Saturday, November 25, 2006

today's one month more to christmas!we shall be happy.=)

Friday, November 24, 2006

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san:ahhh.nvm la.its always holidays for me!=) THANKS so much for evt.takecare babe.i love you!

mscute:ahh.i miss you!nvm la.next time WE GO YOUR HOUSE!haha.i just turned 17,you're turing 18 soon!!gosh,cant imagine next year.anw,takecare ms cute!LOVEYOU!

fitrah:AHHH.SO CUTE!!=))haha.thanks girl!HEEHEE.haha.my wonderful idea of ms seventeen.HAHA!THANKS GIRL!LOVE!=)

yay!going out with kate today.whoos.and today's my dental appointment.and today's also su san's birthday.and today's also sec 4 farewell.

OH.today's such an eventful day.ahha.i love november.dont ask me why,its the holidays!ahha.

ok thanks so much everyone!ahh.so touched.maybe i shouldnt be such a skeptic after all.hmmms.

ahha.thanks to these people for their wishes!=)

tracy,pingsiew,leanne,pamela,boonsiong,aprie!,katie,shijie and lynn!=))

this morning while i just woke up,someone dropped by my house.haha,dear zhenluan!thanks so much girl.really appreciate it!haha.you remembered i like pooh!haha.weisan and i were looking at those speakers ytd..=))thanks so much girl.must takecare and PLAY full use of your holidays.haha!=)enjoy playing ok.must play until go siao.go jc no time to play alr.hahaha.but what am i doing.HAHA.ironic.ok.must show me your PRETTY photos!=)enjoy youself..yes,i will think of where the mini zoo can go..hmm.OK!takecare loads and love you loads!huggs.=)

Thursday, November 23, 2006

some pictures from today..

ok,i'm too lazy to post any more photos.its so mafan.next time,if i remember,i will post.haha.takecare anw..

after reading it in the newspapers and weisan telling me about the mentos and coke thing,i finally went onto youtube to watch it.GO WATCH.so cool.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Zh1jYN2JPs&NR

and

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YNgl6z5Z7k4&mode=related&search=

anw i think this is the funniest birthday message,from my sister:

hello happy birthday.though you are irritating and pesky but you're still quite nice.stop bullying me though.anyway hope you will find a rich boyfriend who will fetch me to school everyday.

ahhh.my sister is so lame.she alws talks like that,btw.trying to be funny.AHHA.


and my conversation with zhanyong;

zhanyong:looks like someone just joined the 17teens club 51 minutes ago.happy bday girl!haha.

valerie:thanks.still awake,so late alr!(smt like that i forgot alr..haha)

zhanyong: lol!doing hw.anywayz, enjoy ur bday! dont stuff urself too much wif food. rmb theres still christmas haha.

valerie:haha,i'll probably stuff myself until i inflate.. (ok,i forgot what exactly did i say too)

zhanyong:ill prepare the lipo equipment.

HAIYOOO.see what kind of friend this is huh!want me to get inflated ah.HAIYOO.haha.no la.made me laugh in the middle of the night when i was going to sleep.HAHA.=) thanks anw.

haha.ytd i was watching some show on channel 8 where they change children for a day?yeah that one.haha,i saw my primary school teacher!!AHHH.so cool right.he looks the same except he's balding slightly more.hahaha.

today:ahhh!so happy,thanks everyone!

thanks to those who wished me :) that includes nanny!!angeline zhang (my dearest sister) , bihuan, esme, kate, janica, veron, weixun, zhenluan, zhanyong.. these are the midnighters..then there's slightly later than midnight, which includes mabel and aga :) then the early morning risers, weivien, fitrah, aggie, dhilshad (DEAREST US!:)) ), beeting, daddy, mummy, xiaomeii, kate again, crystal. then they're afternoon people, joel tan, pamella, yvonne, xinli, stephanie. haha. and testimonial people, yusin, yilan and sasha. and msn sining.thanks so much!!:)) haha,AND birthday alarm.hehheh.

haha,not forgetting yingting,mabel,aga and xinli!who WALKED ALL THE WAY TO MY HOUSE.which is so far from the bus stop.and they took a directory!SO CUTE RIGHT!=) ok let me explain my story.aga asked me for my address on the pretext of wanting to send me a christmas card.(aga you're a great actress!) then yingting,aga stayed over at xinli's house to bake a cake!ahh so sweet of you guys.then they trekked to my house this morning.i was so shocked when i heard the doorbell ring and i ran to look who was it.it was a gang of people carrying a PINK umbrella!hehheh.i thought maybe its my sister's friends or xiaomeii they all.end up its AGA XINLI YINGTING and MABEL.nv expected it.ahhh.thanks guys!the cake is so cute!=) and thanks for the earrings.haha.then we were fooling around at home.but i'm sick today..=( sheesh.so unlucky.but we were taking random photos,people acting like royalty..haha!=) so cute they all.

then we walked out,they ate roti prata.how was it anw!the uncle was ignoring aga,so sad!!=(( then i had to go..so sorry!!!!ahh,felt so bad.

went to heartland to meet weisan!ahh.so happy=) its been 4 years..haha!=)we wanted to eat alot alot of things.end up ate popiah then went to pizza hut.ahaha.i ate munchie mouse.its cute lah.but mine was deformed.and quite sad coz its actually just a scoop of vanilla ice cream with 3 m&ms and 2 oreos..haha.i like the cream btw,but it was missing.haha!no la.my sister told me before its not nice.but i still ate it today.ok la.haha.i'm not a fussy eater so ok!=)haha,but it was the time spent with weisan,whether its my birthday or not..=) though today wasnt a grand affair,i'm contented with just sitting and chatting.but!THE 5 OF US HAVENT MET UP YET.grr.soon soon.we should,soon.and thanks weisan for the present!SO CUTE!=) haha,my fetish for winnie the pooh hasnt faded away.haha.sounds wrong..

haha,and i'm meeting kate tmr.YES.haha.finally a day out with another one of the 5!WHOOS.haha.i have no clothes to wear.boo.pathetic.and my homework!ahhh.ok.i shall be HAPPY today!haha.

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yvonne: THANKS!!=)) rmb this day last year!we went back to school for pae briefing and the night before we got scolded like shit.thanks to erhm.haha.but anw,thanks babe!=)and thank you for last year too.haha=)

iLOVEhp:ahhh.so cool.thanksgiving.though i still dunno the diff between all their festivals.haha.if i go and study there then i'll know!AHH.ya right.

iLOVEhp:really?dont think so..really.i go check..=)or is it the cbox?

iLOVEhp:anw,thanks!=))

li tian:thanks!=))haha..

fitrah:AHH.YES.we shall go study together.my life's getting pathetic.i cant seem to be able to sit down and study.urgh.and,THANKS!first-er!AHHA.LOVE YOU!=)WHOO.*dog wails* =P
yvonne: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!(:

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

ahh.so touched.dear fishy called in the middle of the night to wish me.haha!=)thanks thanks yingting!haha.yay.so sweet.

haha,i remembered.
aga's hot
fitrah's cool
valerie's sweet
veron's strict

aga's and fitrah's interesting thoughts.haha.thanks for being my friends=)

hope you're doing fine.i know you're not ok,but what can i do to relieve you of the pain?when will you be ok,when will you be fine?

i've learnt it the hard way,never to have any high expectations of anyone.
you'll just get yourself disappointed,
hopes,dreams shattered.
is it worth it?
placing your happiness in someone's else's hands.
nope.
find your inner peace,
your life is in your own hands,not others.
you create your own destiny,you create your own happiness.
dont let anyone influence your thoughts,dont let anyone control you.
except Him.

