Friday, March 17, 2006
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today... i mean 16/3.. was slping whole day... woke up at 11+... switch on my computer and stare at my msn... appearing offline.. waiting for her to come online... my parents came back.. i have to eat my lunch... didnt fini it and secretly threw it away.. played a few games of dota.. and my fucking sis pull the plug.. no nid play lor.. i lock myself in my room.. staring at msn again... and i fell aslp... woke up at 11+... didnt eat the dinner tats on the table.. dunno y not hungry at all.. maybe tats the only way i can slim down... hai...
so much have happened.. i changed my blog.. no one noes about this address....
right now looking at her msn nick.. i dun noe how i feel... im so messed up right now... angry sad heart ache.. i dun understand at all.... as long as she thinks its best for us.. i will take it... tats why i respect her decision.... hai... i think u will forget me sooner or later.... hope that you can really find someone who loves you more than i do.... i noe i cant...
10/3/2006 the night the stars shone for us....
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
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When a guy who loves you,
noes you're not with him,
he will try his very best to keep himself busy
because if he doesnt...
he would be missing the girl he loves until he himself fall sick..hee..
The guy who loves you, will scold or
complaint to you, get upset and will be v craved for attention
when you didn't reply his messages..jus because he cares too damn much for you
The guy who loves you ,
will drop his tears only infront of you, no one else..
and when you are wipin his tears off,
you are touching not only his face but his heart too,
the heart which beats only for you.
The guy whom loves you,
always tell you not to think too much,
because he already plan it for you,
he want to give u the best life in the future
he want to give you a suprise,
so believe him that he can do it.
The guy whom loves you,
will go to airport to fetch you home..
he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you
darling like what you see in dramas..
but he will carry your luggage for you and ask with his most concerned and sincere heart his dear girl has been in anyway, mistreated, be it trival or serious..
The boy who loves you,
will quietly be there listening to you when you're getting so mad over something for hours..
and when u have finished your deal
he will jus say, dear girl...you still have classes going on tomorrow,
do sleep earlier alright? with a =)
The boy who love you,
always calls you a little kid,
but everytime he wants to make a big
decision,
he would first seek for your advice.
The guy who love you,
will still put tt teddy you gave him on his bed to sleep with,
even though when he does not like the idea of sharing his bed, jus because he knows it means something to you
He who loves you so,
he will apologize uncontrollably,
in the midst of a quarrel
even thoough you are the one who's in the wrong,
The guy who love you,
while missing you so badly,
would buy a bunch of roses and
wait for you under your apartment like a silly boy.
even though he doesnt know tt he actually have mistaken the bunch of daisies for roses
but it doesn't matter to him at all, cause in his heart,
that's roses meant for you..
GirLs in crush, love, do you think the guy
who's beside you do really love you?
if yes, wish you'll have the happiest day
ever after.
Chinn yi.. I really respecct wat u wrote here... duno u got it from somewhr or is it from how u feel... but i really respect it so im posting it on my blog too....
to me... wat u have said up there.. seems very true.. coz its wat i have been doing.. i dunno y... its exactly wat im doing.... anyone out there whose looking at this... dun let go of someone so easily.. coz u will never noe who will be the nex one who loves u this much... and to those who is in the same way as i am... dun give up.. no matter how much it hurts... its worth it to noe that someone u love is happy... =)...
im going off to slp now le... tml im going to work at cathay.. hais... anyone whose free.... plz call or sms me.... but call after 7.. i got free incoming.. =).... im going to be really dead working... no time for online le... maybe i blog and juz go off liaos.... so do remember to check back often.... =)....
hai... bye....
Monday, March 13, 2006
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yday got back from chalet at around 5-6pm. so tired...
first afternoon at the chalet.. we got there and started poker.. lol.. jocelyn so gong one.. dunno how to play dai di.. then help her a bit lor.. then always win.. LOl... i think*.. after tat.. i actually wan go prepare somethhing de.. but it think.. she wun have the time.. x.x ... so like tat lor..
after dai di.. played a few ps game.. i mean i brot the PS2 to the chalet.. zzz .... juz chatting and chtting.. then more pple came.. = more bullshits... hahas.. then we went for dinner.. after dinner i rushed down to bishan.. x.x... lol... coz i noe im going to be late.. then took cab back to pasir ris again... went back to chalet to get Sugar for her... hahas.. everyone inside was so nosy.. kip asking whr is my fren.. zz... so i juz ran out.. lol..
