blog blog blog. wad so gr8 abt bloggin? haha i know i'm spas. (quote n unquote) movin on rapidly..

hung out wid yanie n kelly-bitch jus ytd evenin 4 dinner. as usual we(kelly n myself) did a little shoppin in tp. bitch got a job n nided ta wear FORMAL WOR. off we wen huntin 4 her sleek n LONG(gosh~ she's like so freakin tall!) black pants. she spent like 96 bucks on 2 pants la. wth i know. i wuden spend tat kinda $$. i'm so broke!! but honestly i kinda like da pants dere. wear le realli luk slimmer. sumtink i realli nid? so anyone wanna ask me a favour can like buy me sumtink from dere? haha~

currently workin at laura ashley isetan. diao wid no experience in da sales industry its so tirin ta stand 4 so long. summore isetan's reali strict. but at least i learn sumtink! not like my previous job in da law firm. so borin~paywise of cos law firm beta la. but i wanna learn sumtink now while i still got time. results gonna b out ard end may early june. if i don get into uni i'll seriously consider JCU. eventually tat's whr i wanna end up cos dey got da course i wan. not like our local uni. so lousy! ps i'm goin mad from boredom. gonna maple le.........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

holy wk:bz schedule
attitude:fair

holy thurs:
a solemn mass.surprisin piece of news.i n gen made up.glad? of cos i m.worried? of cos i m.but i'm willin ta trust da lord's reasons 4 havin gen n i reconcile.pple ard me? super glad.except 2(u know hu u r) gaya n yanie: find me soon, will tell u da details of da conversation.

gd fri:
stations was a killer.seriously admit i'm old(altho i'm da last among my frens ta turn 20) had lunch at blk 3 wid da YW.our so called fastin 4 da day was abstain from meat.diao~ i know it sounds like we're not holy at all.

holy sat:
tink i jus got a tink or 2 4 candles.a pity i cant burn dem in da room.tink mom will kill me.screwed up a little durin mass but overall it was gd.supper wid YW at yassin(dere was food in church la!)found another 2 siao mj pple.tis fri we havin game at 8pm.haha i'm so into mj nowadays.those hu wan play send me an sms or sumtink.i'm not pro so don worwie.i wun eat ur money.i rather haf ice cream.lol. sry dear n yy 4 screamin at u.it was unintentional.tink its da time of da mth again.

easter sun:
normal mass.young ones luked abit lost wen dey were in-charge of downstairs.diao~ shud haf taken a pic of their faces wen dey din know how to walk n whr ta go.super farnie.den again tink uncle francis will make sum noise till dey can perform properly in his eyes.

felt gd.felt luved.felt secure.
i know everything's back ta normal again.
i know wad it means ta luv.
i know how to differentiate nite from day.
ur scared i'm scared.
let's try ta work it out again

random

random peek-tures~

of cos not forgettin those hu had ta live wid my demandin hobby~

imissmysoulteddy

wen out wid da YW ytd from 1pm.u guys rock~i neva luff so hard 4 such a long time.(altho i'm always luffin over da slightest reasons)

so we started da day wid lunch at ps followed by pool at selegie(stupid woman wun let ven in cos she's not 16 n was so scared of raid on a wkend) den we wen ta bowl at CSC followed by dinner at HOME cafe(pp).i realised a farnie tink goin bowlin wid tis grp of ppl.dey r not obsessed wid da game but rather more obsessed in changin each others' names on da tele-screen.n da names dey can come up wid, is hilarious.like kris said, shud we nid ppl ta help wid namin tinks, tis guys r da rite ppl ta luk 4.overall everyone played a gd game.den lo hei dinner at HOME cafe.tink some of dem prefered blk 3.moses was seated at our table n of cos u can expect da usual nonsense ta come from him.n da most IMPT tink was tat everyone had fuN! haha we're plannin ta go cyclin next wk at east coast.sigh~ i onli hope my results aren't too bad so tat i'll hafta mood ta celebrate.

p.s pple hu wen out=kris ven alex samuel justina gen julia eugene shawn.

to all hu r waitin 4 a level results, heard it'll b out on 2nd mar.so those hu feel tat dey did not put in their best, beta start prayin. those hu tink dey did, beta start prayin too. cos bein complacent dosen mean u won da battle.

a little update on wad i did durin CNY hols.wen ta many places. tink got abt 8-9 n i mus say its a little more bz den last yr. but da 'ang paos' i receive r kinda pathetic.mayb economy not so gd or wadeva possible reason but da best tink was food was everywhr i wen! haha~tat cheered me up a little.

