How Change Affect Them?

A new perspective of the working industry i've heard today
the story of a foreman/mechanic..

the era has been changing rapidly
from once, there is high demand on technical (more hands on industry) like mechanic and carpenter
during that time, lots of people are fighting into the school of life skills when they thought the demand is there so they should be safe in that field

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1.

Sometimes it just require that one person or one agreement

It's just that simple to motivate a person who is in despair

The support is prriceless and unpredictably powerful

And.. Im needing this real support..

Will you be the one? ;(

Pray Hard

i'll be very dead this week
i can predict the serious sleepless night i have in the coming days
it's not like the normal days when i can sleep also i don't
now it's coz of the upcoming projects and assignments that crazing me

Johari Window

was gathering with family and celebrate Mooncake Festival
cousin A was talking about someone chasing after her
then she and cousin B were talking about that guy
B say A shouldn't accept him coz he's too similar to me in terms of appearance and personality

"quiet, shy, don't know how to talk, nerd nerd, blur blur"

this is me in their eyes
didn't feel hurt but thank them for letting me understand another side of me better

Delayed

A whole day to out with mom after quite some times
just a day out in the public let me realized a few things again
not sure whether is this due to my psychology-sick or not
*this post was postponed 1 week hence the mood of writing will be different*

Value

Question of the day: What is your belief/ what do you value in life?
plenty of believes people are holding today
religion, trust, friendship, happiness, peace, dignity and more more more
i took some time to think about myself my thoughts *oh, this call metacognition*

i'll make complaint

I'm tired of all the changes, all the patience that people eventually take for granted
trying my best to fit all the changes in my life
like any other people, i have huge problem adapting myself to any changes that interfere with my life
but i'll try my best to fit
yes, it takes time but i still manage to do it, with pride
however if changes keep presenting, i will not be able to adapt properly, do not blame me
im just slow in adapting myself, i can understand those who cant bear with me so no blaming

this time again i tried to fit myself and glad that i managed to overcome it soon enough
this change, i understand it's not your fault, just a matter of mood and timing
then i try to fit slowly while there's still time
but not sure whether issit my problem, people just cant bear with it and interfere directly
another change attack again and i'm done
have no intention to blame or angry because i have no rights
maybe i am the one who's making the mistake all the time

-wil-
the support is often hard to be felt

Fanboy or pet

Ok i just cant stand anymore
Everytime these people say anything about 'apple fanboy' on the internet
"U sure support apple la fanboy", " shut up fanboy".. bla bla
do they even think about why they give such nickname?
Because they themselves are the samsung pet who anti apple and never accept anything about apple
So the difference in expressing between apple fanboy and samsung pet are:
Apple: supporting apple no matter what
Samsung: rejecting and booing apple no matter what

Thinker

people say that we need to have year resolution so that we can make each year more meaningful

the idea of this resolution thing basically come from two aspects: goal and motivation

setting goal is a way to push yourself to continue a meaningful life, with passion

regardless of short-term or long-term goal, it's all good as motivator, if u're passionate on it

go plan some if you need, but sadly it's not working on me :(

being a thinker these days as i always do when i'm alone

without involving myself in the outside world interaction, my thinker level eventually increased

been thinking about my life, my lifestyle, my social network, my studies, my current, my future, my inner thoughts, my closest, my personality, my appearance, my room, my house and lots lots lots lots lots lots..

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Before getting serious, there's one funny fact i wanted to share so badly
look at the picture shown in restaurant:

and here's what i've got in real (without bacon & cheese)

indeed, cant blame coz it's for illustration purpose only
but where's the tomato and mayo!!!!
we actually laugh out loud in the restaurant when i opened the wrapper
but no doubt it's a very nice burger
possible reason is that it's pork?
then more excuse to travel oversea to try their burger, even mcd
coz they serve pork burger in other countries!
and there's one shop in Seapark (PJ) that i guess server very nice burger also
shall try it one day :)
this is the menu of PJ one:

got vege one!! although quite pricey (click to exlarge)

Meet

Friendship..

i guess it's an interesting topic and i've lots more to learn about it

communication is a big thing

talking style, topic, and even greeting have lots different ways

i believe culture plays a huge role here when it's common to communicate in certain ways doesnt apply to another gang of people

quite fun to learn about others' way of speaking though

but still there are common grounds among the cultures, teasing part is a good starting point

everyone gets the fun, just the victim abit sad la

of course if victim is a sensitive or not open enough then teaser will be in big trouble

bye bye to the new friend then

open the door and feel the different ways of communication

some might suit and attract you and some might be damn hell irritating and all you want to do is just escape from there

accept it or not, leave it to you

at least im enjoying in some ways and hope not to meet those irritating ones anytime soon

