Tuesday, February 15, 2005

too many things have been happening and too fastt.tooo fast.

today-announced results for syf.i really wanted to cryy for all those who din get in.but life's like that.life is.there are giving and taking.and choices and no choices.your fate may lie in your own hands but also can lie in other's hands.ohwells.life.thecomplicated matter.=)

anyway,was feeling so awkard in the bus.coz i met this ex senior of mine who was sitting beside me with her boyfren.they were behaving so intimately [erhm,wont go into details] i was like so err.wanted to siam.dunno where to look.so pretend pretend outside have v interesting things.sighs.pda.ohmans.and the thing is i dun even think she recognises me.i was in band tee.change liao so dun have sch name on it.sighs.

nowadays i dun even know myself anymore.i am seriously mad.and i need pyschatric treatment.i cant be alone or very free.i will start to think abt mad mad things you wldnt wanna know.seriously.

had 'fun' at sch.i felt so badd.coz i was so tired.and we were watching a video on war in the pacific.abt japan and usa.it was in black and white.and i cldnt see clearly.eyes so tired den was so sleepy.dozing off summore.sighs.badd me.den she said muz do well in geog coz we not interested in hist..heh?no lorr.i am interested you know.

yays!sat have band.i like sat prac.sir is gg overseas.another instructor.hope he's effective and hopefully we can adapt to him. glad tt sir's back on 20.lucky man!!speech day on 30th.i dun wanna malu-ate myself and the band again!sighs.tough job.

OAC nx wk.hehx.ohwells.
is there gonna be cyber wk?!if not someone's gonna scream her guts out.sighs.

anyway

happy b'day yilan!!you're 16 alr.older than me.heh.and you are my junior.tt's the catch.i like!heex.have fun ya?best wishes and takkaire ya>

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

i seriously seriously cant stand the f word.hearing it makes me shiver.i have to siam once i hear it if not i cant concentrate on whatever i'm doing.i dunno wats wrong with me.

i dunno whats wrong with me.cant concentrate in class.my mind is like in lala land la.thinking abt stuff and evt.haiz.

i am dreaming.wake up valerie.it will not come true..dream on la.