Don't Cha...

i'm sick and i did not attend skool de whole day... zZz...
i'm still sick... i'm down wif some of swine flu symptoms...
okay, so wad??? e doctor jux tink it's normal flu since i'm seldom sick... so, he declare not swine...
at most if it is (TOUCH WOOD), then oops, he might get it... lol...
anyway, finally done wif law project... did it while "fightin" my rather high fever and not takin medication...
so i'm done wif it, and send it to my grpmates... which i'm glad they are my grpmates even thou i "left" them a bad time...
Tank yj & gf... sry, couldnt help u guys 2day...
so anyway, made a last min meetin wif my friend... woke up but couldnt quite get a hold of myself... cause i'm still freakin tired...
anyway, was later than my appointed time... interviewed him and asked him for a major favor... tankx, owe u one...
stayed there for quite sometime... very long nv meet liao... damn, if i didnt miss him...
went off around 11.38am plus... cause got someone need to set up booth and hao lian yi sia... lol... oh, and check his teeth... hahax...
came back, slept... and all e while past my lunch time... but woke up to eat still...
and back to sleep... zZz... woke up, ate dinner, got nagged e whole day, got nagged at dinner table once more, and off to see doctor... :(
and now i have 4 medication jux to take... f... :(
but at least i completed 1 interview, 6 surveys... haix... still got plenty more to go... and got to dress formal jux to present... great... :(
projects... haix... exams... GRRRR!!!
oh, and since i skipped skool 2day, i might get debarment letter for rmt tutorial... but i heard tat they removed e debarment system... yippeee!!! i can skipped skool more often... hahax... as if... guai kia one, seldom skipped skool unless it is called for...
kay... gotta do another post sumwhere b4 i turn in for e nitex...
rest well, guys... :) cant go for monopoly help-out 2molo cause i'm sick... :(

Heal the world (or rather heal me...)

while plannin e route to walk to e beautiful meadow,
i have to pass by tis forest...
lookin at e map,
i saw a hole or rather a burnt hole of e map...
i asked my "sister" since she walked tis route b4...
she told me tat there is a hole very deep around tat area,
askin me to watched out for it, and avoid tat road...
so i noted and tank her for her advancement warning...
but i didnt noe wad kind of trouble i was actually fallin into...

on tat day itself,
full clothed wif e trekkin outfit, equipment,
i started out on e journey...
keepin in mind tat there's a hole, i bought along a rope...
but later did i noe, e rope couldnt save me...
i went on ahead and finally hike until i saw the hole,
but e hole has sum ting tat was so pretty tat i wan,
and i wan it very much to give out hence needin e help of pluckin "it" out...
i tried but e rope jux wasnt long enough...
my 'sister' didnt tell me jux how deep tat hole was...
it was even deeper than e last "hole" tat i fell in,
hence e rope wasn't long enough...
tinkin i have better luck tis time,
i slide into e hole to rescue "it"...
later did i noe, i'm afraid it might b even harder to climb out tis time...

i dropped myself into e "hole", so i have to have to b responsible tis time...
jux lyk wad i learnt 2day, tat e eldest child is supposingly to b more responsible...
i shall endure e pain tis time, once more...
i shallnt b a hero anymore...
or rather, i shall jux enjoy tat short moment of happiness, no matter how much pain and/or time i have to endure it, to get over it...
i have no more tears for u already...

-edited-

i'm down wif a fever, cough, very very bad sore throat and block nose...
should i go skool 2molo???

Billie Jean

finally got tis song... LOL!
kay la... wanted it but forgot all bout it until rmr cher showed us e advertisement again... :)
i seriously love tat advertisement... and tat chapter on advertisement is loved... hahax... kay, e advertisement is evian... lol... drink already can break dance... oh, and cause of tis advertisement, i wanted to find billie jeans until i forgot to find... hahax... gf jux sent to me... lol...
e original was removed off but found somewad kind of lyk e original one so here it is...
and tis is e new version... all they did is jux change e song... new evian babies...
and tis is their interview... hahax... u should watched it...
i tink it's a very creative idea to use anyway... too bad my photoshop skills sucks... hahax...

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anyway, rmr... vexed... rel... even more vexed... exams in 1 mth time... speechless!!!

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to dream is one way of escapin reality...
to sleep is another...
to read is one too...
to dance is also one...
to listen music is other form...
to sing along is another...
but i rather do them all...
then i can escape reality as and when i lyk...
i'm waitin for u to tell me once more tat u will escape wif me...
will u???

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Love tis song, which pretty soon will b on e song list, along wif wonder girls songs...
but tis song actually aint good... :(
oh well... it's jux a song tat is catchy and easy to sing along wif... :)
enjoy...

