Monday, December 31, 2007

Happy New Year...

Honestly, there's nothing to be happy about new year. It just goes to show that you're getting older - one year closer to dying.. and that's about it. Okay, I'm just being sore. Cause I'm stuck at home alone, with no new year plans, no one to go out with. Did get a couple of offers from some nice pple (who probably felt sorry for me). But no thanks. And too lazy (or maybe too proud) to whip out my phone to make plans.. so decided to just come home and sulk and feel sorry for myself.

Totally sianz from work..Imagine working till 10pm on new year's eve, when majority of the people in the world (besides me and two other unlucky colleagues) are stuck at work. And wait, where's my beloved boss... hm...oh.. he's on Off... Not to forget idiots who kept bugging us for the GST package (so glad it's the last day for applications) and best of all, next month's schedule..(PMs and PMs and PMs...and really pathetic 6 -10pm shifts on weekends! Fucker) Looking at each month's schedule never fails to spoil my mood. Sigh... oh well, just 7 more months to go....

Guess a bad day at work really screws up my mood for any happiness for new year. What a great start indeed.

Anyway, any new year resolutions? Nope. Doesn't work for me. None of the resolutions I ever had was actually fulfilled. So, guess that's it. No more resolutions...

Sigh.. too emo for my own sake...

that's it. period.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Wedding plans..

Sat down with Zim and Mac today over breakfast.. (Cancelled my last blading session of the year due to rain! damnit) Anyway, we talked about a range of topics.. and finally fell on the topic of our wedding.. With Mac's expertise in mind, we discussed our rough plans and budget and shortlisted several places that we could possibly host our wedding. (Nope, there won't be any wedding banquet. Just a simple affair for a group of close friends)

Hee..Actually, the conversation got me a little excited about our wedding plans. Can't wait for things to start falling into place and for us to really start the planning! We have yet to settle on the actual date (due to a series of uncertainties) so it's kinda hard for me to say when it really will be.. But hang in there.. the day will come...

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Catching Up...

Met up with one of my friends today... Realized that I haven't been as good a friend as I would like to to her. (As usual...) Seems like both of us have moved on quite a bit and there were so many things that I am unaware of that are happening in her life. I feel kinda guilty for having distanced myself from her due to priorities in life. Seems like I've been a lousy friend who is lost in my own world. She has moved on quite a bit.. Doing well in her work, getting into a relationship.. blah blah.. and I'm actually ashamed to say that I am unaware of the details of her life. To think she still regards me as one of her bestest friend. Really deserve a slap for being such a lousy friend...

Actually, it ain't just her. There are a handful of them whom I'm been neglecting and as a result, pretty much lost the friendships I had with them. As much as I despise it, I've to admit that I'm someone who 重色轻友. Seems like I've given most of my time to Zim (No, I'm not blaming you, and I believe that every minute spent with you was worth it) and have gradually chosen him over several of my friends. Quite a pity indeed, especially when these are some of the people that went through joy and sadness during my good old school days...

think it's about time I made some effort to meet up with several of my friends and catch up with them on what's going on in their life... if they are willing to meet me to begin with....

LOL.. let's see how things will go..

Friday, December 14, 2007

Food from Switzerland...

Decided to upload some additional pics from Switzerland. Oh well, sorry to disappoint if u are expecting nice scenery or architecture..

Instead... here goes...

Yummy yummy food from Switzerland...



Damn.. looking at all this does make me kinda hungry right now.. Craving for hot chocolate right now...

*KeY's stomach grumbles...*

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Karma...

I always believed in karma...

Been a really nasty person for the past week... bullying people around me... =P

Seems like I'm really running damn low on karma now...

sigh.. needa start accumulating it again...

Need my help for anything???? I'll do anything to accumulate karma!!!!

Free, but stuck...

Finally done with my induction course! Feeling a little empty now.. especially when I think about having to return to work.. *shrugs* Oh well, let's not go there for now..Did make a handful of friends during this two weeks, some of which I totally adore and would love to keep in touch with and a handful of which I would probably never meet again in my life (and I don't really care anyway..=P)

Honestly, don't think I gained much (as in after attending all the classes and talks) during the two weeks of brain-washing, guess it's because I was in a semi-conscious state most of the time. Afterall, I probably slept no more than 20 hours throughout the week (thanks to bridge and supper and ktv).. But one thing that definitely stuck with me, is the advice given to me by the instructor... Slapped me right on my face. He mentioned that, if this job isn't meant for you, you should move on and not waste your time.

Actually at that very instant, I felt like he was saying it directly to me. For the past months, I've been struggling with thoughts about the job. To begin with, I do not really enjoy the nature of the work (being at the beck and call of the GRLs is definitely something I cannot stand, esp when some of them treat u like a slave) and I dislike the management style at work (to be more direct - I HATE my boss). I dislike the inflexibility of my work schedule, I dislike missing out on family events and friends' gatherings simply because my boss is too 'lazy' to make extra arrangements for me. I dislike being bullied at work (he refused to send me for my region's retreat simply because he needs to compensate me an off day if he did so..ass) and being thrown a whole shitload of work simply because the boss has too many emails that he needs to clear (just pure incompetency). I came to realise that I treasure my time with my family and friends over my career. And it totally frustrates me that the nature of the job is restricting my leisure time tremendously. Seems like I've listed enough reasons for me to move on....

I'm giving myself two months. Two months for change to happen within my workplace. If things doesn't change for the better, I'll move on....

Dreading each and everyday at work....

damnit...

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Stuck @ Nacli...

Not really in a blogging mood recently. Guess that explains the lag in entries...

Hm.. anyway, just a simple update.. KeY is currently stuck @ NACLI (some ulu place off pasir panjang road) for induction and will be stuck there till the end of next week. Oh well, it really isn't as bad as it sounds. Met lotsa fun people who are a bomb to hang out with... (of cos, to bully and to gossip with lah.. =P) and most of the activities are either brainless (just stone and pretend to listen to talks) or fun (which is a PERFECT fit with KeY's personality..). So, guess i'll survive...

Set a new record for my life.. slept only 9 hours in 3 days! (no thanks to gossiping sessions) LOL.. oh well, when there's fun, who needs sleep....

Okie.. time to start packing for another week of in camp training..

til then...

Friday, November 23, 2007

Back from Switzerland....

Finally got back after a looooong 12 hour flight.. Sigh, wasn't a very good flight back (nothing to do with the service tho), no thanks to turbulence and bad weather. But I guess I made it. Suffering from a little jet lag now. (fyi, Switzerland's 7 hours behind) Ended up sleeping 16 hours last night and that totally explains the reason why I'm still awake now. (It's way past my bedtime!!!!!!! dammit)

Anyway, Switzerland is fabulous. Gorgeous country. I loved almost everything about it - the people, the weather (i did quite like the cold weather actually), the buildings, the mountains and simply just the place. But one definite complaint I have, is the ridiculous cost of food. One simple meal, say fried rice and a bottle of coke, (per head) would easily come up to 15 franz. (which is approx. SGD18). This is insane... So guess we had no choice but to go budget most of the time. Seems like most Western countries have this issue...(pretty similar to my Aust experience actually, but at least water was cheaper!)

Besides that, everything else was great. And we were really lucky as there was snow!! Normally, it doesn't snow till dec and Mid november is just too early in winter for that. But guess God heard our prayers and it snowed two weeks before we arrived, leaving beautiful snow everywhere in Mount Rigi and Luzern! Hee... feels totally like X'mas out there. Loved it. Loved it. And Loved it.


Just a Glimpse of the snow at Mount Rigi.... (Feels like I'm at the Top of the world..)

I love it there....

Wished I cld spend a few years of my life there...

Oh ya, for those who may concern... (esp Chen Qiwei), no rice was fried once again... Thanks to really bad rashes I developed as a result of the cold and dry weather. Ended up itching like crazy every single night - where got mood to fry. Seems like I really should avoid cold or dry countries during my actual honeymoon.. LOL...

Ooops... too much information...

Friday, November 16, 2007

Surprise..

Out of greed and mischief, I demanded that Zim leaves me a surprise gift to welcome me on the day I arrive... (was expecting a scarf or glove or something along that line)

Hee.. and guess what Silly Zim bought me...

LOL...

a PS 3 controller..

ROFL...

What a sweetheart...

but a PS 3 would do a better job! (hee...just kidding!)

Thanks Zim... oh well, at least it means that a PS 3 is coming our way..

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

Greetings from Geneva...

Yap, touched down in one whole piece! In fact, it was a great flight, with really spacious seats and of course, Kris world and a really nice lady sitting beside me. Well, a truly SQ experience indeed. =) (Definitely a contrast from my last flight, for the better of course.)

