I AM GOING TO STOP PARTYING AND WEAR TUDUNG

ok. i made that up. saje bikin gempak. hahahaha.

last sat i went to a party and got so wasted, even worst when it was all recorded in ali's video cam. m-u-t-h-a-f-u-c-k-a. okay, maybe it wasn't so bad. maybe i did some stupid dancing in front of the video cam that i purposely grabbed from ali's hand and put it on the table in front of me. maybe i really can't remember when i said in front of the camera that i was born on 12th september 1986 when the real fact is, i was born on june. maybe i was just kidding when i said "i looked fucking hot" and "i am the next britney spears"... for like, 5thousand times? thats it. everone has watched that fucking video again and again. i'm going to break in ali's house and smash the tape, burnnnn it and feed my cats with the ashes mixed in their food.

i have become a very good girl. i haven't gone out during days and nights - besides special occasions. i went out just to get food as in lunch and dinner. then i'm back to what i have been doing all day every day - checking fb, watching dvds with h, play sudoku, reading novels, learning in wikipedia. hahahahah. my mummy is soooo proud of me! i didn't even go out and lepaks!

now that i'm writing about those things.... i'd like to express my feelings about a new matter - WHY THE FUCK IS EVERYONE WRITING ABOUT VAMPIRES??? ok. i just finished reading my Twilight series. starting from eclipse, i have been reading the books like crazy. it took me 4 months to finish twilight and new moon - fucking boring books. then when i'm done with those books, maybe i was so used to reading books all the time (*good girl)..... i decided to buy new books. and then i searched for bestselling books everywhere - bookstores as well as internet. and most of the books i found in the top 100 books were ALL BLOODSUCKING VAMPIRES BOOKS. i mean, is it the new trend?

and so at the end, i bought couple of books about vampires. it's called A House of Night Novel. its a series of 5 books actually. i bought 2 of it. i finished reading the first one on the same day i bought the books. heh. gile rajin siaaaaal aku bace buku! i.am.a.very.good.girl. hahaha. serious shit. thank god i bought 2 books. i dont have to go back to the bookstore and buy another one. hihi.

okay, these authors should actually work together with each other. they are confusing the readers by creating modern vampires whom are totally irrelevant and ridiculous!

in twilight, vampires:
- don't have fangs
- can live with sunlight but over exposure will make them 'shine'... as in glitters
- have super power
- not afraid of garlic
- appears in photographs and mirror reflections
- don't sleep at all and no, they don't have coffins
- go to school/work
- fucking rich

in house of night, vampires:
- don't have fangs
- can live with sunlight but their eyes are very sensitive with sunlight and they can die with over exposure.
- have cresent mark on their forehead
- humans are aware of their existence
- became vampire when being marked by a vampire tracker while they are still human.
- have to go to vampires boarding school after being marked as vampires - to learn how to behave like a vampire. haha.
- only learn vampire sociology subject in school.
- classes start at 8pm to 3am
- have super power too.
- eat human food but couldn't resist blood as well.
- not afraid of garlic
- sleep but not in coffins.
- tattoo appears when mature
- die when body don't accept the changing process.

after this, i will write a book about how vampire will infect humans thru facebook and having super power like the ability to make shoes and handbags fall from the sky, only eat tomyam and blood comes in vitamin-like tablets.

River Flows in You

I AM SO ADDICTED TO IT FOR MONTHS ALREADY!!! I keep playing it on and on and on again... so beautiful.... I can imagine Edward playing this for Bella. AAAaa Edward!!!! I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!

Note: This is not the official Bella's lullaby. Just a song by Yiruma but the Twilight fans made it like it should be Twilight Saga's official lullaby. It's a hit in youtube tho.

Yasmin Ahmad : Malaysia's Best Movie Maker

Published: Thursday July 23, 2009 MYT 4:37:00 PM
Updated: Thursday July 23, 2009 MYT 5:56:14 PM
Film director Yasmin Ahmad in hospital (Update 4)

PETALING JAYA: Critically-acclaimed movie and TV commercial director Yasmin Ahmad was admitted to hospital after feeling unwell during a presentation she was giving at TV3.

She was taken to the Intensive Care Unit at the Damansara Specialist Hospital, where she is now on life support and in stable condition.

She is believed to have suffered a stroke and was in a coma for a short while before doctors there successfully revived her.

