Thursday, September 25, 2008

tears streaming down her face as she walked,
all the sacrifices she made,
why didnt i appreciate them,
why didnt i see them then.

my heart pains so,
i feel as if a hole has formed in my heart.
i miss you so much mum,
i love you.

this is the worst day of my life:(

Friday, September 19, 2008

these few days have been quite ok, not too bad(: i guess i'm not a person who gets excited really easily, so i'm just okay..

the past few days of orientation was err, boring. attended alot of workshops and listened to some funny stuff. there's been problems with our stuff also, have to get MOE to send down copies of our A level certs. damn pissed off. also had some problems with getting my matriculation card done, like wth. why do all these things happen to me! i think i am damn suay. :( grrrrr!

we went to santa monica today, was quite nice! the beach was nice (: we took the big blue bus which only costs 25 cents for students!! (: had lunch there and walked around for a while, then headed back to the hotel. and seriously, we meet all sorts of people everyday. today we met 2 people who in our sgrean context would be classified as W. but nvm! we see different people everyday i guess(:

i dont want to go to school :( i'm gonna move in tomorrow, so i guess i'll be staying there once i move in. i have tons of stuff to bring in, so i guess i'll just have to move things in one by one.

Monday, September 15, 2008

hey guys! i've reached safely (:

the flight was long and tiring :( stopped over at narita, it was super hot there. it seemed as if they were on energy conservation, no aircon at all! finally reached LAX international airport, the immigration queues were tremendously long! waited very long to clear customs and collect our bags.

took the super shuttle and got to the hotel. this area seems like a very nice place! very quiet and peaceful. hahaha. the hotel is very near the medical centre of the school. we slept for a while and went out for dinner with shalom and her dad. still very tired!

walked around the area and to school after dinner. went to look for the place to report for orientation. wow. the walk was quite far. the school is very big and the medical centre is super huge! the buildings are nice! hahaha.

the moon was especially round last night, zhong qiu jie! too bad no mooncakes to celebrate it! but the memory of mooncakes remains. hahahha! (:

now is 6.11am on 15th sept, morning. just got up not too long ago, cant sleep already! will be going to school soon for orientation. hope everything goes well! (:

anw last night was quite sad, couldnt bring myself to read your letters! i read one then i couldnt stop crying, so i decided not to read anymore until i settle down my feelings. hahahhaa. i cant imagine when mama goes home :(

Saturday, September 13, 2008

thanks so much for everything everyone(: for taking time off your busy busy school time to meet me (:

thanks esp to eighteen o six for the last class gathering, grace/weiquan/aaron for the last guitar gathering, zhenluan for taking time of prelim studying, weisan, yuanli, crystal, nanny, xiaomeii, joel, zhanyong, elias, yuting, aprie, suxin, aiping for coming out to meet me before i go off! (:

i dunno what else to describe my feelings now, except for extreme sadness :( every happy memory seems like a huge pain in my heart now :( i will miss you guys tremendously!

here's wishing everyone a great future ahead! study hard (: jiayou in school, for exams and everything else! see you guys in a years time (: hopefully everything will be going smoothly for everyone!

this is not goodbye, although my heart feels like it has grown a hole. i should be excited, but why am i feeling sadness :(

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

i'm really tired.
whats the point when you dont even bother?

i guess i have already done what i can,
whether or not you want it, is another matter all together.

i guess all these years dont mean anything to you.
not at all.

disappeared.

the last sunday, and monday has passed.
and its tuesday.

bleeding heart, heal again.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

now i understand;
it all boils down to the same thing.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

i need a license! AHHHH.

scary :(
sudden calls.