Anyway, leaving Geneva for Zurich is less than 12hours. Hee, pretty much enjoyed Geneva - Gorgeous buildings, GREAT shopping (kinda busted one tenth of the $$ I brought at H&M) and of course, great food (CHOCOLATE!) and wine. The only downside is probably the weather. Temperatures have been about 2 degrees (or less) and the extreme strong winds are real killers. But other than that, I'm enjoying myself right now! =P (Zim's been a darling so far!)

Had a little accident on the first night though. Quick summary:
Dozed off watching TV while waiting for Zim to return from his conference. Suddenly, a hard banging/knocking at the door woke me up. (Kinda jumped in surprise) So I jumped off the bed and ran towards the door, hoping to open it before the person leaves. However, while running towards the door, I scratched the bottom of my feet against a metal piece on the floor. The accident kinda scraped off a piece of skin and blood was oozing out. (yeah, it really hurts too). Ended up limping for one day.. T_T . Pretty much healed now but still.. it was a painful incident. TMD.

Anyway, on a side note. Realized I got a missed call from my boss (TMD.. I'm ON LEAVE LOR! wtf).. On one hand, I'm a little concerned and anxious to know what's up. On the other hand, I'm a little irritated as I'm afterall half way around the globe, and I'm pretty sure that it's not really something urgent. IDIOT.

Oh well, shan't think too much about it. Hee.. can't wait to get to Zurich. Hope it will snow over there! (erm, though it's a little bit too early into winter.. LOL, but still... a little hope doesn't kill!)

Till then...

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Time to go...

One last post before I head over to the airport...

Starting to feel the excitment ... and of course, the fear of the long flight.. Luckily, I checked out the inflight entertainment earlier at work and found several interesting movies that I'm really keen to catch! (hee.. stardust!!! Transformer!!!) And of course, brought a book, brought my ipod (equipped with a half a dozen of South Park episodes) to help me cope with my anxiety.

Think I'm pretty much done with packing (and so I hope).. Hee. oh well, as long as I've passport, some money and ah ping & ah pong, I thnk i'll survive!

After slogging off my ass for the past two week, I'm finally on my way to find my love. Hee... will be back in just 9 days...

till then..

tata..

Monday, November 12, 2007

All I want for X'mas...

Hee... I know it's a little bit early to discuss this.. but I've already decided what I want for X'mas!

I want a ...*drum rolls*... PS 3!

KeY Chants: PS 3...PS 3... PS 3... PS 3...

Got the hint?

One more day...

I'm just one day away from Geneva...

One day away from Zim...

Almost there...

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

One more love of my life...

I'm sorry for putting you guys behind my greyed pigs... but you all know... 我是爱你们的!


Thanks for being there with me for my ups and downs.. (hope I've been there for urs too)

And... yeah... I'll try my best to get married sooner to free up one more space for Ray and Sissy... (you get my point..)

I love u guys!

你的花心程度?

Bored at work.. so i did a little test...

Felt that it's pretty accurate..

你的花心程度很低, 不过有时也会有移情别恋的念头,但是你并不想背上背叛情人的罪名,所以不会这么做。 但是你很容易错将对友情当爱情, 容易因关心而发展出爱情,所以你要事实理清感觉,别把友情与爱情混淆了。

Guess I needa stop having anymore distractions...

I hate distractions!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH...

Monday, November 5, 2007

From a friend...

From a good friend... to me and Zim...

"Luv’s story there’s a plenty. The ONE that you’ve been searching for has imprinted your heart everlasting and for an eternity. Together, the luv boat is gonna rudder down the never-ending stream, in the sweeteest symphony and unbroken PROMISE."

thanks for your blessing...

and thank you god for such a great friend..

Two sides of a coin...

I like being alone... Being alone gives me the space I need to think about things that's happening in my life... about decisions I made, about situations I met and about anything else under the sky... I like being alone, not having to think about what to say to others around, just being silent, indulging in the wonderful music my ipod plays, and being drawn into the meaning of the songs...In addition, I especially like being alone in a crowd.... It's an amazing feeling - people walking by you as if you don't even exist there... Nobody caring about you... and you're feel to do whatever your want..(to a certain extend of course)..

But, on the other hand,

I dislike being alone.. When I'm alone and given ample space, I would start evaluating my life... When I start thinking about things in my life.. my imagination will run wild.. I would wonder if things I did were right, decisions I made were sound and of course, lotsa "what if" in my life. I would start to ask myself questions and doubt decisions I make... and it scares me... It scares me to think that I might eventually come to realise that some of the decisions I've made were actually huge mistakes..."What if" questions are the worst of the lot. They make me discontented with my life and wonder about things I probably shouldn't have done, or about things I might actually have if things haven't gone the way they had... I would start thinking about my life in general, about what I want to achieve and what I have achieved (which is probably nothing great).. and start to realize how insignificant and sad my life had been, blah blah, blah... In conclusion, I would probably sink into depression if I'm given too much time and too much space to think too much.. Hence, I need someone/something to occupy my time and to distract me from thinking things through too thoroughly...

Guess till date, zim has been my buffer in this aspect. Our stickiness kinda took up most of my 'alone' time. I would just whip up my phone to give him a call when I sense my imagination starting to stir. And it sucks that he's not around, (though still a phone call away, but the rates are a hell lot of difference).

Wish he would be back soon...

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Charcoal pills...

Time to stop my blogging diarrhea ... (though I still have quite some thoughts to share..)

LOL... took my charcoal pills and temporarily stopped my blogging diarrhea...

Till tmr!

Die la.. Me still needa wake up at 7am

Stares at clock. (Reads: 2.12am)

Siao liaoz....

Friday, November 2, 2007

Blogging diarrhea....

It's been a while since i feel so much urge to blog so much....

and today is the day.....

so pardon me for my numerous entries!!!!!

Preparation for Geneva...

Hee... Starting to make preparations for my trip (countdown.. two weeks to go..).. Been shopping for some winterwear... been printing out tons and tons of information on geneva (thank god for office printer) and been speaking to Zim's mom (who's a real darling) who has been giving me great advice on how to get around (hee.. she went there last year..now it's my turn!) Excitment is definitely is building up!!!

Anyway... went for a shopping trip with my mummy to buy some necessities (maybe not so..) for the trip! Enjoyed going out with her, afterall .. it's been a while since i played my part as a daughter...


Auntie Loo sponsored this~Ski-ing Gloves for the snow (on the mountain top!) and a snow cap to keep me warm!

While, Poor key burnt her pocket on this...

Well...of cos, not without sponsors =). Thanks my dear sistas..Your KeY's birthday donation fund will go into footing the bill for this luggage! And thanks to Uncle Loo, who generously paid for 1/3 of the luggage. So effectively, I only paid... hee.. do your own math! =P

So, to reward my mummy for accompanying me and paying for my gloves and cap.. I decided to give Auntie Loo a gift!

Hee... bought this using a $50 voucher that I won using my UOB lady's and of course, with a bit of top up! Hee.. hope mum likes it la.. at least she's using it now.. =)

Oh well, that's all for the shopping trip with mum! Still needa buy a set of long johns to keep me warm...

Meanwhile, KeY's feeling... Excited!

Leaving on a Jet plane...

It's weird how different I feel each time I enter the airport...

Been there countless times since last year and each time.. it felt different...

May 06 - KeY's leaving for the states for three months...
Bunch of really sweet friends came to see me off and of course, the feelings were mixed. On one hand, I was really excited and was looking forward to being in the states for 3 months, yet on the other, I couldn't bear to leave behind my friends, family and especially Zim. I couldn't even look Zim in his eyes without the urge to cry... At that instance, I blamed myself for making the decision of leaving him behind for so long... (Though here I stand today, feeling that the best decision I had made in my life was to go for that trip!).

Feeling: Extreme sadness...

April 07 - Trip with Honors classmate to HK
No extreme sadness of course, Lotsa excitment.. Going for a graduation trip with such a big group of friends was definitely a first for me! But the sad part of it was that, while everyone appeared excited and happy about the trip, there was a nagging feeling deep inside everyone's heart/mind knowing that everyone will go their separate ways after the trip.

Feeling: Emptiness that was temporarily disguised by excitment...

June 07 - Australia Trip with Sis and Buddy and of course Zim
Hee.. of course, there was genuinie excitment while checking in my luggage! Afterall, it was my first trip to cairns and sydney and Zim baby was with me! (YEAH!) With Zim with me and two of my best friends too! It was definitely a trip worth looking forward to! And indeed, it was one trip I really enjoyed!! (Not so sure abt the rest tho) =P

Feeling: Anticipation!

September 07 - Zim comng back from Indonesia
Hee.. Zim went on a working trip for a few days and I decided to pick him up when he returned home. Waiting for his flight to land and for him to get out felt like forever! Felt so good to have him in my arms again! Guess I really missed him while he was gone..

