Sunday, July 30, 2006

i'm such a kuku head.serves me right for not keeping up to date.literally.now have to think and think.boo.but its gonna be a happy day!=)haha.

valerie loves you

Monday, July 24, 2006

i dunno why i'm so tired today.i love mondays coz its the day i can go home earliest.and its the slackest day=)haha.but the pe ruins the whole day=( oh wells.today we supposedly had some fire drill.but at the rate we were going,i think its possible that in an event of a fire,most of us would have been dead.oh wells.we were predicting it would ring during pe break.and so right were we.we were joking saying that if we were in the toilet during a drill.then how?jieling was saying dont care lah.just stay inside continue bathing.fan zhen have alot of water.just press all the taps.haha.come out with buckets of water.and so right were we.we just put down our bags and the alarm rang.haha=)



oh,we were saying the guys are the bitchiest and the most gay we've met.i seriously feel that they should have more nan ren feng du.so damn bitchy and selfish.throw all the work to us.like hello.you need to contribute too?hur.dont be so self centered la.you think you need time to study,who else doesnt?HUR.


we were laughing the whole chinese lesson,as usual.lee lao shi is so funny=) someone yearns for lian ai.diaos.haha.so funny.jieling's characteristic alarm clock laughter=))MWAHAH.


oh wells.dont be a coward,face up to your weakness and stop wallowing in self pity.you think you are great making those comments about everything except yourself.face up to your own weakness ok.if the whole world can get over it,except you,then what are you?haha.what else,a loser.dont be such a weakling lah.if you cant face this,i wonder what you can man.go be a food critic la.quit school.i think that will suit you.dont you know i dont want to talk to you.you obviously dont know,because you are such a chauvinist and you think guys are alw the best.go to cecili.


predict the unpredictable.expect the unexpected.the world is full of liars.hah.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

mum went overseas.should be taking off soon i guess.i miss her already.


forgive me,will you?the disappoinment.

valerie loves you

go read today's new paper.first few pages,just exactly what we saw on the gp video:taboo.but this one in a local context,and less extreme.branding,piercing,what you see is what you get.why are humans the only kind that like to feel pain.the only species that will injure and scar themselves for beauty.the brain is not made to think such gory ideas.=

valerie loves you

Saturday, July 22, 2006

i never knew i could contain such a huge amount of anger in me for such a long time.i dunno why i'm so frustrated and angry.i just hate to see disharmony or disloyalty.i just dont.that didnt make me feel better,so i guess i'll take it down soon.but nevertheless,i think it will take alot more for me to ever talk to you again.


valerie loves you

went to national library today.SHIOK MAN.the place was so nice.haha.and so quiet.people shouldnt even think about going to the basement to study.the 7th floor onwards,shiok man.so quiet.but the thing is coz we're not allowed to bring in our notes,so ya.dont really understand why tho.so many books,yet i couldnt find many to help my project.HO.but nevertheless,it was an experience looking through microforms.AGA!haha.sorry i pangseh you.haha.and so funny i keep jamming up the thing some nice guy keep coming to help me.haha.=))


tuition was the same.same old boring dreadful time.so long today.i was so looking forward to going home to eat my dinner man.haha=)


valerie loves you

Friday, July 21, 2006

i've just realised my big mistake.i alw thought you started caring less and less about me.but i was wrong.really wrong.you cared more and more about me,so you said less and less for me to not worry about you.i'm such a short sighted person.i was unable to see the larger picture.valerie!WHAT WERE YOU DOING!i was blinded,by hurt and sensitivity.please forgive me,will you?you alw said that i gave all,but received nothing.but in fact,i received so much more,of you care and love.although you never vocalised it,we both know what it felt like.thanks for the memories.=)


you did so much for me.you thought so much for me.you worried for me,you cared for me.yet i was unappreciative,only focusing on what i could do,and what i did.and not what you did,and i never really said my thanks.i'm sorry for the guilt and pain i've caused you.i know now,that everything that has happened to me,is a direct result of what i've done.not anyone else.although this maybe too late,thanks for letting me open my eyes.really appreciate it.

i miss you so.

valerie loves you

some pursue happiness; others create it; you bring it to reality


was just clearing up my email.haha.so many rubbish emails.but just read some that brought back beautiful,yet painful memories.i dunno why,but tho you're not physically here with me,nor emotionally actually too,but your presence is still in my life.somehow when i'm doing something,i'll think,what are youu doing?what will you think of me when i do this?how would you react to this situation.i miss you so much,i really do.but i guess its in a different way.after you left,i guess i lost a major confidant and friend.felt so lost at certain points of time.but just wanna let you know,you were and still are an important part of my life.i wont forget you,so maybe you wont forget me?


how strong are we?