[1st Verse]
She Was More Like A Beauty Queen From A Movie Scene
I Said Don't Mind, But What Do You Mean I Am The One
Who Will Dance On The Floor In The Round
She Said I Am The One Who Will Dance On The Floor In The Round

[2nd Verse]
She Told Me Her Name Was Billie Jean, As She Caused A Scene
Then Every Head Turned With Eyes That Dreamed Of Being The One
Who Will Dance On The Floor In The Round

[Bridge]
People Always Told Me Be Careful Of What You Do
And Don't Go Around Breaking Young Girls' Hearts
And Mother Always Told Me Be Careful Of Who You Love
And Be Careful Of What You Do 'Cause The Lie Becomes The Truth

[Chorus]
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
She's Just A Girl Who Claims That I Am The One
But The Kid Is Not My Son
She Says I Am The One, But The Kid Is Not My Son

[3rd Verse]
For Forty Days And Forty Nights
The Law Was On Her Side
But Who Can Stand When She's In Demand
Her Schemes And Plans
'Cause We Danced On The Floor In The Round
So Take My Strong Advice, Just Remember To Always Think Twice
(Do Think Twice)

[4th Verse]
She Told My Baby We'd Danced 'Till Three
Then She Looked At Me
Then Showed A Photo My Baby Cried
His Eyes Looked Like Mine
Go On Dance On The Floor In The Round, Baby

[Bridge]
People Always Told Me Be Careful Of What You Do
And Don't Go Around Breaking Young Girls' Hearts
She Came And Stood Right By Me
Then The Smell Of Sweet Perfume
This Happened Much Too Soon
She Called Me To Her Room

[Chorus]
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
She's Just A Girl Who Claims That I Am The One
But The Kid Is Not My Son
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
She's Just A Girl Who Claims That I Am The One
But The Kid Is Not My Son
She Says I Am The One, But The Kid Is Not My Son
She Says I Am The One, But The Kid Is Not My Son
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
She's Just A Girl Who Claims That I Am The One
But The Kid Is Not My Son
She Says I Am The One, But The Kid Is Not My Son
She Says I Am The One, She Says He Is My Son
She Says I Am The One
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover

Gonna tell everybody

nah... there aint anytin to tell at all... LOL!!!
oh, i'm pretty much bloated until i wan to puke... haha... tat's one ting to say...
hahax... i suppose i did study quite a bit 2day... all on law thou... :(
nvm... lol... had fun in e mornin b4 started studyin... wait, shall give a run-down for e day... and turn tis post into a borin one... LOL!
Mornin
- re-take btt... class was chit-chattin and askin ans and openin bk to see ans...
- took a train to cathy... wanted to buy tickets, but not open yet... so nvm...
- used lappy... had 2 source of entertainment, msn-in wif eugene and fb-in... wait, mayb more la... hahax...
- lappy bat dyin so went inside and sit...
Afternoon
- chatted wif anica... and waited for merilyn to come...
- went to watch Harry Potter & e Half blood Prince once more... :) Thomas Andrew "Tom" Felton is LOVED!!! hahax...
- went back to study once more...
- wrote until hand pain... LOL!
Night
- had dinner...
- went for a short window shoppin...
and there... a short rundown... LOL...

thru in, thru out... will u b there??? to catch me frm my reality fall???

Why not??? (should use e song i'm glad, but i used it b4... :( )

i'm fuckin bored now, and i dont wish to study first... damn... and if i dont continue to find e plug, my lappy is bye bye... crap... tis is so f-uckin borin... i need so entertainment... my source of entertainment is dead already... and i'm done wif fb-in... so i need to find an alternative source... tat's f-uckin crap... oh well, y m i usin so much f word??? tat's cause of e influence of hearin too much frm e grp behind... crap...

i'm glad u talk to me once more... i'm glad tat u r willin to escape reality wif me even for a few hrs, tat is after exams, but hey, i'm glad for u being my friend...

So Hot

life can b tough or can b fun, up to u to choose it...

oh yeah, i kinda of split myself in e middle...
and trouble myself to go thru readin e btt bk once more, since i didnt study e last round... :X *super guilty*
so i'm makin up for it by doin lots of e qns and memorizing (which many will say i siao) e texts!!!
damn... see, i make myself go thru e trouble... haix... i cant damn myself enough for it...
oh well... blame it on me... zZz... i jux hope there aint as much situations as there are e last time, or at least easier situations... cause i can only get 5 wrong, and tat's bad... zZz... since when have i ever get less than 5 wrong b4 ever since pri 4??? damn... now, i'm scare... and chocolates arent clamin me down at all... WAD THE HELL!!! oh, and i'm trepassin a skool 2molo... hahax... or mayb not, since mayb i shall head to e cathy straight ahead... LOL!!! but then again, i might end up quite early at e cathy, so mayb i shall head home first, and tat will mean i have to trepass skool property... hahax... i suddenly lyk to use e word trepass quite a lot, for 2day tat is... lol... trepasser... and sum ppl tink i'm crazy/too free to trepass their skool... *Jo rolls her eyes...* wadeva...
gotta go mug now... and 2molo, mug summore for law, since e freakin exams r lyk less than 1 mth AWAY!!! ARGH!!!!! crap... too much content already...