-wil-
hey, nice to meet you :)

Fake

just get to hear another issue about

fake personality or double-headed snake, a nicer word: hypocritical

in chinese, i think it's referred to

虚伪/虚假/伪装/两头蛇 /表里不一

i guess it's quite a common thing now, especially when we are growing older

3-1 done

finally i've done with my third year FIRST SEMESTER!
congratulation for finishing the papers, earlier than other friends this time (finally!)
but again, the result part is another story
let's talk about this semester papers..

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Just read a fren's comment/status in facebook
"loyalty blogger will do their job whenever they feel to do so, even EXAM period"
Although i cant be considered as a loyalty blogger, many more outside much LOYAL than i am..
It inspired me to do it tonight, even it's highly stressful period due to exam!
Well, don have to write much coz this post is about my ipad-blog, or padlog the name i give
Sometimes when i really want to express something but not onlining, all i do is to write everything in a secret place in my ipad
I shall reveal it today, but not all at once
This is my first pad-story:

Fly Away~

当机会呈现在你面前时, 你却了了草事
当它突然的飞走了，才发觉你所做的有多浪费多愚蠢
现在后悔也来不及了
是的，我的确很后悔，相当后悔无奈 :(
But nothing else i can do now..
Just wish them all the best..

-wil-

Judgmental

oh yes, here's the mood of writing
not sure whether it's a good thing or not
just feel that how awesome can it be if i can be a very straight forward person
saying/commenting without caring for others' feelings

Random

当一个人陷入低潮状态时，无论面前与多少个人对话
都只感到前面都是一面白墙
对自己说不寂寞没问题，但脑子里只想着--没有人
你感受到它的存在吗?

-wil-
you may go

AfterLife

have been busy for few days
away from all the social network and now i know how important they are to me
quite outdated already coz now people talking about 1u case, baby case but i duno anything at all
even Bel at Aus also know about 1u thingy but i have no idea what she talking about
what a shame..
since i don read newspaper, social network sites are really gold door for me..
and coz of the business.. er.. i mean busy-ness these days
i've get used to days without lunch n even dinner
never feel like eating n never get hungry these days
does it mean i'm ready for 30 hours famine?
WHO'S GOING?!

also tired and damn sleepy today coz wed only slept 4 hours and yday slept 1 hour due to the stupid hiccups
that's why i hate and so afraid of hiccups coz it would take me forever to stop it once it started
today.. it lasted for 3 hours in the morning, and 1 hour in the afternoon thank god..
and one important i keep telling myself today
THANK GOD for blessing as im driving in sleepy mood
went into micro-sleep few times during journey from home to uni..
it means fell asleep for like 1 or 2 seconds.. short but can cause accident terribly..
tried to stay awake using different ways but failed sometimes
so.. never drive when u're extremely tired or sleepy!

lastly..
what i've learned is that a song can have different likeability when listening alone and with companion
a song might be nice for u when u listening alone, but sometimes u'll feel different when u're listening or sharing with someone else..
just like this one.. that i tried to shared with friends
when alone, i like it damn lots but feel nothing worth listening when listening with others
enjoy?


How to start assignments?!!!!
-wil-
can't politics be viewed in perspective of business?

离

生离死别乃是天然之道
i deeply understand this statemen
facing all kinds of new-born, reunite, separation, death that cannot be avoided in everyone's life

Gratitude

thanks for giving me so much problem
to allow me grow stronger with each challenge i faced
yet, i tend to blame people every time i face any difficulty
just did it last few days and somore the person had nothing to do with the problem
it's my weakness i know and conscious about it
kinda regret for saying what i said and pity the person for kena "shoot" all of sudden
trying to get rid of it, believe me =(