valerie loves you

we watched finally finished watching scary movie 4.HAHA!so dirty all their jokes.tsk tsk.and we laugh until stomach so pain.thanks simon for providing the com!=))haha.class bonding?maybe.the glare was too bright.hoho.

is my laughter real?

haha.i miss cedar where racial harmony day was so fun.dressing up,taking photos.what are we doing now man?listening to forums.i was trying so hard to stay awake.it was really very very dry.ohmans.the questions raised,some quite controversial,but some weird.but nevertheless,i was not there mentally.was dreaming away.

we got our report cards and progress reports today.LAUGHS.quite funny coz my results are so laughable.and brings back unhappy memories.but i will work harder.dont ever turn back to regret,but rather reflect.haha.the progress reports are so funny.all the comments.'jinghui is a quiet and passive student in class.she needs to speak up more.and she has the potential to do better'LAUGHS.i'm quiet and passive,haha.maybe=) i have nothing to say or comment what.haha.nvm,will try harder.i must push up all my grades!!and valerie,dont you just talk and no action!AHH.and i need improvement on my gp.must read up more!be like boon siong,but dont get the BSS.hah.

inspire me.

econs was better today.i finally understand how to draw those curves.monopoly,perfect competition.crap la.coz in real life not many markets are like that right.but what you gotta learn,you gotta learn.i think my attitude is wrong.we dont learn coz we gotta,but coz we wanna.HAH.nvm.i understand,finally.huang ran da wu.and i should seriously get serious and stop stoning!=
perceived differences.


had written report workshop today.was not as boring as i thought it would be.but half of the
time i was stoning away.then chatting with mabel and fitrah.haha.i feel so bad for disturbing them.but aga was damn funny.laugh until stomach pain.haha.and gossip spreads fast.HAHA.pw is driving me crazy.didnt have time to print all those stuff today.we are behing schedule!but may i be very high every pw lesson so lessons can be more interesting.coz everyone so stone.let me chu chou then everyone can laugh.AT ME,or WITH ME?i dunno,but it dont matter.haha


oh wells.recently been listening to funny songs.like da chang jin's theme song and other weird songs.i dunno la.i'm just changing.i guess.


i've changed,but i dont know how much.will you still remember me,accept my change.will you still tell me you love me?


i'm tired.give me a break,will ya?

valerie loves you

these thoughts go running thru my head.i think.try to block out all the shit's thats coming round.i stay positive,but how long more can i last through?all the catalysts sparking me up,making me lose my cool self.how long more will this last for?i guess i have the answer,hur.for the rest of my life.i have to learn to control.lord give me strength.


i considered you,once to be the person who understood me,the most.second best.

but now when i think about it,maybe it was more of me,understanding you.

you've changed so much,i cant describe.

i dont understand your attitude,your character and personality.

its as if i cant talk to you anymore.

i'm sick and tired of trying so hard to make this work out.

sitting and waiting for a damned reply.like some fool.

i aint no punching bag,

i think i deserve more than that.

i dont mind listening to your problems,nor anyone else's.

BUT i dont think i deserve to be hurled abuse at,sometimes.i dont think i deserve to be scolded for what i didnt do.

i'm human afterall,i'm not a machine,automated listener.

i get hurt,i get sad.

so dont come to me just because you need me,

but instead come to me because i'm your friend.

i thought maybe this was mutral,but maybe not i guess.

a little more give and take would let life better.

but i guess its more of me,giving,you,i dont know.

i miss those days,when life was much simpler.

maybe i'm in the wrong too,so i wanna say sorry too.

i just hope you'll appreciate what people rack their brains to think about what to reply you,to try to comfort you,to try to make you feel better.instead of insulting every word people say,why not try seeing it from their perspective.when they tell you to study harder next time they dont mean that you didnt study enough,they're just trying to make you feel better.dont be so sensitive i guess.try to imagine yourself in their shoes.its not that easy when you think about how the other will react if you say this,or you dont say anything at all.tell me if you rather i keep my trap shut.ok?please try to think of ME rather than YOU all the time.


i'm disappointed.in myself.

am i a failure?

valerie loves you

Thursday, July 20, 2006

sat and stared.decided to give up and do pw.see the com until eye pain.sheesh.


so stressed!they're all so pro.and i'm like some piece of lousy shit.HOWHOWHOW.people will think i'm not good enough.lord,please give me strength.i need to practice!=\ HELPS.homework is never ending.everyone is working like hell,and i'm doing dont know what.parent teacher meeting,i bye bye liao.HOHO.die.nvm.just push on!


hoho.dont you treat me like a punching bag.i'm not there for you to vent your anger on.i'm valerie,i'm human.thanks.hurhur.please learn to accept people's concern and care for you.dont take advantage of me.


valerie loves you

so tired.

valerie loves you

Monday, July 17, 2006

sheesh.tml is listening compre.jiayou ba!hope i dont fall asleep.hoho.distant memories of my o level listening compre.=))sweet memories.haha.


valerie loves you

i dont know why i feel so tired today.as if i were going to collapse and just sit down on the floor and laugh to myself.haiyo.didnt do my gp hw.coz thought tutorial was tml.she asked me what excuse i have.i said i have no excuse.maybe it sounded like i have an ap.but i meant it like i dont have an excuse for not doing my work which means i'm lazy la.then she didnt really get it,so she said smt like i want to hear your reason,like you think gp is not as important as everything else isit.smt to that effect.then i didnt answer.like what to say la.so keep quiet.then i think she was very irritated with me=\ sighs.ptm i will surely kena.the teachers will say that i'm too lazy,not putting in enough effort.blah blah.DIE.=\ nvm.hurhur.