one of da places was geylang(a childhood fren's place situated in geylang so we named his place geylang since young) n a trip dere once a yr neva fail ta provide interestin sights.tis yr we had a number of ppl wearin black.not much red or bright colours.mostly brown n black n dark blue.sum had gfs tis yr.sum changed their image so much i had difficulty recognisin dem.i tink da onli ppl hu luk da same were my bro n i plus another fren named mark. da rest all luk like dey consulted an image consultant 4 a complete make-over.now i kinda rem y i neva wanted ta step into tat place since sec 1.lol not cos of how dey luk but cos of how dey behaved.tat did not change.it neva did from day 1.

random~

i saw u in my shoes last nite.i din know if i shud take pity on u or shud i leave u ta realise tat tis r ur jus desserts.i'm a strong believer of karma.n i've strong faith in da lord.seein u in tat state made me wonder if tis is god's plan 4 u.i wanted ta speak wid u abt us.but i held back 4 fear i'll not b able ta handle da situation well.i saw wad u did.i'm glad i took a step b4 u.i wan u ta wake up.i wan u ta realise tat tis world does not revolve ard u alone.i wan u ta know tat u hafta b true ta ur heart.da real u still lingers within u.its not dead.i've yet ta find a way ta awaken tat soul tat i once knew.i onli hope tat its not too late.

i shuden b feelin tis hostility in my heart.
i hate u.
i tot my smile meant da world ta u.
i tot my happiness was all tat matters ta u.
so y did u unsuccessfully try ta implant unhappiness in me?
u hurt by ur irresponsible actions.
u hurt by ur sacastic words.
u hurt me da most wen i no longer recognised u upfront.

if tis is wad u wan,so be it.

trip ta BUDGET terminal

wen ta da airport ytd ta pick up my parents. gosh da NEW budget terminal is pathetic.i know its BUDGET but still dere shud b sum kinda standard rite??? here's how it luks like on da inside. its quite like thailand airport btw..

tis's da ONLI vendin machine i found in da arrival hall.

dere were 2 sides ta da arrival hall. here's one side/stretch..

da ONLI wall tat's appealin ta da eyes of us.

tis's da other side/stretch of da arrival hall.

i tot it was suppose ta b BUDGET terminal. taxi fares r still da same. dosen realli mean BUDGET rite?

da onli atm in a corner. wad abt other back acc users?

n onli 1 money changer?????

kinda luks like expo hor?

taxi stand is empty. as far as i'm concerned, dere were no taxis in da duration i was dere. kinda pathetic.

doors r automated. i tot it was supposed ta b BUDGET terminal. shud b those push n pull doors rite???

it wasn't at all invitin. dearie said lucky da toilets still quiet clean. haha he's da last person i wud expect ta b so particular abt toilet. i mean well he's a guy n its easier 4 guys ta du their business den gurls rite??? lol so yup tat was my not so eventful trip ta da BUDGET terminal. n no its not terminal 3. its totally 2 different places.

*i miss my dearie*

had exco ytd. now its no longer mon but tues so ppl don ask me out on tues k? we discussed our success 4 CNY tarts as well as details 4 our retreat. 4 ur info ppl we finally finalised da venue of our retreat after like a zillion light yrs. diao~

nuttin much ta blog nowadays. i wud say everything's goin smoothly 4 me currently. moses's 21st bday party jus passed on sun n i wud say we had a gr8 time. hope he likes his pressie n da surprise we gaf him!!! rite not young wardens???? haha u guys gotta agree da pressie was one of a kind tat he received. he said so himself too.lol.we wud b seein moses wearin more sports stuff cos he said ytd he received alot of adidas n nike clothes(includin a jacket! gosh tat's damn ex la). n he oso got 3 watches! gen aud n selina even wanted ta get hima watch. lucky we were notti n decided on sumtink else. besides he's not da type hu wud realli wear a watch. he's so rough n rugged. a watch mite jus disintegrate into thin air upon contact wid his skin. lol i know i'm mean.

here's goin out ta u. i jus wanna assure u tat i wud always kip u close ta my heart.

gonna b super duper bz

had exco meetin ytd. gosh~ jus realised my schedule's gonna b super tight. got sum datelines ta mit. i haven been tis bz over da yrs. other den studyin of cos. i nid help tho. ANYONE KNOW ANY PLACE SUITABLE 4 CARRYIN OUR RETREATS? AS WELL AS ANYONE KNOW ANY PLACE WHR DEY CAN USE SUM CHARITY FROM ST MICHAEL? ya dere~ i did my publicity.

wen out wid my bitches on sat. wen cartel ta eat lunch. seriously girls i tink we ate more den 2 loaves of bread considerin tat yanie ate 1 loaf on her own. lol anw it was gr8 jus sittin down tokin crap. haha jus like those days whr we can bitch abt anyone we wan. don care if we know hu da other party was. tis's wad frenz r 4 man. jus listenin ta each other. guess tat's wad we nid from each other rite? headed down ta chinatown ta k-ster whr we sang CNY songs. diao~ it was fun ok? haha we luff so hard until i tink next door can hear lor. n da poor guy tat serve us had ta put up wid our nonsense. haha but he was kinda cute la. especialy wen we ask him ta take photos 4 us. tink he got a shock of his life. he was like stonin behind da door. however their honey lemon drink was kinda swit tho. oh well~ cant expect much 4 jus 10 bucks. mind u ppl~ it was 10 bucks for 4 hrs. we shud du it again soon.