Update lor

i think im having serious bipolar issue..
few minutes ago i was happy and satisfy with everything, suddenly i turn into terribly emo condition
fck my life -.-

how's my holiday?
just back from uncle house for sister's farewell + advanced mothers' day celebration
very happy and full of family feeling with all the kids running around
lots to eat, lots to do, less to talk (me only) but it just warm
i'll miss this day coz it'll not be happen again anytime soon i guess

went for a concert and the first ever star-chasing in my life on the day-of-cleanliness
thanks to Miss Kidney, her friend "tea-bag" and perhaps yang too
it's boring at the beginning coz duno much songs but get heated up during the climax (duh)
kinda experience, coz she's soooooo near! but didn't get to TOUCH her though =(
all i can say is.. she's damn PRETTEH and super KECIT!
so what we usually see her on tv or newspaper or from computer are all illusions!
then someone went into the casino since already 21 kononnya..
i didn't even have the interest to enter and never ever think of it before, but bipolar aroused my curiosity about how's a real casino like?
damn it

also, been watching movies, 1 movie each night..
finally doing what i wanted to do since years ago, duno why just can't sit still for movies in front of com
but i'm leaving behind things i should do during this break: plan for next semester / final year
FINAL YEAR ler! thesis, intern, work after graduation.. all soon to be reality..

last but not least,

RIP my dear study table since i was young

it was an antique in my house for more than 20 years
recently borrowed to relatives and today someone used it as base for BBQ equipment
there it goes, end up huge fire in the air
and i was the first and only person noticing the fire!
i keep shouting "fire fire on table, fo fo toi chut fo" while walking and holding the food
they took few seconds to understand what i meant
then we took some time to figure out what to do:
 - save food or put off fire or remove the BBQ equipment first..
 - then use water or use sand or use newspaper to put off fire..
i know it's obvious but just funny time we had there

ok mood recover after writing
time to oi oi..

-wil-
chen xin run~ HEY!

Nirvana

Congratulation 

to 

HELP University  

in achieving 

silver award 

under the  

Education & Learning category 

at the  

Putra Brand Awards 2012!

from bronze in 2011 to silver in 2012! proud of it

Final Week

As i said, all the assignments due last week
it's back to a steady yet dangerous moment
coz final exam is coming next week, which this semester we have more than lots to read
Advanced Quantitative Research, Developmental Psych, Learning and Cognition, Understanding and Managing Emotions
1 all about stats and research designs, then 3 text books with approximately 45 chapters
see how I/we die la..
luckily mostly MCQ even though it's 100 -.-
but MCQ can send you to death also, u know they are experts
they know how to confuse you with all possible choices

Malaysia Boleh

finally everything's over!
safely passed the stressful moment of the semester
serious nothing can beat this time..
all bad things happen in a shot, like no tomorrow
ini rosak, itu fail, ini sux, itu depressing
really feel like killing myself sometimes, and thought i can never overcome it
but now i'm here, still alive
i shall say,

thank you =)

-wil-
be your best

fool

It's APRIL FOOL!
have you got any prank today?
i always thought nowadays it's hard to fool someone since everyone increased their awareness (or intelligence) just on this day
by the time u hear someone talking something different, u've already guess it's fake
so i never thought april fool still applicable now, and never try it anymore
"it's childish to fool people la!"

BUT
here's an exception!
really got prank by it/him/them..
quite... interesting.. creative? stupid?
perhaps i shall say it's a slightly joy after that.. coz never realize i will kena!!!
hahahahahahha
i shall not disclose the secret till after this day
have fun fooling!

-wil-
last 2 assignments! rarh!!

justamess

lots to say.. but duno where to start
my mind is just full with THOUGHTS and PROBLEMS and IDEAS
oh! i remember one!
just found out i hate group assignment since last week..
hate the pressure from others, hate social loafing, hate waiting, hate bad communication, hate unfair treatment, hate bad personality, hate weirdos
i know what's the benefits but it's just not enough to convince me to love group assignment

life~ is~ full~ of~ mystery~ and~ unexpectations~ and idiot fellows~ and stupid things~ and messy mind~

-wil-
smile one smile, everything is nothing =D
facial feedback hypothesis~

The Happiness Project

what makes you happy?
this simple question was asked in tutorial class today
the findings then keyed into a software and generate this interesting map

do you find any of your answer to happiness here?
sometimes, think of it, happiness is quite easy to be achieved..
just depends on situation and your desire

-wil-
there's always different type of people out there waiting to test your patience

RIP

Brought my phone for repairing yday
Initially donwan to fix coz too expensive, not worth it
But family insist wan me to fix, say if not very waste wor..
End up still didnt repair coz the tauke also say not worth
Yeah he's a very trustable n honest salesman
He recommend us to get another phone..
Sony, nokia price dropped so much coz of the rising of smartphones
Indeed, i got attracted awhile by the cheap touch screen, bb-look nokia
But i keep controlling myself from spending more, even from family, n i successfully resisted!
Reason is to wait for iphone 5!
@@ but it'll be around year end or even next year! <<< ini yang floating in my mind that torture me
Wondering whether did i make the right decision? What if my w200i cant stand till i5 is put?!
Can i tahan using this extreme low memory phone?
Hopefully yes..

