Crush

yo!

back, or rather not really back... anyway, not much to update either...

fri -
met up,
then met up wif yihui,
bused to skool,
played monopoly,
declared bankrupt cause of some evil ppl(damn his hotels!!!),
bused to town,
waited for fiona, yihui,
went up to far east,
did manicure,
merilyn came,
went to eat at pasta mania,
over creamy and cheesey (wanted to puke),
head to train,
home,
fb-in...
slept...

sat -
rot at home...
fb-in...
slept...

sun -
rot at home, i tink??? i cant rmb where we went...
fb-in...
slept...

mon - (pic on fb... too lazy to upload here)
woke up late,
went to loy's busstop late,
bused to parkway parade,
bought my nail strengther and filer frm faceshop,
no rain,
cabbed to ecp,
ate mac,
cycled,
cabbed,
bused,
home,
fb-in,
slept...

tue -
off alarm,
end up wake up late to choose,
got into same class as yan jun (i&e event management) - found out yihui, dickson, jon same class oso,
fb-in,
then slept,
woke up again,
went out wif mimmy,
went ps instead of jb... sob sob...
came home,
slept and read nora robert murder bks...
fb-in,
sleepin soon???

so as u can see, 2 tins is needed everyday... fb-in and sleepin... hahax... oh, and msnin and readin nora robert murder stories... hahax... anyway, need to wake up early 2molo to pei ah ma go polyclinic and hairdresser... then after tat, goin cyclin(yet again), wif pinru,rena,duan,xuan... and until now, i wonder do i need to go to camp??? cause they nv email me regardin e camp stuff... haix...

Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging,
Spending time, girl, are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more

Ciao!~

Irreplaceable

i suck at makin tings rite...
i suck at gettin over tings...
i suck cause i hate who i m...

i hate the way tings went...
i hate the fact tat when i'm alone, i keep tinkin...
i hate e fact tat i'm weak in emotions...
i hate e fact tat i'm a gal... and get led around by my feelins...
i hate e fact tat since i'm a gal, i cant do anytin wifout tinkin bout it afterwards...

i wish for lots of tings, but most of them didnt even come true...
i wish for love to crowd me, but tat aint happenin anytime in tis life...
i wish for good results...
i wish for money...
i wish for a good job...
i wish for comfort...
i wish for e past to be left behind me...
i wish for some part of history to repeat itself...
i wish for someone to love me and be there for me...
but none of it is ever goin to come true wifin tis year...
haix...





but i pray hard for soometings not to happen...



BUT MOST OF ALL,




i hate myself tis much cause u r irreplaceable to me...

Sway

Yo!

met duan, anica and xuan... xin tagged along while we at ajisen... ate student meal there... offically broke for e week... damn... saw yina at cs... home after stonin for so long...
i find it meaningless to blog nowadays... haix... so, i suppose not goin to blog for a period of time??? not sure... i'm jux plain old tired, restless, moodless and goin thru a rough period of emotional crisis... i'm not havin mood swing, so ya, no pms... bleh... but yet, i have being reflectin quite alot... (not to mention, drippin at nite) couldnt sleep... being tinkin thru every tin... is not tat i dont wan to talk it out or wad, but i guess tis is where i have to do it on my own... and if i dont, i guess i cant find anytin in me anymore... so i need to do tis all by myself... tis is sumtin i have to go thru, all alone... to rest my peace in my mind... to bury everytin deep down... to finally (i guess) close a lid over tat past... and to b able to return back to my normal self... hmmm...
anyway, sumtin to share...

Funny truths about life in small small Singapore....

1. Nite - Sleep with air-con; Day - Bathe with heater on

2. Day - Cannot Wake up; Nite - Cannot Sleep

3. Cigarettes - Convenient to buy; not convenient to smoke

4. Chewing Gum - Can Chew, Cannot buy?? (Restricted to buying)

5. Smell Of rubbish besides letterboxes; Rubbish inside Letterbox

6. Private Cars - Cheaper & Cheaper to Buy,harder & harder to Maintain

7. Education - Teachers teaching Less but expects students to learn More

8. High-tech barbaric Singaporeans - know how to use state-of-the art equipment, but dunno how to use a simple dustbin or a toilet

9. There are quite a number of rich/poor in spore - They have Car, Credit Card, CPF .... but no Cash and lots of loans

10. Translation is needed between Singaporean Chinese and Mainland Chinese

11. Sporean never like to vote, but like to complain

12. Half Sporeans rushed to buy Hello kitty, but the other half busy killing stray cats

13. Public Bus - Half the Crowd squeeze in front section of the Bus, Second section is for Carrying Ghost

True aint it??? hahax... i believe one of them suit me quite well... lol... have fun... i hope... i jux hope tis feelins will b gone... cause i'm sick of tis me... not wad i m... hopefully, will b gone by e time apr arrivals...

