jus met up wid kelly n jiawei. arrgh!!! jiaying n yanie din come. so annoyed wid u ppl! guess it was kinda last min but still u guys r !@#$%.

so we met up 4 dinner den shopped a little. din realli tok much cos i tink everyone wasn't in da mood. rained da whole freakin day. hope da next time we mit up we'll haf more stuff ta tok abt k? sorwie gurls.

i miss my sweetie. din get ta c him at al da whoel day. after work i headed straight out den i came back late. he din come ta pick me up fron da mrt so i had ta walk back alone in da dark. so scary la. i din know potong pasir can b so scary lor. mayb cos i haven walked home alone 4 a super long time.

so xmas was over n spend like half da day at kai ma's place. food was gr8(gosh da sheperd's pie was da best!!!)but da company dere suck. lucky my bros' fren were dere ta entertain me. oh well not like i was anitink impt or wadsoeva.it ALWAYS happens. so yup ppl dere DO NOT n NEVA spare a tot 4 other ppl's feelins. kinda used ta it le so din realli gaf a shit abt it.

OMG n i miss gaya so much la! cant wait 4 her ta come back n tell her everything tat's been goin on in my life. dere's so much i wan ta tell u. everything happy n unhappy. so i heard tentative its 10 jan! yanie n jia take note k! haha *hugs*

to all out dere! MERRY XMAS!!

its been soooooooooooo long!!!

hi guys!!!!

1st of all. jus wanna thank those hu haf been dere wid me durin my darkest moments in my life. it was horrible but at least i learnt sumtink new thru each failed attempt.

2ndly, been blog browsin n everyone had been updatin their blogs. not bad! tot everyone was so bz cos i seldom(practically neva) get any invitations ta hang out or chill at sum cafe wadsoeva. seems like everyone else is enjoyin demselves n here i m stuck at work! cant blame anyone but those hu i get gifts 4 xmas la. lol.

my bday jus passed n i wanna shout out THANX ta all hu REMEMBERED. those hu i expected ta wish me din while those i did not expect wished me. damn sickenin la. i'm like da youngest among my frenz n yet those hu did not wish me apparently found sumtink else more impt ta tink abt.

long-distance fren from aussie din wish me.not even a card tis yr.
11 yrs fren cum neighbour was too bz tat she 4got.
best fren in sec sch was bz too tat she 4got until i had ta call her den she remembered?! wth.
founder of da young wardens aka my godbrother din even send a greetin like he did last yr.

sumone hu i always bitch abt send me an sms.
ben chen hu always 4get stuff manage ta rem ta send me a swit sms.
glen hu neva remember every yr unless dere's a party or gatherin rem ta sms me(or mayb gen reminded him)

n aud promised ta bake me a cake 4 my bday din kip her promise(she made one 4 chris glen n gen tho).
wanted ta go hang out wid da 5 of u guys but yet clashed wid da altar boys camp(so my bro din celebrate wid me too).

thank god my bf wasn't occupied n he hand made a pretty n swit photo album filled wid luv n memories from da day we met n all. SO spendin more time wid sumone hu appreciates me is sumtink in which i shud not put all my time in? y shud i hear ppl tellin me tat i n my bf r inseparable wen ppl like u guys don even bother ta kip ur promises n remember a simple tink like sendin me a bday sms? is is tat hard? sigh~

actually i din plan ta put tis in my entry but i tink i shud let u know how i feel.HEY KRIS tis is goin out ta u. believe me wen i said i was waitin whole day 4 ur bday greetin? i felt like shit wen da clock striked 12 midnite n my bday was over.u say i cant spend time wid u cos i haf ta dedicate my time ta my bf but gen cud cos she wasn't attached? so u bother ta spend ta plan ahead 4 wad u gonna get gen 4 her bday n wished her on da day itself? u even wanted ta spend her bday wid her even tho u know glen or mark mite wanted ta spend da day wid her? y cant i get da same treatment? i'm like so freakin jealous n pissed at da fact tat u 4got. mayb to u its no big deal n i shuden kick a fuss over it.but well its a bday n it happens onli once a yr. n i happen ta b da last ta pass da age of 19. tis is damn sickenin la. wad does gen haf tat i don? y is it u prefer spendin time wid her den me? y is it always her n neva me? i get so tired tinkin of tis all da time n tryin ta make tinks beta betw u n me but i cant seem ta make it work!! reason? cos it takes 2 hands ta clap!! i'm onli slappin myself wid 1 hand thus gettin hurt all da time. is tis fair? jus cos of a fatal mistake i made mths ago? n gen hurt u so many times n yet u still treat her so nice? y is tat? know wad tis feelin sucks. i know its harsh but i gotta let it out.its been too long le n i wan it ta stop.xmas is round da corner n i neva got da spare time ta tok ta u cos ur always ard gen. n everytime i tok ta u i don get an ans.sigh~ 4gif me.

luv all out dere.

