This is Real, This is me...

i suck... be it at work, at skool, everywhere la...

i dont noe y all of a sudden i have tis negative feelings...

mayb cause it arise frm yesterday's work...
and it didnt get any better...
in fact, 2day work make it worst...

haix... i have so much in my head now, tat i cant tink at all...
i have rmt common test tis friday, pvl tutorial due, law tutorial haven do,
and yet i have e time to go and tink of all these...
or mayb not tat i have e time but it naturally appears in e concept of my mind...


jux watch camp rock... not bad la... and i suppose i finally understand e story behind tis song... my sis ask me which do i prefer, camp rock or hsm... i prefer pussycat dolls of course... damn it... i cant go... :(

y is my life on e down side??? it seems to b on e down side ever since last year... and tis year??? it's jux slip all e way down to e nv endin BOTTOM... when m i goin to b on e up side of life??? y is fate playin such games wif me??? i hate it... F-uck it...

I Hate This Part

sumtimes i wonder y m i even born to roam tis earth???
sumtimes i wonder y m i born lyk a jinx???
sumtimes i wonder y do i make ppl lyk me on e surface but to find out tat they actually hate me deep down???
sumtimes i wonder y i suck in terms of friendships???
sumtimes i wonder y i suck in terms of relationships???
sumtimes i wonder y i suck at my studies???
sumtimes i wonder y didnt i jux end my own life everytime i tink of endin it???
sumtimes i wonder y i cant even maintain a friendship wifout even killin it???
sumtimes i wonder y i have to let ppl take e rap of gettin scolded???
sumtimes i wonder y i jux cant hold a hate for long???
sumtimes i wonder y nobody jux come up and tell me wad i did wrong instead of hidin frm me???

times lyk tis, lyk 2day, i REALLY REALLY REALLY WAN TO END MY OWN LIFE!!!
I WAN TO SAY BYE BYE TO TIS WORLD...
since there is really no need to b in tis world...
since i make no difference in tis world...
since all i ever did to tis world is help to consume e food...
since all i ever did is make ppl avoid me...
since all i ever did is make ppl hate me...
since all i ever did is jinx ppl...
mayb i'm really a ke xin, jinx... 克星...

i really hate myself... no longer believes in wad i believe anymore...



trailer of NEW MOON!!! i cant wait... and damn, i cant go PCD concert... :(

Movie Trailers - Movies Blog

Cry

zZz... i'm not even listenin in rmt class now at all... how m i goin to pass the ct for it next friday??? oh, and i discover suzie isnt as good as we all thot... cause she ask us to study all factors when lim li ask them to study 3 factors will do... zZz... anyway, another 1 week to common test... *bite nails* damn... i dont tink i might be able to make it... gotta chill/relax before i can focus again... zZz... quick update... i was sick yesterday... cause all of a sudden, e mornin i woke up wif a very bad sore thorat, very red... then durin 2nd break, studied abit, then i sleep, woke up feelin all my bones so hollow and achin... tat's a sign for me, i'm sick... then down wif fever... feelin very warm thru out e body, but yet the skins feel so cold... zZz... took bus home, felt lyk vomittin... came home, didnt eat dinner, took temp, ate panadol, then go sleep... woke up later jux to finish up my law tutorial... then went back to sleep... woke up later than expected timin... update more if i feel lyk it...

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

[Chorus:]
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

[Chorus]

How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken heart and I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

[x2]
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

back to blog bout 2day... a grp of ang mo lan came for our retail class... and since they were sittin in front of michelle, so i went to sit wif her... hahax... Oops... and the other lecturers came... the 2 tan and mr leon pey... they are older than us, and they came frm uk... so lessons start lecture was borin!!! the guy in front of me has a very nice talent of drawin and e "shoppin mall" he drew was so much nicer than e real drawin... and he even edited abit here and there... but they kept givin e left side ppl cold stare... cause their noise level was a bit on e "high" side... but after tat, i fell asleep... zZz... woke up after she talk finish bout e same slide where i fell asleep... zZz... lecture was borin... and yan jun and me both agree tat e guy sittin at e corner was yummy... lol... and i thot their lecturer was oso not bad la, tat is if u go for older guys... lol... feelin very tired, and i gotta work 2molo... mayb sleep early 2nite??? as if... i will read my Nora Roberts... hahax... i jux bought it on monday leh, and i wan to find out who is e murderer rather than in my dreamland and tink of sum asshole bastard tat is not worth my time to tink of... oh and i got addicted to listenin to chinese oldies songs... zZz...

oh and PCD's latest music video : Hush Hush, is not bad... go watch it!!! ~.<
Ciao!~

DAMN U!!! I HATE U OFFICALLY!!!

