In Need of Solitude.

my printer is dying. and i managed to make the situation worse by slamming a packet of 500 sheets of paper against the printer, thus causing a few cracks and broken pieces here and there. sighz. i have set my eyes on a laser printer. shall get it real soon. i dowan to have my printer die on me while i'm printing out my lab reports. that would be devastating.

this break is horrible. i'm still recovering from flu. just read about the differences between the common cold and flu today. common cold: gradual onset of symptoms. flu: sudden onset of symptoms. and the air outside is so hazy. not good for outside activities such as jogging or brisk walking. sighz. guess i shall have to stick to yoga. hopefully my flu symptoms will clear up soon. i'm getting real fed up.

i tried to wake up late today but i was constantly being awoken by crazy nightmares such as forgetting to go to school, forgetting to finish my lab reports etc etc. oh no. i'm really going mad. i think i'm subconsciously stressed up. basically i don't feel much stress in my everyday life. or maybe i have just got too used to my daily routine of reporting for lectures, tutorials and lab sessions that one week of break has got my biological clock all mixed up.

i watched constantine last saturday. i think itz superb though quite confusing at times. itz one of the very few shows that has got my attention throughout the entire show. right now my favourite movie is still phantom of the opera. i loveeeee the music!

cockroaches are invading my house! help!! hope forest fires stop breaking out real soon. i need my dose of clean air. i'm suffocating~~

i need to get away from technology. i'm retreating back into my room.

i'm going crazy~

the mosquitoes in my house are driving me crazy. i haven't got a good night's sleep for so many days. i REALLY need to sleep. yet they r so merciless, waking me up every night with their extra extremely totally itchy bites. tried to search for them, but i always ended up killing only the male ones. yup, females are always smarter;p

a burnt smell lingered in my house this morning. must be due to the forest fire near my house yesterday. tsk tsk, this is bad for health.

i have so much to do and so little time. i feel like going to uncle ringo's funfair but i heard itz quite ex. and i just realised i spent $1000+ in 6 months!! gosh, i must really curb my spendthrift habits. itz the mid sem break (yup so fast) but i don't feel like i actually have a break at all. this is irritating.

i guess i'd just have to look on the brighter side of life. and stop being so pessimistic and worrying over mundane stuff. i shall stop frowning and start smiling. hee~

LovE is In tHe aiR... So iS mOneY.

i finally got blue roses today~ a whole bouquet of blue roses! i'm so so so happy~:) it just warms my heart to see blue roses... somemore blue roses that belong to me!! thanx dear u r the best~

the stars were beautiful. the ring was beautiful. so was my mood.

happy st valentine's day to all.

ChiNese New YeaR:)

happy CNY to all! :)

itz been a rather uneventful week. just visiting all day long. eat, watch tv, talk. something like that. i sound like i'm not exactly excited bout CNY. the truth is, i'm not. however, itz rather fun playing with my 1 year old ++ godniece maxine today. she's so adorable, with her round eyes and small mouth. she's really intelligent and is already able to engage in small talk with me. mixed bloods are always so beautiful:)

i don't think i'm really close to my relatives. i guess itz because i'm not the sociable type. when i go visiting, i will normally sit in one corner quietly and watch tv. this scenario is especially pronounced when i visited my great-grandmother on the 1st day of CNY. my uncles are 4-5 years younger than me and i see them like once in a year. how to communicate? i'm just not the type who warms up to other people quickly.

visited the chinese garden yesterday. a rather refreshing experience as opposed to all the sedentary conditions of visiting. it was fun posing with the terracotta and climbing the pagoda which left me breathless for a few moments (sigh i need more exercise). i think family bonding is very important and the best time to bond is when the whole family goes out for a meal or an outing together. i love spending time with my family.

watched i do i do last nite with my family. the cinema was really crowded! the show was quite nice but not as hilarious as previous jack neo's films. want to watch constantine (i kinda like keanu reeves) but i don't think i can spare the time. sch is starting again. ARGH.

i think i'm really in love with roses. when the vday season tides over, i'm going to get myself a blue rose to replace my fake flowers in the flower pot. hee. the thought of it just mystifies me. =)

time for bed. good nite.

