好累啊。。。。

今天。。早早起来去gym...好累叻。。。。= =
不久，没有上课。。。懒惰。。
明天，要回去咯。。。所以，没有写blog几天。。不好意思。。。
回来，我会放多多照片的啦。。。^^
其实，今天看到她在gym那儿。。开始时，我蛮失望因为她在我后面走过，理都不理人。。幸好我没有叫她。。
amerz骂我说叫不要吊她了。。因为，要弄我自己高级点握。。哈哈。。而且，他也说，人家大把男子看，她lc得起。。所以不要弄低自己去理她。。
我决定不再去在意她。。浪费时间。。
而且，我从来没有试过将cheap，死命要她注意我。。但是，我不会将了。。
下雨叻这排。。蛮冷。。哈哈。。
现在，想休息睡觉。。。

好奇迹。。

今天，迟起来。。又没有去marketing..唉。。懒惰。。。
够启良咯。。。吃maggie...哈哈。。然后赶去学校。。。
去law，好多美女啊!!!!
有个，她的乳超丰满。。。。真的。。。好大。。。= =
不是变态。。只是，我看到第一次。很够力。。
感觉好像跌进她的乳沟我找不到路口出来。。
哈哈。。。我欣赏的那女子，在我班叻!!!我今天觉得超开心。。。哈哈。。
但是，还是没有胆接近她。。
呜呜。。。过后去按钱咯。。去着时，看到angie....她。。真的越看越美。。。queenie说我很过分看都不看她。。可是，她真的很。。lc吗之前。。过后我按了钱后，我走回去时，queenie说她一直望我。。不懂是骗我还是真话。。哈哈。。我问她，望我用怎样的眼神，她说。。很不爽的眼神。。哈哈。。。扎到。。。但是她说笑而已。。
我也是没有理她。。蛮过分的。。。哈哈。。
不久，回去上account..超闷。。然后赶巴士。。幸好赶得来。。不然。。惨。。
在巴士，很多人。。够力。。。哈哈。。
但是回到就好啦。。 很奇迹是，angie尽然找我哦。。问我要不要去看她唱歌。。但是我回了。。是有点不开心。。因为，没有事时就理都不理我。。现在才和我好好谈。。因为要多多人去。。但是没有关系啦。。她是将。。也习惯了。、。哈哈。。明天要去gym那儿，想在那儿练舞。。可是她却在那。不懂要不要去。。。唉。。
现在，准备去吃咯。。。
拜拜先。。哈哈。。。

奇怪的一天

没有一个眼睛。。哈哈。。

只有我，看着镜头。。哈哈。。

鬼脸。。。不好意思。。

侧面的我。。好像好看很多。。哈哈

juan juan在后面。。哈哈。。小孩子。。

amerz不敢看。。

丑样哦。。

今天，去上econs。。。。 一样咯。。闷死。。。哈哈。。。
然后，我今天才感觉我有个人在敷衍我。。很讨厌叻。。。但是，算了。。昨天我也说了，所以不提了。。

当她死就好。。哈哈。。美又怎样？
然后，去看看gym咯。。蛮大下。。想去玩。。哈哈。。拜四。。

不久，我们过时间在block b 图书馆外面。。吹风。。哇。。冷到。。。不久，有一班穿formal，哇老。。。很多很多美女啊！！！！！！！

我就想，做么我参的女子，做么我班的en没有美的！！！！SIENZ....

哈哈。。不好意思。。不要想歪。。我条件蛮高。。哈哈。。

但是我自己又不是好看到那里去。。

对了，给你的。。

我完全没有不甘心。。而且，那些狗嘴乱说，我也没有办法..
对不起如果伤到你。。但是，我说的，我也只是那时说，那时算。

我不是个记仇的人。。我希望别人看我的blog，就看了就算。。不要到处乱说。
几岁了，还要到处传话给别人？要欺骗人？

真的很好笑，那些狗说我不甘心，有这个必要吗？我说的，只不过是我认为的东西。。

改我如果我错，但是，我的确有点生气，初初时，我说“你一定会和他一起”，我说的东西，都会中的。。。只是看几时而已。。我生气的是，你一直否认。这点，我不喜欢。。明白？

我希望，看着我的blog的人，尤其是那些八婆！不要多管闲事吧。嘴，脑是你们的，用好来。。use it wisely, not stupidly! 最讨厌臭八婆的嘴。。乱唱乱唱。。还加盐加醋。。