I NOE U DONT READ TIS BLOG, SO IS "SAFE" FOR ME TO SHOUT HERE!!! I HATE U OFFICALLY, MR U-TINK-U-SO-BIG-DEAL-CHEF-TEO!!! U ARE BASTARD THRU AND THRU... DAMN U... NEED ME, THEN MSG ME... NOW WAD??? GIVE ME SLIENT TREATMENT AR??? DO I NEED??? WAD M I TO U ACTUALLY??? I DONT EVEN TINK FRIENDS IS E WORD AT ALL... Y CANT U BLOODY UNDERSTAND??? FRIENDS DONT MSG ONE ANOTHER ONLY WHEN IN NEED, THEY CHAT WIF ONE ANOTHER BE IT RAIN OR SHINE! WELL, U DONT... SO I WONT BOTHER EXPLAININ ANY FURTHER... TO TINK TAT I TINK OF U WHENEVER I SEE SUMTING TAT REMINDS ME OF U, TO TINK TAT I SHOW U CARE AND CONCERN WHENEVER U R LOW, TO TINK TAT I WAS UR LISTENIN EAR AND HEAR U RUMBLE OUT BOUT UR EX... IS TIS ALL I M TO U??? AND TO TINK TAT WHEN I TOOK BUS TODAY, SITTIN AT TAT VERY DAMN SEAT, I GOT REMINDED OF U AND ME ON OUR DATE... DAMN U... U DONT EVEN BOTHER TO TRY TO "SAVE" TIS FRIENDSHIP, IS OKAY WIF ME!!! THEN GET OFF AND DONT BOTHER TO MSG ME EVER AGAIN!!! I ALREADY DELETED UR NUMBER FRM MY PHONE, AND VERY SOON, E NOTES FRM EXAMS(ANOTHER PAIN IN E ASS) WILL REPLACE UR PHONE NUMBER FRM MY BRAIN SPACE! NOW,GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!! U DONT WAN A PART IN IT, SURE NO PROB, GET OUT, SCRAM!!! I DONT NEED U AS MUCH AS U NEED ME... I'M SURE UR FLIRTIN SKILLS CAN GET U ANY OTHER GIRLS TO COMFORT U, BUT NOT ME ANYMORE... NO MORE "I MISS U", NO MORE UR SWEET TALK, I WONT FALL FOR IT ANYMORE... MY LAST WORDS TO U, U HATE TAT PHRASE VERY MUCH, BUT I STILL HAVE TO TELL U TAT:

F.U.C.K O.F.F FROM MY LIFE!

*i'm not even feelin any better... in fact, e opposite... damn...

爱极限

jux finish S.A.L.T event... in class waitin for make-up lesson to start... Sgp jux have its first H1N1 case... lol... didnt attend pvl and rmr lectures... and e best tin is tat they happen to b e impt... zZz... so we were sayin tat how come we attend tat time, lectures not as impt, but when we dont attend, it happens to be so impt... zZz... nvm, need to ask uncle bout e methods of valuation... zZz... anyway, got to do my rmr now... blog more sum other time...

*the distance started to drift apart... it has became so obvious... i dont noe wad to do anymore... tell me wad u wan frm me??? dont show me a cold shoulder, i cant take it...*

the "hurt" formed by e corner of a ship hittin on e iceberg, tink of tat... jux when u tink u will sink, it jux doesnt... and tat's fate playin wif u... jux when u tink u found ur true callin, u start feelin tat u r an odd piece in tis whole set of puzzle... and when it make an effort to "bend" in, it jux gets weirder and weirder... jux cause ur sides can nv make it look lyk e missin piece in e whole picture... sumtimes, u jux can nv fit in, cause of e weird sides, and the sad part, u will b askin urself whether r u e only one out there alone??? and e ans tat u r afraid to hear is : "YES, U R!"

Eat You Up Eaten Up By You

the ups and down on a mountainous road is difficult to climb...
and sumtimes or rather most of the time, u wish tat someone can be there to accompany u to climb...
to motivate u, to accompany you all the way, to reach the finishin line wif u... to share the glory, the laughter, the tears...
and most importantly, to warm u up frm the cold... and to be there for u...