I can do all things in Him who strengthens me.

valerie loves you

Sunday, July 16, 2006

bleahx.cut my hair again.after 2 weeks then now decide i dont like my hair to be so round.so went to cut.wasting money ehs.i wont cut my hair until dec this time!=)haha.


One Way

I Lay my life down at your feet, your the only one i need

I turn to you and you were always there.

In troubled times it's you i seek, i put you first thats all i need,

I humble all i am all to you!


Chorus:

One Way Jesus,

you're the only one that i could live for.

One Way Jesus,

you're the only one that i could live for.


Instrumental Verse 2:

You were always, always there.

Every now and everywhere

Your grace abounds so deeply within me

You will never ever change, yesterday,today the same

Forever til forever meets no end


CHORUS


Bridge:

You are the way the truth and the life

We live by faith and not by sight for you.

We're living all for you

Chorus


just wanna say that i'm thankful for everything He has provided me.i know i'm not exactly the best person you can find around.but i'll try my best to be more and more like Him!=)i love you jesus!

valerie loves you

Saturday, July 15, 2006

kovan melody is progressing at a fast pace.maybe you'll think i'm talking randomly again.haha.but it somehow has a special meaning to me.it's significant because it started work piling around beginning of sec 3.then it's coming up,in barely 2 years.the first phase is almost done.i dunno but it signifies my journey of growing up from sec 3 till now.how much i've grown,matured,progressed in life.it also carries special meaning because everytime i walk past it,or stare out of my window and see it in the distance,i'm reminded of her.the things we used to say about that place,the dreams and fantasies we had together.but i guess its all but a memory,a shadow in the distance.but kovan melody is there to stay.it'll soon be completed,and people will move in to stay.the estate of kovan wont be the same again.and they're expanding the road to allow better traffic.changes for one condo.haha.oh wells.its ok.she will be a memory but kovan melody is a reality.perhaps its a blessing to just walk past it and think about my past.haha.be happy about it valerie.it shows that you are closing a chapter of your life,and another is opening!=)haha.
valerie loves you

hoho,so proud of you guys!congrats.yay.you guys are now a gold band!=))haha.jiayou for syf next year,esp to the sec 3s!=)WHOOHOO.

white gold,no more

shiny yellow gold,touchable,kissable,lovable.

done yourself proud,you have.

with you guys in spirit.

valerie loves you

Friday, July 14, 2006

good luck for your band competition tml!whoa.1st band competition and you all are competing in it!you guys can do it!JIAYOU.dont make her angry.hur.just do your best.love you guys,behind you all ALL THE WAY.


valerie loves you

its youu i want.

its youu i need.

the thoughts of you never drift far away from my mind.

the scent of you never leaves my senses.

i dream of you,i think of you,i'm going crazy.

no one knows,but me.and maybe you.hur.

i see you everyday,i have nothing to say to you.

maybe i'm cold.but thats because i dunno what to say.

increasing heart beat,higher blood pressure,sweaty palms.

you are guilty of causing me these.hur.

i dunno what to think anymore.maybe it is,maybe its not.

valerie loves you

hurhur.took back everything except gp.hoho.my results are DAMN nice.SECSC so nice right!not a single subject got more than 60.what the crap.dont care.work harder this term.

thou shall:


1)do my maths homework from now on and will not do before morning assembly


2)do my chem homework and not get keep getting caught by miss koh for crapping during lessons.


3)finish up my econs essay mindmaps properly and not do slip shod work.


4)STUDY for all tests properly


5)stop dreaming about wang chuang yi during class.HAHA.no la.just stop stoning and day dreaming.


6)try to understand all the cheem-alogy they use.


7)do my 20 mins of chinese everyday!


8)come up with reasons to account for my shitty results to my parents.or you'll see my head rolling about rosyth avenue.

9)practice more chem energetics and shapes of molecules.


10)make tys my best friend,boy friend and lover.my pillow and bolster.


11)study with smart people like anushka and fitrah.hurhur.


12)stop socialising and start studying.


13)stop coming online to do crap stuff.hurhur.


14)stop smsing when i'm studying


15)stop being distraced when i'm studying.hurhur.dreaming again.