Extra titbits.

hah. just realised i forgot to blog about e very amusing incident which happened over lunch today. the main characters are oscar and ah ma.

ah ma took a piece of tissue from oscar's packet of tissues to wipe her mouth after finishing her bowl of yong tau foo. after a few moments, oscar was surprised and relieved to find her marker (for xray purposes and which was made of lead) in the packet. ah ma was totally astonished and started worrying about lead poisoning. we started checking her for signs of purplish lips but of course there was nothing. the lead was covered up with sticky tape so i don't think itz that harmful.

after all, i think there's a high concentration of lead in me. when i was young, i tend to pierce myself (by accident of course) with my pencils and mechanical pencils. as a result, small pieces of lead were left in my arms, thighs etc. up till now, the black mark which the lead made is still there. so since i'm still alive, ah ma shouldn't have to worry so much right?;)

since i'm still waiting for my brother to return from sch so that our whole family can go shopping, i shall blog a bit more. letz turn the clock back to yesterday.

went shopping for new year clothes for and with dear yesterday. dear finally bought a red shirt which he was sure his mum would be very happy about. hah. finally there's something bright in his dull wardrobe. keep it up!:)

went to river hongbao after that. it was too early so we sat along the shore and threw stones/sticks/whatever we could find on the grass patch but not rubbish into the river. very fun. a very good way to relieve stress. after that dear suggested we go for dinner before returning to see the lightings.

sushi tei's sushi is really nice (1st time there). the ebi ___ was so delicious i took 2 plates. was so tempted to take more but dear gave me a gentle reminder that one plate of 2 prawns was worth $6. somemore i was treating and i didn't want to help them wash plates so i decided to curb myself.

returned to river hongbao after that. nothing much to see there. some of the food stalls weren't even open! humph. so we left after a short while.

although the events were rather monotonous and 'normal', i had great fun yesterday. was very happy yesterday. maybe thatz what they call true happiness. life doesn't have to be exciting for it to be enjoyable and memorable. ;) i believe in that.

Relieved and Relaxed (for a while)

yippee i finished my history essay~ i'm one day early~ i'm so proud of myself as u can tell from how excited i sound/look/whatever.=) hopefully the essay would be impressive enough. i spent tremendous efforts in this essay. but i better not be too hopeful since i dowan to be too disappointed when i get back my results. mmm.

had lunch at nuh kopitiam with oscar, ah ma, pl, cheese and skinny. very fun but i guess the lunch was too short since we met at 1 and everyone had class at 2 (oscar had to return to e xray dept in nuh). oh except me. i'm the only one who had class at 3. mondays are such a waste of time with breaks stretching from 3 - 4 hours. humph. no choice.

time really flies. the mid term break is coming soon! my goodness. and i'm still in the school-just-started mood. i better pull up my socks from now on, if not the outcome of this sem would be disastrous.

vday is coming. itz time for everyone (especially the poor guys) to start spending again. personally i think vday is just an occasion to cheat money out of us poor souls. but yet, i want to be pampered on that day with gifts and flowers (blue roses.. ahhhh...). so ironical right? sigh. girls. ha.

going out soon to get some new year stuff. very last minute, but at least there will be more of a CNY atmosphere right?:P

wow. i'm actually blogging for 2 consecutive days. how enthusiastic can i get. or perhaps i'm just seeking refuge from my homework.

who says singapore is a boring place to be in. my life is constantly being spiced up by fellow inhabitants of this sunny island. was taking the internal shuttle bus today. bus reached my stop. i walked to the door. door opened. people rushed in, oblivious to the fact that i NEEDED to get out of the bus. wonder what they were hurrying for. the bus was almost empty. and if i got off the bus, wouldn't there be more space in the bus? USE UR BRAINS PEOPLE. urgh. this irritating phenomenon continued until i flared up and made some unhappy noise then the rush sort of stopped and i managed to squeeze my way out of the bus. sighz. isn't singapore an exciting place to be in?

but my bad mood just persisted for a few more seconds. i cool off very easily and quickly i must say. was so happy to see agnes in the washroom! ok. itz not exactly a very suitable place to meet people but i was really ecstatic to see her~ told her about my plans to meet up with her before CNY and yup! everything's almost settled:)

just sent bird a few sms. hope she receives them! and hope she replies at earthly hours and not at 3am! ha.

i'm happy again.

busy busy busy

itz 0130 and i'm still doing my lab report=( having so much trouble with plotting the triangular graph and i almost gave up. managed to persuade myself into perservering right to the end and i actually managed to finish the graph just now. u must be thinking i'm crazy, forever coaxing and encouraging myself. but thatz what i always do.

on some mornings, i have to coax myself to get out of bed and get some work done. and i think this method really works. i don't want to let myself down and so i will move slowly out of bed and throw the windows open to feel the morning sun. and that would really wake me up. seeing sunlight always makes me cheerful. =)

i'm so sleepy and drained now and yet i have to do my sociology readings after finishing my lab report. so WHAT AM I DOING HERE? ha. dunno why also. just felt like blogging.

i have a history essay thatz due at midnight of 9 feb. so while people are counting down to another lunar new year, i will be crossing my fingers and hoping i can finish my essay by then. sighz.

basically life nowadays is so busy. guess i will need much coaxing.

time to return to work. long day ahead. must finish all my homework before chinese new year so that i can fulfill my promise of going shopping with mummy this coming monday evening. i would really love to spend time with mummy:)