The passenger gets off the train and never again will she ever shed another tear for him.:)


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My heart aches even after all these while. It just goes to show how much I really loved this person. Deeply. Truly. But I loved the wrong kind of person. It came at a high cost and I now have to bear the consequences of a broken heart. I shan't set myself up for any more disappointments. I thought I was over it but I wasn't. There are good days when I am totally at peace and bad days when I get reminded and my heart starts to ache. It will all get better soon, I promise. It's all part of growing up.

A door has closed. I have come to a realisation that it is futile and pointless to even be friends with him. There is just this increasing widening gap between us and no matter how much I tried to close it, it will just continue to widen. I realised that I no longer feel comfortable to confide things in him or to even share certain things with him although I feel like doing so sometimes. Things are just not the same anymore and the broken relationship, the trust can never be mended. It is best to leave it at that. Father has opened the door that is right in front of me. He has opened my eyes to see that there is so much more to life, that there are so many exciting opportunities and people out there waiting for me to experience and meet. Therefore, there is no need to be sad. Instead, Rejoice! God has far better plans for me!!

On a happy note, be glad and rejoice that Im now on my way to find the person that Father has planned for me to meet. Father will find me a person who is deserving of my love. Father will place my heart in the hands of a man who He believes deserves me. :)

I have come this far and this setback will not hinder me from going forward.

For by You I can run upon a troop; And by my God I can leap over a wall.(Psalms 18:29)





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The answer is alr there,girl. Will I be able to tolerate and live with it for the rest of my life? The answer is No. So..just why am I hanging on to it? Chuck it away. Let go. Do not get lost in reminiscing old times. It can never beat reality. Sorry for being so emo at this hr hahaha! Everythingisawesome still awesome even without a certain someone. Life goes on even better than before:)


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Dear Father God, I couldn't have pulled through without you. I may have been strong, but I couldn't have done it alone without you.Thank you for being with me all these while, watching over me and granting me strength to pull through. Amen.:)

Your daughter,
XL


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I am glad, really glad that things turned out fine for me this semester given that I went through a hard time. I am glad that I did not let myself down and I persevered on despite the incessant thoughts that have been clouding my mind. I can feel the strength within me, slowly blossoming and manifesting into something greater. Keep striving on, XL. You can do it. I know you can. :) The trials that one is facing in life tests and develops one's resilience, just like how it has been testing mine. When you are shrouded by your fears , face them head on. I know I can overcome them. I may be struggling but I will be the Victor in the end. I am the Heroine of my life. ^^


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Love is selfless, it takes no records of wrongdoings. Love is letting someone go, letting someone pursue his own happiness elsewhere where he could be happier, away from all the high expectations. Therefore, I shall let him go and set him free out of the love I have for him. Love is not being self-centred,thinking about my own happiness. It is wanting the person you love to be happy. It is never easy. If you love someone, it doesn't mean that one has to be with that person. Therefore, let it go. Let him go. I just truly want him to lead a happy and meaningful life.

As for me, happiness will come when I least expect it, when I don't go searching for it. :)


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Today, I shed two tears for you. You have no idea how much my heart aches upon waking up every morning that I realise that you are no longer there for me, no longer obliged to say good morning to me and stuff. But I promise myself that I really want to treat myself better now...I don't wanna shed any more tears for you. I realised I have been doing much of the pursuing during the course of our relationship, to make you feel loved,so much so that you took them for granted. It is often said that the one who loves more in the relationship gets hurt the most. As a result, I got hurt, so hurt as the trust I tried so hard to build upon a second time was dashed and diminished in that split second, in that moment that you succumbed to the temptations and decided to hurt me in order to fulfill your temporary pleasures. Acting like I don't care and transiting from the lovers to just friends status wasn't easy for me. I always geng and put on a brave front but deep inside, I am really fragile and broken. I need just as much attention as a small girl needs from her parent. I have no choice now but to bury my feelings for you under a hidden place way deep inside my heart. Im just happy and thankful that we were really happy and blissful together once.

"Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened." -Dr. Seuss


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