thank you thank you for everything....:)

as promise...:) wake me up when september ends...

workload is getting unbearable. but why should i let pressures of life bother me when i can take courage knowing that Jesus has overcome the world and its tribulations. i'm trying hard to remember God's word each day le. keep me in prayers will do.) i dun like talks,i'll be fine if u juz gif me my space n dun assume tat arts is juz about slacking...

bring me back to year 1....

i know sch has started and gone full gear when... i find myself leaving house the same time as daddy climbing up and downhill in nus in and out of library,Lt,class room,com lap taking down emails and numbers of ppl for projects cash-card running low on value due to all e zapping miss lunch and sleep heat from the canteen and freeze in the LT books,notes,pens and highlighters spill all over the table and room in a mess (state of a creative mind and room of a studious undergrad!) it all only means sch's started,start to mugg if i want my treat,do honours(which might not be possible in this life time...) and of course to college abroad... wish me luck...no. keep me in prayers bummer..

If readings are meant for people to read,then how come i don't understand mine. The thousand and thousand of words are swallowing me up. i feel giddy...

Before bidding Stephanie: " what are you choices for tutorials" Lyn: " i chose..." Stephanie: " 2nd choice?" Lyn: " i have no second choices,i'm betting on that" Bidding results out Nisha: " did you get what you want?" Lyn: "yeah,u?" Nisha:" not even near,have to take the morning slots" At the com lab Stranger 1 in a franctic voice: "excuse me,do u know what to do if i can't the tutorial slots?" Lyn trying to be helpful: " you can try....." Stranger: " i can't,the system's not working" 10 mins later at the com lab Stranger2 exclaimed loudly probably forgotten this is not her home : " are you kidding me? i didn't get the slots? how? how?!" i'm not trying to laugh at ppl's plight but i'm trying to show you how traumatic is the nus bidding system for the students. i had my own experiences. so bad tat nowadays nothin much traumatise me in sch. but so...

i used to believe in feminist principles. i mean i still do to certain extent but i rem something bout feminism bein rebellious spirit. i used to believe in liberal feminism ( Men and women and intersexed are not “the same” (however, they are more alike than they are different & society exaggerates difference). Gender is a pervasive social and cultural institution that must be analyzed and understood; Social and political changes should be made that allow the widest possible choices and opportunities for women and men ) definitely a muslim feminist at heart. ( Traditional male interpretations of Islam must be questioned to find the true meaning of the role of women in Islam ) i mean i definitely do not believe in the religion but i think some of these women needs help. but the irony is some of these woman doesn't even want to be helped.they are happy wif their life the way they are) yet i know God make woman to compliment man,not inferior to man. so is the existence of feminism...

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca- age 8

i am now sitting in front of the com with my sandwich and my aloe vera yoghurt. woke up early to bid for my tutorials but the system fails me for the past one hour or so.. anyway it's back to e life of an arts student.. Lectures,Library,Loo did i mention tat there's tis guy who's father and grandfather we all noe is in one of my modules...well i've heard stuff abt him since year one. one of it bein if he's dere lecturers dun dare to tok much abt the people in white... unfortunately i can't judge for myself coz our module is on research which means only statistics and reports,no politics. but somehow i feel ppl made stories up abt him...i might be wrong but ppl always tend to exxagerate,made up things when you have ppl like dat ard...scary

ok, e last time i blog was on the 5th which is 10 days ago... let's see --+ watched e korean film My Little Brother and ate at cartel wif jack,dorc...and i ordered wrongly. wanted seafood macaroni but had seafood pasta:( --+ i went to see fireworks on national day eve. it was a beautiful night...it reminded me of a song "when i think about the heaven,the moon and all the stars i wonder what You ever saw in me but You took me and You love me and You given me a crown and now i praise Your name eternally...." --+ i love everything about national day. as much as i noe it's soft selling,i still love the emotional surge,e nostalgic feelings and of coz holiday! --+ my baby sister took pity on me and gave me a treat of seafood MACARONI! --+ heard some real sad news in church...wonder is it becoz i'm growing older,death becums more and more frequent --+ and of coz the rest of the days are spent in sch..hee.. and wat i love most is buying stationery and using...

kenneth: u goin f.o.p? lyn :can't. i've got a hair appointment kenneth: dying your hair again? lyn: where got again? kenneth: so wat color tis time round? lyn: i've requested for brown. but u never noe until it's on yr hair! kenneth: u mean brown will turn to golden? well well, after three long hours of bleaching,high-lighting,coloring,steaming.... i have........... GOLDEN HAIR........

school? i can't go to school!! i've forgotten how! i've forgotten how to use English! i've forgotten how to write!i'll lost my way!i'll get sick! so can some kind soul tell me tat i can be granted to not go sch? please?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOST PRECIOUS FRIEND! hope u like e little surprise! ( those of u who wanna noe wat is it,go read dorc's blog)

it's mid week,tat is another few days before the new term begins. times does really flies. i am in year 2! year 1 has been a little fuzzy,blurry but it all went past well without great traumas. God has been faithful and full of grace for me. the horrible A'level period,the agonizing period of waiting for results and finally entering into freshman year and now entering into second. should i make any resolutions tis sem?!i am still not use to starting the yr in august. should i make a resolution? no more skipping of lessons?no more spending all my money at e tidbits sections? i decided i shaln't! bleah! neverthess i heard if i can get a cap of 3.2, ( which i bet tat's only average of most ppl) i'll get a treat of my choice! hmm...

A little boy asked his mother Why are you crying? Mother: Because Im a woman Boy: I dont understand Mother: And you never will The boy then asked his father Why does mother cry for no reason? His father could only say All women do that The little boy then grew to be a man, but he was still puzzled. Finally he asked God why. God said:When I created women, I wanted someone special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the burdens of the world, but soft enough to provide comfort. I gave her inner strength to endure child birth And accept rejection after rejection from her child. I gave her the force to persevere when others Give up, and to care for her family through all suffering And anguish without a word of complaint I gave her sensitivity to love her children unconditionally, even when they break her heart. I gave her the strength to support her husband Through his failures and to complete his ribs To protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband will never ...

i woke up to two women's screaming( or rather one woman,one young lady) thinking that it's my neighbours only to realise that it came from my very own kitchen. both mummy and meizai were screaming their heads off and after sometimes i finally make up what's going on. meizai who din noe tat e tap of the kitchen's bathroom,the cold water side once you turn it on,it cannot be turn off. ok,becoz we dun use the kitchen bathroom. and it has been spoiled for month(dun ask me y no one bother to repair). and after months,out of the blue little june decided to use tat particular tap to wash her shoes. and ta-da she almost (almost) flood the bathroom. and she scream for mummy's help and mummy cannot figure it out y little june did not noe abt e faulty tap and went screaming. and little june screaming even louder sayin it's not her fault. mind u they were loud,i bet the whole blk heard them! and mum probably dun noe wat a crisis is went all paranoid and called daddy,aunty a...

ok,i have decided to move to blogspot cause i reckon it's quite sickening to keep receiving my mails tellin u i've updated my blog. well,unless u like to read. so before i turn into a nuisance, ta-da i've moved here! not only so, i made,well sort of made dorc create her own blog! okok i noe we r kinda slow.ok.very slow. but better late then never ya!:)