peace;

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iLOVEhp:OH YA.nora.i have such stm.gosh!

mscute:AHH.next time we must must go out together k!I MISS YOU GIRLL=(

san:HAHA.OF COURSE I'M HAPPY.and i realised that i've spent the past 4 23 Novs with you.in sec 2 it was seoul garden with the 5.sec 3 too.in sec 4 it was with the oals.this year,its just YOU!AHH.=)yays.thanks for being there for me all these years.really really thankful for you=)takecare in the meantime.SEE YOU TMR!YAY=))

and i realised its been a while since i talked to xiaomeii!i think she went for ltc.mia,xiaomeii i miss you!=(

ytd went out with aga.deceiving ourselves again ah!wanted to study.end up was too distracted by books and more books.bad idea to study in woodlands library.for that matter,any library distracts me.the last time it was national library.haha.but we saw zhiwen.haha.we were speculating what was he doing there..=))MWAHAH.

anw,i think i'm sua ku,super damn sua ku.for the first time in my life,i went to causeway point.haha.this year has seen many new locations for me.discovering the other side of singapore (other than orchard) AHHA.oh wells,thanks aga for bringing me there!and i owe you money.ahha.i think swensens is more hua than gelare.next time we shall go!AHH.when we're studying,not pretending to!AHH.

today was lazing around day.not as if i havent been lazing around.reading and sleeping and eating.thats practically all i do nowadays.i think i'm going to grow fatter and fatter.sheesh.

i'm feeling skeptical again about being 17.i mean its only a few hours older,whats the big hoo ha about celebrating birthdays.in commemaration about my mother's efforts during labour?oh wells.i'm getting older.but not wiser,not smarter,not taller,but definetely fatter.sheesh.haha,my biggest birthday wish is to finish my holiday homework and not to die in egypt.haha.i cant help but think about what will happen if i die there!AHH.so many ways i can die.yellow fever,rabis,terrorist attack,plane crash,some virus attack..ahh.ok i'm fantasizing.but i rmb vividly that i once said i want to die in a wedding gown.and you told me that sounded despo.YES.i know.haha,and i'm laughing at it myself.sheesh!ahha,anw,people at prom,enjoy yourselves.=)ahha.

Monday, November 20, 2006

YAYYAY.tml going out with aga.WHEE.=))

i just rmbed today we were singing random songs.HAHA.
like our school songs,and i'm sad to say i have forgotten bits of it!!AHH.i suck man.
and we sang childhood songs.so cute!

i like LOVE my class!=)

ahhh.was talking to aga halfway then i discovered i have beautiful love by the afters music video!AHH.yay!=))haha.but its nothing like fitrah's evanescence video with oliver.haha=)) that one is freaky with women flying around.HAHA!=)whoos.

anw,i'm meeting weisan on thurs again!YAY.and bihuan tmr.thanks thanks!=))ahha.

i wont forget one year ago,three days from now.
the tears i'd wasted on nothing.
absolutely nothing;
urgh

anw,i'm wondering how it went,we escaped!HAHA.we went to watch step up.NICE NICE!=) they make such a cute couple.haha.the guy's hot.and the girl too.ahh,i remember.tyler and whats her name again?ahh,ok.i forgot.haha

we went back for banner painting.OUR BANNER ROCKS.when i get a photo of it i will show off to the world.haha.no la.we're just very proud of it,thats all..=))

Sunday, November 19, 2006

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mscute:HEY GIRL.yeah.who doesnt want to kill that bloody idoit.and i have a good idea who it is already.HAHA.so interesting,this person.maybe he/she thinks our lives are too boring and want to insert a little mystery for us?craziness la some people.nothing better to do.and YES!i'm going to school on mon=)) maybe might go for maths,depending.haha=))

planning for f&b is tough man!especially when the budget is so little.darn.haha.end up with food stuff again.forever de.haha.

anw,ytd lt,bs,yide and aga went to buy the deco.haha!=)

we went out for lunch ytd.eat until =X quite bo hua.because buffet is alw bo hua.haha.

then i met up with nanny.YAY.so happy.bought a pair of flats and a planner.YAYYAY.so happy.but most importantly,it's the time spent with nanny!=)haha,we must meet up one more time before tuition starts!hopefully can meet up with kate and crystal..haha.busy people..


money seemingly makes the world go round,
thats why i hate money.

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iLOVEhp: haha.i got the same ip address.

iLOVEhp: dont bother about whoever that is ok?just ignore that person with nothing better to do.indifference remember?this thing has been going on on everyone's blog.tell you abt yingting some other time ok?you know what i mean..

Friday, November 17, 2006

HAHA!veron!see i was right.=))ahaha.listen to them talking about obs is cool!because,OBS is cool.haha.you must go if you have a chance k!its a life changing experience.and a good way to get tanned.HAHA=))

anw,i realised that there's some prankster who's either trying to be funny,trying to sow discord,or just simply extremely bored.i cant imagine who would be so free to do stuff like that.i mean there's tons of homework,so many things to do and stuff.dont you have anything better to do?sighs.people in the world today.and i guess you think you're smart,but i dont think so.because some people are smarter than you,and have outsmarted you.

HAH.i think i've said too much about you,who ever you are,mysterious stalker.STALKING ALL OF US!AHH.dont be so weird la,seriously go get a life ok?there are better things to do than this.why dont you just tag as whoever you are?isit it more interesting to tag people's blogs with stuff that WE can relate to and talk about?rather than talk and let people ignore you?hmm.i dont understand how you think.

anw,aga's back from obs!AHH.i've missed you girl.=) i'm sure you enjoyed yourself!OBS sick?haha.must tell me about it ok!i'm so excited to hear from you.HEHHEH.

and bihuan,thanks for whatever you've got me ok!AHH.so touched!=))hehheh.looking forward to seeing you!=))LOVE!

and nanny!TML TML TML!YAYYYAY.so much to tell you.LOVE!!

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ms cute: AHH!!YAY.we had fun making fun of people!ahh,get well soon k girl.enjoy your holidays k!LOVE!!

iLOVEhp:heyy.haha.how was it today in school?too bad you didnt come along!AHH.i went for maths after that..haha.i was bored.

norbet:HAH.seriously.who are you?and valerie is not iLOVEhp.sorry!wrong guess.try again.

norbet:btw,nellyn's blog add is not whatever you put there.so sorry.i dont think i know you.thanks for dropping by anyway.and.i'm fine thank you.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

YAY.meeting up with san tml!=)whoos.must be happy k girl.and zhenluan's exams end tml!AHH.last paper.so fast!proud of you.=))yays.

all the world rejoice

went back to school for econs today.haha.i reached school,as usual at an unearthly hour.slightly before 7 am.feeling groggy and slightly sleepy.haha,but immediately zhanyong's darling came along and i was awake.quite interesting to see him hide from erhm.haha=)) cant imagine,thats why they say guys from that school are ERRR.99.9% are weird.haha,and i totally agree now!=
econs was supposed to start at 8,i thought.but they saide 830.but end up mrs low started at 820.so ok.hah.intro to macroeconomics.craziness.what GDP,GNP,NNP.how to calculate.what D=C+I+G+(X-N).at the beginning it was ok.but we started getting jumbled up with all the short forms,everything.but i guess its alot of common sense.must read thru again.ended abt 1140.waited for veron and lt to come to school.was sitting there stoning.met jieming.girl,hope your eye will get better soon k!=)) takecare.

so veron and lt came.went to mph to check out the place,how to decorate and evt.oh wells.they're really very idealistic=) which isnt a bad thing =) glad to have such enthu classmates!=) kept teasing bs.hehheh.and suanning some toot.HEHHEH.you know..