16)stop thinking of youu.


17)stop fantasing that i'll be smart one day.hurhur.good results for you come with hard work.
girl.


18)stop laughing at teachers dress sense during lessons.and stop passing comments about hurhur.


19)do my pw things and stop procrastinating.


20)jiayou!



dont understand some people.small little things can provoke them to be angry for long periods of time.weird.hurhur.dont bother la.even if it concerns me,i shall make it none of my buisness.you can act the way you want,i will just keep quiet.just think that you're a bit weird smt.short temper and long non-toleration.hur.its up to you la.if you choose to act that way and choose not to let go then so be it.i dont control you.hoho.

valerie loves you

today they announced the positions in exco.super funny coz its mostly dominated by girls.


president:weiquan

vice-president:weiyee=))

secretary:aiping

treasurer:jewel

student conductore:grace

junior ensemble coordinator:joarin

senior ensemble coordinator:weikang

qm:aaron and freddy

section leaders:weiyi,maggie,jelphine,valerie


mwahah.they are all super cute.altho i dont really know them well yet,i'm sure we'll have lotsa fun together!hope we'll have a good time together!looking forward to working with you guys!


but on the other hand,i'm quite pressured.because i dont think i'm good enough.but i'll definetely work harder to make myself competent!=)help me if i need any ok!=)haha.jiayou ba.

and for the others,dont be sad ok!there'll be other opportunities!=))opportunity cost.


thank you lord.

valerie loves you

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

brace face.looking weird.not so pain,yet.haha.we shall see.

laugh at melaugh with me

valerie loves you

its time.

thank you for giving me the opportunity.

i will put in my best effort.

help me do my best and try my hardest,although i may not be the best.

thank you lord.


feelings of confusion, yet joy.

valerie loves you

i turn to you,i feel so ashamed.

pretending to be perfect,wonderful.

but in your eyes,i know that no one is perfect except you.

you made the world,

you control every situation.

yet,you could care for me,

you could remind me of your love.

your love for me is so great,

yet mine for you is so shallow.

i want to remember to turn to you when i need anyone.

not anyone else but you. only you.

i want to praise you.

i want to jump for joy that you are here for us.

i want to be yours again.

i need you.so badly.

i hear what others say of you and i cover my face with my small hands.

i feel ashamed of myself, how shallow i was.

i am nothing, but because you gave me strength, i am something.

i am your child, i am whole again, because you came.

thank you lord for everything you've given me.

i want to shout out loud that you have my love!

praise your name.

i pray i'll remember that vividly, that you will be the first i'll talk to, confide in, share with.

thank you for giving me life and the people around me.


valerie loves you

time flies,

i didnt expect it to be,

but the wounds have healed.

the scars have faded.

i think i'm ready to move on.

i'm ready to face what is in front of me.


although the scars serve to remind me,

NOT to commit the same mistakes again.

dont fall into the trap of your own blackhole.


i'm standing here now,

all alone,

thinking,

will the shadow of my past always be haunting me?

i pray for strength.

let those days not be part of my future,anymore.

i know it will overcome.


how many more hi-s and bye-s have we left before we become strangers.

i wonder how much more time will we have together before the time comes.

for life to cease to exist.

how much more do we have left together.

will we still be us?

or will we be just individuals,you and me.


the continuous search for eternity, for beauty.

what is the whole point?

when we all know one day it all has to end.

END.not with a comma,but with a FULLSTOP.

nothing can ever change that,

no cosmetic surgery, diet pills, liposuction can ever change the fact that people age,

time waits for no man.

the obsession with beauty and being thin marrs all possibilities of pain.

people are willing to go through all expense to be beautiful,

just falling into the trap of society,

who defines beauty?

WHAT is beauty.

is it just merely straight teeth, big eyes, wide mouth, sharp noses, pert butts, flat tummies, big chests, slim waists, long legs?

6 pecs, broad shoulders, tanned skin?

what is it?

falling prey to advertising, marketing strategies,

we just reassure ourselves of our fears.

aging, ugliness, fat.

hurhur.why.

did He create life for us to waste it away thinking about these issues?

the obsession,

i have weighty issues too.

thats because i succumbed to life's stereotypes that THIN IS GOOD.

is less really more?

can you accept me for who i am,

or do i have to beautiful.


do i really care?

can i live for myself and myself alone?

to be satisfied for what He has given me,

and to accept that it wont change, naturally.

i know i can.


and i realised i'm not stupid.

just plain blind.

and careless.

just open your eyes bigger za bo,

and close your mouth more.

think before you talk

and think before you write.

craziness.

its overwhelming.

urgh.
where are you.can i find the courage to tell the world.
valerie loves you

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

another day just passes by.

another grade just flew by.

another mark just thrown away.


what am i in this world.

how am i going to live up to my dream if i continue like this.