Hospital authorities have not confirmed anything.

A host of Malaysian personalities are at the hospital now, including pop diva Datuk Siti Nurhaliza and husband Datuk Khalid Jiwa, Suria FM’s Engku Emran, TV3 CEO Farid Jamaluddin, and indie filmmakers James Lee, Pete Teo, Liew Seng Tat.

Yasmin, 51, the director of Sepet, is particularly well known for the community message commercials she directed for Petronas.

She began her career in advertising as a copywriter at Ogilvy & Mather, eventually rising to creative director at Leo Burnett Kuala Lumpur.

Her movies have won many international awards and have been screened at the Berlin, San Francisco, Singapore and Cannes international film festivals.

Last November, she was inducted into the inaugural Malaysian Advertising Hall of Fame by the Association of Accredited Advertising Agents Malaysia.

Get well soon... I haven't had enough of your movies!

My Big Brother is an Anak Kutip

I so going to kill my brother the very moment he comes back from LA.

Ok… so daddy, mama and abang went to LA – working on daddy’s event there. They left me here because somebody needs to take care of a lot of things here (or so they said). Whatever. I don’t really have issues with them going/leaving me here… I’m cool with it. Daddy goes there every year since the past 5 years. I followed them last year and I still have years ahead of me that I can join. So it’s not something I would be mad about. Afterall, they’re working there. Not so much of having holiday all the time.

I’m pissed with my brother coz he just can’t seem to shut his fucking mouth or cut his fingers off the keyboard from telling me stories there. Ok, so they went shopping. Cool with it. Shopping spree on branded things. Not cool. Staying at the most luxurious and largest hotel in Los Angeles. No prob. Staying at San Pedro. Heh, harbor area? So not a prob to me. RIDING A HUMMER LIMO FROM DOWNTOWN TO SAN PEDRO – I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU. Can’t u just keep it to urself? Don’t u know how to respect other family members? Bloody hell.

Wassup with u carrying a Victoria Secret paperbag? And u took a picture of urself carrying it and put it as a profile picture on fb? Watafakwatafakwatafak is wrong with my brother?? Did he finally realize that being a girl suits him better? VS is not the thing u wanna show off with, bitch. VS is for girlsssss! Daddy told me abang bought a handbag as well. He thinks it’s for me. I think it’s for himself. U’re doing this on purpose – to make me suffer here. Fuckyew.

And u bought 5 ipods thereeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m dying. I don’t know what else my brother is not telling me. I’m just going to prepare myself for a heart attack when he comes back. That’s y I need to kill him first.

Who’s in? I’ll give u 1 of the ipod for free. Hihi.

I Miss Sumo

This is Sumo.

He's my bestfriend.
We've known each other since primary school.
Sumo went to the same primary and secondary school as I did.
He was a sports person back in primary school.
He turned into a Rempit in secondary school.
He joined Clubbers and Ravers after school.
He is still half blooded Rempit and Clubber.

Sumo was the leader of his Rempits group back in high school (or i assume he was).
He pissed both teachers and schoolmates with his 'gangsterism' ideology.
He'd never be in class for more than half an hour.
He always took a tour to other classes and disturb our lessons.
He joined other classes when there were his favourite teachers teaching, just to sat there and listen without disturbing others.
Teachers were bored chasing him skipping classes that they actually let him did whatever he liked as long as it wasn't off limit.
He was naughty, yes. But he was a nice and hilarious guy, still is.

Sumo and I became closer when I dated his bestfriend.
We were so closed, we hung out 24 hours together everywhere.

We did a lot of crazy things together:
1. Sumo and I ponteng puasa and went to the drive-thru (with his scooter!) and Sumo with confidence went straight to the pick-up counter to order. I was so embarassed I told him we had to order at the machine first. So Sumo MADE ANOTHER ROUND back to the drive-thru order machine. I can still remember clearly how the McD staffs laughed at us.

2. Sumo and I had a fight on who ran faster. I thought I ran faster than him. We argued from Celup's house at Ampang til Keramat when we decided to call Man for permission to run in front of his house, with him witnessing it. So we reached outside Man's house and started to position ourselves to run from where we stood to the car at the end. I lost just inches from Sumo. Bloody hell.
Man - still confused.