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了,为何你还来拨动我心跳. - 新不了情; 万芳

是因为有了爱，我才可以活。但是我要的爱却找不到。你到底在哪里？
我觉的很孤独，很寂寞。但你看到别人和她的男朋友，我会问自己为什么不会珍惜他？为什么不会去珍惜那份感情？我和他不是很幸福吗? 为和不去守护那份感情呢？这样我们的感情应该会还在一起吗？会是这条路或那一条？ 会像我现在那样孤独吗?
难道我是注定没有这份爱吗？难道我就是注定没人爱吗？一辈子，孤独一个人吗？
默默地在一边哭，在黑夜里，想着你，哭了起来。我就没有你不可以吗？我不想去知道了。
因为我放弃了。我拜输给你。

Poker Face

if life has a bk, a guidance bk, then i will b e first to go and buy it…

if love has a bk, a how to find love guide bk, then i too will buy it…

if feelings has a removal disc, a cleanin away memory feelings, then i will b there to buy it too…

if loneliness has a software for accompany, a person who i can talk to, i will look for it…

if pennin down my feelings will help, i would have pen it down long ago, and at least i wont b feelin so low…

and at least, i wont let my mind race around wif lots of awful thots…

and at least, i can tink and focus on my studies instead... haix... a penny full of thots...

so y cant life b an open book???

Cause A Scene

yo!

wad's up??? hahax... i'm crazy... cause my legs are achin!!! zZz... kay, no link... anyway, legs are achin... cause of tis 2 days of work... oh, sumtime to share, tis lady called joshua a GIRL!!! can u believe it??? lol... and she was lyk speakin into e mic sayin bout sd, then say can approach either me or joshua, so she said, "u can look for tis rather cute, is he a girl, oops, guy, and tis sweet young lady *referin to ME!!!*" hahax... kay la, BHB... and tis guy frm PM said tat i look lyk a korean... WAD??? then he say cause i got small eyes... then kept disturbin me for kim chi recipe... =.=|||

heart is healin very rather slow, or should i say by quite alot already, jux e finally process... which i tink is rather much harder??? cause is lyk how do i convert over??? hmmm... i jux wish to cause A BIG SCENE to make him embrassed... since even e basic concept of FRIENDSHIP, he oso dont understand and cant even catch hold properly... haix, if he doesnt wan me as a friend, then tis friendship is seriously no use to maintain anymore... haix... no point only i'm e one to go and try to maintain tis friendship while he doesnt even bother to go and give a bit of keepin in touch... damn him la...

anyway, lookin forward to tis tue and wed... not cause i'm skippin classes, oops... but rather, more sec skool ppl are comin to OUR SKOOL!!! SAY HORRAY!!! lol... dont even noe wad skool tat is... as in have u heard of changkat changi sec skool??? nvm... shall see... hahax... but in case u guys are tinkin e wrong direction, pls kindly steer e rite way, tank u very muchie... lol... i dont go for small boys... hahax... at most is same age nia... WAIT, u mean until now u still dunno meh??? oh man, how can u b call my friend??? lol... =.=||| as u can see, i very bo liao liao... hahax... skool is gettin harder as modules continue to intro more deep stuffs...

got to study, since i'm missin classes on wed... and i got to attend tue tat i&e... sianx...

Ciao!~

[Flo Rida]
Teairra we ain’t gotta cause a scene, baby

[Teairra Mari]
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Make me make me
Make me make me
Cause a scene up in here, don’t
I’m demanding all of my respect
I don’t care who’s bout to see me
Cause a scene up in here

[Verse 1]
I see you out here with your homies clubbin
Champagne popped off and you bubblin
Sheek shoes, but you better tell em somethin
You better tell them that you’re somebodies husband
I ain’t with that foolishness
No that ain’t what I need tonight
But if they keep their hands off you
Then everything will be alright

[Bridge]
All hot up in here, cause I’m on that gasoline
You know I’ll take my shoes off
And grab my vasoline…oh..

[Chorus]
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Make me make me
Make me make me
Cause a scene up in here, don’t
I’m demanding all of my respect
I don’t care who’s bout to see me
Cause a scene up in here
No…

[Verse 2]
Your ex girl wanna flirt?
Well she gon get herself hurt
Even though I got on a mini skirt
I still will put in work
Don’t tell me calm down, cause I know somebody’s doing wrong
It’s gon’ be trouble when
I find out just what’s going on

[Bridge]
All hot up in here, cause I’m on that gasoline
You know I’ll take my shoes off
And grab my vasoline…oh..