giving up chances,

giving up opportunities to excel.

i know i can do it,but why cant i just go the extra mile to accomplish it.


my dream,is it all but a fantasy,

or a reality.


tell me i'll succeed.

i need to succeed.

i cant disappoint them.

i just cant.


i tell myself,not to be too hard on myself.

because the worst best has yet to come.i hope;

with a smile,i trudge on.

hoping with each additional step i take,i'll find the strength.

the strength to turn each painful tred,to a hop,a jump,a bounce.

the strength to move on,

the strength to face up to myself,the expectations,the challenges.

the strength to do better,from a jump to a skip,to a walk,to a sprint.


all in happiness.

nothing but joy.

will i?


maybe i would.

of course i would.


i must,without a doubt summon the strength where ever it is.


out there,somewhere.

i find myself,

a lifeless soul,

searching for direction,

searching for life.

a wreck.


but i'm blessed,because of youu.


valerie loves you

today i asked myself,

do we belong together?

i'm so confused.

guide me the way,

i prayed.

i dont understand many things in life.

seeing you this way has made me feel pain.

pain inside,tearing my heart apart.

will we be like them?

will you be my future?

will you ever.

i know i would,

for you,i would.

i dont know how to react,

because everyone thinks otherwise, from how i view you.

will you change,for me?

i dont know what to expect,

dont know what to think.

all i know is i need strength,

from youu.

i need you

i want you.

i think i'm falling in love with you.


valerie loves you

Monday, July 10, 2006

oh,anw,to all the people still having their midyears,its going to be over soon!ESP KATE,NANNY,BERNICE,EELING,WEILI,everyone else from s20.JIAYOU!you can do it.and you CAN be who you wanna be.positive thinking!=)last paper right!WHOOHOO!its going to be GREAT!then you guys can enjoy your well deserved break!love you guys.whoohoo.lets hang out soon.


valerie loves you

i think maybe i'm slow in posting this,but i bet the world is cursing abt zidane now.it was so frustrating.although i support neither team,i felt that if he didnt get sent off,they might have stood a good chance.sighs.early in the morning mood spoilt by that=\

zidane,is this your swansong?


but now,i'm so happy coz:


1.ORAL IS OVER!like finally.the passage;the words were not difficult,but the shun-ness(fluency) of the passage was quite hard.coz alot of words is mix and match.haha.but overall i think i will get about 6-7 alot of stopping.the conversation was ok.was about singaporean school's starting and ending time.i crapped throughout.i think should be can.but my chinese sounded weird i felt.and my pronounciation guai guai one.NVM!ITS OVER!


2.this made me the happiest!=)CRYSTAL CALLED!!!I MISS YOU SO MUCH GIRL.havent seen you since forever.oh my!!=)so happy we were on the same day.dont worry about your oral ok!we sama sama.my chinese is worse than yours!=\ haha.its ok!AND JIAYOU OK!dont kan cheong aft your kayak/canoe capsize.CHOY!i love you girl.i'm behind you all the way(if i'm in the competition i will LITERALLY be behind you ALL THE WAY)as for meeting acp,its ok!=)competition right,so its normal.at least chiefie not meeting her,if not its like good friends competing.anw,i know YOU CAN!=)WHOO.CRYSTAL OWNS!dont bother about thinking gold cannot.because IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING.have faith,and everything will come by.will be praying and thinking of you!must update me about the results ok!=) LOVE YOU SO MUCH!=)meet up soon aft your competition ok!and then i can admire your OR LU LU complexion and stare in jealousy.you'll be milk chocolate and i'll be white chocolate.or you can be dark chocolate,kate can be milk chocolate and i'll defenitely be white chocolate la=\ you skinny monkey please eat more!!=))mwahah.


3.i'm happy coz i found my motivation,finally.WANG CHUANG YI!haha.nah.i'm feeling so guilty abt my results coz i know i definetely DID NOT do my best.so i'll work harder this term,and i'm determined not to let my parents down.i havent told them abt my results.but sooner or later i will have to.i've come to realise its not about the As they want.its abt whether i put in my 100% best and its for my own future.i know that only with the 4As then i can get to where i want to.i wont make the same mistake as i did for o levels.only LONGTERM hardwork will pay off.i hope aft promos,i'll be reading this and saying,yes i did what i wanted to.


my mum keeps saying i've slacked alot in jc as compared to last time.i'll show her that she kan chuo wo and that i have what it takes,and that i wont disappoint her!i know how much they expect of me and i wont cave in to pressure (HUR.i dont feel any yet)

I KNOW I CAN,
BE WHAT I WANNA BE.