Feeling: Longing for him.... and when he was in my arms, it felt so heartwarming...

November 07 - Sending Zim off for Geneva..(two weeks apart)
Oh well, was unsure if I was going to cry anot, LOL (believe it anot, the first time we were apart, for a mere 2 days, I cried each time I thought of him or heard his voice. And guess where he went - Malaysia. -_-". Forgive me, that was erm... 2 years ago la) Afterall, we will be apart for 2 weeks this time. I was surprised that I was rather strong.. No sadness, (maybe a tiny winy bit) more of a "I'll be missing you" kinda feeling.

Feeling: I'll miss ya~

Oh well, going to the airport once again in two weeks time... I can pretty much guess how I will feel - Dread. The thought of flying alone for 12 hours, transit for 2 hours, internal flight for 2 hours, makes me wanna puke already. Oh well, I'll get by....

KeY's leaving on a jet plane soon...oh, but I know when I'll be back again- 22nd Nov....

Dempsey...

Call me 'sua ku' but after soooo long, I finally made my way to dempsey road...and i'm totally in love with that place.

It reminds me sooooo much of cairns... dimmed lighting, restaurants at both sides of the roads.. and so many pubs... It totally rox!

Anyway, went with Zim to Prime Society for his farewell dinner (he's leaving for Geneva for two weeks before I join him)....



Think the place is abit overrated. The ambience was nice, (I love the decor, especially the mirror image at the entrance).. Service was good. But, I personally thought that the steak wasn't fantastic. The calamari was acceptable and soup was nice. Nothing too wow though. Guess Zim kinda brought my expectations too high. But still, overall, I wouldn't mind heading back to Prime Society again... (maybe with friends, but probably not specially)

Checked out their dessert menu and wasn't impressed...hence we decided to go restaurant hop... and guess what we found..
the ultimate dessert place:


I totally adore their chocolate cake...cos the chocolate syrup oozes out... yummy.. Cheesecake was kinda too sweet.. but oh well, i'll let it pass since it tasted really cheesy (I like!).

That's it for my first experience at dempsey! Hee... but the very next place i'm aiming ..is Oosh... Shall pop by for a drink sometime soon.. any takers?

Life just isn't fair....

Something happened at work today and that was really discouraging... Can't quite explain here (needa cover my own ass la)... But still, I felt really confused. What I learnt today contradicts my own principles. Seems like standing up for your own rights and beliefs might not necessary benefit you all the time, especially at my workplace.

And that really sux.

It sucks so bad that I can't help but feel really helpless and angry. Angry that such things can actually happen in front of my eyes (it feels so 8pm drama serial) and helpless because there is really nothing I can do. Confrontation will just make things worst.

Guess I just have to learn to be more tolerant and learn to control my temper better. (Quit snapping at people so quickly - though I suspect it's in my relexes...sigh~)

Sigh.. waiting for another door to open in my life so that I can walk out of this room and lock the door up forever....

When will that ever happen?

Sunday, October 28, 2007

PMS...

Been getting really bad mood swings for the past week. Must be PMS. Hate it!

The usually friendly KeY ended up really irritable, impatient and quick tempered. Sorry to those who got hit by my mood swings as a result of stepping on my toes. (Though some of them really deserved it.) Just wrong place, wrong time, wrong person la.

Maybe (for your own safety) you should avoid KeY during the end of every month. That would save you from her mood swings. Oh well, at least on the bright side, my mens came, and mood swings are OVER! Wheeeee~ So not looking forward to end of the next month. Guess I really must learn to control my mood better during this period... Sigh~

On a side note:

Zim's leaving for geneva on wed late night. Feeling a bit low as I won't be seeing him for ... 2 weeks? Been a while since we parted for so long. And I'm unhappy not just because of I'm going to miss him, also because he'll be out of the country probably enjoying himself while I'll be stuck in the shithole at work. TMD.

Can't wait to be there myself!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Nasty KeY @ work...

I admit that I'm a really spoilt kid. After all I have the luxury of having cars available for my use most of the time or someone (usually my grumpy mom or my grumbling Bro or the lovely Zim) to pick or drop me off. As a result, I'm rarely a commuter of publc transport (esp. buses...)

Decided to head to the gym today afternoon. One of the rare few days when neither cars are available, hence I've no choice but to settle for public transport. And the experience really 'made' my day...

Waited for approximately 5mins before my bus came, fully packed with school girls (to be more specific - my juniors) way to the front door. Managed to squeeze my way up though I could barely balance myself. I figured, maybe I'll scan my ezLink card after the bus moves off and after I'm sure that I won't lose my balance due to the sudden movement. Before long, I realized that the stupid bus driver actually refused to start moving until I scan my card! In fact, he stood up, pointed at me and asked me to scan my card (rather rudely too). Gosh! Was that even necessary?!. So effectively, the whole bus was waiting for me to scan my card. WTF. Was he worried that I would cheat him and hitch a free ride? I could do better than that lor. honestly, I felt really insulted. But whatever, did what he wanted else the bus would probably never start moving.

So I stood at the steps, with my hand holding the pole at the side to maintain my balance (and of course, feeling really really pissed off). And when the next stop came, he STOOD up again and told me to remove my hand and refused to open the door till I did so. TMD. I'm not stupid. I obviously know what to do when the door opens and for goodness sake, my hand wasn't even in a position where the door will trap it. Asshole. Worst of all, that added on to my embarrassment and frustration.

Thank god the crowd moved and I was finally out of the view of the bus driver. Now he can stop picking on me. Idiot. Meanwhile, I could really feel the anger and injustice bottling up inside me, screaming for an outlet for release....

Finally arrived at my stop. I was getting ready to get off when the old lady sitting in front of me (I was standing) got up and started to move towards the exit slowly. (this I can understand, as she wasn't exactly very mobile on top of her old age.) Concurrently, an old auntie (who's obviously much more mobile) behind me got up and started pushing me, trying to get me to move faster. Typical Singaporean Auntie who's kaisi and worried that she won't be able to get off. Idiot. I was fuming, On one hand, I did not want to knock into the old lady, on the other hand, I really can't stand people who push me (be it at the MRT station and on buses). And oh, not to mention that I was in a bad mood to begin with.

SO.. nasty key came to work.

I turned back, stared at the auntie and raised my voice (plus I was listening to my mp3, so I probably spoke louder than I intended) saying: 不要推了, 我也要下车!Guess that probably stunned her as I did not recall feeling her push anymore after that.

Oh well, I admit that the auntie was just an 'object' of displacement. I simply displaced my initial anger on the next thing that came along. And too bad for her, she stepped on my foot. Though the incident didn't quite appease me as much I wished it did (Jogging @ gym did, thankfully), I did feel slightly better!

Did feel a little guilty for being so harsh on that auntie. But I'll definitely say the same thing to her again, maybe softer and probably rephrase it a little. (I'll try my best la~)

Overall, the experience reinforced my negative image of public transport -especially buses. I conclude, I'll just not be lazy and walk to the train station in future.... (well, at least it's good exercise too!)

KeY's wish came true...

Yap. It's all finalized. KeY's little wish is finally coming true. (Not without a fair bit of emotional blackmail =P.. poor zim)

But anyway, budget's set aside =) and leave approved! Now I'm all set to head over to Geneva for 4 days and Zurich for another 4 days! Just needa settle my work (which isn't much to begin with) and of course do a fair amount of packing.

As usual, I'm dreading the 12 hour flight and transit. But the joy of finally being in Europe with Zim will (hopefully) be overwhelming enough to get me by the flight. Can't wait to take gorgerous pictures of cathedrals and museums (i know this doesn't sound very exciting.. but it's something I'm looking forward to!) and of course, sitting at outdoor cafes, cycling around the town and most importantly, put my really rusty deustch to use! think I better bring along my german english dictionary! (Just in case)

Anyway.. looking forward to my trip!!!!!!!!

And of course, thank you Zim for making my wish come true...(I really do appreciate it!)

Monday, October 15, 2007

Geneva...

Zim's going geneva again in Nov and I really want to tag along...

I dream of myself sitting in an outdoor cafe somewhere along the streets of geneva, slipping a cup of hot chocolate, reading a book and occassionally lifting up my head to check out the people walking past me in the streets. To simply just laze around the place, visiting museums, monuments and parks, strolling along the Geneva lake alone, waiting for Zim's work day to end before heading over to a decent restaurant and enjoy good steak accompanied by red wine. Holding his hand in the cold weather as we walk along the streets of geneva, discussing his workday and how wonderful it would be if Singapore would have the four seasons too. Window shopping in Malls and boutiques that sell goreous but sadly, unaffordable accessories.. and of course, shopping for gifts (probably in the form of chocolates) for friends and family and collegues... Just spend a week, just the two of us in a laid back country before returning back to reality...