jus came back form my gp paper.prelims btw.

da passage was abt WAR.i was like ????? wad du i know abt war la? like i'm sum male hu knows tat war can b splitted into 2 kinds? sumtink abt descriptive realism n prescriptive realism. don ask me how its related ta war.den came AQ.ask me ta relate ta current world.all i know abt war is 911.crap i know most likely i'm gonna flunk tis piece of junk.pouts.

know wad? tis random tots tat i'm havin is goin ta kill me soon.i'm like havin my prelims in 10 days n yet my mind still wonders like nuttin la.jialat n know wad i was tinkin jus awhile ago? i tot of lyin down on a patch of green grass in da heavy rain!!! den came da car n splash mud on me. den i started luffin ta myself.*dots*

oh well i did tink of another person today. chris tham. he's da guy i 1st like b4 dearie. i was like aahhhhhhaaahhhhh wen he told me we shud b frenz. but TAT was a long time ago.he attached ta aud (in case no one knows) a pretty lady whom apparently is my another gd fren! watchin da 2 of dem togeda at times.so cute la.tee hee den i imagine dem married n wid kids n chris's babies were like his height la.lol i know i'm mean.but dey gonna haf smart babies.yup no worries ta ppl out dere like dearie and aud. i'm over him.

ben chen comes next. he's my ex btw.we've had gr8 times n da best tink is, we broke it off nicely. surprisin har? well 4 those hu realli realli know me,u know i'll make it a living hell if i broke up wid sumone.so yup we ended it quite well n i cant rem da reason y we broke up.but oh wells i'm not goin into tat.it wud take all nite.i onli know those times were complicated.i had ta du everytink on my own.all da tinkin i did n da outins i planned so tat both our parents din know we were togeda.haha so cute la.so excitin.i guess bein in a r/s w/o ur parents knowin den got thrill.den awhile after we broke up he told me he still likes aud THEN not now i tink.i was like wa~ u damn gd la.neva worwie if i got over him not den he tells me tis kinda stuff.haha but i supported him la altho i knew chris still liked her.haha i know i'm a bitch.but its over n i washed my hands off da whole matter cos dere was a period of time i stopped hangin out wid dem n so i lost contact wid all tis r/s stuff in church.i don even know hu like hu now unless i heard it from my bro.

glen! haha he's da next s'pore idol.haha i'm gonna compete wid him in da next round.cos i planned ta join too! so watch out 4 me.mus support me k? especially all my bitch n slut frens hor! lol glen was gen's ex.n dey had gr8 times like any other couple but din end off tat well.now i tink dey r togeda but tat's how i feel onli la.everytime gen wid a guy i always assume dey r togeda so no surprise ta me. i had gr8 times wid glen too.we ate, hung out everytink wen da 6 of us go out togeda.den i slowly drifted n he drifted too.so we hardly speak like 10 sentences each time we mit.n we always tok abt da same tinks again n again. so borin lor.sorwie la glen but tat's how i feel.

i gtg le.another time den blog ba.still missin out a few ppl.

back ta my many random tots.

jus finished lukin thru blogs. next person in mind? HOO SU LI TRACY

wtf la.tinkin abt her makes me pissed.she created so much probs 4 kelly jiawei n myself. i still haf those notes tat she used ta write ta me.we rem her as molecule.lol was so farnie wid da rest of da girls luffin away abt it.yup we were mean but tat's karma ta her.of cos dere's karma ta us as well.which brings me ta KELLY

she's my other bestest bitch besides yanie n gaya. in fact i feel closer ta her den jiawei n jiaying.y? i dunno, mayb its cos she bothers ta kip in contact wid me.bothers ta make me feel happy.bothers ta listens ta my probs n try ta understand tinks from MY perspective instead of opposin me wen i needed her da most.bothers ta pull me away from my books ta go shoppin n chill outside for fear i mite bcum a big time nerd.lol she's da star.attached ta tis gr8 guy named glen.da 2 of dem so cute la.always eatin n eatin n eatin like dere's no tml.n he's full of surprises.practically envious.

JIAWEI has been nice ta me.we've had our differences tho.haha she's a full time bitch! workin her guts out everyday ta afford all da branded stuff.sumtimes makes me feel she wanna b a millionaire b4 she turns 21 or sumtink.attached wid tis guy named yongkang.not sure wad kinda person he is.but i know jiawei loves him like crazy.

JIAYING is part of da infamous strike 4.haha its tis grp name tat yanie gaya jiaying n i tot of.yu[ we made up da strike 4.dunno how oso but she's cool.she was da one hu sat thru wid me thru all my maths lessons.tot me everything she knew.consult me in almost everything non-acadamic.she nearly spat blood teachin me maths.thank god she NEVA gaf up on me.she was like my life buoy b4 my o's.i din disappoint her.got an A2 4 maths n i passed my forever-failin sub wid a neat c5 for a maths! i know she's proud of me.currently available i tink.haven heard tat she's interested in anyone yet.but i know many out dere r interested in her tho.

speakin of strike 4.dere was tis blog issue betw gen n kris n me.