3. Sumo and I were betting about some stuff. Can't remember what. We were 'touring' around Setiawangsa with his scooter. It was late night as i remember. We passed a burger stall full with Rempits. A lot of Rempits. I guess there were about 20 plus of them there, lepaking. Sumo got the idea to dare me: Lift my hand and wave at the Rempits while saying Whooop!! at them. We argued for about half an hour (still touring) whether I could do it or not. I reached my boiler point when Sumo underestimated me someway and accept the dare.
I did it. As loud as all of them could hear me when we passed the burger stall.
Sumo was so in shocked he sped up faster than a Ferrari, so embarassed with what I did. I was surprised he didn't hide his head in the ground like an Ostrich.
We had never passed that stall ever again.

4. We were working with my dad at Sure Heboh. There was a company's camera which to be used to take photos of the activities there. I was holding the camera and took a lot of 'vain' photos of me and Sumo. Those ugly crazy faces of us posing.
Jeng jeng jeng.
The Managing Director came to our booth. Took the camera and transfered it to a laptop.
The MD was sitting at a table at the back of our booth with my dad behind him, looking at the event's photos.
Me and Sumo (totally forgotten that we took our photos a lot), were standing far behind them stalking what they were discussing about.
Suddenly our photos, as big as the full screen of the laptop appeared in so many poses.
My dad turned back to face us with his hands cekak pinggang waiting to scold us.
We ran as fast as we could to the end of the carnival site.
And enjoyed with the promoters at the TV3's booth, forgot that we actually have a thousands of work to do!


5. Sure Heboh was our playground for years since it started. We've known everyone who worked there, every booth, every security guards, every clowns and cleaners, everyone! Sumo and I had a lot of memories there. We pau every booth their products, we kacau the clowns and threatened them if they don't give us a ciggie, we skipped queing line, we rocked the stage and sing our song like we were some superstars there (the audience thought we were singers and our audience were as many as you see in a concert, haha!). We created our own game. The most ridiculous of all games: we invited husbands and wives to our booth. all with their own partners. we sat the husbands on their chairs and gave each of the wives a bunch of getah nasi lemak. As we said START, those wives had to tie their husbands' hair with the getah provided, as many ties as they could in a given time limit. ha ha ha. it was sooooo funny!!! imagine, those husbands who barely had hair, were tied few strands on hair. they looked like ants with a lot of antenas.
Oh btw, we worked at Maggie's booth. This game had nothing to do with promoting Maggie. And therefore, we were scolded by my dad. hahaha.

I wish I can write more about those crazy (mostly stupid) things we did.
Sumo and I had too many memories together.
He'd lived at my dad's house for almost a year or more. Everytime my dad gave me pocket money, he gave to Sumo THE SAME AMOUNT as mine too. in front of me. damn u sumo.
I missed him.
He's been the nicest, hilarious, fun person I've ever met.
Love you Sumo.
Peace.

Sumo in his early transition from a Rempit to a Clubber.
In the middle is Bongkok, another bitch i missed a lot.

Dah smart sikit mase ni.


Mase kat JB. Sumo's face described it all.
Look at his bag, his Rempit bag, but with cuter pattern.
Thank god he didn't carry the famous Rempit bag, SHOEI. haha.

H Again

dear blog,

I CAN'T SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm giving u a name.

hmmm...








hmmmm................................................................................................................................................








do like hmmm?... ok, i'll call u hmmm from now on blog.



ok hmmm, since i'm bored and i have nothing to do [since i'm not in a mood to watch dvd], i'm gonna write crap. how about my boyfriend?

hmmm : h againnnn??? nooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!

me : deal it with hmmm. i'm so in love with my bf, i will write anything i want since i OWN YOU!

hmmm : pls make it short and simple, pleaseeeeee???



i'm having delusions. watafak.

ok la... simple je. i'd like my readers and my stalkers to know more about my bf. i've been writing about our problems in my previous posts which I think I’ve made people give the impression of him being a bad bf. He’s not a bad bf, he’s a good bf actually. He’s just immature! Ok now learn more about him and be nice!

My boyfriend:

1. very hyper. i mean, very very hyper kid. his behavior is like a 6 years old boy. he gets very excited knowing new things, screams, shouts, bables, jumps, punches, kicks, dances and everything that a 6 years does. heh.

2. talks too much. sometimes we fight on who to talk first. and everyyytime i'm telling him a story, he'll cut it and take over that topic , just like that.