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Sway me, make me
Thrill me, hold me
Bend me, ease me
You have a way with me

Ciao!~

Burnin' Up

Hello!

rantin time yet again... lol...
anyway, woke up early (yet again), but fall back to sleep again... lol... then changed and went to meet duan and anica for gym session... lol... didnt lose weight... bleh... but at least maintain... hahax... anyway, after tat, went to cp... bought bubble tea... chatted wif bubble tea uncle... lol... he claimed he used to work at np... lol... and then last time e oct balls is he tend one... and all other stuff, anyway, went home... slack and watch e re-run of channel 8 drama bout dancin... and tummy ache... cause of e crunches... grr... out again 2molo... lol... no wonder no money... lol... damn...
oh and i got my module... hahax... as in extra module... lol... but so far, it seems i'm alone... crap... t5a4 anyone for rmt??? pls tell me at least got ppl 2gether... hmmm... or mayb i can change class... hahax... now, waitin for 31 mar to come... so i can take SPAINISH!!! hahax... then i can understand J.Lo Songs... ho ho... hopefully i get tat... hahax...
oh, i tin i learn sumtin frm watchin e re-run of tat drama... sumtin tat i miss off when watchin for e first time... is tat, in order to get ur dream fulfil, sumtimes, u jux have to give up every other tings... includin love... haix... e sufferin in order to get wad u wan... sumtimes, i wonder is it worth it... haix...

I'm hot
You're cold
You go around
Like you know
Who I am
But you don't
You've got me on my toes

I'm slipping into the lava
And I'm tryin' to keep from going under
Baby, who turned the temperature hotter?
'Cause I'm burning up, burning up
For you baby

I fell (I fell)
So fast (so fast)
Can't hold myself
Back
High heels (high heels)
Red dress (red dress)
All by yourself, gotta catch my breath

Walk in the room
All I can see is you
You're staring me down
I know you feel it too

Ciao!~

One Step At A Time

Hello!

rantin time again... ho ho... weather forecast for 2day : HEAVY RAIN!!! ass... and y is it a pain in e ass??? cause IT SPOILT OUR PLAN OF SUNTANNIN AND CYCLIN!!! DAMN!!! so ya, no ecp trip 2day... crap... and to tink miss jojo FINALLY took out her tank top and wash yesterday... if not u nv noe when she's goin to wear... crap... and e weather jux have to spoilt it... oh bang... anyway, i did wear my tank top still... lol... but is to a diff venue... we went to watch movie... lol... and after wearin it for 1 day, i seriously tink i should have bought a size smaller... crap...
anyway, met up wif duan and xuan... anica was late as usual... bleh... ate at ljs first and chatted while awaitin e late queen... met up wif late queen, head to carl's jr next... a ate her salad... chatted awhile, and head for cinema to buy tickets... in e end, we decided to watch race to witch mountain... lol... done, and headed home... goin gym 2molo... ho ho...

Race to Witch Mountain


Rating: 7/10

not bad la... more of e kiddie show... hoho... kay, i dont noe wad's wrong wif me... keep sayin ho ho... christmas is OVER!!! lol... anyway, summary... hmmm... "the rock" aka Dwayne Johnson acts as a simple guy who jux drives taxi for a livin... and he didnt even believe in UFO but when he met tis 2 kids who are actually aliens in human form... and their quest to witch mountain aka FBI area, where they have to obtain their spaceship back and fly back to their planet...

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

Ciao!~

Emotions

Hello!

damn piss now... lots of diff emotions runnin thru me... but i'm so goin to complain first... then after tat i go and sort thru my emotions... nth much to blog bout 2day... woke up late as usual... then after that, cooked maggie mee and head out to hougang... to make my ez-link card... let me tell u e new card, is so ugly... without e skool logo... and then background is all e "world-class" transport of sgp... bleh... but quite fast la... e whole card is completed in lyk 5 to 8 mins or so??? so after tat, went to NTUC to buy abit of gocceries... then head home... finish e whole deal in lyk 45mins??? as in leave hse, reach there, make, buy, reach home = 45mins... pretty fast... hahax...
nth much... mayb 2molo???