GEN.she's hot,pretty,wid lots of guys goin after her.gr8 bod n all.she's got her assets at da rite place.she's everything a girl wud wanna b.BUT she's changed.since da day i knew her.she's no longer hu she used ta b.da bubbly n innocent girl.da one hu listens da most ta her mom.da one hu always was dere 4 me durin my hardest times(chris crisis),is no longer dere.she's a woman now.a lady of attitudes.her time is separated betw so MANY ppl.i hardly am able ta catch her anymore.i miss da times wen we cud hang out n tok abt anitink but not now.i miss da times wen we had ta cover up 4 each other but not now.i miss da times we spend at yassin tokin n luffin till late but not now.i miss her then not now.

maple time

ppl in my life

yeah! its da hols.i cant control my excitement once tinkin of wad i'm goin ta du tis national hol.haha had several random tots tis days.n its gettin more serious.i can tink of anitink at anywhr out of da blue.no link ta wadeva i'm doin n all.n quite scary my frenz were tellin me.suddenly i jus ask qn tats not related ta wadeva we were doin.

well~sum of it consisted of da ppl ard me.startin wid sweetie.i tots of da times wen we jus knew each other n tried imaginatin wad wud happen if we din end up togeda.hmm abit far i know.but its worth tinkin.i tot of if he ended up wid sumone i knew n i wasted an opportunity of a lifetime? wondered if i mite take him as a substitute 4 chris(a gr8 guy i used ta like alot alot alot).wondered if he wud eva like 'her'.so many tinks.wad we wud name our kids.ok enuf.

den came edricn terence n marcus.dey were da ones hu in a way helped me n sweetie get togeda.we used ta tok n hang out so much.i rem those days wen i always received invitations ta go out n all.n we tok abt everything.late nites at terence's place.supper at numerous venues wid weird ppl.plus all da teasin dey did abt sweetie.tellin me so many interestin occasions dey had b4 i started hangin out wid dem.those were da days.

corrine.next in my head.she's a cute babe.i like tokin ta her.she makes me feel me.we had late nites wid da guys n tok abt almost everything.played pool.da times we bitch n all.tho we don hang out other den wid da guys.i luk 4ward ta seein her always.wondered if i knew her b4 da guys did.wad happened if we were da best of frenz?will we enjoy each other's company? wondered if we wen on a double date wid sweetie n 'him' wad wud b da outcome? wondered if 'he' n her will end up togeda? it'll b gr8 tho.

my one n onli bro was next.ow everyday we luk 4ward 2 each other's return ta play MAPLE.lol i know its spas but i like tis feelin.we used ta quarrel so much i tink at a pt in time both of us wanted ta kill each other n wish da other party was neva home.now? we're inseparable.i jus hope he dosen bcum gay.i don realli like sisters.prefer bros.don nid ta share my accessories wid her.

yanie n gaya.da 2 full-time bitches i knew wen i was promoted ta another class in sec2.wondered wad if gaya was in da same sch as us? wondered if she prefered stickin ta her feminist behaviour? wondered if vinod wud end up wid her ultimately? those were da times playin badmiton at da rubbish chute n tokin ta alex while admirin his pubic hair.haha yup i miss gaya now tat she's down under.yanie has been my soul-mate w/o gaya.my maple partner now.my everything ever since kailing stopped hangin out wid me.i luv her lots.

kailing.my orientation grp fren.da 1st fren i knew wen i stepped in millennia institute.a pity she hangs out wid lay kuen now.no idea y she stopped hangin out wid me.hope she tells me oneday.wonder if she wud sit next ta me again? till today i still dunno da reason.

speakin of frenship.kristine comes into my mind.she fell out wid gen again.but dey seem ta b on tokin terms.my opinion? i hope she trusts me soon enuf.dere's so much i wanna catch up wid her.neva got da chance wid gen ard.dey kinda sticky.i lost our frenship 4 abt 2 yrs i tink.now GOD has given me a chance ta make it up ta her.all i can say.its a miracle she speaks ta me now.

ok enuf 4 today. cont tml.maple time.

men r da greatest??? excuse me..

let's start da entry wid tis poster tat my gp cher showed us today.

