Selamat Hari Raya!

i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee raya! hahahahahaha. i get to eat n smoke anytime i want (takde lagi sorok2) and i get duit rayaaaaaa!!! haha. all the probs with whether to give or to get or simply hide myself during duit raya giving time - settled! i was kicked out of the 'duit raya givers' group bcoz i'm jobless and therefore i deserve duit raya. hu ha ho.



Raya Eve:
We all gathered at Mak Tok's house @ Kelana Jaya for the last day of puasa. Usually its just me and Mummy coz Abang and Firhan will be at Daddy's side (Keramat) joining the raya carol (takbir house-to-house) while me and mummy sibuk bergossip at rumah Maktok. This year's eve at Maktok's house tak best. sumpah tak best. our sirap bandung soda changed to plain sirap. my fav rendang, ketupat etc etc changed to some iranian food yg tak sedap mane pon. i dont know y abang izal wanted to cater the food yg mcm tu. habis tradition kitorang. supposedly on raya eve we'll have sirap bandung soda and all the ketupat rendang tu semua because on hari raya itself my maktok will only serve roti canai for breakfast! duh.




1st Day of Aidilfitri:
Just like every year... we gather at maktok's house again. after sembahyang raya kitorang berkumpul at the hall. surprisingly this year everyone was there except for Aunty Dada. and another surprise, takde motivation2 talk and issue2 yang normally buat kitorang semua panaasssss je dengar! no such speeches this year! hoooraaayyyyy!!!

our family is getting bigger. more babies, babies talk, babies babies babiiii! EVERYWHERE I GO PEOPLE WILL TALK ABOUT BABIES! "anak i dah pandai cakap", "anak i tak boleh makan chocolate", "my son is taught not to talk behind people's back", "my son is very good boy"... kepale hotak kau. and everywhere i go i will see kids running chasing each other, screaming, shouting, playing, and crying. bloody hell. aku sebat sorang2 baru tau. well mannered la sangat.

during the salam2 event, the circle jadi besar sangat sampai keluar rumah line diorang for us to salam mintak maaf. oh god. during duit raya giving, we were divided into 3 groups; cucu2 (kitorang la tu), cicit2 (setan2 kecik yg bising2 tu) and maids (orang gaji pon dapat duit raya!!!!! tunggu aku pasang 8 orang gaji nanti).

then everyone convoyed to other houses while me n my family went off to daddy's side. 1st day raya was really tiring. started raya-ing from morning till midnight.




Raya Night:
time to parrrrrtaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha. gile excited coz its been a MONTH okay! unfortunately we were to tired to dance that night (i think we can't even stand still for 5 mins that night) so we decided to find a bar and get drunk. We went to Baan 26 at Changkat and oh my god..... macam ade open house pulak! before this when we first lepak-ed at Baan, kitrg rasa tmpt ni sgt tak best, gile babi tak best! tp sebab beer murah... n kitrg ni plak jenis asyik broke je memangjang so we lepak there jugak. surprisingly that night, soooo many people came to Baan like its the most happening place at Changkat! ALL 4 OF MY EX BOYFRIENDS WERE THERE LEPAKING AT THE SAME GROUP SAME TABLE. ngahaha. just next to my table. nice. we went home feeling so fucking happy so fucking drunk because of the happy hour jugs for 30 bucks each and non happy hour jugs for 36++ each. wtf? no diff between happy hour and non happy hour. huhu.



SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

Conflicts

Too many conflicts. I think nak dekat raya ni people should start apologizing and forgiving each other rather than bergado tak pasal2 lagi2 when these things are happening among good friends!

For me, friends should not take sides. We shouldn’t judge a person just because we know the stories. I mean, come on la… dah lame kawan sikit punye baik tibe2 when there’s a conflict… bomm.. mule nak buat puak sendiri. I’m very uncomfortable with this kinda situation.

My 2 close friends who used to be lovers are no longer friends. Heh? Ok, cani.. they used to be so deeply in love but then broke up for the zillionth time because of the same reason they broke up before this. Semua orang thought … ala nanti kapel la balik tu. It was always like that. I thought the same way too. But this time, its for real. Serious shit. Well, that boy… who used to be soooo nice sooo caring sooooo patience to his gf is NOW SEEING SOMEONE. LIKE OMIGOD VERY SERIOUS SEEING THAT SOMEONE. He’s sooooooooo happyyyyy!!!!! He’s got a new crush, a new girl who shares everything in common with him. But she lives at a forever walking distance place from him. Oh, unfortunately the gf [ex] knows that new girl very very very well. So… tadaaaa!! Conflict! Akon!

I just don’t know what to do. Im soo happy for my friend coz he looks so happily different now. His life is full with colours again. He looks cheerful and smiling all the way to the ears. U really can notice him happier than ever. He told me everything about his new life, new girl, new hope.

However I’m also close to the ex gf. Lepak a lot and listen from her side of story a lot. Details. She loves him, still. But she made a mistake. A big mistake. She’s trying to fix back everything. And the worst part is…. She doesn’t know that bf is crazy in love with someone else! God… I’m so stuck in between them. I mean, ok I hang out with both of them. I listen to both of them. I agree and disagree with both of them. But I can’t say anything to both of them.

The girl still loves the bf but doesn’t know about him and the new girl, her own friend. Bf is moving on and keeping it secret from everyone else. Friends are taking sides. Im so stuck! help!!!

My point of view:

Ex gf made a big mistake. Again. She shouldn’t have done it again and again. She had a really nice bf and she ruined it. – I think she Is to blamed for all this.

Bf had enough of her. Been thru that a lot. - I pity him.