说声对不起，如果伤到了你。。还有你的男人。。不好意思。。

回忆，真的是痛苦。

嗨，想到一些事，让我很不开心。。。
最近，认识了一个人，她还蛮不错的。。 但是，到最后，她跟回她男朋友。。为什么人就是将的？
有这个必要吗？ 真的很过分。。我不懂怎样解释，只能说一句“辛苦”。
很多次了，给不同人将对，难道我真的要开始玩女子吗？
我现在反醒了。。但是，却一直给人将对。。有时很生气。。。
很讨厌将的感觉。。真的很。。
后来，今天去学校，很多人present。。全部穿到美美。。到最后，我有问他们问题，有个人，她很生气我。。因为我问到他们不会答。。可是，我真的好奇。只想懂而已。。
但是随便啦。。才不会因为她而怕。。但是她过后不舒服。。身为个前男友，我猜就猜到她胃痛。。但是不关我的事了。。有她的男人帮她就好啦。。
现在我说别件事，今天，我还想和回别个人讲回话，就当没有事情，哇。。她真的很lc!
我只能说，恶人先告状！现在，她要和班上的人，打好关系，要弄到我没有人参。。
很过分。。
为什么人，会有这种态度？为什么就是不能好好的？为什么，人就是要为感情，友情而烦？
嗨，烦了好久。。我决定不要再理了。。
背叛，承诺，答应，相信，这些，我会把它消除掉。。。没用的东西来的。。
我认识多个人，哇。。她可说是我认识那么多里面，最巴闭就是她。。。很过分有时觉得她。。因为她每次看到我，都是当看不到我。。我觉得有时很过分。。做么一定要将呢？要将扮吗？
我从来没有认识这种人。。就算她美，又怎样？态度很不好。。可能她觉得我很丑吧。。但是，哇。。有这个必要将lc吗？我真的觉得越会读书的女人，越lc!!反而kl女子，又会读书又玩得起，这种就不错。。妈的，utar美的女子，真的有将骄傲吗？我不是说全部，但是大多数我认识美的都是那么骄傲。。
真的很讨厌咯。。但是算啦。。人家有人家的态度。。不是每个女子会有那么好的态度。。
现在的女子，一就是lc，二就是过分，三就是贱，四就是很实际。你不高，你没有天才，你没有钱，人家采你都傻。。但，这是我个人意见。。对不起如果说话过分了一点。。但是，我经历过的都是这些人。。
我相信还有美的女子会是专业的，但是。。我觉得，就快绝种了。。有都是给那些坏的男子骗掉。。
世界上为什么有坏女人，都是因为有坏的男子弄或伤到她们。。不对？
现在的女子，我也不太敢信。。很狡猾，不像以前那么单纯了。。但是，也有很多男子都很过分的。。丑男，配美的，美男，配丑的。。没有美配美，丑配丑。。
总觉得，自己很倒霉，遇到这些贱人。。说来就来，说走就走。。嗨。。我都曾经都贱过。。现在，改过自新。。但是。。嗨。。算了吧。。也许，要乖乖读书等缘分来。。可是，爱情，不是自己争取回来的吗？？我很不明。。有时，很乱。。也许，我从来没有单身过。。很不习惯一个人生活。。希望，有个傻瓜可以救到我出来。。但是，越希望，失望更大。。所以，别想了。。
看了，留言吧。。我想知道是否我说的东西是对的没有。。谢谢。。
刚才去吃肉骨茶。。不错，因为下雨。。很适合。。
现在，在想要睡觉。。很累。。哈哈。。
晚安。。。：P

saturday + sunday= sienz..........

i add my two day blog cos, i tink two day also damn boring......!!!
but oh, i tell u, our private taxi uncle treat us damn good,... he treat us leh.... walao... only us... we so privileged..... happy... not only first time leh.... also got few times dy..

woke up, so sienz leh.. nothin to do... juz waitin for the day to pass.... = =

meaning....... less day!!!

damn.... bored... is all i can say for now... so so so bored.....
i am so bored that i watch the fan turn..
still very worry bout michelle...
:(
dun noe if she is ok....

at night went to buy colgate... no more liao... din brush teeth leh tis morning till now.. haha.. but my breathe smells good... haha..:P

then now editing my pic...

dun noe if ok o not... leave comment la.. thx...

unforgettable day....^^

today... early mornin went to ptptn... haha... sign... 7 o clock also reach there also got many people...= =

haha.... and i got their signature... yahoo...^^ then me and amerz when to block a toilet.. walao.. so nice lo the toilet.. then of cos, i will snap to put in the blog lor.. haha...^^

after tat i go make my hair lor... go and make like kena electric shock like tat.. afro.. haha

after that, at night, we go old town eat pizza... haha.... but... raining so heavy!!! walao!!

waited in some mamak so damn long then came amerz with a few "plastic" haha.... its raincoat la.. but walao.. look like rubbish bag.. haha... thank you lo amerz.. haha..... we form our group name! THE PLASTIC GAnG®!

haha!!! PLASTIC GENG®!!

twins o... haha.....

nice ad.....^^

emo... haha...