RIP my e75

Second decease in 2 months+

-wil-

BTH

Does mood really have an impact in decision making? Or even impression formation?
Sounds like a research question for report..
Maybe journals can give me the answer
But now it's my own personal question and i got my own answer, which is YES!
Damn it..
Early in the morning found out butterfly in wallet :(
Ruined my whole day whole mood
Till i get home i really got pissed off immediately when i see someone at home
Wadafuq are you here and not working again?!
Cant u just behave urself and be responsible abit?
This month sis didnt go work coz of sick, income sure cut off more than half
And now....
speechless and ready for a big war soon
will be a tough month.. haiz..

-wil-
发穷凶 huh?

21022012

Was studying hard, trying not to feel stress at the same time
Really did it during the weekend
Thanks to the relaxing simple and easy trip during the weekend
Now im on the bed doing the same thing
What freaks me out is that suddenly i walked into the toilet
Not small or big business, but just standing inside staring at the wall
Realized i was doing it after a few seconds
I didnt want to pee nor poop, why am i here?
Is there any unconscious meaning of toilet within me?

-wil-
how will it end up to be?

Dedication?

my friend suddenly sent me this link
at first i see, oh i've seen this post last time, nothing la..
but after a moment, i decided to re-read it..
know what? it really touches me..
an unconditioned support that i needed so much after a period of extremely down time

thank you Lim Sana

the fatty whitey who randomly had a note of "肥猪肉好肥" on her phone last time

what a GOOD way to control herself from eating fat

i shall be fat like her to be healthy (for me)

-wil-
feel much better





oooh

OH MY GAWD!

it's valentine's day pulak!

Happy Valentine's Day lor although it's canceled

Happy Forever Alone too <3

=)
as shown in the first line, today is quite a positive day for me
had well utilized my day in this saturday
Although it's a morning replacement class, coz i slept at 11+pm the nite before (it's been so long i hvn sleep this early),this morning is a full of energy
The class was not bad
i can say this subject is the best selection i've made despite last sem i made a very wrong decision
What's make me feel the best in this day is actually the night..
Not coz the party is well organize or fun but more on my personal cognition processes

we even played musical chair! HAHA!

not so sure why im so happy
but one of the reason might be coz i could freely display my naughty side without caring about others' judgment
not much people i know there but i just feel something that makes me feel good
you know, living in this world, people tend to unconsciously setting expectation on others from behavior
from a finding in class this morning, we found out what stresses us, men, the most is..
which is competence
normally it's kind of stressful for me coz i feel everyone is comparing me with other friends
and i can see they are seeing him/them as superior while im the opposite or so-called follower.. from the behavior
what i did, how i display myself and the end product.. are always used to compared with people from my surrounding
maybe it's caused by my decreasing in self-esteem? =( 
so, in the party, their response on my craps are much satisfied compared to my other days when they just ignore, angry, or beh song and COMPARE
i just hate trapping in a competitive mind and world

lost the mood of continuing after 1 day saving in draft lol

-wil-
finally found my way of grabbing true joy but hard to achieve.. haiz..

inception

5 hours sleep after 26 hours of waking period

it's damn syok, a nice deep sleep under a raining evening/night

what's funny is my time messed up quite a moment

in a short period, i'm not conscious about where am i, what was i doing before sleep, what am i suppose to do after that

but reality is still reality, as long u're living with human in a house, sure someone will stop you from your dreamland

most important thing that i want to share is an insight from my dream

in the middle of a nice dream, suddenly a phrase from "inception" came into my mind

"in a dream, you'll not realize how you end up in the place until you start to think of it"

and so, in this dream, i really get to think of it

hooolaa! i realize i wasn't in real world, it's a dream!

finally i did it! finding out what's happening is actually a dream, in a dream..

come to think of it, even in "real life"
(for those who studied psychology, just forget about what hera taught us for awhile)
do you ever think of how you land on this place, this world?
what's your earliest memory of you in this world?
how do you end up here?
if you can't remember, would you say the so-called real life is actually a dream?
it's sort of make sense i guess..
because at times, we couldn't control what's happening around us, just like dreams
all we can do is just run with the flow and not knowing what is coming
people might be good to you this moment and betray you at the other second
what you can do is just.. haih..
even if we tried to control, results is just two, good dream or nightmare (wet dreams also can =P)
so does it mean death is the true waking up and not what is discussed?
an interesting topic to think of more..

happy holiday =)

-wil-
who to find?