It's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

Ciao!~

Fly On The Wall

Hello!

nth much for update... yesterday, stayed at home, woke up at 1pm, until around late 3 plus??? then left e hse to cp... and e freakin rain was so heavy la... but anyway, went there, met up wif fiona and waited for yihui... np ba skool havin some kind of a failure event at e atrium... lol... chill at starbucks... then after yh came, went to e store beside - mos burger, for a brunch or rather high tea... lol... slacked there, then went to walk around... then went to walked thru e event... walked around compass, then came dicky... went to library to chill after... cam-whored... then left and head for home... bought dinner, and read my nora robert bookies... i so want to buy finish e whole series... which is still in e process of writin new bks... lol... i can nv get enough of roarke and eve dallas... hahax... msg abit and slept... (hurt)
2day, woke up quite late... oh well, at least is earlier than yesterday... chill and managed to skipped out of doin hsehold chores... lol... ate lunch, and head for ah ma hse... but b4 tat, went to suntec food fair... bought "PIE KIA", "BAKERS sumtin", and a bit of here and there... lol... then head for ah ma hse... and got shoot... zZz... apparently, cause i too long nv appear there, then come and shoot me say 2day wad kind of wind blowin... zZz... came back home, somehow felt so tired... but now i'm awake... crap... oh well, go and read my nora robert... :) oh, and sales apparently aint tat good.. haix... better luck next time... i suppose...

If you only knew what i talked about
When I'm with my friends just hangin' out
Then you'd have the inside scoop
On what to say, what to do
That way when you play the game
Baby you could never lose

Don't you wish that you could be a Fly on the Wall
A creepy little sneaky little Fly on the Wall
All my precious secrets, yeah
You'd know them all
Don't you wish that you could be a Fly on the Wall

Ciao!~

Love Sex Magic - Ciara ft JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE!!!

lol... k la... a nice update for 2day.... woke up at 8.30am... then set up lappy and every tin... sign in and was quite happy... hahax... then played fb... met up wif guests... sent them off... and head to traffic light to meet up wif loy and yina... saw yan you on e way there... lol... she changed quite alot... hmmm... anyway, swam and now at home slack... lol... nth better to do but play fb YET AGAIN and of course, re-readin my nora robert bkie... hahax... and i suppose i will b bored 2molo... damn... no work for tis weekend either... cause sales simply is too bad... poor joshua... haix...
OH, AND U GUYS CAN CONTACT MY
84******
TAT LINE ALREADY!!! :) TANKX...

Ciara

Your touch is so magic to me
The strangest things can happen
The way that you react to me
I wanna do something you can’t imagine
Imagine if there was a million me’s talking sexy to you like that
You think you can handle, boy
If I give you my squeeze and I need you to push it right back

Baby, show me, show me
What’s your favorite trick that you wanna use on me
And I’ll volunteer
And I’ll be flowing and going
Till clothing disappears, ain’t nothing but shoes on me
Oh, baby

Ciara and Justin Timberlake

All night, show it, just you and the crowd
Doing tricks you never seen
And I bet that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic
So let me drive my body around you
I bet you know what I mean
Cause you know that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic

Justin Timberlake

Everything ain’t what it seems
I wave my hands and I got you
And you feel so fly assisting me
But now it’s my turn to watch you
I ain’t gonna stop you if you wanna crowd my neck
Talk sexy to me like that
Just do what I taught you, girl
When I give you my heat and I need you to push it right back

Ciara

Baby, show me, show me
What’s your favorite trick that you wanna use on me
And I’ll volunteer
And I’ll be flowing and going
Till clothing disappears, ain’t nothing but shoes on me
Oh, baby

Ciara and Justin Timberlake

All night, show it, just you and the crowd
Doing tricks you never seen
And I bet that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic
So let me drive my body around you
I bet you know what I mean
Cause you know that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic
Song words are provided by Geniusbeauty.com

Oh, this is the part where we fall in love
Oh, let’s slow it down so we fall in love
But don’t stop what you’re doing to me

All night, show it, just you and the crowd
Doing tricks you never seen
And I bet that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic
So let me drive my body around you
I bet you know what I mean
Cause you know that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic

Ciao!~

oh and i wan to get my hands on one of this!!! Comes in barbie toy, my melody and minnie mouse... hahax... i wan one...
can u guess wad tis is???
lol...

happy happy happy... over e moon!!!