PLASTIC GANG®>>

they all eat alot.. haha

haha.... nice pose??
rainin so heavy!!!

so nice smile..... (young, old , young) hahahaahah

haha... my new hair.. so so so happi of it..^^

crazy day...........!!

today, early mornin went to let those ptptn people sign my document... what the hell!!! go there all the people lining up.... then we juz standing there.... walao......
so angry la.. the people keep cutting line, then so smelly !!!!
at last we still cant get the signature....= =
damn... after tat, we go back... dun wanna go tutorial....
when goin back... i saw somethin .... the 2 v's.... damn... saw her, i felt, i sudenly hate a person so damn much.... the moment i came here, i told her, ur goin to be with him.... cos i understand her type of person.. damn... i was right... unfortunately... well...
i now dun even think she exist... i dun even see , i dun even say hi, i dun even care bout her... tat day, she wore couple shirt with him... damn... some more sit with me.. cos no place.. i felt so .... disgusted...
damn..... rocky some more go and say they two wear couple... i juz kept silent... haiz....
so, i saw her today... well... if she is happy, then let her be... i juz dun respect her anymore.... she and him, wanna be together, but they dare not tell... juz doin it under the table... wat the? if u wanna do , then be proud of it la!! why wanna hide? damn... keep sayin ur not together...

everyday, i keep repeat a same emotion, unhappy.. cos always i see her... but... well... i suddenly felt a burden being removed... happy alot dy...

after tat,i receive a message... damn la!!! michelle kena quarantine...!!!!! WAT THE!!
why she so stupid go and kena???? damn la....

super tiring day...= =

took when acc amerz see his academic advisor... = = haha

really scare h1n1 la... sorri leh...

can see my reflection ma?

wait at the stupid dsa!!! so many people!!!

early mornin went to dsa.... wanna certify my god damn documents... ==

so so tired....

the god damn guard... stopped me cos i dun have my id...

then.... went to stand... for 1 and a half hour...

those dsa people...

super lc!!!!! its like they borrow money to us!! wat the!

after tat went to law... the 3 hours law... so damn tired... :(

gotta tahan..

after tat went to study room sleep..

haha... then saw tomato... wow.. she is so so so pretty..... so so pretty....

then....haha.... go for econs.... teacher today bad mood la..

aiks... quite scared de... haha

rainin so heavy... lucky we finish class then no more rain dy.... ^^

went back then sleep lor.. zzzzzzz..............

tats all for today...

why? ur my friend.. but u hurt us!

damn, today presentation, sucks badly!!
me and amerz knew somethin was not right!
cos our slides are all juz in few words! damn..
THIS IS NOT ME AND AMERZ PRESENTATION DE STANDARD!!
we can do so much better!!
in foundation, me and amerz were two best presenter, is it jealousy tat causes this to happen?
someone lied to us, over and over again.. why?
u din changed anything,but even u help urself, u sabotage me and amerz! wtf! u tink we are stupid? u tink we are dumb? we are not guang ming, we are not yong jiang! noe?! we step into the real world b4 u! u tink we are kids to lie ?
is it so fun to lie to us?
we caught u red handed! u noe? u realize?
i tot our group can be the outstanding .. but the "green monster(jealousy)" got the best of u!
correct me if i am wrong, but u really lied to us, in front of us... i haven die.. u dare to lie?
walao......
this is our first time tat our presentation, is bad... although teacher said tat i am good and outstanding.. but, i beg to differ... damn.. now i know our marketing teacher tutor is good to me..
i respect him..
but today i lost respect to someone..

today, u dissapointed me, u make a mistake..
today, u lost a fren's trust..!

WHY IN THIS WORLD HAVE THIS TYPE OF PEOPLE??!!

we are still frens, but u lost my trust... sorri...

stupid alarm.... and my marketing presentation

formal..^^

first,i din go to certify my ptptn de things cos my alarm suddenly not functioning.. haha... yor!!!!!
tomolo gotta go again.. with my fren... 8 o clock!!! REMEMBER AR!!!!!

second, is my marketing presentation is today.. damn scared.. cos i din memorize anything at all... cos i from foundation is impromptu speech means is spontaneous la.. but.. this time cant.. cos tat teacher need us to speak in marketing terms...= =
gotta study.. haha....

i go memorize first...^^

all alone in my house...>.<

everyone went to ipoh, but i din..
why? cos i dun wanna waste $$.. haiz,...
sien... juz sit here and play my com...
gotta go cook something to eat la... hungry...

to u "michelle"

this part i hate the most.
in this part, it makes me wanna do things tat i dun wanna do..
it makes smoking seems fun, it makes clubbing seems happi, it makes drinking beer seems to be joyful.
but in my whole life, i never touched this things b4...
and i never will..

damn,let her scold ... watever la.. to tink tat i tot she would come back to me... i really gotta stop fantacizing these thoughts la!!! gotta... stop this.... damn......
when can i wake up from this god damn nightmare??
wake up wake up!!!!!

she gives me hope and tears it apart..

as usual, me and michelle chat... the line damn lag... don noe why... hmm...
i asked her, where she stay rite now... haiz.. she said she stay with her ex de cousin house.. haiz...
watever la.. i wonder, i asked her so many times to stay with my parents cos more better.... but.. she kept sayin mafan... but why she can stay with her ex de cousin house leh? hmm.. things, are a mystery .... its all a mystery, a bad dream tat i cant wake up from...