3. he licks his finger when he's done eating instead of washing it, even if the sink is just 2 inches from him. the he will wipe his hand with his shirt or pants. and he eats again.

4. he will call me at least 3 times before he says anything. "baby, baby, baby! ade lighter?"

5. he likes asking stupid questions, eg: "b......cite Transformers dengan tomyam mane lagi best?" - out of the sudden.

6. He sepak any cats in front of him.

7. His reaction to anything superb is always delayed 30 seconds, "WOW!"

8. He brings his own mouse, mousepad and keyboard to cyber cafe like, T-bun when he has just a casual dota match.

9. Everything he holds will drop from his hands.

10. He's always hungry but seldom finishes his meal. He thinks that scientists should invent lamb chop in a pill or by just drinking it from a small cup. euw. he's just lazy when it comes to shredding, cutting, suaping and chewing the food.

11. He likes striking colours. He thinks green shirt and orange pants - stylO.

12. He pelat O. hahahahaha. eg: when we say elok (ei-loke) he'll say ei-LOCK. we say stylo (stai-low) he says stai-LOR. we say motor (moe-toe) he says mo-tow. hahahaha. so cute. our O (OWE) his O is OH with silent H at the back.

13. In a train, he will not give his seat to a pregnant lady standing in front of him. Instead, if i give the lady my seat, which then I have to stand.... he will right away give me his seat. weird.

14. He likes weird stuff. He likes to try exotic food. He'll eat otak lembu, sup konek lembu, tunjang lembu and things like that if the restaurant serves it. He wants a lion for a pet. Once, his family asked him to kill a rat they caught in the house. He took the rat (in the small cage), sprayed it with green paint and burn the rat with the spray and aerosol.

15. He sleeps with all the pillows on the bed. I always wake up in the middle of the night finding my head pillow-less. When I take the pillow back from him, 5 mins later he'll snatch back the pillow from head. And we will fight all night about whose pillow belongs to who.

16. He doesn't have any kindness in him when it comes to driving. He'll never give anyone his way. Imagine a car reverse from a parking lot, almost done reversing, as long as there's enuff space for him, he'll squeeze to that without stopping. Most of the time, even if there's not even a space for him, he'll stop in front of that car. Crazy.

17. He complains all the time.

18. He's allergic to sunlight. He said he shouldn't be a Malaysian and doesn't fit staying in Asia. he should be living in some cooler places.

19. He's asthmatic. And he uses it as a reason all the time. Especially when he wants to go back and play dota.

20. He doesn't lepak at mamaks. He hates lepak. Oldtown takpe.

21. He wears 2 bangles on each hand and a necklace he never takes off ever.

22. He thinks his jambang is hot.

23. He talks really fast. I don't know what's the rush.

24. He's easily pissed off when he encounters something inconvenient and tiring, for him. eg: we tapaw nasi and there's a soup in a plastic tied by getah. if he can't open that getah, he definitely will make a hole using a fork or anything that will do. he's like that in everything else.

25. Everytime he listens to a song he's familiar with, he says. "baby, lagu u!". everytime. even if i hate that song.

Good things about him!

1. He'll never leave me alone anywhere. He'll find away to make it possible for me to not stay alone.

2. He hates sunlight but he will always ask if I want to have lunch together with him.

3. He'll do anything for me even if he hates it.

4. He only answers MY phone calls and reply my text messages when he's playing dota.

5. Despite his dumb look, h is actually smart. really really smart. he is a very knowledgeable person. They way he learns something is by understanding that subject. He can talk about history, war, politics, animals, universe, psychology and surprisingly he knows a lot about religion. I think he knows everything. Makes my life easier when I don't understand something, I just ask him.