Y MEN R JUS HAPPIER PPLE

your last name stays put
you can never be pregnant
you can wear a white t-shirt to a water park
the world is your urinal
same work, more pay
people never stare at your chest when you're talking to them
the occasional well-rendered belch is practically expected
one mood all the time
phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat
a 5-day holiday requires only one suitcase
if someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend
you almost never have strap problems in public
the same hairstyle lasts for years,maybe decades
you only have to shave your face and neck
you can play with toys all your life
your belly usually hides your big hips
one wallet and one pair of shoes one colour for all seasons
you can wear shorts no matter how your legs look
you can "do" your nails with a pocket knife
you have freedom of choice concerning growing a moustache
you can do christmas shopping for 25 relatives on december 24 in 25 minutes
NO WONDER MEN R HAPPIER

wen i read tis in class i was luffin quite hard.today's lesson was one of those debates betw men n women. n apparently my class has very interestin ans.ask me another time n i'll share wid u. cos its alot. lol anw jus 4 sum fun.

home alone.no sch cos of pollin day.ya it was like damn long ago but we onli get our hol now rite? its sucky i know.i spend da whole of last nite tinkin abt us.all da times we luff togeda n of cos da times u made me cry.i don understand myself,i hate it wen u make me cry.yet i still du so much 4 u.make myself concern abt ur 3 meals a day,make myself worry abt ur lifestyle n all.not comparin or wad.but no one has made me tear as much as u du.y du u like ta make me tear so much anw? fun mehz?

crapz.i feel like shit.feelin lazy wen i'm suppose ta du my work.feel like goin out but dowan ta dress up.everyone's playin maple.i know if i play now it'll b nite time.sumone asked me out but i'm not obliged ta go cos i'm afraid u'll get pissed.wth la.

wen 4 a run ytd nite cos i was feelin sucky over my results.don ask me wad dey r cos i myself wanna run away from it.how i wish i can run 4eva.far away from my world.i hate tis shit.

told u abt it n u did console me.but how did it end up? u sent me home after da jog.asked if u were goin ta come back after u shower.u said don tink so cos ur tired.i understood n asked u ta return home early so u can shower n rest 4 work tml.i was already feelin so sucky da entire day n was hopin u wud b dere 4 me.but seein u tired n all,i cuden bear ta ask u ta accompany me longer.

u smsed me after ur dinner i guess, told me u were goin out ta mit a fren.i was like wtf? u told me u were tired, i was like ok den nvm. n u sms later n tell me u were mitin a fren? i was feelin so out of sorts ytd n all u cud tell me is ur tired n ur mitin a fren? said it was awhile.den y cant u spend tat equal while wid me? i'm not unreasonable.not tat i din like u mitin ur fren.but ytd i was feelin like shit.surely i came 1st? made me wonder whr i stand in ur heart.i felt like shit ytd.cried myself ta slp.

wad a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had a gr8 time ytd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha wen 4 mass in da morn. helped in recruitment drive 4 da young wardens for awhile. headed down ta GEN hse ta play maple while waitin 4 AUD. den realised tat da guys cancelled soccer for WADEVA reason. so had lunch at park mall wid GEN n AUD. brot dem ta eat sumtink dey haven tried. was glad dey enjoyed it tho, i mean i enjoyed it wen i first tried it. shopped at dhoby exchange n boit myself a hairband n a wallet. pooled at selegie wid BEN DES DEX GERARD GLEN GEN n AUD. been sumtime since i pooled. bcomin more sucky. cant even get da ball in altho it was a straight hit. tink sumtink wrong wid da way i stand or hold da q-stick. split n bus down ta far east wid AUD. bot myself a pair of heels n a bag! met dearie 4 dinner at maestro bistro of cine. had swedish meatballs(cant compete wid ikea's tho) nachos(my sweetie's fav) sum beef crepe champange cake wid triple choc ice cream(bot one 4 edric tho,don ask me y. sweetie said he mite like it.)n soda! tat soda gaf not onli us but da manager alot of probs. apparently dey over-charged us. so dey void da transaction n issued us a new bill. poor sweetie was so worried he was charged twice. he reached home n checked his account balance immediately. wen heeren cos i wanted ta get a belt but tot beta of it cos i blew like 70 bucks 4 da day. home we left 4. my fav item 4 da day: da wallet n da bag n da shoe n da hairband. lol fun was all tat filled my sunday.

sick again

hi world..

i'm down wid gastric again n i'm feelin terrible..not those normal kind of gastric..those tat kip churnin in ur stomach n u start ta haf difficulty in breathin..arrgh all thanx ta maple(my latest addiction) i'm down wid tis stupid sickness..

oh wells~ gd news is i finally got my laptop! haha poppi(aka dad) bot me tis pretty n classic laptop on youth day! now i can carry on doin my stuff in my room w/o anyone knowin..

ytd wen haigen diaz wid sweetie but it din turn out too well..not tat we fot or wad..but cos of my stupid gastric tat we had ta rush back rite after ice cream..tink sweetie din realli enjoy..sorwie!!!!

it all started wen my bro got me addicted ta maple..ytd i played da whole noon 4gettin my lunch..tat's how my severe case of gastric came back..last time it happened was like yrs back la..so now i'm so worried if my gastric will affect my exams tml..cos if it happens durin my paper i tink i'll die from pain..yup its tat serious..sweetie had ta carry me back from da bus stop ytd on our way back from bishan..i threw up twice..tink ppl tot i was drunk..