then lt and bs went for maths peer tutoring.so veron and i went to bishan to eat.its my 7th time in 10 days at j8.smt like that.you would think i'm bored of it.HAHA.oh wells.had long john.i dont really particulary like long john.i think i would like his cousin,short james.HAH.i'm still dreaming of my thai express.broke like hell.=\ haha.oh wells.

veron let me read ellen degeneres book:the funny thing is..
its very very funny.she's super random.i like!=)read veron's blog about one extract which was super funny.AHHA.a good read when you're stressed,bored,sleepy.every single paragraph makes me laugh.i shall go find it and perhaps buy it!AHHA.go read it!=))and her show is showing everyday 6pm,channel 5.she's very cute.btw,she's the voice of dory in finding nemo!AHH.random-ness is in my genes.

oh,veron and i went to bishan's library.met novabelle and engkiat and fiona again.haha,everytime i go to bishan library,they're there!permanent residents.so cute!=) borrowed 6 books.YAY.including one of egypt.whoos.

and i bought a pair of earrings which i think i wont wear.because i discovered its quite bimbotic.HAHA.and i look EEW.so yes,i don think i'll wear.*money flies*

seriously i think i need to get a new phone.this one is going to conk out on me,anytime.but stingy people say we need to save the money for other purposes.so ok lor.wait.haha.they mean well,yupp.sighs.

money problems.what to do when you're broke.
1.beg
2.steal
3.borrow
4.work
5.dont eat
6.dont spend money
7.walk to school
8.cycle to school
9.share your friend's food
10.cry. my all time favourite.

i really cant be happy when someone dear isnt here,
i really cant be happy when someone dear isnt happy,
i really cant be happy when i see you so miserable,
i really cant be happy when i think about you.
why?so many worries,but funnily i know what you would say.
DONT THINK SO MUCH..
sighs,the thing is that i feel helpless,
i see you all suffering in pain,but i cant do anything to make you feel better.
how.what to do,what to say to make you feel better?
4 different people,4 different problems.

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san: hey babe.sorry i was at econs today when you msged me.=(( so sorry i couldnt call you!what happened!dont be sad k,nothing is impossible to solve!tell me abt it tml k.dont think too much!AHH.seeing you so upset makes my heart so!sighs.really hope you can be happy k.love ya,and i mean it.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

ohh!i met isabella today!so cool man.she was having combined prac with aj band!AHH.so nice to see you today bella!=)

it was just wishful thinking,on my part.
forget it girl.

today:
went back for guitar.haha.mr alex is super cute.evadne and i couldnt resist laughing and giggling at him.AHH.he lives in his own world=)then we had an exco meeting regarding camp.we were busy munching on hot dogs.and i was trying so hard to digest what they were saying.fast and furious,too fast too furious.haha.then maggie,jel,weiyi,jewel,aiping and i stayed back to discuss about food.HAIYO.same scenario as the last time.so cute maggie!ahha.good that its settled then!=)yay.

thurs!WEISAN!
sat!NANNY!
nextweek!TREEFAMILY aka KIASU KIDS!
latenov!CRYSTAL!KATE!
dec!EXCO!
pending!MINIZOO

i'm excited!=)yays.

i have econs tml,then after that we're going to discuss the deco for sl.YAY!=)after that hopefully i can go buy the correct string.

speaking of which,i feel so dumb.please just slap me or smt.a few weeks ago,i found my 4th string broken.so i went to buy one,and i bought the wrong one.WHY DIDNT I CHECK!AHH.2 bucks..haha.oh wells.shall go buy the correct one tml!=) guitar's looking up.i MUST practice.

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iLOVEhp:haha!i'm not vain!i think.its the thingo just generate de.so yupp!=)haha,yes strawberry i know its you!!=)) hp was a dead giveaway!=))whoos.if you put legolas it would have been even more obvious!=))haha,but we're supposed to be discreet!=)haha.enjoy holidays girl.

Monday, November 13, 2006

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sighs,my phone is screwed.i wanna get a new phone!but it'll be in my dreams..haha.

realised recently i like to say "as long as you're happy can alr la".haha,ok,actually its my mum who told me.haha,i guess its my favourite phrase.my mummy went to shanghai today.she'll be back thurs.and she keeps telling me to go watch notre dam de paris.haiyo.and keeps telling me to go with someone.HAIYO.please la.you shouldnt be encouraging your daughter to be doing such stuff.TSK.haha,fitrah,i and aga know how queer mums can be.especially wanting ME to be anorexic.tsk.sometimes i think she has conformed to society's views about weight and image.oh wells.as long as SHE'S happy. :) but dont go around forcing your ideas on me mum.hah.

next week they're going to malaysia to shop!AHH.and i cant go.this is so sad!=
realised i forget things very easily.it was just last night that i was sulking away because i was thinking about how irritating some people can be,controlling your life in every way.then i went to sleep,and this morning i forgot about it until i saw my sister.HAHA.so funny.

and i guess recently i've been able to communicate with her more effectively.now we TALK,not so much scream.haha.but she still can get irritating sometimes,though she listens to me rant and complain most of the time.and i listen to her whine and see her sulk.haha.nahh.we're nice people in our own ways.and we're nice to each other,in our own ways.haha.as long as we're happy :)

ahh,3 more days!3 more days to seeing weisan,3 more days zhenluan's exams to be over!

4 more days!aga & xl will be back!

10 more days!:)

shocked to see the change in you.
but you dont know what i saw.
in my eyes you had been perfect.
but now what i see is just a tarnished picture painted of you.
torn,faded,slashed.
your dreams,mine.
i dont know so much anymore.

wahha.i have spent my official holiDAYS slacking.been reading agatha christie's novels with recommendation from veron and fitrah.haha.the book i was reading,labors of hercule wasnt really what i like to read.because it was short stories.but hercule is seriously so smart.please transplant his brain.haha:) smart!ahh.quite nice.i'm looking forward to reading the next one which is sitting at my bedside.but thats before i finish reading tatiana & alexander by paullina simons.its very long,but its nice. :) quite sad,something about a couple seperated during world war 2.very touching,how these 2 people fought to be together.after 3 years they were reunited.haha,i jumped to the back of the book as usual.haha.quite interesting,but a little long winded.

one phrase i liked:
stop stop stop
time time time
stop time stop time stop time.

haha,what i used to say,stop time.oh wells!i think i should do something more productive.haha.

i miss you aga!ahhh.hope you're enjoying yourself!its been raining and raining,hope your tent's not flooded!=\ jiayou!!ahh.step up!haha.

and thanks veron for telling me!was telling aga ytd how come they havent announced yet.and jiayou for olympiad ok!YOU CAN DO IT.haha,brain stimulating.=))all the best girl..