Of course, in reality, dreams are expensive... Afterall, I only just started working... my pathetic savings can cover no more than the air ticket to Frankfurt, not to mention the transfer flight to geneva. In addition, going for this trip would set us back from our plans to go US next year.. Unless, I'm willing to eat air and drink water for the next few weeks, even months, it's gonna be financially impossible for me to pay for the whole trip (inclusion of air fare and expenditure and lodging). Spoke to Mom about it and she suggested that I could ask Dad to sponsor me. Honestly, I'm really tempted to do so. But again, I feel kinda bad, afterall, I am supposed to financially independent now. Maybe a loan from Dad might just work out.

Keeping my fingers crossed on another issue - whether I'm able to get 1 weeks' leave from work. Since I started working in the middle of the year, I'm only entitled 8 days of leave, of which I already took one. So thereotically, I could take up to 1 weeks' leave. But still, the CC operates on a shift basis and the absence of one staff would mean reduced manpower and thus, the rest having to cover up my duties. Although I seriously doubt that the CC will 'die' without me, I'm still a little concerned if my boss is willing to grant me the approval for my leave.

With so many obstacles in place, there's a high chance that my dreams ain't gonna come true this time round...

Oh well... that's life...

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Top five in KeY's heart...

Yap, I'm very eng today, finally got a good break from work and no friends to go out with =P... LOL... so I decided to update my friends on what's the love(s) of KeY's life right now...

Here it goes....

Number 5...

Something I cannot leave home without... KeY's ipod...

I'm a 101% music person.. I cannot imagine life without music... and of course, I absolutely hate travelling without music! Hence, I swear by my ipod! Was a X'mas present from number 1 (now you know who he is) and it's been with me throughout the past six months. when I'm slogging for my final exams, when I'm flying in the plane away from him.. at least this was what kept me company...

Was watching oprah just now (one of my sinful indulgence)... felt like she was endorsing ipod.. kept mentioning ipod here and there... Well, the main point is she was asking what songs the guests on the show were playing on their ipod.. Hee, Hm.. got me wondering.. what am I playing in MY ipod...

Actually..though I've a 30GB ipod... the amount of music I have is less than 1GB.. (sissy was complaining that I'm totally under-ultizing my ipod and insisted I swap with him so that he can do the ipod justice =P no way sista!) and the best part is... for the last 1 week.. no matter where i go... I've only 1 song on repeat mode... yes, which means.. I've been listening to the same song over and over and over again....

LOL... and the best part is.. I'm still not stick of the song.... =P

Number 4...

Latest addition into the Loo family...

Finally bought my own pair of blades... I'm sooooooo in love with her right now... (decided to use 'her' as she's afterall a womens' skates) I guess it's the sense of accomplishment that I bought them using my hard-earned money (though i seriously think i overpaid) and Of course, her gorgeous appearance and her ability to let me skate with speed...

Can't wait till my next blading session... wooo-hooo...

Number 3...

We have a love-hate relationship... Though it was love at first sight.. there were sooo many times when you pissed me off with things you can't do that other laptops can.. And of course, there are as many times you wow me over with the cute little stunts you can do that others can't... Hence, you are still number 3 in my life.. Can't imagine life without you..


*Laptop bag's a samsonite!! hee.. thanks to number 1 who bought it for me on a working trip to Indo.. That way..my apple baby can rest comfortably when I'm not using it...


A gorgeous red cover I bought in taiwan.. doesn't it just make my apple baby so chic?

Have to admit.. did spend quite a bit dolling the macbook up.. think i spent a few hundred dollars just to protect it...but honestly, each time I look at it... i'm totally convinced that the money's well spent...

I love my apple baby~

Number 2...

I was contemplating whether to put them in the first or second place... But after some thoughts..(and the possibilty that number one will sulk for a day if he ends up as number two) I decided to put my two little babies in the 2nd place...

If it's your first time seeing them, let me introduce.. They are two little PIGS. (I repeat, PIGS)... had them for 14 years.. came to me as my birthday present (well, mom forgot to buy me presents when I was 9, so before she came home from work that fateful day, she popped by watsons and paid $3.90 for one of them -ah ping. Few days later, she popped by watson again and saw one last pig left, and she decided to pay $3.90 again to buy it for me - ah pong..Guess if she had foreseen the attachment issues I have, she probably wouldn't buy them for me if she could choose again... ) Too late.. well, they came as little pigs that were bright pink in colour and even had a cute curly tail.. but after a few wash and a decade.. they are uniformly grey, and the cute curl in their tails were washed off...damn~

Definitely one of the most precious things in my life.. Can't believe life without them... Hee.. managed to catch them in action searching through Zim's pile of magic cards...

The one in green stripe is called Orson (aka Ah Ping) while the one in the brown white shirt is called Orwin (aka Ah Pong)

Believe me, I can go on and on about their personality and stuff... but to spare the readers the agony.. that's all I'm gonna brag about here... Hee.. moving on~

*Oh, and just if case you're wondering.. I'm definitely sane~*

Number 1...

Yap.. no surprises as usual... and of course, once again, formality...

But nonetheless.. he's the man behind KeY! Or rather, KeY is the erm.. woman behind him...(no chen qiwei, think straight).. Yap... been a great support (emotionally and of course, financially =P) for the past 3.5 years of my life and definitely many more years to come...

Maybe I should try to not ill-treat him so much... =P

It's finally here!

After waiting painstakingly for one whole month... it's finally here!

KeY's very first own credit card! Muahahahahahahhahhha

It's pretty exciting having my very own card finally.. at least I won't need to account to my mom each time i use my supplementary card..(the price to pay using a supplementary is havin' the need to patiently explain why you had to use the card, what you bought, why do you have to be the one to foot the bill for dinner blah blah blah... to the person who is going to get the bill, which in my case, is my mom...Definitely a process I detest) BUT! From now on, I have only to account to myself... and that totally rocks...

Presenting....

(thanks to zim who reminded me that I've to remove the serial numbers on my card.. I was so ready to just post the whole card online..LOL... stoopid key)

Anyway, no doubt I'm a little concerned about my lousy financial head... but thank god for my personal finance consultant -Mr. Zim, i've slightly more confidence that I will not overspend...

hee.. looking forward to using my UOB lady's card!!!!

Sunday, September 30, 2007

RA conversation...

KeY was supposed to be working...and erm, chatting with her beloved sista...

K: me sleepy leh... how?
S: yah loh.. haha... how come?
K: don't know...
S: last nite fry rice until too late isit? haha
K: pui~ i wished...
no room can?
S: wah...u wished? haha
quick go married, den everynite wanna fry rice oso can
haha, take leave to fry oso can
K: wah piangz...

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Seems like after knowing him for erm, let me count..8 years, he's finally starting to show his true colours....

At least the conversation woke me up....

*If you don't know what frying rice means...then it's better not to find out..=P*

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

KeY's latest craze...



I'm obsessed with Origins...

Totally obsessed....

Can't wait till my next paycheck....

So gonna buy a moisturizer from Origins to add on my goregous collection...

woo-hoo~

Family matters...

Feeling really frustrated right now... Mom pissed me off once again.. Sigh.. I really wished I could be much more patient with her.. but it's so difficult that I've almost gave up trying...As much as one part of me has already given up, the other part of me still wants to be a filial daughter.. and seriously, it's extremely difficult...

It's really draining...She doesn't seemed to want to listen to me... Did an errand for her, explained the situation and settled the issue... Yet She just kept asking me to do same stupid errand again and again and again even after I found out the answer...Just because it's not the answer she wanted, she kept asking me to repeat the task...For goodness sake.. I already went the exra mile to get the errand done in the first place and now she kept asking for more..

Aiya. don't know lah.. Really frustrated now that I can't even think straight (so if u don't understand what I just wrote, it's okay)... I just know that I'm really unhappy with her.. and seriously have nothing much to say to her...

Wish she could be more understanding and appreciative...

Or rather.. I Wish she would just leave me alone...

KeY's New Routine...

Been cultivating a daily routine recently. Besides catching my favourite animes on a particular website each night, there is one thing I need to do each and every night before I sleep....

Almost driving my cousin crazy with my new routine. I can almost swear that if I continue doing it for another couple of weeks, she's so gonna kidnap my ah ping and throw him down the rubbish chute.. but for now, I don't care... =P

My new routine is... *drum rolls*...- I have to play the MTV of <天冷就回来> every single night before I sleep... It's the aftermath of the musical "If there're seasons" lah.. I'm still totally infatuated with George chan.. (yeah, I heard he's gay, but whatever, I'm sooo in love with his voice...) and l shall repeat myself, I can't help but be in love with his voice!!!!! *Melts~*.. (Yeah, no surprises but yes, I would replay the segment in the MTV with him singing solo again and again...)

