We're getting our ultrasound in two days. I'm so excited, I'm having a hard time focusing at work. I just want to look at baby stuff. But more like shopping, not education.
I always felt like being more educated about a subject left less to fear and you're more prepared that way. HA! Not so with having babies. Jon has officially banned me from reading about child birth, and I have banned myself. I was freaking myself out way too much! I'm still not sure how we are going to get this child here without me freaking out. I don't want an epidural AT ALL! I am more afraid of the needle and being stuck in that freaking bed than the pain. But then again, I've never had a child so maybe I don't want the pain either. Who knows! And I won't even mention that fact that I am an EXTREMELY private person and being so...er...exposed makes me nauseated and enraged at the same time. Ya, I think child birth is going to be interesting for me...ha ha and poor Jon!
This is a little weird too but I am teaching myself how to meditate (yes you may laugh but it helps me cope when people just can't help but tell me the last child birth horror story they heard). I've never been able to do it but I've found something that works for me. If I listen to music, more of the alternative style, and really focus on the words, I can block out almost all thoughts except for the words of the song. Granted the words have to be happy or it doesn't help much, but I think I'm on to something.
So the avocado is because babycenter.com told me my baby is the size of an avocado this week :)
