will youu?

Thursday, August 28, 2008

i dont know, i am just feeling a little more emotional than usual.
because you know, there may not be a next time.
i dont know why i am trying so hard.

valerie wrote on 9:16 PM.

i think this is a worry that i will never rid myself of.
pls take care of yourself and study hard miss.
i dont know how else i can help you :(

and to all those people out there who are bullying you,
please just ignore them.
those idoits should be thrown into the deep blue sea.
concentrate on your studies and do well k!

i wonder why in this part of the world seventeen year olds are still so childish. they should be sent to some seventeen year old training school to train themselves to be more mature. and seriously, some people are just so scheming and cunning at such a young age. whats with the kids these days? weirdos running around the earth. leave her alone and mind your own business. seriously, kids these days deserve to be lectured.

valerie wrote on 8:45 PM.

burnt a hole in my heart.
until today i still cant come to terms with this,
i'm tired of trying.
you dont even care, do you?

valerie wrote on 8:38 PM.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

packing is a huge pain.
there is never going to be enough space and weight for me to carry :(
i guess there always has to be a compromise.

not everything can come along with me.
how am i to pack my entire life into less than 92 kg!

home is always the best place to be, for now.

valerie wrote on 5:15 PM.

i've just realised how much i have forgotten about secondary school days.
i just needed more than some reminders.

re-reading all the stuff from last time. thankfully i never intended to throw them away. the past serves as a constant reminder for me, about who i was and who i am and who i want to be. the link between then and now always serves as an important tool.

i really really miss cedar days :(
comparatively, relatively, certainly more carefree.

i too miss aj days.
eighteen o six:(
mahjong. bridge. escape. breaks. library. study. play.

there is always that constant trade off isnt it.
between time and youth.

~~regret~~

certain things need to be ~~forgotten~~ remembered.
i ~~will~~ have stepped out of the shadow of my past,
the future is blazing bright ahead.
look, aim, shoot.
forward.
ahead.
front.
tomorrow.
future.
good.

i know i can, i know i can, i know i can do this.

valerie wrote on 12:24 AM.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

all it takes is just a single mistake for all the years of training to go down the drain.
and there can only be one winner.
i suppose thats what it is in reality.
either you win or lose.

valerie wrote on 2:03 PM.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

there needs to be balance in everything.
a fine line is drawn between madness and sanity.
self control, discipline and motivation.

all that matters now;

valerie wrote on 12:13 AM.

Friday, August 15, 2008

as sau aptly put it,
how am i going to fit my entire life into 96kg?

the packing has started.
i cant describe how messy it is.
imagine moving house but only being able to bring a limited amount of stuff.
and your stuff are going to have an airticket millions of km away.
man, i know that its inevitable,
but this sucks.

the choices i make,
i have to be accountable for.
please let this be right.

valerie wrote on 10:09 PM.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

these things keep happening and happening.

and all i can ask is, why?
why?
again?

i wish hard for an answer to all that's become and to be.

what do i want myself to be?
the questions of the future and beyond.
will i feel the same way then?

too many things, too little time.
are these meant to be?

controller or controlled?

valerie wrote on 8:52 PM.

this is my own choice.
and i know all these are the things i have to deal with.
no matter how painful;

what else can i say?

the passing time is like a rope being burnt slowly.
burnt into ashes and never to be rejoined to recreate.
how i wish, how i wish.

when will i feel this way again?

these things left behind,
i hope i wont regret my choice.

the unpredictable future i have chosen.
please let this be right.

valerie wrote on 8:47 PM.

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

As the times pass and days go by,
I am slowly feeling what I thought I would.

Feelings of apprehension yet excitement,
dread yet longing.
These mixed feelings,
what else can i say?

I still have a million things to do before I actually say goodbye.

The countdown starts.

I will miss you, and you and you and you :(

valerie wrote on 12:46 AM.