And of course, I enjoy torturing my cousin.. Guess it's called revenge~ Afterall, she has been torturing my little babies for the past decade, so it's time I pay back the debt... Definitely killin' two birds with one stone - first, I get to drool over my latest crush. Second, I get to hear my cousin scream: "Noooooooooooooo... not again!" ..

Muahahahhaha, only 1 word can describe this feeling...

shiok~

Sunday, September 9, 2007

'Evan Almighty'

Caught 'Evan Almighty' today... Nothing wow or exciting. Just simple entertainment. Simply a movie that you can do without.. Despite that, there was a scene in the movie that struck me at my face, caught me by surprise and gave me a wake up call...

No, I'm not planning to build an ark, though I would really love the company of the cute wild animals...it's obviously something more meaningful...


It's just that I've always believed in god.. Yet I don't consider myself a christian now.. I'm just someone that believes that god exists. Period. Although I'm often envious of devoted christians around me who have a relationship to God and able to 'talk' to him, I just hate the fact that the same isn't happening to me... I prayed and asked for faith time and time again, asked for him to 'talk' to me and for me to come into my life.. but it never came.. and, so, rather ashamed to say this, I gave up trying... I withdrew from him completely. I remembered that once upon a time, I was proud to say that I'm christian... Eventually, my answer went to 'sort of like a christian'...but now, I would simply answer 'freethinker'. Whatever little relationship I had with God faded off overtime and I feel totally detached from him now... It just seemed to me that despite my prayers, my faith isn't growing and my relationship isn't developing. Of course, the typical human nature led me to conclude that maybe it just ain't meant to be, although deep down inside, I knew that it's because I wasn't trying hard enough and sadly, couldn't be bothered to do so...

There were times when I really believed that it's going to work out.. really enthusiatic about my growing faith.. yet there were even more times when things just ain't happening as I've expected. It just seemed to me that he has nothing install for me.. Just as if, it didn't make any difference in my life whether I believed him anot. Life just goes on as usual...as eventually I chose to simply not do anything at all...

The message in the movie that slapped me awake mentioned that when you pray for courage, god does not just give you courage. He creates opportunities for you to demonstrate and develop courage or when you pray for love and closeness within the family, god doesn't just make your family closer and more loving, he simply creates opportunities for your family to bond and become closer..

I went cold.. it just struck me.. Maybe it's not that god didn't answer my prayers.. it's just that I haven't treasured the opportunities that he gave me to develop my faith and relationship with him. When I prayed for faith and for him to enter my life, I simply expected him to literally walk right in and 'talk' to me and with that I would be able to have a relationship with him that are similar to my other friends. Thinking about it, I can't help but wonder how foolish I was to have such a ridiculous and unrealistic expectation... Maybe he did give me soo many opportunities for me to open my heart to him, but I simply ignored that and instead even thought that he hasn't answered me at all...

It's amazing how things happen when u least expect it... Who could have expected that I could gain such a meaningful message from a dumb comedy... I have to admit it gave me a second ray of hope... I believe it's time I start from scratch.. To rebuild this faith and relationship all over again...

Maybe this time round, I might be able to reach the end...

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Work...

Pretty bad day at work today...Kinda tough discussing details here as i can roughly foresee several possible consequences. So, pardon me... just let me grumble a bit.. to let off some steam... to let me cool down...

I'm cooking a recipe for potential disaster. And the best of all, the killer ingredients are not due to my negligence... not due to my carelessness or anything within my control.. It's instead due to what people are doing or rather not doing.. People who are screwing up my work for me... people who are for some reasons avoiding my (numerous) calls... people who are just unreasonable and people who are not sticking to deadlines they promised me. It's not like I'm being unreasonable. I gave ample time and informed them way before.. yet things still can't be done...

i'm seriously frustrated. I detest the thought that I might be getting a scolding from my boss for screw-ups that were not directly caused by me. It's not like I'm not doing my work, not like I'm careless or forgot something. If I am responsible for the screw-up, I admit defeat and will gladly accept the 'punishment'. But I just can't take it lying down when the responsible party is actually someone else. I'm willing to go all the way out to complete the task, all I need is to get them on the phone to convey my intentions and I can't even reach them. Something tells me that they are avoiding my calls... and it's so irritating that there is really nothing I can do without offending them...

Handling people is definitely a challenge and for now, I'm not doing it right. At least it appears so... Seems like I'm going to spend my OFF day trying to get my hands on them... worrying if the task will be done...

Wished I have more control.. I don't mind doing extra work... I just need the required documents in.. I'm more than glad to do the sorting out no matter how messy the documents are.. Is it really that diffcult? I don't think I'm asking too much. It's just a simple request.

I'm not blaming anyone.. (or maybe I am) But I'm really frustrated with how little control I've on the situation... I wished I could do more... or rather, they would do just a little bit more...

Despite this, I'm definitely aware that there are others who do their parts in helping me complete my tasks on time. I appreciate and thank those who geniunely went all the way out to help... and secretly hope that the rest will just do the same...

One more day...

Hope he comes...

Saturday, August 25, 2007

A hell of a weekend...

Finally able to get 2 consecutive weekend days off... All thanks to my birthday that also falls on a weekend... Some logical, yet stupid unwritten rule at work forbids us to take consecutive weekend days off without taking the friday and monday off. So theoretically, you need to burn 3 off days just to get that weekend off. Sigh, gotten used to my fate and let's move on...

Started off the weekend with 2 persons KTV at Marina's Kbox. Amzaing how I was able to wake up on time for this...Been sooooo long since I went Ktv, kinda rusty already, but who cares.. LOL, nothing exciting, but it was fun...

Followed by, a fantastic musical: 天冷就回来 (If there're seasons...). Superb act. Although there were occassional hiccups, the whole story line was touching, sad yet fun. Of course, the actors were fabulous, with goregous voices that easily captivated the audience and acting that were full of emotions and life. No doubt KeY cried her eyes out.. (every single time 小静 appears, I will cry). It helps that I was familiar with most of the songs, hence able to digest the songs better. Of course, the Singapore style musical always include lyrics. So, no worries on that. In addition, the musical changed my views on several songs. I never knew 细水长流 could be sang with such a sad story behind it, reminiscing times spent with someone who has passed on, T_T. I didn't know that 天冷就回来's lyrics was so meaningful until the musical. Plus, I didn't like 陪你看日出 initially as the song was totally overplayed. But after the musical, I am in love with the song~

But the best thing about the musical experience was that we were sitting on the very first row. First time ever in a musical was I able to see the every details of the actors' faces. And it totally felt like they were singing and performing just for me. Sigh~I really wanna watch it one more time... but too bad tickets are sold out.. guess I've to wait till 2009...

Met up with my beloved sistas and brother for dinner and for a drink. Went over to Long Bar @ Raffles Hotel for a drink... Interesting place with nice decor and a different concept. Each table has a whole bowl of peanuts (unlimited). The fun part of the place is that you are free to sweep the peanut case off the table onto the floor, or simply just throw the case anywhere on the floor (or, erm, on your friends). So everyone was able to relax and had fun throwing peanuts @ each other. Though the variety of drinks was not fantastic, the overall experience was interesting... No photos with me though... Shall wait for Qian to clear her work before she uploads the photos (if ever)...LOL

Day ended with mahjong (damn, i lost $$, but thanks to Zim who covered my loss with his wins, tmd) and supper @ Prata place over beauty world, which was of course accompanied by a hell lot of juicy gossips...

But overall, thanks sistas for spending my last day as a 22 year old with me... LOL

Another exciting day tmr...

Happy Birthday KeY! =P

Monday, August 20, 2007

Wish List...

I know it's tough for you guys to get presents for me... But honestly, it's equally hard for me to think of what i actually want... Maybe it's the new earning ability, there isn't really anything that I want that I can't afford to buy... it's more like I'm too stingy to part with the money.. In addition, there's nothing I really really really, die-die must have... LOL...it's not that I'm contented with what I've.. it's just that, I can't be bothered to think and that there's nothing out there that's really amusing or attractive enough... so, for those who are seriously cracking their brains, I'm really sorry... think harder... =P

ALthough I do have some ridiculous wishes..

1. Return Ticket to US.... (New York OR LA will be good...) Open dates please, since getting leave from work is a painful process...
2. Tickets to musicals: Rent, Wicked & Hairspray... (Open dates too!)
3. A puppy... (this is on my list since forever... might remain for a lot while more)
4. A cute guy in my office.. some eye candy that I can check out... preferably looks like and talks like daniel wu..
5. A damn HDB flat... (it's not that I don't wanna get married, it's just that our beloved government isn't releasing enough units.. so poor zim & key have NO place to stay..so get married for wat~)

Okay okay.. I'll be more practical...