last few wks i was bz bettin on soccer as well as maplin la..n i know i'll continue maplin once i finish my exams..i'm like so addicted n so screwed..

freakin screwed..its like 4 days till sch re-opens n i haf not completed wad i wanted ta complete durin da june hols..tat's my bad habit..always puttin it till da next day :P

supposed ta go out wid kelly-bitch ytd but nobody confirmed anitink n sweetie took da day off 4 me!..so wen out n cot silent hill..quite mis-leadin at times but its worth tat money..freakin 2 hr movie n i was holdin sweetie's hand like thru-out..gory scenes a no-no 4 me wen it comes ta da nite..watched at THE CATHY..seats r so damn comfortable n spacious n service charge ta book online is only 50 cents! haha i'm gonna catch all my movies dere..da bad tink abt it, dere's practically no reception in da cinema..mayb dey did it on purpose so tat ppl cant use their fone durin da show..speakin of which, i din hear any fone ring durin da movie so mayb..

came back ta watch soccer on da preview channel, da moment we switched it on, we lost our bets..crap i know n sweetie din appear very happy cos he crush da ticket in front of me..in fact he luk damn bothered as tho he wanted ta place another bet while i advised him otherwise at SP. fine. it was my fault..mayb if i din stop him we wud haf won..but i did it wid a gd intention..debated a little abt da game n it din turn out as a friendly debate..i was upset by his tone n left da livin room ta study..

tis few days he kips raisin his voice at me n i don tink i deserve it..i tot onli females wud undergo PMS..i din know guys wud too..due at his place 4 dinner tonite..i seriously hope i don make my way home alone in da dark..it happened b4 a few times after dinner at his place..n i don realli like da feelin of walkin home from his place in da nite..

life as it is..

hi world!!!

wen out bf wid my sweetie early in da morn..n as usual he's late..i don understand y he always is late wen it comes to bf dates..sumtimes i'm so sick of him bein late..arrgh! oh wells~bot mom n bro bf..prawn noodle n prata respectively..n i'm so amazed by how da prata uncle made prata..not tat i neva say how prata is made..but he is exceptionally gd!! my order was 2 egg..he spread open da dough, broke da egg in it, used his index finger ta dab da egg like 3 times(yolk was bouncin ard) n voila! wad realli amazed me is how he spreaded da dough like high up in da air..like dere's a invisible board above him holdin da prata in place..howeva, its damn oily..don tink i'll eva learn how ta make prata..

over da past few days, mom was makin so much noise at me abt EVERYTINK tat i feel like goin outside ta study! anyone wanna jio me out ta study?!

mom:u always buy clothes. but i neva c u wear dem.

me:muz c occation wad..i wkend stay home study..go out oso go nearby onli..wear so nice 4 wad?

mom:den buy clothes 4 wad? u buy den kip stackin up n neva wear..muz take out some of ur clothes n donate to salvation army or throw dem away la..

me: i buy clothes u make noise..don buy u say y always wear da same clothes, no clothes ar? wash until sian..say not worth washin n ironin da same tink over n over..den wad u wan?

mom:aiya i say u wun listen wan..make myself da bad person onli..ur father is da one hu teach me..buy new stuff den muz clear da old ones if not don buy..i ask him ta tell u beta..

me: i'll tell him da same tink..or mayb ask him ta get me a new closet..

arrgh~ i'm like #$%^&*.. always use my dad against me..my bro bot clothes da other day n she din make a single sound la..damn bias! i don like it wen she always picks on me! sumtimes she can b very nice..but wen she's mean she's damn mean la..i neva du anitink ta offend her lehz..here i m sittin in my room doin my own work n revision n my bro is like high on maple da whole day but she choses ta pick on me instead?! whr's da logic here? cant she jus always b nice?

WHEW~ dere! i've said my piece..feel so much beta..tml i'm goin out wid kelly bitch..mitin jiaying later in da nite..cant wait! will b takin alot of pics..haha i told dad i'm goin shoppin tml..he's like "shoppin again?! y always go shoppin?!" next tink, he will ask me "got $$ ma?" haha he loves me..i know tat..

seniors..

sum photos i taken durin farwell party 4 da pre-u 3 seniors..

tis is atiq..she plays C realli well as compared to WA..she's quite an accurate shooter too..

tis is jaja..she plays GA or GS..i wud prefer her to play GA tho..

theresa..plays C, WD, GK..however i feel she's onli gd at WD..no offense hor char bor..

kumari..plays GS..pretty gd at it wen she's focused..beta at far shots i wud tink..

one out of 2 of my bestest bitch fren!! presentin ~Suan Zhi~ she plays every position..one of da few all-rounders in da team i know..

team captain:ika..she plays GD..she's gd at it..reaction very fast..alert always..not like sum of us always dreamin..

