What is technology when you don't have the sincerity to communicate?

By my title, u can tell. Concurrently, I'm still stuck on this little red dot while my bf is enjoying his life at Korea. And because he is busy enjoying his life there, I know he forgets his promise of communicating with me. Really, what's the point of technology when you have the technology but can't be bother to communicate? Should I do this to u too? When I'm so tired and wants to sleep but I can't cause I got to wait for u to communicate with me. Already forced myself awake twice already. I know by now, you should be in the hostel already, cause it's 1.50 or close to 2am there already. But apparently I'm not impt. That's y u don't even bother to talk to me. I'm just that upset with u. Apparently, the longer u r in a r/s, the less u want to talk. Fine. So be it. Don't blame me when I run away with another guy because he's giving me his attentions while u don't want to cause u're just too busy for me. The more I look, the more it seems we won't last long anymore. Who was there when I needed the attention? Not u anymore. Now I really don't feel lyk picking u up from the airport anymore. U can find ur way home urself. Who to say u won't have ur family member to pick u up. Haix. I should just go n sleep n not wait for ur msgs anymore.

what i wanted to do, but yet not given the chance to do it.

movies that i want to watch: man of steel, white house down and a few more. but what happened? end up i couldn't watch unless i decide to watch it by myself. how depressing right? all thanks to my so-called bf who ends up watching with his pals who are more important than his gf. oh well, i'm leading an even more depressing life than before.

That's my obsession

so i'm back to rant once more. i really hope to blame it on the aftermath of the medication, but i know it's me. so the feeling is back once more, if not i won't be taking it over here. will i? what feelings am i talking about? the distance feeling. yes, the curse seems to be in effect, but u don't care. in fact, you didn't even care about my feelings, my thoughts, my worries. you just brush it off as me over-thinking, really, how is all this over-thinking? what happened to being honest in all relationship? apparently, this policy doesn't work at all. seriously, i gave you your space, u end up not even bothering about me. fine, i was over that phase, i can be independent. i can just stay at home and rot all day, it's okay, i'm used to it already. yet, even i told u about all my worries, u hack it aside. told you i don't like you to be near her, yet you continue. when she was with her bf, yes, i had my doubts, but not that bad. but when i starts to learn her bf don't even hang out with you guys, i told u to stay away. did you? no, you didn't. why? "she's my best friend from pri sch, when in trouble, of course will help." sure. i can only tolerate until certain amount. but from that night, it was already way over. but did you even listen?
nowadays with the "curse" in place, all one by one end up breaking up, you are not worry about yourself being the next even when people curse you. and because she now has free time, apparently, you guys just spend so much time together. what happened to your gf? doesn't she have free time? isn't she flying off for a long period of time? you don't seems to care about her. your immediate concern is all about how busy your days are filled and packed with. you don't even bother to spending time with your gf. when ystd, sending me home that time, your friends called you to go supper, you seems to be in more rush to go find them than to chat with me even with your pretense in face. seriously, what did you expect me to do?
just ask any girl, most of them will tell you they can't stand their bf having a close bff that is a girl. which girl like to share her time with another girl? most will say none, they can't stand it. already many told me i was very lenient to be able to tolerate so long, but i'm sorry, i can't tolerate no more. i don't wish to come down to this - but it's either she goes or i go.