Irony

Yet again... haix... nvm...
anyway, while doin rmr discussion board, came across a few very funny advertisements... i wanted to share but seein as blogger always disagree wif me on e timin tat i use, so nope, i cant share...
lol... anyway, bought a new TV set today, along wif a new camera... heheex... but i couldnt get black in color... cause stupid saleman advice say black can see scratches easily... damn him... i take good care of e camera until it went faulty on me, not on purpose on lor... came back frm m'sia and it spolit, told dad tat and he said cant b e camera dont lyk m'sia when they went there quite a few times wif it... but i said tat we went diff areas tis time, so it's not agreeable to where we visit... anyway, lame excuses... it's jux tat e lens are faulty and might b able to repair but i'm too lazy to bri for repair... mayb u should ask sumone where to go repair camera... hahax... nah, dont waste money... lol... got 10 liao, 6 can wait... hahax...
heheex... i wan to watch e mv again!!! and learn e steps tis time around... :)

Ciao!~

Tell Me

y is blogger once more in it's crazy stage??? it's not even any better... grrr...
anyway, there's chocolate in e fridge, lyk finally... hahax... *sound so bimbo*
zZz... on another note, i have a ton of projects due lyk tis week, tutorials not yet written and all tat need to b done 2molo, BUT i still have to be not free cause i need to go and get a new TV set, to which i only spend 5hrs watchin it every week... zZz...
oh, and i got to say, e korean waves is hittin here once more, but tis time, in e music industry...
yesterday ST's life showed korean music such as FT Island (alicia's favourite), WonderGirls (my sis's current favourite, since it will change soon) and SS501 or sumtin lyk tat... and due to e article yesterday, i found a few more music videos to watch... hahax...
say for example, Tell Me, Irony, So hot and so on... hahax... kay la, all frm wondergirls, and as usual, their dance moves are HOT!!! and kinda of easy to follow to... not bad for jazz dance, if tat's u r into, lyk me!!! hahax...
oh, and i found a blogspot tat sells jux their style or rather wad they wore in e music video!!! hahax... tat's lyk so cool man... but in sgp wear tat??? errr, i'm afraid to get shoot first man... hahax... here's an example:

Cool, aint it??? hahax... i lyk their style, but then again, i lyk tis style all e while, jux not able to put it off, cause i'm fat... :(

kay, enough liao la...
Ciao!~

Nobody - English Version

damn... blogger still went back to sucky once more... cause it's format are all gone!!! ARGH!!! might consider goin back to multiply jux cause of tis rubbish...
have u ever wonder y wall have no ears and mouth??? i mean it's lyk talkin to wall is better sumtime, man... seriously man... it sucks when e "wall" nv talk to u at all... which i rather talk to a wall than talkin to "wall"...
anyway, projects tat are due lyk SOON, seriously very SOON, are REL, RMR and RMT... in tat order... fri for REL, Mon for RMR, thu for RMT... crap... is tis even poly??? zZz... but then again, we r quite lucky cause our tis sem modules are so-so... next sem, DAMN TEXTIN la... y??? cause faith, michelle, wilson, they all says so... but it seems tat next sem lecturers are way much better than tis sem... cause they are more caring, and wants to make sure u understand FULLY on their topics b4 moving on... awww, shucks... tat's so sweet... :) hahax...
tankx for ur wacky smses... hahax... really cheer me up... :)
wanted to share tis yesterday, but then all tankx to crazy blogger, cant upload anytin... zZz... so here it is...

English Version of Nobody...

You Know I still Love You Baby. And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You
I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to, to make me leave ya
I know what you’re thinking
Baby why aren’t you listening
How can I just Just love someone else and
Forget you completely When I know you still love me

Telling me you’re not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know it’s not right so Just stop and come back boy
How can this be When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You
I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You
I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can’t we just, just be like this cause
It’s you that i need and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way I
I feel when I’m with you, no one will ever do

Telling me you’re not good enough
Nobody (English Version) lyrics on
http://music.yeucahat.com/song/English/55685-Nobody~Wonder-Girls.html
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so you know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You
I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You
I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don’t want no body, body I don’t want no body, body

Honey you know it’s you that I want, It’s you that I need Why can’t you see~

I want nobody nobody But You
I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You
I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

(Rap)
Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me so tell me why can’t it be
Please let me live my life my way
Why do you push me away
I don’t want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you

Your Found Me...

you found me when no one else was looking,

how did you know, just where i would be???

- song lyrics frm You Found Me, Kelly Clarkson...

life's tough... and it's even tougher when u have no one...
but if u have sumone, and tat person cant find u when u r down, tat person aint fated to b wif u, or rather is not ur soulmate...
cause soulmate sense one another...
and tat's love...
but if's it jux plain happiness, wifout quarrels, tat's another form of love...

oh well, wad m i sayin tis???
hahax... for fun... lol... read too much nora robert instead of copyin my law tutorials which r lots!!!

and b4 i go, here's a joke to share... or rather a -.- hahax...

A lawyer and a Chinese are sitting next to each other on a long flight.

The lawyer is thinking that all Chinese are so dumb that he could get
over on them, easy.

So the lawyer asks if the Chinese would like to play a fun game. The
Chinese is tired and just wants to take a nap, so he politely declines,
and tries to catch a few winks.

The lawyer persists, and says that the game is a lot of fun. I ask you a
question, and if you don't know the answer, you pay me only $5; you ask
me one, and if I don't know the answer, I will pay you $500, he says.