1. Erm...
2. Erm.....
3. Erm.......
4. Erm.........

Sorry guys... tried my best...

Last words: Use your creativity... (oh, and... erm... please don't hate me....)

PS: Zim has no clue either, he won't be of much help~

^_^

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Stoopid KeY @ work...

Did something real stoopid today...

waiting for judgement time....

Feels like shit...

and

i wanna cry....

Monday, August 13, 2007

Public Transport...

4 main reasons why I 'LOVE' taking public transport..

1. Waiting at the bus stop allows me sooo much time to enjoy the breeze (which is often a combination of really hot air and pollution from numerous exhaust pipes) in the wonderful sunny Island..

2. Buses never fails to meet and stop at every single red light possible...(wow.. gives me sooooo much time to appreciate the wonderful Singapore scenery, isn't it puuuurfect?)

3. TV Mobile plays sooooo loudly that I can save batt on my ipod since I can barely hear the music from my ipod... or at times free techno music blasting from other passengers' phones.. so sweet of them to share the 'wonderful' music with everyone...

4. It's a great place for exercise as there are barely enough seats for anyone, hence I would normally stand throughout the trip, oh all thanks to aunties that would so considerately hog two seats. Guess they knew i needed the workout... Great workout for calves indeed...

So 'looking forward' to my next bus ride...

Friday, August 10, 2007

I've got mail....

It's been a long while since I received a personal mail... A mail that doesn't tell me how much I have left in my bank account, a mail that doesn't tell me about the perks that the company is offering or a mail that doesn't tell me my lousy grades for the semester. Just a mail that is for me....

No, Will, the mail didn't get lost on the way to me.. It just took my mom forever to check the mailbox. And either way, it doesn't matter.. THe mail got here way before the deadline...



Have to admit that the card came at a timely moment.. Was feeling rather confused, scared and worried about an incident that took place earlier. But interestngly, once I saw the card, I was instantly comforted and started to feel happy.

Thanks for the kind gesture... Just a simple card's able to warm my heart and make me smile...

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Thanks Will...

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

27th June 2007...


Hee... Zim popped the question...and Key gave her answer...

"yes I do"...

Saturday, August 4, 2007

Loooooooooooongest day at work...

Today... i effectively worked 16hours.... As nasty as it might sound.. it wasn't that bad... Made a couple of new friends..and of course, got by time by fooling around with my collegues... Minus a couple of small hiccups here and there... Things went pretty well..and the major event of the year came to a close.... Although it seemed like a looong day, time did pass pretty quickly... hee..

It's cute how things went... and I'm starting to like my job more.. Feels like I'm back to my PL days.. as a prefect who has to handle prefect's installation (can't remb how to spell liaoz), managing things from booking the caterer, arranging the tables/chairs (in a MUCH greater scale) and of course, clearing up when done.. All the stacking of chairs, piling of table tops, picking up of rubbish reminds me sooo much of my PL days...

I'm glad I took up this job... cos it brings back fond memories..and it feels as if i'm not working.. more like doing what i liked...

So much for a long day.. really drop dead tired right now...

Good night peeps....

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

KeY @ work....

Been two days since I started work... so far so..boring... As my superior was on MC, there was no projects/jobs assigned to me... Sigh.. so I have been spending the last two days staring at my really slow computer and trying (read - TRYING) to read some Policies & Procedures of the operation. The environment's pretty fun - people that I can talk to.. though I heard that my superior is rather demanding, which scares me a bit! Hopefully she's not as scary as they make her to be.. and hopefully I am able to meet her expectations! *Breathes in... I believe I can...

Hee...the best part of the job is that - Not only do I NOT have to wear uniform, everyday at work is like Causal friday! Hee... I can wear berms, three-quads, flip-flops and birkes to work! LOL.. isn't it brilliant.. Not only do I not have to buy office wear, I've more excuses to buy causal clothes and a new pair of birkes!!!!! Hooray...

However, seems like my work schedule isn't really that fantastic... apparently, although I'm working 5 days a week, one of the days have to be on the weekend, so effectively, I've 1 day off on weekends, and 1 day on weekdays... And it's divided into two shifts - one from 8.30am - 6pm and the other from 12.30pm - 10pm... Which means, I might have less time for my friends and family.. but oh well, things will work out I guess... Hee, at least I still managed to fit time for my facial... muahahahahhahaha...

Oh well, hope tmr's a better day!

Sunday, July 8, 2007

我毕业了!!!!!!

After slogging my ass off for four horrid years... I finally reached the finishing line! As from 8th JuLy 2007, Ms Loo Ke Ying is officially a graduate! I have finally graduated from NUS!!!!!! Weirdly, I don't really feel the sense of accomplishment (so what if I'm a graduate... no big deal)..but a huge sense of relief! I'm finally free of assignments, free of exams and free of lectures... Rather heartlessly, I do not feel a sense of sadness upon graduation and I DO NOT miss NUS a tiny winy bit... Okay, probably just my hons class, but honestly, that's all...

LOL...

Anyway, managed to drag myself to the convo (nearly chickened out the night before) and hee, surprisingly, had a great time taking pics with my friends...

So here it goes...

A HUGE THANK YOU TO....

1. My beloved Sistas!!!!

Dear ray ray, although you couldn't make it there, we still left a place for u!!! Your punishment for missing my convo is to photoshop yourself into the picture!!! Remember to send me the photoshopped version k? And hopefully, we'll get a full attendance at our very next convo - either yours or Qiwei!
Dear Qian, thanks for babysitting BRAD... LOL, he seems to like u leh...=P
Dear Qiwei, thanks for being the bag bearer + occassion photographer...

2. ChuYun, Joyce & YItch!!!

Definitely my favourite series of pics during Convo.. Thank gals for coming down specially in your gown to take pics with me.. And of cos, we shall keep our gowns ready for the guy's graduation!!!


Thank you my dear ex-abusive-husband, Mr. Cheng Yichiao for sacrificing his work to grace the occassion!! Can't wait till it's gonna be his turn for convo... We girls are waiting~

3. Bball gang!!!!!!!

Sorry for boring you guys but a HUGE thank you for simply just being there!!!! =)

4. Dearest Auntie Loo

Thanks Mom for being there... sorry for neglecting u quite a bit.. But, I hoped i made you proud by being there, by finally becoming a graduate and for finally able to support myself financially! Thanks Mom!!! And of course, DAd! Though you couldn't be there, thanks for all the support and care you've given me! I'll do my best to be a filial daughter in future!

5. Erm, rather expectedly, Dear Zim

Thank you for being Mr. Photographer for the event. Thank you for Dear little BRAD (the cutie forever friend grad bear) and most importantly, thank you for helping me do most of my assignments!!! (oops... =P)

To every single one of my beloved friends who made it / couldn't make it, I heart you! It really warms my heart to see you all making the effort to come see me and all the congrats and blessings given!!! You guys are the best..

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Friday, July 6, 2007

Bad SQ experience

"Singapore Airlines is an exceptional way to fly. Our world-class service and state-of-the-art aircraft have contributed to our success. Experience a whole new way to fly in comfort and leisure with First Class, Business Class, and Economy Class."

I was a believer. I always believed that even though SQ flights cost 1.5times more than other airlines at times, it's always worth the money... flying with security, good service, food and excellent in-flight entertainment. This was until SQ220 - my return flight from Sydney, when I realized that SQ is not perfect and that SQ does screw up too...

Started off pretty fine... I was really excited glancing through the inflight entertainment list as I was able to quickly identify enough movies/shows to accompany me through the torturous 7.5hours flight. Things started to go downhill after that...

Shortly after take-off, we discovered that the Krisworld system (inflight entertainment) was down... Over the journey of 7.5hours, my set hung probably 10times.. and they had to reboot the system up to 5 times, yet the efforts were furtile. Demand tV was down throughout the flight (so much for my initial excitment), I cldn't even play a game properly (without it hanging dozen of times) and all I could watch was video (extremely limited selection too) that ran on its own time (i can't even pee in the middle of the show without missing anything). As a result, I could only watch 1.5 movies, (oh, did i mention that my audio set was faulty and I could only hear from one side of the speaker, win liaoz la) and spent the remaining of the time, staring at the blank screen, trying hard to sleep and reading newspaper.

This is dumb. We chose to pay for quality and when quality was compromised, SQ did not even bother apologizing, let alone compensate... So much for world class service man....

I have heard complaints about SQ's poor service from others previously and used to disagree. But after this experience, my impression changed. The stewardess serving us was rude, gave a black face and even served cold towels. I understand that they could be frustrated by the constant complaints about the system that was down, but that doesn't give them an excuse to be nasty to us. We were as frustrated (or even more, after paying so much) as they were and hm... shouldn't they be trained well enough to handle the situation well?

Apparently not.