joanne..aka tyra banks by one of my classmates..got a hot body n an attitude too..she plays WA..not bad but very prone to injuries..makes da team worried 4 her as her injuries are not those tat r light..she already has dislocated her shoulder, haf loose ankles(more loose den any of us) and a loose wrist..BUT she has very gd team spirit..she never fails to try out any position..

rabii..plays WA..strong passes..works very well wid atiq..

tis ppl r those hu joined me in steppin down from da team but will help da team out wen we r requested to help..jus a word of caution to others..WE R NOT BUSYBODIES..WE JUS WANNA HELP..

u suck!

hey bastard..ya i'm tokin abt u..ur da big ass bastard from my class..hidin behind a mask n another one tat does not tell da person wad ur unhappy abt..like i mentioned earlier in my previous entry..put it nicely ur considerate of others' feelins, say it da ugly way, u jus simply got no guts!!! arrgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant stand tis type of attitude..jus makes u feel so farkin gay! its like u practically is so childish..n 4 gdness sake..ur da one hu goes round tellin ppl u treasure frenship n all..wtf la..one time experience dosen say it all..ur jus as narrow-minded as tho hu u dislike..n 4 gdness sake ur older den me! shuden u haf sum level of maturity? for cryin out loud! u can bitch abt it on ur blog..so can i..

farkin piece of shit..

such an asshole..

wad does it feel like ta totally gif up hope on life?? as tho dere's nuttin left ta hold on? how does it feel to b totally ostracised by all ur frenz n those hu once cared abt u? how does it feel to lose sumone close w/o knowin da reason?

i've done a little readin on ppl's blog..n i realised tat dere r ppl in da world feelin like wad i've mentioned earlier..yet those hu caused dem ta feel in such a way is not dere ta help put tinks rite..is it always da case? i mean y du ppl wan ta make others' life a living hell wen it isn't beneficial ta da majority?

in sch: my class has so many politics tat i myself feel its affectin certain individuals in their studies. seems like tis ppl creatin probs r not sparin a tot 4 others' feelins..everyone is tokin behind everyone's back..ta put it in a nice way its not ta hurt da persons' feelins by criticising tat person in da face but ta put it in a blunt way its cos dey lack guts..or mayb cos it isn't necessary ta say it out loud..but by doin so, tat person will neva know wad wen wrong..n he may make da same mistake again ta others n its ur fault..cos u dowan ta share da prob tat u guys once shared..so tat makes u selfish..~sigh i'm goin off-track..but u guys shud know roughly my point..

in church: sum feel tat its wrong..sum feel its perfectly alrite..but based on wad i've heard n see..i've 2 points of view..one, its wrong bcos its not morally rite..i mean no one will like it wen ur best fren likes da guy u like..altho love cannot b made ta order, its jus wrong ta intercept halfway..it may not be entirely ur fault but it takes 2 hands ta clap..i'm not bein on sides but i'm jus statin my point from a girls' perspective..two, dere's always another choice..mayb not in church..n i feel u shud open urself up..cos its not over yet..haf more faith in urself..if GOD take u ta it..he will take u thru it..no worwies k? jus rem in ur heart, everything happens 4 a reason..

at home: bro failed subjects n mom's pissed..n mom said alot of stuff not pleasant ta da ears..n bro's tinkin of commitin suicide..sigh~ i rem myself wen i was 15..dere were so many tinks not goin my way..i've been thru it cos i was spritually strong..but bro dosen seem ta c da lite..i wanna help him but i cant make him b me..i wan him ta b determined in achievin da results he wan..i wan him ta b prepared ta make sacrifices in da name of education..but it isn't ez..it neva was ez..n i dunno how ta go abt helpin him..i know he cries wen no one is ard..i know dere's so many times he finds it a drag ta come home n face da 4 walls..tat's y he has chosen denial ta block himself from all da unhappy stuff..dota, maple, wastin his time in front of da tv, hangin out till late refusin ta come home early, makes himself so tired till da extend tat he can fall aslp wen he reaches home..but wad is da outcome? i'm so worried 4 him..i'm worried one day i come home from sch but don c him..i'm scared abt his spritual development..wad happens if he's character gets from bad ta worst?? my goal is ta b a psychologist..a counsellor..but i cant help my own bro..

i've learned ta take tinks ez..especially in my class n in church..cos i dowan ta let small puny individuals affect my life..if dey do not contribute anitink useful in my life..dey r not worth my time n effort bein upset n all..so i hope all those in class hu feel da same as me shud heed my advice..let everything b a test 4 frenship..

to dearie: i luv u da most..so don worwie abt wad ppl say k? don care abt how dey compare u..as long as i don compare u can le rite? i gif u my word tat i'll not compare u wid him in future..

