Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Dear Me,You yearn for your emotions to be as vast as the seaso that no one can ever discover the destinationyet always hoping there will be someone willing to reinstate clarity and preserve the beautyYou desire your inspiration to burn fiercely like the firehoping to ignite the sparks of dreams that dies long ago but still lay beneath your soulyet ironically wish that the dreams are buried deep enough so that the disappointment from failure will never get youYou wish happiness is just an arm awayso that you will not lost the faith to believe that you deserve ityet you fear that it will be too short to find the real and right oneYou hope the way you picture your life can be changegrabbing every opportunity to realize greatness that awaits just ahead of youhowever your nature of avoiding regrets refrain you from taking the stepDear Me, You no need someone to help you achieved clarity, define your own beauty and start your own chapterDear Me,Dreams are gifts that will always be remembered regardless of whether they ever becomes reality. Upholding your dreams is a journey that you will not need to apologize forDear Me,Every individual is entitled to their own happiness. If you have the faith in achieving it, don't worry about finding the right one. Your special one will eventually finds you.Dear Me, Refrain from changing the picture doesn't make you stronger or even right. Explore the courage that is always inside you and never stop painting different pictures. You will be awaken, the picture thought to be never wanted is the triumph you have been searching for all your life.P.S You are the leader of your heart, the captain of your soulLove,Vanessa
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flying towards my dreams
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Everyone wants to be free, everyone demands freedom. The freedom to love, to dream, to be happy, to be sad and to live without wearing a mask. There are six billion people in the world, six billion souls, how many of them are leading the life they yearn for? How many of them can shed their mask?
I want to be free.
To be free from darkness, free from my mask. As a person grows older, it seems to be natural that you no longer has the right to cry, having a shoulder to depend on or make stupid mistakes in life. We are told not to bring unhappy emotions to work, must be able to stand up on your own, having the ability to always make the right choice and choosing the right path.
If you ask me what kind of freedom I want. It is a no-brainer question, I want to be me. I want to cry like a baby when I am sad, I want to ask for help when I am clueless, I want to have someone to tell me is okay when I make mistakes. All these seems easy, but truthfully, it is the hardest thing to do. Nobody can live how they want to be, nobody can contol whether to be hate or to like by someone, no one can stops a person from leaving or appearing in your life. Maybe, freedom is juat a wishful thought, no one can be really free and control how they want their life turns out to be.
Someone once told me one can only be really free when no longer having any desires. I will not need to study the subject I hate most if I do not want to have a job, I can choose to do anything I want if I can not care what other people think of me. I can say I am willing to give up anything to be me but with so many temptation and judgements in this world, maybe I will never be ready to be free. There are countless people that can be on the top of the world, there may not be a single person that is lucky enough to achieved the freedom in being the person they want.
I figured the question is never what kind of freedom or how much freedom I want, is how much I am willing to give up to achieved that kind of freedom. Will this day ever come?
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Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Saying Goodbye is never easy, especially to those who has work with you hand in hand in 10 weeks. Thanks for all the unforgettable memories all of you have given me. Thanks for the guidance. Thanks for the "lame" jokes. Thanks for the care and concern. Thanks for lending a listening ear. Finally, thanks for just being there.
When i look through my 10 weeks, it looks like a long journey. When i first started my TEP, I just wished that i could end my 10 weeks as soon as possible. However, after all that i had gone through, I cant bear to leave now. All good things come to an end, we just have to ensure that it will never be forgotten. This 10 weeks has now officially become one of the chapter in my lifebook.
Before we all move to the next chapter, remember to bring along my wishes. Time and tide wait for no one, carry on to dream and may all your dreams be fufilled. Bye Bye....