6. He really loves his mother. Mummy's boy.

7. He doesn't sleep all night when I'm sick. He waits until I need something. Very sweet.

8. He's a good joker.

9. He knows when to cheer my mood.

10. I'm his priority. heeee~

I'm a boring person

what i did since i came back from jb?

nothing!

i went out mostly for lunch or dinner with H, watched DVD marathon with him, checked my fb, submit resumes, smoking, chatting...

i'm bored to death.

i must find a job as sooooon as possible coz i am really really broke. i need money to go out, have fun, buy new clothes, shoes, handbags, go to spa, do my hair, eat expensive delicious food, and spend all my money on nonesense!

i got 2 phone calls from 2 big companies this morning. the first call was made from an international event company called Marcus Evans, from the GM himself. quite a well known company from UK. Offering a position of an International Corporate Sales Executive - basically i will have to do sales as in find sponsorships for international events organized by that company. so if there's a convention in Dubai... find companies who are willing to sponsor that event. again.... i'm not interested doing sales. i hate doing sales. it makes me look stupid when i'm already stupid enough. haha. i dont want to do those things like calling thousands of people, setting appointments, talk about what i should be selling - product/services, chase them around, make them sign the contract, fool them, fool myself, turned down by them or getting commission when i succeed. ahyo... boring! i can talk, but i wont chase. so i told him that i may need to look at the company's website and know more about them first. or lets just say that, im not interested!

the 2nd company is my favourite! it was from a media agency called Carat, a part of Omnicom Group. they are media specialists in planning and buying. its very interesting. so if im a media planner, client comes to see me and i consult them in which media should they advertise. simple. but i have to make sure that the media selections are worth the campaign. if the campaign fails, i would be blamed. so let sayyy....... Armani is going to launch a new perfume for ladies. they come to me seeking advises on which media should they participate in. i will look at all the medias such as newspapers, magazines, radio, tv, billboards, etc and find the best that will work out for their campaign. maybe cleo/harpers bazaar/glam magazines, the star/malay mail newspapers, hitz/fly/mix fm, tv3/8tv/astro..... all depends on their budget. if i put them in utopia mag, kosmo newspaper, tv1... and everything fails... im dead. haha. that is if i am the planner. if i'm the media buyer, those planners will come to me and let me do the costing. a lot of calculations. i'm not good in maths. serious. the last time i learned maths was back when i was doing my spm. i havn't had a subject of maths since my diploma. so im really stupid in maths. so wish me all the best for my interview this wednesday with Carat!

oh and today i got an e-mail from a company who does in-game for mobile phones called Gameloft. seriously, i dont even remember applying any job or submitting my resume to that company! its international as well. doing big in the States. new in Asia especially our country. in the email it said.... "In order to test your motivation and skills we would like you to prepare a 5 slides presentation addressing this subject: “What main marketing actions would you propose to improve Gameloft sales and brand awareness in Malaysia?”".

kimak.

how should i knowwwww things about games???? i dont even play games. i hate games!!!! [to be specific - DOTA]. if u'd asked me how to expand ur services to improve ur sales and brand awareness... i would suggest things like, oh do the paparazzi thingy - provide all the latest gossips thru phone, update us on where we can get markdown sales and discounts, do the gossip girl kinda like software where we can know who our friends are flirting with and bitching about [which is already done with the facebook mobile actually... but go invent something better!!], go do something like joined businesses with fastfood chains, mamaks, laundry services, superhypermarkets, etc so that people like me WON'T HAVE TO GO OUT AND BUY THOSE THINGS MYSELF. i'm so lazy. so what? isn't that convenient for lazy people like me with just click click click........ beep beep - your orders will be delivered in 2 minutes, please standby at the front gate and bring extra cash. tak payah aku susah2 start kete gi kedai semata2 nak beli rokok lagi dah.

haih... i'm so lazy nowadays. maybe because i have been having my holiday for too long. i have to go out and get fresh air but everytime i tend to do so, i ended up smoking in my own room.

ok then bloggie... i'm going to watch my dvd now. 2morrow i'm going to the gymmmmmmm!!!! oh oh dont misunderstand pls. i'm just accompanying H. he has to work out! he's out of shape already. i'm going to force him run for 1 hour and do the biceps, triceps, betisceps, bontotceps and push ups!! or do they call it sit up? i'm confused. ah its just a term anyway.

Photo of the Day:
look what this alien did to me. haih.

Trip to JB & Singapore

Exhausted. I just got back from jb and Singapore. The trip was very unexpected. I lepak-ed with mim, dodo and the others last Monday and suddenly a vacation break aroused in my head and I was like, why not? So at first, I thot of going to cherating that very weekend but dodo has to go to jb [to work]. And then we planned to postpone it to another week, but mim said she’s going back to school. So we were like, jb? Okay, we’re following u then dodo. Just like that we planned on our roadtrip to jb. Ngehehe.