i think they caught a glimpse or wat only ba.. we walked to the pasir ris park and shes scared of ghost!!!.... lol... =x.. sat there for couple of hours.... looking at stars.. crapping about then got biten by ants... hahss..
im really really happy that u agreed to come down pei wo.. and i miss u alot after u left.. hais.. zhen de hen xiang ni..... nex time if hungry.. MUZ GO EAT HOR... =D...
hmm.. i noe tat you saw the ring on my finger... if u think its time for us to advance... i wan to see the other ring on yours.... =)..
during tat couple of hours... mostly its me talking bullshit and my stupid stuffs.. whr u nvr tok bout urself de.. juz kip listening and replying only.. so sad.. i wan to noe more about u... not juz want to noe ur afraid of ghost... =x... maybe nex time when ur really free bas.. hehes.. =D
after that juz went back to chalet.. then played PS2 and mahjonged for 1 day+ straight... all i can say is.. jocelyn is my lady luck.. hahas... hmm.. then everything like normal chalet lor.. juz tat after chalet on sunday.. we gone for dota... trashing game.. =x.. last match i use techie.. GODLIKE!!!.... hahas.. but still lose.. coz our hero is so messed up.. lol.. 4v5..then my team not so good de.. kip dieing.. so like tat lor..
i will kip playing dota... coz its a game tat made me found her...
samantha.. if u really hate that game.. tell him.. =)..
Thursday, March 09, 2006
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tml is friday.... hope it will be the most perfect day...
=)....
as sweet as sugar....
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
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this few days of no appetite and moodyness... i dunno y
but today... i totally break down... didnt eat my breakfast and lunch... but i have to help out at my parent there as it is fucking holiday... so i cycled there... everything was fine.. but when i reach there and got off my bike.. everything started to spin.. all i can hear was my own breathing.. my father was shouting at me... but i cant make clear ... everything was blur.. spinning.. messed up.. then i juz sit there... waitiing for myself to regain concious... wtf happened?... i duno... my parent say coz i didnt eat alot this few days...
hais... terrible headache now..
Monday, March 06, 2006
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all i wanted to ask was whether u really wan to watch with me or is it becoz i wanted so u asked me.... is it tat so difficult to answer?... u replied as if i did something wrong... does it mean u are juz asking for the sake of asking only?...
ur letting go of everything so easily... now i ask u... how important am i to you....
Saturday, March 04, 2006
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世界末日
想笑 来伪装掉下的眼泪 点点头 承认自己会怕黑
我只求 能借一点的时间来陪 你却连同情都不给
想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没 全世界 好象只有我疲惫
无所谓 反正难过就敷衍走一回 但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞
天灰灰 会不会 让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑 梦违背 难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁 也许事与愿违
累不累 睡不睡 单影无人相依偎
夜越黑 梦违背 有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁 或许颓废也是另一种美
天灰灰 会不会 让我入睡 夜越黑 梦违背 有谁安慰
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hai...
after thinking so much... ive decided... its most important tat your happy... so in the end.. this is all i wan to say....
im tired of it... it feels like everything is so different... maybe i juz have to get use to it.. i dunno... ever since the whole thing started... not a single day i was completely happy.. maybe like u have said... its impossible.. and u didnt try to make it possible too... it shows tat it doesnt matters to u at all...
after tat day.. hearing u say i brought about so much problem and suffering to u... it hurts me even more... from tat day on.. i feel tat wat u had said b4... was all gone.... every single thing you have said i remember...
we nid to noe each other more.. but is chatting on msn for hours but mostly is waiting for replies really help?... have you even tried to noe me?.... i noe you tried but your always bz...well, i noe i did but it also depends on how much ur letting me noe... watever the case... youve changed.. =)...
i dun hope for anything more any longer... most importantly u didnt ans my question yet...
to tell the truth.. i belif ur much happier with ur important frenz... and ive never seen a happy smile from u when ur with me.... so i think i shud juz stop all ur stress once and for all ba.. "as long as ur happy im happy"... i juz hope tat u will still remember wat u said when i say this.. and also everything else you once said b4...
you once said tat im most important to you, you can push everything aside for me... which turns out to be not true... you once said tat you love me.... its true but didnt last long...
im not forgetting you... juz kiping u in me... i dun nid to have u to love you... it juz hurts too much to try to have you... wat ever ive said.. i mean it... all i wan u to noe and remember is the 7 letter word tats in the ring.... its your choice now... i will be right here waiting for you.... dun stress le hor... =DD
do you want to have a future with me?...
have fun~.. =)..