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Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Where will i be when i leave this world? Will anyone take notice that i am no longer breathing in this world? Will i still feel my own presence and feel my love ones..All these questions always appear in my mind when i let myself sink into deep thoughts..I have never really experience any life and death situation or really say goodbye to my close ones. In fact, i fear these situations because it hurts and i am totally clueless what knid of medcine can stop the pain of saying goodbye to someone forever. Many people leave this world with music still in them because before they knew, time just runs out. No signs, no warning, no words. They just left. The earth continue to turn, everybody continue to move on, No one seems to take notice that someone who was still alive maybe hours ago is no longer going to be heard, feel and seen. Sometimes, i always ask myself will someone even realise if i just go missing..will someone try to finds me?When is my turn to leave? Will i have a chance to say goodbye to my friends and loved ones? Will they have the time to tell me that they will miss me and although i am gone, i continue to live in their hearts...If i have the time, how much time will i have?When is my turn to leave, I hope to leave peacefully. I want to be able to watch my love ones and friends. I want to fly. I want to have magical powers. Lolx..Will we really have more powers when we die..i guess no one will ever know because no one can ever come back to tell the rest..It is like a secret that will never be reveal..I am so curious..lolxI once read a book, it says that we should always say goodbye to our love ones and friends in a manner as though it will be the last time you are seeing them. I think what the author says really make sense because we never know when is our last Goodbye. Life is unpredictable and fragile. There is no why..when it is time, we just have to leave. When i was born, i am crying but all my loved one is smiling. I hope when my friends and loved ones send me away, i can leave this world smiling and they are smiling with me, If you ask me what i want to be when i died..I want to be the wind because although no one can see me, they can still feel me. Somehow Nobody can be really gone.
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Lol..I am actually blogging at 1am today...so how have i been today? Well, i have a really good time today. We held our first MSC outing today. We went to Jalan Kayu (again..lol) and gathered for dinner at MaD Jack..It was fun despite that we have to wait rather long for the food to be served..the food was nice....I am here to show my appreciation to those who turn up today..Today will probably be one of the days that i will missed most...Hopefully, we can have more of these gatherings together in the following 4 weeks. Before i signed off to get myself recharged, once again..thanks everyone who turn up today, I have a great night. Not forgetting JunJie, Thanks for your ride!!!
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Sunday, July 15, 2007
Hmmm..What should i write today? In confusion..lol
Well..Time really flew before we notice it, My stopover is coming to an end in 4 weeks time..rather depressed..if you asked me what would I missed? Hmmm...Let me think..miss the scoldings, miss the friends, miss the laughters, miss the complains, miss the memories..miss the MSC shirt..MS NG..the best supervior..lol
Wow..i think i will probably miss all the things that i have gone through during the days in MSC...reluctant to leave le..lol
Last friday, we are working overtime..folding bikinis..lol..we joke around and have fun with each other. I nearly died of laughing that day..thanks to our joker..RADJI..lol..i will miss him..Later that day, i went Jalan Kayu and have prata with Radji, linyu and Ben. We took photos together..we really have a hard time finding the right place to take. We just cant find a place with the right lighting and finally decided to leave our images infront of the 7-eleven..I guess is due to the end of the week, we all seems energetic despite the whole day of work. We spent a really great night together..~Thanks for the wonderful night~I have a really heart-filled meal~~
Hope we will continue to have good time together for the last 4 weeks..ERm...Probably more of outings and less of work..hehehe
May god bless everyone~~
MISS YA~
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Friday, June 29, 2007
Ok..i haven't been blogging for quite some time. Well, today have this sudden urge to share my thoughts. I have been doing TEP for 3 weeks now. It is rather tiring but enjoyable too. I get to know alot of friends and we really have an enjoyable time complaining and cracking jokes about our supervisors. However, i seems to have no life since i started TEP, I often doze off at around 10 pm. Haiz..no more night life.
Today is a bad day for me. I had been feeling sick and giddy the whole day. Despite being ill, we still have to do stock count at the end of the day. However, we have quite a good time chit chatting with each other. haha..a little entertainment after a long day of work.