O's a sprint,A's a marathon.

valerie loves you

Sunday, July 09, 2006

haha.germany defeated portugal 3-1.which makes them third.hoho.tonight's the finals.WHOOHOO!haha.france italy.both stand equal chance i guess.=) but since i'm carrying a le coq bag which has a rooster on it,i shall support france!haha.

i guess in life,being first is the only thing that matters.having a silver medal doesnt bring you anything.oh wells.but there's alw the next world cup!=)we shall see.


valerie loves you

Saturday, July 08, 2006

end up i didnt put the front brackets.i put the metal bands behind.wahh.she force in that time i quite painful.but in a way,to think of it,it better to feel pain than not at all,because you know that your nerves are working.if you dont feel pain then its something very wrong.right!=)haha.positive thinking.

ohwells.the metal thing is itchy.keep poking my tongue and lips.they have alot of cuts and ulcers alr.but i just pray i'll be able to inunciate my words on monday.please let me be ok!and i cant close my mouth properly.so when i sleep my mouth opens and you know what comes out.so gross right!=\ haha.nvm.it'll be over soon!and i'll have nice teeth.xiaomeii too!=))whee.no pain no gain.

i was saying halfway ytd,till i realised i was running late.i feel very motivated to work much harder for end years.we must all be like anushka!right fitrah!we'll all work hard to give her more competition.then its a win win situation.everyone will do well!if the 1806 unites,then many more things will happen.

and you all please dont say abt erhm anymore ok!i will really just puke blood and faint on the floor for you all to see!and you dont keep complaining abt evt and scutinising,criticising everyone ok!its not good for you and not good for others.alright!you're a guy eh!BE A MAN,DO THE RIGHT THING!


valerie loves you

Friday, July 07, 2006

putting braces today.excited!!whoohoo.but at the same time,nervous too.

dunno why today suddenly had a funny feeling like i'm starting to enjoy school.haha.i think its coz i'm getting to know the people around me better.but you all ah.so bad to me!keep making stories.its not ok!dont be evil!=))haha.i will vomit blood man before your story comes out.some more so er xin!EEE-

haha.during civics had this stupid discussion about school rules and evt.wasting paper.haiyo.and pw ah.nv do anything again.cant believe we're changing teacher!SHIT MAN.our class is going to die alr.mr wee is good!=)haha.oh wells.if you dont treasure what you have,it'll be too late.

during maths it was damn funny.she went ard trying to check whether we redid our common test and our tutorial 8.dunno why she suddenly came to our table and say AIYA DONT WANT TO CHECK THIS TABLE.so funny!me and fitrah burst out laughing.so lame la!then we think its coz fitrah got a b then she paiseh coz she was asking her to work harder!so funny.econs lecture the same la.getting nagged at by her again.whats new.but she's really a good teacher.then econs tutorial,hurhur.P+C.i really dont like that chapter.haiyo.some people damn smart la.alw provide answers in train language.talk so fast how to hear la.haiyo.and me anf fitrah there gong gong one.doing other things.i was observing her.i realised her legs super long and body very short.and she wear the shirt so short and skirt so long so high.no wonder.and i turned to fitrah and told her.then we made the same conclusion without saying it out.super funny!we can read minds man.

then behind me.HURHUR.3 naughty people trying to be scriptwriters.hehheh.make a movie of my life somemore.damn disgusting la!yingting want to ba guang his hair alr.MWAHAH!so funny.

and chinese as usual was fun!i love mrs alice teo aka lee bai yang.she's super cute and funny.laugh and laugh.i think abt BI HU i want to laugh.damn funny.super super funny.and the way she make fun of the guys.i can see everyone just laughing and laughing in my head.laugh until cry and stomach ache.i'm starting to like chinese.although i was the only one in the class to fail my paper 2(whats new)but at least i passed my overall.thanks to my zuo wen!and we got back our second zuowen today.haha.quite happy with her comments.although she say i'm LAO TAO!haha.dun care la.i must continue to like chinese!!=)

anw,nervous!=)HAHA.ok.take care!
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No man/woman is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry.


If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever.


Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say.


If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them."


Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile!"


"If you judge people, you have no time to love them"


"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle." Plato


It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."


"Enthusiasm is contagious. You could start an epidemic!"


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Thursday, July 06, 2006

thurs,holiday for me.good luck to you guys taking oral today!=)


hoho.YOU GO FRANCE!whoohoo!1-0.france defending 1998 champs are back!9 straight wins.whoo!i love zidane.haha.his last world cup,but he did france proud!


so,3rd placing will be GERMANY VS PORTUGAL.in the world of football,impossible is nothing.life is so unpredictable.who would imagine germany playing for third.but its ok.whether they win anot,i guess their fans will still support them no matter what.whats important,is prob not winning,but the spirit of soccer.world cup brings world soccer to play in the same pitch,with billions of people tuning in to watch.unification?or division?who knows.addias is the happiest man.haha.selling over 4 million jerseys and making HUGE amounts of money in just 3 weeks.haha.oh,did you know puma and addidas' founders are brothers?because of a dispute b/w them when they were in addidas,one of them came out and formed PUMA!haha.german brands.you go germany!deutschland,all the way!


finals.ITALY VS FRANCE.ohwells.its monday morning!shall wake up maybe.schools should follow smart people and declare monday a holiday and shift their youth day or polling day holiday to monday.surely alot of people will pon man.i can imagine the state of school on mon. =

MAY THE BEST TEAM WIN!=))lets hope france can redeem themselves after 2002's disgrace!italians are aggressive players,so they stand a chance too!we shall see.


after this,have to wait another 4 years.by that time i'm 21.prob somewhere out there studying.hoho.

