tonight is my last night shift before my leave starts next wk. and then saturday will be another 12 hour day shift. thereafter, my break will FINALLY begin. i'm like so near yet so far to it... and i can almost feel myself crawling towards it, becos there's no energy no strength in me anymore. and yet there are still so many things undone.

i dont know if i'm just bad with my time management, or i'm just lazy, or i really just have too many things on my plate, or there are just too many freaking brainless idiots blocking obstructing my way and wasting my very precious time. and probably i have been spending too much time checking out the g/e reports instead of focusing on the urgent selfish silly issues?

i feel like a cleaner, cleaning up other people's backsides. what an apt description. i know, this is turning into a venting post, which is exactly why i came here, after a 4mth hiatus, TO VENT. cos there's no other place i can vent so freely, not totally freely, but more freely than others. so pls do not read on if u dont want negative emotions surfacing within urself.

i'm seriously hoping to feel better after venting. so pls allow me the freedom to do so. thks.

i never thought i was very smart, or smarter than average. but now i can safely say, i'm SMART, smarter than those idiots out there. those idiots who obviously dont use their brains (if they have any) and those weaklings who run to mummy whenever a problem arises instead of finding the best solution (Well to be fair perhaps their best solution IS to run to mummy. WHAT ELSE could they have done better huh?) empty vessels make the most noise, so true. make the most noise when they are right (so they think), and make the most noise when they r wrong too (crying to mummy).

and what happens when they are wrong? I ME MYSELF clean up their mess. like i got a lot of time and i have been shaking my legs everyday waiting to clean up all these. like i will be so grateful they gave me some wrk to occupy my time and i have been DYING to have sth to do.

and YOU, you UNGRATEFUL BRAT. what do u say. u actually ask me to not PUSH THE BLAME TO OTHERS. this is the ultimate. u are the brainless one, the stupid one who doesnt understand english, the idiotic one who doesnt understand what people want (i was kind and tolerant enough to tell u itz a misunderstanding when it was ur LOUSY BRAINS which weren't working) and now u need me to clean up the mess and before that u tell me not to push the blame to others. so now, who is pushing the blame to whom? tell me. tell me if you have the GUTS. i bet u have NONE, NONE AT ALL. aren't u supposed to be at my mercy now. how dare u still use those words on me. i can jolly well not do what u need me to do and let u clean up the mess urself.

ok i'm feelin better now. so i shall stop continuing. thatz not to say i'm happy with everything now, but i just try not to think about them. what i hope these people will understand is i DONT sit down shake my legs and wait for stuff to fall on me. things are already raining on me and i dont have an umbrella. i'm not like YOU. so u jolly well do ur homework, use more of ur brains so that u will sound less desperate (and still want to accuse people when they are des) and maybe i will respect u more.

yup i shouldn't be wasting more time on u.

i must be strong, keep my mind occupied with my holiday next wk! i will be in korea by this time next week woohoo!:) spending my time with my dearie who's got more brains more empathy more maturity. taking in the beautiful scenery! taking in the fresh air! shopping for face masks (one of my fav activities)! i'm not too sure bout the food there though:P so shan't comment until i have done my tasting:)

can't wait to bring out my luggage bag on sunday so that i can start packing!:D dont overpack lunch!! i think i will post most of my holiday pics here cos f/b is overrated.

i have
overeaten
overspent
overslept.

it's time to spend time more wisely.

like pay a visit to THE BAGs tomorrow:D

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itz been a good week so far.
no work. just rest.
good food.
great company.
can't describe how blessed i feel;)

finally explored robertson quay area and liang court. with a wonderfullest friend which makes it all the more special!:) our rare moments of venturing out of home-sweet-home area and having fun in the "foreign" areas~ hope we can do it again very very soon!

and soon it wld b back to work work work. and the quest of becoming a better person. a more knowledgeable person. a kinder person. a more learned person. a more sensitive person.

after a 6 month or so hiatus, i'm back to blogging. and hoping that i will be less lazy and more motivated in updating my blog.