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actCOOL:haha,darent not use my favourite site of free-riding.hehheh.i shall stick to being a good girl=)

san:HEHHEH.i love you too girl.thurs thurs!!YAYYAY.

actCOOL:haha,yes you are COOL!yes,holiday homework.hah.i did some chem stuff ytd.=\ =

kept so tightly hidden,
i held it so close to my heart.
but now i am exposed,
what did i do?
please dont.
my weakness inside;

Sunday, November 12, 2006

SL WILL ROCK.haha.and you all must contribute ok!!=)

haha,i look at my table and stare at my homework.i tell myself its high time to start studying!AHH.i will study,i will study,i will study.

this is called the act of decieving yourself.

i'm a free-rider no more.

anw,i was just clearing my handphone inbox,read nanny's messages,felt so touched and happy!thanks nanny for everything,standing by me when i was down,forever encouraging me,telling me never to give up.making jokes to cheer me up,reminding me of ERHM.haha,i love you,eye candy guru,fellow POP mate.=))we MUST meet up again.

which reminds me,the gang of 5's outing has failed to materialise.its been a year people!haiyo

ok,aga and i are going high.high.high.=))whoos.

oh,zhenluan's exams are finishing on thurs!YAY.we can go out soon,the three of us!=))i miss you guys.=((

YES!me and fitrah have successfully converted VERON to a beautiful love lover.HEHHEH.the kiasu kids aka tree family LOVES BEAUTIFUL LOVE.

its play count is 50 on my itunes.hehhehh

to xinli and aga,all the best for this week.OBS ROCKS.i miss obs,and i'm so jealous!AHH.jiayou,jiayou!must share your wonderful experience when you come back!AHH=)) aga,must help me da xiao bao gao ok!=))LOVE YOU!!

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san: i miss you too babe,must must go out.have tau huay or smt.and what happened to our beautiful plan of food fest!roti prata,dim sum.everything!AHH.we will fufill our dream,some day.I REALLY MISS YOU!boo.

nanny:GIRL AH.i miss you!and i'm not angry ok!ahh.yes,stupid email.EH TREKKING.i wanna go man.remember after promos we were supposed to trek the HIGHEST peak in singapore,haha.BUKIT TIMAH.=)anw,trekker boy is having his As!ahh.

iLOVEhp: nvm k girl!we will go out again!!=)) step up,step up!

ms cute: MWAHAH.THIS IS SO CUTE!i'm loving it!i llove our pictures.COOL,CUTE,RANDOM.haha!=))

humongous eyes:GIRL!after obs we must go out ok!JIAYOU FOR IT.I MISS YOU!!=(( love love!and hope today was fine..

Friday, November 10, 2006

reading this website brings me waves of relief.go read it,if you have time.
http://www.snopes.com/inboxer/household/shampoo.asp

so it was,nanny!i feel better now.=)

you were my strength,
unknowingly i had to cling on.
without you,i was nothing.
without you,i am nothing.
without you,i will be nothing.

but where are you now that i need you so bad?
will you ever be there for me,again?
like you used to?

i know i have to learn to depend on no one but myself.

what will be,will be

how deep is your love?
living in a world of fools.

anw,here are some eye candy of the NPS.ahha=)act cute,act cool and random act.HAH.why cant i have a nicer name!ahaha.=))

LOOK AT FITRAH!ahh.looking cool,cute and random.HEH.and this picture was taken by miss agapera chor!mwahah.






oh,we went to swensens btw.i think i'm going to explode,4 hours after eating.HAH.so full.ahh.and apparently my parents want to celebrate my birthday tml.isnt it a little too early?hmm.

and there's just ONE more photo of aggie.but i'll leave you to think about what it looks like.HEHHEH.aggie,its our secret.=) i'll buy it for your baby girl next time ok!=)HAHA.

though there're times i feel like life's not mine to keep,
i'm thankful for them,
the joy,laughter and the smiles.
i'm thankful for them,
for they do give me strength.
thank you lord,for placing them in my life.

haha,just checked my email,xinli sent me some very interesting mail,regarding chalk drawings.very nice!very cool=)haha,thanks babe.

anw,today was oral presentation,op.and its finally over,pw is over.

a tribute to pw

i'll miss..
the times spent in school,
the late hours we spent rushing out our wr.
the times we got chased out of block 11 classrooms,
the times we spent during pw lessons,monday and thurs 7.45 to 8.45.
the times we chatted with veron and fitrah during pw lesson.
the times we used itunes during pw,embarrassing ourselves.
the times we deliberated so hard on words to use that you could see the question marks sprouting from our heads.
the times we thought we could but actually..hmm.we fell short.
the times we screamed and ranted about her comments on our wr.
the times we came up with silly names for files,like that stupid guy,that stupid girl.
the times we spent COUNTING the number of words in our wr manually using a calculator,and desperately reducing the word count.
the times we researched and researched,the surveys,interviews..
the times we went to the library to print,finding the ink cartridge stolen.hah.
the times we rehearsed,and rehearsed..
the times we had to photocopy our EoM,i&r,WR..
the times we laughed,the times we screamed,the times of joy,times of frustration,
the love we've shared.
the memories,the moments..
i'll miss them all.

especially,

the people who've helped us,mr wee wen shih,ms tan joy,ms winnie tan..and most importantly my group members,ESME!(aka AJ092 (3) ), YINGTING!! (aka AJ092 (1) ), ANUSHKA (aka AJ092 (4) ) haha.

i'm proud of you guys,i'm certain we'll do ok!haha,you guys did really well for OP!ahh.with the exception of me.DARN.ccccurrent benefits.ARGH.so embarrasing,but my marks!!~whee.gone.haha.nvm ba.=)

now,time to start studying!i shall finish my homework soon!AHHA.SOON is subjective,btw.haha

anw,thanks so much to fitrah,veron and aggie for waiting today!WHEES.swensens.whoots.had so much fun.and i finally bought SOMEONE'S PRESENT.HEH.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

something i really must say,i must be missing out on the fun,because I CANT EVEN SEE ANYONE'S TAGBOARD.SO WHOEVER YOU ARE,dont be stupid.HAH.

when you know you're falling back into the hole of never return,you think to yourself,what are you going to do?
kill yourself?ignore it?pretend nothing's gonna happen?

thats my life,a never ending vicious cycle.
where's my faith when i need it?

just another deja vu,am i dreaming?

haiyo.had to reprint 3 times the first 4 pages of my gpp.because i printed them the wrong side 2 times.see how much i use my brain?time to get it repaired..

tomorrow's op!ahhh.i'm getting kinda freaked out,somehow.jiayou anyways.

oh,fitrah,veron and i watched the prestige.its nice,the plot's interesting.but its really really freaky and mind boggling.haha.

and we watched national treasure ytd.very very nice=)


its scary to see how fast people change,just like that.
just like jekyel and hyde.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

its somewhat obvious you didnt give a care about it.so why did you even volunteer?its not really nice to feel that you dont care about it,but yet we can see it.why?

have you ever wondered why?

Monday, November 06, 2006

i am in school at an unearthly hour,when i could have been home sleeping.and the part that makes me feel urgh is that i am supposed to be in school at 12.and here i am at seven trying to keep my eyes open,keep myself awake.my laziness..sighs.

my stomach is very painful=\ why!i need to sleep man.

when people act as if they dont care,doesnt mean they dont care.your pride stands in your way,i say.

anw,shall not spoil the mood.i'm happy today because i met up with the long lost BIHUAN!=)haha.its been such a loong time..=)and aga!!whoos.i felt glad to be in the house of god again.=)

ok,met up with bihuan at 1230.ok seriously TOO early.i really didnt know!we reached admiralty at 115!HAHA.MS AGAPERA CHOR was eating her cereal prawns at home.haha.=)so bi and i went to macs,to eat.haha.fat,the calories..sighs.haha.then aga came.i'm glad there wasnt any awkwardness!but i wasnt expecting any..so haha.yupp,sat and talked,then walked to aga's/alana's church.i didnt expect it to be so BIG!since the tampines one was much smaller.there were LOADS of people.haha,i think about 2000 to 3000.met rachel yiu!yay!so happy=)its been a while.haha.and while we were in the santuary,when aga and bi went to the toilet,i saw weivien and nat on the screen!haha,mostly i recognised them because of nat's PINK SHIRT.and the way she touches her hair,so BIMBO KWOK.haha=)so cool.

the worship was good,though i didnt know most of the songs.the first singer was really powerful.felt the holy spirit's presence today,calling me back to Him.

and aga and i promised to do QT.yes!we shall check on eat other.babe,i'll be praying for you k!=)dont worry,he's merciful,forgiving.as long as we are willing to admit our mistakes and repent.we will have our names in that book!=)sister in christ,i thank lord for putting you in my life=)LOVE YOU!=)


as i was telling aga,He's put everything into our life for a purpose.
we may not see it now,but we will,eventually.
we need to trust him,have faith in Him.
like stars in the sky,
we dont see him,but He's there.
we need to try,we need to know.
His love for us,
Lord almighty,
thank you for loving me the way you do.
i am a sinner,i am unworthy.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

haha,veron!i read your blog,and i decided to be lame and do this quiz too.since i'm too lazy to do my i&r!haha=))so here goes..