Several other factors added on to the lousy experience (to which I would not quite attribute it to SQ's service)

1. (I admit this is not SQ's fault, just pure bad luck for me) Two elderly that sat behind me had to use my chair to support themselves when they stand up.. So each time when I'm just about to fall asleep (after much difficulties), I would feel a HUGE tug on my chair that instantly woke me up. F.

2. The two elderly don't quite seem to understand english and seems a bit deaf... When the stewardess spoke to them, she spoke SOOOOOOOOOO loudly, I was actually woken up from my sleep... Win liaoz la...

3. Some stooopid baby kept crying and screaming throughout the flight...

Damn it....

It's definitely my WORST SQ experience..It definitely does affect my confidence in SQ's flight experience....

I'm soooo persuading Zim to submit a complaint letter....

Back from Australia

Just got back from my last trip of the year.... Australia.. Great trip - full of fun activities and great company... (details will be out later, if ever).. Now I totally agree with the statement that people tend to take things for granted... While I was there, I was complaining nonstop about the cold and greatly missing the sunny island... Now that I'm back... it sux.. the heat is absolutely killing me and I'm melting just sitting in my living room... and It definitely doesn't help when you're stuck at home with awful cramps... Now I'm missing the cool, cold weather....

What a way to spend my last week of unemployment - suffering in pain and heat... damn

Anyway, thanks to zim, who greatly subsidized my trip.. I was able to come back with money still in my pocket (this is something new!) and with lotsa good bargains! Of course, with extra weight too (what's new)... Expectedly, food in Aus was expensive! Each meal cost on average AUD$!0 even when its just a simple big breakfast... really really missed hawker food that seemed to cost next to nothing when I'm over there! Well, despite the cost, I still went on a Beef and wine spree in Aus. It must be the years of deprivation - not eating beef till a couple of years ago and not having the luxury of drinking wine - that caused the sudden addiction. Medium Rare beef as my main course with Red/white wine accompaning it became my favourite! (bad one too).. Sigh... oh well, now that I'm back.. guess it's back to rice and water... =(

One interesting/disgusting fact about australia is that Mineral water actually costs more than brooze... Amazing isn't it... AUD$2.50 for a normal 500ml bottle of water... what a killer... No wonder they love to drink...

So, now that I'm finally back, it's time for me to settle down and get myself into the working mood....and it's time to hit the gym again... gosh... i really miss cali~

Friday, June 22, 2007

What colour is my gown????

I hate to admit this... but i really sux...

Went to collect my gown this morning... Okay, I shall not complain that the queue too forever to reach me.. I shall not complain that I waited for almost 30mins before it reached my turn when I'm actually only 3rd in line... I shall not complain about how long it took for the 'cashier' to process my purchase.. I shall not complain that the 'cashier' did not even know how to type an email add...(she forgot to put "@")... I shall not complain that I wasted one whole hour just to collect my damn gown...

Anyway, the point is.. when I finally got around to collect my gown.. I was given a Pink band (or whateva u would call that)... okie.. At least that was what I thought I was supposed to get... Until the lady realized that I was supposed to get Orange instead... Honestly, I was not quite convinced that it's orange..Afterall, all my life, I thought that it's supposed to be pink... PLus, the coworkers at the counter won't exactly sure either.. (they didn't quite echo the lady's comment that it's orange).. and that kinda worried me..

Hence, I stopped to think who I could call to ask for help... Only 2 names flashed past my mind - PeiLing (my beloved sis who graduated from arts previously) and LOL, ironically, my dear sista who, erm, is NOT graduating this year, who is NOT a social work major and best of all, is NOT even a student in NUS... Couldn't reach PL (hee, think she's busy @ work) but anyway, as usual, my sista never failed me... LOL, he was able to clear my doubt --> so it's orange after all....LOL

Sista... u r the beSt! How can I ever survive without you!

LOL....

Thursday, June 21, 2007

I'm in love with.....

His voice.....

It's been a long time since someone's voice touched me so much that I wanna cry when I hear him sing....

and I did cry...

The emotions he has is so overwhelming that my heart aches when he sings a sad song and that my heart melts when he sings a sweet love song.... Maybe it's what he has been through that made him sing with such powerful emotions that it's just... (sigh, i could barely use words to describe how i feel when I hear his songs...)... so touching... I know I'm bad with words.. but his voice is just so beautiful... so perfect.... so.... nice...

He sings a sad song with so much emotions - sadness and pain that all i wanna do is to be there and tell him that he'll be just fine... Yet, with his very same voice, he could sing a love song with soooo much love and promise that I wished I was the person he was singing it to....

I started playing 背叛 repeatedly in the car initially as I really couldn't understand what he is singing (he sorta mumbles.) but yet his voice sounds so sad and painful that I could not help it but instead keep repeating the song to try to figure out the lyrics.. (and of course, the tune was nice)

When I finally gave up and checked it out online, I grew to love the song even more... The lyrics is so heartbreaking... The love is just deep (yes, I'm a sucker for sad love songs where the person who loved so deep would eventually choose to let go so that the one party will be happier..) and his voice totally conveyed the pain the person is feeling....

It makes me want to be there for him to console him.. to lend him a shoulder...

Decided to check out his clips on youtube.com... and OMG.. I just grew even deeper in love with his voice.. His live performance is just so breathtaking...darn...kinda wished I took notice of him earlier and made an effort to catch him live in Singapore...

I guess what his voice has that I can't seem to find in others.. is true feelings...it's as if each and every song is a part and parcel of his life... The story of each song reflects his past thus allowing him to sing each song with such emotions... Or maybe it's simply because he's a great singer... a DARN great one....

All I hope is that he will maintain his feelings - true and real, and his style in his future albums... So many other singers have been there and have since changed so much until they kinda lost what they were initially... I seriously hope he stays the same... I hope that his future albums would be as real and genuine as his first two....

His name is 曹格.

LOL... maybe it's the wee hours that made me say all these... and if u don't understand or totally disagree.. too bad for me.. but seriously.. I'm in love with his voice....

If i had a wish... I wish he would sing a song just for me....

If I had another wish... I wish he would have a small unplugged concert... just a piano and a small audience... a stage where he could sing all his songs in silence... a performance where I can truly immerse myself in..(rather than the terrible and noisy usual concert environment.. yucks)

Oh, by the way... OMFG.. he speaks in an accent~ (grew up in Canda & New Zealand...)

*Key melts into a pool of water...*

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

I am gainfully employed!!!!!!!

Finally went to sign my appointment letter today... (after a long month of waiting) Nearly died of anxiety in the process of getting to the location.....Firstly, started panicking at 1.20pm when I realized that I've nothing to match the pants that I bought and ended up spending a whole 40mins before I finally decided on what to wear (which was NOT the pants in the end.). Was about to leave home when I realized that I forgot to photocopy a particular transcript.. (that was at 2pm... I was supposed to reach at 2.30pm!!). After some thinking and turning into the wrong lane, I decided to abandon the last minute task of zapping the transcript and head down to the location directly. After driving for a mere 10mins, the no-petrol sign lighted up.

Fuck.

the car was low... as in, really low, on petrol....

sigh.... after a short panic attack, I decided to pia my way to the location anyway, keeping my fingers crossed throughout... and thankfully, managed to make it there, without running out of petrol!!!!

Anyway, after conquering all 'obstacles', I managed to arrive on TIME!! Was expecting ONE legal document or something like that which i can just sign and be done with... but instead, it was a whole chunk of forms (that needed some patience to complete) and papers.... So, anyway, the point is .... *drum rolls*... I'm GAINFULLY EMPLOYED!!!! hooray.... finally a load off my shoulder and I'm good to enjoy my trip in Aus...

Hee... anyway... got a piece of bad news.... sigh.. apparently, I've a uniform.. erm.and it's PINK...(yucks).. but whatever, for the $$, (breathes in)... I will live with it!

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Sigh...

I'm so pissed right now! So pissed with the fucking mac software... my stoopid macbook!!!!!! I can't understand why with today's technology, mac still can't perform several simple functions that windows does.....

1. The stupid itunes cannot even automatically convert wma to playable format!!!!!! Ironically, my windows itunes cld!
2. Quicktime can't seem to tell me what are my missing codecs in order for me to play a particular movie file!!!!!
3. My stoopid ipod is formatted for windows!!!!! So, i needa restore configurations (which means i lose all my playlist!) in order to use it for mac.... OMFG...

Spent the whole night trying (til 4am!!!) to burn Data Dvds for the Y Group... Firstly, it took so bloody long to burn each disc... (sigh, i forgive mac for it since each disc is abt 2.5G...) and out of which, 4 (out of the 14 I did) failed! Tmd.. wasted $2.40 of my $$$$$!!!!