`alwayssupportingyou

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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

germany lost =(sighs.but life is unpredictable.who knows,maybe italy will win.so zw was right.haha.but in history,germany has never won a match against italy before.so i guess they've not made history;yet.haha.oh wells.play for third.yet again.too bad the match is mon morning.maybe i'll get up to watch it.see how.


decided to just put the bands on friday since the separators are coming off.if not the hole will close back and i will have to put them again.urgh.imagine the pain!


and abi is angry at me.=(mabel ah.next time dont anyhow say lah.see.hai me until like that.sighs.dunno la.whatever=(


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Tuesday, July 04, 2006

i failed miserably.again.i want to be smart!but i'm notsighs.

i will work harder and pick myself up again!i hope this will be the last paper that i failed.i dont want to fail with dignity.i want to pass!=
i pray i will


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Monday, July 03, 2006

sorry,but i'm really bored.so i'm posting again.


watched devil beside you today!didnt finish watching coz my com giving me prob.so i tired alr just go watch last episode!the show is romantic.but he's so mean to her!keep ordering her about.but overall its very cute and nice to watch!haha.oh wells.nanny,aft your exams we can discuss about it!and i should finish watching the show too.but i dont think i have time.meiqi is pretty.but irritating.rainie is so cute man.hurhur.and ah meng is quite cool and goodlooking,after a while.and he shouldnt be hair clips.haha!oh wells.


i dont feel like doing anything.i dont feel like sleeping.i dont feel like waking up.i dont feel like going to school.i dont feel like eating.i just feel like doing nothing.but doing nothing is doing something,right?oh well.but i just feel like zoning out.=

recently keep listening to rubbish jokes.and laughing at nothing apparent.crazy man.


oh which reminds me,my hair is a total disaster.really regret cutting.look like some ball when i tie up.so round like a small kid.and too short then my hair curl everywhere.i dont like.


oh,i think sick food is going to be my best friend.boo.


postive thinking is like this.

a little bird in the sky.

you look up and it shits in your eye

you dont mind and you dont cry

you just thank god that cows dont fly!=)


beautiful disaster`

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I have been tagged!

1. Do the following WITHOUT complains.

2. Choose 5 persons to do this after you complete yours.

3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.

4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.


Favourites

Favourite Colour: orange,lime green!

Favourite Food: hur.chicken rice.

Favourite Song: all about you,a thousand miles,beautiful disaster,here without you.and many many more!

Favourite Movie: lotr

Favourite Sport: swimming

Favourite Day of the Week: friday

Favourite Season: spring

Favourite Ice Cream: orange julius strawberry cheesecake earthquake!


Currents

Current Mood: happy!

Current Taste: pain.

Current Clothes:cedar ixora tee and cedar shorts.

Current Desktop: talking about the com or the table?the com is from dell.table?some table from an antique shop.

Current Toenail Colour: glitter silver

Current Time: 9.20pm

Current Surroundings: my computer room

Current Annoyances: my teeth.separators.

Current Thoughts: tml is school!=

Firsts

First Best Friends:too many to name.cant rmb.but currently,bihuan,weisan and nanny!

First Crush: daniel wong.hurhur.you reading this!

First Movie: must be some disney movie?101 dalmations?pochantas?

First Lie:hurhur.too many to recall now!

First Music: prob my mum singing 3 little ducks or smt like that


Lasts

Last Cigarette: never

Last Drink: water

Last Car Ride: yesterday when daddy fetched me home.

Last Crush:hoho.i cant tell you that,can i?

Last Movie:V for Vendetta.super long ago.see how long i havent been to a movie?

Last Phone Call:DAD.nagging me to have my dinner=
Last CD played: hillsong look to you


Have you ever

Have you ever dated one of your best friend: date as in serious date?no.

Have you ever broken the law: jaywalking counted?

Have you ever been arrested: noo.

Have you ever skinny-dipped: erm what do you think.duh,no.

Have you ever been on TV: no.


5 things you are wearing: my house tee,shorts,underwear,what else?no more alr!nail polish counted?what a dumb question.

4 things you done today: i ate,watched devil beside you,did gp essay and research,went toilet?sorry i really didnt do much today!