YEAH!!! JO PASS HER ECONS AND SHE IS SUPER SUPER HAPPY!!! AND HER GPA INCREASE OSO... NOT BAD... HAHAX... BUT NOW SHE WAITIN WHETHER DID SHE GET E EXTRA MODULE... HAIX... TAT ONE HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL 3PM... LOL... SO SO FAR, HER TIMETABLE HAS A TUESDAY FREE... ZzZ....
oh ya, everyone in T2B3 still???

Next To You

Hello!

nth much... rot at home in e mornin... feel uncomfortable wifout sleepin beside my viewty... haix... but i replace it wif tis samsung... but lousy functions... cause photos cant b transfer over to com, no mp3 songs allow... but at least it can lock my phone... got a new sim card... but wont b able to activitated by 2molo mornin... ass... haix... there goes my via sms results... so i got to wake up and log in... crap... BUT I'M FREAKIN SCARE BOUT MY RESULTS!!! ESP ECON!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
anyway, went out at 1 wif ah ma to compass... then came home slack or least bk, met up wif yihui at cp at 4.25pm... head downtown... went to chill at starbucks at the cathy... while waitin for e eva slow fiona... lol... hahax... she came, then went to order coffee... ice cubed mocha... yummy... wif lots of whip cream... i feel so fat now... crap... but hey, i lost 3kg... lol... then went to catch a movie... and sry, wrong choice of movie... guess wad movie we caught...

so e wrong choice rite??? hahax... k la... not wrong choice la... but is freakin scary... e whole time, i was lyk watchin frm behind my cardigan... hahax... somemore, e seat beside me was lyk EMPTY!!! so is freakin scary... wad's more e movie happen in a cinema oso lor... hahax... was kinda of wishin someone beside me... so i can hide... but nvm... after came out frm all e cinema, felt really weird... and since being a typical singaporean, e first tin to do is, check ur handphone... lol... for sms, for call or wadeva... hahax... anyway, went back to starbucks to chill... then head to ps for e train home... hahax... tankx fiona and yihui for sendin me off... and hopefully i wont die 2molo... zZz... tank god i didnt see e hangin part... i only saw e eyes taken out... ewwwwwwww... if i cant sleep 2nite, some ppl is so goin to suffer... hahax... cause i will call u... lol...

Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

Ciao!~

Mad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SCREW THOSE WHO TOOK MY PHONE!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
DAMN THOSE BLOODY BASTARDS SON-OF-BITCHES WHO STOLE MY WHITE POUCH!!! DAMN MAC AT SK GYM!!!! DAMN THOSE TAT TOOK MY PHONE, AND DONT EVEN BOTHER TO GET MY PHONE BACK TO IT'S RIGHTFULLY OWNER!!! DAMN THOSE TAT EVEN MY EZ-LINK CARD OSO WAN TO STEAL!!!
AND CAUSE OF ALL THESE, U MAKE ME GO THRU SO MUCH PROCESSES JUX TO MAKE MY LIFE AS NORMAL AS POSSIBLE... DAMN U LA...
ASSHOLE...
and besides all these, i'm worry freakin out!!! my ez-link card has my ic number... my phone has pictures... my phone has a few stuffs important... my phone has my calendar of all those tings i'm goin to do... my phone has lots of songs tat will die if found out e source... damn them... for makin my life a livin hell of a mess...
and to top it all, everyone tinks is my FUCKIN FAULT TAT I, GET THIS, PURPOSELY, LOST MY PHONE, EZ-LINK CARD!!! FUCK LA!!! and my parents are f... keep naggin... especially my mum... enter e hse, back frm jb, and all she starts doin is nag and nag... asshole... is not tat i wan to scold them or wad, but hello, u tink i dont noe all those???
grrr... fuck those who took it la... better get knock and bang down by a car, in a case of hit and run accident... left there to bleed and die... scrumbags...
grrrrrrrrrrrr... and to add sprinkles all over it, i'm piss... over sum rubbish stuffs... and i dont even have to work for 2day, 2molo and fri jux cause sales is bad... my fault??? hello, the crowd is there, but the crowd aint buyin anytin!!! get tat fact... is damn bloody hard can!!! econ not everyone is earnin hor, so not everyone buyin... i bet there is a rise in pets over at e SPCA...
cant b bother anymore... i shall go back and curse and swear tat person who took my pouch and dont wan to return... grrrrrrrrr...