This catches the Chinese's attention and to keep the lawyer quiet, he
agrees to play the game.

The lawyer asks the first question. 'What's the distance from The Earth
to the Moon?'

The Chinese doesn't say a word, reaches in his pocket, pulls out a
five-dollar bill, and hands it to the lawyer.

Now, it's the Chinese's turn. He asks the lawyer, 'What goes up a hill
with three legs, and comes down with four?'

The lawyer uses his laptop and searches all references he could find on
the Net. He sends e-mails to all the smart friends he knows, all to no
avail. After one hour of searching he finally gives up. He wakes up the
Chinese and hands him $500. The Chinese pockets the $500 and goes right
back to sleep.

The lawyer is going nuts, not knowing the answer. He wakes the Chinese
up and asks,

'Well, so what goes up a hill with three legs and comes down with four?

The Chinese reaches in his pocket, hands the lawyer $5 and goes back to
sleep.

Ciao!~

唯一

(mini horray for blogger to b back to normal)
as of yesterday, 1 module is DOWN!!! yeah!!! so tuesday equals to sleep at home and study!!! zZz...
anyway, as of 2day, 1st paper is in 1MONTH AND 2 DAYS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *SCREAMIN*
how in e bloody hell world m i goin to study so much BLOODY DRY CONTENT INTO E SIZE OF A PEA BRAIN??? damn... and be damn...
crap... but wadeva it is, i seriously need to re-read EVERYTHING, and i mean EVERYTHING SINGLE BLOODY THING DOWN TO YEAR 1 TO FIND THE CONNECTION BETWEEN TOPICS!!!
damn... but wadeva it is, exams is still a mux take... so no choice... cause u dont have a choice...
oh, and i finally went thru e stupid orientation for gym... zZz... but i had a personal accomplishment... since i very long nv run liao, i managed to run 7 rounds of e stadium and tat's lyk cool... soon... very soon... and i will reach back my personal best... and then after tat will i go train my timin... and soon, i might jux stand a chance to win someone in 2.4km(hopefully less than 8 mins, LOL!!!)... HAHAX... kay, enough of dreamin, only for e last part la...
back to do rmr quiz... zZz... 50 qns... wtf & wth... i'm all blur wif infor liao... :( G_G
~
my heart beats, but for who???

我的天空多么的清晰
透明的承诺
是过去的空气
牵着我的手是你
但你的笑容
却看不清
是否一颗星星变了心
从前的愿望
你全都给抛弃
最近我无法呼吸
连自己的影子
都想逃避
oh baby
你就是我的唯一
两个世界都变心
回去谈何容易
确定你就是我的唯一
独自对着电话说我爱你
我真的爱你
baby
我已不能多爱你一些
其实早已超过了爱的界限

你不在

i see e light...
(kay, it seems weird since there will be an eclipse 2molo... i tink if i didnt rmb wrongly... lol...)
once awaken frm darkness, brightness seep thru...
oh rite, wad m i writin man... anyway, 你不在，我要这样活下去？？？

当世界只剩下这床头灯
你那边是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你在转身
无数陌生人正在等下一个绿灯
一再错身彼此脆弱的时分
不过渴望一个吻的余温
我关了灯黑暗把我并吞
HO~~
你不在当我最需要爱你却不在
无尽等待像独白般难挨
你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来
但你不在 不在
时间在按下许多次快门
沉默里听见转动的秒针
一个人吃饭这个凌晨
孤单一人分
你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温
怎样认真也不一定成真
你说的对我不得不承认
HO~~
你不在当我最需要爱你却不在
无尽等待像独白的难挨
你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来但你不在
那些摇摆我都明白都明白
但你不在爱已不在不在
你不在当我最需要爱你却不在
一个人分饰两角的恋爱
你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在
像空气般不存在的存在
在没有痕迹的爱你不在
当我需要你的爱你不在

Never Gonna Give Up

be damn...
being used enough...
being dumb enough...
being lazy enough...
being emotional tired enough...
being sleepy, NOT ENOUGH!!!
being studying, NOT ENOUGH!!!

nice phrase by Dr. Seuss... found at e bottom!!! :)

Vulnerable

i dont wish to suffer...
and frm e way it looks, i makin myself suffer...

oh well, at least i found a pic tat speaks wad i wan to say...

Drip Drop

not goin to wait anymore...
not goin to be sad all over again...
not goin to let e "rain" fall once more...
i'm done...

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fyi, watched Harry Potter & The Half Blood Prince already... *edited* - wif YING DUAN & PIN XUAN!!! (happy???)
goin to say tis show is more of a 1 sided fight... and e startin of e movie is quite cool as it really brings u into e movie as if u r on e bridge urself... but as e whole story goes along, it gets lesser on e fight, higher on e romance and comedy, lower on e skool life... isnt tis suppose to b their last year in hortwarts since they are quitin skool next year... so shouldnt they have more on e skool life instead??? nvm, tat's jux my view on tis movie... all in all, it's not bad la... especially e matches... it's damn cool... lol...

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latest song which i found is very closest to wad i feel...
drip drop by Vanessa...
shall upload to my blog song soon...
once i found e time...