3 things you can hear right now: music on my itunes,myself typing and the fan whirling.

1 thing you do when you're bored:yawn.

5 persons to do this:xiaomeii,sher,dhilshad,crystal,daniel.


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this is so sad man.tmls school and i havent done my hw.as usual.and its been so long since school that i forgot the timetable totally.cant even rmb when school ends on fri.=\ and wed we're having cca again.SIGHS.i miss slacking already.haha.oh wells.

and,sorry zw!so late then send to you the things.haiyo.sorry ah!

oh,the pain.my threshold of pain.

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i finally understand why.

i dunno if that is your reason why,but i thank you nevertheless.

thank you for doing the right thing,leaving me with no choice but to go the right way.

really,i owe you.

i think it was hard for you?as it was for me.

though at one time i kept questioning,why?WHY!

what did I do?

but now i finally understand.

i used to be so unforgiving.

but now,i finally understand.i really do.

but i just wanna say,i still care about youu,no matter what happens,yeah?

tho youu might not need me anymore,but i'll still be here.yeah?

thanks so much.

i was wrong about everything.sorry.

but i hope one day we can clarify the truth,alright?

when the time is right.

take care you,and jiayou with evt!

have fun with school and evt,just dont forget your friend valerie.

and hurhur.our bets.haven watched any horror clips.except the grudge.where i kept screaming.dunno why also.haiyos.and cycling.not really counted.but anw,shall see ok!we should go out soon!=)

ilu

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ytd was a damn busy day.early morning went to the dentist.put on separators.at first not pain just weird weird the feeling.still can eat apple crumble pie =)) then aft a while started to pain so i just ate chicken noodle without eating the noodle.haha.whole day didnt really eat much.at night had gastric coz of the stupid pills.sighs.

then went to meet abi,aprie and elga!=)so happy!they're so funny.you guys light up my life man.met at orchard.walk around went to far east.i feel so guilty!coz of me nv go watch movie.sorry!!=( then we went to bk.sit down and drink milo.and talk crap.hoho.then went inside far east.walk around.take photo and pretending to ask angmo.damn funny!=))ate apple crumble pie.ask for fork.hehheh.ate so fast.sit on the bus want to vomit.hoho.abi started doing funny things right!try to seduce people.haiyo.so ticklish.i'm not the least seduced!!

then went to suntec.coz of me!then two people nearly got knocked down by a car.damn funny man!and BAB noodle.or BABI noodle.aprie is so funny man.went to support my sister for the school's 90 hours singing thing.stayed for a short while.good effort la.but the class before my sis's class sounded so funny.they kept screaming and screaming.not singing.but still,good try la.hoho.then we went to marina sq.walk around.they all go shop,me and elga behind doing funny things.and ABI AH!'I LOST MY BAG!' damn fake man.but so funny still.laugh until wanna cry.

then went to bugis street.follow them there.nv go before!just walk past.so many fake goods.i never knew man.must bring my mother go.=))then sadly,me and elga had to leave.so sad la!but nvm there's still another day!

rmb: "who is pooh's mother?"

"puma!"

damn funny=) and,

"how many siblings does banana have?"

"7,yi(1) nana, er (2) nana, san (3) nana, si (4) nana, wu (5) nana, liu (6) nana, qi(7) nana and BA (8) nana.damn funny!i miss you guys alr.must meet up soon.and call liwen to go too!sighs.

then aft that i went to meet my classmates.went to pastamania.i drank a pathetic cup of lemon tea.so sian.everyone eating i stone.haha.then aggie started crapping.and yide so kelian.=(only guy.then pei mabel to get more earholes.haha.she so happy ytd!i'm happy for her=)yayness.haha.oh wells.we waited for aga and nellyn to come then take neoprints.quite funny la.so many people.oh wells.i'm starting to like my class.=)quite funny.

watch aga and nellyn eat.then went back home.reached home quite late,10 plus almost 11.mabel bullying her boyfriend again.haha.oh wells.school's going to start tml.then thurs holiday.poor people!=(nvm,its going to be over soon!=)haha.

ytd was a fun filled day.too bad my june holidays wasnt like that.but nvm!and i wish more people came for the outing.you guys are so spoilsport.=(

anw,start getting ready for school.i didnt do my hw.except gp essay.too bad la.tml then see how lor.die.

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replies`

pingsiew: hehheh!good that you did THAT stupid thing.mwahah.help you pass time what.oh wells.i'm getting braces!! we can be FRIENDS.mwahah.so pain man.so sad=(yeah.my classmates also kena that day.nvm!faster over better.=))and you are so KUKU!i sit beside beside you you never turn around!BLUR!!anw,see you in school tues.=)

xiaomeii!:i did the thing coz you stabbed me la.=))haha.yupp exams are over!the results are the one that FREAK ME OUT!haha.anw,thanks so much for evt!dajie loves xiaomeii=))

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