Arhz..one more thing that is worth to mention, i also meet up with my "sister", Muriel for dinner. We talk about almost everything, all the primary and secondary memories we spent together. And of course, gossiping about boys. haha..we are still as chatty as ever. Thanks for the wonderful night.
P.S...tell you all a secret: i also have a crush on someone..hehe but for some reasons, i decided to forget about this guy. Too tiring, i dun want to be hurt anymore despite all the bad history...sad girl deserve to be happy
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Saturday, May 19, 2007
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
admit impediments. Love is not love
which alters when it alteration finds,
or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! It is an ever-fixed mark
that looks on tempests and is never shaken;
it is the star to every wandering bark,
whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
within his bending sickle's compass come:
love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
but bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.
- William Shakespeare -
I wanted to share this poem because it is unforgettable and touches me
Honestly, I do not understand every single line..
but..apparently love is never understandable. It do not exsit between words and lines, it lies at the bottom of our heart. You can't see it but you can feel it.
Love is never selfish or demanding. It should be strong, selfless and always ready to endure whatever comes.
Just like what shakespeare has written"Love is not love which alters when it alteration found"
Love is a promiss make by two person to crossover whatever barriers and never give up on each other under all circumstances. If this happiness have a name..Is it your name?
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Saturday, April 28, 2007
Two Worlds.
Two Faiths.
One Love.
Yesterday, I went to watch a heart-wrenching film with my sister. We were planning to watch Fracture. However, a poster caught our eye. An independent film named Partition. The girl on the poster was extremely gorgeous which had caught my attention. And guess what, we got caught between 2 movies. It lands us into a struggle as Ryan Gosling has been one of my favourites ever since i watched The Notebook.
We decided to invest our $7.50 on Partition. We were worried after buying the tickets, hoping that the film would not be too boring. Seriously, we do not watch that kind of bollywood movie but Partition seems like one. It was hilarious when we nearly break into cold sweat when we thought that they will be speaking Tamil after we bought the ticket. Hopefully, it was just a misunderstanding.
2 hours of intense and touching momments in the theatre, i would regret if i hadn't watch it. It is really a romance movie i should not miss. Even my sis who dislike boring romance movie had full of praises for Partition.
Despite the hatred and difference between the Muslims and Skihs due to the partition, an unexpected encounter of a muslim girl seperated from her families and a skih who could not release himself from the pain of a lost friend at war brought upon the greatest love in the midst of violent times. With their respective people being mortal enemies, Naseem and Gian are determined to follow their hearts. Gian saved Naseem from the killings of his countrymen without knowing that Naseem is the girl who will eventually gave him the reason to live.
It is a moving tale that tells the story of how innocent people struggles to find happiness in the most bitter times.
If you are moved by Romeo and Juliet. You will be moved by Naseem and Gian. Watch the trailer from the video i uploaded below. You will will want to watch it! My sis and I was deeply warm despite of the air-con that is extremely cold in the theatre.HAHA!
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Sunday, December 31, 2006
There are moments in life when we find ourselves at crossroads. Confused and without a roadmap. When facing unknowns, most of us would choose to turn back and stay unchange.
I once believe that lives and destiny could not be change, later i realise that it was because it is easier not to change. There are fears inside of me. I am afraid of how people judge me or maybe i was most terrified to face my own fears. I choose to remained closed to my own world and refused to let anybody in, in fear of getting hurt.
It is never easy to take the first step but when we choose to push on for something better, there are always surprises awaiting you. You will see the people and enviroment you once abandon welcoming you. It is the time when i go beyond the courage it takes to let someone in and beyond the fears to give myself and others a second chance. The faster you get over the past, it will be sooner to be able to move on. I am proud to say that i had move on from where i fell.
We are all stronger than we know, it is only when you choose to believe it that you will discover who you are and who you can be. We all face darkness in life, but never forget that it is the black of the night that we see the stars and it is the little glim of light that will lead you home.
I dedicate this post to one special friend, Muriel who is always there. My family who always have faith in me.
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