Two 'o clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You're in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is that I got to get next to you
Yeah I got to get next to you
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
You don't know that I got to get next to you

Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

A funny Production of Britney's Song: If U Seek Amy

I don't wanna know

nth much to update...
sales 2day not good... haix... nv even come close to e target...
and i waited so long jux to break my "egg"... i was so close to breakin e big tears... and at e super last min, there my life-saver came...
crap...

jux when i tink of u, i waited for ur msg...
but when i thot of sumone else, u jux have to msg me...
and when i dont wish to entertain u anymore, u jux have to pester me...
u jux have to do every tin opposite of wad i wish for deep down inside...
i used to tink tat u were every tin in my life,
but now, i dont noe...
i dont wish to noe...
e ocassional kisses, hugs are not enough...
but then yet again, every tin frm u were nv enough...
but i have enough already...
e ship sank, e battle died...
and e treasure got sank to e bottom of e ocean...
till another pirate come and swim down to save it up,
it shall b down till e end...
till someone else finds e key,
the lock will e locked for e rest of e Earth life...

Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don't wanna know
If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Oh baby
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't need to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

I don't wanna know where your whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you in the house or when you cruisin
It's been proven, my love you abusin
I can't understand, how a man got you choosin (yeah)
Undecided, I came and provided
My undivided, you came and denied it (why?)
Don't even try it, I know when you lyin (I know when you lyin)
Don't even do that, I know why you cryin (stop cryin)
I'm not applyin no pressure, just wanna let you know
That I don't wanna let you go (I don't wanna let you go)
And I don't wanna let you leave
Can't say I didn't let you breathe
Gave you extra G's (c'mon), put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the West Indies (that's right)
Now it's time you invest in me
Cause if not then it's best you leave
Holla, yeah

Ciao!~

Bleed It Out

Hello!

nth much... sales not tat good, even thou target set consider ok... crowd is there at nite, but not much buyin... many ask and say see first, then consider but as usual, nv buy... pass afew sales to joshua, if not daniel will kill him... so no commission at all... damn... mayb might have team work tat $30 bucks... but nah, i dont tink so... gg to me 2molo and all e followin nites closin... cause i can count and start goin blind... the gifts itself is already so hard to count lor... e name... oh man, save me... tank god 2nite got joshua help me, if not i ho sai... and worst, sat and sun i doin openin... hahax... i wonder how i'm goin to do... lol... so 2day, earn extra OT money... lol... again, tank joshua for helpin claim... :) 2molo, yet another day... pls, let e CROWD AND THE SALES COME IN!!!
pity joshua... he stayed overtime to help me, and yet he 2molo have to go to office so early... haix...

Throw 'em up and let something shine
Going out of my fucking mind

Filthy mouth, no excuse
Find a new place to hang this noose

Truth is you can stop and stare
Run myself out and no one cares

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away

Mama help me I've been cursed
Death is rolling in every verse

Fuck this hurts, I won't lie
Doesn't matter how hard I try

Half the words don't mean a thing
And I know that I wont be satisfied

So why try ignoring him
Make it a dirt dance floor again

Ciao!~

Your Eyes Don't Lie

life is abit kinda of full of dull moments for me...

the dark and unshaded area,
the creeps in ur bones,
the shiverin of e cold chill,
the unexpected moment of truth,
the disturbed past,
the emotional crisis settled on u,
the tiredness of chasin away,
the unknown future,
the unbalance life,
the ever-slippin time,
the fact of losin money,
the not noein who is ur soul mate,
the losin of ur so-called love-d ones,
and the worst of all,
the unpredictable date and time of ur death...

so how to overcome all these fears???
u dont...
u jux wait for them to come and find u...

and let e misery flood u...
let e pain screamed against ur bone...
and feel e world turn upside down...
let ur body take e heat...
and
FALL...

cryin, sobin, shoutin, screamin,
and all nonsense to b taken place...

tat wad i feel... (i came here wif nth to write but end up writin tis... brilliant... crap...)

I know I hurt you,
I know you're hurtin' still.
But I'll make it up to you,
Yeah, baby, I will.
'Cause what we had was so special.
You know we can't give it up.
Now that I'm lookin' at you,
I can see...