INTRUDER!

it's just chinese new year EVE
finally it's time for me to blog and release my inner FIRE while everyone off to sleep
thank you so much my dear blogspot, if not i'll be die of tahan-ing

sorry this will just be my complaints

damn pissed of lor this day
uncle suddenly came to my house in the middle of the night, staying here over
i tot it's nothing, everything goes as normal
ok with people staying in my room, taking the responsibility as nephew to take care of uncle who had trouble and traveled all the way from johor..
mana tau, i'm the one who got most affected

my beautiful, full-of-wilson-smell-room was being invaded!!!!!

i'm ok to let people overnight in my room
BUT NOT IN THIS CONDITIONS!
first, it's just before cny, i was supposed to clean my room but i guess i've no point doing so
according to tradition, we're not supposed to sweep/clean anything during the first day of cny?
now they're here, oh great.. leaving on the first day of cny
so?
after they left, i still can't clean it and got to sleep on the CLEAN bed?
second, they're not someone im very close with..
uncle is ok, but other two are just totally strangers to me
how can i feel 100% safe when there's stranger sleeping in my room, with all my things inside
*i just realized my belt was being touched and different in position
third, i tot im not racist but really sadly, now i realize i am
they're strangers, and they are malays!
have so many pantang with them.. no babi, no alcohol (even perfume, deodorant contain alcohol and that cant touch -.-)
just feel so not-clean at all.. sorry to say that, sorry now i admit im not 100% non-racist..
forth, please la, if you wan to stay in people's house, please respect the owner k?
come in, order this order that.. people open window to let wind enter as a habit
you come in then start yelling why open window, so bright cant sleep..
already occupied my room, still anyhow use my things without even bother to ask me
suddenly wearing my shirt, walking infront of me like nothing happened
what the fuck? means he had invaded my cupboard also..

i do not want to imagine the scene..

tomorrow da nian chu yi sia, everyone should be happily ready to go out visiting
i guess we'll be different this year because i can't be freely enter my room, new shirt, bathroom all there
gosh..
and you know the awkward moment when they're staring at you when you're playing the com or using ipad..
i don't know what to say, what to do, even what language to use to communicate

just wondering, our house isn't big, not to say this place is very convenient
why choose to stay at my house but not another uncle's house that has a guest room?
at least having a guest room doesn't require so much work as me, like preparing blanket etc..
last but not least for complaints,

WHY ME???!!!!!!

luckily the reunion dinner was quite good
the food was way better than last year and the atmosphere was great
leaving my CNY eve a small good moment

this is the end of rabbit year
ending quite very badly, hope all the bad things leave behind, coming with all the good things in the year of dragon
of course, not forgetting to wish all of you and myself

Happy Chinese New Year

Gong Xi Fat Cai

All dreams come true

-wil-
deep breath, phew~

noooo

such a bad luck today..
it made me feel down again
wasting time wasting money only..
aiyo, since duno which day, i'm being emotional unstable
but i'll not going to say out anything i promised!
ok fine, based on my understand of myself, i guess i'll give hint
BUT with my new personal value, i'll definitely not disclose much

how'll my cny gonna be?
have no plans, no feel on it, no excitement..
that's why i'm ok if they say do assignment during cny
but too bad, of course people will not want it; hence another rushing friday
and therefore missing the payment time and so just skip the lunch
and then leaving more trouble for myself to travel here and there
and thus, wasting petrol again
polluting the environment, wasting money, wasting time again

just realized i've been neglected so many important things, important people around me
i admit i'm heartless, i'm not a good friend
but i'll always remember them, remember what they did in the past
forever appreciate it, deep in my heart

i'll try my best to repay whenever i can..
thank you my friends


-wil-
kick my ass

Bye

officially dead

Rest In Peace 

my dear N81

pre-non-REM

After few days of non-stop sleeping
here comes another sleepless night
before sleep, mom even told me i'll mabuk for sure -.-
~I WISH~
but thank god this isn't a suffering one
smart enough to take my music with me but stupid enough to not give up sleeping and go for movies
HBO and Fox have so many movies these days! *i think*
now, after 'wake up' still don't feel any tiring
time to face the cruelty
All the best in the semester

-wil-
ready your glove?