Day 1

-Mim slept at my house the night before so both of us went to H house to pick him up. Janji melayu pukul 9 but we left the house at 10 am.

-Picked up H, our driver and left stw to go straight to jb.

-1 of my contact lens went missing. Searched for optical shop to buy a new pair.

-Optical shops still closed. Open only at 11. Forget about it. Continue our journey to jb.

-H forgot his passport, turned back to his house. Luckily we were just at Jelatek.

-Finally, going to jb.

-Reached jb at 2pm. Went straight to The Zon Hotel. Met Ammar there.

-Can’t check-in. Room still not ready til 4pm. Fucking late check-out assholes.

-Starving. Had lunch. Dodo came to join us at starbucks after he’d done with his work.

-Sleep til 8pm

-H friend, John came and took us to a nice seaside seafood restaurant at Permas Jaya.

-Siakap – Sotong – Kerang – udang – ketam – tomyam – yummyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~

-Went back to the zon, lepak-ed outside hotel and found a line lot of clubs next to our hotel that we never knew existed. Excited.

-We drank a beer tower outside one of the clubs there, Dolce. A lot of hot girls accompanied by mat remps. Tak paham.

-sleep like a baby.

Day 2

-Had a hard time waking up H. we’re supposed to go to Singapore in the morning.

-Managed to wake H and started planning to go to Singapore at 2.30pm.

-Mim and Ammar decided to stay in. Ammar thought us how to get to Singapore. Simple rule, if you don’t know - ask someone. Follow the rules coz everything there is all about giving u saman.

-Went to Cosway where the Malaysia’s Immigration is. Then took a bus to the Singapore’s. Took a another bus to the MRT.

-Passed 12 stations to get to Orchard Road. It was 4pm.

-H first time experience to Singapore. “Baby, knape tak sejuk?” Stupid question.

-Walked along Orchard Road. H stopped at almost every ice-cream stall there to buy their aiskrim potong like we can’t find it anywhere here in kl and as if it tasted different. Adoi.

-Penat. On the way back to the place where we started walking at Orchard Road was killing me. Stopped every 5 minutes for breaks.

-6.30pm – can’t make it to Bugis street or other destinations. Headed back home.

-MRT fucking jam-packed. Buses were overflowing with people. Body odours made me feel sick. Just wished I could go home asap.

-Moody bcoz we were so tired. 8.30pm crossed border, got a phone call from mim saying there’s been a misunderstanding between my mum and dodo’s. omigod, another drama.

-Met dodo, mim n ammar at hotel and went to singgah selalu for dinner.

-Sent ammar to Cosway, headed back and slept like the dead.

Day 3

-Managed to wake up early for check-out but had problems waking up H til 12.30.

-Packed things, checked-out, bought a bottle of absolut and left the zon.

-Had lunch and headed to my uncle’s house in Ponderosa Golf & Country Club to take some fruit cakes my mum ordered from him. Luckily dodo knew the way there.

-Back on our journey to kl again.

-Reached here at 7pm. Tada.

Portfolio (I have lost a lot of my designs back then... fuck!)

World Championship of Performing Arts 2009, Souvenire Program Book Design : Cover Design 1

World Championship of Performing Arts 2009, Souvenire Program Book Design : Cover Design 2

World Championship of Performing Arts 2009, Souvenire Program Book Design : Cover Design 3

World Championship of Performing Arts 2009, Souvenire Program Book Design : Cover Design 4

World Championship of Performing Arts 2009, Souvenire Program Book Design : Book Layout

World Championship of Performing Arts 2009, Souvenire Program Book Design : Final Book Cover

World Championship of Performing Arts 2009, Souvenire Program Book Design : Contestant Profile

World Championship of Performing Arts 2009, Souvenire Program Book Design : Contestant Profile

Road Safety Campaign : TV Commercial Storyboard

Road Safety Campaign : TV Commercial Storyboard

Road Safety Campaign : TV Commercial Storyboard

Road Safety Campaign : TV Commercial Storyboard

Road Safety Campaign : TV Commercial Storyboard

Road Safety Campaign 2008 : Newspaper Ad

Drawing : Original subject

Drawing

England Optical Revamp Campaign : Paperbag design

Game Design - Master Crow Interactive Multimedia Board Game : Rough sketch

England Optical Revamp Campaign : Newspaper (event)