Oh, now that I know.
We were apart, but your heart never let go.
So thank you for showing me with one look,
What used to be and still is a possibility..

Ciao!~

bad boy

Hello!

back... yeah!!! damn tired... oh well, nice hike on e foots... lol...
startin frm mornin, where i have a free ride into e office, and a nice little "role play" and quiz and explaination time b4 i start my hike out of e way deep deep ulu area... but i had company... lol... met a new collegue yet again... hmmm... but older than us... lol...
and OMG la... i'm doin closin on weekdays, and openin on weekends... gosh, i'm scare liao... sob sob... and i'm doin closin & openin ALONE!!! ARGH!!! i'm super scare if later e goods missin or wad la... but then tis time round, lots of FREE STUFFS TO B GIVEN OUT LOR!!! buy 2 5lbs, get 10% and free treats... spend $60 and above, got lucky draw... so come visit me hor!!! lol... tiong bahru plaza, weekdays i work 4 to 10pm, weekends 10am to 4pm... lol...
in e afternoon, 2nd part of e hike begins... and e tour guide, being me, is so so at some point... only when i see a buildin i kinda of a bit recognize, would i then noe how to walk... lol... so 2day hike startin venue is raffles place -> clarke quay -> hill st(bugis) -> EU square -> shell house -> river valley road -> montessa childcare centre -> oxley rd -> plaza sing... lol... isnt tat hell of a journey??? and e final destination kept changin... lol... in between stop for breaks and lunch... and have absolute no luck wif cafe related stuffs...
then trained to chinatown to meet up wif family and uncle philip and auntie nancy... frm goin to mouth restaurant to end up goin to a "quite yummy" place to eat dinner... lol... k la, is not bad... but e streamed fish is so freakin big lor... quite fat wif LOTS OF FATS around e eyes... and i mean literally... and since ONLY i noe how to eat fish eyes, i get e WHOLE PORTION of stuffs... ga... my dad say good for me... lol... say 2day i recieved lots of omega 3... ZZZ... crap... and so i suppose i should have slim down lyk 0.3kg??? lol... as if... hahax...
and below is 2 pic of me and my wonderful thumbs... lol... cause ppl claimed my manicure e thumbs nice nia... and e other 8 fingers not nice... crap...


and my freakin eyes look so small... argh!!!
oh and i got new nickname 2day... crap...

Remember the feelings, remember the day
My stone heart was breaking
My love ran away
This moments I knew I would be someone else
My love turned around and I fell
Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you in my life again
Won't you be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you again
No I don't need you again

You once made this promise
To stay by my side
But after some time you just pushed me aside
You never thought that a girl could be strong
Now I'll show you how to go on

Ciao!~

Fallin' Out

Hello!

rantin time once again... woke up early??? oh well, i consider it early la... lol... around 10 plus??? hahax... if u noe me tat is, 10 plus is still cannot wake up de... lol... anyway, woke up but still lie in bed... too deep into my nora robert fantasy... since oh well... *shrug* anyway, flipped thru apr issue of seventeen and tis month cleo, saw and fancy some stuffs... oh well, i'm too broke to spend any money... lol... use lappy for a while and then went to bathe and head out... took bus to bishan and waited for e royal highness to reach... lol... so while waitin for her, went ahead to browse around... hypnosis havin a damn cheap sales there... eyein a few pieces... but didnt buy cause broke... nvm... i'm so goin to drag my mimmy there... lol... then head for popular to kill e remainin waitin time there... saw a couple bks i lyk... hmmm... pitch pitch... lol... anyway, fiona finally arrived and went down to find her at e TOILET!!! lol... unusual meetin place, aint it??? lol...
head for aijisen to eat... yummy... then went to walk... walked here and there, wanted to catch a movie but got nth to watch... k la, not nth... is either too scary - coming soon, or not of legal age to catch it yet - watchmen... lol... so wanted to chill at e cheaper place - library, but ended up, went to do pedicure... lol... but since i was wearin boots, so change to manicure... went to walk around first... let me tell u fiona is a prevert... end of story... lol... went to cotton on, cotton on body, body shop, sasa and a few more shops... then head for our manicure session... lol... after tat home sweet home... and it seems, everytime i come home, first time i do, fall flat on my back and slip into lalaland... lol... m i tat tired??? i dont feel it... but i noe i have all these cramped muscle aches...
and i got to wake up early 2molo... damn... jux in order to get to meetin... haix... pasir ris... damn long nv go there liao... lol...
want to see my manicure??? i tink a bit over price... but then looks not bad la... lol... hahax... and nth of wad anica said have happen to me YET... let's jux pray hard it wont... lol...