Ciao!~

Drip drop, Drip drop...

Now only heaven knows
How I really feel inside
I try my best not to let it show
But late at night, In my room
I think of you and start to cry

You know that I'm emotional
But still you break my heart
Let's make no mistakes

We both know that
You're the one responsible
For hurting me this way
Now my tears fall like rain

Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? - Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you - Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? - Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you

It's a quater after twelve
I know I should be in bed
Boy you got me feeling sorry for myself
I must confess, this loneliness is killing me
I'm so upset

How could you break all your promises
Like you told me, You'd be there to hold me
I can not believe the way I fell for it
I was a fool to buy all the lies you sold me

Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? - Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you - Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? - Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you

Maybe we were never meant to be
I'm sorry that it took so long for me
To see what's happening
You come around and then it rains again

Drip drop...

Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? - Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you - Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? - Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you

It's raining, It's pouring
I try hard ignoring tese tears
I try so hard, Ignoring the tears
It's raining, It's pouring
I try hard ignoring these tears

Everything I own

to wish is to hope to gain...
to pray is to wan to gain...

so if i tried both methods, but yet i FAILED to gain wad i wan?
wad should i do???

will give everyting i own, my heart, mind and soul, will it bri wad i wan to me???

cause all i wan is u...
u are all i need for a smile...
for e warmth...

P.S.: I miss u...

If You I Had My Ur Love

sumtimes in life, u cant have tings e way u wan them to go...
but then again, many ppl says faith lies in ur own hand, twist them to suit u...
if tat's up to u to decide whether to believe it or not...
and tat's is one of e praise i learnt frm e movie yesterday...
cause i believe... or rather, many movies uses tis line, i nv failed to b touched by tis sentence, at least for a week or so, b4 it dies again...
so while it's still in my head, i shall note it down here...

Ciao!~ rushin off for law tutorial now... more later... bye bye...

-updated-

back... hahax...
recieved e sweetest sms durin law class... tank u... u should noe who u r... :)
but still as per usual, so thick-skinned... hahax... :X
but nevertheless, u cheer up my day... (even thou, i tink it's a forward msg, which u dont wan to admit... o~o )
anyway, havin tis harry potter craziness once more...
yes, i mean it... i wan to re-read e harry potter books... (tat's a crazy thot of mine, since i have yet to study for my exams and i wan to read books, not jux any books, but a min of 600 pages thick book... -.-|||) watched e movie at least twice, i hope, but not on thursday nite wif u thou... hahax... dont b upset... since u have e soul intention of gettin me drunk... zZz... jux so u can send me home and knock me on my "rock-hard head", in order to peel my skin... zZz... EVIL lao bei bei... hahax...
anyway, heck carin bout lao bei bei, i'm currently WAITING FOR HARRY POTTER & THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX TO LOAD FINISH!!! IT"S TAKIN AGES JUX TO LOAD 1 FREAKIN MOVIE LA!!! GRRR!!!
oh, anyway wans to accompany me go watch harry and his friends tis friday??? :) i wan to catch it lyk tis week... hahax...
jux msg/msn me to tell me, kay??? I REALLY REALLY WAN TO WATCH TIS MOVIE!!! cause i cant watch on sat and sun... :( so friday is lyk super most suitable day la... hahax... cause gf and yj dont wan to skip abt 2molo to pei me go watch... oh well, I WAN TO WATCH IT TIS FRIDAY!!! anime can wait for a while at least until i catch tis film...
:)
till next time... Ciao!~

-updated-

i gave up watchin... till i find a better site, which any kind souls can tell me, if i not i shall buy e whole series e movie... since it's lyk freakin way much cheaper than b4... :)

Cry Me A River - JT

had lots of laughter 2day... :)
even thou it's jux a short 3 hrs, but had lots of laughter...
yes, i'm short... *grrr*
no, i have broad shoulders, dont u believe it..? *pouts*
but it's kind of u to end e day by sayin it...
:)
yes, we can actually watch e movie via internet, but end up we chose to watched it at e cinema... and tankx to e very long long line to queue, we end up late... hahax...
anyway, kinda of shock e cinema we got was GV max... lol... dont notice any difference thou... hahax...
yes, we watched sum ting tat is super super long ago show liao... hahax...
can u guess???
it has to do wif these...

1) a truck???


2) a bee???


i suppose u can guess liao la... hahax... is not jux any truck, but it's a truck transformin into Optimus Prime... hahax... and it's jux not any bee, it's Bumblebee...




yes, it's Transformers : Revenge Of The Fallen
i got to admit, e animation is cool... but other than tat, i sum wad cant catch some of e lines... zZz... first time watched english films and i cant catch e speeches... oh well, got to blame it on e robots... who ask them to talk so soft... hahax... later ppl see tis, then say i nv dig my ear... LOL!!! i shoot usin tat sentence too... :P hahax...