Teen Community Web Design : Intro

Teen Community Web Design : 1st design

Teen Community Web Design : 2nd design

Game Design - Master Crow Interactive Multimedia Board Game : Final Layout

England Optical Revamp Campaign : Billboard Ad

World Championship of Performing Arts 2006 : Audition poster

World Championship of Performing Arts 2008 : Contestant Profile Card

World Championship of Performing Arts 2008 : Contestant Profile Card

World Championship of Performing Arts 2008 : Contestant Profile Card

Teen Community Web Design : Index

Astrology.com Daily Love Tarot - Tuesday July 7, 2009

The Magician card suggests that if you are going to walk the walk or talk the talk, then you should be prepared to follow through or else you could be perceived as a player. Give yourself permission to explore your own basic drives or readjust your romantic priorities and this could be a time of romantic growth.


hah! today after lunch i was all excited to be "so romantic" when h invited me to his house. guess what we did...



he played dota while i read Breaking Dawn til 6 pm.

nice.

very romantic.

Oh Baby!

So I’m having this, insecurity with H. I figured, I have to correct things before it gets worst.

Last Friday I found a folder full with old photos with lovers, family and friends saved in my pc. I have been using laptop a lot I’ve forgotten all about my pc [poor pc… sorry]. So I got all excited looking back at those photos… those times when I was a bit younger [hehehe]… when people were so into camera phone and digital camera became the new trend of must-have-gadget.

I looked back at my hairstyles. The blonde and highlights time. My fashion changed from wearing sneakers to high heels back to flip flops. Club photos when I was still energetic to club every night with my girlfriends. My family photos, especially looking at how my baby brother had grown a lot now. Back to college time when I was still doing my Diploma… being the only Malay bitch in school. Hahaha. Memories………

And I got excited again, to show H those photos of me back then.

I carefully selected those photos. I tried not to include those photos of me and J but I realized that it was very very very impossible to do so as J appeared in almost all of the photos. I was dating him for soooo long, of course he’d be there! So I chose those photos with J far away from me, eventho he was still in it. I didn’t wanna hurt H feelings.

H looked at it.

Gave comments.

And turned away when its not even finished yet.

He suddenly acted weird. He was mad but kept it to himself. So whats wrong honey? Did I pissed u?

He said, he’s not interested in my past. He doesn’t want to know.

I took this chance to fix everything. I forced him to talk over this matter, and everything else. He avoided the conversation. I kept forcing him again and again and again until he wants to talk. So we talked.

Apparently H is not over J…. or in other way, he thinks I’m still not over J. He thinks I still love J. He thinks I’m still in touch with J, that I haven’t moved on and I will never forget J.

Kiss.my.ass.

This is ridiculous. I wouldn’t do so many things, wasted all my time and effort just to make H happy everyday if I’m still looking back at my relationship with J. I know I can just go back to J anytime, I know J is still waiting for me despite everything that happened between us.

H thought I want to CHANGE HIM INTO J. that I was on this turn-you-into-him mission. Blah. Aku kalau nak kat mamat tu lagi dah lame aku tinggalkan kau. I mean, I can’t deny that J is way much better than H. that’s because he’d known me for soooo long. 3 years ain’t nothing comparing to my 5 months with u baby. But u are special urself. U are different from J. u annoy me all the time but that’s what I like about u. J understands me. But he started with knowing nothing about me. He learned. He observed. And the long period helped a lot. So if someone can do that, why can’t he? Eventually he’ll understand me better, know me better in future. its just a matter of time.

We argued a lot. He told me what he thinks and I defend all the time. It was fucking hurtful. Things that he said was very heartbreaking but I love him so much I wouldn’t want to lose him. And I’m happy to hear that he loves too, hearing things that he’s thankful to have me and the feelings he has in me.

We talked over everything. Including all the things in my previous post. We settled things but again, just a matter of time. I can’t expect him to that perfect when I’ve only known him for few months.

I really really hope that my relationship with him will be just as long as it will be, beautiful and loveable. I’m really into him. He’s the reason I changed a lot comparing to my past relationship. I never thought that I could really change. H opened my heart to a new beginning of honest and LOYAL relationship. Love you.