TAKE WHAT COMES

Don't expect perfection for you'll never find it here.
This is earth, not heaven.
So with clarity and cheer---TAKE WHAT COMES
The Good, The Bad
And don't start whimpering when you're disappointed with a person or a thing.
Do not worship idols and comlpain when you have found feet of clay beneath the robes in which you're wrapped them around...
Everyone is human. Do not be too critical when someone fails.
Remember that you, too, are fallible.
Keep your ideals in your heart and set your standards high.
But don't lose faith when things go wrong.
Just let the storm blow by...
Do not ask too much of life or reach beyond your range.
Accept & learn to live content with what you cannot change.

i apologise ta those i've wrongly accused. i hope though tat those hu haf wrongly accused me ta apologise too. as the sayin goes..WAD GOES AROUND COMES AROUND.if u r wonderin y everything is happenin ta u n tink tat u deserve better, mayb u shud start treatin ppl ard u wid care love n concern. its not hard at all. tink abt it.

walked back wid kris ytd after da wake. n it felt realli gr8. not cos of wad we were tokin abt but cos we had sumtink ta tok abt. its like u know we haven realli tok n all but ytd it jus felt like da old times. da lord is makin wonders. jus wen i wanted ta gif it all up he turned da tables. n mayb uncle daniel is watchin over us. makin us c wads right n wrong. i jus hope tat tis time its 4 gd. i'm not ready ta go thru it again.

OH YES gaya is comin back today! haha cant wait ta receive her call. dere's jus so much i wanna tell her. TO GAYA: if u c tis means ur home n ur reminded ta call me!!!!

GAYA'S COMIN BACK TML!!! CORRINE'S BACK ON SUN N EDRIC'S BACK ON FRI!!!

yahoo! everyone's dear ta me is comin back! cant wait la. so excited. gaya has lots ta tell me abt her life dere n all da rubbish she did. corrine promised another bitchin session n edric aka yi kor has promised me lotsa photos n of cos my little cute souvenir( piglet!). finally my life is takin a new turn. over da past few mths i was down. but now, i've decided against down n wanna b up up up!

a piece of bad news tho. julia's grandpa passed away. goin 4 da wake tonite. 4 those hu know her mite wanna go down her place?(wake's dere) haven spoke ta julia. hope she's fine. i know how it feels. i lost my grandpa too. kinda bring back memories. eveyday i had chocolate ice cream after sch but b4 lunch. mom dosen know! mayb tat's y i'm tis size today. grandpa has been feedin me alot wen i was younger.i had everything i ever wanted as a kid. he loved me da most. anybody bully me he will but tat person ice cream too n make sure we became frenz. made my life so much easier in sch n at home. sigh i miss him suddenly.

enuf le wait i start cryin. eh wad happen ta my bitchin club? time ta haf shoppin session k! call me soon.

tis wkend has been a very bz one.

uncle daniel from da wardens met da lord on 2nd jan 07. tho he'll b greatly missed by all hu knew him, we all know he will b happy in heaven watchin over us.

sat: wen novena den served funeral mass den wen down ta mandai 4 da cremation. it all happened in a day. sun: served mass n hung out wid dearie da whole day. (p.s i enjoyed it!)

i learnt alot durin da wkend. in fact ta those hu know me VERY well, i learnt how ta control my temper. believe it or not i held back even tho i had da chance ta tell u off in ur face how irritatin n annoyin u were n how much u deserve a tight slap across ur face. but i din. i prayed n ask lord to gif me da strength ta remain calm n allowed me ta maintain tat humiliation n hurt till i find a beta alternative.

over da 1st wk i realised one tink. it has nuttin ta du wid her but u all along. i made a mistake blamin her 4 everything wen it was u all along hu did not know tat wad ur doin is hurtin ta me. call me sensitive wadsoeva. jus don 4get hu was dere wen u needed it. don 4get da times i was dere 4 u. don 4get anitink i've done 4 u. i know u'll get ur jus desserts. i know tat i shud stop botherin abt u since u don put me in da eye. from now i treat it as ur tokin ta my hand cos u don deserve my attention no longer. not even a millisec. i jus don get it. u proclaim tis n du another. call others a hypocrite? luk in da mirror. da biggest hypocrite is u. i wud not seek anymore ta haf anitink ta du wid u. till da day u urself wake up n appreciate my presence. cos its very tirin ta try ta wan ta haf anitink ta du wid u n u kip ignorin me again n again no matter how hard i try. i deserve beta. mark my words. u will b rewarded wid wad u gif others. i jus hope u wud b able ta take it.