Been sitting thinking about you and I and wondering why were not getting along
so frustrated 'cause what we had was a happy home.
I don't know what the situation is but I can tell in the way we kiss
we don't talk no more it feels better when I'm alone

Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you
like you don't appreciate all that I do.
you gotta show me that you want me to stay
don't turn & walk away

Ciao!~

The Young Ones

Hello!

i shall type a proper post 2day then... since... nvm... anyway, shall post on yesterday and today... let's start wif yesterday...

11/3~

left "HSE" at 1 to take train... met up wif dad at ps... went to watch K-20 legend of e mask... then went to kopitam, newly re-opened jux tis week, and ate late late lunch... went home, napped lyk a pig... played fb games, then read as usual, chatted on msn, and off for e nitex... i'm jux blankin my mind nowadays... i dont wan to tink anymore... is not worth it... life has to b goin on... i close my mind shut on tat for now... nth matters to me, other than my nora robert fantasy... so let me live in e fantasy world... lol...

K-20: Legend of the mask

Ratin: 6.2/10

i wont say it's very good, but it aint tat bad either... hahax... jap show... subtitle in english and chinese... is all bout tis guy frm e circus being hired by e original k-20 to take "photos" of tis dective engagment weddin party when actually e camera device is a bomb... and so he got caught and being frame to b k-20, who is actually a thief tat steals valuable stuffs frm e rich... and so, he escaped jail wif e help of theif villagers who one of them happen to b e ring master, i tink??? and so he learned thru e bks frm generations to generations on masterin all e arts of theifin... lol... and he saved e "princess" frm e hands of k-20, and soon teach e "princess" all bout e poor tat are livin... and soon she too care for e poor... and so on... go watch e movie to get it la... hahax...

12/3~

woke up freakin early... first time since holidays started... ho ho... went gym in e mornin wif yihui and dickson, another 1st time... had breakfast, another 1st time since e holidays started... headed home wif yihui, unpack, read lyk 20 pgs or so within 10mins and have to leave again... head for orchard, then walked all e way to far east plaza... and since i was errmm, late, i cabbed all e way to york hotel... where 2day trainin is held... met up wif long time nv see ppl... lol... joshua, cecania, jimmy and so on la... sat in there and i'm so seriously drivin into wonderland... is practically e same as product trainin but jux a bit more details... and tank god there are ermm, 2 juniors, who are jux recuited to errmm, work... hahax... didnt tell them much... so evil, rite??? but wadeva i copied they copied too... ate their dim sum, ok ok la... continue lecture... i'm serious goin to lalaland... and is freakin cold in there, not tat i nv bri jacket but lazy to take out... lol... did e feedback and ran off... oh well, wif e cup they gave... hahax... is super cute... kindly ignore e rubbish site of mine/sis table... hahax... havin all e muscle aches are over me now, man... tis sucks la... crap...


Cute,rite??? hahax...

oh, and join tis event up comin next... lol... can go LV leh... if u go, jio me, pls... hahax... u choose my table, i give u leeway... hahax... lol...

If You Seek Amy - Britney Spears

Ain't her dance moves cool??? i'm so goin to learn la... hmmm... jazz dance class is so wad i'm goin to take... yeah... so i can dance to her standard... she rocks... or at least her dance moves rocks la... *jolyn rolls her eyeballs* o.o

Tomorrow,
why wait till tomorrow,
Tomorrow sometimes never comes.
Love, me,
there's a song to be sung
And the best time is to sing while we're young.

Once in every lifetime
comes a love like this.
I need you and you need me.
Oh my darling can't you see.
Young dreams
Should be dreamed together,
Young hearts shouldn't be afraid.
And some day when the years have flown
Darling, this will teach the young ones of our own.
The young ones
Darling, we're the young ones
The young ones
Darling, we're the young ones.

Ciao!~

pain begets more pain...

i'm jux goin to drink to my heart content for e day... drink and get drunk and forget every tin in e mornin... i gotta slap myself 2gether...

i will do a proper post 2molo... not in e mood 2day...

i shall locked 2day event...