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on another sadder note, some parts of e movie remind me of me and eugene... and yes, in e first place, a cinema already kind of remind me of him... except tis time e guy is not him... i hate havin tis kind of feelins once more... it's lyk every tin re-surface ever since tat time he msg me... i dont noe... i hate tis feelin of dunno-in... i hate tat u drew me back to e past...
but yet, i dont feel a ting for him... somehow, it's more of older brother takin care of younger sis tat kind of ting... is not lyk wad i feel for eugene... i feel lyk cryin already... i'm freakin f-uckin vexed over tis matter!!! how can i not forget all bout eugene??? how come i have to linger on and on??? or rather, how come tis part of memory doesnt wash away??? i dont give a damn if he's fuckin arrogant, if he's a fuckin playboy, if he's a fuckin idiot, if he's jux a fuckin guy, if he's jux another fuckin guy who tink wif his penis, if he's fuckin undecidin, if he's fuckin childish and wadeva else u guys dont lyk bout him, jux dont make me do tis again...
damn u, eugene...
and worst, damn me to hell and back, jolyn...
u sucks... u cant even go thru tis again...
pls, jux dont do tis to me anymore...
i cant take it already...
u either jux leave me alone (which everyone prefers it tis way)
or u get back wif me... (not tat i'm despo or wad)
jux, pls, i beg u, dont do tis to me again...
dont leave me to crumple down all over again...
yes, i have no idea y ur words, jux those simple 6 words can make me fall once more...
i'm already near to a state to beg u...
i wish tat i'm brave,
i wish i can say tat i'm not afraid,
really wish he would let me in,
cus the same way i'm scared of him,
i'm scared of being hurt again...
i wish i can say it's time to let go,
i wish i can say i can let go of my heart,
and tat it's time for a brand new start,
but i cant...

and now, i'm left to crumple...

Happy Birthday, Sis!!!
Happy Birthday, Edna!!!

And I - Ciara

i wonder...
whether i should go out 2molo...
one option frm merilyn is no...
then duan ask me to go lor...
very FAN!!!

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in e end, i msg but have yet to receive e reply...
lol...
joke...
if i ever get out of e hse for some "outin",
u might jux hear bout it...
lol...
or not...
i prefer e not...
lol... evil...

-

anyway, missed our chance of seein felicia chin at mambo...
nvm...

-

feelin freakin bored...
waitin for reply, but then again, i shall fulfill my request of SLEEP!!!
if e reply comes too late, then bye bye to said request...

-

m still waitin for wad u wan to tell me once more...
for those hugs tat nv belong to me...
for those kisses tat will nv last to u...
for those words tat will hurt me once again...
for those tickles tat u always do to me...
for those "beatings" i gave u...
for those useless chats we have which will b a pain once u r gone...
for e pure sight of seein u once more...
i miss u too...
but to admit it to u,
it will jux bri another round once more...
and i cant suffer another round...
i'm too weak to pick myself up once more...
e strength left in me is barely enough...
but i wan u, once more...
jux for tat short 15mins or so...

can i jux have u???

I'm Glad (NOT!)

I'm burnt!!!
and wif tat, i dont feel lyk goin to skool 2molo...
cause i look freakin AWFUL!!!
and my freakin face is still freakin RED!!!

-

it's been a week...
there's still nth...
wad's e next step i should take???
scream in vain agony???
do nth???
continue missin u???
take e lead???
or ignore wad had happened tat day???

to tink e path will actually lead to a sudden end...
wishin for it wont help at all...
wad m i to do???
to live or to let live...
live a life tat i need, comfort found...
or to let live in a world of mis-believe...

i made my choice...
and now it's ur turn to act it out...

Baby when I think about
The day that we first met (the day that we first met)
Wasn't lookin for what I found
But I found you
And I'm bound to find happiness in being around you

I'm glad when I'm makin love to you
I'm glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I'm glad when you walk you hold my hand
I'm happy that you know how to be a man
I'm glad that you came into my life
I'm so glad

I dig the way that you get down
(you get down thugged out)
And you still know how to hold me
(and you still know how to hold me)
Perfect blend, masculine (can't get enough now)
I think I'm in love, damn finally

I'm glad when I'm makin love to you
I'm glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I'm glad when you walk you hold my hand
I'm happy that you know how to be a man
I'm glad that you came into my life
I'm so glad

I'm glad that you turned out to be
That certain someone special
who makes this life worth living
I'm glad you're here just loving Me
So say that you won't leave
Cause since the day you came
I've been glad

I'm glad when I'm makin love to you
I'm glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I'm glad when you walk you hold my hand
I'm happy that you know how to be a man
I'm glad that you came into my life
I'm so glad

My Love Is Like... Wo (hahax... i wish)

sadness creeps under ur skin when u least
happiness closes it's door when sadness is in...

loneliness finds it's way into many SINGLE ppl's heart & mind
love found a way to defeat it when it happens...

success only comes to those wif hardwork...
failure comes to those lyk me...

wad happens to those who look for love???
do they ever get it???
will they ever get it???
and how long will it last b4 e cycle it starts all over again???

haix... i wish i knew...

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on another note, i have become "black"!!! i'm burnt up... skin is RED!!!