Silver or gold?
definetely silver.gold makes people like me look like old aunties.


Favourite car?
bmw 7 series.ferrari.used to look alot at cars,because my sister was interested in them.i like german cars best.


What characteristics do you despise?
lying,hypocricy,selfishness,big-headness,egoists.


Summer or winter?
hmm.winter as in COLD winter,summer as in HOT summer?if so,then neither.if its a mild winter and mild summer,i dont mind both.but if i had to choose,i guess summer.winter's horrid if you get a frost bite,and if you dont have enough clothes,there you go.but summer you dont have to put on layers and layers of horrid wool and cloth.and you can tan at the same time.=) and sweating facilitates water loss.


If you had a big win in the lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?
..i dont know,depends.i might not even tell people.but probably almost immediately.


Red or white wine?
white.red burns in your throat.


Favourite colours?
ORANGE.and lime green.


Do you carry a donor card?
nope.


Where would you like to retire?
HAHA.coincidentally,i've been thinking about it!i guess some place where its quiet and most importantly SAFE with COMMUNICATION FACILITIES.haha=) hawaii?suzhou?ohh wells.


What is something you wish you were better at doing?
dancing.i cant dance for nuts.


What's your favourite pizza?
hawaiian!with loads and loads of mozzeralla cheese!=))


What's the age difference between you and your mom?
26


What was your first ambition?
a pianist/flautist in sso.but i realised it takes alot to make it big,so i decided that it would be recreational..haha.so here i am now!


any phobias?
definetely.extreme cold,pokes,open elevators,my mother nagging at me,oral exams,making public speeches..and the list goes on.but i definetely hate insects.hear me scream


How many times a week do you shower?
i shower on average twice a day.and sometimes more.so about 14 to 16 times a week?


How do you feel about carrots?
i dont like them!but i wont mind if i only had that to eat..


If you had to pick one color to wear for the rest of your life, what would it be?
ORANGE!haha.but i guess orange would make me look fatter than i already am.so maybe white?


Where were you when 9/11 happened?
i was an innocent little girl wondering in amazement what had happened to the world?haha,nahh.i was in primary 6 and when i saw the news i was like HUH.real or not.then i remembered all those photographs being circulated via email.the devil's face in the smoke and all that.oh,and i remembered the principal spoke to us that morning.


What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
i shake my head and say dao mei.or i bang the machine and turn to my friend and roll my eyes.wait,i think i might keep pressing on the buttons to make sure.and check the coin return.haha.


Do you consider yourself kind?
i dont know.sometimes,sometimes not.so i guess yes and no.


If you had to get a tattoo, where and what would it be?
where?i guess my back?erm,i guess it would be the cross of calvary.

If you could be fluent in any other language what would it be?
malay,tamil,french,TEOCHEW (so i can finally understand in FULL what my parents are talking BAD about me.haha),KOREAN!,japanese.ok thats alot.


Do you know your neighbors?
sad to say,no.i only know that a certain someone(hehheh) is my neighbour.the rest,i just recognise by face.and the saddest part is that i have already so few of them.sighs.


What do you consider a vacation?
hmm.shopping,sunbathing,reading a book in peace,listening to music in somewhere like hawaii?


Do you follow your horoscope?
sadly,yes.though i dont believe in it.i read sections in the newspaper,8 days,seventeen,teens,teenage..and the list goes on.and mostly,they're quite accurate.


Would you move for the person you loved?
yes.i dont really believe in long distance relationships.


Are you touchy feely?
yes.i whack people.haha.counted?


Do you believe that opposites attract?
yes.haha.


Dream job?
saving someone,helping someone.social worker?doctor?medic?anything i can do to help!haha.


Favorite channels?
erm,i dont have cable.but from what i've watched over at people's houses,i guess hbo,disney,and maybe KIDS CENTRAL.sighs.pathetic.aiya,i know.YOU TUBE.


Favorite place to go on a weekend?
shopping,not window shopping!haha.with someone who can pay for me,namely my dad and mum.


Showers or baths?
showers.i dont like long baths they make my skin wrinkled.besides i dont like sitting motionless in water for a long period of time.

Do you paint your nails?
yes.but i dont have the will to recoat them.so more often then not they just peel off.and when i'm feeling bored then i'll paint them again.


Do you trust people easily?
yes,and i find that one of my greatest weakness.i'm gullible.


Do you want kids?
i dont know.looking at the way i treat my parents i think i'll be treated that way too.but i guess yeah,people always say what's life without kids?life wouldnt be complete..yada..so yeah,i guess so.


Do you keep a handwritten journal?
yes.but i seldom write in it now.i find it too depressing for me,because i write sad stuff inside.reading them later makes me feel =/


Where would you rather be right now?
with someone.=)


What makes you feel warm and safe?
warm?in my bed under the quilt.or having a huge trenchcoat on.haha.safe?in someone's arms,living beside the police station..i dont know.i dont feel safe because i know life is unpredictable.haha.


Heavy or light sleep?
again,it depends.if i'm at camp,i guess light..when i'm very tired,heavy.so when someone calls me,dont scold me if i start talking in an incoherrent manner,or even not answer.and if you try to wake me up,i'll start screaming and shouting.but when i wake up i dont remember,because to me its part of a dream.haha.but i prefer to be a light sleeper.in reality?i dont know.


Are you paranoid?
yes.very.i worry about almost everything under the sun.i think of what will happen before hand.so its seldom you'll see me without an umbrella,band-aids..

Are you impatient?
i dont know,but i guess everyone will be impatient.but under normal circumstances,i dont think so.


How do you feel about interracial couples?
no comments.haha.i feel neutral?just that i dont like it when people start pointing and criticizing them.i mean,people have their own freedom of choice.they dont have to conform to society's pressures of what's right and what's wrong.i mean,get a life.haha.ok out of point.



Have you been burned by love?
yes.sadly.


What's your life motto?
everything has its own purpose,whether good or bad.just wait and see,He's planning something for you.every bad thing that happens serves to mold you into what He wants you to be,every good thing serves as encouragement,but reminds me not to be complacent.


What's your main ringtone on your mobile?
er,when its not on silent you mean?in the end-linkin park.


Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
haha,my own of course?


What colour shirt are you wearing?
black,with a white sweater.


Most recent movie you watched?
haha,mean girls at aprie's house.haha.


Name five things you have on you at all times.
at ALL times?my hair,my eyes,my nose,my teeth,my braces?haha.ok,i guess phone ,ipod, lipgloss, mirror, wallet.


What colour are your bed sheets?
white and gold.haha.


How much cash do you have on you right now?
about 70 to 80 bucks in savings.i hope!


What is your favorite part of chicken?
drumstick!haha,wings as well.


What's your favorite town/city?
hmm,milan,paris.

