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Ho ho ho! Merry Christmas! Okay. I'm not Santa Claus and it's not really Christmas yet. But its Christmas eve! And I know what I want for Christmas. All I want for Christmas is a catch-up session with all of my friends. What else can I ask for? It's good enough for me. Just imagine, seated with your love ones to have a wholeheartedly conversation and perhaps laugh about it. Add on with a sip of hot cocoa and some bites of sweet and crunchy chocolate chip cookies that seem to almost melt in your mouth. Once again, Merry Christmas and have a Gay New Year. :)

The festival of giving and receiving. The end of December is approaching. Christmas is here.

As i'm taking a break from studying, i realised how fast time has passed for 2010. Through this year, i have been through experiences that i will never thought of. Love, Responsibilities, Hypocrites and some whacking but fun experiences with my friends. Anyway, 2010 has been an unexpected year for me. Indeed, God has answered my prayers for giving me such unexpected stuff and He gives it a lot (and there's more to come).

Christmas... Which reminds me.. Last minute Christmas shopping! Damn! The thought of the rush and people bombarding dreads me. Alright, looks like Christmas shopping has just been added into my next week's highlights. (i will never do Christmas shopping over the weekends!)

earlier this evening, i was having dinner with my mum and her friends. during dinner, they were having this sex and pregnancy talk, and i was like just listening like an innocent kid (anyway i will get to hear this kind of talk from my mum sooner or later). the way how my mum describe the process of childbirth was so scary that it freaked me out so much that i dont want to get pregnant. the conversation goes like this..

*after the talk*

mum: ok winnie! help me clear the dishes! thank you!

me: ok! by the way i dont want to get pregnant already.

mum: *misheard* what?!?!? you dont want to help me to clear the dishes?!?!?!?

mum's friend: winnie said that she dont want to get pregnant lah! not clear the dishes! so rainbow, which news is more scary to YOU, winnie dont want to clear the dishes or dont want to get pregnant?

mum: clear the dishes.

mum's friend: sure or not? did you hear what i just told you?

mum: *thinks and finally the information gets into her brain then she gave me THE LOOK* you really dont want to get pregnant in the future?

me: ehhh...... time to clear the dishes! *quickly escapes*

unless your heart, your soul, and your whole being are behind every decision you make, the words from your mouth will be empty, and each action will be meaningless.

"Our mind is like a broken radio which keeps on replaying unpleasant memories".

my mind is behaving like one now. repeating unpleasant memories and possible negative outcomes. then, i remembered what pastor said to me during church camp, "A vase seem so beautiful and perfect from afar. As I took a closer look of that vase, the vase is suffering deep inside and there's cracks all over it even though it has been fixed."

the fear of getting more scars.

from last friday to yestarday, i was in my church's youth camp. the camp was good. felt a spiritual touch from God but not as much as compared to the younger youths. i am so touched to see how much they have changed. i was like oh my God... You are freaking amazing! so for the past few months of preparations, its all worth it (so busy that my mum kinda commented that i treat my house like a hotel).

camp aside, i cant believe that my mum and sister went to watch "Voyage de la Vie"! i screamed at them when they told me about it!!!! how could they watched it without me!!!!!! i want to watch it so badly!!!! but i was camping so... oh well... my loss...