See, baby
I know you done had your share of girls
I am more than confident
You won't ever have to search any streets for
affection
I got you

What kind of girl you like
I know my looks can be deceivin'
Tell me am I your type
My main goal is to please you

What's on the schedule tonight
Am I the reason you'll be treatin'
I hope you have an appetite
So tell me, baby, will you come and spend the night

My love is like...wo
My kiss is like...wo
My touch is like...wo
My sex is like...wo
My ass is like...wo
My body's like...wo
And you're kissin' it
So what you think of it

My love is like...wo
My kiss is like...wo
My touch is like...wo
My sex is like...wo
My ass is like...wo
My body's like...wo
And you're kissin' it
So what you think of it

When will you come through
'Cause I'll be waitin' up right here
Can you bring some Belvedere
So we can pop the cork and cheers

Please have no fear Yeah
I just wanna love you right
I hope you have an appetite
So tell, baby, will you come and spend the night?

My love is like...wo
My kiss is like...wo
My touch is like...wo
My sex is like...wo
My ass is like...wo
My body's like...wo
And you're kissin' it
So what you think of it

My love is like...wo
My kiss is like...wo
My touch is like...wo
My sex is like...wo
My ass is like...wo
My body's like...wo
And you're kissin' it
So what you think of it

Hold me,
Oh my
Taste it,
Taste it
Hold me,
Oh My,
My

Hold me like you never wanna let me go
If you're likin' what you're tastin' Baby let me
know
See if you're gonna love me better love me strong
'Cause I want this love to love last all night long

My love is like...wo
My kiss is like...wo
My touch is like...wo
My sex is like...wo
My ass is like...wo
My body's like...wo
And you're kissin' it
So what you think of it

My love is like
My kiss is like
My touch is like
My sex is like
My ass is like
My body's like
And you're kissin' it
So what you think of it

Wo
Wo
Wo
Wo
Wo
Wo
Wo

My love is like...wo
My kiss is like...wo
My touch is like...wo
Ya know it's like wo

Brave

e slow steps...
e music boomin in my ears...
lookin at every ting...
tryin to rmb e happy moment u have at those stuffs...
e need of not wantin to b alone...
at least wif 1 friend to accompany u...
-
but as u walked frm shop to shop,
e need of wantin to b alone grew...
and when u r alone, u feel so... hollow...

-

i dont noe y all of a sudden i'm feelin so down...
diddy drove me back to skool, alighted, cross e bridge, but all i did was linger at e bus stop in front of skool...
took 52 but i sat all e way in...
as e bus drove past diff areas of bishan tat i nv grew to see,
e rich area where e poor only can look,
my heart dropped even further down...
as we past by bishan park sec skool,
i long for my sec skool days where worries seems miles away...
where my brain was at least workin so much better then than now...
mayb cause my memory card is full... LOL!

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wonder aimlessly, passin time...
i dont wan to go home so early...
didnt buy anytin for myself other than a bk...
but i manage to buy diddy present...
so both of their presents are done...
but i wasnt in any mood to shop at all...
-
and so i went home...
slept all e way...
it didnt help to clear e mind at all...
i'm not goin to care anymore...

-
here's a song lyric to share...
it was suppose to b my mood of e day song...
but some of e lyrics doesnt fit in... go figure it out urself...

Brave - J.Lo

It's a new day, new day, and it's evident
You must have been heaven-sent
Sometimes we should be hesitant, but I'm not at all
Just feelin more confident
Just using my common sense
Just trust in it, I'm lovin it

I can't refuse an offer so benevolent
Can't assume he's gon' use me
And after he'll never call again
Don't be afraid, don't be afraid
This is your day, this is your day

[Chorus:]
It's time to be brave
Say I'm not afraid, not anymore
I used to be cold, now the temperature's changed
It just ain't the same
I'm not afraid, i'm not afraid
Cus I've become brave
As the light of day straight into a cave
To show me the way, that I might be saved
Now I'm turning the page
Thanks to the power of love I can love
Because I am brave

I am brave, I am brave

I heard him say this thing moving too fast for him
It's a feelin I was straddeling
Foolishly adamant, but It's all in his eyes
Really wish he would let me in
Cus the same way I'm scared of him
I'm scared of being hurt again

It's time to let go, let go of your heart
It's time for a brand new start
Never know, we might never part
Baby don't be afraid, don't be afraid
This is your day, this is your day

[Chorus]

I wouldn't take back anything that I've gone through (no)
I pray for strength for anything that I'm gonna do
Whether joy, or it's pain, I'm still okay (I, I'm still okay)
I'm a be alright cause I'm not afraid
No, I am brave (brave)

[Chorus]

I am brave

999朵玫瑰

It's so sweet of u...
i swear tat tis is lyk e first time sumone did tis for me... as in a guy friend...
looks lyk u have lost to u...
hahax... gettin confusin??? lol...
jux continue to enjoy these riddles of my life... :)
since i said i wanted to give privacy to everyone...


anyway, back to e main story of me!!! lol... lyk as if i'm attention seekin... hahax...
ur words sweeten me up, but is u tat makes me believe in e world once more...
i may have fallen for ur words every other time, but it seems tat is u tat is really treatin me well...
mayb cause u r lyk an older, kinda of WAY older, by 6 yrs thou, tat kind of brother...
or mayb cause u treat me lyk ur younger sister tat u nv have...
or mayb jux mayb e feelings are there tat i fail to admit it...
but then again if e feelings are out there, then wad m i feelin for u???


