The day I'm afraid to face all the while has finally arrived. *sigh* A day where goodbyes are everywhere, a day where calories are burnt till max (due to packing & luggage carrying LOL~).. the dispersion of us all begins.
I know I'm emo, who doesn't in this kind of situation? :)
I don't really bring myself into tears. I think I control them pretty well, I don't know why but I'm positively sure I'm not at all talented for movie cast, perhaps yes for other casting, but definitely not crying scenes. I can't cry in 10seconds, okay 10 sec may be too much, but not even 5 minutes! LOL.. unlike artist. I know they can, most of them can. LOL..
I was reflecting myself this afternoon, thinking of farewells that really hit me emotionally. So as I was counting, I noticed that there were only one farewell that forced my tears out of me. Oh yea.. THE Samantha Lau Yan Yee cried for bye byes. How ironic. I'm usually the one who will go "COME ON!! It's not like you're not gonna meet after that." sounds familiar? LOL.
Well, that happened when we were leaving National Service. The 3-month-training & living together. I cried when my mates who took Form 6 had to leave the camp first. More them half of them gone.. I cried, honestly, cried. The atmosphere was so emotional. I couldn't hold it, seeing my friends heading to the coach one-by-one, I burst into tears. Oh yes, into tears. I didn't even cry the day I came to UK, when my family send me off. LOL.
Today, is the day. The day where emotional bye-byes come to play once again. Thinking of my next 2 months without these bunch of housemates I so comfortably live with, my seed of emotion began to sprout once again. I'm luckier this round, because we still have a farewell trip together. At least I have like a week more to bring myself to accept the fact that 'Oh yes, we're all dispersing'.
Everything happened so quickly. Exam, Assignments, Dissertation..!! Everything ended yesterday, and today, it's the day we're moving out! I have no time at all to bring myself to accept that fact, no time to emotionally adjust myself, YET!! aww.. *sigh*
This is exactly the same feeling the week I knew my friends taking form 6 who had to head back for studies in NS. That happened really quickly as well. Oh no!!! I hope I control myself well these few days. Thank God PMS is over, otherwise, uhh! I couldn't even think of it! XD
We gave ourselves the name "Willowers", from the name of our house - 'Willow House'. And we gave ourselves little slogans for fun too - Once a Willower, always a Willower; Where there's Willowers, there it will rock! :) Though it sounded lame at times, these will keep us reminded of each other in future. That's why I don't go against lame-ness. There're usually the little things you remember in your catagories of memories. :)
I love all of you Willowers and I'll miss all of you too. I'm definite I will!! I'll definitely feel different without you, all of you the next 2 months in UK!!! :) May our wonderful memories cherish in us always!
Great, there's a phone call intruding now - broke my emotion flow - LOL!! Thanks Rachel. I know I should stop my emos!! XD A short update, things are pretty well up to what I'd planned. House moving's alright, packing's fine! I'm left with my lappie & Scotland prep stuff. Lappie will be moved to my rent house tonight. Final trip of house/luggage moving. Thanks for the help, Mary.
I'll try to keep posting!! If I don't, it means that I ran out of time and my lappie safely landed with my landlady!! :) I'll see you after my trip then, where my emotions should be well-dealt by then! XD
Farewell Willowers, farewell. Love ya all~!!