What did you have for dinner last night?
oh mans.i cant remember!ahh.OHH.ok,my family went to maxwell food centre.so we had curry chicken noodle,popiah,rojak,fish soup..yeah.too bad we didnt eat my favourite chicken rice!because we reached so late.sold out!=( i love tian tian chicken rice.must must go try if you guys have the chance!but the queue is forever so long..thats the price you pay for good food!


How tall are you barefoot?
165.5.something like that.


Have you ever smoked crack?
nope,dont intend to ever as well.


Do you own a gun?
toy gun counted?water gun?haha,nahh i dont own one.


What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
cold water.either that or hot honey.

pet peeves?
erm,hmm.ok,people who borrow money and dont return.people who borrow my things without asking?people who demand i do things for them without saying please and thank you?people who dont appreciate what i do.people who destroy my work and dont say sorry.people who expect me to be like them.people who force their ideas on me.haha.ok thats alot for PET peeves.haha.


What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
er,i have no weapon.and if its secret would i be telling you?haha.


What time did you wake up today?
7 am.then i went back to sleep.it was my dad asking me what time i would be going out?


Current hate?
hypocrites.

Favorite place to be?
my room,my place of solace..haha.yes,my mum says i'm a hermit.the outside world is unsafe for me to be in. (says in a rich-girl tone)haha.


Where would you like to travel?
HOW COME THERE ARE SO MANY QUESTIONS I'VE DISCUSSED WITH MY SISTER TODAY!!haha.most of all,milan,paris,rome,hawaii,iceland,zimbabwe,timbuttoo.AND EUTHOPIA.


Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
somewhere in singapore.haha.i guess working,married with 2 kids,doing social work..being happy,most of all.

Last thing you ate?
OH NI!haha,i came home from my grandfather's 78th birthday dinner not too long ago.so we had alot to eat,but the last thing was my favourite yam paste with ginko nuts.WHOOS!


What songs do you sing in the shower?
i only take 5 mins or less to shower.i dont dilly dally,so i dont sing in there.HAHA.i'm more of an 'outsied the bathroom" singer.haha.if you would consider me singing,not wailing.HAHA.


Last person that made you laugh?
hmm,aga.i laughed so hard,but i dont know at what.must be her cute-ness!


Worst injury you've ever had?
hmm,i've had alot of injuries.and i realised the worsts happened this year.ok,when i was 6 i fell from the swing and hurt my back.just this year i sprained my ankle for the 3rd time and it became a torn ligament.and i got hit really bad and the bruise(more like a haemorrige), since 7th aug is still there till now.and it hurts if you whack me there.so BE CAREFUL.haha.


Does someone have a crush on you?
i seriously doubt so.WHO WOULD?haha.please.


What is your favorite candy?
hmm.i eat alot of candy,but i guess my favourite of all time would be weather's original.yaay


Currently listening to?
breakaway by kelly clarkson.hoho.
i'll spread my wings and learn how to flyy~

fitrah!!haha,yes i was so bored,finding ways to make me feel sleepy.and i havent done my i&r!freak..later.hehhheh.

anw,going out soon,meeting up with bihuan and alana,together with aga.haha.weird combi,but yeah!=)going to lighthouse church.=)woots.

anw,jiayou for all sec 4s whose o's will be truly starting tml.JIAYOU,esp you!=)

Friday, November 03, 2006

ok i admit!i slept in the afternoon,and i'm feeling extremely awake now.i know i should be doing my i&r,but in wake of the horrid exams we took today,i shall forget about nonsense work,for now.so i read aggie's blog and i found her GAZILLION WAYS TO WASTE TIME.and this is one of them!AGGIE,DONT KILL ME OK!=)haha.forgive thou who is bored.ok dont kill me for speaking in un-shakespearean language!must teach me one day.then the NPS (narcissitic PS society)haha can talk in a brit slang with funny words.lets invent our own language man!=)haha.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
SHIT.chinese exam today!bad hair day..

2. Say something random.
erm,something random?

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
more?boar?pore?

4. Favorite planet?
eh,pluto!hehheh.although its no longer considered a planet,but a dwarf planet,it reminds me of my childhood.teachers asking us what are the planets?i alw remembered MARS,EARTH and PLUTO!haha,speaking of mars,maybe i might consider changing my fav plant to MARS.we all know why.HAHA.

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
HAHA.coincedentally,AGGIE!mwahah.must be that day,calling me to ask where was pw.i think it was in 1142.

6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?
HAHA.SIX FEET UNDER THE EDGE!!AHH.FITRAH,AGGIE!haha,nahh.no favourite.erm,my phone is usually on silent?unless its charging..so maybe its in the end by linkin park?

7. What kinda shirt you have on?
WHY YOU WANT TO KNOW.haha.ok,its some shirt mabel gave me,a black racer back from baleno.

8. Describe yourself in one phrase?
random,emotional,crazy,high with donkey laughter.and not forgetting kiasu.

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
invisibility shoes from valerie shoe shop.haha,its 12 am,i'm at home.so yeah,you get it.

10. Bright or Dark Room?
is this question supposed to mean something like,i like being in a bright or dark room?ahh.depends.if i'm sleepy then dark la.if i feel like reading then obviously the bright room.er..

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
aggie??haha,just a cute bugger=)haha.NARCISSISTIC!haha,i love aggie!

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
just sleep on any bed?am i supposed to say,OH,i wanna sleep on the bed on the left,the right?the one with pink pokka dots?just sleep on whichever la.haiyoo.

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
what do you think?i was thinking of ways to make myself sleep.thinking basically.

14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile?
zhenluan giving me some encouragement about my As today..=)thanks babe=)

15. Where is your letter box?
in zimbabe?!obviously outside my house!why?you want to send me a letter?

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
dunno.

17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
i didnt say it out,but i blogged about it.haha,my parents lah.

18. Last furry thing you touched?
erm,my hair?haha.ok not counted.erm i dont have any furry things!ok,maybe my friend's dog?which was like years ago..

19. How many drugs have you done in the last day?
one.my antibiotics.

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
zero.we're all using digital camera now right?

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
can i say i hate my life?haha.no la,er,16 i guess?its the year i got to know myself more,learn more about life,matured alot,and mostly spent most of my memorable days that year..

22. Your worst enemy?
advertisments.HAHA.they attempt product differentiation and make me waste money.haha

23. What is your current desktop picture?
4N during racial harmony day 2005.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
i think it was bye bye to yingting on the phone a while ago.

25.If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly?
a million bucks.i can fly now..on a plane.haha.

26. Do you like someone?
yeah,i like my friends,i like my $2000 boyfriend,i LOVE my family!

27. The last song you listened to?
ok,its still playing now..wake me up when sept ends by green day.HAHA.sept was a long time ago..

28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
yeah.i think i would.she's my friend!ngyingting,aka miss sucker fish.

29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be?
haha.i shant act like an angel because i'm not.that idoit lor.who ah.that one lor.haha.

30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
the leg of my chair.

31. What do u want now?
happiness,an A for my chinese.to get all my holiday hw done.4As.band 1 for pw.haha.people to pay me back my money.haha.youu.

32. Current worry?
chinese.pw.money.sleep.my friends.haha.i worry alot.

33. Next holiday?
egypt.dont be jealous ok.=(i'm going at the expense of my class' service learning project.darn.dont remind me.haha,but i guess i am a teeny bit excited about the pyramids.i might get a bottle of sand for you,if i can.haha.

haha,i think aggie's answers are so cute.read her blog to see!haha,aggie,i'm giving you additional publicity then you already have!=))

another one,courtesy of aggie's blog!

NAME ONE BOOK YOU WANT ON A DESERTED ISLAND:the bible.i need to catch up on the years i've lost not reading it.sighs.