as many says, matters of e heart is unclear way... u have to find e way thru urself... haix... not tat i have any experience findin it thru thou... and in a way, i gave up long ago... love??? there's no such ting for me... i'm destiny to b single... thou deep down no matter wad's ur rejection, u still wan to have sumone there to love u, to adore u, to b wif u, to comfort u... even e strongest of woman will also wan tat... haix...
enough already... till e time comes, then we shall talk bout it... now, all i'm left wif is 4 hrs straight to sleep... if not lesson 2molo, LATE... haix... damn...
first time long post after "ages" of short posts... hahax... kay la, nitex...

Project clearance List!!!

rmt project
abt model
abt wiki
pvl report
rel report
rmr research
i&e event... zZz...

1 down many more to go STILL!!! nvm, by 2molo, another 2 down...
BTT is gettin nearer, and i shook over it... i'm seriously afraid i will fail... haix... HOW???

-edited-

Entertainment News:
yes, in e midst of completin my ppt, (to which i got trick for e due date as 2day... zZz... waste my sleepin time... end up only slept for 3 and a half hr... and i woke up late... *guilty*) miss jo have been surfing the paparazzi websites yet again... and upon surfin, she discover tis... yes, MR new playboy robert pattinson broke up wif his gf for a older lady... zZz... WTF???!!!??? damn emilie... she divorce her husband for jux wad 3 weeks???, and now she's attach to robert??? haix... poor kristen... she dumps michael for him and now he dumps her for another older lady... wad is tis world of entertainment news becomin to??? is tis how u lead e young by examples??? flirt, date for 2/3 weeks, make-out, dump... brillant forumla, dont u tink so??? looks lyk i better stick back to harry potter movie instead of twilight... wad's wif their examples being tis way... haix... oh well, at least taylor lautner didnt do it tis way... hahax... so tat's a good example... lol...

Jo's prob(s):
on another note, i wonder will u contact me 2day since ur common tests offically ends today... but mayb u go for trainin and then dont bother to msg me... and only when u feel lyk it, then msg me... haix... is tis it for us??? tat's friendship in ur sense??? then wad was between us??? it's all in e past??? e chemistry is gone??? jux lyk a snap of a finger??? tat fast???
(did tis give u a clue on who is e U??? as for e other u, guess ba... LOL! thou it isnt tough to guess... correct got NO prize thou... LOL!)

skool work:
e iconic stuff for 2day is tat we are currently in skool(11.56am) at OurSpace@72 instead of lecture theatre 60 listenin to e ever boring buildin tech, somemore advance worx, rushin all e projects due 2day, 2molo and monday... and e best tin is we cant enter MEL or rather elearnin database in skool... isnt tis funny??? in skool, cant enter skool website... lolx... joke of e day... hahax... i tink samuel may have experience tis too many times... lol... kay la... shall go back to do pvl report... hahax...

more 2nite if i feel lyk it... update will b at e bottom... lol...

- edited- (yes, yet again... LOL!)

yes, i tink i'm bloggin crazy today... LOL! mayb cause i'm too tired to voice out every damn ting... oh, and i jux discover a SUPER SAD ting... my mango bag name mango, given by gf, is spolit... sob sob... :'( WTH la... it's spolit at e side... oh man, is lyk jux buy sum more la... crap... :( super sad la... i was jux beginnin to fall madly in love wif tat bag, now i can only use it when i have very very little tings to bri lyk 2molo... :( damn... now, i'm so gotta get another bag... :( spend more money... :( even more sad... crap...

kay la... i gotta study for basic theory, cause diddy naggin liao... :(

Where Is The Love?

in the name of church and catholic, vampires uses it as a ground to kill humans... to absorb their blood in e eyes of Jesus... tat's wad trinity blood anime is showin... nice nice...

but in e eyes of mine, wad is love??? where is e love, tat's e song BEP sang... so where's mine??? i need ur comfortin words, ur laughter, and more to drown out e sorrows... i need u... i wan u...

All About Us

U jux makes me smile...
& e other U jux simply brighten up my day wif ur jokes and treatment towards me...
so i'm gettin better... even wif us being friends...
to e both of u, i'm glad tat u r my friends...
& to U, i might take up ur offer on e dinner treat... hahax... tat is if i'm free... LOL!
to U, we shall have a chat pretty soon when u're free...

But, I'm missin U & U...


on another note, Benjamin, Ester, Diana, Jimmy and e china guy makes me laugh too... it's fun to b wif them... :) goin to see Diana pretty soon... :) yeah... hahax... carl's jr again, gal??? hahax...

-updated-

i dont noe y, but wad i noe is tis... tat u both have perk me up, allowin me to find back my rhythm... e groove to e beat, e steps tat come naturally once e music starts, e funny side of me, throwin lemons at ppl side of me... somehow u guys brighten up my days(actually only yesterday & today, but anyway,) i jux hope tat tis feelin and tings can last much longer and pull me thru once more... :(