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON..U JUS NID TA FIND OUT WAD DA REASON IS

HAPPIE

wen out wid dearie today..i'm soooooooooooooooooooooooo happy man!!! haha he bot me a purple(my current fav colour) top n 3 pair of small but cute earrings!! he bot me lunch too..we had Carl's Jr..not bad a lunch i wud say..hmm its not always true tat wen a guy treats u nice he's done sumtink wrong..lol

finally got ta use my own com..motherboard spoil den had ta send 4 repair..lucky dearie fixed it up 4 me..or else i've ta kip usin his com ta post my entries..now he's at kor's hse havin sum sorta BBQ..i din go cos i TOT it was an all guys party..even yi kor was smilin cheekily wen i said it..but oh wells~ i'm waitin 4 my gdnite kiss..

i luv u loads loads loads dearie! thanx 4 everything today..i'm realli happy..

wad a day..

lalala..

wen 4 family dinner last evenin..had a gr8 meal n played a couple of gd games too..haha long time since i last touch bowlin..it was an amazin fite betw my cousins n myself..lol my bro ended up as da best bowler..mom says dad's proud of us..hee(",)

to dearest clare: sorwie i wasted da whole noon..supposed to study togeda but ended up slpin..4gif me k? will try ta make it up ta u another time..it wasn't intentional..

to wifey: hey don worwie so much abt dotter..i'm sure tinks will turn out fine..jus b urself ya? don wanna c u bcum more n more unlike chris..lol i dunno wad i'm tokin abt but i realli hope u wud work tinks out soon..don make da same mistake as u did b4..treasure wad u haf!

to dex: u made tat decision, don expect anitink gd to come out from it..it was a selfish act n i wud like to warn u again abt makin it up wid me..i jus wanna drop da whole tink k? besides everything i'm doin is to prevent any more misunderstandins..jus like wad u CHOSE to du in da 1st place..

to my sch's principal: hey tis is my blog..wad r u doin in here?

last but not least..

to my bestest dearie in da whole wide world: i luv u lots..pls don let wad happened over da past few days affect everything we haf k? mayb its jus me..mayb its eveything but not u ya? hope ta c u soon..missin u lots already..

THIS was wad i picked up in my email..how TRUE is it? btw..i'm a december baby..

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible...
better than all of these other months!
Loyal and generous.
Patriotic.
Competitive in everything.
Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty.
Ambitious.
Influential in organizations.
Fun to be with.
Easy to talk to,though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,yet complicated to know.
Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken.
Having lots of ideas.
Sensitive.
Active mind.
Hesitating, tends to delay.
Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental.
Funny and humorous.
Loves to joke.
Good debating skills.
Has that someone always on his/her mind.
Talkative.
Daydreamer.
Friendly.
Knows how to make friends.
Abiding.
Able to show character.
one guy/girl kind of person.
Loveable.
Easily hurt.
Prone to getting colds.
loves music. pretty/handsome.
Loves to dress up.
Easily bored.
Fussy.
Seldom shows emotions.
Takes time to recover when hurt.Sensitive.

pool

played poool ytd n it was hilarious!! my godbros were makin mi luff so hard tat i lost focus on da game..played on sun n played again ytd cos i wanted ta get back wad i lost..on sun wen i played i lost like 6 out of 8 rounds la..so xia sway..next time i muz win all sia..i lost ta ben even..so i wen ta play ytd n i did fairly well(i know u guys gaf in ta me but let me show off my little achievement)..today i'm suppose to play too..but i've heavy workload..hence ta make up 4 lost time..i'm goin joggin tonite..

yes..i know it sounds like impossible, but afterall i'm a netball player so means i muz build my stamina rite? n i chose da rite person ta run wid..nope not my bf cos he hasn't ran in a long time..its edric..haha sounds like i'm in 4 trouble rite? but he says he made a commitment ta run tonite so i can go oso ma..afterall today i don haf trainin cos da yr one's hafta attend a talk..i'm lukin 4ward ta my run..hope it doesn't rain..

speakin abt rain..its been rainin 4 da past 3 noons n wen it happens it bcums so depressin n cold..so not like an april noon..n know wad? da stupidest tink is tat it dosen rain wen its p.e. ..crap rite? n mdn sin always likes ta pick on ppl 4 no stupid reason..

u r so SELFISH

know wad? ur so self centered..i dunno how i'm gonna spend da rest of my life wid u..its like such a small tink..mayb its abt time u actually did a little reflection..tis is not all abt u changin ur english name..i din know i'm sucha person in ur eye..dere's more to it la gong gong..besides i'll neva n i repeat myself..neva eva wan u ta change ur name..i even wan ta name my son after u..isnt tat obvious enuf? it was a question in disguise n u totally misinterpreted it..but it made me clear abt certain directions in our r/s..

n it seems u forgotten sumtink impt ta us..u haven touched it in da long run n its rottin in my care..sumtimes i realli wonder if u haf seriously tot abt us instead of jumpin into tis r/s..i hope u will c da lite soon cos everything we eva had is goin down da drain..it takes 2 hands ta clap u know..

frenz..

bored.