[Chorus]
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Make me make me
Make me make me
Cause a scene up in here, don’t
I’m demanding all of my respect
I don’t care who’s bout to see me
Cause a scene up in here

[Flo Rida Rap]
Heyy sh-sh-Shawty We got the champagne poppin’,
and weed for you to be poppin’ off,
Throwing that attention, that’ll fo sho will get cops involved,
Li-Listen to me baby, I can’t help these chicks that you be rollin on
I know that you, you do me, at the end of the night - they go home, we get grown,
Un cut or cut, why even cause a scene?
Okok but when we do have make up sex,
I’m not dating maybelline,
baby, I do got nuff respect,
If not bout these broads, I’m bout my cheese,
To the-Flo-Rida I, oh I do love my Teairra Mari,
Shit, shit mama lets be drama free, shawty you good,
Left the ghetto, move from the projects,
Damn, I thought I left the hood,
Well, then when I bought them stilletos,
to keep something on your foot,
To supply you, with lots of henny,
See, some bitches get wood,
I ain’t did nothin I would never push your button,
Then she double, Ella Ella - no way Ima would stay out of it,
Oh, today breakin up this subject,
We gotta take it out in public,
I, I know that you my wifey but my boo ain’t got your back

[Teairra Mari]
What’d you say?
(Ahhh, oooh)
Don’t test me
(Ahhh, oooh)
Don’t test me

I’m demanding all of my respect
I don’t care who’s bout to see me
Cause a scene up in here
No…

Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Cause a scene up in here
Don’t make me make me
Make me make me
Make me make me
Cause a scene up in here, don’t
I’m demanding all of my respect
I don’t care who’s bout to see me
Cause a scene up in here

All my ladies say
(Ahhh, oooh)
Don’t test me
(Ahhh, oooh)
Don’t test me
(Ahhh, oooh)

I’m demanding all of my respect
I don’t care who’s bout to see me
Cause a scene up in here
No…

kiss goodbye

hello!

jux a short post... even thou i noe no one read tis blog, so i have no idea y it still exists... zZz... anyway, wanted to get sum anger out of e way first...
i was seriously shock when i log in, i saw u online... tat is lyk equal to zero chances... so nvm... but as soon as i was online, u log off immediately... tankx ar... now wad??? u givin me e cold shoulder??? avoid me??? dont even bother to sms me anymore??? is tis how u actually treat friendship??? use me, dump me aside after usage??? pick me up again wif ur sweet tender words then use me yet again and e cycle continues??? wad is tis??? i now u very well tat u already long gone over ur ex-gf... mayb even already on e path to gettin a new one already... but y do u have to do tis to OUR FRIENDSHIP!!! is tis all i m to u??? usage??? even fate is playin wif me... y??? my life jux sucks... i cant feel tat livin is worth it anymore... somehow, i already felt tat my world has crumpled down... is lyk it can b easily thrown into e rubbish bin cause is of no use already... wad's done cant be undone... and wad's made, can't b un-make... e simply fact of me feelin our friendship can actually last is long gone once i last saw u tat day... i thot i was happy, but lookin back, mayb tat sign was obvious enough tat i didnt even realise... i finally understand wad bella swam had been sayin, tat last kiss was different from all the other kisses, cause they meant goodbye... the short, sweet, tender, no lingerin on kiss meant jux tat... it was so different... wasnt even lyk e first time at all... so tell me, jux wad is on ur mind??? no contact??? wan to forget me??? wan me to lose u even as a friend??? if tat's wad u wan, let me tell u tis... i will fulfil for u, bye... no kiss goodbye, no huggin u... jux a simple clean break is all u wan, ixnt it??? there... i gave u wad u wanted...

bye... i will forget u even as a friend...

and now, i got no mood to do anytin... haix... all tankx to u ruinin my mood... tank u so much... for those who noe me well, u should noe who i'm referin to... haix... and i thot it was over cause i already gotten over him... now, friendship prob... i didnt noe my life has so much prob... oh well... i wan to see him again... not e above him la... another him... :) and i forgot to tell him sumtin e last time i saw him... hahax... oops... hack la... hahax... since he always bully me... LOL!!! i tink tis him only yina noe ba... hahax... lols... didnt see him 2day, so sad... but then again, his classroom most of e time oso not in our blk... hahax... nvm... jux continue wishin... :)
gotta go do rel, if not i dont noe when i'm goin to copy finish lor... zZz... y cant we jux print??? zZz...
Oh ya, HOORAY!!! KRIS WON!!! and not tat adam gay... hahax... lol...