PTPTN... u gave me so much trouble....

damn u ptptn.... wat kind of money lender need us to go here and do this and do tat??!!!!

might as well borrow from ah long better some more faster and no need so much thing to do... stupid leh!!!

some more expect us to purposely go back and take the paper to ask parents sign... ma de!!!

gave me so much touble!!!

but its for the best la...

sienz.... now thinkin monday goin to police station to certify my things... damn... stupid la...

she is not goin back...

am i dreamin? am i suddenly happi?
cos she is not goin back... but... i cant tell her.. cos i noe she wont accept me d...
cos her heart dont have me... well.... haiz...
is it fate ma? fate not to be together..?
is it so hard to be with a person u like so much?
damn.... i noe she care for me, i noe she treat me good and ask me about my health, but at last she say is juz fren... damn... haha... stupid me....= =
well, lets juz let faith and fate play their part and let everything move by itself.. i am sure i will find my miss perfect one day... i lose my miss perfect in utar, but i am sure i wont lose the next one..

add oil ..^^

boring day........................

super boring... super......
din go to school cos tired after got injection....
after tat, slept till 4 somethin, then amerz bought food for me,... haha...
now juz sitting in front of computer and staring at it.. haha..
sien...= =

my sudden infection.... damn

walao!!! very very very stupid la!!! suddenly my whole body bengkak, got red red and then so so so itchy.. walao... scared....:(

go see doctor... got inject... so "bei"... scared like hell.. haha...

cant move leh..

very paralyze.. and tired...

sleep first.. paiseh.,...

damn... my econs...

sorry xin hang... i let u down.. i tot i can make u pass...
damn... my econs.,. so low.... feel like wanna throw up.....
no mood to write...
some more she is goin for operation tomoro, shud i go back kl ma?
damn.. heart pain...

econs, stress, sad....

my econs teacher.... mooi....

amerz take my pic during lecture... ^^

in bus, i dare not move, i wanna touch tat lecturer's butt... ha... damn smelly....

today, cant really understand econs.... yor....

this is the sad part of my day...

haiz... somethin i saw made me, well not so happy la...two yellow banana suit .... if u noe wat i

mean...to all the girls and guys out there, if ur goin to give up on somethin, pls dun... juz like me, i

too was once a super playboy... havin alot of gf.. but its all in the past...now karma is gettin me..

this is why i cant settle down.. everytime i try to, it fails.. but i still dun give up, i will stand up

until my last breathe.even though i saw wat i dun wanna see, i still can act nothin and pretend its

all a nightmare tat i cant wake up from.. i am strong, i can punch the wall till my hands bleed, let

3 guys beat me up, fight with some people, why cant i withstand this emotion? after all, its juz in

my mind, it doesn't hurt me...came to utar, i admired some, and like some, and got hurt from

some, but.. seriously, i gotta listen to my mom.. damn... so miss her.. miss her cooking, miss her

stupid voice talking asking me help her massage, help her write 4d help her see this , help her

cook....my mom is consider to be a very good cook, she helped me alot, and my dad... super good

husband and a good father, and a very handy dandy man... can fix everything, literally...damn.... miss them so so

much... my brothers, both of them are fun... although dun realy like my youngest brother. but no

matter wat, i still fetch him go find his frens...i made a promise not to talk bout relationship cos

my mom gave me advise on some girls tat hurt me now, but i din listened... wat a fool am i not to

listen to my mom...now its 2009, i dun believe i can find a girl tat is compatible to my mom...

cooker, good housewife, sincere, innocent....my parents supported me, even though i am a

disrespectful to them... they gave me support , they helped me through difficult times... damn... i

study cos i have a dream... i will, no i MUST bring my parents go oversea... cos they never have

the chance to go... not like other rich and so free family that can go here and there... my family is

not poor, its juz our usage is over the roof... cos of house, car, and income tax.. damn fuck tax...

cut my father's income so damn low... made us so suffer!!!i damn hate so of my aunty tat brag

about their outing to other country.. my mom can juz hear them brag then they wil ask my mom

been to anywhere o not, my mom will juz silently shake her head and my aunt will juz laugh and

say her ke lian! wtf!! i promised , i will let my mom take the last laugh...! i promised!!

damn sad rite now, all i can do is to express my feeling in this blog... nobody can hear me....

onli god knows.........