luk thru friendster pics..
realised tat all my frenz haf changed..
some for the best, some for the worst..
sum aren't even considered my frenz anymore..
but i realised one tink..
everyone has their own path in life..
its not like bein controlled by our parents anymore..
pics of boyfriends n girlfriends..
clubbin..
bakin in da sun wearin bikinis..
chillin out on occasions like new year n x'mas..
tis r so exterior..
wad abt wads inside dem?
du dey realli feel gd?
du dey realli haf wad dey wan?
sum still single..
waitin 4 their special sumone..
sum already haf hu dey initially wanted, but r driftin away from their so once beloved one..
dey start searchin for sumtink more interestin..
hurtin da one dey so loved once..
for wad?
fame?
popularity?
wealth?
attention?
looks?
rich girlfriend or boyfriend?
in wantin to obtain all these dey forget hu dey rose from in their darkest moment?

jus sum advice to all my frenz out dere..treasure those ard u for wen u lose dem..u'll live ta regret..not once but forever in ur lifetime..mayb next..luk at tinks from many perspective..sort out ur differences..make everyone ard u feel impt in ur life..smile always..u neva know how much it means to sumone hu always cares..gif dem a call or sms ta show dey r remembered..anitink goes..all it takes is a LITTLE effort ta mend a broken heart..

memories from bintan trip..

tis r sum pics i took from da bintan trip..

my other pretty frenz..

kailing n myself

kanna me n moses

lay kuen da mahjong bitch! haha..

akira wong..class chairman..

my life saviour..long story..

continue from last post

well..as i was sayin..HE's such an arse rite? he broke down on da ferry back n da whole world knows abt it..den now everyone tinks its our fault 4 causin tat to happen..HE said we din gif him space ta tok..which i ABSOLUTELY tink its not true..everytime he wanna haf it his way instead of ours wen he asked 4 our opinion..DEN WADS DA POINT OF ASKIN? such an idiot lor..so y say we don gif u space ta tok? its U hu DON gif US space to tok..bastard sia i hate WIMPS like u..at 1st i jus disliked u..den u started ta disgust me..slowly i lost respect 4 u..NOW i simply despise u..

after returnin ta sch on mon he acted as tho nuttin happened..cant stand such shit from him..lukin like an angel at all times..totally spoil da image..now he daren't step on anybody's tail..n most of my other so-called classmates become very hypocritical..suddenly all wearin halos on their head..

get tis straight 04S3..u guys(u know hu u r) simply cant stand da way he is so stop actin as tho u owe him ur life jus cos he shed sum crocodile tears..its so clear tat u guys r jus suckin up ta him ta get a gd testimonial..ur actions disgust me..

back from bintan

long time no blog..mayb ppl haf even stopped comin ta my blog..well well jus came back from bintan ytd..took lots of photos..tink every camera tat my classmates brot has at least a photo of me..will put it up wen i upload it..

so many things happened at da bintan trip..n to tink i was lukin forward ta it..n someone had ta spoil it all..makes me quite upset abt tis whole trip..n it seems like its my class's fault..so sickenin..i wonder if i've gone overboard in discriminatin against GOD'S creation..i don wish to either..but sumtimes he just drives me up against da wall..

we all wen dere wid a positive attitude cos we all wanna haf fun n learn at da same time..we were well aware of da trip's objective..but HE had ta spoil it all by comin down tight on us..we cant express our views freely n he always had ta intefere in wad we did..1st day was fine cos we din realli had ta speak ta HIM..2nd day was da worst..a classmate of mine wasn't feelin well n he wen back ta his bunk durin a talk..HE had ta blow da matter up..it was a long story..i'm not realli sure of da details myself but i know he was unreasonable..in da end he was shoot in da face by my classmates 4 not gettin da details rite..even our level coordinator apologise ta my classmate but HE did not..such an asshole..

dere were other ppl hu din attend da talk cos of unvalid reasons but dere were not in trouble..isnt it quite obvious tat HE's bias against my classmate? HE jus wanna find da opportunity ta busted my classmate..i've neva seen a more disgustin act in my whole life..durin lunch time..HE actually told us tat we don deserve a seat cos we were late..i don tink so u know..cos we came in togeda wid another class at da same time n we don get a seat..sucker sia tis type of ppl..

3rd day on our way back HE actually broke down..now everyone tinks we're at fault..so damn sian..HE says we don gif him space ta talk..but he dosen du da same..in fact i feel tat he's overall unreasonable..

i'll continue another time..

sch has re-opened so far..feel kinda gr8 cos i'm kipin my momentum of studyin..aniwae tis yr's resolution is ta control my temper more as well as make myself luk more beautiful by prom!!! haha cant wait..but oh wells i'm gettin tired of being fat..time ta change!!

class is left wid onli17 s3 students wen we had 29 in yr1!!! my best fren yanie is longer i da same class as me n i feel weird..onli kailing left..lucky she made it too or else i'm stranded..

ciao!!!