手放開

我把自己關起來只留下一個陽台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看著往事　一幕一幕　再次演出你我的愛
我把電視機打開聽著別人的對白
也許那些故事可以給我一個交代
你要的愛　我學不來　
眼睜睜看情變壞　眼睜睜看情感慨
不能給你未來　我還你現在
安靜結束也是另一種對待　當眼淚留下來
傷已超載　分開也是另一種明白
我給你最後的疼愛是手放開
不要一張雙人床中間隔著一片海
感情的污點就留給時間慢慢漂白
把愛收進胸前左邊口袋
最後的疼愛是手放開
不想用言語拉扯所以選擇不責怪
感情就像候車月台　有人走就有人來　
我的心是一個站牌　寫著等待
不能給你未來　我還你現在
安靜結束也是另一種對待　當眼淚留下來
傷已超載　分開也是另一種明白
我給你最後的疼愛是手放開
不要一張雙人床中間隔著一片海
感情的污點就留給時間慢慢漂白
把愛收進胸前左邊口袋
最後的疼愛是手放開
不想用言語拉扯所以選擇不責怪
感情就像候車月台　有人走有人來　
我的心是一個站牌　寫著等待
最後的疼愛是手放開
不要一張雙人床中間隔著一片海
感情的污點就留給時間慢慢漂白
把愛收進胸前左邊口袋
最後的疼愛是手放開
不想用言語拉扯所以選擇不責怪
感情就像候車月台　有人走有人來　
我的心是一個站牌　寫著等待
我把收音機打開聽著別人的失敗
哽咽的聲音彷彿訴說著相同悲哀
你的依賴　還在胸懷　
我無法輕易推開　我無法隨便走開
感情中專心的人容易被傷害

I Did It For Love - BoA

I'm pretty damn happy at least for a while... (: yesterday at least...
dont tink 2day will... :(

I... did it for love.
I... did it for love.
I... did it for love.
I... did it for love.

what's hard for me,
I saw your game, but yet, and still you got me,
You touched the deepest part of me, you got my heart, it's jumpin'.
I told you all of my secrets, didn't see betrayal,
One year, two months, and now it's over, didn't think we'd fail.

Lovin' you is causin' me to change,
and it hurts so bad, it don't feel the same.
And now my friends are askin' me what did I do,
I done hurt myself over loving you.

I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.


I know that I did you wrong.
Please forgive me, baby girl, I'm sorry.
You know that you did me wrong.
Why you cryin'? Baby girl, I'm sorry.
I know that I did you wrong.
Heaven knows I don't mean to hurt nobody.
You know that you did me wrong.
Let me take this time to say I'm sorry.

Lovin' you is causin' me to change,
and it hurts so bad, it don't feel the same.
And now my friends are askin' me what did I do,
I done hurt myself over loving you.
Oh, I...

I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.

I had some intentions, baby, but not on hurting you.
(I I I)I wanna make it up to you.
Did you see it in my heart?
I can't trust it anymore.
(I I I)I wanna make it up to you.
(I I I)I wanna make it up to you.
Did you see it in my heart?
I can't trust it anymore.

I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.

I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.
I, I, I, I, did it, did it, did it for love.

Did it for love...
Did it for love...
Did it for love...
Did it, did it, did it for love...

Have You Ever - Brandy

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Hush Hush

Hello!

i'm goin to post in private for awhile b4 i update here again, i tink... or mayb, i wont update here as often liao...

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known
I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spend
I never ask for help
I take care of myself
I dont why you think you got a hold on me

And its a little late for conversations
There isnt anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me because

I dont want to stay another minute
I dont want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because
I dont want to, do this any longer
I dont want you, theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
Ive already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday
Im sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And its a little late for explanations
There isnt anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So you will listen when I say baby

I dont want to stay another minute
I dont want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because
I dont want to do this any longer
I dont want you theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
Ive already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying

No more pain
No more hurt
No more trying

I dont want to stay another minute
I dont want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because
I dont want to, do this any longer
I dont want you, theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
Ive already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

Heels Over Head

Hello!

not goin to write much... jux here to post a few funny pics to di-stress... (jux a few captions) enjoy... :)


Who to hire, if u wan ur enemy gone??? obviously, tis cat... perfect aimin accuracy...



tis is a perfect time for u guys out there, so jux give it a call...