Thennnn we watched Marley and Me. Just when my eyes were about to dry up, I cried again… like hell. Babi cerita tu sedih gila siotttt!! I want a clearance puppy too! They named their dog over Bob Marley, I want to name my cat over Britney Spears. I should have done that in the first place! Nvm, LV, please beranak somemore!

Things I Totally Disagree and Annoyed with H

1. he dotafucks all the time.

2. he refused to join me when i hangout with people who are not close to him. even if he lepaked with them more than 10 times already. and if m is not there as well... he wont lepak.

3. he wont lepak at mamaks.

4. he's allergic to sunlight - he wont go out unless he has to. which makes it harder for me to see him before 7pm.

5. he doesnt want to be close to my mum. he doesnt want my mum to like him. he's just not that guy. he honestly said, i malas nak layan orang tua.

6. he'll text me when he's going out, when he wants to tell something... but that's just it. a bit disappointing rite? this soooo weird. the weirdest relationship i've ever had.

7. when m asks him to do something, he'll do, he'll agree. when i do so, he'll argue. watafak.

8. he cant look at pretty hot girls. no offense. but looking tooooo long and talking tooooo much about the girl - VERY OFFENDED.

9. he's not romantic, sweet nor any other desired personality that all girls would want in a boyfriend. he's an alien.

10. he always hurt my feelings without realizing it - which made it more hurtful for me.

H1N1 and Sleeping Like Normal People Do!

okay 2day is quite a tiring day for me. yesterday i slept at 4.30pm, woke up at 2a.m. this irregular sleeping and waking up time has been going on for a week already. it proved my jobless life has affect my life a lot. surprisingly, i didn't go out a lot recently. i'd rather stay home and be with h.

so back to yesterday's story. woke up at 2am, forced h to wake up as well, went out to buy a new pack of ciggies and called up miyan to lepak - say around 3 something?

as we spoke on the phone, miyan told us story about a friend who was declared positive H1N1, a new virus also called swine flu that has been around for months n killed hundreds of people worlwide. its the new virus of the year, very popular, kalah britney spears.

miyan is...... really hard to control when he panics. so he got panicked. coz that friend got it from urbanscapes - which i remembered reading mim's status about her friend who was also infected and went to urbanscapes. and miyan's panic had gotten control over him and somehow affects me and h there n then! and so the 3 of us got panicked tak pasal2 and decided to go for a check up at GH.

5.30am - picked up miyan and went straight to GH. parked at kurang upaya spot, pretended that miyan is kurang upaya because miyan is a retard. went straight to ER counter and asked for a check up.

the person [a guy nurse i think], said that WE CAN'T GET JABBED IF WE ARE NOT HAVING THE SWINE FLU. we have to get high fever first, with some coughing and sneezing to do the test. because the cost is expensive [bluerghhh]. and we dont have the symptoms. and even if we are to get jabbed, it must be because we are travelling out of the country. bullshit.

7.00 am- so we went back, frustrated, and decided to go to hospital selayan coz miyan's cousin is a doc there and blablabla. we thought of going there at 8am. meanwhile waiting for a phonecall from his cousin, we had breakfast at diva. a small discussion about our bedtime. we decide to go back to our normal routine. since h is the worst sleep addict, me n miyan team up and force him to follow our plan - wake up early, sleep early.

8.00 am - ska called and asked if i'd be joining for a swim later. i forgot about the swine flu and the panic, got home and started packing my stuff to go swimming!

9.30 am - ska picked me up at home, went straight to her apartment near pwtc. called h and m [both busy dotafucking at that time] and forced them to join us.

10.30 am - swim swim swimmmm~~~

swine flu forgotten.

12.30 pm - lunch at island red cafe, sri rampai. oh im soooo in lurveeee with that place! very nice weh.

2.00 pm - accompanied ska to british council to settle her registration on IELTS test.

3.00 pm - tea at oldtown, jj. plus some sudoku.

4.00 pm - home. change. lost the battle and sleep.

8.00 pm - mummy forced me to wake up and dragged me to buy groceries.

11.00 pm - h called. he survived. he managed to control his sleeping temptations by dotafucking the whole day. miyan lost the battle at 5pm too. im so proud of my bf! huhu. zaki, azielah and chip came and fetch me to go out for a smoke around stw in his car. haha.

11.30 pm - lepak with zyra n nilad at ali.

12.00 am - its j's birthday. whatever. went back and dying to sleep again.

1.30 am - i'm blogging.