Bf started to act cold to the ex all of the sudden. Before this elokkk je kawan baik eventho dah break up. Then suddenly he’s been avoiding the ex and ignoring her help, as a friend. – ok in this case, I think eventho u guys dah break up. U don’t have to treat her like that. Say it nicely. She lives on her own. Ur the closest to her… helloooo?

Ex gf went all psycho. SEarched for bf the whole KL and waited in front of bf’s house till 5 in the morning just because he didn’t pick up her calls or whatever it was lah. – adoi.

Bf fell in love with ex’s friend! – omigoddddd… she’s going to commit suicide I tell u.

New girl is sooo in love with him she started to act a lil bit bitchy to the ex. – don’t laaaa do this to ur friendships! Settle baik2 sudahhh..

Friends taking sides. – hmmmmm…. Who r we to judge them? We better stay out of this and remain friends with both.

I really hate knowing too much and can only say too little. Its not that I don’t want to. Im just respecting my friend’s favour and trying to stay out as much as I can! These things needed to be settled by urselves! Face up each other now and release me from this nightmareeee!!! I hate this feeling. Having a good gossip I cant talk about.

Baju Raya

i just bought 6 pairs of baju kurung and just about 5 mins ago my mom called to get me more because "it so cheappppp lydia!!".

oh god.

i am so going to be killed by my grandma because of the all see thru baju my mum bought for me.

maktok, salahkan mummy k.

i need a new pair of shoes.

my mum doesnt allow me to buy new handbags coz she said i have too many already.

life sucks.

Merdeka

i know. i'm late to post this. i saved this as a draft but decided not to post it by then. whatever. anyway, happy merdeka!

this is the first time i celebrated merdeka in fasting month. i didn't celebrate pun. it was just a reason to get out from the house konon2 nya for special occasion lah. i went to Soho with my entourage. just the same night like any other nights this month. we just lepaked, and talked about the same stuff we've talked about everyday. oh n we drank ice latte, tea, pepsi... all the non alcoholic drinks while the other tables next to us were having their glorious bottles of liquor and beer. very tempting. but we gossiped to overcome that. and we just realized that we're running out of gossips. shit.

we drove around kl to see how the others celebrated that night. oh my oh my... have u noticed that everytime there's a celebration like this, especially merdeka la kan.... the ones that celebrated the most would be.. of course la Rempits. but its funny that u can see the mamaks, banglas and indonesians especially would celebrate it like its their independent day! they walk in a big group, dressed up like hell (ohmygod look at the bibiks la), shout, scream, buat huru hara at the streets while holding our own Malaysia flag! wataf? im confused. am i in the wrong country? heh.

we took a short tour at lorong haji taib to see the bapoks. surprisingly there wasn't any. dont know if they have changed their place to cari makan. or they were probably off duty coz of the fasting month. or merdeka demand caused extra money and therefore sold out by 1 am. where have all the pretty bapoks gone to???? i envy u all, pretty bapoks. yes, only the pretty ones. those ugly and fat ones will get a kiss on their asses from me if u can make me like u.

Rempits, on the other hand are 'pleasing' as always. they can bee seen everywhere that night. oh there was a junior type of rempits blooming in the city! the junior cyclers! aww u guys sooo cute ur all going to be like ur brothers when u grow up and there will be more of u guys in the city and i will be cursing even more when i'm driving after this. nice. the next time a journalist wants to write something to describe KL, there's no need to mention multiculture, religion, or whatever anymore. KL is Rempit! lu bikin gua panasssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weed Sucks

fasting month is torturing me. it affects my life a lot. and i really mean a lot. can't eat, can't smoke, can't club, can't fuck, can't do every fucking shit i like. gosh im living a pathetic life here! i sleep at dawn. i wake up at dusk. i spent my money (a lot) on dvds, cinemas, oldtown and island red cafe. i'm dying. i really am. if i have to go on like this for the rest of my life, i'll be dead in 2 days. i'll be the first to appear on front page newspapers and breaking news highlights of every channel with the most bombastic headline - MENTAL BREAKDOWN TEEN DIED BECAUSE OF BOREDOM.

i haven't started puasa anyway. the first few days i was on full moon and that was the reason y i haven't started fasting yet. i wasn't motivated to puasa at all. everytime i wanted to start puasa, my mind will think of delicious food i could eat. haih. and ciggie is just irresistableeee!! and h and dirty minded friends who always ask about lunch? omygod. how can i start? how to? its ok, there's always tomorrow and the day after and after and after. i can do it! yeahhhh!!!!

I haven't been to ali for a longgggggggggg time already! so 3 nights ago i decided to lepak there with zaki and then mus, bong, sumo and whoelseidontreallyremember came and joined us. again, fasting month makes me lazy and clueless about what to do besides lepaking after buka with friends. so after lepaking for a few hours there, these fellas dragged me to join them jalan2 around the neighbourhood. i'm bored ok. i have nothing else to do. at least i know im not going to any club with police raids or whatsoever in this month.

i took a few puffs that i inhaled deeply till there was no smoke coming out from my mouth when i exhaled it. i fucking hate it!!! that shit made my tongue tasted weird, dehidrated, my body became extremely lazy, and the worst part of all... i fell very unstable, i grabbed everything i could coz i was so paranoid i thought i was going to fall my head back. i walked like my grandma. oh, and i puked. i was OD. i feel sorry for myself. i fucking hate that shit. i really hate it. i like being drunk better coz its a happy feeling. i feel weird when i stone. so thats it! no more ok? good girl lydia who hated drugs her life, will continue hating it for the rest of her life.


selamat berpuasa yo.

cheers!