When ur husband is tryin very hard, u JUX gotta come up wif escape routes...


I'm sry... jux too hungry???


A perfect example of e weak and e strong...


Freeze! give me ur hat, or i will melt u down...


Yup, eat more chickens, spare e cows(steaks)...


see my devil suit, NOW be afraid of me...


Some guys jux love to protect their "little brother" and not their face... oh well, for e gals, it's both!


see, i can fly!!!


Jux when u tink being a famous basketballer got u fans, u r gettin e wrong deal...


honey, i have got to b in e Guinness World of Record, for e biggest load of bullshits...


Nokia latest invention for singaporeans, jux so they can help to shoot Mas Selamat down, if he tries to escape again...



tis kind of husband belongs to e catergory of "awww, so sweet of u, BUT I'm dumpin u immediately"


goes for gals wif a broken heart...


a perfect example showin e perfect phrase, if looks can kill...


guns should have being allow long ago, so we can shoot our parents...


Jux goes to show gals love to shop... while guys dont...


use sunblock, u pig, if not u will b a bacon, pig...

tat's all... jux needed to de-stress, so here's some for u guys to enjoy...

Ciao!~

My Love

Hello!

back... decided i shall update a short one, b4 i go re-read my breakin dawn, since i ran out of bk to read... ho ho ho... anyway, went out yesterday to pray... then came home, breakin our initial plan of goin to Toa Payoh to eat... zZz... cause aunty nancy and uncle philip came over... so chat, chat and went to compass point tat Thai/Indonesia restaurant to celebrate mother's day... early??? not really... lol... then came back, napped... left hse again, but i was late in leavin my hse... zZz... reached taka there later by half an hour... zZz... but, end up only got 3 ppl there... and e worst ting, main organizer is not even there yet... zZz... so decided to bused to the cathy to eat japanese village there e sushi, $1/plate... while q-in, 2 more came... so chatted and ate... joked abit, then left... went to ps, to help tat dumb guy buy his mother's day present... so late then buy, somemore, the shops are about to close liao... while we were there, another came wif her friends... bused down to clark quay... everyone objected to yello jello, so went in search of another bar/pub... left between e choice of fashion bar or azzucar... so we came azzucar a try, since fashion bar left only outside to sit... it appears to b more of a club then bar/pub... lol... didnt drink, cause got no volka... hahax... and e drinks are abit of e price range for me... but after hearin them bout their drinks, m glad tat i didnt order... lol... rushed to e train station, cause left last train liao... lol... end up waited for last train quite a while... haix... and blame it on me, sumtin snapped... controlled it all e way... after a while, it became okay... i oso dont noe y i felt tat way all of a sudden... kept tinkin bout it in my mind, dont noe wad to say bout it anymore... haix... i cant even tink bout it anymore... is jux not rite... if only it was jux as straight a clear cut question... haix...

An empty street, an empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

[Chorus:]
So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.

I try to read, I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking. (oh no)
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again...

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of

Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take its there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.

Say it in a prayer (my sweet love)
Dreams will take it there
Where the skies are blue (woah yeah), to see you once again my love. (oh my love)
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again.... My Love.

Ciao!~

Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely

Hello!

back frm BE envoys bbq... y go there??? go there and b entertain... hahax... lol... and meet e gays... hahax... and for some secret reasons... hahax... lol... shhh... hahax... anyway, came home, and i felt hungry jux now... lol... no wonder i so fat liao... eat so much... lol... nvm... i'm so goin to e gym on tue... hahax... a quick rough update for tis week...

Mon : late for class... attend class... took 74, saw anica on e upper deck... went bmc plc to get sand bathe for merilyn's hamster... bused 159 home... very packed... did rmt project, sent via email to wilson, shut down for e nite...

Tue : no skool... in e mornin, rush e final part of e rmt project, sent... went to amk library to do project... then went back to skool for blazer fittin for tis comin wed graduation day outfit... bused home...

Wed : late for class as usual... attend class... bout to go home, went to meet up wif be envoys ppl to help wilson to do e game show tat ppt... dont forget e lyric... lol... bought home to do in e end... slept around 2plus in e mornin...