The best of all... (FUCK), I woke up to discover that I've burnt everything in the WRONG format...some stupid HS+ that is ONLY compatiable for MAC!!!!!!!!! FUCK!...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@$!!##&%#%#$!^!%#!%$^#$&#^%!$%%

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Really feel like crying right now......

Sigh.. feel like slapping myself for choosing a macbook....

Friday, June 8, 2007

Experimenting with Gimp...

Feels a little handicapping trying to figure out how to use Gimp (a free software that allows photo editing...)....

But after the best method - of trial and error - the ever powerful, intelligent and capable KeY has it all figured out...

Muahahahhahaha.... managed to squeeze out a collage! (and of course, a playback of my USA days....)




From top left to right...

1. The outside of central library....
2. The inside of the magnificant library
3. Lunch break @ wallstreet...
4. (second row) Subway exit @ World Trade Centre.. (it definitely looks prettier than the actual WTC site..)
5. Picture stall @ Central park.. (always feel like slapping myself for not buying any of the beautiful pics...)
6. Statue of liberty, of course
7. (third row) KeY, KeY's Bro, Zim & Chunnie go to White castle!!!!!!
8. My favourite place - Times Square
9. BEST food place in New York (with really cute waiters of course) - OLive Garden...

Sigh.. I MISS new york.....

Okay, I'm missing the point here too... Anyway, I'm gonna applaud myself for my accomplishment - MY FIRST (of many more) COLLAGE using GIMP!

Hooooooray~

South Park....

After investing $160 on 2 seasons of south park, I came to realise that I've gotten my money's worth... It's amazing how I could actually learn from them! I am proud to say that my vocabulary has expanded and I've learnt TWO new words (slangs) after watching 39 episodes of South Park.

TURD [turd]
–noun Slang: Vulgar.
1. a piece of excrement.
2. a mean, contemptible person.

and

DOUCHE BAG
–noun
1. a small syringe having detachable nozzles for fluid injections, used chiefly for vaginal lavage and for enemas.

These shall replace my current limited vocab of SHIT and ASSHOLE... After all, after experimenting and scolding several people "TURD", I came to observe that most of them did not understand that word and instead gave me a blank look and a "What?!" respond...Thus, these responses reinforced my satisfaction of knowing that those I scold/curse (most of them) did not even know what's going on! all i can say... damn song~

As for now, the love of my life is none other than...

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Gownless... I will be..

@ a small gathering this afternoon...

J: "EY.. have you ordered your gown?"
ME: *blank look* "Huh...must order one?????? I thought 22nd June go collect and try on can liaoz??????????"
J: "Er, duh~ must order first and 31st May was the last day. (laughs~) I thought I'm the only one.."
ME: "Win already lor... at most both of us will be gownless during convo..."

Sigh... that's a sign that I need more friends... friends that can update about such idiotic and miscellenous details...

Tmd... I'm sooo gonna scream my ass off if I can't get a gown....

Sigh.. at most no gown lor...

TMD!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Back...(again...)

Okie... I'm back again... From Hong Kong and Taipei with my family! Honestly, the trip didn't turn out as bad as I imagined... Minus the fact that I'm currently gym-deprived (in other words, yes, I put on weight... but again, who won't with the wonderful food in Hong Kong & Taipei, duh...) and I'm also down with flu...

Besides the two shitty facts, I did kinda enjoy myself (though I can't quite say the same for my parents n brother... )... Interestingly, I took more photos than I thought I would! hee, and also managed to finally take a family photo after donkey years! WIll upload photos once I figure out how to use the apple's equivalent of adobe... Might take a while though...

Anyway, several things took place when I was away...

firstly, I got my final results.. and as expected, I got a second Lower... Honestly, I'm not that disappointed, in fact, I'm pretty cool about it... and even had a pleasant surprise knowing that I got an A- for my ISM! Hee.. thank god man... I really really thought I did a really awful piece of work and even anticipated a C! Thank goodness...

From the bottom of my heart~
Thank you (my dear supervisor) for seeing the good in the load of rubbish I submitted... and of course, I hoped that my contribution would be useful in your research.

Other than that... did so-so for the rest of my modules...Though I was a tiny winy bit disappointed in a couple of the grades... but oh well, what matters is that I've OFFICIALLY GRADUATED, with a CAP of 3.93 (cute, my cap actually went up by 0.01 this semester! WTF)

Secondly, PA called me again and upated me with the pay that I would be getting...(I'm not sure if I can post it online... but anyway, shall not do it..) The basic pay's pretty bad.. but on top of the pay, there'll be a monthly allowance that's pretty good though.. so my overall pay (both basic + allowance) would add up to be reasonable... But honestly, the main concern that I'm having, besides the pain, is whether or not I want to take up the job offer. I don't really know what I wanna do actually, and neither am I sure if this is the right job for me. The job sounds fun but again, the career prospect is really limited... It doesn't quite help when the pay's a little, weird... as in, I don't understand why can't they just raise the basic pay?

Out of curiousity and fun, I went for tarot reading and asked about whether I should take up the job offer anot... Interestingly, the reader interpreted my cards and came to a conclusion: That this job doesn't quite suit me...if I were to take up the job, I would end up having to change (either in terms of my character, or in terms of my interests or something like that) to adjust to the demands of the job. Thus, I would be better off not taking it up as there would not be much future prospects for me. She also added that I would not have a problem looking for jobs that are more suitable for me...

I would be lying if i were to say that the tarot reading did not influence me at all. In fact, it kinda added to my confusion as well as this uneasiness in me... I'm feeling uncomfortable about the idea of taking up this job as well as unsure of what I really want in a job... Gosh, I thought one more year in honors would give me a better idea of what I want in life, but after this year, I'm still at step one... I still have no idea what I want... sigh.... I really needa spend somemore time thinking it over properly...

Maybe god's telling me through the tarot reading (yeah, I can feel the christians screaming at me telling me that tarot reading's devilish) that this is not the path I should take... I want to believe that this is god's way of telling me what I should do....

I just want someone to tell me what I should do... I don't want to make my own decisions anymore...

Monday, May 14, 2007

Dilemma...

I got a call that woke me up from my beauty sleep...

Man: "Hi, is it KeYing?:
KeY: mumbling... "Yes"
M: "I'm calling from PA and would like to inform u that...
K: (in her mind... okie..calling to say that I didn't make it...)
M: (continues) " you have been selected for the job. So are you still interested?"
K: (breathes in and hesitates) "Yes."

Actually, I'm not too sure if I'm still interested.. After I shared my decision of going for the interview with several people in my life, I recieved mixed responses - most of ithem gave the 'duh' look and the 'what the hell are you choosing this job' look... With advice that it's not going to be an interesting or fun job and that hours will be shitty, blah blah blah... Someone also commented that I should find jobs that are more fun and more suited to my personality... (he was like, try the Zoo or something along that line..) In fact, I do agree with him, I can't imagine beng stuck on a boring job for the rest of my life...

so that places me at a crossroad, one way leading to a stable and secured job, another leading me to a road of uncertainty and risk, yet with benefits that could be greater than that of the other one... What should I do?

I'm so lost...

Back to Reality...

Back from Hong Kong... Oh well, not feeling much about it actually... There were ups and downs on the trip... Bad aspects of the trip (Maybe not that bad): I totally overspent and felt kinda lonely and bored during several periods on the trip, but of course, there were some Good aspects: I made new friends! (Got a BFF - best friend forever) and I managed to explore much of Hong Kong that I never had the chance to do so previously...

Interestingly, I experienced many first times on this trip even though it was probably my eighth or tenth time visiting..
1. Wandering on my own for the first time in Hong Kong,
2. Taking the Mini BUS,
3. Trekking on Dragon's back trail and sitting on the edge of the cliff..
4.Trekking from Sha Tin to some wulu place (I walked 10.68km!!! *Beaming with pride* and I even thought that I was going to die),
5. 'Plucking' (or rather, cutting) strawberries from a farm
6. First clubbing experience at Lan Kwai Fang.. (damn expensive but it was an eye opener =P )
7. Walking two really cute dogs (My cousin's) and feeling as if they were mine.. They are such darlings and that definitely reinforced my dream of wanting to rear dogs in future.. and it's getting me more excited in fact...

Definitely, these accomplishments pretty much outweighed the downs on the trip.. so overall, guess I'm rather satisfied with this experience..However, a little part of me feels rather sad as I return back to reality and back to my life in Singapore. Reason? Sadly, most of the friendships that I've build over the trip and the year in Honors class would end up being the 'annual' kind - We'll probably meet up with each other once a year.. Too bad I guess, but it's definitely better than nothing~ =P

Life goes on anyway... with friends or no friends.. I don't need a dozen of friends.. I just need a few good sturdy ones.. and they know who they are!

I believe that's enough...

Will try to upload my hong kong pictures...someday..(if it ever comes)