christmas came and went. so did new year. and now i can see malls decked out in cny decorations time is passing so fast it actually gives me a surreal feeling.

had a great break during xmas 1st time we went out shopping in the daytime. spent quite a bit of time together and all i felt was bliss:) ate quite a lot too!

new yr saw me falling sick and thus we slept thru the last moments of 2010, no fireworks, no crazy screams, no loud cheers. just silence.

overall, i'm a lucky girl.

a someone who always feeds me before he takes his share of food
a someone who is not afraid of my mucus dirtying his fingers
a someone who is not afraid of my stinking dirty callused feet
a someone who always gives in to my choices
a someone who buys me supplements/stuff just so that i can get better
a someone who wants to piggyback me across a puddle of water
a someone who carries me so that i can see further
a someone whom i know will jump in after me if i fall into a crocodile-infested pond to save me

this someone, i must cherish and love:)

love is...

the ability to complete each other's sentences

the willingness to go thru thick and thin together

the ability to show care and concern for each other thru little actions

the willingness to accept the other for his/her true self.


u are not one in a million

i dont even know if u are one in a thousand million

u are my one and only

in fact u are already part of me=)

pack pack pack pack pack and pack. going thru slides, going thru notes, giving myself intensive mandarin tuition. trying to finish up as much work as possible while juggling all that. whoosh.

2 more days and i will be back in taiwan. my chicken cutlet muahahahaha!

armed with a long shopping list, i hope i will be able to get everything on the list in 3 short days. hate to disappoint anyone!:( as for myself, i'm looking forward to the dfs shopping actually:P perfume, cosmetics, alcohol *bleah* will probably spend a long time shopping while my luggage waits by the side of the conveyor belt=p

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i felt like a child again, indulging in soft toys, indulging in the little snippets of excitement and disappointment. thank u for always indulging me=) the gem u r, the one and only=)

itz true.

when u are thrown into the choppy blue sea, and know u have no one to depend on, u just have to learn how to swim and fight for ur chances of survival. man is born to fight, but somehow people just 4get bout this basic natural instinct as time goes by, perhaps becos they r leading too cushioned a life and tend to focus on satisfying their materialistic desires, thus lapsing in their attention on the most basic qualities of man.

i can foresee myself getting thrown into one of these tumultuous "seas", but i know i will be only coming out stronger, with more confidence. people have done it, so why can't i. time will be my witness. practice makes perfect anyway.

on a different note, i finally went jogging today!:P it really does make me more refreshed and actually makes the heat more bearable, amazingly. the next thing to do would be to indulge in a good body scrub=), before.... i retreat back to ... work.

i think i'm no longer under the curse of having to work on almost every PH:X but some things should be better left unsaid. still many more PHs to come:P

the week didn't turn out as bad as i thought=) must have been too pessimistic, not good. should stop being an optimistic pessimist and convert into a full fledged optimist. life's short, shouldn't waste time fretting over such stuff. can feel that i'm getting better at this. a few more times and i should be fine (though i hope the next few times wont happen too soon;p)

back to work proper tmr! itz unbelievable but i'm actually feeling excited! yup feeling excited plainly becos i will be returning to the lab, though the darlings wont be around=( and perhaps i'm feeling excited also cos itz gonna be the weekend haha! weekends are exceptionally precious when one is going to spend the following sunday slogging. and itz gonna be a short week woohoo~~

was doing some luxury mindless window shopping on tiff's just now (influenced by L) and i really like the sapphire jewellery!:) maybe i should pamper myself with a sapphire ring when the next bonus comes=0) hehe. oops. i hope the bonus amt will be enough:P 1st a-g-nes b, now this. what next:X i'm starting to feel ashamed of myself.

we caught lov-ely bones last night. kinda disappointed cos i just couldn't feel the substance in the movie, maybe cos i'm reading the novel and sometimes the beauty of writing just can't be expressed thru visual means??... my choice of movies is always quite lousy i guess... i should just listen to others.

okie dokie need to get some work done. better get stuff done when the motivation is still there.