Thu : damn... forgot to save e whole ppt... damn... so got to remake e whole ppt yet again... told wilson, so end up have to meet him in e nite to pass to him... anyway, attend class... ate lunch, slack, go lecture, break, go lecture... hahax... then went home, did e ppt... pass to him when he called to meet me... lol... around 9 plus??? somemore i rushin to do my law tutorial... cause need to hand in 2day!!! and need to b hand-written... damn... lol... saw e ppt slides for 2day presentation, not bad ma... but wilson COPY MY IDEA!!! lol... he tried to copy and paste, but too sad, IT CANT B COPY!!! hahax... so he did it manually... lol... dont wan to tell him my trick... lol... and he keeps claimin my ppt skills sucks, when it's so much better than his... HO HO HO!!! take tat... lol... no la... is a joke between us la... lol...

Fri : 本小姐今天没有迟到。。。 哈哈。。。 棒吧！！！ 高笑了，竟然敢用华文来说。。。kay la... i got difficulty writin lor... hahax... anyway, went to pvl tutorial, do until wan to sleep la... zZz... then lecture... really cannot make it liao, slept... hahax... but only for an hour, cause lecture only last an hour... lol... then went to meet grp mates for rehearse of presentation, end up cause of our grp, so e whole tutorial over-run, end up last grp only did 1 slide per person... lol... cause they left wif 3mins to present... tanks to all e other 3 grps, each takin 15mins plus... hahax... and plus b4 lesson, we delay time leh... so end up left 3mins... lol... anyway, went to 72 slack b4 lecture... hahax... and guess wad??? i didnt sleep durin lecture, cause of a joker... lol... he damn funny... and we kept makin fun of tis guy tat is super gay and seeks both genders attentions... hahax... but he's a loner... cause of his disgustin actions... then huiyock(joker), kept sayin his position of sittin is cause he masturbating... lol... jux cause he cross his legs... hahax... then gerald oso agree wif him... lol... faith oso agree along wif e stuffs tat joker said... lol... then break, we went to clash e other class lecture, and found out tat their lecturer is worst, so in a way, ours is a blessin in disgust... lol... and when we end lecture lyk half an hr earlier, we went to clash their class lecture again, and is lots of ppl all go in at e same time... lol... and e lecturer ask if we frm their class one... lol... but she ask it in a way, where e ans has to b yes nia... how she ask??? "are e back ppl (referin to us) frm 5a???" lol... of course la... but their class is 5a1, but ours is 5a2... lol... isnt tat e joke??? hahax... so nvm, lecture continue... hahax... and we found out again, both lecturers dont noe how to use youtube... lol... break then went to 34 to hand in law b4 headin for briefin... hahax... cause e briefin is about INP/FYP/PDD... lol... of course choose INP la... hahax... then chatted wif our class advisor for very long... hahax... head for bbq next... e smoke is damn damn thick... cause frm a distance already can smell, i wonder how come e fire alarm nv go off ar??? lol... not workin la, mux be... zZz... so anyway, went there, chatted, watched them played blackjack wif penalty... lol... then head out and took e food... stand there and see wilson, wei yang and nicholas openin prataa for e food... lol... buy tat, but nv thot of usin can opener... hahax... jokers sia... so took e food, and sat down... then jun xian they all left to sit inside, left e 3 of us sittin there against e wall, lyk emoin... lol... so daxino, came over and sat down wif us to chat... lol... guess wad, he took one of e module tat i wan to take... ARGH!!! so cool... i wan to take social Psychology... lol... cool rite??? cause i can venture into human resource at most if i dont wan to work as a valuation officer... hahax... so sweet... lol... so we chatted, and now merilyn is interested to go join chess club... lol... nerds... and he ask her to go join english chess... lol... and tat dumbo guy ask me go ask e freshies class to invite e both of us for their class bbq/charlet... lol... so dumb... hahax... chatted then end up he went off, cause someone said he got swine fly... cause his called mexino... then fiona called him lexino (i tink), and my all time favourite way of callin daxino, CASINO!!! hahax... nv change much okay... is jux change C & S... lol... hahax... left shortly after tat...

Looks lyk my fri post isnt tat short after all... hahax... lol... goin to chill 2molo wif e SLs... yeah... very long nv chill liao... need a good break... and b4 i start muggin lyk siao... go jo!!!