Is it You

Hello!

rantin time once again... nth much 2day anyway... went to gym in e mornin... gotta admit tat gym in e mornin is quite packed... damn... but crowd got thinner once time passed... can really feel e aches 2day lor... mayb cause quite long nv go liao, so ya... but i'm damn happy... cause i lost weight... hahax... glad... hahax... anyway, came home, read and slept all e way until now la... gooodie... zZz... damn... anyway, mum showed me a email which was super funny... wait i find e pic then show u guys ba... if tat is anybody readin my blog la... zZz... is about korean gays and china gays... u cant tell tat korean gays are gays... they looked practically lyk a gal... if u see, then u realise is really OMG!!! hahax...
oh man, i all in in texas and end up i lost... tis is crap... XP
haix... feelins for e moment are always e meanin of e song... (in purple)

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say
The way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinkin' you're the one that I've been waiting for

[chorus: 2x]
Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to
Who will stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust whose heart is right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

[chorus 2x]

Take for granted how much I care (how much I care)
Appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

[chorus 2x]

Ciao!~

Perfect Lover

Hello!

shall do a proper post 2day... went out quite early... hahax... left hse and met yihui and dickson at 8.30am to head for skool... reached skool on a bit earlier then e timin... which is a good ting... anyway, after doin a bit of briefin on e event later, we played 1 round of monopoly... and e banker is a damn joker... and since is short game rule, once one bankrupt, e game end... BUT NO... we jux continue... and is lyk e survivor of e fittest la... zZz... and since e last two standin was me and dickson, e battle was intense... hahax... i'm serious... cause we hack rules, didnt pay money to e bank, jux see who land on whose property and see who die first... lol... quite interestin... hahax... had lunch then head off for unity sec... got to e library, set up table... and e fun begins... and we got to noe e sec 3 of 2day... yes, tiss one little tiny winy boy who learns chinese and speak it in a way makin it sound more lyk vularities then chinese by itself... and e 1st round of ppl, quite cute (no literally but in terms of their playin)... all buy one colour frm e board... jux dont wan ppl to let ppl build house/hotel... lol... so end up took quite long... and there's tis guy, he jux dont wan to collect rent... cause he said tat are too cheap money... lol... and since our table got 3 bankers, 2 guys and i'm e only female... sob sob... and 1st round of ppl, are guys somemore... sob sob... but nvm, 2nd round soon beginin...
2nd round mixed liao... but tis time, e game end cause 1 gal declared bankrupt... lol... and she damn happy tat she declare bankrupt... zZz... and so e game end quite quick... zZz... all in all, not bad a session...
took bus to yew tee mall, ate ljs then head to take train to woodlands then bus back home... lol... eyes are tired after so long... and i'm goin to gym 2molo... lyk finally... lol...
a clip to share... very funny... if u dont get wad she singin, then look at e lyrics... a good laugh... enjoy...

The Mom Song

You're the perfect lover
I'm in love with all the things you do
So seductive when you touch me
I can't get enough of you
You're the best
Baby, you got me obsessed
And I can't catch my breath
Baby, I must confess you got me
Ah, ah, ah
When you come around
Got me so damn high
Can't come down
Everytime you touch me there
You make me feel so hot

I love it
everything you do is so seductive
You got everything that I want and then some
And I can't even front so listen
I know what your missing
Better hurry up
Cause time is ticking
Tic Tock Tic Tock
Come and Get me while I'm hot

Ciao!~

I wanna be THAT girl

I get
This feeling inside
Whenever I see you
You give me
Butterflies
And there's nothing
I can do
The way it feels
Is just so sweet
Your touch
Your kiss it
Makes me weak
Just let me show you
This is true
Give me the chance
And I will prove

I really think
That you're the one
I want to show you
Where I'm coming from
I want to be your girl
And be the one
Who's down for you
I'd like
To get the chance
To show you that
My love is true

I know exactly why
I'm falling in love
With you
You're so gentle
So special
So masculine
It's just
Like honey to a bee
The way
That you
Have captured me
Just like a taste
Of ecstasy

You need to know
That I believe
You are the one
That makes me
Feel this way
The way
You make me feel
Just let me show you
This is true
I don't want to be
Without you
And I dont want
To live without you

I want to be the one
Let me know boy
Can I be the one
That you want
That you need
Let me know boy
Cos' I'm into you
And I want you
Cos' I need too

How can it be
That you're the one
I want to show you
Where I'm coming from
I want to be your girl
And be the one
Who's down for you
I'd like
To get the chance
To show you that