What if one day, i'm not of the same importance anymore..?
This feeling hurts me; i'm being such a possessive asshole but i really couldn't help it..
I'm sorry.. But to me the one being loved is of utmost importance and yearning/begging for your presence is just difficult to keep within myelf at these kind of times and it's really nearly unbearable if you don't try to cheer me up.. But thanks tho', cause you do try and that's why i love you, and definitely would continue if you were to continue to think that i'm worth your love and time.
I really can't stand the thought of not seeing you or the quietness from this fucking hectic life we, as students, have in this place..
I feel like screaming when i had to part with you every single time. why?! It feels as if a part of me is being forcefully torn away from me. The pain. The agony. The frustrations..
But i have to bear with it.
I don't know how much willpower you have to look like you don't feel anything at all during this temporary "seperation" but i do admire it.. but to be honest it hurts a little, and i have to force myself to think that you're doing this for our good because there would be a slight downhill to our relationship if things don't go well for your papers and it does make me feel a little better knowing the amount of effort you're putting into the relationship to stop it from being threatened. But a bite taken out of me still deal quite some pain.
Ah.. People too immersed in the life presented to us by society instead of seeing much of the life that we're actually living, and you're trapped between both forcefully. I hope there'd come a day i'd find a point in appreciating the man made-and-thought ideal life of materialism and help myself and you feel a little better thru tough but necessary times like this.. But for now please bear with me while i get tired of studying and shit like that.. i'm sorry :( But i love you and would always do as long as you're around..
now i've to go sleep because someone said so XD [that's why i love her ttm! ;)]
-Tired-and-empty-slave of the modern day society