NAME ONE BOOK THAT MADE YOU LAUGH:my own diary?haha.i dont remember.

NAME ONE BOOK THAT MADE YOU CRY:most books i read make me cry.haha.tears of sadness,tears of happiness,tears that i cried when i was touched.and tears of boredom.haha.ok.back to the main point,the last one was one i read today..tenth cirle by jodi picoult.nice nice.go read it.

NAME ONE BOOK YOU WISH YOU HAD WRITTEN:haha.i dont wish to write books because people will be cursing me.ok.harry potter,then i'll be rich.HEHHEH.even then,i dont write.

NAME ONE BOOK YOU WISH HAD NEVER BEEN WRITTEN:i dont know.

NAME ONE BOOK YOU ARE CURRENTLY READING:Keeping faith by jodi picoult.ok i'm a sucker for romance novels ok!dont curse me.

NAME ONE BOOK YOU HAVE BEEN MEANING TO READ:my bible.i'm sorry to admit this.sighs.

NAME ONE BOOK THAT CHANGED YOUR LIFE:tuesdays with morrie.i love this book.i read it when i was sec 1 or p6,cant remember.but i remember feeling that we should always treasure life,cherish the people around us,live for the moment.and i read this biography by this indian snooker player,showing his motivation,determination and strive.haha.my mum made me read this book.so yeah,i'm glad she made me.there are too too many books i've read.but i guess those that've changed my life would be those self motivational,self help books..


another one..

1. Where do you hang your towel to dry after showering?
erm,on the towel pole?or whatever you call it.the place where you are supposed to hang it.

2. What kind of mouse pad do you have?
i dont use a mouse pad.

3. Do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush?
erm.the question is very interesting.do you BRUSH your hair..ok,but i use both.depending on my mood and which one i can find.

4. In your opinion, who do you think is the hottest celebrity?
joe cheng.haha.hyun bin.ok mainly asian stars.

5. You have a project due tomorrow, do you usetape or glue?
eh you think what.primary school?hah.ok i'll use glue.its firmer.

6. Chicken or pork?
chicken.pork contains more cholestrol,its red meat,it has some scientific proof that...ok i shant say it here.afterwards people will sue me for slander.haha.ok,maybe the pigs will sue me..

7. By the time you get to school, is it still dark?
when i leave,maybe.but when i reach,its mostly sunlight.

8. If you had a choice to be a unicorn or mermaid which would it be?
i dont want to choose because they dont exist.i'm realistic.HAHA.ok,i guess mermaid.why?dont ask,i dont know.haha.just a random answer.


9. What color is your underwear?
WHY DO YOU WANT TO KNOW!i am not answering this question.HAHA.


10. What time does the sun usually set?
6 plus,7?

11. What/who do you think of last before you go to sleep?
aiya i know you want me to say its you right?ok,you whoever you are then.haha.ok, i think of many people.mostly youu.haha.

12. AC or fan?
fan.my dad doesnt let me on the aircon anymore.he says its too expensive.which is true i guess.my room has the night breeze.HAHA.land breeze..=))kidding la,no sea how to have land breeze?

13. Do you wear braces?
YESYES!and i'm proud of it.though it hurts when i get ulcers,such as now.COME JOIN THE METAL MOUTH CLUB;BRACE FACE!

14. Can you do a hand stand?
no.i'm too fat.in sec 1 when we went for gymnastics class we were made to do them.so yes i can do it,with aid.

15. If you were the opposite sex, how would youstyle your hair?
some windblown hair that defies gravity.HAH.i dont know..

16. What level English are you in?
erm,singapore level english?

17. Jessica Simpson or Alba?
alba.she's HOT!and she's not bimbotic.and i think she should know whats tuna..

18. Which subject is worse, English or Math?
i dont know.i dont mind both.

19. What's one thing you really want to do this very moment?
HAHA.ok.i want to sleep,but i cant sleep.i want to do my i&r.i want to watch gong.haha.

20. What movie are you embarrassed to admit you've watched
i watch so few movies!haha,so i dont think i can say that i'm embarrassed to watch any of them..

21. CD player or iPOD?
IPOD.duh.coz i have one.haha.because cd players are not in?the ipod can store a million more songs?haha=)

22. Would you rather spin upside down going 30miles or drop 400 ft. into water?
i dont know.neither?haha.

23. Whats your favorite shape?
star!!=)

24. What do you have planned for the weekend?
homework,pw,parachute band,sleep,shopping.

25. Have you ever gone ice skating?
no.you dont want to see the unglam me.hah.i will prob be screaming and having some very dramatic falls.i wont forget THAT pe lesson in sec 4.ELGA,APRIE,LIWEN,ABI!!haha.

26. If you were put in a room with nothing except for a pencil and paper, what would you do?
think.stone.draw.write.

27. Is it always easy finding your remote everytime you want to watch TV?
yes.its on the table always.

28. How was your day?
bad..=(boo hoo.chinese?

29. Do you grow your nails, bite or cut them?
grow and cut?i used to bite them when i was in lower pri,but i saw how some people's one became so small,i stopped.

30. Describe your handwriting:
small,very common because some people copy my handwriting!!ahh.ok its normal girl handwriting.


31. Do you consider yourself a stalker?
maybe?what's your definition of a stalker?one that actually follows YOU AROUND IN CIRCLES? (zy you reading this?haha) NO.staring at someone for long periods,yes.

32. Do you bruise easily?
no.but when i get them,i get them bad.the one that was on my leg since aug 7,its still here.sighs.

33. There's nothing on TV except Barney and...
am i supposed to say barney and.. his gay partner?haha.i'll just off the tv.i never really liked barney and his gay voice.

34. Do you know more than 3 myspace codes?
nope/

35. You got an essay due, you either can type orwrite in pen, which will it be?
haha,if i really had a choice,i wont do it.haha,i'll type it out i guess.

36. Do you wear jeans to relax at home?
NO.its hot isnt it?

37. Describe yourself using three words:
crappy,emotional,high

38. Do you use deodorant?
yess.unless you think people like your natural bo.haha.or if you dont have bo.then again,how do you know you dont have bo?mwahah!

39. Do you like ice in your drink?
YES.but i found out that it isnt good.it builds up fat in your body,and it makes you weak when you grow old.so i'm trying not to!

oohh,i'm done!what to do now.and i realised aggie is obessed with peppermint.NO WONDER that day,your cookies!!=))

haha,i called crystal today after the paper.glad that she found the paper ok!haha,you'll do well babe.i really miss you!AND i'm glad you're doing well in sa!!AHH.we really must meet up ok!!ahhhh.

and weisan,please take care k!it hurts me to see you in such misery.ignore such people,just think that,HEY.i'm the best,you're losing out.not me!i'm just lucky not to be mixing with you,because you are just a negative externality (which means having costs to 3rd parties who are not directly involved in the action)HAHA.=)i miss you too.just take care and dont read too much into situations!

and i realised why,
go think about it.
read back and you'll understand.
oblivious,narrow,caught up in your own world.
we just gotta learn,you as well.

haha,today was chinese a's.

first and foremost,thanks to you guys out there,for all the encouragement!=)suihui,yvonne,jerlyn,crystal,kate,nanny,zhenluan,nellyn,aga,jieling,yingting,mabel,fitrah and mostly WEISAN!=)thanks so much for all your good luck smses.=)mwahah.