Ciao!~

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift

You're on the phone
With your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about
Something that you said
She doesn't get your humor
Like I do

I'm in my room
It's a typical tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music
She doesn't like
She'll never know your story
Like I do

But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And i'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
You belong with me.

Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey whatchu doing
With a girl like that

She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know
Baby
You belong with me
You belong with me.

[Instrumental]

Oh, I remember
You driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me

Can't you see
That i'm the one
Who understands
Been here all along
So why can't you see?
You belong with me.

Have you ever thought
Just maybe
You belong with me?

Let's Get Excited...

Hello!

back to read more of my ever-borin life??? so anyway, slack at home... read abit here and there... research and read up on rmt assignment b4 leavin hse to meet up wif groupmates at taka... but end up, i was early... ho ho ho... so went to walk around e basement where e sales is!!! lots of bags i saw tat i wanted, but then, i'm broke... sob sob... and i saw designer perfumes tat are quite cheap... oh man, lyk tat i should have not bought my mum her mother's day yesterday... should have buy 2day instead... zZz... so walked around while waitin for groupmates to arrive... then went out lyk around 6.30??? hahax... saw them, then discuss bout usin taka or usin ps... end up, talk talk, then settle for ps... cause ps has more history than taka... snapped "lots" of photos... and video record quite a bit... makin us look lyk some tourists la... lots of funny moments... cause some crappy photographer dont noe how to take and use e camera, so he... nvm... dont noe how to say... lol... all i can say is damn funny... after all shots, went for dinner... had more laughters there... sat around until every single person left carl's jr... left ps around 10... board e train home wif wilson cause he oso live here... hahax... did a bit of research... got to go and sleep now... skool day 2molo... tired... haix...

Ciao!~

LoveGame

Hello!

borin life got nth to update bout... short update ba... went out wif darlins 2day... went tampines 1... ate carl's jr, set objective for 2day outin trip... lol... enter every shop in search of mother's day present and my new bag tat i wan to get until 2day still haven get... zZz... anyway, entered every shop... headed to uni qlo to see... wanted to get e t-shirt material dress, but then on 2nd thot, mayb not... hahax... finally can enter wifout q-in for it... :) then wave bye bye to alks... continue walkin... settle anica's mother's day present... bought my card... then settle down at tea dots to drink tea... not enough cash, go draw money... then drank tea... yummy... damn nice la... name of tea : perfect match latte... wad is it actually??? is tea wif milk wif strawberry flavourin... i can still savour e taste in my mouth... hahax... lol... headed to sasa and got my mother's day present... hahax... wad is it??? i shall not reveal until e day itself... :) bused home... tat's all... short and sweet... lol... pics are on facebk... cause blogger pic uploader sumtimes sucks... u get wad i mean...
got to meet up wif rmt group 2molo to take pictures!!! of wad??? ngee ann city... hahax... and is meet in e evenin... tank u very much u noe who... for workin until so late!!! hahax...
lovegame is a nice song but e lyrics a bit sick sia... but i kinda of lyk e beat and e flow of e song... nice... thumbs up...

Let's have some fun,
This beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

Let's have some fun,
This beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

I wanna kiss you
But if I do then I might miss you babe
It's complicated and stupid

Got my ass squeezed by sexy Cupid
Guess he wants to play,
Wants to play
A love game
A love game

Hold me and love me
Just want to touch you for a minute
Baby three seconds is enough for my heart to quit

Let's have some fun,
This beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Don't think too much just bust that kick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

Let's play a love game,
Play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans le love game?

Let's play a love game,
Play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans le love game?

I'm on a mission,
And it involves some heavy touchin' yeah.
You've indicated your interest,
I'm educated in sex, yes.
And now I want it bad,
Want it bad.
A love game,
A love game.

Hold me and love me.
Just want to touch you for a minute.
Baby three seconds is enough for my heart to quit.

Let's have some fun,
This beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Don't think too much just bust that kick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

Let's play a love game,
Play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans le love game?

Let's play a love game,
Play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans le love game?

I can see you staring there from across the block with a smile on your mouth and your hand on your huh
The story of us it always starts the same with a boy and a girl and a huh and a game!
And a game
And a game
And a game
A love game!

Let's play a love game,
Play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans le love game?

Let's play a love game,
Play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans le love game?

Let's play a love game,
Play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans le love game?

Let's play a love game,
Play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans le love game?

Ciao!~