but sadly,i must say that today's paper was tough,tough,tough.for the compo segment,i was quite sure i would do the cai liao zuo wen.because its been a long time since i did the first qn.so yeah,i did the 2nd one.but i think i may have written out of point.oh wells.second part,the passages werent difficult.but the questions..sighs.i seriously doubt my ability to score a pass,much less an A.i know i wrote many answers that could possibly be right,and changed them to what could possibly be wrong.but then again,i could have been possibly wrong then changed to possibly right.hah.oh mans,i really wonder..seriously hope that everyone else felt it was hard too..

i got my wish for a difficult paper,
but will i prove that i am able?

i felt so daii.so blur-ed after the paper.and i've learnt my lesson,never ever sleep during the afternoon the day before your paper.couldnt sleep last night.sighs.keep trying to tell myself,valerie,you're very tired,must sleep must sleep.tomorrow got exam.then i was psycho-ing myself to be nervous..haiyo.was totally so no feeling ytd.felt totally calm,totally awake.then ended up playing cards with my sister at 11.10.then she was tired,went to sleep.so i ended up stoning on my bed again,trying to convince myself that i am tired.then alot of thoughts crept into my mind,thought about many people,many things.thought about all the possibilities of what would could happen today.if i would sleep during the exam,if i would faint,if i would die today.haha,ok.i know,random,random.but when i'm bored i'll do things like this.haha,i guess you would say,WHY DIDNT YOU GO READ YOUR CHINESE?haha,i thought about it.i guess i felt like it wouldnt have any use to me,instead maybe make me panic,so i just stoned until i finally fell asleep.dont know what time that was..

woke up knowing that it was friday.haha.usual stuff,reached school feeling weak and feeble.haha.i am aging..oh wells.felt sick la,basically.then met nellyn,went up to check the seating again.then aga came,so we went up again.went to get aga's dictionary.met mabel,then went up again.haha.hmm,calculate the rate of burning of calories..dC/dt.surface area to volume ratio.HAH.crapping.oh wells.i dunno,but this is the first major exam i felt totally lost.haha.even seeing youu didnt make me feel better about feeling nothing.ahhh.oh wells.

i concentrated very hard today during the paper.i didnt think about any stupid songs playing in my head.HAHA.like the song my sister keeps playing!ahh.its driving me crazy.she's been playing it like a few million times a day (a gross exaggration,but maybe its even close to that man).BECAUSE she wants to SHOW ME HOW SHE CAN RAP.haha.very interesting sister i have.haha=))crazy.and we have been playing cards so often.and now i think she's getting better.and i realised i can be a sore loser around her.haha.oh wells.my grandfather saw us one day then he say KAI DU CHANG AH.i tell you me and my sister laugh until stomach ache.haha.

oh wells.i find that recently i've been very emotional.and my mum confirmed it today.i guess we're drifting further and further apart.but sometimes when i'm thinking about something,you interrupt my thoughts and make me lose my train of thoughts.then you make very very silly comments.that make me feel embarrassed!ahh.so the only way i react is to ask you to shut up.i'm sorry,really i am.i know i've been rude and insolent.i'm sorry,i love you guys.i really do.my emotions get the better of me.

i know my greatest weakness,
sensitivity,emotional.
i know it will get in the way,someday.


i wish i knew,
hurting inside,
inqusition,curiousity,
tell me,will youu?
but the fact remains,
i am me,youu are youu.
so where is the we part of the sentence?
still in my own dreamland.


we have to learn to think before we say anything.will it hurt someone else?how will they react?what will happen if i make this comment.even if i think its ok,will the others feel that way?we must always always think about other people's feelings,if not we will end up having much conflict and misunderstandings.in life,its for sure quarrels will result,but the most important part is not how it happened,but how we will react to it,how we deal with it.if everyone just gives and takes,life would be much easier to handle.the way i handle it is just to say sorry,whether i'm in the right or wrong.that makes things so much easier.because everyone has their own opinions and differences.so even if you think you're right,someone will think you're wrong.so why not just say sorry and end it there.and say sorry like you mean it,because people can and will tell if you're truthful or not..haha.kinda cliche,but true i guess.some people like mia from princess diaries (HAHA) have their nostrils flare if they lie.haha.i hope i'm not like that!haha,but then again,when i lie,i dont talk to people face to face.i dont think i can do that without displaying signs of distress on my face.haha.i am like an open book for people to read.i dont think i can conceal my feelings,expressive?nahh,just grossly exaggarated,i'm as such.


which leads me to think,why,how,when in the past did i start degrading myself?telling myself that i suck,i am worthless,useless and everything.in retrospect,i guess people do go through their own phases in life.but most importantly,we must learn to derive lessons from every situation we go through.learn to listen to other people's opinions,think about how others feel,think about the mistakes you can learn from..life's not easy,but its not that complicated either.

people take the easy way out,by ignoring or forgetting.but will this solve anything?

the method of cooking is professional,but the taste is weird.
-yingting,member of parliment for empire 18/06

sounds like my pw presentation.HAHA.healthy lifestyle,healthy food.

meeting up tml for pw at anushka's hostel!YAYYAY.can go look around.AND MESS UP HER ROOM.haha.nahh.=)we're nice people.

waiting for the volcano of the century to erupt.its like a TIME BOMB.a land mine,anytime,anywhere,you're in danger.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

ahh,pingsiew!we didnt take photos!AHH.ok,nvm.when you start wearing retainers,we shall!

ahha,tomorrow's chinese,i dont know if i feel prepared or not.but i guess,we all have to chuang guo qu!haha,ying ze tou pi,chuang gou qu!haha,as illustrated in ba ba de hua er luo le.oh wells.jiayou,jiayou,JIAYOU!.we will all ace it.

impossible,is nothing.

well,glad to see you're doing fine with your o's!=)hahaha,its going to be over soon k!YAY.then we all can go out!FINALLY.MWAHAH.

ok,i think this is totally uncalled for,but i feel like i'm running a fever.please,let me be alright to take the exam tomorrow.please lord,please!

ok,all will be fine,all will be fine.

we're apart,not apart

i lay my life down at your feet,because you're the only one that i need.
one way,jesus,
you were alw,alw there.
you will never ever change,
ytd,today,the same.
lead me the way

today's the start of A levels.GP.good luck to all j2s! you guys can do it.

tml's chinese.


will we?

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

2 more days to chinese.we can do it,we will!

we stayed back till late today.was supposed to attend an exco meeting at 5,but chinese ended at 8.haha.we were super high in school ba.oh wells,it was apparent some people were pissed.nvm ba,just try to understand she's worried for us?only 2 more days,an extra few hours wont hurt right?get over and done with,so dont be angry?its for our own good.

then veron,aga,litian,boonsiong and i stayed back to count money we collected from the donation drive.haha,litian,boonsiong and veron got cut!ahh,must take care ok!and i left at 910,i guess the rest stayed on to pack the money into categories.haha.no la,just assort into 10 cents,20 cents and so on.sorry i had to leave!but we collected around 217.45 dollars.plus some money from other sources!LIKE 1806 parents!hahah.=)yay.


we will rock this!WE CAN DO THIS,in it together.


actually,we got scolded during pw today.i guess its really our own fault,and it was all for our own good.seriously smt i think people have to put in more effort,esp slackers inc,including myself.haha.must make use of every opportunity.

i will miss ms mani,lee lao shi.and chinese.and when pw ends,pw too i guess.but next year will not be the year to reminise!must work hard,work smart.WE WILL CONQUER A LEVELS.haha.

and sl will be a success too!jiayou,jiayou,JIAYOU!just a little bit more.

i'm starting to ride on that emotional roller coaster,
opinions changing,thoughts running,
will i be able to control my emotions when the time is right?
showing indifference,or showing certain degrees of care?
He will show me the way,
i will have to listen,FOR ONCE.
i will listen to Him,i will,i must!
i love you,i do.